#yet here we are 10 years irl

[cocotome]

I'm so whipped! Like, it's just 2 of his fingers and I'm scrambling to read what's going on lol! For those of you wondering, the Brilliant Hotels live reading is today in Shinagawa!

[a-very-tired-jew]

I think CAIR is trying to do some damage control now. They were supposed to release the exit poll for this election at 10 am ET today, but have since postponed it. Their polling and releases repeatedly state that the vote was split between Harris and Stein at around 40% each respectively. The narrative has been that the population they represent has voted Dem for the past 20 years, only because of the Islamophobia after 9/11, and they're likely trying to find out why they'd vote for a politician that has villainized Muslims in the past (Muslim ban anyone?) Yet we're seeing from other news sources that this is not the case. It was, in fact, 40% for Stein and Trump each with Gaza being the primary factor.

For example, this is from a Voice of America article on the subject.

And here is the reasoning.

Read that last part again.

As I stated in my post about my student talking politics at me, and others on this site have pointed out as well, this same sentiment has been echoed by many across social media and IRL.

It wasn't about whether or not Trump was the better option.

It was about punishing Biden, Harris, and the Dems.

It was about burning everything down to make a point.

And here's the thing, Trump's policies and views towards Gaza are markedly worse. There will likely be an escalation, there will be no "ceasefire" or "stopping the genocide" magically as these voters want, but that doesn't matter. The Dems had to be punished.

So we're going to get 4 years of absolutely shit policies, rollbacks of rights, more policies targeting minorities, and a real chance at living in an corrupt authoritarian country all because of reactionary punitive rage based reasons.

In other words, because people decided to be immature with their vote and do a "that'll show em!"

The reasoning is utterly childish.

You don't vote to punish.

You vote to progress.

You vote to help the society you live in and help make beneficial change.

Instead, ya'll decided to act like children.

And we will all suffer for it.

When CAIR does release their data I'll update here

[absolutebl]

This Week in BL - THERE IS SO MUCH ON RIGHT NOW, it's crazy-making!

Organized, in each category, with ones I'm enjoying most at the top.

July 2024 Week 1

Ongoing Series - Thai

Wandee Goodday (Sat YT) ep 10 of 12 - I am with Dee, noodles do solve everything. The brothers were SO GOOD together. I’m getting to really love a back drop in BL, it’s like the mic drop of gay boys smooching. This is such a good show. I had a big grin on my face while also crying a bit. Everything I want from a BL is happening right here, in front of my eyes.

Did they gloss over the trauma a bit? Yes. Do I care? No. I don't like dwelling in trauma in general, mine, friends, online, or in my BL.

The Rebound (Weds Gaga) ep 2 of 12 - All Thai mafia is gay… again. Yes, it’s still great. No, I have no idea why they’re dropping so many eps at once. That’s not normal for a Thai drama. But I’m not gonna complain except there’s a lot on right now. I like the side couple too. I also like Frank’s poor little rich kid side dish action. I mean, Meen is an ult for me, but Frank is giving excellent second lead syndrome. Suspiciously aggressive and a touch stalker, but I don’t mind a boy that sus if he that cute. And of course, with the mafia involved there is kidnapping.

Look, is this the best show currently airing? No. Which is why it slid a little in the standings. But that's only because Wandee hit it out of the park this week. Frankly, this may not be the best BL airing right now, but it’s the best BL for me.

Sunset X Vibes (Sat iQIYI) ep 4 of 12 - That oppa bit was fucking genius. (You get it right? If you don't, I can explain.) And I immediately adore the secretary character as a result (I typed that as "reslut" and that works too.) Pleased to have such a "rich man and his spoiled boy" dynamic it going already. A dynamic I am personally IRL familiar with from the 90s. Also, kiddies stop filming adults at play! Sheesh.

I pretty much love all the couples in this show. It’s lots of fun. SamYo’s cat and mouse thing is delightful. Meanwhile, the mains are so sweetly hesitant about kisses and everything (hilarious coming from this pair). I love them and their awkward first time, or whatever is going on.

Do you know what? After that "oppa" comment this lead pair makes me feel a little bit like I’m watching a gay K-drama, similar style of personalities and everything, even the random martial arts ability. And the outing. I'm getting Business Proposal vibes. Nothing wrong with that, I was weaned on K-dramas.

All in all, great episode.

My Stand-In (Fri iQIYI) ep 11 of 12 - Yet again I spent the entire episode saying "poor Joe" over and over again. This time I didn’t cry though.

The pat way to end this is to have Joe walk through that door and then wake up back when he was about to get into the motorcycle accident. So that none of it ever happened. I suppose we’ll see what they do next week but I hope it isn’t that.

We Are Cute (Weds iQIYI) ep 14 of 16 - Do you know what this friendship group reminds me of the most? The old Love Sick music club boys. This is just the college version... 10 years later. (Love Sick was one of the few shows where I mostly didn’t yell “no singing” at the screen (also Ingredients). In my defense, I didn’t know any better back then.)

As boyfriends, PhumPeem are even more puppy/cat paring. And I am even more delighted by it. And them. In fact, this show is ALL puppy/cat pairings. I’m not mad about it.

"I’m hugging you so you won’t feel hungry" is the weirdest pick up ever. But Phum is weird. 

This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans (Fri iQIYI) ep 1 of 8 - The PittBabe team behind a new restaurant set BL full of hidden agendas and starring my new favorites SailubPon. I’m reminded so much right off the bat of PokeTongue’s side dish couple in What’s Zabb Man. Interesting, considering that came from Pon’s former studio. Love the call out of obnoxious content creators (not to mention corporate property developers). I like the chef character, he’s nicely complex. In fact, so far I like most of the characters, it’s a good range of different personality types. The plot is a little contrived and complicated but I don’t mind because the characters are such fun.

The Trainee (Sun YouTube) ep 1 of 12 - Reported on this last week already but here's what I said:

Gun still looks like he’s just out of high school. Madness.

The set for the print shop reminds me of Mork’s dad’s place in ‘Cause He’s My Boy? I swear GMMTV has only 3 sets.

I wasn't looking forward to this show at all. Maybe I just needed more of a break from OffGun? Cooking Crush happened yesterday.

Whatever, because I was absolutely riveted by this first episode.

I’m enjoying The Trainee a lot. Like, a lot a lot. It's not higher up just because there is so much good content from Thailand airing right now.

My Love Mix-Up Th (Fri YT) ep 5 of 12 - Still a chaos muffin no matter which country. So earnest. So cute. Talking stage commence!!!

Love Sea (Sun iQIYI) ep 4 of 10 - I got so bored I started looking up ways to organize my sunglasses. Trash watch here.

Knock Knock Boys (Thurs Gaga) ep 6-7 of 12 - The exes are odd. I like that Latte finally got some backstory.

Ongoing Series - Not Thai

I Hear the Sunspot AKA Hidamari ga Kikoeru (Japan Weds Gaga) Ep 2 of 10 - I’m still enjoying this quite a bit. It’s paralleling the manga quite closely, which is nice. But it’s not gonna be a particularly exciting drama if this continues. The manga is rather quiet (pun intended to amuse not insult).

Takara's Treasure AKA Takara No Vidro (Japan Mon Gaga) ep 1 of 10 - Look, if some kid followed me to college and changed the whole course of his life because I was nice about his dead bird? I'd be skeeved as fuck too. It's odd and uncomfortable, in that way Japan loves. Visuals are on point but can't say I'm enjoying it as yet. Still, it is JBL, and so I am intrigued and open to all possibilities.

It's airing but...

The Last Time (Thai Fri YT?) - Convoluted story of loss and possible reincarnation or something. Can't find it.

OMG Vampire (Thai Sun ???) 10 eps - I've put the search on hold for and y'all can let me know if it's worth tracking down once it ends?

In case you missed it

Blue Boys finished it run. I like it quite a bit. This felt a lot like a Strongberry short series. It’s very curtailed and could’ve used some legs but I've been trained into ignoring that for Korean BL. Short has always been their thing. Essentially, two boys who were acquaintances in high school are reunited and it turns out always had crushes on each other. It’s definitely an extrovert meets introvert scenario, and this being Korea, they can’t resist a tiny love triangle in the eleventh hour. But it all came out fine in the end. It has great kisses and higher heat than is normal from Korea. All in all, a surprisingly charming offering. Recommended with some reservations around the brevity of plot and character development. 8/10 

The Time of Fever AKA Unintentional Love Story 2 (Korea movie) trailer released to Korean theaters 5/25. HoTae & DongHee, side couple from Unintentional Love Story are back! Same actors, same character names. I love them. Devastated this hasn't had international distribution. I demand you tell me the moment you find it!

Next Week Looks Like This:

Upcoming BLs for 2024 are listed here. This list is not kept updated, so please leave a comment if you know something new or RP with additions.

July Releases to Come

7/10 Century of Love (Thai Gaga) 10 eps - trailer here, DaouOffroad are back, this time as fated mates in a quasi historical paranormal moment. San has spent many lifetimes waiting for his lost beloved, to reincarnate from her death a century ago. But if he fails to find her within this century's time window, he will succumb to a tragic death. And this time she's a boy. Very much Director Who Buys Me Dinner meets First Love Again, hopefully better than both. I love this pair and think they can handle the premise, it's whether the storytelling is up to the challenge. I'm curious to see but I have reservations.

7/24 I Saw You in My Dream (Thai Weds WeTV) - Dee Hup is behind this one so I have high hopes. Younger boy chronically teased his whole life by the older boy next door suddenly starts having horrific prophetic dreams about his bully and must save hime.

7/26 4 Minutes (Thai Netflix or iQIYI?) - Great is a university student from Faculty of Business and the son of a wealthy business owner. Out of the blue, he gains the supernatural power to see four minutes into the future.

7/29 Battle of the Writers (Thai ????) - trailer here, TutorYim return and while I adore them, I really hope this is better than Middleman's Love. Won't be hard. However: that premise! Ugh. Something something authors fighting - save me. Why don't writers understand that nothing is more boring than writers?

THIS WEEK’S BEST MOMENTS

Product placement du jour! Also the only product placed in a BL that I regularly enjoy myself.

Yes I cried. I'm a sap.

The faens in the wive's positions! So cute.

All Wandee

(Last week)

Streaming services are listed by how I (usually) watch, which is with a USA based IP, and often offset by a day because time zones are a pain.

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Sigh, Tumblr in it's infinite wisdom doesn't like too many tags.

There's these tricks, remember.

