#yet i am completely reliant on him

[immortalsins]

im so so tired jsjdhbj an engineering employers panel just scared me half to death with their startups and innovation and investment and passion commitment linkedin networking etc etc etc i hate it here

[ziorite]

which fucking queer sat down in the writer’s room for leverage and wrote the rundown job huh ??? HUH ???

why is hardison fist bumping his “best friend” about how hot his girlfriend is ?? why is eliot grabbing hardison by the back of neck, pulling him in with the most intense stare ever, and then doing the verbal praise equivalent of making out with him ??? eliot is an obviously traumatized self reliant prickly bastard, and yet he decides to throw away his crutches and completely rely on the other two for support ???

god take me now. leverage writers had absolutely zero business drenching this episode with all this polyamorous energy in the year of our lord 2012– hell gay marriage wasn’t even federally legal yet. they knew exactly what the fuck they were doing and i am kissing them on the mouth for it.

[erwinsvow]

rafe looks even cuter when he's asleep.

you don't know how the thought has never crossed your mind up until now—it's so alarmingly obvious to you right now. you stare—a bit stalkerish, even for you—but that doesn't deter you at all. you watch his chest rise and fall with each breath, the way he's completely crazy, sleeping firm on his back with one arm on your waist and the other tucked behind his head.

maybe rafe seems even cuter just because he's escaping all the stress of his real life right now—firmly asleep with hopefully nothing but nice dreams about you. and as much as you try to avoid it, you are the primary cause of all of rafe's stress. he worries about you from dawn to dusk, even when you try to convince him there's nothing to be worried about.

it's become something of a habit for him—taking care of you, making sure you're okay, even when he's not around. and you—well, you've gotten quite reliant on it. on him. you're not positive—but you think rafe likes it.

even now, on the verge of waking him up because you can't sleep, you hope he doesn't get mad. it doesn't stop you though.

"rafe," you whisper, pushing his arm softly, and then a little harder. "rafe. rafe."

he groans, eyes still shut. the third push has him blinking, staring up at the ceiling and getting his bearings.

"what time is it?" he slurs, clearly still half-asleep. "still dark, kid, go back to bed-"

"i can't sleep," you say a little too quickly, your restlessness presenting itself quite clearly. "please. i don't know why. i'm scared."

rafe closes his eyes, but then opens again, no matter how hard it is to stay awake right now. he sits up a little, propping his back against his headboard. when he turns to look at you, he doesn't feel so tired anymore.

you look really awake, like you haven't had an ounce of rest since the two of you went to bed hours ago. fiddling with the straps of your nightgown, you look up at him the way you always do—like rafe can solve any one of your problems in a minute.

and he likes it. rafe doesn't even try and hide it anymore—he loves it and loves that about you.

"what're you scared of, huh?" he asks, voice still thick with sleep. you breath in and out, trying to figure out how to explain.

"i dunno. i just am."

"okay," rafe says quietly. he closes his eyes for a few moments and then opens again. your lips curl into a pout automatically—you feel bad for waking him up. "how can i help?"

"i don't know that either. i just want to feel close to you."

"m'right here, kid-" rafe extends an arm around you, bringing you into his chest. you curl up against him like you always do, breathing in the scent of his skin and the warmth from where his hand rubs your back. but it's still not enough.

"i want to be even closer," you murmur, feeling a little more tired but not nearly enough to actually fall asleep.

"how d'you suppose i do that, hm?" you look up at your boyfriend—cuter still with his eyes closed like this.

"can't you just.." feeling surprisingly bold—probably from how wired yet exhausted you currently are—you sneak a hand over rafe's pajama shots, pressing your hand down until-

"jesus, kid. gimme some warning, huh-"

"what? you said you're 'never too tired for that', remember?"

"well, i lied. c'mon baby, just go to bed, i'll fuck you first thing in the morning."

"hmpf," you scoff, turning around and taking much of rafe's comforter with you. you don't have to see rafe to know what's going on—he's rolling his eyes and sitting up, probably has his head in his hands for a moment.

"jesus, kid. you're gonna kill me. c'mere," rafe says, turning you back around to face him with just one hand. your body flops next to him, staring up at rafe, seeing what he'll do next.

"we don't have to do it," you finally say, watching rafe move around in the sheets for a few moments. "can't you just... put it inside?"

"sure i can. c'mon," he says, and you climb onto rafe's lap as swiftly as you can. it doesn't take much—he slides up your nightie with one hand and pulls down his shorts with the other. you feel rafe prodding at your tight hole when he grabs at your tits, letting the skirt of your sleepwear fall back down.

"you just said-" rafe cuts you off.

"still gotta wake him up, remember?" you roll your eyes but they end up rolling all the way back. rafe slides in quickly—you almost fall onto his chest at the feeling.

incredibly full, realizing this is exactly what you needed, you let yourself curl back up against him. rafe's saying something quietly to you, one of his hands firm on your ass and the other on your back, but you can't even hear him.

"thank you rafey," you murmur, interrupting him without even realizing. "this is what i needed." rafe presses a kiss to your hair and you fall asleep before you even hear him whisper back.

[miyamiwu]

Initially, what made Blue Lock great was its concept of ego. It was fresh and never before discussed at length in a sports manga. The story also clearly presented a theory—“Individualism, and not collectivism, is what’s needed for the Japan football team to win”—and then slowly elaborated on that theory until it finally proved it true in the U20 arc.

The manga could’ve ended right after the U20 match and just leave the World Cup happenings to the reader’s imagination, but it didn’t. Instead, it sought to put the Blue Lock Philosophy against different philosophies all over the world in the NEL arc.

This is a bold and exciting move, but now the position of the Blue Lock Philosophy being Correct is constantly challenged. And with each match they play, believing Blue Lock to be the right way is getting harder and harder.

Snuffy is right. Ego alone won’t get you anywhere.

On the world stage, where all the top players are egoistic, you need to have more than just ego in order to win.

Isagi gaining metavision was a good writing choice because it elevated him to the levels of pros…but then it turned out that many of these pros have metavision as well.

When ego and metavision aren’t unique, then that leaves actual physical skills to be the deciding factor on whether you gain an advantage on the field.

And Isagi… is not the best player physically. He never was.

And that’s fine! He doesn’t have to be talented in that regard in order to compete… but the thing is, we also haven’t seem him doing any focused training on his physical skills. And I don’t mean regular Blue Lock hell training because everybody does that. I’m talking about Isagi picking one weakness he has and just focusing on improving it. He doesn’t have to be the best in it, but there should be some effort.

He’s not so good at one-on-one’s, so maybe he can work on his dribbling. Or maybe he can practice how to trap the ball better so he’ll have more shooting options and not be overly reliant on his direct shot. Or maybe he can do some strength/core training so he won’t be easily knocked away by Rin again. Anything!

But so far, there’s been none of that in the NEL arc. (He did practice on a “lefty shot” before, but that turned out to be a hoax and it was also never mentioned again after the Ubers match.)

And it’s funny because Isagi has no excuse to not do this.

Kaiser, whose kick speed already surpasses Noa’s, had the time to come up with a new shooting technique. He’s also a Talented Learner like Isagi, so if he can do it, why can’t our protagonist?

I’m all for Talented Learners winning against Geniuses through hard work because that’s objectively a good message to send… but there hasn’t been any hard work. It’s all just ego mind games right now. Isagi winning in such a scenario would be unfair and idealistic.

----

I’m gonna be honest with y’all, I’m very worried about how the BM vs PxG match will turn out. Blue Lock was what got me back to Tumblr and also what kept me alive through the depressive pandemic years. If the game ends with yet another Isagi win, I am going to be extremely disappointed because that would mean that the manga had completely turned into a powerscaling fantasy.

(If Ness manages to get any development in this match in spite of that, then I might still wanna stick around. But with only 2 chapters left to the end of the volume, hope is starting to feel elusive 😞)

But yeah… if Isagi wins (and there’s no Ness development as consolation), then I might just drop the manga 😞

[may-lutlone]

Hi! I wanted to ask about Joker’s morals in your accomplice au. In one of the artworks, it says that he’s manipulating Akechi and doesn’t intend on solving his palace. (If you want to) Could you elaborate on it?

