#and i feel like im very repetitive with my art which im trying to be less of but its hard obviously no matter how much i practice ill +
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i’m so pressured with improving myself as an artist and it’s making me lose it because i’m not even doing art for my career but i love it so much. Like i kinda feel useless doing it sometimes, especially since i see other artists and i know damn well i will never achieve that level and im not saying this for people to feel pity but idk i feel like my art style doesn’t fit tr.???3! or like idk. Sometimes i’ll literally cry because i feel like my art style doesn’t fit rindou and she’s literally my muse, she’s the reason why i get so excited to sit down and draw everyday yet i feel like im just stuck sitting somewhere where i can’t do anything special to show my love for her and it sounds silly.. bc that’s a fictional character but still, ive liked this character for so long and i see improvement just from drawing rindou non stop but i still feel like im just barely touching the surface of improvement. Also i feel like i care too much about what others may like vs what i want to try and draw.. i want to draw her raw and literally how i perceive her, her character, her body, every single aspect of her and why she’s so important to me. Yet i can’t do that because i get so scared of the outcome/how my artwork looks/ how others will perceive it. And im not saying im not happy with my art, i am but there’s just ways i want to do it i feel like wont stick out to others which scares me or it will seem ooc of rindou. literally because of this i always have the urge to delete my account and restart and continue doing that till i feel like i perfected her yet i dont think that’ll ever happen even with how much love i have for that character
#this sounds fucking crazy just lock me up#this is a dumb rant#but it’s been on my mind for so long and i wanted to say it here since i’m a bit more comfortable on tumblr (barely)#i think i compare myself way too much with other artists who i guess draw characters crazy hot or smrh😭😭LOL which is like yeah duh everyone+#is gonna love that#but i don’t like drawing that stuff..!! at all yet i try sometimes because i know ppl like it but im like eughhh..#i dunno. Maybe it’s also because i just don’t see rindou as a dude so that fucks me over at the same time#i liked rindou ever since ???? the stupid ass debut just because i thought her design was cool#and i’m still not happy how i can’t draw her like how i would like to#at the same time i am but i know damn well im rlly not#which is why i always try to draw her with scenery or just doing simple things i dunno.. i think its sweet. I want to see her just live#and i feel like im very repetitive with my art which im trying to be less of but its hard obviously no matter how much i practice ill +#still want to draw how i’m used to
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Do you have any tips/advice for someone doing comics? Like, shorter ones, not necessarily longer form stuff? How to plan a lil scene, set up panels, etc? Anyway, I like your comics a lot, your art is really cool and I hope you have a nice day <3
i feel like i do what you arent supposed to do, but i write a lot of my short comics from the seat of my pants. i have a general idea of what i what to accomplish, sometimes i have some dialogue and stage direction written in my notes app, and i just. draw a rectangle and start going. that tends to be why a lot of my mspaint comics tend to be talking head type deals, haha. ill try to give some proper advice, but im also just a hobbist whos taken a some classes about communication through design and comics years ago.
most comics do well if you establish a scene with a larger set piece, then you can narrow down to characters or actions. show us where we are in space, and the audience can take that knowledge and move along the other panels with a stronger suspension of disbelief. (bc comics are all about giving toys to your reader and hoping they play with you) heres the first page of my anya n swansea comic illustrating this. big location panel, then narrowing down to character moments.
you notice as i focus more on dialogue, that my scenery gets left out. this is bc theres only so much space in a panel, so i need to choose what gets shown. of course this depends on what medium you work with, but the gist is the same amongst all types. dont give your reader TOO much to play with or they might get confused, or will start skimming. not what we want!
for shorter comics, id suggest something eye catching right at the beginning to catch readers attention. if you have multiple "pages" or breaks in the comic, make sure the last panel before the next page is enticing. be it a punchline or cliff hanger, something to keep the reader interested. jingle those keys. in general most short comics need to end on a punchline or satisfaction or deep thought. something for the reader to chew on after their done reading, or to inspire rereading. makes for a satisfying read!
but it also depends on how you want to structure a comic page. this comic of anya and curly i did is very different than the previous one i showed, and i think its one of my fav recent comics. it starts with a weird piece of dialogue that makes you ask "what does that mean" which gets answered by the next panels. theres visual and spoken repetition, theres very little said, and its short and sweet. very easy to read and reread, so its easy to take in, and its easy for the reader to sit with it longer and ponder it more. and be able to draw their own conclusions. play touys with meeee
i think when it comes to planning scenes, it depends on what you want the reader to get out of it. when i was planning this comic page, i really wanted to mention that curlys tear ducts probably dont work, and anyas been wearing the same contact lenses for months! i wanted to showcase their similarities and how they mirror each other narratively and i had the idea to use the onomatopoeia of drip to stand in for the drip of saline. but i didnt have any solid ideas past that. but i do like showcasing mundane sort of events, so i thought maybe just a simple exchange of using saline to wet curlys eye, and then her eyes. initially the idea to literally copy and paste the action of applying the saline was out of ease so i didnt have to draw it again, but i found that it worked for the narrative, so i leaned into that. i flipped anya around to better convey them as on either side of the mirror, and had anya repeat her dialogue.
something else to debate about in layout, is making sure the comic isnt too unbalanced (unless thats a theme/motif youre wanting to work with) in this comic page, anya always remains on the left side, except the first panel where she is on the right. i Could have swapped her and her dialogue in the first panel, so she stays on the left and better mirrors curly in panel 3, but if i did that, the comic would be very left heavy. anyas hair and her clothes are a heavy, dark color, it takes up a lot of visual attention. i thought the comic would look more pleasant for anya to be on the right in the first panel to balance it out, as i didnt find much narrative use for her to be on the left side always. the reader would still read the comic left to right and follow the typical reading pattern regardless. to make up for this, in panel 3, curly mirrors the angle she's at in panel 1, its not an exact mirror, but its enough that i was satisfied with it.
in other comics, it might be easier to play with how the eye would move across the page. regardless, its something important to keep in mind. you have to assume how the reader will read your comic, and if youre going to be breaking the rules, you need to put in lots of safeguards to make sure the reader can understand what youre doing. too much dialogue in confusing places? work with the speech bubbles to create hierarchy and flow so the reader knows how to read everything in order. number one rule of design we were taught was people are stupid, so you have to play at their level, or baby proof your level DX designers and artists know all the rules, but readers dont have a grasp on the rules themselves, just the vibes of the rules.
the most important thing with comics is legibility. if the reader cant understand or follow the comic, it might as well be like them not reading it at all. and the worst thing that could happen is they think what youre doing is pointless. so you have to juggle what you want to accomplish, what the reader can understand, what the medium limits you to, and what rules you think you can get away with breaking.
hope this is some sort of satisfying answer! i feel like im always hit or miss with advice XD;;
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Comics that resonate with me in an unexplainable way - a rec list
☆ amount represents how much is resonated with me (aka how obsessed i became or how deep i loved) which is a personal thing not a quality thing.
sorted by sections below ⬇️
Manga
Zeikin de katta hon☆☆☆ - delinquent wants to use library. OH NO! he needs to return a book he lost when he was child. welp. reimbursement time. he does (while embarrassed) and ends up working in the library in the process and growing as a person. messages relate to the books and library practices in the chapter.
pos: AUGHHHH. comforting, imformativs, beautiful messages, well-written characters that each carry a message, and makes you fall in love with libraries and books (you will appreciate librarians 10x more)
neg: some charas can feel exagerated and some jokes are repeated one too many times
Magmell shinkai suizokukan☆☆☆ - i wanna work in an aquarium! a well renowned first ever deep sea aquarium! and i am. just as a janitor. but its ok since i get to watch and learn about all these wonderful creatures. i hope people see how beautiful they are too. each chapter carries a message tied to the creature it covers.
pos: GOD DAMN the art is beautiful. informative on the deep sea, well written characters and their psychology, nice mystery build up along the slice of life, you will be enraptured by the "ugly" deep sea. will make you believe in yourself and your dreams and that you can always grow and improve
neg: some scenarios of the world dont make sense with how the creatures would usually behave, weird age gap side-story (did not happen and was handled responsibly but still)
Butai ni sake☆☆ - they said i sounded scary. what if everyone will misinterpret me again? im at a new school for hs. i got this. how can i learn to be more, less scary? wait what club is showcasing right now? the... threatre club? maybe thats the answer. chapters show the club preparing for plays!
pos: RELATABLE AF characters. the messages are strong throughout and all the showcase of what goes on in a theatre club is very accurate. it makes you fall in love with the art and if youre already a theatre kid like me, i think youll be impressed and find it relatable.
neg: besides the main 2 characters, side characters can feel underdeveloped. ESPECIALLY one of them. the ending is very open-ended on the romance that they kept on implying (though it mightve just been bait)
Yokai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita☆☆ - imagine the most pathetic man you can muster. now make him 100x more wimpy to the point hes hussled by kindergardners. thats the mc of yohaji abe haruaki! he became a shut-in after trying to teach at a school and getting scared away by delinquents. but wait! a family friend has let him work at a school. with its own island?! wow this is an amazing oppurtuni- ITS A SCHOOL FOR YOKAI?! starts out as comedy but plot and characters develop along the way
pos: AMAZING characters, well developed relationships, great development throughout the story overall, fun yokai trivia, and well incorparated comedy. also. GAY. like- well written abd casually. pretty art btw.
neg: humour can be repetitive and too questionable for some. lowk the mangakas kinks are slipping through into it 💀 the timeline of one year feels like its streching on for ATLEAST 2 with the amount of shit that happens. once again, lots of questionable things. like time travel age gap. or just age gap ship bait. or just the mc. he gets a pass tho.
Manwha
The makeup remover☆☆☆ - i am ugly. but im ok with that, i mean im just a photography student. but i guess i could try more... how does everybody just become beautiful? how do they learn? OMG HE FUCKED UP MY MAKEUP. wait whos this new random dude. and why is he asking me to be his model for a makeup competiton??? the story follows this duo in the makeup competition.
pos: AMAZING STORY. AMAZING MESSAGES. each character FEELS like a message. they're well written. it feels realistic. the makeup looks SO CREATIVE. the relationships between characters are developed well and the diverse cast of backgrounds allow for good subplots that make you CARE and think about the messages they carry as they resonate in your soul. it shows both the good and bad of makeup. realistic. truly.
neg: very vauge open ending on relationship front as they kept teasing multiple relationships and it just- no payoff. spme character backgrounds were not explored enough.
