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I am perfectly normal about this man :)
God I'm gay-
#daycore_frisk#artwork#Medic tf2#I fucking love him#how is he so babygirl#yet hot at the same time-#Medic tf2 is babygirl#btw 'forensic' is my tf2 self insert#cringy ik#also ignore the low quality :)#I have having difficulties in Canva-#art#tf2#\ (ツ) /
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idk how i want to draw him yet and not ready to make a srs attempt but here's a bad kdj phone doodle lol🚶🏻
#orv#kim dokja#omniscient reader's viewpoint#my art#oh yeah i didnt have ref for this fkdnfn was going off memory of the last (first) time i drew him#i cant do a serious attempt tho bc i havent read the novel so i dont have a clear image of him in my head yet...#(dont want to just copy the webtoon design hastily... if it matches my image thats fine but... idk yet)#my main opinion on the webtoon design is he's too hot/ikemen tho KFJDKDJ (this is what i thought since the beginning)#its like BONES mp100 anime reigen.... kdj is like manga reigen to me /j#but who knows maybe if i catch kdj brainrot i too will start drawing him like a kpop idol out of affection...🤷🏻♂️#like the webtoon artist prob draws kdj pretty bc they love him sm#just like how i draw jys pretty bc of my brainrot...#so who knows maybe that will happen to me too🤷🏻♂️ time will tell#my main opinion on webtoon yjh (no one asked): CUTE BUT WHERES THE T1TTY BEL- *voice muffled as i get dragged away*#(copied most of these tags from twit too lazy to retype the commentary)#EDIT: i call him reigen jokingly bc theyre abt the same age but#kdj is also mob core to me....#in that theyre both protags that dont look flashy and look more like extras/'mob charas'#yet r irrevocably unequivocably the protags of their respective stories#(just as everyone is the protag of your own life! sieze ur narrative! etcetc🖤)#also. both black haired bowlcut havers KJDJS#kdj is reigen coded (derogatory) and mob coded (POS)#hes also a 'con man like reigen..... yep hes def still reigen coded
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important photos for bisexuals
#i didn't see anyone post the second one yet but i need these in the same post so bad#goDDAMN I AM SCREAMING#i'm not getting over these any time soon#erika is so hot 😭😭😭😭😭😭#jere too#save me kärika#kärika save me#käärijä#erika vikman
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You know what idea I find really funny? When Eddie becomes a huge person in rock and roll and metal it would probably be around the same time as Guns n’roses. (Who from my understanding started in ‘85 and didn’t shoot off until their first album appetite of destruction was released in ‘87.) And I can’t tell you why but I’m pretty sure Eddie would end up having some beef with Axl Rose at some point.
#Eddie hates axl for some reason#but also he fucking loves his music#and respects the art but he’s always like#fuck that guy#like Steve mentioned ONE time he found Axl kind of hot and Eddie has yet to forgive him#same thing with skid row#Eddie can’t stand Sebastian Bach#steddie#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harrington#steve x eddie
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Al Pacino as Detective Frank Keller - SEA OF LOVE (1989)
#al pacino#alfredo james pacino#sea of love#sea of love (1989)#harold becker#frank keller#film#cinema#mine#he looked like such a mess in this movie it was great...#whoever styled pacino here did a stellar job capturing what a pathetic state his character was in lol#like he's kinda pitiful but also a hot mess and yet cute all at the same time...#underrated pacino role right here#what could've been forgetful if done by another actor...pacino did a whole lot with keller here!#anyways end of my appreciation in the tags for sea of love pacino#1989
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feeling my computer's temperature with the back of my hand like it's my sick child and I'm checking its fever
#(I'm uploading backups in the 100s of GBs and running very badly optimised code at the same time)#(if it were my sick child i think I'd be a very bad parent this is entirely my fault)#(it's not too-hot-to-touch though so we are not in the real danger zone yet)
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I had a thought, dear However scary About that night The bugs and the dirt Why were you digging? What did you bury Before those hands pulled me From the earth? I will not ask you where you came from I will not ask you, neither should you
-------- an extension of this excerpt because I've been thinking of Femme Danny and Jason all week. It's mildly suggestive, but that's really the only heads up needed. --------
Music blaring, bass heavy in her ears, Danny finds him in a ditch at the bottom of the bluff. She was leaving the observatory, and she nearly misses him as she turns out onto the last stretch of road leading back into the city.
She catches sight of him, just barely. A glimpse in the corner of her eye; something reflecting on the light. She thinks it's a deer at first, and instinctual terror that only the idiocy of a deer denting her car can give her, strikes her hard. There's no one behind her, so she slams the breaks.
Her car stops; there's no deer. She looks and looks, but there's no deer, no deer buddy — they always come in pairs. But something still catches her eye; light reflecting off leather, in the ditch below just a few feet in front of her.