[nightmanatee]

reasons why it might be safi all along (i mean why not).

disclaimer! i don't THINK i'm going to be right but i have been thinking about this game and all it's characters for so long that i won't stop until the next game is out i guess. do take this with a grain of salt just in case..

so. yeah. in a perfect circumstances the next game is going to be about max again. and safi. again. and many other things that i'll explain below but i also have tl;dr at the bottom bc there's a lot to talk about.

before we start i want to establish a few things about safi: she can turn into anybody she's met irl. she can leave parts of herself in people when she turns into them. these parts act as things that "change" people making them more like safi (something poetic about her losing parts of herself and being more like others she turns into and others becoming more and more like her). and she can potentially manipulate people.

part 1: all the things that happened before.

there are some weird things that are mentioned even before lis:de timeline. max has a part in her journal about how yasmin "was just some hot older lady who seemed to really want to be my friend" and safi CAN become her mother if she wants to. and even if it's actually yasmin it might be safi's part in her that wants max here. max is also promised an apartment where she "could bring friends over if she had any" and then the first day at uni safi comes in and says hi "like we've been friends for years"??? FOR YEARS??

"did you snoop into my wallet??" seriously how come we moved on from this THIS FAST???? like i get it safi getting into max's house in ep3 to see what max is up to but ep1? why would she want to get to learn about max this way?

i've checked their sms and there's one interesting thing when safi is being like "not to sound like a creeper but are you still at turtle?" or something and it IS interesting how she knows it (max being all alone at thanksgiving at turtle).

what could this all mean? well, 2 things. either safi is really interested in max's life and wants to know her and she doesn't care about consent, personal space and privacy (something max does if she romances amanda btw). or she needs to know not who max is but what, but more on that later.

part 2: max as a character.

although i do think that it's possible for max to be who she is in de given 10 years of growth but also given all the previous things i've said it might be safi's part in her making her act like this. max's freakiness totally comes from safi (remember ep4 dialogue between them), her confidence comes from her too (is it about her having more confidence or max having a lot of confidence through the years before (enough for her to win a few competitions)).

also! remember that max has taken out safi's parts out of moses, gwen and herself? and still safi can turn into her (vinh, yasmin and amanda). i also do wonder if it means that safi doesn't have "influence" on these people she can just turn into them? but then also -

part 2.5: "why isn't it hurting me?"

- also consider this: could it be so that safi lied to max and some part of her is still here. might as well explain why she hasn't replied to chloe's message anyways. or does it mean that safi has "been inside her" for so long that max doesn't even notice it yet.

it is rather interesting how there are a lot of moments specifially with safi that get brushed off and not mentioned again: the wallet thing, safi being too cruel in ep4 confession, her explanation for max not being hurt by her. could there be something more to it?

part 3: the reasoning.

ok. but really like why? why would she need to get max here in the first place? could this be just an accident with the universe being so kind to plot something like this? or could it be safi wanting more talented (like actually talented wink wink lucas) people here and she's noticed max and her work and decided to bring her here?

yeah it can be just it.

it can also be that safi just lied.

part ???: the one where i think safi lies.

ok but also let's imagine for a second that safi just. lied about many things. she did know about arcadia bay (weird how she's ready to snoop into max's wallet but can't google one thing about her? is it really THAT hard to either google who she is and to learn that she's from oregon or to go through her friends online see victoria chase and see that victoria probably posted about arcadia bay. like c'mon guys it can't be THAT hard). she did know that max has powers (just not what kind). she knew about chloe and met her personally.

if you go into the theory of safi becoming "others" who she shapeshifts as then her saying "partner in grime", doing the finger pistols, even her eagerness to "sacrifice herself for a greater good" - might all be from chloe.

she might've lied about not knowing anything to learn just how much max is weak for these things (something she's done for lucas).

part 5: the nightmare sequence.

it starts off pretty realistically with max encountering moses copying safi (one thing she talks about and it being potentially implied that she leaves a part of herself in people and they will act more like safi) but then something weird happens: the nightmare becomes personal. suddenly it's safi being in "chloe"'s position, it's blackwell's bathroom (max told safi about this) max having a weird unexplainable memory of her breaking up with chloe over safi's "coolness" (something she would've never said herself could it just be max). there are memories of her in the darkroom (mentioned in the diary), motels (something safi could've never known). it is kinda weird to focus on these things while the whole "nightmare" is more about helping safi becoming herself again. there's too much chloe for something that shouldn't include her in the first place (bc safi hasn't met her, has she?🤨🤫)

"she was in my head back there, and she didn't think of me at all" and "you know i was in love with her, or i thought i was" are two very interesting quotes from vinh that could mean that safi CAN make someone feel certain things she wants them to feel.

could she also make max feel like she needs to move on from chloe? given how eager she was to make max a move on amanda?

so yeah i do kinda feel like max hasn't finished her job fully and that something's got fixed but not all.

bonus part: aren't they merging already??? wait WHAT.

this thing is written at the very end of the game after safi, after nightmares after EVERYTHING. "something has been restored" and i wonder what, considering that it's not about safi or other peoples' memories. could it be that more that these two timelines merged? i mean it could also mean just max herself being "restored" by being able to save the day with everyone this time around but we'll see.

ok, wait! part 6: bay over bae.

almost forgot it. but yeah how can bay thing be somewhere here? well for once chloe is still important to max in this timeline the only problem is safi not being able to meet her "irl". i mean unless!! she evolves her powers enough to be able to "mimic" not only a person but their power/s as well. and given how she knows both of max's powers she can either timetravel to meet chloe or just travel to a parallel timeline to meet her future self (and to hurt max even more) or both. and now this will be the worst.

tl;dr? kinda?

what could that all mean? it could mean that safi has plotted max getting into caledon (to get what kind of powers max has/to exploit her talent to boost university's fame) and her only way to achieve that would be if max and chloe broke up (given how chloe didn't want to settle in with max yet. or if max wouldn't want to come "home" yet.

OR

it could mean that safi knows max's WEAKEST spot now and might, y'know, use it given a chance and a reason. and oh boy does she has a reason to (esp if you don't side with her). she can turn very fast against someone (did this to gwen and max), one wrong thing and she will want to hurt max in the worst way (remember how she's told all these awful things to robbie despite personally knowing him??? and it's all bc of his dad's actions?).

but only time will tell.

[raisedbythetv89]

excuse the ranting here but just had someone try and argue that a fully evil literally on the hunt for the Slayer (bc he’s stalking his PREY to fight and hopefully kill) Spike - finding Buffy attractive (according to an interview James gave where he talks about that moment and said he embodied the kinds of predatory men who literally are “on the hunt” for real life women in bars) as anywhere NEAR the same level of creepiness as a SOULFUL aka SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD angel stalking and falling in love at the sight of an innocent and crying 15 year old Buffy….

Anti spike/spuffy ppl always try and use that interview to make Spike out to be “just as creepy” as Angel which is always just so embarrassing to me that they don’t grasp the basic difference between one was the most evil and literally is a predator to her prey but buffy is also a predator to spike’s kind so there is even still a balance of power between them even then and he’s literally just explaining how he played the scene to get the attitude and body language right as a predator bc he understands that’s what Spike is to Buffy at that time (literally had zero clue he would ever be a love interest of Buffy’s). And the other who is not supposed to be a predator anymore…. hides his identity as a vampire AND hides the fact that he’s been watching her for over a year is still acting as a predator but instead of stalking an experienced slayer to attempt to fight and kill he is stalking a freshly called still weak and vulnerable slayer who he wants to sleep with aka corrupt.

Angel is supposed to be GOOD yet is still acting like a predator. Spike IS EVIL and so is simply acting as someone who has killed two slayers should 💀💀💀💀 the fact that soulless evil Spike and soulful “good” Angel’s behavior can be compared AT ALL is bad for angel and angel alone bc spike is supposed to be evil and treating buffy as someone he is hunting and as an opponent. Angel is supposed to be HELPING Buffy….

But regardless of all that the argument is James said Sarah is beautiful so of course he played up that angle as well so canonically Spike thinks a 16 year old Buffy is pretty and these people really don’t understand the difference between the two 😭😭

First of all I personally have heard Sarah call herself “not the prettiest” at least 10 times in 10 different interviews - how often do you think the people in her life heard her make jokes or comments about her appearance??? To me that always seemed like James just paying a compliment to his costar who doesn’t understand how literally fucking STUNNING she is by basically being like HAVE YOU SEEN HER OF COURSE MY CHARACTER THINKS SHE’S PRETTY LOOK AT HER!! James literally rizzed his way into a main character and love interest like of course he’s gonna be charming in real life by paying compliments to everyone he can every chance he gets. He had sex appeal and a dream AND IT WORKED 💀 and we also see him have chemistry with practically every person on the show that’s just who he is 😹😹😹

But I also just cannot emphasize how much of a difference there is between finding someone attractive or thinking they’re beautiful vs actually ACTING on it and ESPECIALLY acting on it when you call her friend of the same age “just a kid” and say over and over again how wrong it is and that she’s too young AND THEN DO IT ANYWAY. Like it’s a supernatural show with vampires who are 100 & 200+ years old if angel hadn’t constantly acted like her dad and treated Buffy like a kid and everything is season 3 didn’t happen there could be sooooooo much more leniency with angel and buffy’s age differences and I probably wouldn’t care bc applying irl rules to the supernatural doesn’t make a lot of sense but angel always treats her like a child and says over and over again how wrong it is and THAT is what makes it a problem within this supernatural show bc Spike never treats her like a child or like she isn’t his equal ever no matter what age she is

But unfortunately it makes sense people who like a character whose main personality trait is !catholic guilt! (when he’s got a soul) don’t understand the difference between thoughts and actions and how we should only be defining ourselves and other people by their actions. Because we are not every single thought we’ve ever had both good and bad. If you think to do good things but don’t that does not make you good and if you think to do bad things but don’t that does not make you bad.

So evil Spike thinking a beautiful Buffy dancing with her friends is hot at 16 is not even CLOSE to the same as a supposed to be good angel activity pursuing a relationship with her by breadcrumbing the absolute fuck out of her, manipulating her like crazy and lying to her about practically everything and flirting with her under false pretenses after falling in love at the sight of her looking like a child with her lollipop on the school steps at 15 and then watching her cry in the bathroom mirror as he watches her from the bushes with a smile on his face and hope in his eyes and if you don’t understand that there is literally nothing I can do or say to help you

[alicentsultana]

Some of my alicole beliefs and rants:

1. I think the want had always been there (especially when you're being fucked by a corpse, but we're not gonna talk about that today)

2. Religion and morality doesn't mean those who have/follow will stick to it.

3. Repression and trauma can change people and it reflect in their actions, including self-harm (as we see Alicent doing) and other things like drugs and alcohol (like Aegon does), fighting (like Aemond), but the cope mechanism here went to sex, as many people do. Like repressed people irl who are one person at home and away from their parents/family/partners are someone completely different. You cannot be pro lgbtqia+ and not know this, baby karen project...