Thank you for the ask �� I hope my explanation is clear, because I created this au mostly on visual vibes I wanted to portray. If there is a fic/concept of au/fanarts similar to it, then I am sorry for any coincidences. But I consumed so much shuake/akeshu media, I might have been influenced subconsciously lol

Yes, Joker is aware of the palace (it's not the first run it happened, he even experimented with it earlier), he utilizes it and lets it slowly grow overtime.

What I meant by that is - Joker's morals are gray as a graphite and murky as a mud. He uses Goro's perception of himself as a way to keep Goro in check. He has the whole place mapped out in his head. He knows when Goro gets too wary of Phantom Thieves (it's the first time when he decides to ditch them completely. Earlier, he tried to accommodate both Phantom Thieves and being an accomplice, yet it came out fruitless. The world reseted again), so he can "ease his worries away". He knows when Goro has impulsive ideas that would jeopardize the plan, so he tempers it. He knows whenever he does something odd, Goro gets wary - so he smothers him back to complying. All under the guise of being a royal, great advisor.

Joker is forced into the constant resets until he figures out a way to keep Goro alive. Why? I can't tell yet (I am working on it too). But, for example, it means he can't let him get to the authorities (since Japan has capital punishment). If he targets the same targets Goro has with changes of hearts, Shido decides that Goro is useless and gets rid of him earlier. Etc, etc

It's an elaborate trap, in some way, to keep Goro alive. But he had figured it out recently in the au timeline. In earlier runs, almost everything played out the same. But Goro still died and once Joker stepped on his train back home - he would wake up at the start of the year.

Even if the au is akeshuake, he also feels a lot of resentment towards Goro for how much he had to suffer. He is capable and will probably intervene in a way that would hurt Goro (or rather his psyche) so his plans go smoothly. He just sees the palace as a means to an end.

Joker even is aware that at first Goro sees him as spineless, cowardly and just weird (with the addition of some kind of burdening responsibility about making sure Joker fits in his plans), so in a form of retaliation, he slightly (later - quite visibly) tweaks the perception. He switches it so that Akechi is reliant on him. In some way. So they are even in a toxic way.

Additionally, although I am not sure how to tackle it gracefully yet, I think he does the same with Shido's Palace. After so many runs, he got letters required in the progression of the ship copied. Stacked in his inventory (yes, I know they don't carry to the New Game+, it's for au purposes only). In this case, Joker probably does it so Shido is not suspicious about why Akechi works with a guy he had sued prior.

tldr: so yeah, it's quite toxic, Joker is bitter from so many runs

[progg]

Chapter 402 Thoughts

Here are my thoughts on Chapter 402 of Hunter x Hunter, “Letter”.

Salkov

Salkov has been able to use Nen since birth. Given the discussion in the previous chapter, this all but confirms that he is one of the “strong curse sacrifices” and Beyond’s son.

Halkenburg’s Illness

On Day 10, Balsamilco describes his plan to poison Halkenburg.

At 8:50 AM on Day 11, Melody reveals that Halkenburg has fallen ill. This could be the result of Balsamilco’s poison.

The Plan to Assassinate Luzurus

Kacho discusses assassinating Luzurus with a disturbing lack of empathy.

I felt a bit uncomfortable reading this!

Melody doesn’t flinch, though she expressed discomfort with assassination in Chapter 400. 

Another relevant scene is Oito’s reaction to Momoze’s death in Chapter 368, where she criticizes Babimayna and Kurapika for their lack of empathy in the Succession War.

Despite the grisly discussion about assassinating Luzurus, the prince is portrayed mostly positively in this chapter. He is absolved of blame for Fugetsu’s condition and shows sympathy for Kacho’s death.

In Chapter 362, Nasubi claims Spirit Beasts “cannot directly attack” other people with Spirit Beasts. However, the traps laid by his Spirit Beast may qualify as “indirect attacks”. It’s unclear.

Luzurus also expressed admirable views on rehabilitation to Basho in Chapter 366. Meanwhile, Kaiser is planning to make it look like he overdosed, which—when you think about it—is extremely dark.

On a side note, it seems Kacho was successful in convincing Fugetsu that everyone else mistakenly thinks she is dead—a plan she laid out in Chapter 400:

Covering Up the Truth

In my previous breakdown, I mentioned how I often reference the seemingly unimportant panel of Cheadle talking about the Silent Revolution. Another panel I bring up a lot is this one with Steiner and the IPA Director:

This panel sets up a major theme in the Succession Arc about valuing peace over truth. There are undoubtedly strategic reasons for keeping Luzurus and Halkenburg’s deaths under wraps, but I still believe the Succession War is going to eventually be completely covered up. Kaiser and Balsamilco’s plans echo this theme, as well as Kacho’s plan to conceal her death from Fugetsu.

Benjamin and Balsamilco

I once saw someone liken Benjamin’s character to the phrase “a ship with no compass gets lost at sea.” I think this is a pretty good description of what will happen to Benjamin. Benjamin, while powerful, is heavily reliant on others to steer him in the right direction. Balsamilco says as much:

In this chapter, we receive yet another reminder of how the soldiers around Benjamin elevate him. Kaiser believes he was only able to extract information from Benjamin because Balsamilco wasn’t present.

Kacho’s Letter

The contents of Kacho’s letter (really Kaiser’s) seem extremely important. We get some description about the contents from Luzurus and Melody.

Summarized:

Benjamin has some kind of secret that Luzurus thinks will ‘milk his tears’ and buy Fugetsu’s protection.

Luzurus and Tserriednich are ‘snakes’ and have ‘dirt’ (we already knew this, to an extent).

There is something that Halkenburg can ‘use’ (possibly to exonerate himself).

There is a secret regarding Halkenburg’s birth (I don’t think it's being Beyond’s child).

More information that shakes up the Succession itself (this could include Zhang Lei’s parentage)

It seem each prince’s letter contained different information, while Halkenburg’s and Kurapika’s contained all of it.

Basho

The dark spirits following Fugetsu flee at the sight of Benjamin and his Spirit Beast.

In a cool moment, the spirits also flee from Basho.

This could be because of the good luck charm, but I think it may also be a testament to Basho’s strength and character.

[atzjieun]

field trips

summary | mingi takes jieun on a field trip after finding her awake in the middle of the night  

circa | june 2019 

contains | 1.7k words, kinda serious talks about life, jieun hurts mingi’s soul (/ns it’ll make sense later) mentions of sleeping pills and their side-effects

note | its the way this was originally planned to be just a comedy/fluff scenario but i enjoy hurt/comfort a bit too much </3 i love my ssongz

Mingi opened the door to the apartment, careful to avoid any sudden movements as he slipped through the gap.  It wasn’t uncommon for the boy to get home late, especially after writing sessions in the studio where time moved at a completely different pace. Still, he wanted to be mindful of his teammates’ resting time, which meant practically tiptoeing through the dorm in the middle of the night. 

However, as Mingi took off his shoes and made his way to his room, he was stopped by the sight of Jieun, who was walking in circles around the living room.

“Jeez, Eunnie. What are you still doing up?” Mingi glanced at the clock on the wall. 3:30 am. 

The girl stopped in her tracks, staring at him with wide eyes reminiscent of a deer in headlights. Immediately afterwards, Jieun averted her gaze and gave a small shrug. 

“I don’t know. Couldn’t sleep, I guess.” Mingi’s eyebrows furrowed as she looked down, eyes suddenly glued to her hands.

“Did you take your medication?” 

Jieun froze, hesitating for a few seconds before eventually shaking her head.

“I don’t want to become so reliant on it,” she answered quietly after some time. “And it’s making me so sluggish during practice.” 

Mingi’s gaze softened. Although a part of him felt obligated to make sure she was following her doctor’s orders, he couldn’t help but think back to the times during practice when she just seemed so… out of it. Jieun had always been one of the quietest members, but she would still bring her own energy and excitement that gave the group strength when they needed it most. When he thought about it, Mingi couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt that same energy from her. 

“How was the writing session?” Jieun asked, attempting to steer the focus of the conversation away from herself. Mingi gave an absent nod, mind still clouded by concern.

“It was good. We got a lot done.” 

“That’s good…” Jieun took a sharp breath. She let it out after a few seconds, awkwardly nodding at him. “But anyways, I’ll probably just head to bed. I’ll be fine, so you don’t have to worry-“

“Wanna go on a field trip?” Mingi suddenly blurted. She raised her eyebrows, looking at him curiously. 

“To where?” 