"What the fuck is that?" Slips out of her mouth before she can really think it through, and she's pulling off to the shoulder, wheels crunching gravel, before she thinks that through either.
Danny's climbing out of her car within seconds, putting it in park and hitting her hazards as her door clicks open and she stands up on the ledge. The trees block the sky, and there is no moon beholden to brighten the land, only the dull light of the stars and the brights of her car.
There's a man in a ditch. And he's not moving. From the distance, Danny's not sure if he's breathing.
She breathes out for him; "Fuck." She's running around the front of her car, not thinking it through. Her feet crunch the gravel, bugs buzzing at her ears, and she's sliding down the small hill into the ditch to reach his side.
"Please don't be dead, please don't be dead." Repeats in mantra under her breath, she can smell blood; heavy and iron, mixing with the dirt and the grass. Her hands find his side, Danny rolls him over onto his back. Her fingers find his pulse, and she breathes relief. He's alive.
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Danny finds no less than two — no, three guns, four knives, and an actual, goddamn shiv on the half-dead ditch man. But not a single ID or wallet.
The man reeks of danger, even in his unconscious state it lingers on him like a rich cologne. It's the human instinct to be curious, and maybe it's the blood and dirt that tells her he's bad news. Common sense, naturally.
She doesn't know what to do with him. Danny wants to help him, but the ghostly part of her, the one that seeks safety above all else — for herself, for her loved ones. Because growing up in a house of weapons on the tables for sticky, pudgy fingers to play with, and food that needs killing twice, and labs full of half-broken beakers and radioactive substances spilling onto the floor robbed her of it entirely, — tells her to leave him.
He's dangerous. Her core hums cold, freezing the tips of her fingers, making her ears ring. She forgets to breathe, her hands going numb. Leave him for the coyotes to find; for the bugs to feast on; for the mud to swallow whole. Leave him for the land. Nobody carries this many weapons on them unless—
He groans. In only the light from her high beams, his cracked lips split and makes a noise of pain. His chest rises, shuddery and slow, and he doesn't wake. The man slips back down into unconsciousness. But he's alive.
He's alive.
Danny exhales. It's springtime, wreathed in life. It's cold; he's cold. But alive. She shakes the chill from her fingers, resolution warms her lungs.
Carrying him up to her car isn't easy — dressed like fucking Dean Winchester and wearing half as many layers, the man is probably two hundred pounds. But she's been working out and taking boxing classes since sophomore year of high school. She throws him over her shoulder in a fireman's carry, and hikes them both up the hill.
She drives them home. Don't ask her why she didn't take them to the hospital; she can't give an answer. Not one that makes sense. She knows enough first aid to fix almost anything he might have.
Danny blasts the heat and turns the music on low; switches to something softer, more comforting, in case he wakes up. She kicks the passenger seat back far enough so that if he does, he's reclined comfortably.
He doesn't wake up, she can't keep her eyes off him anyways.
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Danny lays him on the couch in her house. He gets blood and mud on the fabric, and she'll need to get a new one because of it. But she takes off his boots, strips him of his shirt and jackets, and flies to the bathroom to get her first aid kit.
He doesn't wake up the entire time she's putting stitches in his side. Nothing is broken, but he's bruised and cut. Some get band-aids, others get bandages.
The man has half as many scars as Danny does. Stabs, cuts, a few burns here and there. Danny has those too, but she doubts the man has been impaled before like she has. The luck of ghosts that they can't die by mortal means. Or curse, depending on how you look at it.
(There's a thin scar on his throat, like someone tried to slice it open. She sees it while she's stitching up a laceration near his collarbone, and Danny can't stop herself from huffing.)
("We match." She murmurs, joking dry and ingenuine. She doubts anyone's survived a botched decapitation like she has. At least his scar is thin and hard to see. That wasn't a good night for her; she had to sew it closed herself, alone out of refusal to let her friends help.)
When she's done, she collapses into the recliner beside him, and falls asleep. She slips in and out of dreams all night.
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When she wakes up, the man is staring at her, sitting up on the couch like an animal listening for the predator nearby. It's a good thing she hid his weapons in the floorboards when they arrived. She stares back at him, eyes half-lidded with sleep.
He's handsome. She thinks, and wakes up fully.
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His name is Jason Todd, he doesn't remember who he is.
That's... a problem.
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She makes them both food, and she'll never stop appreciating the fact that she no longer needs to fight her fridge before the food inside lets her eat. She hasn't lived with her parents in years, and yet the awe still hits her some days.
"I thought I told you to stay seated." She frowns when Jason Todd enters her kitchen, a hand hovering over his bandaged side. They're both tense; awkward and wrong-footed. Off-kilter. It's not a surprise to her. He's amnesiac, she's a stranger.