Sambong barbershop☆☆ - theres a virus spreading around to ugly people when they break. im scared ill be next. but then a cat steaps her watch, she follows it to a barbershop and- is that a humanoid cat?! smoking a cig?????? oh and a majestic dude who cut hair with gigantic scissors. blablabla she ends up working at a barbershop. sambong barbershop. it shows how one can grow as a person yet stay the same as the mc works at the barbershop.
pos: good message, complex charas (they can be assholely but theyre human), cool action scenes and fantasy elements, very realistic as, well youll see how the development goes if you read this comic.
neg: artstyle takes a while to grow on you and ending was- random. and ambig. also, because its very realistic it guves a more harsh vibe to the message rather than positivity (not a full downside tho). also the world-building is very unclear and vauge.
Surviving romance☆☆☆ - ive been isekaid into my favourite romance novel. ahh this is the life, ill get my happily ever after, who cares about those faceless extras. lalalala- ZOMBIE OUTBREAK??? I DIE?! wait. im. alive again. at the beginning of that day. WHATS GOING ON??? the story follows how she'll survive this nightmare by getting to know unknown extras she has never cared for along the way.
pos: AMAZING development throughout the story as always by lee yone. characters and relationships grow very well and the mystery us very well developed and hints are rlly good! as hidden yet visible as they need to be. the pacing was good and the artstyle is very charming. the visuals are also used very cleverly and creatively. you can even see hints in the first few scenes! also, friendship! and a good, hopeful message for anyone struggling.
neg: ending can feel very luck based. also very open-ended (personally part of the charm tho). also questionable age losgistics and some might not like the character attitude switch ups.
Peace restaurant☆ - the dimensions have all collapsed together, right in seoul. naturally, theres war over land. but one safe haven owned by a mysteriously strong and feared lady, is peace restaurant. the newly awakened demon king is ready to fly there and when he does- be gets beat up. and not by the warrior there- BUT BY THE LADY???? the story follows the growing mystery behind the mc and the "fight" agaisnt people who oppose her restaurant.
pos: love the mystery and found fam. fun exaggerated characters yet also clearly more depth hiding beneath that. love through cooking. comedy that grows plot my fav genre fr. also, very cool dishes and world. also good character and relationship development for one chara. also, HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS!
neg: other characters could be more well developed and complex. change can feel too fast suddenly accepted by the mc. the current arc (chap 26ish i think?) is dragging FAR longer than it needs to. could benefit from more realistic characters (though its probably a writing choice for the tone of the story)
Webtoon
Cursed princess club☆☆ - gwendolyn is beautiful, just like the rest of her siblings, everyone in her life thinks so. though her life in inside the palace due to her overorotective father. but when she and her sisters are set to get engaged to the plaid princes and her fiance calls her UGLY. her world shatters as she realizes hes right. she runs into the forest as she cries and WHATS THAT. she passes out and wakes up in a mansion with princesses having a tea party outside. huh. so this isnt a haunted forest? WAIT WHATS WITH THE LONG NOSE? AND HOLLOW EYES?? AND- LOBSTER HANDS???? she has just stumbled upon the cursed princess club. the story shows a journey of self improvement and self love.
pos: WAAAA I ACTUALLY CRIED AT THE ENDING. very well written characters that develop over time, creative curses and good foreshadowing. the subversion of tropes is PEAK. it has good callbacks, parallels, analogies, etc.
neg: i feel like many characters can be explored more, worldbuilding unclear, and cam often times focys on romance more than id like. humour is very often misplaced such as in serious scenes when they should be before or after the peak of tension instead of well- at the peak. some relationships and feelings feel- random? and also bad people are way too easily forgiven. i feel like there needs to be a line to the positive messaging on that front.
Maho shonen☆ - ahh magical girls. teenage girls with superpowers. ah! 2 guide are descending and- TWO FULLY GROWN MEN?! and the gaurdians are, well.... they're certainly not cutesy, on the inside at least. and the grown men? they're just plain horrid at their job. the only thing they gain from all this, is trauma! not like they're already stocked up on it. oh, and each other of course! the story shows how the two will get through this whole ordeal as well as their daily life.
pos: the story WILL grow on you. cool art, good trope subversions esp in the price of being a magical girl. explores the psychology of it all and has well written characters that deal with realistic issues. also very nice duo dynamic.
neg: the humour may not suit everyone as it can be a bit more mature. it does take a few eps to get good and grow on you.
Our walk home☆ - two academic rivals.... wait, why aren't they acting like rivals at all? they're even getting along? and finding things in common?! they're letting the masks slip. but their rivaling schools won't be happy to hear about this from their top students. afterall, no one from the two schools are allowed to be friends. the story shows how these two mask-wearing academic achievers get through life together. and maybe, just maybe, fall in love.
pos: VERY good exploration of identity and self-worth and VERY relatable. the characters are very well written and have simple yet recognizable designs, a cute dynamic between the mcs.
neg: honestly, i don't know. it just didn't attach to my soul. probably secondary character relationships could be further expanded on.
The bathroom ghost☆☆ - ghost are scary. but this ghost, is just REALLY BAD AT HER JOB! what's a ghost to do when she can't scare? and is stuck in a mall bathroom of all places? worse yet, the managers keep badgering her about it! this follows her hijinks.
pos: the COOLEST artstyle I've seen in a comic with a very fitting and unique feel. cool character design, simple, yet entertaining, comedy, great use of body language, hidden plot developing. mc is very endearing and so are the rest of the characters. it's just so feel-good and heartwarming.
neg: takes a few episodes to move on from episodic if you dislike that. honestly, i just need more. that's my only complaint. GIVE ME MORE VOLPEE
#rec list#comic recommendations#manga recommendation#webtoon recommendation#recommendations#zeikin de katta hon#magmell shinkai suizokukan#deep sea aquarium magmell#yohaji#yokai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita#a terrified teacher at ghoul school#butai ni sake#the makeup remover#the man who removes makeup#surviving romance#peace restaurant#pyeonghwa restaurant#sambong barbershop#cursed princess club#cpc webtoon#cpc#maho shonen#our walk home#owh webtoom#the bathroom ghost#the bathroom ghost webtoon#webtoon#manga#manhwa#manhwa recommendation
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'Controlled'
pairing: dom!janis imi'ike x sub!regina george
words: 2,685
content warning: harddom!janis, puppyslutsub!regina, bdsm, d/s dynamic, hypno kink, puppy play, forced puppyfication, cnc, strap, humiliation, corruption, oral fixation, orgasm torture, overstimulation, frottage and grinding, spitplay (drool)
summary: she doesn't know what's good for her, but she'll learn
a/n: any tist's or people that do hypno (whether erotic or not), i want to make it clear that it was an artistic choice to not include dialogue of each suggestion of triggers that janis gives. i thought that it would get too repetitive and it could've potentially made the reaction a little underwhelming. however, i fully understand that suggestions must be made in order for a trigger to essentially function. i don't know if im overthinking it or not but im really not out here trying to misrepresent the art that is hypnosis with my subpar knowledge :D
"What makes you think you can talk to me like that?" Janis stalked behind the taller girl, her voice eerily calm and collected by her neck.
Regina only scoffed in return, finding the girls attempt at intimidation humorous at best.
"Kneel right now" the brunette ordered, her low tone already tickling Regina's inherent need to submit to the woman. "Fucking kneel!" Janis raised her voice when the blonde gave her an unimpressed look.
They had been playfully arguing about how Regina would make a beautifully pliable puppy, to which the blonde counter argued that the brunette was crazy to think that she would ever have such little dignity, especially in front of someone who knew her to be so confident in the way she held herself.
It was when Regia kept insisting a little too seriously that Janis was "delusional" that the brunette knew it was the perfect time to start the scene.
Janis grabbed the girl's wrist and dragged her into their shared bedroom. Not one part of her was surprised when Regina didn't put up a fight. She would never admit it but she arguably preferred submission over dominance. It was very obvious but she liked to think that it wasn't.
The blonde held the fierce eye contact that the brunette threatened her with, her peripheral catching how the girl's chest heaved in rage. Regina couldn't help the way her eyebrow cocked along with the smirk that pulled at her lips, which ultimately drove Janis to quickly push the girl onto the floor by her head, forcing weight on it until her knees gave out and she dropped on the hardwood.
"What the fuck are you doing?!" the blonde exclaimed as Janis forced her arms behind her back and gave her a warning and expectant look to stay put.
"You don't know what's good for you, Regina" the brunette hummed, controlling the rage in her voice as she moved to retrieve a couple of accessories to aid what she was about to put the stubborn girl through.
After Regina collected herself from being called her name by her girlfriend, she scoffed once more at her words. "So you're going to force me to find out what is?" she challenged, cocking her head though she kept her position.
"Oh please, don't act like you don't want it!" Janis retorted as she stepped back in front of the kneeling girl.
Regina rolled her eyes because she knew that the girl was right.
Janis joined the blonde on the floor, sitting in front of her to bring her to eye level. "Deep breath" she commanded as she forced eye contact with the blonde once more. She smiled as the girl complied, seeing a bit of her reserve dissolving. "Relax your body, untense, let your knees and arms slack if they need to" the brunette tapped into the familiar soft, monotone part of her voice.
On the exhale, the blonde allowed her body to relax. Her head dropped slightly and her arms unlinked, falling by her sides. Her weight fell into her hips, pushing down into her thighs.
"Good girl, one more time~". Janis encouraged as she mirrored the action, hopefully pushing the girl to feel more comfortable. "Let those eyes fall, listen to your body", she hummed as she kept a close eye on the girl's breathing.
Regina slumped on the exhale further. Her head closer to lolling but still not fully dropped, her stomach more pushed out as her chest hallowed.
"Such a good girl. Every time I say 'good girl' you are going to feel yourself relaxing deeper into that safe, secure place. Don't resist it" the brunette continued, smiling as she saw the girls eyes starting to flutter shut and become one with her breathing.
"Now, every time I touch your forehead and say 'stop' you're going to return to your normal state. Your breathing will be normal as if you just woke up. When you hear a snap, you're going to fall two times deeper into that safe, dumb, thoughtless place. Nod if you understand". Janis hummed, pleased with how quickly the girl was falling into trance.
The blonde gave a slight nod, showing the brunette that she was actively listening.
She brought her finger up and tapped her forehead, humming the release trigger. Regina blinked her eyes open, a tired smile on her face as the brunette came into sight again. "Very good~. How was that, baby?", she asked as her hand reached to stroke at the girl's thigh.
Regina gave her a less powerful scoff. "Do you think this is actually going to work?" she got out just before the snap resonated in her head and she instantly dropped deeper into trance.
Janis let a soft laugh leave her at the irony of the moment. "I'm going to touch your forehead and you will undress unknowingly. It will feel instinctual and natural and you will not realise until I point it out. You're doing so well, baby" she suggested, her tone becoming a bit more commanding, but still recognisable to the tranced girl.