4. Twenty fucking Jesus dancing years together. We see clear as day that Criston have to do the work that supposedly should have been Viserys' - like giving attention to his wife and kids, not forget their name and rather to find them dead. Let her drool on a dilf that practically raised her kids, for fucks sake

5. There's a lot to unpack. They might have done it at Driftmark, marking the death of duty, as we saw someone pointing out early. They give give give. And it's never enough, it's a doomed matter, even for them, after all, what's stopping them? Promises have already been broken, what do they have left?

6. It's easy to love Anne Boleyn an go Henry VIII on others, huh?

7. They are very much devoted to each other and it shows. And it goes beyond the religious undertones, she practically saved his life while he stopped her from falling from grace, despite being justified in her rage, now tell me, what would you feel if it were you?

8. I have the genuine impression that the targtowers kids know. It's monday for them, it send lights to Aegon's affairs, but that's Freudian talk. Criston didn't had to like or do anything for 4 brats, yet, we see how Aemond respects him, how he can freely chastise Aegon in public, how the show made us nothing but a disfavour, old news. And once again, there he was.

9. This is the less problematic relationship on this show, you wish it wasn't consensual, they had years to pull away.

10. From all the men around her, only one apparently hasn't failed her.

11. Emotional attachment. Both sides.

12. Viserys was emotionally unavailable first, unless you all think is normal to call the name of another wife, and look into my eyes and tell me he hadn't done it even in bed. Alicent eventual actions seems more than justified to me.

12. Rhaenyra is a topic between them, but well, is dragon criminal pussy really misleading them?

13. Good for them.

[joyful-enchantress]

Is it 2025 yet? 🕚

Folks tend to get reflective during this time of year and... it's me. I'm folks. Reflecting on 2024 has been hitting me in the gut like a sucker punch.

Some of you know, in great detail, what I've faced in 2024. Some of you know parts of it, but not all. And some of you know none of it. But 2024 has been the most difficult year in my 32 years of life. That's not to say that there hasn't been any joy throughout the year, because there has been. That's just to say that the things I've had to process this year sometimes had me feeling like both my brain and my heart were in a blender.

I've been a bit of a recluse as a result -- not just on Tumblr, but in all my communication channels, and even IRL to an extent. I certainly haven't been myself for much of the year.

With the holidays upon us, I'm feeling extra reflective, and so I decided to do a 2024 recap. And there's some people I want to thank that will be tagged. PLEASE, there is no obligation to read on, even if you're tagged. There's some heavy shit below the cut. If you're tagged and don't choose to read on, just know that you've played a part in adding some warmth and light to my year despite everything and that I love and appreciate you 💚

Here goes nothing --

January 2024: After a few months in a nursing home, we learned that my husband's grandmother was put on hospice.

February 2024: My husband's grandmother passed away. Our first loss of the year. It was sad, but not tragic. She was 99 and passed away peacefully. Later in the month, we get the news that my maternal grandfather has cancer. It was discovered very late.

March 2024: My grandfather was put on hospice.

April 2024: My grandfather passed away. Our second loss of the year. I'm trying to comfort my mom as she mourns the loss of her dad. Later in the month, MY dad has some tests done and gets a call with the results -- they detected tumors in his abdomen.

May 2024: After a few more appointments, it becomes clear that my dad's situation is dire. He is shortlisted for major surgery to remove the tumors ASAP. He had surgery on May 21st. They removed several tumors, the largest of which was about 44 lbs (20 kg) ‼️ Recovery from the surgery seems to be going fairly well at first, but then things take a turn with some additional complications. He passed away for the first time on May 31st, but they resuscitated him. Now he has 6 broken ribs on top of everything else.

June 2024: My dad spent most of the first week of June unconscious and on life support. My family, considering all options and all the complications, made the difficult and heartbreaking decision to take him off life support and end his suffering. He passed away on June 7th. We held a beautiful memorial service for him on June 22nd. I started therapy to get support through my grief.

July 2024: Towards the end of the month, my mom found a camera in the house as she began sorting through things. She found it in the stand beside my dad's chair. After some digging she also located the charging cord and turned the camera on expecting some happy memories. Instead, she found photographic evidence of my dad's infidelity. And the woman in the pictures with my dad is one of my mom's sisters. The pictures are from about 10 years ago. Obviously this news rocks my world -- tilts it on its axis. I feel some cracks forming in the foundation of who I am as a person, since my dad shaped so much of that. I was close with my dad. I never suspected in a million years that he could have done something like this.

August 2024: During this month, my mom managed to find my dad's phone, which had become lost amongst the chaos of bringing his things back from the hospital, funeral planning, etc. In light of what she found on the camera, she opens my dad's text message thread with my aunt. It is damning; full of pictures, explicit messages, and arrangements. Some as recently as early 2024. My dad's affair with my mom's sister was ongoing for a decade.

September 2024: I feel like I'm finally making a breakthrough in therapy (thank god I didn't waste time deciding to start in the first place or I don't know if I would have made it through the year). My therapist is wonderful and she has me start to work on reparenting myself and relearning how to express my emotions in a healthy way, after a childhood of being raised by a dad who would yell and scream and get angry anytime I cried. I seriously would stare at my therapist through the screen and say "I WANT to cry right now, but I can't" My body would shut it down without me even thinking; a defense mechanism that I had developed as a kid to avoid getting screamed at. (GREAT news -- I'm way better at crying, now, guys!! 🥳)

October 2024: My husband is in a car accident. Most importantly, he is okay! He did end up with whiplash and a concussion, and his concussion symptoms do still flare up from time to time even 2 months later, but we've been told that's not abnormal and they are getting fewer and further between. As a much more minor but still disappointing note -- the accident happened the day before we were supposed to leave for a trip that we had planned and had been looking forward to since January. We had to cancel the trip.

November 2024: My first Thanksgiving without my dad was very difficult.

December 2024: My mom closed on a house! This is obviously very exciting and I more than understand why she wants to move out and sort of leave everything of her life with my dad behind. But it is still... a lot. It is all so strange. And scary. And sad. I celebrated my first birthday without my dad on December 19th. It was hard. He gave me roses and a balloon every year without fail. So, this year my wonderful husband got me 32 red rose cookies... he didn't want to replicate exactly what my dad did (he might have, had it not been for the discovery of my dad's decade-long affair) but he wanted to pay homage to it, and I think he knocked it out of the park. I love him so much and I'm so lucky to have him.

And now I'm about to celebrate my first Christmas without my dad. I already know it is going to be difficult. This entire holiday season has been more difficult than I could probably explain. But I'm being kind to myself and I'm trying to look for the joy amongst it all.

If you've made it this far --- whew. Are you okay? Seriously, I know that is a lot, even to just read about all at once. I've spent a lot of time this year being so confused and angry... my grief journey for my father, which is already difficult in and of itself, doesn't even get to be straightforward or "normal."

I'm aware this has been bleak. I didn't post this to bring you down. I just wanted to put it out there so you know. So you know why I may have seemed distant or absent this year.

I sincerely hope that you all have the warmest and most wonderful holiday season, and a kick-ass New Year! So many of you have been there for me this year, whether in direct support, or just by providing some fun, silly distractions that injected joy and laughter into my year. Truly, you have no idea the difference or the lasting impression even one comment or whisper of support can make. I love you all, and don't you forget it.

Here's to 2025! May it be kinder to us all ✨

@ijuststareatstuffhereok89 @lokisgoodgirl @mochie85 @sarahscribbles @infinitystoner @loz-3 @loopsisloops @holdmytesseract @muddyorbs @give-me-a-moose @maple-seed @ladyofthestayingpower @tallseaweed @loki-cees-all @liminalpebble @fandxmslxt69 @lokiandbuckysdoll @superficialdomina @jiyascepter @gruftiela @simplyholl ++ people I'm sure that I missed 💚

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kinktober #17

Gaining Gamer �� / Dungeon 🏰 (both-ish!)

Delicious Dungeon: Channel Trailer

farcilleskitchen☑️

102,422 views · 1 year ago

Welcome to the dungeon — er, kitchen! We’re Falin and Marcille, and we’re on a mission to cook every dish featured in everyone’s favorite dungeon game. 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

43K likes

498 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Boiled Mimic

farcilleskitchen☑️

23,232 views · 1 year ago

Starting off easy(ish) with a deceptively delicious dish from early on in the dungeon. Will it transform into something we can enjoy irl too? P.S. bonus points to everyone who commented on our trailer to yell about how cute Falin is. ISN’T SHE?!?!? P.P.S. NEGATIVE bonus points to everyone who commented to tell me that my elf ears are distracting. IT’S CALLED AN HOMAGE, PEOPLE! 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille’s Instagram: arcane_ambrosia

Falin’s Instagram: bugoutwithfalin

10.5K likes

344 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Risotto with Graveyard Mushrooms and Orc Cheese

farcilleskitchen☑️

26,458 views · 11 months ago

We didn’t pick these mushrooms from a graveyard, but we did walk by one on our way to the farmer’s market so it still counts. And we couldn’t decide on what cheese was the most orc-like so we picked ORK(NEY) CHEDDAR. This preparation is a little different from normal risotto because it calls for short-grain rice instead of long-grain, but it’s still delicious!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

13.9K likes

398 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Griffin’s Egg Quiche

farcilleskitchen☑️

32,495 views · 11 months ago

Have you ever tried ostrich eggs?! Neither have we! It’s a first for everyone this week, including Falin’s brother Laios who’s lurking in the background. (Hi, Laios!) Thanks to Falin & Laios’s Uncle Senshi for the eggs from his farm!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

16K likes

344 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Grilled Cockatrice

farcilleskitchen☑️

399,994 views · 10 months ago

Falin said I couldn’t make a joke in this video about how we’re doing meat this week because everyone in the comments wants Laios’s meat SO BAD so I’m making it here HAHA! He’s not on Instagram, sorry everyone. ANYWAY! Today we’re making grilled cockatrice. This made enough for a family of 5, but luckily, we have Laios, so it all got eaten!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

17.3K likes

403 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Jack O’Lantern Potage with Sauteed Dryad Buds and Cheese

farcilleskitchen☑️

42,587 views · 10 months ago

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! The truly scary thing about this video was how much cheese Laios ate behind the scenes. (I know it’s not Halloween YET, but squash blossoms are still in season right now and you’ll need them for this. Besides, all of October is Halloween for some of us.) 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com  

18.2K likes

487 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Soul Eggs Benedict

farcilleskitchen☑️

50,943 views · 9 months ago

Benedict is a great topic for this video because SOMEONE barely even left us a bite after we spent ALL AFTERNOON in a HOT KITCHEN making it, LAIOS. #traitor #eggsbenedictarnold Anyway, you can use any eggs you like for this! Ours are duck eggs from Uncle Senshi. We told him how much you guys love him and he was so happy!!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

24.9K likes

504 comments

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MUKBANG | Eggs benedict 

LaiosTheDevourer

1,094 views · 9 months ago

I’ve seen a lot of these recently so I thought I’d try one too! Eating lots of eggs benedict cooked in the style of the dungeon game. Food prepared by my sister and her girlfriend, go check out their channel at farcilleskitchen!

