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desperatecheesecubes · 3 months

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How many comics have I read so far this year:

246 plus an additional 10 if you count partial issues that are collected and another 10 if you count graphic novels.

Here’s the receipts in alphabetical order if you’re curious lmfao (or want to check my math)

Comics read this year

Action comics (1986) 698-700 +Last Son of Kyrpton collected (844-846, 851, 866-870, annual 11)

Action comics (2016) 1058-1066, 2023 annual 1, +metropolis burning and House of Kent collecteds (1017-1028)

Adventures of Superman (1986) 511-513

Adventures of Jon Kent 5-6

Batman (1940) 443

Batman the cult 1-4

Birds of prey Progeny collected (92-103)

Birds of prey (2023) 3-10

The boy wonder (2024) 1

Damage (1994) 1-5, 7-8

The flaszh (2023) 10

Green arrow (2023) 5-13

Green Lantern (2023) 7-12

Hal Jordan and the green lantern corps vol 6-7 (37-50)

Helen of Wyndhorn (2024) 1-3

Infinity inc vol 1 (issues 1-4 + all star squadron 25-26 and annual 2) additionally issues 5-18

Jay Garrick the flash (2023) 1-6

JSA by Geoff Johns vol 1 (1-15, secret files 1)

Justice League of America (1960) 4

Justice society of America the demise of Justice (1-8 + stories from advecomucs 466 and all star comics 57)

New Superman vol 2 (7-12)

The new teen titans (1984) 0

Nightwing (2016) 109-110

Power girl (2023) 8-10

Return of Superman 30th anniversary

Sinister sons (2024) 4

Spider-Gwen smash 3-4

Spirit world (2023) 1-6

Speed force (2023) 1-2

Steel (1994) 5

Superboy (1994) 4-5

Superboy the boy of steel collected (collects Kon’s stories from Adventure comics 2009 from issues 0-3, 5-6 and a portion if Superman secret files 2009)

Supergirl (1994) 1-4

Supergirl (1996) 71

Superman (1986) 89-90, 662, 668

Superman (2016) 37

Superman (2023) 7-15

Superman house of brainiac special

Superman lost 8-10

Superman the man of steel (1991) 33-34

Teen titans (2016) 43

Titans (2023) 5-10

Titans beast world tour (whole event -Atlantis) 1-6 + Waller rising 1 + world tour (metropolis, star city, central city, Gotham) [titans beast World evolution contains two fully reprinted issues Teen Titans 1966 #6, tales of the new teen titans (1986) #3

Young Justice by BMB (1-20)

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The marble queen by Anna Kopp

The Fox maidens by Robin ha

Transitions by Élodie Durand

Basil and Oregano by Melissa Capriglione

Long Walk to Valhalla by Adam Smith

Pixels of You by Ananth Hirsh

Grand slam romance: major league hotties by Ollie Hicks

Barda by Ngozi Ukazu

Mister miracle the great escape by varian Johnson

#mine #cheese reads things #now you may be asking yourself: cheese why the fuck would you do this #I do not know #and you might also ask: wasn’t this a bunch of work?#yes it sure was. probably too much #and finally you will ask: are you insane #yeah obviously

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shallowseeker · 14 days

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I'm breaking this one out by itself because it's a little funny.

*Dean's phone rings*

*Dean answers without looking*

*Dean proceeds to yell at Cas*

Ah, right. What could possible be so important?

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Sam goes on to tell Dean that *drumroll* Sam is Lucifer's true vessel.

WOW! Scary!

DEAN: *sarcastically* Just when you thought you were out, they pull you back in, huh Sammy? SAM: That's it? That's your response?

It's... completely lost of Sam, though, the REASON for Dean's sarcasm.

See. It's this: now that Sam's found out that HE'S a vessel, he's in his car, an absolute FIRE lit under his goddamned tail, EAGER to get back in and fight.

Sam.

SAMMY.

🤦🤦🤦🤦

Dean throws a hint.

DEAN: *sarcastically again* I guess I'm a little numb to the earth-shattering revelations at this point. SAM: Well what are we gonna do about it?

And Sam... still doesn't get it.

Sigh.

Here's the thing. Sam wasn't panicking when they learned that Dean was a vessel. Only Cas and Bobby were panicked and stressed. They were mean, but they were at least aware of the reality of things.

But Sam.

Yes, Sam was going through things, struggling with things, and taking time to go through things is okay. But on the other hand, it definitely still hurts that Sam wasn't insisting on staying in the fight on Dean's behalf, to protect Dean from becoming a vessel.

But now that Sam's learned that he's a vessel?

Boom.

It's not even that, though. It's this whole conversation.

Because what's missing here? Empathy for Dean's plight.

Sam doesn't realize that this is why he's perpetually at... the kids' table. This right here.

In this whole conversation, Sam is eaten up with ranting about his own feelings, about how he's sick of being a puppet, and how he's going to hunt Lucifer down and gain redemption.

Sam's all about "how he can do this," how he's "gonna prove it to you."

It makes him seem a lot younger than he is.

....

There's no acknowledgment of how helpless Dean must have been feeling all this time, knowing that he's been targeted by an archangel, about how scary this whole thing is.

Hell, even Cas acknowledged Dean's fears re: Michael.

I mean: He did it in his Cas way, but it still acknowledged the enormity of the fear.

Cas:

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Meanwhile, Sam back in 5x01, right after DEAN learned about being Michael's vessel: Geez, why is everyone so cranky and stressed?

🥺Dean, what do you mean that you didn't mean your pep talk to Bobby? Whaaaat? 🥺

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....

And the thing is. Not "getting it"? That's understandable. But this conversation is just... devoid of support for Dean.