“The convenience store down the street.” He stood back on his heels and gave a small shrug. “Taking a walk outside might tire you out more than circles in the living room.” 

Jieun shook her head, waving him off. 

“It’s ok. You just got home and you need the rest.” 

“So do you,” he retorted. Jieun’s mouth pressed into a tight line as she slowly raised her head, finally meeting his gaze. “It’ll only be for like, 20 minutes, I promise.” She stared at him for a few seconds, the silence growing uncomfortably long. Eventually, the girl let out a sigh and nodded. 

“Let me grab a jacket.” 

The walk to the convenience store was quiet, their fatigue combined with the mutual uncertainty of the situation making the atmosphere heavy. Mingi would steal occasional glances in Jieun’s direction, the girl’s gaze remaining distant, present physically but mentally gone. 

It was a bit past 3:40 am when they arrived at the convenience store, late enough that it had been left unattended. 

“Are you gonna get ice cream?” Mingi asked, finally breaking the silence. Jieun simply responded with a shrug as her eyes scanned over every aisle. 

“Not sure yet.” 

Without saying another word, Jieun began walking to another aisle, leaving Mingi standing there. He considered following her, but something in him said that she might want the alone time, so Mingi opted to go grab his own snacks instead. 

It didn’t take him long to grab what he wanted, picking up a premade sandwich, some chips and a juice bottle for himself. However, as he walked over to the self check-out area, Mingi noticed that Jieun was already standing there, holding a plastic bag as she waited for him. 

“You got all your stuff?” he asked, eyebrows raising. Jieun nodded, giving a short hum.

As Mingi began scanning each item, his gaze fell on a pack of lemon drops displayed beside the check-out. He glanced over at Jieun, who was too preoccupied with picking at the skin on her nails to notice him scanning the candy before dropping it into his bag. After paying for everything, he walked over to the girl and gave a small smile. 

“What’d you get?” he asked, glancing down at her bag. Without missing a beat, Jieun opened the bag for him to see inside. 

“Cheese sticks.” 

Mingi leaned over and looked in her bag, where lo and behold multiple cheese sticks were sitting inside. He glanced up at her, a mix of concern and questioning in his gaze. 

“...That’s it?” 

“Yes.” 

Without waiting for a response, Jieun turned and began making her way out of the convenience store with Mingi following close behind. She was immediately hit by a gust of cold wind the moment she stepped outside, a shiver rising up her spine. 

They took their seats on the curb. Mingi started taking out his items, though he left the lemon drops concealed in the bag. Jieun copied, taking out her cheese sticks and laying them out in a nice line. 

“Cheers?” Mingi asked, holding up his drink. 

Jieun glanced over at him, a small smile making its way onto her face as she held up her cheese stick and tapped it against his bottle. She took off the plastic from her cheese stick before taking a bite, much to Mingi’s horror. 

"You don’t peel your cheese sticks???” 

A look of confusion crossed the girl’s face as she chewed. 

“Why would I do that?” 

He stared at the girl for a couple seconds, looking for any hint of humour before realizing she was completely serious. Bewilderment spread across his face before he let out a cough.

“But- it’s- you’re supposed to peel it.” 

Jieun took another bite straight from her cheese stick, causing Mingi to cringe internally. 

“I’ve never seen anyone peel it before,” she answered with a shrug. “Why would I put in the extra effort to peel it, though?” 

Mingi stared at her, dumbfounded. After a few seconds of contemplating the situation and questioning her sanity, he eventually decided it was best for him to pick his battles and just let the girl eat her cheese. He would return to the topic at a later time, but he didn’t want to risk doing or saying anything that might upset her. 

“Here,” Mingi said, reaching into his bag and pulling out the bag of lemon drops. Jieun’s eyebrows raised as he opened the bag, offering her a candy. 

“Oh, thank you,” she said, taking one. Jieun rolled the lemon drop between her fingers, a small smile making its way onto her face as she popped it into her mouth. “How’d you know I like these?” 

Mingi snorted, “You eat them religiously during practice.” She gave a small chuckle and nodded. 

“They’re a good mood booster.” 

“You’re a very odd young person.” 

A silence fell over the two as they continued eating. These “field trips”, as the the two frequently called them, often resulted in the two sitting in silence and enjoying each other’s company, but there was a sense of unease that hung in the atmosphere above them. It was clear that something was bothering the girl, but he had no idea how to approach the situation. 

Mingi didn’t know what to do. He was worried that if he tried to talk to her about her feelings, he would say something wrong that would only make things worse, but he wanted her to know that he would always be there for her. 

Beside him, Jieun let out a yawn and rubbed her eyes. Noticing this, Mingi stretched his arm out, motioning for her to come closer. She hesitated for a moment, but after making eye contact with the boy, Jieun reluctantly scooted closer. She leaned over, resting her head on his shoulder as she let out another yawn. Mingi draped his arm over the girl’s shoulder and, after a few moments, gently rested his head on top of her’s. 

He wasn’t sure how long they sat there, but Mingi realized it must have been a while when he felt the weight of Jieun’s body grow heavier against him. Glancing down, he saw that the girl had her eyes closed, her breathing consistent and even. A soft smile made its way onto Mingi’s face as he reached over, gently patting her head.

As carefully as he could, Mingi shifted his weight and began gathering their trash, all while still supporting her head. After everything was collected, he maneuvered himself so that he was in front of Jieun. He grabbed her arms, draping them over his shoulders.

“Careful, Jieunie.” With that, Mingi pulled himself, and Jieun, off the ground, quickly hooking his arms under her legs to support her weight. Jieun stirred, raising her head slightly. “You can sleep. We’re going home now.” The girl gave a small hum in response and laid her head on his shoulder. 

The silent walk back to the dorm left a lot of room for Mingi to think. There was still a big part of him that wished he knew exactly what to say or do to comfort the girl because if he could, he would have taken all of her hurt and transferred it to himself. But that wasn’t possible, and he wished he was better with his words so that she knew he was there for her. 

“Thanks, Jihoon,” Jieun eventually mumbled, half-asleep. Her words made Mingi freeze and turn his head to look at her, but Jieun had already fallen back asleep. Mingi’s gaze softened. He tilted his head, gently rubbing his head against Jieun’s before continuing to walk.  

He might not have known exactly what to say, or how to take her pain away, but Mingi would always be there to carry her home when she needed him. He hoped she knew that, hoped that his actions spoke loud enough to let her know how he felt.

But there was no way to know for sure, so all he could do was hope.

taglist: @teezingsiyeon

[under-my-pillow]

how do you feel with all the people calling soo won aromantic because of his scene with lily when he said he doesnt really understand romance or love but he likes people?

Hello, @spriderlili,

It is a very interesting question. Thank you for asking, but keep in mind my response might be biased as I am personally not a fan of labels, and the fandom gives him plenty of silly ones, so most of the time I am - Even if he is dying, you don't have to be in a hurry to pick out a label for his gravestone quite yet, thank you. - kind of mood.

But I'll elaborate on this particular one.

The word 'aromantic' has a very vague meaning - little or no romantic attraction to others

Does it mean unable to have/devoid of romantic feelings? Or is it referring to people who have never had romantic feelings in their entire lifetime?

For the former, no, he is not devoid of/unable to have emotions - a sociopath or psychopath (I know they call him that, but he is neither) He feels, pain, anger, sympathy, joy, longing, etc., etc., as we have seen in multiple instances, so it doesn't make sense to just be unable/devoid of only romantic feelings.

If it is the latter, we are a little too early to say anything, because despite being "king" and wise beyond his years we often forget that Soo-won is only eighteen years old. Even if we go with the average lifetime of a person being 60 years old, he hasn't even completed half.

Now, is it referring to how he was unaware of Yona's feelings or how he doesn't understand the emotions of love or romance? Or how he seems to not really have attachments to people?

I do not believe the answer to these is - 'aromantic'

To make it a little clear, let's take Yona.

Why was she able to understand romantic love and why is Soo-won unable to?

Why was she able to love and adamantly insist on marrying Soo-won without considering anything else?

1. Because she had the freedom to be a child.

2. She had the freedom to be immature.

3. She had emotional freedom and creative freedom which were not restricted by adult burdens.

4. She was taken care of by a loving parent and allowed healthy emotional development.

For Soo-won, it is the opposite.