52 likes

14 comments

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Delicious Dungeon DOUBLE FEATURE: Tentacle Gnocchi AND Tentacles with Vinegar Dressing

farcilleskitchen☑️

58,928 views · 9 months ago

… listen, sometimes life gives you a LOT of tentacles, and you gotta use them up somehow. Thanks again to Uncle Senshi for the boatload of squid he procured for us this week, definitely legally! And thanks to Laios for eating more tentacles than either of us thought possible.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

28K likes

555 comments

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MUKBANG | Wings on a full stomach

LaiosTheDevourer

2,304 views · 9 months ago

Hey, this is kind of fun! Thanks for all the comments, they were very nice. Today I’m having wings because the place I like has a deal on Wednesdays. I was already pretty full because I had a lot of squid earlier (very good!) but who can say no to wings? By the end I could barely move, I was so stuffed, but it was worth it!

123 likes

19 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Hippogriff Soup Dumplings

farcilleskitchen☑️

63,082 views · 8 months ago ago

This week, we get freaky with PORK FAT, which was … not fun for one of us. Thanks to Uncle Senshi for sourcing the chicken! Also, guest appearance by Laios, who got freaky with so many soup dumplings that he had to unbutton his pants. #achievementunlocked?

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

31.7K likes

602 comments

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NOT a mukbang | So much soup

LaiosTheDevourer

2,976 views · 8 months ago

You guys are so nice!! Thanks so much for the support. You really liked my last video when I was really full, so here’s another for you. My sister and her girlfriend made soup dumplings and had a lot of extras, so they gave them to me! Every time I move I can hear my stomach slosh :/ How many do you think I ate?

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

273 likes

21 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Nightmares Steamed in Sake

farcilleskitchen☑️

78,146 views · 8 months ago

This week, we venture into new territory for one of our party members (not saying who because it will be abundantly clear in the video) and make OYSTERS! Some of us were very excited because “oysters are like if slime was edible.” Believe it or not, that did not help sell one great adventurer on this dish. Cooking wine will work for this recipe if you don’t have sake, but sake is the most authentic! Luckily it’s pretty easy to find in your local Asian market. #hmartforever

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

45.5K likes

723 comments

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MUKBANG | Oysters!!

LaiosTheDevourer

3,415 views · 8 months ago

Wow! Thanks so much for the comments on my last video. I really appreciate it! Today it’s oysters in sake for lunch, and my friend didn’t want hers so I got them instead! I hadn’t thought about how many oysters I could eat until now, but I guess the answer is a lot. 

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

312 likes

26 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Hamburg Steak with Changeling Sauce

farcilleskitchen☑️

84,458 views · 7 months ago

No changelings were harmed in the making of this dish! Just mushrooms, we promise. Thanks to Uncle Senshi for providing the meat AND produce for this video! Everyone go sign up for his farm newsletter or we’ll hold our next video hostage. [EDIT: We will not hold the next video hostage. But it would be nice if you signed up for Uncle Senshi’s newsletter. He includes a lot of pictures of cows! — Falin]

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

48.1K likes

992 comments

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MUKBANG | Steak with mushroom sauce

LaiosTheDevourer

3,728 views · 7 months ago

I think these videos are making me fat … it’s getting harder to button my pants. But I persevere! Food is very important to me and I could never disappoint my wonderful followers! Haha. Anyway, here’s a couple of big steaks with mushroom sauce. Delicious!

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

345 likes

31 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Head-Chopping Rabbit Gently Prepared Chicken Curry

farcilleskitchen☑️

97,124 views · 7 months ago

Sorry, everyone … we chickened (rabbitted?) out. While you may know us as the tough-as-nails, take-no-shit dungeon adventurers we play on this channel, we have a soft spot for rabbits so we made a big substitution in this one and used chicken thighs instead. You can use white meat if you prefer, but we used dark. And you may enjoy a picture of Marcille with her pet rabbits as an apology for deviating from the recipe. (Apologies to chicken owners. We don’t have any experience with chickens as pets but we acknowledge that you are out there and we’re sorry. It’s okay if you skip this one on principle.)

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

53K likes

1,123 comments

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MUKBANG with burping | LOTS of curry

LaiosTheDevourer

3,415 views · 7 months ago

I ate too much :( Everyone was very nice about my last video so I hope you’ll be nice about this too! Sorry for all the burps, I couldn’t help myself. The curry was just so good! A perfect mix of creamy and spicy, and expertly seasoned!

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

379 likes

37 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Roast Basilisk

farcilleskitchen☑️

102,405 views · 6 months ago

WOOOO WE BROKE 100K!! Thank you so much, everyone!! This week we’re ROASTIN’! And I don’t want to see a single comment about spit-roasting in the comments so don’t even think about it. More topically, YES Falin and I built this fire pit in our backyard ourselves! It’s great! You haven’t lived until you’ve seen a hot girl haul rocks around! We grew all the herbs in our garden and, of course, the Jersey Giant meat is courtesy of Uncle Senshi.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

59.2K likes

1,456 comments

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MUKBANG and post-mukbang weigh-in | Roast basilisk

LaiosTheDevourer

3,627 views · 6 months ago

So a couple of videos ago, I said I thought I was getting fat from doing these videos … we’ll see if it’s true! I ate so much roast basilisk before getting on the scale that I’m sure it added a few pounds.

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

392 likes

40 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Rolled Harpy Egg Omelette

farcilleskitchen☑️

106,393 views · 6 months ago

Rolled omelettes are HARD but we make the best of it! The duck eggs we used for this recipe are Uncle Senshi’s farm. It’s not part of the recipe in-game, but we also fry up some bacon from Uncle Senshi just for kicks. What are eggs without bacon?? Fun fact: Marcille practiced rolling omelettes about 250 times so she could make it for Falin on Valentine’s Day. IT WORKED.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

61.4K likes

1,562 comments

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PROGRESS VIDEO | Old pants

LaiosTheDevourer

4,158 views · 6 months ago

My pants don’t fit! But I’m going to try them on anyway. Why don’t more people talk about how much fun it is to gain weight? What’s better than eating lots of amazing food?! I think being fat is a good sign that you know how to enjoy all the delights that life has to offer. What do you guys think?

423 likes

48 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Man-Eating Plant Tart

farcilleskitchen☑️

108,837 views · 5 months ago

We’re going vegetarian this week because if I have to read one more comment about you guys begging to see more of Laios’s tHiCk CuT bAcOn I’m going to SCREAM! We used vegetable broth and agar-agar instead of chicken broth and gelatin for this dish so it’s truly vegetarian, but non-veggie options would also work fine. Also, we mention this in the video but I’ll say it again: this is a SAVORY tart! If it’s not sweet you’re doing it right!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

66.2K likes

1,684 comments

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MUKBANG | Bacon

LaiosTheDevourer

4,284 views · 5 months ago

Today I ate soooo much bacon. My sister was going to use it in a recipe, but then she and her girlfriend decided to make something else so they let me have it! I’m not as good at cooking but I do know how to fry bacon! This is the good stuff from a local farm run by my uncle and it made me feel so heavy when I was done. Oh man! Also, I wore a shirt I thought you guys would like — you can really see my belly now!

Food given by farcilleskitchen, made by me!

447 likes

52 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Huge Scorpion and Walking Mushroom Omelette

farcilleskitchen☑️

112,458 views · 5 months ago

Back to omelettes this week because Uncle Senshi’s farm is just BOOMING with eggs. AND we’ll teach you the best way to eat mushrooms and you will never want to go back. P.S. if one more person makes a joke about how the man they want to eat is Laios I will figure out how to manually unsubscribe them from this channel

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

73.8K likes

1,749 comments

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MUKBANG | Eggs

LaiosTheDevourer

4,462 views · 5 months ago

I should have saved some bacon from last week’s video! Today I decided to see how many deviled eggs I could eat and the answer is … well, the answer is always a lot! The more of these I do, the more I can eat :) And I think I’m starting to look it … 

Food given by farcilleskitchen, made by me!

460 likes

59 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Sky Fish and Chips

farcilleskitchen☑️

115,343 views · 4 months ago

Your favorite adventurers bravely take on a new challenge: DEEP FRYING!! The goggles I’m wearing are excellent safety gear and not at all overkill. You should not approach deep frying with the devil-may-care attitude of a certain pair of Touden siblings. HOT OIL IS TO BE RESPECTED AND FEARED. P.S. Sorry about Laios’s GIANT BELCH in the background. He managed to do it at the single most difficult place to cut out or dub over so it’s still there. #yolo or whatever the youth are saying

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

75.9 likes

1,978 comments

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NOT a mukbang | Way too much fried food and burps

LaiosTheDevourer

4,723 views · 4 months ago

I ate way too much fish and chips and my stomach hurts :( I had to put on my loosest pants and shirt because I felt so bloated. And I can’t stop burping … I wish I could say this would teach me a lesson but I know I’ll do it again!