Jason Todd blinks at her, leaning against the doorframe. From her periphery, he shrugs, only to suck in his teeth in pained regret moments later. "I got bored." He tells her.
"Well, I don't have painkillers," Danny retorts, cheek comes easy to her. Too easy, sometimes. "if you tear your stitches then I'm giving you a rag to bite into while I redo them."
Well, if anything, it gets a snort from him.
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"So, do I have a shirt, or did you just find a half-naked, half-dead man in the woods and decide to take him home?" Jason Todd asks her from the table a few minutes later. She can see, even standing a few feet away, the gooseflesh rising bumps against his skin.
Her cheeks color pink, and she moves to the hallway. "You have a shirt," she says, "you have two actually, and a jacket. I threw the shirts in the wash because they were filthy."
The jacket was leather, so during the night, when she woke up from her many bouts of restless sleep, she got up and cleaned it by hand. "I would've done the same with your jeans, but I can take a half-dead man home," she opens the dryer and pulls out the shirts, "but I draw the line at taking off his pants when he's unconscious."
It gets a short laugh out of him; harsh and brief, and it makes her relax, just a little. Laughter meant just enough comfort to not be tense... most of the time. She returns to his side and drapes the still-warm clothes onto the table.
"What if my legs were hurt?" He asks her, raising an eyebrow even as he reached for the first shirt.
"Then that is called an exception to the rule, ditch man."
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He stays with her. He has nowhere to go — and trust her, they looked. Or they tried to. But he has no social media that shows up under the name ‘Jason Todd’. Oh, there are Jason Todds, but none that match the way he looks — none of them his age, none of them with black hair and blue eyes, no white streak in the curls at the front.
Well, there was one possible candidate. A Jason Todd-Wayne, infamous adoptive son of Bruce Wayne. But he died the same year Danny did, and unlike her, he didn’t come back.
“Great.” Jason Todd sighs heavy, “I match with a dead kid.”
“I’m honestly kind of impressed.” Danny tells him, frowning despite her laughing disbelief. She scrolls through every social media she can find, and he just doesn’t show up. There are no warrants out for his arrests, no celebrity interviews with him in it, no missing news reports matching his description. Nothing. “How do you not have any socials? You’re like a ghost.” And she knows a thing or two about ghosts.
It’s equally as suspicious as it is impressive. Who are you, Jason Todd? She wonders, looking over to him.
He merely shrugs, careful of his injuries, and slumps into his chair. “Don’t ask me, I don’t remember.”
She gives him the guest room, and they go out and buy him clothes with what budget she can afford. She drags him to a thrift store first, to every thrift store in the city, and they come back with a decent enough haul that he has clothes for at least two weeks.
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“Danny, what is that?”
She takes a long sip of her drink, Jason lingering at her side like a shadow. “A smoothie, Tucker.” She says, deadpan like it's the most obvious thing in the world as she slides into their favorite booth with practiced ease. “You know this, I always get one on Fridays.”
Jason follows her easily, slow and careful, mindful of his sides. He’s back to awkward, tense, acting like an outside looking in. Like he’s not quite sure what to do in the face of her friends. They’ve been together for a week now, and she asked him if he wanted to meet Sam and Tucker with her.
(“You’ve been cooped up here all week.” She says when he asks her why, her hands shifting the purse at her shoulder. In shorts and a tank-top her scars lay on display for the world to see, and while she's long since shed the worst of her self-consciousness, it still creeps up on her. She can feel his eyes on them, even after a week. “Some fresh air and a change of scenery might do you some good. Maybe even jog that noggin of yours.”)
Sam and Tucker stare at her, expressions unreading on their faces. Their eyes flick to Jason at her side, and then back to her. Danny takes another longer sip of her drink, and when she lets go with an obnoxious smack, she jerks her head to Jason. “Oh,” she says like an afterthought, an impish smile shadowing over her lips. “This is Jason, I found him in a ditch on Sunday.”
"You what!?"
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She doesn’t know how it happens. It sneaks up on her like sunlight creeping across the grass, melting away the morning dew and warming the dirt. She loves him. She loves him, she loves him, she loves him. It’s a terrible, choking thing. Wonderfully beautiful, melting her from the inside out.
She loves him, she loves him, she loves him.
It’s greater than anything she’s felt before. Different from when she nearly dated Valerie in high school — but so, so similar to it at the same time. Warm in its certainty, in its similarity, burning in its difference.
Danny doesn’t even realize it until half a year living with him, maybe just a little bit longer. But she realizes when she comes downstairs in the early dredges of the morning, sleep clinging to her lashes and sunlight unfurling through the windows, and finds him in the kitchen making food already.