The privilege to be a child, the privilege to be immature, the privilege to rely on others, love immaturely, quit immaturely - he lost all that to the dream of making Kouka strong and secure.

Sure, that was his choice, but it was not his choice to lose a major source of parental affection & guidance while the remaining semblance of one was just a wreck.

Children are naturally emotionally reliant on their parents/guardian. So, what happens when a reliable source of emotional stability is just knocked out from right beneath their feet? Where do they put their feet?

For Soo-won, I believe it was in the memories of his father. This is sometimes seen in the way we see him clinging to the memories of his father for guidance.

So,

1. Heavy responsibilities, even the adults did not bother to do.

2. A limited social circle, predominantly made up of adults.

3. A fudging time limit.

It's like asking an athlete with a hundred miles left to the finish line and a 20 minute time limit if he could solve your algebra homework on the way.

I am not saying Soo-won is emotionally underdeveloped either. He is very excellent at controlling his emotions as we have seen. I'd say he is emotionally exhausted.

Romance is not in his priorities.

Romantic attraction is something generally experienced in leisure, when there is freedom to express the heart, when there is that subconscious freedom to trust your heart with another person.

Soo-won is not like Yona. She constantly has Hak or the four dragons whom she can be vulnerable with.

Who do we see Soo-won constantly be vulnerable with?

He has not had emotional freedom.

In the age to run, play, make mistakes, he had already become sensible, self- reliant, set in his beliefs — he's already run half the course before he even turned eighteen while the greatest worry for girls around his age was probably Geun-Tae getting married.

That's a major bandwidth problem.

I think we can all agree that based on what we have seen so far, Soo-won is not a love at first sight person. If he is going to fall in love with someone it is going to be a gradual process.

So, the person at least needs to be someone who can understand his views and talk to him on equal ground. Someone whom he can be emotionally free with. Someone whom he can eventually be vulnerable with.

Lili is a great example (Yes, I won't miss an opportunity to ship my top couple, but also seriously...)

Prior to the story's start Lili was probably just a love sick teen pining after Geun-Tae, but by the time Soo-won's coronation is over she is aware of the water tribe's major issues.

She wants to help, tries, fails miserably, tries again, gets help, slowly matures enough to be able to command the respect of the tribe in her own name.

Among all of Soo-won's female acquaintances introduced in the story so far which you can count on one hand she is the closest to have come to understanding the reality underlying Soo-won's decisions.

So, my point is, maturity wise, girls around his age circle are just catching up.

When there is someone (preferably Lili) whom he is comfortable with expressing his thoughts and emotions to, someone who actually understands him (Not like Hak), he'll eventually come to understand what it means to hold romantic affection for another person.

He just needs time and the right person.

[otakusheep15]

Hi there! I recently got diagnosed with discoid meniscus and I have an MRI and a surgery soon (as well as physio)

This hurts a lot and walking up stairs or a 10 minute walk is dreadful for me

Could you do it with the obey me bros pls? I don't see a lot about my condition much or at all, so it would be nice if u could bring some light to it :33

I actually have a pretty similar condition to you Anon! I've had about three surgeries to reconstruct my knees, so now I have a bunch of metal in them. I completely get the pain, and I'd be more than happy to write about it!

I am gonna try and keep this a bit more generic, but the reader/MC will have a major leg injury. Talks of surgery and injury will be included, but the reader/MC has not yet had any surgeries, just considering it.

Lucifer

Unlike most of his brothers, Lucifer is more practical about your injury. He's the only one who knew about it before the exchange program started, so he took the necessary precautions before you even showed up.

His biggest contribution is that he modified the stairs in the main hall. If you have a wheelchair/mobility aid, he cast a spell on the stairs so that they'll turn into a ramp so that it's easier for you to get up. He also added extra handrails/grips along the stairs so that you can hold on if needed.

He's very protective of you out in public. He constantly has his eyes on you, watching for any signs of discomfort. Constant reminders from him to take breaks when you need, and he punishes anyone who makes fun of you for needing a break.

If your legs ever feel sore, Lucifer is great at massages. He also regularly studies up on physical therapy-type exercises to help strengthen your legs. He never pushes you, but he does encourage you to do these exercises when you can.

If you ever consider surgery, Lucifer will help you look for the best doctor possible. Money is no obstacle for him, and he offers to pay for any and all expenses. He also stays with you in the Human World while you recover, as he doesn't want to risk you being down in the Devildom while you're still healing.

If you're ever injured, such as your knee popping out of socket or pulling a muscle, he's the first to look after you. Plenty of medicine and attention, and he makes sure to keep his brothers away so that they don't bother you while you rest. He's hesitant to use magic to help you, as he doesn't want you to become reliant on it for help, but if it's an extreme injury, he'll make an exception.

Mammon

He most likely is not aware of your injury unless you tell him. If you have a strange walk, such as a limp, he might make fun of you for it, not realizing it's because you're injured. After you and/or Lucifer explain to him how stupid he sounds, he apologizes, and he does genuinely feel bad.

Now he is your scary (adorable) guard dog. He's constantly going with you if you need to run an errand, and he gets upset if you ask him to let you go alone. Truthfully, he's scared for what might happen if you go out by yourself. He knows how cruel demons can be, and he'd hate it if he wasn't there to protect you. Still, if you're adamant, he'd agree to leave you be.

Definitely the type to bedazzle your mobility aid if you have one. Of course, he asks permission first, but if you let him, he's going all out. Stickers, glitter, and tacky, plastic jewels now adorn your mobility aids, and Mammon is very proud of himself.

Mammon is for sure the type to pick you up and walk you up the stairs himself. If you don't like it, he'll stop after the first time, but if you let him, he'll do it every time. If there's a set of stairs you need to go up, he's already picking you up before you even ask. Do his brothers make fun of him? Yes. Does he care? Absolutely not.

If you ever plan on having surgery, he's a bit afraid for you. Mammon has a tendency to overestimate how fragile humans can be, so when he hears the word 'surgery', his mind immediately jumps to the worst. Just reassure him that you'll be okay if you decide to go through with it, and he'll be fine. He definitely studies up on the best ways to help someone recover from a surgery, and he's a surprisingly good caretaker for you.

He's also good at caring for you if you get injured. If you hurt your leg somehow, he's immediately bringing you to the nearest private space and checking to see how bad your injury is. His first instinct is to use magic to heal your leg, but if that doesn't work, his next plan is most likely to call Lucifer and ask what he should do. He's mostly just panicking because he hates seeing you injured, but when he does manage to calm down, he is a lot better at caring for you.

Leviathan

As someone who experiences chronic pain, Levi gets it. He's in constant pain nearly all the time, so if you need help with finding ways to get comfortable, he's your guy. But beyond that, he's not much help with anything else. He barely takes care of his own pain, so the chances of him being able to help much with yours is slim at best. He does his best though.

If you feel sore, he's got lots of spaces to chill out and rest your legs. He has many different types of chairs, beanbags, the bathtub, and even his floor, which is surprisingly comfortable. He'd totally be down to build you a makeshift nest so that you have somewhere to rest and prop your leg up.

Out of all the brothers, Levi is one of the best at distraction and comfort. If you're feeling a lot of pain or soreness, his room is the best place to be. He can distract you with anime, games, manga, and more. Sometimes, you're just in pain and there's not much you can do about it, so having a distraction is usually the best option in these instances.

Still, despite what you may think, even Levi knows that there's a limit to how much you can distract yourself before you actually need help. His brothers have had to pull him out of his cave many times because they know he's in pain and ignoring it. If he ever sees you starting to develop the same destructive tendencies as him, he'll do his best to pull you out of it.

If you ever plan on getting surgery, his room is the best recovery zone you could ask for. There's a lot to do in his room, and none of it requires much physical activity, so your legs can heal while you hang out with him. He also knows a lot about how to work out your leg to keep it from stiffening up, even if he doesn't utilize these exercises himself all that much. Any pain meds you might have are tucked away in a secure location with all of his medicine, and he sets extra timers for you so that you remember to take them if needed.

If you injure your leg, Levi is not the best help unfortunately. He panics immediately, and there's not a very good chance he'll get himself out of his panic in time to help you. In cases like these, it's best to have someone else on speed dial, such as Lucifer or Barbatos. After your leg is healed, Levi is very apologetic that he couldn't be very helpful. He tries his best to overcome his own panic so that he'll be better able to help you in the future.