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

486 likes

64 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Mandrake Kakiage and Giant Bat Tempura

farcilleskitchen☑️

121,938 views · 4 months ago

In this house, we ♥️ tempura. You can use any meat in this recipe! We used duck since Uncle Senshi had some on hand, but chicken, pork, or turkey would work just as well. The moaning you hear in the background is the sound of a man who truly, madly, deeply believed he could eat five gigantic helpings of tempura and was sadly defeated. 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

79.3 likes

2,338 comments

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NOT a mukbang | Tempura aftermath and more burps

LaiosTheDevourer

4,901 views · 4 months ago

Aaaand … I did it again. We made tempura and I ate sooo much and now I feel so stuffed. My stomach hurts too much to move and all I can do is rub it and try to get the air out. No wonder my new pants don’t fit either …

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

503 likes

76 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Kelpie Oil Soap

farcilleskitchen☑️

125,390 views · 3 months ago

APRIL FOOL!! Today’s recipe is NOT EDIBLE! DO NOT EAT IT! DON’T SAY WE DIDN’T WARN YOU!! You may not know this, but in her spare time Falin is an accomplished soap-maker! Today she’ll teach us how to make soap by hand with tallow from none other than Uncle Senshi. And then all of you guys in the comments can wash your mouths out from all the filthy things you say about Laios down there!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com  

83.5K likes

2,932 comments

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PROGRESS VIDEO | Weighing myself again

LaiosTheDevourer

5,078 views · 3 months ago

I’d say that you won’t believe that I popped another button off my pants, but you probably will because you see how much I eat here :) I’m getting fat and I’m pretty happy about it! I’ve gained 34 pounds since I started this channel and you can really tell. I’ve had to replace all my shirts, but I’ll try on some of the smaller ones just for you guys :)

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

529 likes

82 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Naturally Delicious Treasure Insect Snacks

farcilleskitchen

127,493 views · 3 months ago

You can eat this one, but I don’t know if you’ll want to. It’s Falin’s birthday so I let her choose the recipe this week. And she chose … crickets. So many crickets. In so many increasingly upsetting flavors. But I’m proud to say that I was a good sport and tasted all of them. I don’t know if I can pick which one was best. 🙃

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

86.2K likes

2,839 comments

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MUKBANG?? | Crickets and more

LaiosTheDevourer☑️

5,212 views · 3 months ago

I tried eating crickets today!! I thought I would like them more but they were just kind of like eating potato chips with legs. They weren’t very filling, though, so I’ll have to make sure I eat something else too …

Food provided by farcilleskitchen!

581 likes

92 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Doppelganger Takoyaki

farcilleskitchen☑️

131,348 · 2 months ago

Laios got REALLY excited about this one, so we let him help. Luckily, the only doppelganger in this video is Falin’s octopus-shaped spaghetti spoon, so no one’s feelings were hurt when we cooked them. But it turns out that neither of us actually likes octopus that much, so Laios had the best day of his life. 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

92.5K likes

3,493 comments

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MUKBANG | Takoyaki! and burps

LaiosTheDevourer

5,345views · 2 months ago

I ate so much takoyaki that I had to lie down. I’m sooo stuffed in this video so please excuse the burping! I had to take a nap afterward because I was too full to do anything else. The best kind of day!

Food made by farcilleskitchen — and me! I helped!

599 likes

106 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Exorcism Sorbet

farcilleskitchen☑️

138,921 views · 2 months ago

You don’t need an ice cream maker to enjoy some delightful sorbet! We’re getting summer a little early here and it is HOT. Stay cool with us and we’ll show you how to make a boozy granita out of it too. P.S. We tried deeply to get Laios to wear a shirt in this video. He refused and cited the temperature. Sorry/you’re welcome. At least you can see that he’s proof that we actually can cook.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

96.7K likes

3,594 comments

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MUKBANG | Ice cream on a full stomach

LaiosTheDevourer

5,455 views · 2 months ago

It’s so hot that all I want to do is eat ice cream … so that’s what I did. I ate a lot of sorbet for breakfast so I was already full when I started this video, and by the end I was so stuffed that my stomach was barely soft at all! Did you notice that it’s starting to hang over my belt? :)

613 likes

127 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Barometz Balut

farcilleskitchen☑️

145,029 views · 1 month ago

YOU ALL NEED JESUS OR SOMETHING, OH MY GOD. Sincere thanks to everyone who commented about THE RECIPE and not Laios’s dadbod. We’re here for a reason, people! And today that reason is to use up some pork chops from, you guessed it, Uncle Senshi. He doesn’t like modern technology so he refuses to be in a video, but he loves that you guys keep asking him to. And he says that you should use San Marzano tomatoes for this, if you can.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

100.4K likes

3,947 comments

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MUKBANG | Ribs

LaiosTheDevourer

5,521 views · 1 month ago

You guys requested a shirtless video so here you go! I feel so good in a bigger body. It’s really liberating! I can’t believe I haven’t done a video with ribs yet, they’re so good and satisfying! I always feel like I’m eating a wooly mammoth or something haha. Thanks for watching!

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

637 likes

142 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Giant Parasite from Giant Kraken, Grilled Plain and Kabayaki-Style

farcilleskitchen☑️

153,304 views · 1 month ago

EEL, THE KING OF MEATS! (Or at least that’s what the crossword tells me every week. They LOVE the word ‘eel’ over there.) Anyway, come greel eel with us. We’re the reel deel. P.S. SORRY, I stand corrected! Thanks (??) to everyone who chimed in to let me know that whatever Laios has going on is significantly more than dadbod. If you have any other info like this, I’d like to direct you to my personal phone number: 1-800-DID-I-ASK. Thanks!

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

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MUKBANG and weigh-in | Eel

LaiosTheDevourer

5,611 views · 1 month ago

I could eat eel all day … and today I kind of did! I weighed myself before and after so you can see how well I did :) I’m getting pretty heavy! I was editing this video and kept noticing how chubby my face is getting. I really like it! And thank you again for all your encouragement, it means a lot to me!

Food made by farcilleskitchen!

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159 comments

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Delicious Dungeon: Mandrake and Basilisk Omelette

farcilleskitchen☑️

169,246 views · 3 weeks ago

If you guys haven’t signed up for Uncle Senshi’s CSA program, you are severely missing out. He’s got boxes for fruits and vegetables, boxes for ALL KINDS OF EGGS, and boxes for fresh and cured meats! What are you waiting for??? Also, to everyone asking why I hate Laios, I don’t hate him!! He’s one of my best friends AND basically my brother in law so I have full roasting rights. I also wish he’d make his OWN CHANNEL so I could stop hearing about how much you guys wanna [REDACTED] him! 

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

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NOT a mukbang | Achy belly and hiccups/burps

LaiosTheDevourer

5,697 views · 3 weeks ago

I went out for Korean barbecue with some friends and ate way too much! I could barely get up from the booth when we were done, and they teased me (nicely!) the whole drive home about how tubby I’m getting. It’s been a few hours and I still feel like I’m going to burst. I’ll need new pants again soon at this rate.

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Delicious Dungeon: (Marry Me) Phoenix Confit💍

farcilleskitchen☑️

204,589 views · 1 week ago

Fun fact: neither of us took French in school! In today’s video, we butcher the language of romance and tell you a little about our own love story in honor of a) our channel anniversary and b) FALIN SAYING YES!!! Like this phoenix confit, our romance burned LOW AND SLOW for many years, but also like this phoenix confit, it’s been absolutely delicious since we got our act together 🥰. Here’s to many more years of #Farcille, and to many more delicious adventures together. P.S. Thanks for making me aware that Laios DOES have his own channel. Uh, go check that out, I guess.

New videos every other Tuesday! 

Marcille 📸: arcane_ambrosia

Falin 📸: bugoutwithfalin

Laios📹: LaiosTheDevourer

Senshi’s website: http://www.prodigiousprovisions.com 

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PROGRESS VIDEO | Weighing myself and GOALS!

LaiosTheDevourer

5,817 views · 1 week ago

New pants! Guess what size I am now :) I’ve gained so much weight since starting this channel and I’ve never felt better! Today I’ll talk about my journey so far, what’s next, and how much I weigh right now. Very excited for what’s to come!!

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[siarven]

I made this for cara but thought I should use it to FINALLY make a proper pinned post on here! (image descriptions in alt text)

Hello everyone (:

I thought I'd use this to properly re-introduce myself. These days I have a lot going on irl, so I'm not as interactive on here as I used to be. However, I love making new friends and getting to know their projects :D Some of my most important friends are from here, even if most of them are no longer active on writeblr (we have migrated to discord), so if you think we'd vibe pls shoot me a message!!

What you can expect:

Started out as an artblr, then turned into a writeblr, now it's mostly me collecting inspiration, art and writing references, with some infrequent original writing wip/art posts ✴︎ — more info about tags and writing below the cut — ✴︎

✴︎ — #queer tag - I reblog a lot of queer related posts, particularly about aro/ace and gender related topics

✴︎ — #inspirational - art, writing, photography, nature/environmental issues related topics, history, paleontology, archaeology; things I find inspiring and fascinating :D

✴︎ — i love all of the creatures, fictional or real, but less in a "cute videos" and more in a "I love how our world works" type way. I worked at a wildlife sanctuary for a year after school and learned a lot there. one day i will be the forever home for an old cat nobody else wants

✴︎ — sometimes I still post art and or writing, though I guess there'll be more art on Cara if you wanna follow me there (less AI threat)

✴︎ — i study concept art, work as a freelance illustrator, and am currently working on my MA thesis project "Fragments of the Infinite"

✴︎ — my main wip novel (Dream's Shadow) is probably finally getting close to being Finished. Feels somewhat surreal. idk if it's even worth querying it because it really doesn't fit into the current publishing world but it's not actually finished yet anyway so... we can worry about that later

✴︎ — very into fantasy with cool worldbuilding in particular. don't much care for elves/dwarves/.. fantasy preindustrial england type worlds, but dungeon meshi is my current obsession so if it's deeply developed and interesting enough I don't really mind :)

✴︎ — hopepunk my most beloved! i do love when characters get put through the wringer to get to their hopeful ending though. Sometimes, things are tragic in a bittersweet way, and that is okay too

✴︎ — deeply nuanced, complicated, messy morally grey characters driving the narrative

I am open to tag games, but will probably only manage to respond to like 10% of them... it's not you, it's me

Always open for DMs or asks <3

I try to tag everything as well as I can, if i forget, ask to tag <3

If you're into TMA, I have a podcast/TMA blog @moth-song-archives; my rambling animals/shitposts/memes/other fandoms/... blog is @lirhin, and I have a dedicated art blog @siarvenart

a hopepunk dark fantasy story with creepy/horror elements set in another world; small scope that transitions into epic fantasy later on

Status: draft 6.5 completed at 141k; currently mini-beta round. First in a trilogy

✴︎ —1st, 2nd and 3rd person limited, present tense ✴︎ — hopepunk, sibling dynamics, dysfunctional family, power of kindness & love, platonic love, queer characters, queer-embracing worldbuilding, mental & physical trauma, light & dark, secrets, tragedy, lies, betrayal, loss of innocence, holding on & letting go, cute creatures, (in)humanity, trees, religion & belief, growing up, monsters, dreams, nightmares.