As soon as Regina felt the touch to her face, her eyes fluttered open and she took in the girl's pleased face. She reached for the bottom of her shirt, pulling it over her head and handing it to the girl in front of her. Janis took it with a chuckle at which Regina furrowed her brows.
The blonde pushed back on her ass to peel off the boxers that she was wearing, handing that to the girl too. Janis took a moment to acknowledge the light sheen of arousal that glazed the girls cunt. She waited for Regina to kneel again before piping up.
"Notice anything?" the brunette gestured to her body, fighting a smirk.
Regina looked down, taken aback by her naked state. "Oh fuck...I'm getting wet" she mumbled, feeling the growing throbbing at her cunt. She fought the confusing urge to let her hands fall between her thighs.
Janis let that smirk make itself known. "Well that was quick, huh?" she teased lightly.
"Shut the fuck up—" Regina just managed to retort before that snap triggered that familiar response that now become muscle memory.
The brunette took this opportunity to secure a leather collar around the girl's neck, making sure it wasn't too tight but tight enough to always be felt. She also slipped a leather harness onto her hips, fastening the buckles in the front snugly.
"When I touch your nose and say 'puppy' you are going to only think puppy thoughts. You will act like a puppy and nothing will exist besides following commands and being a good girl.". Janis hummed, feeling herself really getting into it now.
The trigger elicited a low whine in the back of Regina's throat as she came back into something akin to reality. These puppy-like sounds continued as she planted her fist against the ground and pushed her back up, now on all fours with her back arched.
She briefly shook her head, as if to rid of the hazy feeling in her body which Janis found endearing.
The blonde looked up at the shorter girl, her tongue threatening to loll out.
"Let go, puppy" Janis encouraged softly as she moved to stand back up. She hummed when the girl let her tongue hang out, little pants accompanying the act.
Regina started to barely noticeably wiggle her ass along with her panting but was encouraged by the hummed "good girl" that once again fell from the brunette's lips.
The brunette watched as the girl began to lightly shake from the amount of attention she was getting, a satisfied grin appearing on her face.
She reached for the attachable toy that connects to the harness as she spoke. "Puppy's don't think. You're too dumb to think on your own and you need someone smarter to think for you, isn't that right?" Janis hummed, her tone now mocking.
The blonde nodded, a wide smile obstructed by her tongue.
"Such a good girl-" she hummed before tapping the girls forehead again "in heat: 8". A shit eating grin appeared on the brunette's face as she attached the toy into the rings of the harness, quickly averting her attention back to the panting girl.
Regina sunk into the ground with another throaty whine, her tongue disappearing periodically to whimper. She looked up at the other girl with begging eyes, her ass pushed out.
"Please, mommy" she whined as she dropped her head, hopefully muffling the desperate plea.
The brunette tried to hide her surprise at the infrequent honourific that so beautifully rolled off the girls tongue.
"Uh uh, puppy's don't speak, you know that! Be a good girl and bark for me. In heat: 9" the brunette played around with triggers, laughing sadistically when the girl quietly barked as her face was tapped.
Janis marveled at the panting girl, in love with how deep in her mind she already was. Her eyes caught how the blonde was pushing her hips into the air, cocking a brow.
"Come here, puppy!" her voice jumped up an octave as she sat down on the edge of the bed, patting her lap enticingly.
The brunette hummed contently as Regina crawled over to her without question. She was rewarded with a few a scritches behind her ear which she leaned into. Janis couldn't help but find it endearing to see the girl give into what they both knew was good for her.
"What are we going to do with this mouth?" Janis teased as she ran her fingers along Regina's lips, pushing them into her practically drooling mouth and collecting some saliva to spread on her chin.
She chuckled as the vibrating girl's eyes went between her face and the toy resting on her pelvis, her eyes intense and eager.
Janis gave her a challenging look at which the blonde took the opportunity to nuzzle against the leather decorating the girl's hips, whining while doing so.
"Oh—do you want something?" the brunette taunted as she continued to softly stroke the girl's head. Regina let her tongue loll out once more before giving a low growl in frustration.
Janis knew exactly what she wanted. She wanted to not think. She needed to turn her brain off. Now there's no reality in where she would admit this but the brunette could see right through her, and besides they had excessively talked about it during negotiation.
"Is the puppy all bothered? Is she not getting what she wants?" the brunette mocked as she slipped her shin between the girl's spread legs. She gave her a gentle nod as desperate eyes looked up at her.
With a growl the blonde lowered her cunt against the girl's leg, her eyes fluttering and another whine resounding in her throat. "You better put that mouth to use, baby" she purred as she took hold of both the girl's head and the toy, running the tip along waiting lips.
Janis bit her lip as the girl stuck her tongue out and took the silicon tip into her mouth, her hips starting a rather quick rhythm as she rubbed against the brunette. Her eyes squeezed shut at the heightened sensations that were powering her body.
The blonde started to feel thoughts fading away, her mind slowly becoming empty. This only increased her already debilitating arousal.
The shorter girl's hand found a comfortable grip on the girl's jaw, lightly forcing her to take the strap deeper into her mouth. She wanted to show her that filling her holes could potentially make up for being blank otherwise.
"All it took was a little coercion and mocking to get you right where you belong. To get you doing the only thing you're good for. Good girls only think about pleasing" she purred as she stared down into lidded eyes that held nothing but space. A heavy groan left her as she felt whines reverberating through the toy and push against her own cunt.
Just as Regina took the girl into her throat, she felt a grip on her wrist that elicited a stuttering of her hips, her eyes rolling into her skull and her jaw falling slack from its previous suction.
The grip on her jaw tightened "Who said you could stop?" the brunette taunted as she held her grasp on that wrist, prolonging the sudden orgasm.
Muffled moans fell from stretched lips as she instinctively continued to lave her tongue over the toy, eyes begging for mercy.
Janis let go of her wrist, a satisfied smirk plastered on her flushed face. "Good girl! You took that so well~" she hummed.
Regina panted around the length on her tongue, her eyes falling closed at the slight suggestion of falling deeper into trance. Her hips started up again, momentarily jumping due to the sensitivity of her cunt.
The brunette threw her head back as the girl resumed her eager sucking, the flat of the harness continuing to press against her.
She waited until the girl took her into her throat, her eyes fluttering at the fullness. "Statue" Janis hummed, tapping the girl's forehead once again and sighing contently when she completely froze.
The brunette chuckled as took a hold of the girl's hair and started pushing into her esophagus mercilessly, her breath hitching as she forced past the blonde's gag reflex. She stared down at the frozen girl in awe as she was literally transformed into a manipulatable subject to be used.
"Good girl" Janis groaned as she gave her a couple of deeper thrusts as to feel that friction against her aching cunt. "Such a good, pliable puppy" the soft laugh turning into a breathless moan.
A new wave of arousal shot through her as she caught sight of Regina's teary eyes, the trigger having had disabled her from blinking. Reluctantly she tapped the girl's head again, muttering a release before giving the girl some control over her own head.
An agonised cry left the blonde as she felt a grip on her wrist once more. Her thighs grasped at the shin between them. The soft touch of the brunette wiping the tears from her cheek made her realise just how sensitive her skin had become.
"Oh is it too much, puppy?" Janis mocked, feigned care in her voice as she let go of the shaking wrist. She couldn't help but admire how the girl trembled beneath her assault just like she was meant to.
The brunette guided Regina's lips away from the toy to allow her to fill her lungs and clear her uncomfortably empty throat. The blonde looked up at her with dead, watering eyes that begged to be consumed by the other girl's essence, to have someone make a decisions for her.
"Go ahead, baby" Janis whispered as she felt the girl's hips regain its effort in rutting against her leg. Regina wrapped her arms around the girl's thigh to brace herself before her hips took control over her being.
Her lips fell open in a pant, causing a steady stream of drool to pour out of her vacant mouth. A quiet growl left the brunette as the thin liquid made contact with her thigh, watching as a needy tongue pushed out more of what was left of the blonde's brain.
"That's it~ my undignified girl" she purred as she aided the humping girl by flexing her leg against her core. Janis knew that Regina would have scoffed at the comment if her mind wasn't currently leaking out of her holes.
The whines in the blonde's throat increased in pitch which was Janis's cue to press her forehead one last time and utter "In heat: 10", causing the girl to instantly tumble over the edge of another wrecking orgasm. Unintelligible pained sounds fell from drooling lips as her head collapsed in exhaustion, hips stuttering reluctantly.
"Such a good girl" Janis hummed, stroking the blonde's flushed face.
#renee rapp#reneé rapp#mean girls 2024#mean girls#mean girls broadway#regina george#janis imi'ike#regina x janis#rejanis#auli'i cravalho#mean girls fanfic#smuttt#fanfiction#oneshot#bd/sm kink#pezberrywhoreee kink#pezberrywhoreee#impulse fic#someone let me know now if this was in character for janis
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under the cut: over a thousand words of me ranting meta about my experience writing and reading sex. ace thoughts that are mostly writing craft thoughts. and some nol/eli smut from my draft
i usually approach smut like a challenge: i get to use all my purple prose and try making smth interesting out of smth i usually find repetitive and underwritten.
sex scenes often expect the reader to be aroused, or to convince themselves that they're aroused, or to believe the content is arousing. and im ace and that doesnt work for me. i think sex is a really important facet of humanity, but our artistic standards promote superficial engagement with it. art frequently reflects the viewer's desires back at them instead of actually doing the work to influence them.
a common criticism in contemporary writing is how some work doesnt put in the effort to engage a reader's emotions or intellect. in particular, bc it doesn't need to waste time establishing a narrative ethos, fanfic frequently relies on the reader to do the emotional heavy lifting. i think many sex scenes, written in fanfic or not, follow this approach in their construction--and it's why they fail to engage me
(they also fail bc im a snob. this argument is not to say badly written sex shouldn't exist or that ppl shouldn't write it unless they can relate a blowjob to some immutable human condition. but i think sex deserves to be engaged with critically instead of treated with indifferent craft)
i think a succinct way to observe this phenomenon from a broader, less touchy lens is through traumatic backstory that falls flat. if a character is introduced as a war orphan, the reader is expected to pity them. there's no craft to that. it's a lazy shorthand for actual emotional development & depth.
but if a character is introduced as a middle class office worker that spends 6 hours at their shift dreaming of a starbucks coffee--and drops that coffee once they get into their car, the reader is made to pity them.
i want to be made to feel like something is erotic. i will hopefully never know what it feels like to be stabbed, but good writing will emulate that feeling. when it comes to pornography, i often think of julian anthony guerra's work at masquerade/bad boy press.