Satan

Out of everyone, Satan is the most likely to do actual research about your disability. Like, I'm talking hours in the library reading every medical journal he can find so that he can fully understand what you go through. He also asks you questions if you're comfortable answering them. He won't pressure you to answer though.

He will definitely get mad at anyone who makes fun of you or tries to make your life harder. If you don't want him to confront them, he won't for your sake, but he really wants to fight them. Please let him fight them for you.

If you have any mobility aids, he will help you modify them to be better suited for the Devildom, if you'd like him to of course. It's mch different down here compared to the human world, so having modified aids would be helpful to you during your stay. If you don't want them modified at all, he'd be more than happy to buy you some alternative aids instead.

Satan is very good at giving massages if you ever feel sore. Maybe you've been walking around all day, or maybe you just woke up sore. It happens, and he'll never judge you for why you feel sore. If you'd like him to, he has no problem giving you a massage. His room is not the best for relaxing since he has so many books piled everywhere, but he tries his best to clear a path for you so that you won't have to step over all of them.

If you ever plan on having surgery, Satan is your best bet for a caretaker. He's calm and patient, and he always knows what you need to feel better. He's a great cook and he doesn't mind taking care of chores. he also makes sure you take all of your prescribed medication and that you get enough rest. Satan would prefer it if you stayed in the human world during your recovery, as he believes it's safer and less stressful than staying in the Devildom, but if you'd rather stay in the Devildom, he'll gladly stay at the House of Lamentation with you.

If you're injured, Satan is one of the better demons to call on. He has a lot of medical knowledge, so he'd know better than most of his brothers about how to take care of you. He'd try to fix it on his own if he knew how to. He can fix a dislocated knee no problem, and he's fine with other small forms of injury. If it's a bigger injury, he'd be tempted to use magic to heal you, but only as a last resort.

Asmodeus

He may not know everything about your disability, and he may not be the best caretaker of all time, but Asmo is the best at hyping you up and making you feel good. Any insecurity you may have about your disability is gone when you're around him.

No one dares to insult you in his presence. If he even suspects that someone has been bullying you for having a disability, it's on sight. Or, more accurately, he's sending Satan and/or Beel to fight for him. Either way, that demon is dead.

If you let him, Asmo would absolutely bedazzle any mobility aids you might have. He'll design you a leg brace that's colorful and sparkly, all while still being fully functional. Any canes or walkers are covered in fun stickers and glitter, and wheelchairs are not spared either. If you'd rather he keep them plain, he'll be a little pouty, but he doesn't mind. Instead, he'll focus his efforts into creating a new line of fashionable mobility aids. He thinks it's fun to design something that's actually useful along with being cute.

He's also very good at helping you coordinate outfits that fit with your mobility aids. Leg braces tend to be hard to style around, and he knows that. Sometimes they can be bulky and stiff, meaning that picking out what to wear with them can be nearly impossible. If you ever need help finding something to wear, Asmo is your go-to. He won't judge you for needing help, and the two of you spend the whole day shopping and looking around for cute outfit ideas.

If you plan on having surgery, Asmo is not the best caretaker, but he tries his best for you. If he needs any help, he'll most likely call Satan or Lucifer and ask what he should do to help you. Most of his care involves him trying to keep you entertained. Resting all day can be boring, and he knows that he wouldn't enjoy being stuck inside all day. He finds movies and tv shows to binge with you, finds silly games you can play, and even puts on cute little fashion shows for you. Asmo is still a fairly responsible caretaker, but maybe have Lucifer on speed dial just in case.

If you're injured, maybe don't call Asmo right away. More likely than not, he'll freak out and panic instead of helping you. Instead, call someone else to help you with your injury, and then call Asmo after so that he can fawn over you. He'll act all offended that you didn't call on him first, but deep down he knows he wouldn't have been much help to you. He does try his best to work on himself so that he can help you more in the future.

Beelzebub

Beel may not be the most informed about human world disabilities, but he is also the most willing to learn. All he wants is to be helpful to those he cares about, and you're one of those people. If he needs to sort through every medical journal he can find to understand how to help you, he will. He may not understand most of the medical nonsense listen in the journals, but he tries his best for you, and he actually learns quite a lot in the process.

Most likely to carry you around if you need it. All of the brothers are more than capable of carrying you just fine, but Beel is most used to carrying others around. He does it for his brothers all the time, so it's no different for you in his mind. If you can't get up a flight of stairs or you broke/lost your mobility aid, Beel is right there to haul you to wherever you need.

Beel is also very good at caring for you, surprisingly. He deals with a lot of injuries because of how often he gets hurt during games/practice, so he knows a thing or two about first aid. He's not the best at it compared to an actual doctor, but if you need anything bandaged up, or perhaps a brace of some kind, he's got you. He's also got plenty of ice/heat packs if you feel sore, plus tons of muscle relaxers and other such drugs, although he's more hesitant to give anything like that to you since he's not sure what kind of dosage you'd need. If you have your own medication, he'd be more than willing to hold onto some for you in case of emergency.

If you plan on having surgery, Beel is a decent option as a caretaker. Not the best, but certainly not the worst either. He may be easily distracted by his own hunger, but as long as he's well-fed, he's good at taking care of you. Like I said, he knows a good amount already due to his own injuries, and anything he doesn't know he can just research. During recovery, you will not have to move an inch because he'll just get everything for you. If you want food or a drink, he already has it, and he doesn't mind running errands if you need anything specific. He's also good at helping you with physical therapy.

If you get an injury, he's a good option to call. Beel is best at short term solutions, like bandaging you up until you find a more permanent solution. Maybe not the best for serious injuries, as he can only do so much with his limited knowledge, but small injuries like a popped knee or sore muscles are where he can help the best.

Belphegor

If nothing else, Belphie is very good at helping you relax. If your muscles are tense or spasming, he's arguably your best go-to. He's shockingly good at massages, but his specific brand of magic is also good for relaxation, not just putting someone to sleep.

He's also the most understanding about how tired you must be all the time (besides Levi). Having any kind of leg injury is tiring and painful, and he knows good and well that you need breaks. If you're ever feeling tired or worn-out, his bed is always open to you, and so is the attic. He'll also fight anyone who makes fun of you for needing to rest, as he's most likely dealt with similar comments for how often he falls asleep.

He's not the most experienced with mobility aids, but he is good at making things comfortable. If you specifically wear any kind of brace that makes you uncomfortable, he's your best bet if you want to find something better. Maybe something with extra padding or something that sits on your leg better. If you wear one of those bigger braces that prevent your knee from bending, he's also good at helping you prop it up on some pillows. Basically, if you have a hard time getting comfy, go to Belphie. He's more than happy to help.

If you plan on having surgery, he's a fairly decent caretaker. I can't promise that he won't fall asleep in the middle of caring for you, but he's not bad while he's awake. He's the best at helping you find comfortable ways to place your leg while you sleep or rest, and he's also good at helping you relax after physical therapy. As for anything else, he has no problems running errands for you for food, but it might take him a while to get around to it.

If you're injured, maybe don't call Belphie. To be honest, he has no clue how to deal with major, or even minor, injuries, so you're better off calling for someone else to help you. However, he is good at taking care of you after your injury has been properly dealt with. If you do get majorly injured, he'll most likely feel bad that he couldn't help you, so he'll do his best to learn more about how to help you in the future.

[petrichor-idyllic]

Hii Petri, I want to request for headcanons please, it's maze runner boys x fem!reader and she was one of the first to go up in the box, she's been in the glade for enough time to pass for the transition of 'cute little girl who's happend to be there with a lot of boys' to 'really hot girl in the middle of tons os guys', and I want to see the moment that clicked for each one of them that "oh, she's a girl". I think it would be fun cause they're a bunch of virgin dudes stuck in a place with only one girl that they know since "forever" and then suddenly she's not that little kid anymore and it clicks that they'd could be the one to date her.

I am completely doing my requests out of order, but I really like this idea and headcanons are so much easier lol.

Also no Newt here, the boy likes men.

DEVELOPMENT

MASTERLIST | MULTI-CHARACTER MASTERLIST

SUMMARY: See above. Movie based fic.

WARNINGS: Inappropriate language, awkward teenage boys, you're the boss, everyone is useless, mild suggestive themes, the Thomas one is really bad 'cause I had no way of actually writing that based on this prompt.