It’s not the first time she’s woken up to him doing this. But it’s, for some reason, only now that it hits her how fucking domestic it is. With music playing soft through the speaker of his used phone, barefoot in nothing but sweatpants, and humming along under his breath. He’s gotten so comfortable here; he laughs easier now, smiles easier. It was like watching a flower bloom in real time.
And the sunlight cards through his hair like fingers, caressing over his face in that loving way it does when it wants someone to see the breathless beauty of their eyes.
Something constricts in Danny’s chest, tight, fond, wanting. Mine, her mind whispers, faint and distant, and knocking the air from her lungs like a fucking train. Her fingers curl tight around the stairway rails, she has half a mind to crack it in two.
Then he turns and sees her, he always notices her quickly, and Jason smiles at her.
Somehow, Danny manages to smile back smiling with the ease of breathing, even when her mouth runs dry.
(If she kisses him, will she taste sugar? She hopes not — white sugar is unfilling, sweet but with nothing else to it. If she tastes Jason Todd, she hopes she tastes caramel.)
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“Want to go throw axes with me?” Danny asks, draping over the back of the couch and hanging her arms off Jason’s shoulders. Her hand finds his hair, and her fingers tangle with the dark curls. She can smell his shampoo when she hooks her chin on the top of his head.
Jason stills, a book in hand — he’s always got a book, and Danny’s never had much artistic talent but she always want s to find a pencil, maybe some charcoals, and sketch the sight down on paper. Memory isn’t enough, she needs it burned into something tangible. She wants to burn everything he does onto paper, wants to remember every little thing about him.
Then he hums, questioning and low, and Danny tries not to shiver with greed to hear it again. She hums back, her next inhale clearing her head. “Well, it’s not just me, but Sam and Tucker too. A new bar opened up downtown and we were gonna check it out, and we have enough time to add another person to the reservation.”
A silence, thick and thoughtful. Jason tilts his head back to look up at her, and she removes her chin and hand to look down at him. Her hair curtains over them both, locking her into his eyes — impossibly blue, and beautifully so, with teal lining the iris.
He wears his thoughts on his sleeve, his brows furrowed and mouth puckered in lighthearted thoughtfulness. Quit making me want to kiss you, Danny thinks, and forces her eyes to remain on his face. Idly, her hands trace over his shirt, rising slowly to drag the back of her nail over his collarbone.
Jason shudders, sighs out slow, and smiles easily. “Sure, what time are we leaving?”
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Danny sighs as if she aches; she does. Her fingers find Jason Todd’s hair, soft and slipping between her fingers like silk. He’s so close to her face she can feel his breath on her lips, it’s driving her crazy with it.
“My god.” She murmurs, her voice slipping out without her consent as her fingers drop from his hair to trace featherlight touches down his temples, down his jaw. His eyes haven’t left hers, half-lidded they are, and heavy, staring at her like he might just swallow her whole.
Please do, she thinks, tilting her head to the side to slot their noses next to each other. His hands tighten at her waist, fingers digging through her hoodie into her skin. He hums, questioningly, low and rumbling like a thunderstorm on the horizon. As if he can’t trust his voice to say something instead.
Danny chokes on nothing’s heat and runs her thumb over his bottom lip, the flesh catching briefly on her nail. She can’t think straight with him so close to her. Not when he’s so close she can smell his cologne, not when he’s so close she can lean down and sink her teeth into his throat and leave a bruise. She should, it might clear her head.
Instead, she sighs again, her mouth so close to his that she brushes over his lips when she says; “You’re divine.”
In the end, she doesn’t need to think about leaving bruises on his throat, because Jason closes that centimeters’ worth of distance between each other and kisses her like he needs air.
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“Do you have to go, love?” Arms snake around her waist, slipping easily over her dress, and Danny laughs, soft and easy, as Jason pulls her flush against his chest and drops his head into the crook over her shoulder. He dwarfs her in the mirror, capable of curling around her entirely, and she raises a gloved hand to rake her fingers through his soft hair.
Danny hums deeply, tilting to bare her throat as Jason starts pressing kisses to the skin. “Vlad will be upset if I don’t show up.” She wasn’t sure of the importance of this party, but Vlad had promised her a hefty bribe to show up, and call her greedy but damn if she wasn’t going to turn it down.
Teeth bite gentle at the underside of her jaw, and Danny laughs out of surprise. Jason smiles, indenting it into her skin, and his hand finds the slit of her dress and covers the burn scar on the outside of her thigh. “What about running late?” He asks, something impish in his tone. “I’ve never seen you wear this one; you look good in red.”
Danny laughs again, turns her head to catch his lips against hers, and kisses him long and sweet. “Yes, he’ll be mad if I’m late.” She says when she pulls back.