‘The one thing I asked all of them’, Guerra wrote of his contributors to Come Quickly [1996], ‘was to use as few words as possible to turn me on as fast as they could.'
the active effect that the writing has is critical to its success. sexual arousal is as neutral a feeling to inspire as joy or fear, and it requires skill to be translated into words. i think guerra/anonymous' work is some of the best i've read, and his victorian-style porn in imre (1992) regularly inspires me with its detail:
Running my fingers over the hard ridges of his torso's grand musculature—the hints of which I had seen impressed through the soft, crisp officer's shirt he'd worn that afternoon—I would taste the tanned skin of his belly and slowly pull his undergarments to unveil his beautiful and prominent cock, itself standing and pulsing at full attention, fattened and fortified with passion.
i love an adjective. i love a verb. the active voice, balance of pauses, and admiring voice really pull this sentence together. it shares itself with the reader instead of directs them.
most of my experience with published erotica is the victorian kind, and this part from sins of the city of the plain (1881) is fairly typical of the experience
he was so excited that he appeared to come at once; but keeping his place, he soon commenced a proper bottom fuck, which both of them gave signs of enjoying intensely, for I could fairly hear his belly flop against Boulton's buttocks at every home push, whilst each of them called the other by the most endearing terms
it's lewd, rough, and direct, but not very interesting. teleny (1893) is the best of them, and inspires me the most of late victorian queer erotica. i think this bit from ch4 compares well to the one above, and it's successful for the way its commas mimic staccato and its adjectives are more evocative (burning, spasmodic) than instructive (proper, intense).
He was, therefore, only able to rub himself against her; but that was more than enough, for after a few violent shakes of their buttocks, legs pressed, and breasts crushed, the burning liquid which he injected within her body gave her a spasmodic pleasure, and she fell senseless on the panther skin whilst he rolled, motionless, by her side.
and as for my own writing:
for the gyr abania scenes (thunderous, armistice), i was more interested in lyricism and metaphor than the sex itself, so there's more summary than exact detail. even if there's a few clunky sentences, i still think they make strong scenes, and i paid special attention to ensuring that i balanced actively visual verbs (flashed, highlighting) with emotive verbs (mania, playing).
Lightning flashed and broke off the golden links of Elliot’s necklace, its little shadows highlighting the warm shallows of his collar and throat. Nolanel followed the chain with a series of open kisses, and teased his tongue against rain-wet skin. Grace could not spare him the delicate mania of Elliot’s fingers at his nape, playing slowly with his thick hair.
'will it snow?' is where i really hit a stride. the length meant i needed detail, so i put special emphasis on fitting self-reflection between the sexual sentences.
Nolanel swept back and away, preening under Elliot’s ravishing, flushed gaze. The thrum of raw life was there in Nolanel’s teasing whistle and Elliot’s heavy audible breath. As the carriage jolted again, they could only laugh and hold to each other, muttering how awful and how wondrous. Intoxicated, Nolanel lifted Elliot’s leg and guided it tenderly to his shoulder
i kept strictly to action after action in 'the waves now loose' since the point was desperate insistence and experimentation. i used dialogue to segment and progress 'the light i hear,' which gave it a lot of character and emotional depth without too much navel-gazing.
i deeply need to avoid naval-gazing in my next piece. 'more than this' is nol and eli's first time having sex, and it's a unique challenge to balance. i want to have indulgent detail, but i need to keep it within a short span of time + activity. i can't overwhelm it with nolanel's messy angst thoughts, but i cant platform elliot's exhilaration either since he's not pov. the answer is to make them communicate. i just gotta get them to talk, bc rn the average dialogue is four nervous words each.
i'm also considering an approach i accidentally did with 'will it snow?' where i wrote all of the second sex scene as a letter from elliot to nol, describing a hypothetical fantasy. then i translated it from the first person letter to nol pov narration. if i can get elliot to monologue about how hot nolanel is, i can lay out some of the details that nol is blind to (so. 90% of the details).
heres my cover art for the story and some smut title drop as thanks for making it to the end KJSFHDKSJDHF
Disgust flickered in his mind. What he wanted would not change. He was ablaze with need for Elliot’s quavering breath and the thrill of hands on his body, and that would haunt him until he had it. Paralysis still edged toward his resolve, but it vanished as Elliot’s whisper skimmed his cheek: “Go on.”
Nolanel moved closer, uniting their darting hearts, guiding their lips together. The raw ache in his chest cracked like something real, and rapacious need replaced his every thought and movement. He snared Elliot against the tall window, where glass angels danced in the azure. Gentle light traced Elliot’s body in blue and dyed Nolanel the same.
Suddenly he knew restraint died with fear.
He returned his mouth to Elliot’s neck and sighed. The pulse against his lips quickened. He kissed warm skin to flame under his teeth. His eyes were not shut now—he wanted only to see Elliot, greedy and mortal with wanton pleas, glowing with ecstasy as if he were a saint.
He met Elliot’s lips again, always overcome, always awed by desire. Their breaths attuned to the haphazard lulls between kiss after kiss, air pulling across teeth screaming to collide.
For a moment he wondered how life could come to this: his chest beating against another, a tongue like holy fire in his mouth, love spoken in soft moans.
Elliot’s fingers snagged in Nolanel’s hair. He broke away and laughed like time had no war against him. His fingertips constantly traveled, skimming Nolanel’s ears and jaw, circling his arms and tracing his shoulder blades. When Elliot's hands swept under Nolanel’s jacket, Nolanel shuddered as if that exploring touch were directly on his skin.
It terrified him and he was senseless with want for more. He wanted to be nearer, nearer, sharing warmth, mouths open, skin, all rapture and awe and bliss.
A murky shame trailed through him, indefinable and weak, and he dismissed it by freeing the word in his heart. "Yes," he said, as candid as a prayer.
Yes, I’m here. I know, I understand, yes, I love. I need you in the same way, through life, beyond death, come laughter and hell, yes, I’m here for you. I do love you.
No wrong or worry found him now. Nolanel grazed the back of his hand across the rigid heat of Elliot's cock. He rubbed a knuckle into the thick fabric and murmured, "May I say goodbye to you like this?"
"More than this," Elliot leered, raising his chin. He snatched Nolanel’s teasing hand and guided his fingers back to him, to the first button of his jacket.
#some of this is just venting feelings from my undergrad creative writing class tho#people REFUSED to improve because to them writing was an art that could not be weighed and valued objectively#and all art created was good art because a human emotion produced it#but i was not paying 40 thousand dollars on a degree to be mediocre#i think critically about how and why writing works because i want to be good not because i want to make my classmates feel inadequate#but thats how they perceived me anyway. cest la vie#let us improve through observation reflection and practice!!!! and write in a way that makes us feel proud!!!#brianna babbles#bri writes
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Your engagement has gone down because people can't handle the truth. It's not just that torksmith isn't real, but it's not even believable. Count me among the few who don't want to see art of Peter giving Mike a blow job. And the thing about torksmith is that the ship is literally sex and nothing more most of the time.
Your Mike & Micky headcanons are actually interesting. You've put thought into them and you have an answer for every random question someone asks about them. They even have extended family members and funny/embarrassing moments that make them seem so human and natural! My very favorite one of these is when Janie is little and tells Uncle Nez that the toilet is clogged, so he goes to check it out and there's a whole roll of toilet paper wedged into the hole in the toilet, and when Mike asks why Janie did that, she just shrugs and walks out 😂😂 That seriously had me laughing for hours!
But YEAH my point is that I can't believe your engagement is down when you have the best/most interesting headcanons and backstories BY FAR.
again I really don't wanna argue the logistics of someone's ship. in fandoms there are lots of ships that seem inconceivable or just strange and that's inherent in fandom and there's no escaping it so like I rly don't care where people get their ideas. I'm not gonna yuck on anyone's rpf cuz on here I'd be preaching to the choir and also I just don't care
and while I will admit that my engagement dropped sharply since I made that torksmith sucks post, I'm not correlating it with that cuz honestly this happens all the time and I'm not trying to be Billy Badass outlaw of the Monkee Fandom 😈 or anything like that. interest in my content seems to fluctuate but compared to everything it all is at an all time low and honestly I just chock that up to people outgrowing my type of content
I think my thing is I just tend to get bored quickly of repetitive content and I have a track record of being annoyed by what's most popular and all the torksmith stuff seems pretty overrated to me personally. I tend to censor myself on my blog a lot when it comes to my real feelings about things cuz like the fandom is... well... I don't wanna say Sensitive cuz that makes me sound like a redpilled dick but it's the best I can think of, and also Everyone seems Really against dark topics in content which is strange cuz like that tends to be the life blood of some fandoms , I guess I'm just in the wrong one. or the only time anyone makes their own dark content, surprise surprise, it's usually just more of the Dark Doomed Yaoi Torksmith stuff. yawn
sometimes I do kinda feel like I'm the only one doing something different while everyone's doing all the torksmith stuff but every now and then some random new person will pop in with a unique idea and I'm like "oh cool" but then it all turns out to revolve around torksmith somehow and I'm just like
I think I'm a little mean but honestly it's my blog so idgaf. when torksmith truthers hold 99% of the fandom I'm sure a whiny little 1% won't hurt them. but also so much of the fandom has me blocked and I won't be surprised if more block me cuz this is one block happy place but also no one's obligated to listen to my shit. I'm the ultimate hater and the ultimate whiner and some can handle it and some can't it's whatever
I'm not trying to hype myself as the only unique and real one here but I do wish things were a little more diverse around here. it is kinda sad how a genetic torksmith text post will launch into 200 or sometimes even 300 notes but that's where all the fandom is. but no one shows up for anything different unless it centers torksmith or general shipping and im not a shipper and I don't care for shipping so my content is doubly boring to everyone else
one of my more batshit crazy thoughts that's totally unfounded is a lot of the newer people that enter the fandom seem to be here because the saw torksmith posts cuz the second they start posting it's all torksmith content. that's a very unfair assumption but as long as I'm spilling my stupid bitchy thoughts I'll throw that in too
I feel very out of place if I'm telling the truth. I feel like id probably have better reception on somewhere like AO3 but I'm not a writer/good writer at all and I don't have AO3. I used to but I don't write enough to keep an AO3 and also it's so stressful reaching out to new places cuz then I'd have to put all my lore in place all over again and blaaaaahhh
I'm sure there are many people who hate me and my shit, and honestly they've come forward quite a few times, albeit on anon, but I do get the feeling that people don't find my content exciting/worth it/interesting in any way, mainly cuz it centers a lot on dark content and people here don't seem to like that so they're not obligated to interact with anything they dont like
2020/2021 was a much better time for me I think cuz that fandom was waayy more receptive but the fact is people only really want more torksmith and I can't provide that because I don't want to and it doesn't speak to me at all so they get it from others
atleast this fandom isn't the kind to send death threats over people not liking their shit. they'll just block and im glad that all of the people who have blocked me have never tried starting crazy ass shit with me or anything
if anyone is upset by this i sorry but it's just my honest feelings..but also I have a job so idc
one again I am Not trying to argue the logic of anyones ship. this is fandom. home of the free and land of the rpf idgaf
#asks#anon#i dont wanna start a ship war and also i really wanna urge there are no users who i have beef with as individuals#nor do i really have beef w anyone. these r all just my whiny thoughts and i like being honest abt shit when Im feeling confident enough to#holy yap 😭🙏🥀
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Oh yeah i agree the way i framed it as good authors vs bad authors was a very reductive i usually try to stray from that sort of framing (i guess you cna call that a bad writing moment on my part), i was trying to see the whole "it breaks my immersion" critisims in good faith, because there are stories out there you're supposed to immerse yourself in but just sort of fail at that, but i do find like you said more often its a fault of the audiance for not being willing to immerse themselves to begin with, like how people nitpick the logic of a story when the logic of the story is already pretty loose and established to be that way.