When Ava and her parents arrive at the hospital, they find her older brother Ben in a deeply unnatural coma - and nobody can tell them what happened. Despite the magical abilities of the Asim Healers, there seems to be no way to save him. But then, why do they still keep him alive? As Ava slowly learns the magnitude of how terrible Ben's situation (and impossible his future) truly are, she finds herself embroiled in a larger conflict, ready to hook its claws into her as well. And the one person she cares about most - who always had her back - is gone. So despite everything, there's only really one choice: Find out how to save him and try anyways.

the travel journal of a young scientist, documenting the cultures, places, people and creatures she encounters on the way (art/text)

Status: storyboard/script 2nd draft completed; beta feedback

✴︎ —1st person present ✴︎ — 66 double pages of art accompanied by ~10k text ✴︎ — hopepunk, (body) horror, religion & belief, nihilism vs making your own meaning, platonic love, queer characters, queer-embracing worldbuilding, transitioning with magical body horror means, mental & physical trauma, light & dark, deep worldbuilding, eldritch monsters, loss of innocence, SO MANY creatures

Features: a tidally locked planet orbited by 5 moons and populated by giant eldritch monsters; two trans aroace main characters; body horror; so much art; the most gratuitous worldbuilding project; character driven narrative

When the fifth moon hatches during Thorn's own naming ritual, making her one of 2 people who saw it happen, she knows she's been chosen. But back at home, nobody believes what she saw, choosing to instead take the moon's disappearance as a sign of celebration as it mirrors religious scriptures. So Thorn sets out to find physical proof, and uses the opportunity to document her travels. She doesn't know that her view of the world will be thoroughly challenged, but she also doesn't know about the friends she'll make <3

I have various other wips, some of them are linked in my header. I'll return to them at some point, but these 2 are my current projects for 2024:)

[wizkhaleesii]

Another 4 am hot take because I saw an ao3 comment section today that left me actually reeling

HOUSEKEEPING: -> This is not about canon Alicent this is about really common fanon Alicent/Rhaenicent characterizations!!!! do not start that shit with me here!!!!

The amount this fandom, especially in fanfiction, insist on whittling down Alicent to nothing more than a victim in most of your works is hella weird to me. And it’s the way a lot of people will then carry this bias over into other fanfics where it DOES NOT apply. There’s a fic that involves Alicent being 10 years older than Rhaenyra and absolutely grooms her in the story, and yeah she has some conflicting emotions about it (good for her I guess?) and in this most recent chapter it’s revealed a freshly 18 year old Rhaenyra (who already has two children by Alicent at this point, Alicent is 28) cheated on Alicent once after they had a big fight over OOP, Rhaenyra being manipulated

And the COMMENTS, the comments were FULL of people being like “I hate Rhaenyra she’s so stupid I’ve lost all sympathy for her how could she do this to Alicent she’s so fucking stupid I’m now 100% on Alicent’s side” and I’m literally not exaggerating. Pages of it

I was, appalled? Aghast? Dumbfounded? I really hate how a lot of this fandom just reduces Alicent to “must be the victim all the time” which is a serious disservice to her character, and Rhaenyra must be the perpetrator of all harm all the time.

And are we ready to talk about how that reeks of internalized misogyny and “perfect victim” mentality yet orrrr? Cuz why are we constantly making the more fem presenting person in the relationship the victim (author intended or not) and the more typically masc presenting person constantly the perpetrator? (Author intended or not)

But naaaah people wanna tell me it’s not that deep, cuz the very concerning pages of this mindset about a grooming victim shouldn’t be cause for concern or anything, silly me I guess

Maybe it wouldn’t be that deep if the grooming victims of AFAB people/women weren’t so overlooked all the time irl…

[maopll]

— rivals to lovers !

synopsis: sworn rivals in terms of academics. you two would never even share a glance at eachother. your animosity towards eachother was quite well known throughout the academiya. yet here comes this co-project that will be the cupid for you two.

⌗:, a/n: its a special fic for my irl bestie. it was a deal and I had to do this @isqaroth

⌗:, warning: big tits men scare me.

" considering how you are, I'd say this project suits you. nothing but a waste of time."

You gasped and snapped back at him, "oh? so who gave you this authority to belittle the hardwork of someone? hmph!" you glared at him fiercely and stomped away. Your shoes were clacking against the marble floor quite loudly showing your clear hatred towards him.

"alhaitham, must you truly pick on them today of all days?" kaveh tried to reason, "today is after all the day we present our projects to ensure our enrollment in the best departments."

"What I said was not wrong. How do they expect to get a good seat when they've clearly chosen the topic that others will choose?" stating this he walked away the other direction towards his classroom which he was assigned.

It was the time when the students would be called to their respective departments. Contrary to what Alhaitham had guessed, your project was one of the best among the students and found the best class in your own Darshan.

"so? Mister alhaitham?" you snickered in his direction, "Looks like your intuition missed the bullseye this time." Even he found it quite odd, his guess and intuitions are always spot on but with you they would always come out incorrect.

"It was merely a prediction. Shouldn't you be glad it was incorrect?" he looked at you straight in the eyes. Clear distate in his tongue since he had entered the same darshan as you. The Haravatat, which he tried to avoid at all cost. He took this sore truth with a pinch of salt.

Not a day went by when you two wouldn't bicker. "Stop trying to read books while I'm talking alhaitham," you shouted. Unbeknownst to you, he had his noise-cancelling headphones on. You were fuming, and he decided not to listen to you during the most crucial time?! you unwillingly came to him since you couldn't rely on others' notes, and there was only Alhaitham who you could rely on.

Each passing day, you felt the wrinkles starting to appear on your forehead faster and you sighed more often. Today you felt 10 years of your life got subtracted because you and THE alhaitham were grouped for a project.

"There's no way the professor would commit such a crime..." you spoke devastated. He could say the same but decided to maintain his composure and only heaved a sigh with arms crossed.

The way you two bonded over the days you spent for the project was needless to say quite interesting. The time, place, and situations varied the variable of you two bickering stayed constant. "Did you chart out all the requirements, procedure, and observation?" he asked but you only scratched your neck, "ahh..about that.." he faceplamed loudly.

You two eventually learned more about the other's likes and dislikes. The usual disagreements between you two soon died down. This is the junction when you two started observing one another even intricately.

'guess he's not half bad..'

'seems like they've grown tolerable and kind these past few days..."

While these thoughts seemed foreign to both of you, those little things would soon form a small fragment of a treasured memory.

"Here you go." You threw the drink towards alhaitham and drank yours. "I don't remember telling you the flavour I liked of this drink?" "I'd say it was quite clear to me."

His words rather than being sharp like daggers were now more soothing and soft to hear. Your behaviour became more amicable towards him. Cooking him food sometimes, buying him the books he would tell you in the midst of a conversation. He did the same. The food you liked, the stationeries you'd eye and what not.

With time, the feelings in you for him blossomed. This was when you'd observe his admirable face from afar and when he was not looking. He even caught you looking at him a few times. He couldn't deny the feeling how his heart would rapidly thump inside his chest and the way his cheeks would redden whenever your hands brushed against one another's.

"haah...." he sighed loudly. His face in his hands. He truly needs to gather his thoughts right now. This attraction he felt towards you were not only growing more day by day but also growing quite unbearable as he has to hide his lovesick face under that stoic facade of his. "There should be some solution to this situation right?".

"how am I supposed to tell them that I lo—"

"huh? ah Alhaitham! I've been searching for you everywhere. Were you saying something?"

His eyes widened. "oh I was just.." don't panic alhaitham be calm like how you've always been. think this through.

"Oh it's nothing that important...let's go have dinner shall we?"

Many weeks passed by and alhaitham finally decided to confront you about his feelings. It was just like out of a cliché love story but it doesn't matter to him. For every problem he only wants the answer affirmative.

A soft breeze, gentle glow of the moonlight and quite streets. There was tranquil and a hint of romance in this dreamy landscape. He has been thinking about this for a while but, he couldn't find his happiness without you. Although both of you started your journey with hatred, it soon turned out to be one of love and care.

After a short silence, you spoke "nice view isn't it? to think that we reached one year of doing this project together...been eventful hasn't it?" His mind was all over the place, his heart thumping rapidly, and his palms cold. He's never been this anxious in his life.

"[name] I've been meaning to tell you—" before he could complete his sentence, you wrapped your hands around his large ones. "knew they were cold" you chuckled, "can't keep the hands of yours cold now can I?". There was this gentle look in yours eyes as if they knew everything. The moonlight accentuated your features even more. You look beautiful. Oh, you look godly.

Maybe it was adrenaline? Maybe it was him being serenaded by your breathtaking beauty that he involuntarily spoke what his heart felt.

"I love you"

Your eyes widened. A huge red blush dusted your cheeks on hearing the words from the mouth of a person that you pined for. You wrapped your arms around his neck and planted a tender kiss on his lips. You reciprocated his feelings with the same honey like sweetness.

"I love you too, Alhaitham"

[dtupdates-archive]

♡—DREAM posted on Twitter. Transcript under the cut.

“-stuff from last year-

Thousands of likes on this is crazy. Using a 10 second clip to purposefully spread misinformation and lie is so disgustingly vile. I did not “admit to doing horrible things”, at all, literally the exact opposite happened. Here’s summarized context for those that want to see what was actually said;

“No one was groomed. She lied about taking legal action, she lied about providing more proof later, and lied about almost everything that was shared. It’s been over a year since she said she would provide proof. I have and will be releasing the Snapchat data, Instagram logs, twitter history, and timeline, which proves by a matter of fact that she deleted certain messages, lied and hid context, and that she never provided these easily obtainable logs because they contradicted some of her own words.

I primarily used Snapchat as a messaging platform before I revealed my face because I was hiding what I looked like and everything else about my life IRL. I had many people from online games & content creation on it, and used it for everything, so I didn’t look at Snapchat as a big deal. I changed my mind on that before this even happened and made a private Snapchat for close friends.