He pouts, and really, how else is Danny supposed to react other than kiss him again? So she does, happily. “Wake me up when you get back,” Jason murmurs against her mouth, chasing after her, “I want to help you undress.”
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Some days, death creeps up on her, and the phantom pains of it render her coiled into a ball in her bed. She wakes up at three am burning, her starburst scars rooting down to her bones to remind her of the feeling of being torn apart by the atoms and stitched back together again.
Danny can feel her heart beating in her ears, fast and panicked like she ran a marathon, filling her mouth with iron and the urge to cough out her lungs. There’s a scream stuck in the back of her throat like a spider sac, and she writhes with her head in her arms for what feels like an hour before she forces herself out of bed, mind half-muddled like a zombie.
Jason is still asleep, Danny doesn’t have half the mind to be grateful, she shuffles herself down into the garage and grabs a compressed canister from the fridge, hidden in a false shelf. She might not keep ectoplasm in the kitchen, but she does in the garage.
She returns on second nature to the bathroom. She locks the door, shuts the drain, and runs the water to boiling, and doesn’t stop the faucet until the water reaches the little drain in the wall beneath that prevents overflow. The compressed canister cracks open with a hiss, and Danny dumps what’s probably an ounce of ectoplasm into the steaming water.
The effect is instantaneous, the water swirling and turning bright with ectoplasm all the way down. It’s diluted, and Danny only remembers to take off her sleep shirt before she slips into the water.
Relief sinks into her, and chases away the worst of the pain. She sighs, she can breathe again, and dunks her head beneath the water.
Then doesn’t get out until she’s freezing again and nearly peeling with wrinkles.
(She goes downstairs when she’s changed into dry clothes and her hair is damp, and then collapses into Jason’s lap. Her face finds the crook of his neck, and Danny slumps, arms wrapping around his neck.)
(Jason’s hands find her waist, and his thumbs rub circles into her side, slipping under her shirt to run over the raised skin of the burn there. “What’s wrong?” He asks, murmuring low and close to her ear.)
(“Phantom pains.” Danny mumbles.)
(“Where?”)
(“Everywhere.”)
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When Danny returns home after finding Jason again, she feels numb, she feels cold. Her engagement ring is heavy on her finger and she feels like an outsider looking in when she looks down at it.
She can’t get the way he looked at her out of her mind. It’s seared into her brain.
Her back hits the door, and slowly she slides down it, a sob building in her throat. Her lip curling, her heart aching, her heart breaking. Too many questions inside her head for her to try and sort through them, but one is prevalent; Jason Todd is a liar.
Danny shrieks his name so loud that she breaks her ceiling lights, and takes out the power throughout the entire block. There are dogs howling, cars wailing outside. There’s broken glass beneath her, scattered across the ground, cutting into her palms, and she hurts so much she wants to take the biggest shard and shred herself into ribbons.
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The memory fades away back into its small star-shape, and floats back up to the ceiling of her lair’s observatory. Danny watches it go, something small and aching still in her chest. Two weeks since she moved into the Zone, and she hates that she still loves him. She loves that she still loves him.
She hates that she still misses him. She still visits Sam and Tucker, but Amity Park is tainted with the memory of Jason Todd; she needs away from it for a little while. Maybe a long while. She’s not too sure right now, she just needs to stay away. Somewhere where she can’t run into him.
Danny pulls down another star to watch another memory again. One where they're dancing.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#fem danny fenton#amnesic jason todd#dead on main#dpxdc ficlet#starry's writing#who gets amnesia twice!? prompt au#credit goes to kuroishuuha because this was their prompt that inspired this#cw mildly suggestive#danny's 'obsession' being more about her own personal safety along with the safety of her loved ones just makes sense to me in this au#i have so many thoughts about her and jason its lowkey ridiculous.#in my head danny got into boxing and she also has a ton of scars from ghost fights and burn scars from the portal accident#yes that *is* a reference to the fact that Dean Winchester voiced the Red Hood in UTRH! And also I imagined Jason in the#s1 Dean leather jacket and promptly lost my fucking mind. so now he has that. in my head he was undercover when he got amnesia blasted#and the amnesia was from a magic user. and that when he regained his memories the magic got all fucky wucky and thats why he forgot danny.