Its a lack of trust in the author/the work, which leads me to go "well why are you even engaging with the work if you cant give it your basic trust"
Also, I do belive in story telling rules but not strictly like some people do, i just sort of use them as a guide line and as a way of figuring out why i like certain thinks in stories and why i dislike others (eg. "The reason these characters dont compell me is because all of their relationships revolve around the MC". Something like that isnt automatically bad, but I usually dont like it in stories and figuring out thats what is bothering me in a story is pretty helpful for my purposes of trying to understand what appeals to me)
Its like music theory, there are many rules and many ways to break them but that doesnt mean a song that breaks a bunch of those rules cant kick ass, not to mention these rules can vary a lot based on region and tradition, but knowing them can still be helpful in identifying why certain songs don't appeal to you (eg "the melody lacks structure and doesnt follow the beat/ the melody is too repetitive, never iterating on the original idea and settling on simply repeating it ad nauseum" neither of these things are inherently bad but help explain why I specifically don't like this theoretical song)
Also yeah i tend to center author intent a lot, seeing as i see story telling as a conversation between audiance and author, however i do understand how this view centers the author too much and leads people to build up an often false image of who they view the author to be (i mean, this phenomena is common enough that someone made a game about it with The Beginner's Guide).
I been on the side of the author myself of this conversation im positing fiction to be, with some of my work being misinterpreted in ways more intresting than i originally intended and others in ways less intresting (to me). It's simultaneously a delightful and frustrating experience, but i like it when people think of my work deeply regardless of what conclusion they come to, as long as theyre thinking, i find it very endearing
I think i place so much focus on authorital intent because art has always been a way for me to communicate and express my self since my earliest memories due to me having difficulties communicatig growing up due to varios factors, its why i get annoyed sometimes at people misinterpreting my work, wven if im glad theyre thinking about it at all, i feel like i failed at communicating, and it especially stings if im trying to communicate something inportant to me
Anyway its probably more productive view it as a conversion between the work and the audiance rather than between audiance and author, yknow, to prevent parasocial stuff forming
Also youre so real for that emotional whiplash thing, i dont think i ever seen that critisicm applied in a manner i agree with. I think i can see where people are coming from (maaaaaaybe theyre engaging with a work that flips between dark and comidic and feel that the impact of the dark parts dont hit as hard due to the comedic parts, which sometimes *is* the point but sometimes doesnt work well due to poor implementation (tho even that is subjective)) but like i feel there is a better way to word that critism rather than just calling it emotional whiplash, especially considering a lot of works of fiction use those qucik shifts in mood as a feature, not a bug
Also exsuese the mispelling, im very sleep depreived, and thank you for humouring my ramble to begin with
when i tell u this ask comes from a universe i no longer remember... technically a day ago but in my mind? years. decades.
also, i can tell we are both The Over Explainer cuz i already assumed like 80% of what you've said here based on what you've already told me. lmao. like, we have both played the beginners guide like, i get it
#nnstuff#ask#not meant as an admonishment i just aint got much else to say#we're on the same wavelength so i basically just go 'yeagh'
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Whee side order
My thoughts on it! THERE WILL BE SPOILERS!! Youve been warned.
So, here are my honest thoughts. Let me just start by warning further that this is mostly negative.
Took me about two hours and one attempt to beat all 30 floors. Was pretty fun. I used splattershot though because i suck at dualies.
But... it felt very quick. Felt like there was a whole lotta nothing plotwise, too. It was fun, but the plot is pretty weak. Its just another rogue-ai-tries-to-assimilate-everyone plot. Which has already been done. For some reason they keep trying to do octo expansion but again and they keep failing to do that.
Taking everything into consideration, acht really had no reason to be there. You could remove acht entirely and have the same results. And im not just saying that because i dont like dedf1sh. They dont add anything to anything.
I havent unlocked all marinas dev notes but so far theres been her motive of saving the sanitized octarians which......... i have my own personal issues with that. They seem to not be able to decide how they want sanitization to work.
Doing the pallets, i assumed they would give you some memory thing related to the associated character, but you just get a stupid little comment from the post-final boss that doesnt really add anything to the plot or the characters. Also murch is on luna blaster for some reason. I was speculating a lot on who luna blaster and octobrush could be assigned to, but seems like theyre just doing anyone. Murch is very irrelevant to everything as a whole so its kinda just like whatever.
That being said, i feel extremely bad for agent 4 fans. Those humanoid red eyed things with one of them looking like 4 and then them not doing anything with that at all was a huge fake out.
From what i saw, a lot of people were theorizing and expecting things based on all the evidence we got that we never did end up getting because they went an entirely different route. No agent 4 being possessed or whatever (unless thats still true and just unlocked much later, which im hoping because it would make everything a lot more interesting), no implied body swapping, no copybots.
And most of all, nothing from the first trailer we got. With all the concept art. I know it was just CONCEPT art for a reason, but surely you cant just show off all these things and then have the final result be absolutely nothing like it? Then again, splatoon 3 has had more than enough false advertising already, so i guess it was wrong to expect things to be as shown. I just really really liked the giant hostile architecture black spikes picture. And theres none of that at all.
Basically, everything that was expected was significantly cooler than what we got, and to be completely honest, i dont think it was worth splatoon 3 being in really bad shape for such a long time. I dont think it really justified the amount of dumb things that happened over the past few seasons.
I do still think its fun, and i absolutely am going to try to collect everything, but it was significantly less interesting overall than i anticipated.
I do think the final boss attacks syncing with the rhythm was cool. But other than that the level design is extremely repetitive and there really is no variation. Im only enjoying it now because ive used weapons that i like/dont mind using, but once i have to start using weapons im bad at i just know itll be insufferable.
Overall, i am unfortunately disappointed but i still have hope that maybe there is something more, because surely that couldnt have been it.
Also just because it doesnt go along with any of my oc stories at all and i am absolutely not changing anything on my end because frankly im sick of doing that
#and if you dont agree with me thats perfectly fine and i dont want to hear it#splatoon 3#weaponblog#side order
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3am always awake lately. I’m not sure exactly why. It feels like a time for processing.
Had kind of a breakthrough last night where I told myself those repetitive memories I have do not have to keep feeding a story. I can be aware of the memory and actively choose not to go into that more. To divert my attention. Been having a lot of repetitive memories this past week of ex lovers and my brain gets very stuck with the loop of thoughts which I process in the car usually to a song. Which is maybe cathartic? I do wonder if it’s not cathartic when I do it a lot. Am I really processing or stuck in loop.
Been trying to think about how I can apply EMDR to myself to do my own processing without paying hundreds of dollars on therapy. I don’t really want to connect with another therapist. It’s been a fair share over the years and I have not found one I really connected with more than the yearning to connect with myself. Maybe I’m picky, but a lot of them have also just done wild shit or said wild shit. Atleast with myself I’m not adding any more interpersonal weirdness and trauma to the mix, it’s in my own hands.
I found this great online program called virtual emdr and so I think I’m going to trial that. I did a little bit of emdr on myself last night (I am training in this) just with the eye movements and did see a little difference in the way I felt about a situation.
In other notes, I have been observing how conversations are quiet with friends when men aren’t on the agenda. I mean not always, but I really don’t have anything to share in that regard because nothing much is happening for me in that sphere. It’s made me reflect on if men weren’t the centre of women’s conversations, would my friends and I have even much to talk about? After they’re finished venting about their sitch they kind of look at me and ask if I’m seeing anyone and when I say no, the convo kind of dies there. It makes me realise I wish I had more connection where art was talked about, or hobbies, and I do have friendships where that is at the centre & im very grateful. But yes I’m realising being dating centric was maybe further influenced by being around others in my earlier years where that’s all the topic was. I see a lot of women yearning for love yet not getting it. I wish I could help them pour it back into themselves.
I don’t really yearn for a person rn. Sure I have crushes. Sure there are lonely days, but I havnt met anyone worth the effort or energy to invest into. And if I do they live nowhere near me lmao. Im pretty particular now. Need to be.
Work has been a whirlwind. I have felt pretty incompetent and question myself a lot. I also wonder how I can make it more sustainable. Like by Wednesday I am wanting to tap out. 4 days is definitely enough. But also by three days I want to be done. That means I have three days of solid work and then I can consider making income a different way perhaps.
Anyway. That’s my diary for today 3am brain dump.
I hope all of earth sleeps soundly. I think about Palestine and I’m so upset. How is this not reaching mass media I don’t know. I feel I need to be doing more. So I’ll be looking into that.
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💫A goofy AHHH review💫
hey guys it's ya boi Rusty here again!! and I'm here to review:

Yes yes, I can hear y'all now saying "but it's made for kids" "bro why are u watching this" 🤓☝
Stop right there, bud. ✋
This show is pretty good so far, all things considered! I decided to watch it for the nostalgia (and for mah boi Smee ofc!)!! I watched this show a little bit when I was younger, so I remember it fairly well. I was pleasantly surprised to find that it isn't cringe! (Well, some parts are a little iffy but we'll get to that in a minute.) It's actually tolerable and even made me laugh at some parts!
💫The songs💫
The songs aren't that good, in fact their kinda cringe. (But ofc I gotta go easy on this show cuz yes, it is intended for little kids with no brain cells.) At the end of every episode (wich usually consists of two episodes ranging from 15 minutes long each, making up the 30 minute mark.) There's these two ideots called Sharky and Bones who sing a song, and it's cringe. The lyrics arent funny, and their singing isn't even that good. I get that the humer is supposed to have zero brain cells, but come on guys. U gotta try a bit harder than that. The background music for the episodes is ok, nothing I would casually listen to though.