Her story contradicts itself many times. with her saying that we planned a local meet up, while I was faceless and would literally leave the state just to go to the dentist, and hadn’t shown my face to even my best friends yet. with her liking and replying to tweets of mine and defending me from criticism, only a week before she posted about how horrible I was. with her not posting a single screenshot, video, log, or ANY BIT of evidence of anything that she claimed, other than that we had friendly conversation. With her DMing me from her IRL Instagram, with no fan posts and only her real life info, deleting posts, and actively hiding that she was currently a big parasocial fan.

On top of that, she had something in her bio insinuating that she was an adult, so I had no reason to even think about her age. Nothing inappropriate happened so I wasn’t looking into whether she was 17.9, 18, or 30. It doesn’t even matter if she wasn’t an adult, because we were just having short friendly conversation, she wasn’t groomed, and we weren’t even friends. I even (provably) tried deleting her from my Instagram inbox multiple times but Instagram doesn’t let you unless you block someone.

I did not reply in detail publicly (besides denying the accusation immediately) at first, due to waiting on her claim that she was taking legal action & providing more proof, and advice from a lawyer. She never did either. I did not lash out publicly in frustration, because I had to be very careful and think about how my response could impact future victims willingness to come forward against an abuser. I’ll be going into more organized detail later in a video on one of my channels, with far more than this, and just uploading all of everything for anyone to go through. but there’s a lot to say and it’s a delicate thing to talk about in general.””

[smoshkidtv]

VIDCON 2024 THOUGHTS

hiii!! this will be a VERY long post detailing some of my favorite parts of attending vidcon this year! all of it will be under the cut but i'll post my main takeaway here:

i feel very fortunate to have been able to go to vidcon considering the absolute golden era of smosh that we're in! being able to meet the whole cast was amazing and something i will cherish forever.

BUT something i will cherish much more fondly is getting to meet the friends i made through watching smosh! i don't have many friends irl who watch smosh (besides me yapping about them to my partner), so finding a community online who loves them as much as i do is amazing. the fact i got to meet and hang out with them despite our distance is truly a blessing that i will never forget. for those of you reading this post, you know who you are, and i love you guys so much!!💕

thursday, 6/27 - i was so nervous i could barely sleep! not only was i going to the smosh m&g, i would also be meeting my online smosh friends for the first time irl!

- we got to watch anthony's ISADW matpat live, and it was so fun and informative! i love listening to matpat talk and shoot the shit with anthony ^^ - i watched smosh the movie for the first time while waiting in line for the smosh m&g! surprisingly funny movie (with some really cringey parts ofc lol), i'd give it a solid 6/10!

- the smosh m&g wasn't until 4:30pm but we lined up early since tommy posted on the smosh ig story that the first 25 or so people in line would get a free smosh hoodie! i did end up getting one, and it's a smosh essentials hoodie in brown (seems to be a vidcon exclusive since the website only shows a black and white version!)

- i got to meet smosh and record them on my 3ds! i've already posted the gif version of the video, but here's the version with audio! (favorite bits: spencer being amazed by my 3ds, shayne saying "impressive," ian pointing at my purple wolf socks, and damien saying i had immense aura!)

- here's another version that's a selfie! i couldn't upload the video version, but some highlights: ian going "woaahhh 3ds" and chanse recording me recording him! (my hand was so shaky lol)

- of course, my photos with the whole cast! (spencer didnt get the memo that we were supposed to be doing a cute photo afterwards LOL)

friday, 6/28 - woke up super early to make it to the smosh live: vidcon edition panel!

- my friends and i all got dressed as characters from "that damn neighbor," and i got to be their cletus! we were even featured on the smosh ig story ^^

- we got a shoutout during the panel! it was so awesome for them to recognize us and dub us as "the neighborhood!" - THEY ASKED MY QUESTION FOR IAN AT THE PANEL!! i was lowkey freaking out and i loved the response he gave! also, i submitted another question for ian that said "has anyone say next to you at lunch yet?" (my other two friends got their questions for trevor and angela answered as well!!) - we rushed over to the smosh mouth live panel right afterwards (for those wondering what the panel was about, they talked about boobs lol)

saturday, 6/29 - went to hank and john green's panel, they're really funny and it was cool to see the two people who taught me science and history growing up lol

- we were heading to mari's m&g and got surprised by all of ogsog being there! i almost teared up in front of mari just connecting to her as one of the only WOC i watched growing up in the early days of youtube ^^

- we made it to the live "hotdog is a sandwich" panel for mythical kitchen! the whole cast was there and they were super funny ^^

so yeah. vidcon was so fun and i was very fortunate to meet my childhood heroes. i love my friends and i love smosh <3

[kiukiu1270]

Fully finished 15 Nikolai AU Character sheet + Headcannons!!!

Nikolai is a Piano player and I will not accept him playing any other instrument other than that. His cannon design even looks like a Piano how much more piano-y can a character get?? He is those self-taught pianist. The type that only knows chords and those weird numbered sheets music you get in those church songs lol (Fyodor taught him to read sheet music later on ;3)

Also pianist of 10 years writing over here, The tenor clef page is based on personal experiences.

It took me so long to figure out his sexuality, It was between Gay, Pan, Achillean but I settled with Omnisexual

“Omnisexual refers to someone who is romantically, emotionally, or sexually attracted to persons of all genders and orientations”Basically, All is good. But of course he does have some (a lot) of Internalised Homophobia and Religious Trauma (Haven’t fully figured it out yet in my head but I’m working on it)

Figure skating ehhhhhhh (for personal reasons) Realistically it is near impossible to do a Hydroblade self taught and pretty much figure skating isn’t a hobby that you can just buy a pair of skates (1000usd per pair) (he stole those with his ability ofc) but you can’t just teach yourself through YouTube videos (based on…. Experience….) (you Will Hurt yourself) but I meannnn He has an magical portal opening ability, he got plot armour. (And I like figure skating)

Random Trivia

Cavetown coded, Star coded, Neurodivergent, Enfp, likes cardistry (like magicians you get it), has the biggest crush on Fyodor (if it wasn’t obviously enough lol), likes Pigeons (yk street rats) (I love pigeons, they deserve more love), (Personally I think cannon adult Nikolai is more white Dove coded tho), Loves theatre and the stage (based on irl Mykola), Irl Mykola was queer, Loves Tchaikovsky (me too) (Tchaikovsky was also queer btw (he was very gay)), likes Mykola Lysenko (carol of the bells original composer) (ayy father of Ukrainian classical music and him share the same name!!) (I love researching about Ukrainian culture while making this)(Ukraine is so beautiful, I wish we could’ve had the chance to visit it in its beautiful light and glory before yk…) (Making this was very emotional) (Don’t forget to support Support Ukraine guys) 🌻🇺🇦🫶

Btw here are some songs that I listened to while drawing him!!!

(Definitely listens to Tchaikovsky’s 1812 overture to fw Fyodor lol)

(Btw go watch my 15 Fyolai Astronomy mini Animatic on my page)

(This is Home will always have a special place in my heart)

[byghostface]

Look I dunno what this Daminika shipping drama is all about. (I followed you because I like your Rayllum art).

but it's not a cool thing to do to share stuff calling Jon Kent/ Damian Wayne ship "pedophilic yaoi". sounds homophobic.

We should only call the actual crime of pedophilia that and not use the word like a petty insult. Also all this rage gave me the impression that Jon/Damian was like a super twisted ship or something but I googled it and they are 17 and 13 y.o. which would be weird irl yes but that's still literally not pedophilia. they are both teens and people draw them looking the same age in fan art anyway.

If you are not in the dc fandom then maybe don't speak on something you think you know.

But it's not a cool thing to do to share stuff calling Jon Kent/ Damian Wayne ship "pedophilic yaoi". sounds homophobic.

Damian and Jon always have 3 years age gap, even before dc age up Jon, they are like 13 and 10, And after age up(Jon is stuck in space had lived through years and is back on earth) they are now 14 and 17. In most of the fan art, you see people who draw them looking the same age pre-age up, because Damian is really short at 13. And people started to ship them when Jon is 10 year old child. You don't date a child when you're a teen, or date a 14 year old teen and being a college student, that is weird.

In the current comic Jon Kent has a boyfriend-Jay Nakamura(Gossamer) whom he met in college and still happily dating.( then there are racist thing ppl would said about Jay on twitter just bc he is a Japanese character and the other shipper use that to attack him too bc they doesn't like Jayjon as a ship )

-[Action Comics v1 1059 (2024)]-Artist: Marguerite Sauvage-

As an asexual, I mostly headcanon Nika and Damian as nonbinary and asexual. And a lot of the ppl who like Daminika see them as trans for trans too.

You said you followed me for my rayllum art. So you don’t know what the characters I’m talking about, have been drawing about in dc fandom. In my previous vent post is referring to the weird age gap ship, and the maturity of different ages and mentalities when characters are being ship together. And that ship's shippers + incest proshippers are being misogyny towards Nika relentlessly. It's not about against mlm ship, or being homophobic like you claimed.

Maybe you are young and see the fanart and can't think clearly what the issue is. That I can understand, because a few years ago(when I was young and dumb!! and didn't/unable to use my brain to think clearly!!!) I used to think the weird age gap was nothing but now I'm looking back and regret the weird ship I used to ship and draw (Toph and Sokka), I don't ship them anymore + Suki x Sokka superior!!

I have deleted some of Toph and Sokka art and the remaining ones have changed titles and tags to platonic sense. I didn't delete them all because they are still part of my (dumb and reckless!!!) art journey and the things that I'm now getting over and will not ever draw as a ship again.

Which would be weird irl yes but that's still literally not pedophilia.

You admit that would be weird irl and yet tired to dismiss me when I express my uncomfortableness and wanting those ppl to leave the characters(Nika & Respawn) I care about alone. If you are the type of proshipper that says fictional doesn't affect reality… then stop talking to me + invalid opinions‼️ (don't affect reality?? Of course it is! You are a person in reality who argues with me about fiction and conception/representation that affect all of us)

Like I said in my vent post, I never want to interact with them and I don't go into their page or cross ship tags and comments on things or anything related to their ships before. And this is the first time I have spoken up and tried to defend Nika here on Tumblr. Because I'm the only one constantly making contents about her and love her as a character and the only person here on Tumblr who wants to talk about/express my love for her through my art for nearly three years.