#it didn't exactly go away it just malfunctioned for some reason and latched on to the only other memories he had. accidentally releasing#the hold it had on his prior memories in turn. it's just horrible luck all around folks. bad end jason is having a terrible time frankly.#so is danny but they're kinda suffering on the same yet different frequencies. danny can't understand why jason would run off on her#and thought he was pretending not to know her. it threw her entire perception of him into question and whether or not the last three#years were even real or if he was just a fantastic actor. she's obsessively rewatching memories of them together to try and figure out if#he ever let his 'facade' slip around her and she just didn't notice. and also because she just. really fucking misses him. he disappeared#for three months. she was worried sick. they were supposed to be married by now. she had to call all their venues and cancel. she returned#her wedding dress. she's hurting terribly right now. Jason is like. one wrong rubber band snap from pulling a Tim. He didn't fall out of#love. he forgot and now he's remembering and he's still madly in love with his fiancé. its only been 3mo but now she's dead and he is just.#SUFFERING. someone keep an eye on him yall. he's not doing too hot. the waynes are cursed to never get married ifykyk
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i’m so pressured with improving myself as an artist and it’s making me lose it because i’m not even doing art for my career but i love it so much. Like i kinda feel useless doing it sometimes, especially since i see other artists and i know damn well i will never achieve that level and im not saying this for people to feel pity but idk i feel like my art style doesn’t fit tr.???3! or like idk. Sometimes i’ll literally cry because i feel like my art style doesn’t fit rindou and she’s literally my muse, she’s the reason why i get so excited to sit down and draw everyday yet i feel like im just stuck sitting somewhere where i can’t do anything special to show my love for her and it sounds silly.. bc that’s a fictional character but still, ive liked this character for so long and i see improvement just from drawing rindou non stop but i still feel like im just barely touching the surface of improvement. Also i feel like i care too much about what others may like vs what i want to try and draw.. i want to draw her raw and literally how i perceive her, her character, her body, every single aspect of her and why she’s so important to me. Yet i can’t do that because i get so scared of the outcome/how my artwork looks/ how others will perceive it. And im not saying im not happy with my art, i am but there’s just ways i want to do it i feel like wont stick out to others which scares me or it will seem ooc of rindou. literally because of this i always have the urge to delete my account and restart and continue doing that till i feel like i perfected her yet i dont think that’ll ever happen even with how much love i have for that character
#this sounds fucking crazy just lock me up#this is a dumb rant#but it’s been on my mind for so long and i wanted to say it here since i’m a bit more comfortable on tumblr (barely)#i think i compare myself way too much with other artists who i guess draw characters crazy hot or smrh😭😭LOL which is like yeah duh everyone+#is gonna love that#but i don’t like drawing that stuff..!! at all yet i try sometimes because i know ppl like it but im like eughhh..#i dunno. Maybe it’s also because i just don’t see rindou as a dude so that fucks me over at the same time#i liked rindou ever since ???? the stupid ass debut just because i thought her design was cool#and i’m still not happy how i can’t draw her like how i would like to#at the same time i am but i know damn well im rlly not#which is why i always try to draw her with scenery or just doing simple things i dunno.. i think its sweet. I want to see her just live#and i feel like im very repetitive with my art which im trying to be less of but its hard obviously no matter how much i practice ill +#still want to draw how i’m used to
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i was like did 2024 even happen but i straightup came out as trans in 2024.
#txt#2023 i graduated college lived the neet life for a couple months then got inspired by my parents' loser friend to get a job at subway#2024 i go to anime boston cosplaying epel + neige realize i Really Really like being seen as them first & a girl second if at all & decide#- to come out to my parents. would not recommend. moms are like 0/10. then get job at AWFUL EMPLOYMENT THAT SUCKS LLC. have been#-exhausted and gradually turning evil ever since. and not in the hot way.#i need to get unemployed again and then my post quality will go up 1000000%.#bruh can you imagine. i have never been both unemployed + on T at the same time. i think i would invent a religion#can we do the UBI experiment yet. your least productive citizen is readayyyyyyyyy
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Why do you like Sukuna so much?