💫The characters💫
We have a few new characters to add to the Peter Pan universe by the names of Jake, Cubby (WHY ARE THEIR TWO CUBBYS?!), Izzy, Skully, Sharky and Bones. (And Captain Hook and Mr. Smee of course!!) The character designs are good, they work well for everyone, except Hook. Hook just looks weird in this art style honestly. And at first I didn't like Smee's design in this, but it grew on me. (The og is still better though!) In fact, he might even look kinda cute! :D

The voice acting for them is great too!! Its very expressive and something you wouldn't normally get from a kids show. The new voice actors for Smee and Hook almost sound IDENTICAL to the og's! There are some minor differences, but nothing to really make me get annoyed at. The animation is smooth and fluid too! I can tell that they used computer Riggs, but it's barely even noticeable! Which from what I heard, computer Riggs are pretty hard to do. So thats honestly impressive!
💫The insecurities of Jake and The Neverland Pirates💫
First off, I wanna talk about how Smee is portrayed. In the og movie, he's supposed to be a bumbling ideot (but a lovable ideot imo!). In this series, he seems to have a few brain cells, which I dislike. They didn't stay true to his character! Neither did they with Hook. He isn't that goofy anymore, neither is he evil, but he's in between. I can't really describe it, but something is off with his personality.
Like I said before, the music isn't very good, and neither is the pacing of each episode. It's inconsistent and feels too slow at times. The plot points for each episode are predictable too. The kids find something to play with, and Hook wants whatever it is and steals it and they take it back etc etc. The dabloons make no sense either! They collect dabloons each episode for their chest, but why?! What does it accomplish?! Maybe Im not smart enough to understand but that makes no sense to me. It's repetitive too, but not to the point where u want to shove a gun into the side of your head and call it quits. Like I said, it's tollerable! It does feel like Micky Mouse Clubhouse though (I HATE MICKEY MOUSE CLUBHOUSE.), but with Peter pan 💀
💫Conclusion💫
I like this show, and I think it's cute! It has potential!! Maybe just get rid of the repetitiveness and the cringe songs and it could be good! I reccomend this is you want the nostalgia from your chilhood (well technically I'm still a kid but whatever LOL)!!
That's my thoughts on this show! I haven't finished the first season yet, but maybe my views will change, but well see. But when they do, I'll keep u posted!! Thanks for reading this and I hope you have a spectacular day/night!!! I love you :D❤❤
(Oh yeah one last thing I gotta note is that Smee actually referred to Hook as "your greatness" 🤨 idk man..)
#Review#Jake and the Neverland pirates#Peter Pan#Disney#Jake#Izzy#Cubby#Skully#Captain hook#Smee#Mr smee#Show review#Opinion#This show has potential!!!#Let me know if you agree with me in the comments!! ❤
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i pretty much know ur ryou thoughts so hmm. touma, banri, and torao (for the bingo)
THANQ FOR THE ASK... im not good at thought articulation but 👍 incoherency is the key
As for Touma...
He has been my ultimate ZOOL fave ever since they were shown together as a group (even though he was nice to my nemesis Riku) . He's adorable in all the senses you could imagine this word in, but most importantly, I care about him a lot. He's honest and shows his feelings and sure, the moments when he is are shown as silly sometimes, but there is a lot about his internal struggles, (CRYING OVER HIS ARC). Him helping Re:vale in pt3? Amazing. Guy got a lot of guts
Toraaaaooo
I HATE HIM (affectionate). HE IS GENDER, I FUCK WITH HIS AESTHETIC SO HARD, HIS CARD ART IS NEVER A MISS, HE MAKES ME SO ILL (lighthearted). Of ZOOLs he and Minami share the "second fave" place, and I used to hate him (enraged) so much after what he's done especially in relation to Ryuu. But in the part 3 already you can see some of the Very subtle cracks that let you peek inside the kind of core values and mindset he has. I'm really glad they've fleshed out his character this much, and the issues he's working on are. Wow. I would have wanted to give him a pat on the shoulder in reassurance IF IT WASN'T FOR HIS DAMN SINGLE. "DUSTYYY LOVE", and i need to prefix it with a big "I LOVE THE SEIYUUS RANGE AND VOCALS AND VOICE", RUINED MY LIFE. ever since ive heard it i could NOT for the life of me stop whatever vocal repetition it's called and randomly start singing the chorus of this damn song in the weirdest voices imaginable to try to recreate the absolutely phenomenal vocals DUSTYYY LOOOUVE I WANNA KISSE YOU. eevery time im in the voice chat i hold myself back from the song thats spinning in my head. Torao you need to get bullied more (lovingly) but also people cam be mean about you (rightfully so, for serving so much)
Banri!
I'm putting him in a salad spinner. I have a version of Banri that's in my head and it only serves my angst fantasies, but I haven't really got much to say about him. I really care about him as a character, and from pt1 he's been. So good. And then bam. Light fixture! I CRIED LIKE HELL. I got chills when Ryou was near him I thought it could go to a 100 real quick (and it only got to about 50, wjat a cute ponytail (i agree btw))
I love him as a MEZZO manager, I love him as the guy that denies Yuki which is the funniest part of their dynamic. I loveeeee him as a dilf lover that's good for him. I also love how kind he is to Momo. To me personally he is the Supporting Character Ever
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Week 2
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Luke Cheuh
Title: LOWBROW (AND STILL THE LOSER)
Year: 2011
Medium: Acrylic ink on panel ( 76.2 x 61 x 5.1cm )
the work to me comes off as this solem, sad, down, bear/person discouraging himself with a playful hand gesture whose eyes are covered with a red rectangular block writing lowbrow
Instantaneously i was reminded of SUPREME the hypebeast fashion brand who was very influential in the uprise of hype-beast culture/consumerism
idk i did read it as a attack or rather tap on the shoulder of the hype-beast culture, like look at im a loser wearing LOWBROW (SUPREME) ? like yeah im a loser but im wearing supreme or even the inverse
i like it, the hinderance of facial features and anything significant ,in terms of adding to the characters demeanour etc. we as the aduience cannot provide with certaintiy as to how this being is being portrayed( to show what?speak about what?), how it feels ? it provides a sense of mystery in a work that holds only a handful of elements, i guess what im trying to say is that the theres not so much going on composition wise that you kinda feel uneasy, trying to grasp the characters surroundings (visual clues) to create meaning
i like this uneasy feeling, what if i were to translate into my own work. like an abundance or repetition of one stencil only to alter it with one other thing. like what if i flooded the canvas full of imagery that it becomes to much that the audience cant grasp what is goin on ? or is it more of a thing where less is more? maybe i can start implementing text as a way to tie in the canvas/background.
Hektad
Title: More Love Not War
Year: 2021
Medium: Acrylic spray on canvas ( 58.4 x 88.9cm)
HEKTAD’s work has informed my current practice through his use of vibrant colours, stencils and layered text to create visually dynamic, immediate, and emotionally rich pieces in particular his work More Love Not War. In this piece, the over-lapping spray-painted hearts in bright, vibrant colours allow for a visual immediacy which is contrasted with the stencil of an attack helicopter in black and white. The phrase “NOT WAR” crossed out and placed below the word “LOVE” creating this merging of symbolism, in a plea for peace (Taylor, 2023). Similarly to HEKTAD my practice utilises spray-painted layered imagery and vibrant colours to draw the viewers in, creating an easy viewing.
The way HEKTAD composes his elements has influenced how I structure my own works to create these emotional but visually captivating pieces. Whilst HEKTAD’s works advocate for unity, peace (ONE Art Space, 2021) and love mine lean towards frustration, chaos, and mental overload. In my practice I employ child-like, distorted characters like the one in my work “Caution” to evoke a loss of innocence and conflict. HEKTAD and I embrace the raw, imperfect textures, and inconsistencies (Hektad, 2022) to explore the hopeful versus the darker, more disorientating sides of human experience.
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watch and learn | iwaizumi hajime x f!reader x team japan
there were two things they all had in common: the growing bulges in their pants that they were urgently trying to distract themselves from, and the fact that their full attention was on you.
warnings: 18+, timeskip!everyone, BIG MANGA SPOILERS BASICALLY, exhibitionism, voyeurism, orgasm denial
w/c: 3.1k
a/n: now i don’t know if iwaizumi hajime (27) athletic trainer learned about female orgasms when he was studying sports science at irvine BUT he def knows how to show a girl a good time which is reason enough for me to write this. also, i read this article to prep for this piece and it was super enlightening, so i do recommend giving it a read if you’re interested!
in the middle of his morning run, iwaizumi slowed momentarily to check the repetitive buzzing of this phone, curious as to who was messaging him this early. when he’d left the apartment, you were sleeping, and you had the tendency to still be sleeping by the time he returned, so who else could it be?
he unlocked his phone, quickly finding the source of the notifications: the team japan group chat.
[06:43 AM] miya: hey @iwaizumi—you know stuff abt the human body right?
[06:43 AM] miya: cus like you studied it in college and shit??
iwaizumi rolled his eyes. i spent four years in america to earn my degree, came back home to support my country’s olympic team, and dealt with the biggest idiots of volleyball, only to get treated like this?
[06:44 AM] iwaizumi: yes, miya. i took many courses on the human body. in fact that’s the purpose of my job. to know the human body. because i am a fucking athletic trainer.
[06:44 AM] miya: okay okay i get it. dumb question
[06:44 AM] iwaizumi: why? is something up? you need help or anything?
[06:44 AM] miya: uhhh kinda
[06:44 AM] miya: @hinata i’m not fucking asking this
[06:44 AM] bokuto: bro just do it
[06:44 AM] miya: @hinata @hinata @hinata
iwaizumi cocked an eyebrow. what the hell are they going on about?
[06:45 AM] iwaizumi: so am i needed or...
[06:45 AM] hinata: YES
[06:45 AM] hinata: we had a question
[06:46 AM] sakusa: by “we” he means him, miya, and bokuto
[06:46 AM] suna: yeah don’t bring us into this
[06:46 AM] hinata: don’t listen to them! both suna and sakusa wanna know too
[06:46 AM] iwaizumi: okay. what’s up
[06:47 AM] hinata: we wanted to know how to make a girl cum
he chuckled in disbelief.
[06:47 AM] iwaizumi: you’re telling me that you guys are in your mid-20s, literal olympic athletes, and you don’t know how to make a girl cum
[06:47 AM] iwaizumi: have you never done it before??
[06:47 AM] miya: NO
[06:47 AM] miya: FOR THE RECORD IVE MADE MANY GIRLS CUM
[06:48 AM] bokuto: ME TOO
[06:48 AM] bokuto: i think
he laughed out loud, briefly startling another runner on the sidewalk.