And I can't speak up when they want to tools Nika and Respawn for their own ships and set them up as toxic made up characters in their head?!? And I should let that kind of blunt lies disguise as "playful! fun even!!" fanon and let it slip and damage Nika and Respawn's character!?!?? And let that MISOGYNY energy towards Nika fly into fanfic further misconception both of their character and personalities?!??? Similar things that had happened to Talia being constantly demonized through racism and misogyny by fanon?!?!?? A reappear theme by shipper/yaoi incest proshipper tools her as a bad Asian mom to make a sad and twisted background for Damian to need to be protected by the characters they ship him with?!??

Not all of the shippers/fic writers do this but still, I'm meant by the misconception fanons that spin out of control… then SOMETIMES THE ACTUAL COMICS WRITES(different ones/weird ones) WOULD MAKE IT CANON AND DAMAGE THE CHARACTERS‼️IT HAS HAPPENED BEFORE‼️‼️

I know the shippers and the fandom will always be there because of the internet. And I can't control it, so I set up boundaries now by speaking up and defend my favorite characters while I still can.

You can comment under this post if you still disagree with me(unless you're a proshipper then stop interacting with me‼️), and don't hide behind anonymity before you understand what I'm talking about and don't twist my words for your own comfort.

(Again, sorry if you are not in the dc fandom and catching strays of my discomfort and anger. But I love Nika too much so I had to speak in my page)

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scare the hoes more and keep yapping about ekky (& others) getting used to maffhew, it delights me. and say even more about how sasha handles this feral and sweet omega that gets dropped into his orbit. smth smth “feels like i’ve known him 10 years” or whatever vows sasha recited to the press, cameras, and god

apparently we are taking more tumblr user ratatatastic abo yap thoughts for 500 may god hear our screams up wherever he is. big man in the sky you fuckin owe me one.

i think theres so much in particular to say in concerns of 1619 and how quickly they gelled irl but even more so in an abo au

ive always enjoyed when people assign matthew stronger scents that take getting used to if you don't like it already and i know ive read a fic where his scent notes did skew towards stronger cinnamon foods/drinks

anyways on that note it wouldnt surprise me that sasha takes so easy to this spicy little omega.

Like of course he does, he smells like the pastries he used to eat back at home, the pastries he eats now because he's found an established Finnish bakery down here that makes them homemade every morning, the bakery he likes to frequent with the other Finns when he can.

Is it ever a wonder that the cute omega that sent him such a terribly sweet text when the trade news broke out (you know, after the initial excitement worn off because Sasha does chuckle at memory of the brash "Fucking, right!" that pinged on his phone the very first time from an unknown number) smells like... home... No matter all the rumours that have swirled around Matthew, the rumours Sasha has personally experienced himself playing against him...he smells nostalgic. Like Sasha could be at home right now—you know, home home—lounging outside his cottage with tea and pastries on the little table that he's set out. The warm cinnamon that wafts from the typically sterile room they've assigned for pressers smells divine, for lack of a better word. It smells indulgent. Because Sasha can't have those homely pastries all the time, what, with his training regiment.

It's why he doesn't quite believe it that Matthew's the one that's the centre of it all. He's absolutely convinced he's hallucinating because the season is about to start and he's had to cut back on all his favourite sweets as much as it pains him to but for the betterment of the team? He'd do anything. And yet despite the way he rubs at his nose to at least try to clear it, he smells that cinnamon. That cinnamon that's definitely coming from new omega they traded over who's laughing so obnoxiously at the lectern they have set up that if his scent didn't catch your attention, his loud mannerisms certainly did. His voice is practically bouncing off the walls in big loud echoes that should hurt Sasha’s ears. Emphasis on should. As it is he finds his heart melting more than it should instead.

It's been quite a long time since someone's scent has moved him this much. All the people that have, have been in his life for so long he's forgotten what it's like to feel instant scent compatibility. His nostrils are flaring and he's trying his best not to open his mouth to huff in big gulps of it because it's rather impolite to be so obviously scenting the new guy. It could be misconstrued as Sasha taking offence to the new presence in the room.

Some part of his brain is still trying to catch up to the idea that Matthew even smells at all because the first time he met him (down here for some joint offseason ice-time) he didn't particularly smell like much, if at all really. Whether it's because he put on blockers to not intrude on pack territory until he smelled more like them, or he was still on suppressants even in the summer, Sasha wasn't sure and he definitely wasn't going to ask about it.

Known him for 10 years? He feels like he's known him his whole life. But 10's a safe number, 10's a number that won't scare off this new omega, right? 10's a number that conveys "As Captain I want this to work out, I'm opening up my pack for you, I won't shun you, you're welcome here," and not "If I stick my nose in your neck right now to scent you, they're gonna have to forcibly evict me from the new home I've found in you, and it's not gonna be a pretty outcome."

It's also why he's a little nervous when Media Day is over because despite how much it dragged along in years past it practically blitzed by and now Sasha has to—

You know, properly scent the new addition. Give them the purring acceptance of their Pack leader's scent to carry with them. And it's nothing big, it's just some chaste wrist rubbing... something subtle and not too overwhelming for everyone: the pack, and the newcomer alike. It's not like Sasha is going to mouth at Matthew's neck glands. He doesn't think he can even handle that right now but that's a problem for future Sasha—for when Matthew is really part of the pack and not like a goldfish in a plastic bag being dunked into an aquarium to get used to the water temperature. He just has to rub his wrist against his, it's like basic Alpha etiquette. It'll be fine, mostly. He hopes.

And it's as anticlimactic as he thought it'd be: gentle reintroductions and reignited chatter of excitement about the new season that's about to start... maybe just with the new lingering scent of sweet and spice in the background as if someone lit up a candle without Sasha even noticing it. It's a struggle to keep his eyes from closing from how heavy they feel, from how relaxed he feels in the presence of this new omega he knows has pissed him off on several occasions as composed as he was about it.

Matthew presents his wrist in a flourish successfully managing to divert his attention back to what they're supposed to be doing all alone like this in the dressing room like this, "I'm sure you've been dying to do this huh, Cap?"

Sweat starts to break out at the back of his neck. He knows? Sasha doesn't think he's been sending off any signals that could've hinted otherwise but Sasha admits that he's well out of practise, he hasn't had to reign in his scent this much in such a long time, and maybe Matthew picked up his weird fixation—

Matthew waggles his eyebrows for extra effect an offbeat later when the joke doesn't seem to land the way he wanted it to.

Oh, thank Christ, he's just teasing him. It's a joke. He doesn't actually mean it in the way Sasha thought he meant.

"Yes. Yes, I have," Sasha chuckles in relief, shaking his head at Matthew's attempt to lighten the mood.

"10 years, or so I've heard, bud."

"You heard? Uh, listened to the..." he trails off.

"Kinda hard not to when the setup made it sound like you were in the middle of the Earth, my guy. I don't think my ears are ever gonna recover from that."

"It's the first day for everyone," Sasha lightly chastises, not particularly aggrieved at all but wanting to keep up the banter to stall for time, so he can prepare himself. Quite honestly he feels like travelled back in time to the young anxious Alpha he was breaking out into the league for the first time.

"Be gentle, I bruise easily."

"Right, gentle. I'll treat you better than my clothes on the delicate cycle."

"Is that supposed to be a line?" Matthew says in glee, his voice pitching into incredulity.

"Line like fishing?"

"Oh, come on! You know what I'm talking about! You've been in this country long enough to pick up on that!"

"Yes, yes, that."

Matthew shoves at his shoulder playfully. "Just go on and do the thing already."

"Doing the thing."

Matthew snorts but his wrist is limp in Sasha’s hold. And as much as it was a dumb joke he does feel delicate between his fingers like that. So delicate that when he rubs his own wrist against his—to transfer over their pack scent—he feels like he's going to break it if he holds onto it for too long. It's why he drops it as quick as he took it, hands scrambling to his sides in an effort to remain polite but also to get a handle on himself so his pheromones don't go haywire with the new stimulus. It's a bit of a losing battle because he knows his scent just. But he can play it off as the excitement of an Alpha being able to claim another member to his pack, it's a possessive kind of thing.

"Well, see you around! Call it a hunch but I have a feeling we'll be seeing more of each other." And the joke wasn't funny the first time, truly the equivalent of leaning on the office fax machine and going "You come here often?" to your coworkers who just want to get their work done—and just as sleazy too with the greasy grin Matthew has permanently stuck to his face but Sasha still laughs like he did the first time he heard it.

And it's only now that Matthew is gone that Sasha realises the room smells strongly of cinnamon, so potent that anyone with a working nose would be able to tell that. Like Matthew was doing his best to ease Sasha’s obvious nerves when Sasha should've been the one to calm the omega who's been uprooted from their own pack and thrown into a completely new environment, himself.

"Jesus, it reeks in here. Smells like cinnamon," Aaron wrinkles his nose, wandering back in after his own media duties were done, finding Sasha all alone in the locker rooms.

"It does?" Like he can't tell the room smells like the equivalent of someone knocking over a Yankee Candle into an open fire.

"Yeah, like an awful lot." Aaron scrunching up his nose, trying to fight off an incoming sneeze. "It's strong," he says without thinking, swallows before his eyes shift over to Sasha and then to the floor, "Not bad just... strong..." The I can get used to it is left unspoken between them.

"I like it," Sasha admits because if Aaron is confessing to things without thinking then he might as well too. They've known each other long enough.

"I can tell." Aaron snorts, "You reek too."

Sasha lets out a questioning little noise, tilts his head to the side as he silently urges Aaron to continue.

"You have no idea what cinnamon and cardamom smell like together, do you? I feel like I walked into a bakery when I should be at the gym right now."

"Is that bad?"

"For you? No, of course not," Aaron's eyes soften, and while his scent wasn't anywhere close to abrasive, it does lighten up just a tad bit in the presence of his pack Alpha. "For me? I'd rather dunk my head in a bucket of coffee beans." A bit of an exaggeration on Aaron's part but the wry grin he has on really adds to the fact he's just joking—just a little, maybe there's some truth hidden in there. He knows how Aaron is, the way he tries to downplay anytime he bristles about something. Peace and vibes, and all that.

So Sasha can joke as well, "Forsy's stall is over there," and motions his head towards it across the room.

"Oh, hilarious."

"If I was funny I would say jock."

"You know, what? I think I will hit the gym today, thanks for reminding me."

"Mmm, anytime." And when Aaron's half out the door he adds, "Ask the staff where they put the jerseys we used today!"

"I'm going! To the gym!" he echoes back, not bothering to turn around as he shuffles down the hall in a hurry, and decidedly not going in the direction of the gym. It's not surprising when he hears chatter pick up and shoes scuffing briskly into the direction of the laundry rooms.