I was halfway through writing up a few paragraphs but i ended up scrapping it bc i ddint knwo what i was saying anymore. Hes just. My everything
I JUAT LOVE HIM SAUR MUCH WHAT IS THERE NOT TO LOVE??#;@**# HES SO GRRRRAAAHHHHHHHH 💝💓💝💓💗💗💘💓💝💕💘💞💓💝💗💝💓💝💞💝💞💘💞💓💝💓💓💝💘💞💞💝💓💝💗💓💝💘💞💕💘💞💘💓💓💗💝💓💝💘💞💘💕💞💝💓💝💓💞💝💞💞💝💞💓💝💗💝💞💞💝💓💝💓💝💞💞
#to sum up; hes a diabolic menace with no regard for others but has a shit ton of charisma that just endlessly captivates me with no end.#hes also FUNNY BRUH#hes hot. hes insane. but he has his mature and wise moments#he likes to have fun... he likes to eat (humans).... hes so unserious#hes so complex and yet simple at the same time?!?^@*^#sukuna is highkey? all over the place. but in a way that makes sense like idk how else to describe this#i just adore him 😔 ik i write him AUs a shitton but his canon self is so 👌#im just horribly intimidated by the idea of trying to actually capture his personality in jjk...#props to all the writers that tackle the mans canon self 👏 i also want to write my own heian era fic one day?? idk..#anyway sorry anon i went off the rails over one question byebye#poe answers
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#Doodles#Osmosis Jones#Damned#Ozzy#Drix#Thrax#You may remember my DAX card - cough - and also my Stanley card! Also cough huh actually lol#Stanley's looked much more like this tho#Which would be because they're all part of the same printed set!#I actually have another like dozen-ish of these#Might show 'em off in the end-of-year roundup 👀 But for now it's just these guys! The sillies!#In very legible ink lol - I can read it and they're my notes so that's the important bit#I think Thrax's last name would actually be ''Roja'' tho so that's on me#Also why is Drix called Drixenol when his full first name is Drixobenzometaphendramine - where's the L come from#I've been Jonesing - pun intended - to fill out Ozzy's ''personality'' section for aaaggesss#I keep trying to pick at a scene with him and it's just not turning out! Need an easy-overview of his traits and features lol#I did actually have a new idea after making these so I think I was onto something lol#He has a very fun character type ♪ He's oddly socially aware for how annoying he can be! He does it on purpose!!#Drix is the exact opposite so they're great contrasts to each other hehe <3 Drix Tries to be helpful and fumbles it but he's so earnest!#Also finally got me decided on their room placements - so much easier to coordinate them at Night with that square#They don't have roommates Yet but based on who was inhabiting which rooms originally....o3o It's an idea isn't it hmmm#I went and read Thrax's description on one of his wiki pages as well and he was described as ''Cold'' and I was like uhm???#Like yes he does kill in cold-blood - he's pretty unflinching and indiscriminate with what and who he aims his fire power at#But with his hot-headed attitude and overall heat aesthetic I have a difficult time calling him Cold exactly - cool for sure! Haha#But yeah I dunno about that - he's also a nerd which I find very fun haha sets up a powerpoint presentation for his thugs#And just ends up doing the main bit himself anyway! He just likes to talk about his plans hehehe#It really is double-fun to have them all from different points in their timelines ahh ♪ Who and what they know so fun to play in#The secret-keeping and surprises are my favourite part! Mismatch and uncertainty! Love that#I also had a lot of fun with their background splashes :) Ozzy gets blue cells - Drix gets his pills and some fizzles#And Thrax's cell-destroying fire and flames were stylized so cool! Also has a bit of a pollen look as well! I enjoy
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GODDDDD THE WAY KAN LOOKS AT TEW - whenever Kan flirts with Tew, he doesn’t know how it will be received, he is constantly gauging Tew but whenever Tew gives him a good reaction = Kan knows his flirtatious statement was received well, his eyes twinkles like two stars ⭐️w⭐️ as if he is in awe? It’s like Kan is mesmerised and surprised to see this softer side of Tew? But his flirting attempts are so awkward and I know for a fact it is the way it is (pretty sure the director made sure it would be awkwardly felt by the audience) because Kan is not entirely sincere when he is throwing those lovey dovey words out to Tew. But what makes me go crazy is that there is a mix of bluff and genuine feelings going on, and this mix is handled pretty well by the show IM INTRIGUED.
Fellows we should know it’s a red flag when someone love bombs you and I think this is kinda what Kan is doing right now except there are truly moments we see Kan whipped for Tew??? Oh my - Kan truly love to see what kind of reactions he can get out of Tew.
Kan even sends the 🥺🥺🥺 eyes whenever Tew throws out a suspicion on him like “you suspect me? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺”
My guess is that the later part would involved Tew having to choose if he believes in Kan’s cause or not and this choice will determine if Kan lives or not. It feels like Kan is a perfect scapegoat for the real murderer and the underlying plot going on and if Tew doesn’t come to his rescue, I think Kan might die.