[06:48 AM] iwaizumi: you guys are unbelievable
[06:48 AM] hinata: i mean she says she finished but idk what i did to make that happen
[06:48 AM] bokuto: ^^
[06:48 AM] hinata: so like i wanna know how to actually do it
[06:48 AM] suna: actually im kinda interested in this too
[06:48 AM] aran: i pray for your future girlfriends. this is painful to see. im out
[06:48 AM] kageyama: i’m with aran on this one. you guys are dumb
[06:48 AM] hinata: shut up. you suck.
[06:48 AM] miya: cmon iwaizumi, help a guy out
[06:48 AM] sakusa: it wouldnt hurt for you to give us some pointers at least
iwaizumi sighed.
[06:49 AM] iwaizumi: @miya @hinata @bokuto @suna @sakusa meet in the locker room after practice. ill give you guys a lesson in the art of pleasing a woman
to teach effectively, he needed a volunteer, though he was sure you wouldn’t need much convincing. you’d always loved the attention, and the biceps, of the pro athletes. he spun on his heel and jogged home.
you woke up to the sound of your apartment door opening, your boyfriend creeping inside, forehead damp with sweat.
“hey,” you said quietly, making your way towards him.
“hey, baby. sorry for waking you up, i was trying to be quiet.”
you giggled sleepily. “s’okay, haji. you spoil me too much anyway, always letting me sleep in for hours while you’re off doing god knows what.”
at that, his eyes crinkled in amusement, and as you tried to step into a hug, he shuffled back. “woah there, baby. i gotta shower, ‘m all gross from my run. and then,” he gave you a peculiar look that you couldn’t quite place, “i got a proposition for you.”
after his shower, he waltzed out of the bathroom, steam wafting out from behind the door. his tanned body made you feel things you definitely shouldn’t be barely an hour after the sun’s risen, and you reached out to massage the tension in his shoulders. “so, what’s your proposition?”
“well,” he hesitated. “it’s a bit... unconventional. the team asked me to show them how to make a girl cum,” he took in your intrigued expression. “and it’d be a lot easier to explain if i had someone to do a live demonstration with. so,” his eyes flicked up to you. “that’s where you’d come in.”
“a... live demonstration? like you’re gonna make me cum in front of them?”
“yeah, essentially.” he gave you a devilish grin. “you want that, baby? wanna show those boys how a real man treats a gorgeous woman like you?”
you rubbed your thighs at his words. “yeah,” you purred. “i do. wanna show them how good you are to me.”
and that’s how you found yourself nestled between iwaizumi’s muscled thighs, back pressed against his chest, completely naked, with five of japan’s best volleyball players staring at your body in awe.
practically an expert in his field, iwaizumi knew the human body inside and out. this had many benefits; of course it allowed him to catapult up the ranks and work with the country’s best athletes to keep them at the top of their game, but it also had a unique side effect: an overwhelming vault of knowledge on how to make a woman feel good anywhere.
you’d seen the proof firsthand; he knew exactly where to push, prod, stroke, and tease to have you cumming in seconds, over and over, as many times as you wanted. he was amazing, and you were well-aware just how lucky you were to have such a talented man in the sheets.
“oi,” iwaizumi snapped his fingers, drawing each of the players’ eyes away from your glistening cunt. “pay attention. i know more than anybody that she’s hot as fuck, but you gotta listen to what i’m saying or else there’s no point to this.”
he lightly pressed his lips against your collarbone, slowly tracing them against your jaw, the contact making you squirm. “if you wanna make a girl cum, first thing you gotta do is make her comfortable. if she’s worried about how she looks or sounds or smells she’s gonna be too stressed to let go.” he moved his hands to grope your tits, his calloused fingers brushing over your hardening nipples. “so reassure her, tell her how irresistible she is, how pretty her moans are, how tasty her pussy is. shit like that. the sexier she feels the better it’ll be.”
he leaned into you, whispering into your ear. “feeling good, baby? we can stop whenever.”
you nodded weakly, afraid to open your mouth, barely holding in your whines as his palms worked wonders on your chest and stomach, sending shocks of heat wherever they touched.
you craned your neck up to observe the men before you. atsumu was flushed red, wringing his hands as if he was worried they’d do something embarrassing if he didn’t keep them occupied. hinata was bouncing his leg up and down, wiping his palms on his shorts as he took in the plushness of your thighs. bokuto was basically drooling, greedily tracing your soft curves with his eyes. suna maintained his indifferent expression, but the reddening tips of his ears showed that he was a lot more hot and bothered than he let on. sakusa stood quietly to the side, leaning against the wall, mask tucked under his chin as if he’d just realized how much the temperature had gone up in the room.
there were two things they all had in common: the growing bulges in their pants that they were urgently trying to distract themselves from, and the fact that their full attention was on you.
"make sure to try different things; there’s multiple ways to make a woman cum. only like a quarter of women experience orgasms just from penetration,” someone made a sound of shock. “yes, the number is that small, bokuto.”
his fingertip slowly trailed past your belly button, dipping into the mess between your thighs, causing you to slightly arch your back into the solid chest supporting you. “foreplay with the clit is your best bet; even stupid fucks like you probably wouldn’t screw it up too bad.”
hinata opened his mouth to speak, but iwaizumi anticipated his question and continued.
“i know you’re wondering where the clit is. it’s around here, under this hood of skin,” he slid his digit between your labia. “s’not gonna come with a label so you gotta explore a little bit. i know where hers is like the back of my hand, but for you guys, with your girls, you’re gonna have to move your fingers around. slowly. and pay attention to her expressions.” he began to rub in a circular motion around your clit, causing you to make small whimpers of pleasure and shift your hips to meet his movements.
“if she clenches up or twitches when you feel a certain spot, like this,” your legs flexed as he increased the pressure, “that’s the clit. be kind, it’s not a volleyball. be gentle n’ make small circles, whether it’s with your fingers or your tongue.”
he thought for a second. “speaking of which, oral’s important. very important. most women cum when they’ve been eaten out, so use your mouths for something more useful than just dirty talk. suck on the clit, maybe tongue-fuck her a ‘lil, but your main focus should always be the clit.”
he removed his hands from your sopping pussy, and you made a pathetic noise of frustration. “’m sorry, baby,” he muttered seductively in your ear. “don’t wanna have you finishing too early. lesson’s barely started.”
he turned his attention back to your audience, his lustful tone being replaced by a more instructional one. “there’s other places that’ll help a woman orgasm, too: her nipples, her neck, her ears—”
“her ears?” sakusa questioned. he blushed profusely as everyone turned to look at him, surprised that he’d opened his mouth. “what? we were all thinking it.”
“s’a valid question,” iwaizumi said. “yeah, you can lick ‘em if they’re sensitive. hers are.” as if to prove his statement, he licked a stripe on the shell of you ear, making you wiggle helplessly at the stimulation. “‘n leave kisses everywhere else. feels good for them just like it does for us.” he wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you closer to him and forcing your movements to stop as he traced patterns with his tongue all around your neck.
“something you should know about an orgasm is that it’s something called a positive feedback loop.” he looked up and was met with five blank stares. shouldn’t have expected anything from these dumb jocks, he lamented. “basically that means that, once you start releasing sexual tension, things will feel better and better until you climax.”
“oh!” atsumu chirped. “like how my sets get better and better throughout a game.”
“no, not really,” he quipped. “your sets suck throughout.” atsumu frowned at that.
iwaizumi exhaled exasperatedly. “the general idea is that the body gets more and more sensitive, muscle contractions become more and more frequent, and touches feel more and more stimulating until you cum. all right?”
they all made noises of understanding except for bokuto and hinata, whose eyes had glazed over at the first mention of an academic term. whatever, iwaizumi thought. they’ll get it through example.
"don’t worry about it too much if you don’t get it, that’s just an orgasm on paper. in practice, though, this is the crucial step: listen to her. she knows what feels good. never forget that you’re just an idiot with a cock.” he took a breath, gathering his thoughts before proceeding with his lecture.
“if she tells you to slow down, you slow down. if she tells you to go harder, you go harder. if she tells you to keep doing what you’re doing, you...”
“keep doing what you’re doing”, they all chimed in at staggered times.
“that’s right. don’t go faster or else you’ll mess up the rhythm and she won’t cum. and you wanna make her cum, don’t you?”
they nodded simultaneously.
“so if you keep up the tempo and force that feels good to her, you’ll be fine. questions?”
suna spoke up. “what about,” he choked on the word. “penetration?”
hinata hummed in agreement and bokuto jumped in. “yeah, what if i wanna make her cum on my cock?”
iwaizumi made a weird face. “that’s some pretty advanced stuff, but i guess i can go over it. when you try it, though, you have to be patient. with both of your bodies. s’not rocket science but s’not always easy. also it depends on the woman but sometimes she physically won’t be able to finish from penetration alone. just make sure you’re communicating.”
his swirled two fingers over your hole before shoving them in, your wetness making it easy for him to thrust in and out as your entrance stretched to accommodate him. “f—fuck!” your eyes flew open at the intrusion and you body lurched forward, but you were held back by his strong forearm. “ohmygod, oh my g—ah! feels s’good haji, s’good!”
“i know, baby, i know. you’re taking it so well.” he turned his attention back to the men, each of who were gulping heavily. if that didn’t signal to you that they were evidently affected by your moans, the way they shifted in their workout shorts did.
“boys, focus.” he curled his fingertips, brushing at the spongy spot at the top of your walls, ripping a pleasured wail from your throat and causing tears to prick at your eyelashes. “when you’re fingering her, you’ll feel an area inside that’s a bit soft and squishy. that’s the g-spot.”
you trembled in his arms as he mercilessly struck the same place over and over again with his fingers. “when you’re fucking her, try to keep the pressure building there, but it’ll be harder to make her finish since you can’t see what you’re doing.”
your breath hitched as iwaizumi’s incessant movements brought your body tantalizingly close to your release. he suddenly stopped and you almost sobbed in disappointment, until he plunged his fingers impossibly deeper.
a guttural scream of ecstasy came from within you, and your eyes rolled back as he began playing with another part of you, your body putty in his hands. “hngh, haji, ah! so good, s’good...” you threw your hands back around his neck, nails digging into the skin as you desperately tried to keep yourself grounded. your soft moans filled the air.
“stop clenching,” he hissed. “can barely move my hand.” you tried to relax but failed miserably as the tips of his fingers grazed your cervix.
“holy fuck,” suna muttered. “you’re a god.”
“she sounds so pretty,” atsumu said in amazement.
“i wanna make a girl feel good like that, too!” bokuto sulked.
“you can do it, bokuto!” hinata hit him on the arm. “just listen to iwaizumi. clearly he knows what he’s talking about.”
their eyes refocused on your figure, writhing in pleasure, prompting white hot waves of arousal to pool in their stomachs.