You were the first person in the Glade, a young girl with no memories or idea what you were doing. Yet, somehow, you managed to survive for a whole month on your own. Then, one after another, the boys started joining you. And you went from soft girl to a leader they could rely on - though, it takes them a bit to notice this.

THOMAS

Being one of the later arrivals to the Glade, Thomas doesn't have the same reaction the others do.

You're just a badass from day one to him.

He thinks you're cool and calculated and you seem to know what you're doing.

He respects you from day one.

He doesn't get to have the whole realising you're cool moment that everyone else does.

He just thinks you're sick.

And he's like, stressed as shit, so he doesn't really have the time to think otherwise.

MINHO

Now, this is where it gets interesting.

Minho was one of the first boys to follow you into the Maze, just after Alby and Newt.

So he's witnessed your whole transformation.

From the early days of exploring the Maze together, to you making him Keeper, to the drunken nights where he'd had a rough day and you had to drag him to bed.

You've been together through thick and thin.

And some of Minho's confidence has definitely rubbed off on you.

The moment where Minho realised you were in face a girl, and not the one he first met was actually quite simple.

You'd had a long night, and with one of your Runners out of commission, you realised you hadn't told Minho to cover another route that day as you'd made arrangements for a new Runner to do a more simpler route- which meant switching up everyone's routines.

Fresh out of bed, wearing a sports bra and baggy trousers that hung off your hips, you went to the Map Room.

It wasn't uncommon for you to dress like this. The Glade is warm, and you basically mothered all these boys.

You whistled as you entered, gaining their attention.

"Oi, boys, listen up - I'm switching routes around today. With Sam off on sick and Darren being new, he's taking the easiest route. Minho, I need you to deal with covering the outer sections more. And Ben I need you to stick to your path for a change instead of going awol - your maps make no sense."

"Aw, what? But that's boring."

"I ain't shuckin' askin', Ben - do as you're told."

Oh.

Oh God.

Minho doesn't know why this is what made it click.

His eyes fell on your body, your words becoming static as he drunk in your figure.

Had you always been this attractive?

Had you always been this assertive?

Was Minho into dominant women?

Should he be concerned?

After this point onwards, Minho started looking at you differently.

In fact, you became the only thing he couldn't take his eyes off.

Minho would go from your confident and reliant friend to slightly awkward, but also occasionally flirty.

Like he can't actually decide what to do with you now.

It'd take a while, but after some near death experiences, he'd become more outwardly flirtatious.

Though, he still wouldn't be able to get over the admiration and awe for you.

GALLY

Gally would be your number one problem child in the Glade.

He always has been.

But, you normally left Alby or Newt to deal with him.

Especially at the start since he's a big dude with a big temper.

Gally always saw you unfit as a leader.

Too timid, quiet, anxious.

You name it, he thought it.

That was until the day him and Minho got in a particularly nasty fight.

You don't know why or what it was, but Gally had gone for the Runner. Alby was busy sorting out the Maps, and in light of Newt's recent injury - it was left up to you.

Jeff came running into your hut, panicking about the fight, leading you to running out after him.

"That's enough!"

You grabbed the boys, yanking Gally away by his collar.

"The shuck do you slintheads think you're doing?"

"He started it!"

"I did not!"

You'd had a hard day.

You didn't need this.

"I don't give two klunks who started it! We ain't got much choice to act like adults 'round here - and you two are actin' like diaper-klunkin' sissy babies! Get a shuckin' grip! I expect better."

Minho apologised quickly.

Gally did not.

"What? Why should I apologise when this shank can't shut his mouth?"

Well, you weren't having that.

"Because I shucking told you to. You're under my care and my order- what I say goes. You may be a Keeper, but that's up to me. Suck it up and do as you're told."

"...sorry.

"Better. Get back to work."

The way that Gally watched you walk away made it obvious to everyone who witnessed the scene that something had changed.

He'd always seen you as weak and a pointless leader, but now?

You'd put him in his place.

Initially, he was embarrassed.

But then he started seeing everything around the Glade, the power you actually held.

He also started to notice how attractive you actually had become.

Safe to say, he started to feel things after you basically called him a bitch.

He'd start showing you more respect after that.

Maybe a bit more than respect.

FRYPAN

Frypan has always liked you.

He's always respected you and been a good friend.

And he used to make sure that you were okay when things got too much.

But as you got older and more confident, you started to not need that comfort as much.

Unlike the others, there wouldn't be a specific moment where he realised.

He'd just be proud as he watched you grow as a person.

And you'd take charge.

It'd be a slow burn of feelings from friendship to genuinely having a crush on you.

You'd make sure his kitchen is always stocked and the Track-hoes do their job and the vegetables are up to scratch.

Though, his feelings came more with the physical transformation side of things.

You hit puberty, and went from being awkward to confident along with it.

Now, Frypan is probably one of the more respectful guys around.

But he can't help but stare when you bend over, or stretch or even just look at him with a smirk.

He's a teenage boy and you're the only girl around.

He's trying his best.

Though he did go from:

"Hey, everything okay? You look stressed."

To:

"H-hey uh, you uh, you need help, or...?"

Man's is down bad.

ALBY

Alby would probably be the person you're closest to.

He's the mouth and the power to your brain

You basically work side by side.

But, he'd always see you as someone he needed to look after and protect.

Then, as you grew up, came into yourself, that would change.

Especially when you started actually being in charge.

For the most part, he really doesn't care.

He noticed the others starting to act differently, but he didn't change much.

Apart from that one time you'd just come out of the shower.

And he just couldn't take his eyes off you.

And he kinda realised you're a woman.

But apart from that.

He's just... there.

Anyway, hope you enjoyed :))

Helping you lead.

Sorry for disappearing, this is not my best work but I am currently in full corpse mode.

[epickiya722]

A lot of times the problem with these het ships is just, that there is an incredible lack of balance in it that almost feels toxic.

And i don't mean dark fiction or anything, i mean fiction that wants you to see them as a good couple.

Like in bnha, again. Iz///ocha has an inbalance over the fact that for it to go forward, it is completely reliant on Ochako, and whatever she decides to do with her feelings.

Which makes her the only one that ever puts the effort into her crush, even if it ends up not actually moving forward, she still the one who's ever confronted with them.

And Izuku never does anything to respond or even indicate that he feels the same. Frankly, if he was to suddendly show that he loves her, that would just make him look like an intruder. Or maybe even imply "now that everything's over, here's your prize, hero!"

I agree!!

While IzuOcha is a popular ship, it's also not compared to BakuDeku and even TogaOcha got some growth over it.

It's not because "het is ew" because I have crossed other shippers who are okay with IzuOcha and/or have other M/F ships they like (I myself like KiriMina).

It's because it is underdeveloped and one-sided.

Izuku reacts to Ochako the same way he has with every other girl. Any time there's crush talk, it's only from Ochako's side. Nothing from Izuku, at all. He compliments her, but it came off more like a bestie hyping you up after you say something self-deprecating than actual "Hey, I like you, let's go out".

To be honest, I don't even think Horikoshi intended for IzuOcha to be seen a ship for people to root for. I don't think he actually ever cares for it because if he really wanted to, he could have made it more balanced. I say this because look at M/F pairings like KiriMina and KamiJiro.

They're more minor than IzuOcha are and yet for both pairings there's a lot more balance between them. Even by design!

I talk more in depth about this here and here.

I totally agree with you on that last bit.

If Izuku suddenly goes "Hey, I love you" or even after winning there's suddenly them hooking up, it will come off as Ochako being some prize because, again, Izuku hadn't shown romantic interest in her like that.

It's funny to me that some people will "BakuDeku are like brothers" but then turn around and want to apply the same tropes and scenarios that BkDk have been through to their ship romantically.

Example, there were people who actually want AFO!Shigaraki to attack Ochako next just so Izuku could save her. This was during the time when everyone was brought in through those portals into the same area.

When I was so agitated about that because one, you really want someone to potentially get killed just for a "shippy" moment? I DIDN'T LIKE SHIGARAKI ATTACKING BAKUGOU LIKE THAT!! Two, so Ochako couldn't be dealing with her situation without any inference? Like she really need to be put in a damsel situation and not be a hero? Because that's how it came off to me.

Look, I myself have ships, but at the end of the day when it comes to the main goal of a lot of these characters?

The last thing any of them really want is romance. If no ship becomes canon I am so okay with that.