#spare me your mercy#I am kinda loving this even tho I said I won’t be supporting P’Wor new works after how everything went down in the previous series#but it’s sammon plot#and I love manners of death#i am also 🥺🥺🥺#I am not familiar with the actors yet#I would just like to say doctor kan actor I love you#and inspector tew is very cute and hot at the same time#my gosh#I love new findings :D
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im reaching new and concerning levels of understanding watanuki on a personal level
#there we go thats the post#at this point its hard to tell which traits of his i DONT understand on a personal level#cutaway gag to me watching this show in like 2011 like waow cool gay ghost show having no idea whats about to hit me#watanuki is and will always be the best metaphor i turn to in times of struggle because i guess we r the fucking same except hes hot#and has eternal life and is more selfless#other than that we r the same#I say i kin him sometimes as a joke but like i probably do feel that connection more than plenty of people who actually kin LOL like#not LITERALLY but i am very aware of it all#no such thing as coincidence. you meet the pathetic twink when you are like 12 or something and your fate has been sealed#the funny part of this is when im in love i feel a lot like doumeki actually#i carry both of their fundamental legacies like in rakugo shinju but instead of cool shit i am like actively rotting#anyway the love is still there im just. im not allowed to. do it. i guess#i dont know#i dont fucking know#i want to fast forward to the time we can laugh abt it and i can go you are my best friend in the whole world we're perfectly ok#anyways#at least i can be like. Sick xxxholic reference#whenever anything horrible happens to me#but unfortunately it isnt making anything go away yet#love is terrifying#i guess if i was in either of their positions i wouldn't close the distance either#id need the other person to show me#and id still be terrified to cross the boundary#now more than ever#its funny isnt it#now if i joke about that stuff itll be at my expense too
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I havent watched all of the new vikings valhalla yet but I love the scenes at the vatican. Godwin basically third wheeling Emma and canute, him and Emma seeming to try and avoid each other and canute being so close ti just storming off all the time. Its so much fun.
i'm so serious when i say emma and godwin need a spin-off where they sneak diss, outmaneuver, and banter with each other while canute rolls his eyes at the scenes they cause at court...netflix do your thing!!
#how are they too chaotic yet calm and collected at the same time i'm shaking#i love you emma i love you godwin#they're so hot!!!#godwin x emma#vikings valhalla#emma of normandy#earl godwin#anon#messages
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I will survive my 6 month streak curse of being in love and having the mega hots for Robert Mitchum
#cherry says#nodding my head silently trying to be in resigned contentedness and acceptance#6 months bitch even if u count from the dream on thats to November bitch#i predict at most by the time fall semester ends#fuck *sits down* im fine ill reach in my fridge and get a beer out even though I don't like beer#me after crying and grieving for the 356th time: okay let's go *crawls in the bed with him*#hes cursed me and yet at the same time this has opened my eyes compared to the sweet normal years#where i was a fan of his anyway and was just like yeah hes a crazy good performer hes kinda hot ugly and moved on#and suddenly with the curse and everything else its all opened to me his fullest effect on me#its all so terrible but i cant help myself even if i lock the doors and throw away the keys ugh okay baby just come in stay for the fall to#stay over for the rest of your time you want
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Last night this 18 year old was like. REALLY aggressively flirting with me. And I am always awkward with flirting and also like I am reasonably sure that you are an infant child so not really interested.
but like we were talking about flagging as a top or bottom and she was like so HYPOTHETICALLY if you DID have a carabiner on what side would it be on and I was like I mean idk vers tending bottom? no actually. vers tending top I just find bottoming easier cause I only recently got out of the headspace that sex is like. a thing that happens to you.
and she was like OH THAT'S REALLY SAD yeah I'm glad I got past that it's probably cause I started so young lol
and like not to read this random teenager for filth on the internet but babe based a) on that, b) on the aggressiveness with which you're flirting with everyone and saying loudly how you just Keep Having Sex By Accident While High, c) literally every part of your 18 year old vibe, I am going to say with 99.999999% certainty that
you have not yet figured out the difference between being attracted to people and thinking that sex is your core value/a thing that happens outside your control
you are not past that point
it will probably be several years before you begin to fully realise how not there you are
see this is why I'm not on the team many of my friends are (which is that it's fine to flirt back and kiss people in bars who might be way younger than you but not to sleep with them or get into relationships). and it's not (just) because I'm on a moral high horse or I'm scared of directly harming them, it's mostly that it is deeply unsexy to look your past self dead in someone else's eyes and be like "well regardless of how I act in this moment, you are going to be doing a Lot Of Unpacking of this part of your life over the next 10-15 years"
#red said#i feel like i would find it easier to flirt if dyke flirting didn't tend to involve so much on the sleeve trauma shit#because the thing is i really LIKE having deep and meaningful conversations about trauma but usually it is not super hot#especially when the other person is not AWARE YET of how obviously fucked up about it they are#and the difficulty with talking to people way younger with similar life experiences is that these lessons can ONLY be learnt for yourself#and it sucks because you're like. look you are in such a bad place and i have all the relevant answers but there is NO WAY TO CONVEY THEM#because they can ONLY COME WITH TIME AND DISTANCE#no offence to the several beloved mutuals who are Teens. it isn't like a 'you are stupid and ignorant' thing#but when i talk to people i remember exactly how it felt to be there and also exactly how it felt to be told the stuff i wanna tell them#and it didn't HELP VERY MUCH because it's like telling someone they're in an abusive relationship. you gotta get the distance in yourself#before you're ready to actually hear and absorb that information#and I'm pretty sure that in another 10 years i may well feel the same about 30 year olds ybf
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