“yeah,” sakusa said. “clearly.”
“stop talking,” iwaizumi ordered. “and listen. beyond the g-spot is the cervix, which is basically the end of the vagina. if you’re long enough,” he briefly scanned each of their faces, “which i’m sure you are, you’ll be able to reach it if you bottom out.”
“haji—hajime, please.” the stimulation was coming absolutely unbearable, and you could tell he was sadistically holding you at the edge, refusing to give you the satisfaction of finishing. “lemme cum, please. please lemme cum, please, please, i can’t—i can’t take it ‘nymore!”
“what was that? you can’t take it anymore? gonna cum?” you helplessly bobbed your head up and down, hoping that he’d give you permission. “well,” he growled, “we can’t have that happening, can we?”
he abruptly halted his thrusts, pulling his fingers out of you with an embarrassing squelch and popping them into his mouth. pearly tears rolled down your cheeks as you grieved the loss of contact and relief.
your viewers looked on in horror, feeling immense sympathy for you; you just looked so dejected from being denied yet another orgasm.
“why didn’t you—why didn’t you let her cum?” bokuto asked.
“why do you think?” iwaizumi snapped. “don’t want you guys to see her when she does. that’s for me, and only me.”
“oh, okay,” he responded, disgruntlement clear in his voice.
iwaizumi’s glare could cut glass, it was so sharp. the possessiveness that had enveloped his mind made him hyperfocus on just one thought: being alone with you. “so, any other questions? if not, we’re done here.”
you pouted at that, not wanting the demonstration to be over. “but haji,” you mumbled into his collarbone. “i di’nt get to cum. and i wanna.” you looked up at him, eyes wide with want. “please make me cum.”
iwaizumi sent a harsh glance to the players that nonverbally communicated his message loud and clear: get out. they shuffled awkwardly out of the locker room due to the hardness between their legs that they would most definitely need to deal with soon.
your boyfriend turned his attention back to you. “’m sorry, i know i had to deny you a bunch of times. i just really hated the idea of anyone but me seeing the cute way you look when you cum.”
you made a small noise of acknowledgement and a little whisper of it’s okay, haji. he looked down, sensing the way your poor, desperate cunt was pulsing around nothing, the erotic sight injecting him with the pure need to ravage you.
he shifted his head to kiss you passionately. “why don’t i make it up to you?” he breathed between your parted lips before picking you up by the backs of your thighs, forcing you to lock your ankles around his waist.
he delicately situated you onto one of the recovery beds at the back of the room, before murmuring something that made your pussy throb in anticipation: “i’ll make you cum whichever way you want, however many times you want, all right? all you gotta do is lay back and take it.”
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do you have any tips on drawing different body types? i’ve been trying to branch out but i’m having a bit of trouble :(
yes! hi anon, sorry it took me a while to get back to you. disclaimer upfront i am not a professional artist, everything i know is self taught, and this is just me talking through some things ive done that helped me draw different body types; particularly fat ones
my main tip is: use references. im sure u have heard that from everyone ever but genuinely, if u want to learn to draw something ur gonna have to use references. tracing them can also help but imo isn't like, completely necessary? i don't really trace a lot even though it would probably be helpful lmaoo
a good process i think would be trace the reference -> draw from the reference, not tracing -> draw the same image without the reference, to get a total of three iterations of it. after a while of drawing the same thing it'll just become muscle memory
(basically, do studies. studies are so helpful especially when ur learning to draw something new)
make sure ur using GOOD references! pictures of real people are probably best, bc if you're using someone else's art there's the chance that they didn't draw it accurately. especially if it's a fat body type
when drawing fat body types keep in mind things like stretch marks, folds, different distributions of fat. i see a lot of people draw pretty decent fat bodies but then give the people stick thin necks and no facial fat which is just... not how it usually works
proportions can also vary! try to vary ur proportions across your art, if youre drawing one "nonstandard" body type for everyone with the same exact proportions that isn't really drawing different body types lol
lots of these "tips" are probably very repetitive and u've heard them a million times before but overall there's really not much i can say other than "make an effort", use references, and do studies sdsjks
here's a tutorial on how to draw fat people: https://artxreferences.tumblr.com/post/158141723961/fat-bodies-tutorial
here's a collection of tutorials/references: https://www.tumblr.com/keepursulafat/89031181018/i-have-a-fat-character-i-want-to-draw-but-she-ends
i have not fully read this book, just looked through it, but morpho: fat and skin folds: anatomy for artists by michel lauricella has been said to be really helpful and worth checking out. i'd include a link but the one i had is broken now
here's another link to some fat references, and mention of the morpho book: https://peachygos.tumblr.com/post/649225012659847168/sango-blep-jennyslateswife-jennyslateswife-a
i can't really think of anything else? if i do though i'll add on to this post! hope this was helpful, if u have any specific questions feel free to dm/send me an ask on this blog or on my main :)
#asks#not maya#ref#tried to answer this pretty generally bc u didnt ask for specific body types but if its too vague lmk!#i did focus on fat body types though because. i draw fat people on this blog so i assumed that was mostly what u were after?
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Your Fatina Lunare, and sis of course, is back!!!
Since you asked, here it is!!!
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22. A game ending that’s really stuck with you
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I knew my Moon Damsel would fly to me in my inbox, I missed you so much! *w*
Thank you for another ask, let's start!
4. Do you like to get 100% achievements/trophies? I usually do, especially in open world games (when the map is not insanely vast!). The more unique the collectables, trophies or challenges, the better! ^_-
5. Game(s) coming out that you’re looking forward to I can't absolutely wait for Hellblade II Senua's Saga, but unfortunately they still haven't announced a release date date yet, so... I'm (Im)patiently waiting. In the meanwhile, definitely SW Jedi: Survivor, which is out in two days!
7. A series you’ve lost interest in It might sound paradoxically absurd, but it's quite the Assassin's Creed series. The way they torn and raped the lore and gameplay mechanincs definitely threw away my slightest consideration. They lost me at Origins, which is a The Witcher 3 wanna be with a nonsense plot in my opinion. And let me say, maybe it's an unpopular opinion, but the series had to end with Syndicate.
13. Quick, name the first song from a game that comes to mind
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This creepy lullaby from Outlast 2 is always on my mind when playing all horror games, don't know why! Jumpscare alert!
17. A game you didn’t finish but would like to get back to or restart someday Usually if I give up on a game is because it didn't grow on me even after days and days of gameplay, but for Remothered: Broken Porcelain this is not the case. This game was very and badly bugged at the release and still needs to be properly patched at this time, that's why I wasn't able to finish it, but I'd love to play it fluently one day and conclude the story of Jennifer.
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18.A game location you really like
There are countless, I'll name a few: The Frontier in AC3 The Cemetery, Scarecrow Fields in Medievil, Kew Gardens and Wulfrum Hall in Medievil 2 Almost all the worlds of Spyro Tokyo in Ghostwire Tokyo
19. A game you started up for the first time and you knew from the start it was going to be great Oh well, so many!! It's a long long list. I just feel it when a game can give me a lot emotionally and in terms of gameplay experience.
22. A game ending that’s really stuck with you
Again, so many. Definitely the saddest ones, such as AC3, Martha is Dead, A Plague Tale: Requiem, Stray... oh, Stray destroyed me!! Some others like The Pathless, Sea of Solitude, the good ending of Sekiro.
23. A “Wow” moment of awe
That's in Control! \m/
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27. A game you love the atmosphere of
Kena: Bridge of Spirits. That game has thaumaturgic places once they're purified from corruption. But also, as a horror passionate, The Suicide of Rachel Foster gave me shivers the whole time, that was perfect!
31. Someone has never played a video game before but is open to trying any genre. What game would you recommend as their first?
I would go for AC1! Linear, intuitive, also a bit repetitive (so not that hard to learn) and the story is so good to let anybody understand how deep a videogame's plot can be, just like any other form of art!
Sorry if I wasn't brief ^ ^' I hope you enjoyed
Thanks for visiting me again. A waterfall of tight hugs <3
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HELLOOOOO I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOUR ART it's sooo beautiful and I stare at your work so much!! do you have any art inspirations? like any artists or specific pieces that just. scratch your brain?? hope you're having a good one ^o^
first of all: thank you so much! don't get lost in it now! and secondly: i have put off answering this ask for so long bc i find that question pretty difficult to answer. i love way, way too much art. but still it's an opportunity to showcase some that i love. under the cut :) im sorry if this off from what you're expecting (crying emoji)
these are a small fraction of art that tickle my brain, only visual, sometimes inspiration just springs from a non-fiction like an essay, or in the repetition of furniture music, a strange movie with a story but with no discernible plot (the best kind of movie), when you cook a meal etc etc ....they exist where you least expect it........
i mainly do two art styles that, despite me whining abt inconsistency, are deliberate bc they give different moods, and i dont really care if my art doesnt look the same, esp since im not really interested in the industry where style consistency is part of branding yada yada. it’s more fun this way. i'll start with the inks.
one of my favourite mangaka ever is nishioka kyoudai. they're a brother-sister duo that writes these surreal poem-like stories without a plot. once you see it, it's a Very obvious inspiration. when i first got into hypmic, one of the comments i even made then was gentaro feels like a character from their work which lead to no longer human comic later for inktober www thats why i draw him a lot in the style inspired from their art...
below is the front and back cover of their most popular manga: kami no kodomo (just a warning if anyone checks this out: it's violent and disgusting. dont be like me who read them @ age 12, i was an edgy problem child)
another one of my favourites is taiyo matsumoto. art below is from their manga titled tekkon kinkreet, which has a movie ! and one of their manga got an anime adaptation as well....please watch ping pong the animation it's really good (shameless promo)
theres more, but these two mangaka really got me loving inks and not caring abt my art looking all social media pretty. weird is great!!! i embrace manga that looks unconventional
now for paintings, it's a different world ww most of them are contemporary. i like paintings that depict smth mundane or private. i love tenderness.......i like it when bodies feel like they merge into one, and where the figures' edges become imperceptible unless you look closely. intimism is where it’s at babey!!
(artists in order from left to right: egon schiele; toulouse-lautrec; ron hicks; doron langberg)
but non-representational art is really cool too...
(lindy chambers, julia soboleva, melissa santamaria, mark rothko)
im inspired by whatever this page called "1995 was an ok year" on facebook does. smth i want to get across w my art (although im aware i dont post my personal art here, maybe it happens w my fanart too who knows), when i really really try, is to recall memory that maybe didnt even happen, but the mood is there and it's felt. im terrible at storytelling but im obsessed with atmosphere, i hope it works lol
have a good day too anon !! sorry for the long reply
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