A lot of these characters, especially characters like Izuku, Ochako, and Katsuki want to be the best heroes they can be. They want to save people, make them smile, be the best. That was their goal when they chose (and got to) attend UA.

I don't recall Ochako saying "I'm attending UA to get a boyfriend!"

So why reduce her to that? She did not look at Izuku on their first meeting and decided "I'm going to UA to be his wife". I thought she wanted to be a hero so she can make people smile and provide for her parents. Am I wrong? Did I miss something? Did I watch and read a different version of BNHA?

[beigepillow]

God, the chapter hasn't even come out yet and people are already starting to demonize Doumeki. I'm really sorry, and it's probably not a popular opinion, but I really don't understand how Doumeki is supposed to know what's going on in Yashiro's head. He feels one thing, but says and does something completely different. We know that. Yes. But Doumeki can't read minds. Yashiro's body says yes. But in words, Yashiro also behaves sarcastic, cold and sometimes cruel towards Doumeki. Nothing changed. It's difficult to understand what's going on in a person's head. To believe that he loves you and if you open up to him again, this time he won’t leave you and you won’t get a bullet from him? Of course, I’m also annoyed by this whole situation and I want them to have a normal conversation! But to really demonize Doumeki... I can understand his behavior. How can I fully understand Yashiro's behavior. Yoneda wrote Doumeki as more than just a love interest. She created an interesting character with many good and bad qualities. With his own past and with his own traumas. Both Yashiro and Doumeki have huge trust issues. The fact that Yashiro is reflecting is already great progress!!! Doumeki keeps to himself but gives Yashiro space. They both go towards each other! Yes, not as quickly as we would like, but still. eh. It just upsets me that it feels like fans are ready to just destroy Doumeki for even the slightest bit of negative feelings towards Yashiro. As if Doumeki has no right to be jealous, offended, insolent... This makes me so frustrated(

Yeah, I understand this feeling well. I am not sure if you ever came across my blog a few months ago but I actually started out as almost a Doumeki defense blog lol. Most of my posts were about Doumeki’s pov because I felt there was a lot of harshness towards him. Ultimately I think the main issue those people have against Doumeki is that they don’t like Doumeki outside of being Yashiro’s love interest. That means Doumeki is not allowed to be a fully fleshed out character with his own insecurities and issues; he just needs to be whatever Yashiro needs him to be and he should know that even without any communication from Yashiro. Doumeki is supposed to be Yashiro’s lover, therapist and emotional whipping boy. A large part of the issue maybe certain interpretations of them as characters where there is a belief that Doumeki is this jealous, possessive man who only cares about having Yashiro at his side and Yashiro is the selfless one who only cares about doing what is best for Doumeki have influenced how we view their actions. We believe the worst of Doumeki while Yashiro is only at his mercy. The thing is Doumeki is acting in a way that Yashiro wanted in the past and pushing down his own desires to do it. He is not exactly happy with this arrangement either. Even when he was sweet, sensitive Doumeki, there was a lot of criticism towards him. There was even criticism of him for expressing he wants Yashiro to want only him. Doumeki is trying the best he can but Yashiro’s trauma goes beyond him. He can’t heal Yashiro nor should he be expected to. He also shouldn’t be expected to constantly sacrifice his own needs and desires for Yashiro and to never express any negative emotion about Yashiro’s actions. That is not an equal relationship. Some people have so much empathy for Yashiro but almost none for Doumeki. The most interesting thing is that if you even suggest Doumeki and Yashiro separate, those people would also hate that idea because Yashiro’s happiness is so reliant on Doumeki. I feel your frustration, anon. I feel like I can rant about this forever.

[makedonsgriva]

Hi, do you mind if I ask, what do you think are Damen and Laurent’s greatest personality strengths and weaknesses? Why? What do you love about their dynamic? Thanks if you want to answer....

HI! Thanks for this ask because I have SO MANY thoughts, feelings and emotions about these two princes, it will take a lifetime for me to get it all out of my brain. Anyways, here we go:

Damen

In my opinion I think Damen's greatest personality strength is his unwavering optimism, will power and courage. Man was shipped to the enemy nation as a slave to his biggest enemy and he came back to his own nation to fight for his right with the said enemy ending up as his lover???? I don't think anyone understands the sheer INSANITY of this situation. Like I am being 200% honest here, I would have survived not a day in Vere had I been in Damen's position so y'know I gotta admire my man's sheer power of will and courage and hope.

As for his greatest weakness I feel like it can be attributed to his impulsiveness. Once angered, it is very difficult for him to assess the situation and take action calmly. He is hot headed and violent. And we see this impulsiveness of him getting him in trouble multiple times in the series.

Laurent

I think it's easy to say his biggest strength is that beautiful, boggling, labyrinthine brain of his. Laurent is smart. And when I say smart, I mean every letter of it. He uses his wits, he relies on his cleverness and he is not afraid to play dirty to win unlike his righteous husband. He knows that to fight twisted and sick people like his uncle, he has to come up with more twisted plans of his own. You gotta love a smart motherfucker.

His greatest weakness has to be his complete inability to ask for help and rely on others. Although I can't completely blame Laurent for this since as soon as Auguste died, he found himself surrounded by people who only wanted to take advantage of him. He HAD to be self reliant. Yet, just when I started to believe that he might be starting to trust Damen to take his help and win alongside him, he turned himself in to his uncle in Kings Risng lmaoo like I get the self sacrifice and there was no other way or what not but jfc my dude you don't have to do everything by yourself.

Lamen

Every other book I have read has rivals or maybe like one of them dislikes the other while the other person is "I never actually hated you." And I get the charm of it okay, I love that trope too but Captive Prince? The enemies to lovers we get is ELITE. We go from two dudes wanting to VISCERALLY end each other to ready to die for each other. From the absolute hatred, lack of trust, various murder and torture attempts to forgiving each other and falling in love. Realising that whatever the other did was justified and the only thing they can do is move past it. Overcoming all that hurt and pain to build something so strong, beautiful and intimate. That's THE SHIT okay. That's what makes Laurent and Damen's dynamic so special. The way they both grow together and come together to become an unstoppable force. They help each other so much, both in terms of achieving their respective goals and to have great character developments. They bring out the best in each other and fill in the weaknesses of the other. Damen is impulsive but Laurent knows how to reign him in. Laurent doesn't know how to accept help but Damen is there for him every step of the way. From reluctant allies to friends to lovers to divorced era to I'm gonna die for this man, they have it all. Captive Prince has the BEST enemies to lovers arc of all the books I've read till date. PERIOD.

This really got me yapping I'm sorry lmao!!! But yeah here we go. Hope you liked this!

[brandwhorestarscream]

Reincarnation AU

Oh IDW Rodimus (⁠´⁠;⁠︵⁠;⁠`⁠)

I can imagine how happy he was to be able to hold the (happy) bitlet as soon the lil one came out of the incubator (with Drif right behind them), he goes with him all/most of the time ( the baby is a mama's boy who loves the fire)

About cyberverse 🤔, the fans of the show made me like soundwave x hot rod/Rodimus, maybe during the arc where they were separated by a wall? Or before it

Oh yeah, he cried when he finally got to hold his baby for the first time, after bitty had been in the NICU for several weeks. He's so tiny and lightweight, Roddy's so afraid of breaking him. Handles him like a fine glass sculpture, and whispers the entire time 💖 baby is very content to curl up in his carrier's arms, tiny hand curled round one of his fingers, and sleeps so soundly snuggled just above Rodimus's spark

As for cyberverse...

With the planet now split in half and a peace treaty they're supposed to be a biding by (Autobots, I am fucking talking to you), Hot Rod's got a good amount of free time on his hands. Finding out he's sparked sends excited ripples through the entirety of the autobot forces, and Hot Rod rides the wave, milking his condition for all it's worth while everyone falls all over themselves to cater to his every whim. You're having a baby, Roddy, let me carry that for you! Here Roddy, have some extra energon! You're eating for two, after all. Sure Roddy, I'll go fetch you whatever you want. So on and so forth. It's a pretty easy pregnancy--kid rarely kicks him, it doesn't make him sick, and he's got a minimum of 5 people waiting on him hand and foot at any given moment. He's living the life and is sooo pleased with himself

He's not taking it as seriously as he should, honestly. The baby shower gives him everything he thinks he'll need, and he's never really been around newborn sparklings. How hard can it be? They cry, they throw up, they have to be rocked to sleep, kinda like a fussy turbohound pup. He's gonna be a cool super mom, he thinks, coasting through motherhood with a sparkling that's surely going to be his best friend

Then, he goes into labor, and halfway through Ratchet gets a troubled look on his face and yells at First Aid to set up the privacy screen. Something's wrong, they can't get a read on the baby's spark, and they have to perform emergency cesarean. It's a huge wake up call for Hot Rod, seeing the medics desperately rubbing his newspark's chest, First Aid begging him to come back, to live, and even when the bitty's body suddenly jerks and they begin to cough and wail, it's not a relief. The medics rush to get the sparkling stabilized, straight into a NICU incubator while they determine what the root problem is

Cyberverse Hot Rod, I'll be honest, is not ready for a baby. Significantly less so than IDW Rodimus, at any rate. He's never had to be responsible for another living thing before, especially one so helpless and reliant on the care of others, and he's horribly immature + prejudiced. He hasn't been taking this seriously at all, and it doesn't really hit him that this is life or death until he asks the medical team, "I mean... he'll be ok, right?"

And Ratchet just gives him this forlorn look, optics unreadable and face grim. "I dunno, kid."

That answer sends a foreign wave of panic crashing over him, and he tries to get off the medberth. Saying he has to see him, he- he has to see his baby, he can't die, this can't be happening, no, NO-

It's an incredibly sobering experience, and completely rewrites all of his plans for the foreseeable future. He was looking forward to a grand debut party where he'd shuttle his adorable baby around and soak up all the compliments and attention from everyone, perhaps taking them on a tour of Cybertron to see the sights. Now, though, he has to be sat down by Ratchet and take a very stern lecture on looking after his son's health. He's incredibly frail, some of his internal components aren't fully formed yet. He'll need to drink specially filtered energon and shouldn't be exposed to extreme temperatures--that means no space surfing--and until his little body can strengthen and his balance system can properly self-calibrate, no fast driving. None. At all. 30 mph, max, no exceptions. Baby shouldn't be in a confined space with more than 3 people at a time, and everyone needs to decontaminate thoroughly before they touch him. On and on it goes, a long laundry list of things Hot Rod's gonna have to menorize, fast, if he wants to keep his son. Cruel as it may seem, Ratchet makes it abundantly clear that if Hot Rod can't take this seriously and keep the baby healthy, they'll have no choice but to remove the sparkling from his care and pass the responsibility to someone else. Roddy does not want that to happen, so vows to do his best

Will he succeed? Well... that's a story for another day 🤭

[personality-corner]

Once Upon a Time MBTI

Emma Swan - ISTP

Emma is very logical, but relies on an internal set of logic. She tends to struggle with accepting objective logic if it somehow conflicts to knowledge she already has. She refuses to believe Mary Margaret or David killed Katherine, when every ounce of evidence points to otherwise, because it conflicts with everything she knows about them. She is also very reliant on the external world, and even when she doesn’t believe where the evidence would lead, she trusts it to eventually lead to the right answer.

Regina Mills / The Evil Queen - ENFJ

For better or for worse, the one thing that stays consistent when she is good and evil is her Fe. She is very aware of other’s emotions, and can either be very insightful because of it, or very manipulative. Her entire revenge plan is contingent upon inflicting her emotional pain onto those she feels has “wronged her.” When Regina sets her sight on something, she doesn’t stop until she gets it, indicating strong Ni, and strong ideas.

Henry Mills - ENFP

Henry is able to believe in the fairytales, with no proof whatsoever, other than the fact that he saw similarities between the fairytales and people he knew in real life. His obsession with these fairytales had made him feel rather isolated from his peers, and he often relies on them to make sense of not only the world around him, but his emotions. Despite this, Henry doesn’t lift these beliefs, even when it becomes harder to believe them.

Snow White / Mary Margaret Blanchard - ISFP

Both as Snow White and Mary Margaret, she is very connected to their emotions, for better or for worse. At her healthiest Snow / Mary Margaret is a very kind individual who seeks to improve the world around her with love. At her lowest, however, she can be rather selfish and sometimes vengeful, when it comes to Regina. She is also very connected to the world around her, using birds to teach, and being resourceful in the ways she survives Regina’s wrath.

David Nolan / Prince Charming - ESFJ

David has a keen understanding of the people and the world around him, and tends to share the collective values of the group. He’s not opposed to the idea of killing Regina, at least not completely. He is also not opposed to leaving her behind when they plan to go back to the enchanted forest. The only reason he chooses not to, is because it is in the best interests and values of everyone to keep her alive. His Si is also what allows him to live his life through his experiences, to the point where he sometimes struggles to understand the experiences of others,

Mr. Gold / Rumplestiltskin - INTJ

It is very easy for Rumplestiltskin to predict the outcomes of any given situation, and he tends to be very good at it, especially after becoming the Dark One. He is very much focused on the end goal, and reaching his goal, that he fails to look at what is right in front of him, or how his actions affect people now. He knows the rules of magic, and follows them very closely, and yet, he is able to find loopholes when needed. His is a huge adherent to contracts, never breaking a deal he had made, and gets very angry when others don’t deliver on their end of a bargain.

To Be Typed: I am on season 3 of my rewatch, and I probably won’t type every single character. But the characters I know for sure will get typed eventually are Zelena and Hook.

[ninadove]

Nina reads Dracula 🦇

May 7th

Good news, everyone! My good friend Jonathan has written once more! Not that I was worried about him or anything, haha.

I wonder how he’s getting on with his host, though…

"I have to be absent for a while. Do not wait for me.—D."

I set to and enjoyed a hearty meal.

WELL SPLENDIDLY IT SEEMS

When I had done, I looked for a bell, so that I might let the servants know I had finished; but I could not find one. There are certainly odd deficiencies in the house, considering the extraordinary evidences of wealth which are round me. The table service is of gold, and so beautifully wrought that it must be of immense value. The curtains and upholstery of the chairs and sofas and the hangings of my bed are of the costliest and most beautiful fabrics, and must have been of fabulous value when they were made, for they are centuries old, though in excellent order. I saw something like them in Hampton Court, but there they were worn and frayed and moth-eaten. But still in none of the rooms is there a mirror.

Bachelor life, Jonathan… do not judge your host’s interior design skills…

"But, Count," I said, "you know and speak English thoroughly!" He bowed gravely.

"I thank you, my friend, for your all too-flattering estimate, but yet I fear that I am but a little way on the road I would travel. True, I know the grammar and the words, but yet I know not how to speak them."

Aaaaw Count you’re too hard on yourself! Your letter and invitations were only slightly terrifying!!!

I have been so long master that I would be master still—or at least that none other should be master of me.

Totally normal topic of conversation, please carry on.

"You may go anywhere you wish in the castle, except where the doors are locked, where of course you will not wish to go. There is reason that all things are as they are, and did you see with my eyes and know with my knowledge, you would perhaps better understand."

… Ah.

The Count smiled, and as his lips ran back over his gums, the long, sharp, canine teeth showed out strangely;

Fellas is it gay to stare at your host’s lips and gums and long, sharp, canine teeth that show out strangely?

Well, but, my friend, is it not needful that I should? When I go there I shall be all alone, and my friend Harker Jonathan—nay, pardon me, I fall into my country's habit of putting your patronymic first—my friend Jonathan Harker will not be by my side to correct and aid me. He will be in Exeter, miles away, probably working at papers of the law with my other friend, Peter Hawkins. So!"

We love a self-reliant king with two (2) whole, alive friends!

"We Transylvanian nobles love not to think that our bones may lie amongst the common dead."

I wouldn’t worry too much about that…

"I love the shade and the shadow, and would be alone with my thoughts when I may."

I’M SURE YOU DO

The Count again excused himself, as he had dined out on his being away from home.

…

All at once we heard the crow of a cock coming up with preternatural shrillness through the clear morning air; Count Dracula, jumping to his feet, said:—

"Why, there is the morning again! How remiss I am to let you stay up so long. You must make your conversation regarding my dear new country of England less interesting, so that I may not forget how time flies by us," and, with a courtly bow, he quickly left me.

………

Surely this is fine… surely this means nothing… surely this estate in London is not going to be the vanguard to a complete invasion of England by the undead…

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