And they're not. Sam's zapping all the strength for himself.

When they've been together lately, Dean is the big brother who lends support, and Sam isn't giving anything back. Sam's out to prove himself, not to support others.

And they tell older siblings and parents to be patient, to let them learn, to step back and forgive, to be "a soft place to land."

That's hard to do. And it's exhausting.

And aside// Sam's apology to (demon) Bobby was SO MUCH NICER. Sam, where is this humility and energy for other people????

SAM: No, actually. Bobby, this is all my fault. I'm sorry. Lilith did not break the final seal. Lilith was the final seal. I killed her, and I set Lucifer free. You guys warned me about Ruby, the demon blood, but I didn't listen. I brought this on. I'm sorry.

#i think sibling jail is my fave new thing #GO TO SIBLING JAIL SAM #when sam is a vessel he expects everyone to panic #when dean is a vessel sam's just like: yay go team let's go #spn 5x04 #spn 5x05 #aside it's fun for dean to yell at cas at this point #he likes that cas is annoying him #and he likes making a fuss about it #i'm 99.999% sure i'm correct #it's part of the fun in bickering with someone who cares about you and is willing to disagree with you #dean doesn't get that form many people #it's probably comforting that cas calling him has become a regular part of his day #also i'm pretty sure there was a whole episode where sam AND dean are in a bratty fight and not thinking about bobby #but like #that kind of immaturity is expected sometimes #but there comes a point when...sigh #yes it's a very normal very frustrating part of life and growing up #to see your childhood caregivers as people #and hey from time to time dean puts too much on bobby on cas etc #it’s a scary tho to be alive

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thelilylav · 2 months

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The fact that Briar is listed as one of Rosabella's best friends in her profile but Briar's profile barely mentions her..

#oh they could be so angsty if mattel hadn't forgotten that they were related #i'm sure someone's said this before but whatever i think abt it too often #and yes ik rosabella is mentioned among briar's friends later but it's abt proximity ok #this is also partially bc mattel refused to give rosabella fleshed out characterisation and other friends #but i'm ignoring that too bc the angst potential of this is so much more fun #ever after high #eah #briar beauty #rosabella beauty #like rosabella constantly protesting bc she cares that much and her friends forgetting #and then her profile #idk something abt her always caring too much and it making her come off as overly sensitive #vs other ppl thinking she's a bit out there #am i projecting? possibly BUT SHE'S ONE OF MY FAVOURITE CHARACTERS IM ALLOWED TO #also briar probably has a hella weird relationship w her aunt and i need to see them in a room together #especially after briar goes off script cause her parents wouldn't have ever been ok w that #but her aunt? who's supposed to love everyone no matter what? who briar is probably super distant towards cause it's implied her mom #doesn't get along w her sister? oh u just know they both cried when she visited that day #n e way been meaning to make this post for a while and keep forgetting so

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grapecaseschoices · 9 days

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so i'm leaning toward briala-celene [ugh] or public truce*. but i wanted to know ...

*I've been reading posts/articles that state that public truce isn't best long run ... but it isn't like the inquisitor would KNOW that.

#dai spoilers #for my mooties that wanna play but havent yet #dragon age #grapecase plays dai #wicked eyes and wicked hearts #aka wicked headache and wicked annoyance #grapecase polls #dai poll #grapecase complains #lmao #i feel these posts dont give briala enough credit #unless im missing something #idk that working with gaspard would long run [or even short term] be better for her and the elves than working for/with celene #[i feel it would be with but a lot of people seem to believe it will be for]#yes celene is dismissive when you show her the [REDACTED] but she KEPT it #the dismissiveness matters sure - bc the type of masks matter - but the fact that she secured it matters as much if not more #and what celene did was heinous but let's not act like gaspard wouldnt be as bad if not worse #i feel briala would be smart with both [but with celene i feel she wouldnt let sentimentaility get her as much as people think she would]#and off chance she did - doubting it - her people would be smarter. i feel they'd be on higher alert with celene #now it is a matter of what power they could milk #and okay i do think immediately she could probably twist gaspard's arms harder bc of the blackmail and celene is still worried of coming of #too soft maybe?#but i think celene is smarter - or should be at keepiing balances. like she owes briala more than a debt. and i can see briala carefully mi #king that. i can see both of them slowly building things right under the nobles noses #idk maybe im being idealistic #i do think celene would try and do better in general and for the elves alone #but idk i nee dto finish to play and see #im mostly measuring this off vibes

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mariatesstruther · 2 months

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okay but a version of events in which tommy takes ellie to the fireflies, but NEITHER of them come back. and maria joel have to work together to get them back

#maria and joel best friend agenda #has someone already done this (in a way that actually characterizes maria as an actual person w a plot lmfao)#pissed off maria and regretful af grumpy joel having to team up #joel at first being like i canNOT let you come with me youre pregnant #maria: and who the fuck are you to tell me what to do #joel: okay ur coming i guess #him doing anything and everything to make the trip as easy and safe as possible for her #runs on like four hours of sleep every night so she only has to take one watch and gives her 70% of their food #at first maria is sooooooo not having it like #sure you care about me and my baby who you asked your brother to LEAVE for yOUR SELFISH SHORTSIGHTED ASS #but then one night hes telling her a story about ellie and then she tells a story about kevin and he tells a story about sarah #and she can see how much he loves not just his late baby girl but his living one too #and in that moment she just kind of gets it #tommy told her this part of joel was long dead #the part that was soft and loving and good #but he was wrong #he was so wrong #and all maria needed was to see that for herself #and then they team up and break into davids camp and take care of business #tommy and ellie are probably there that makes sense #and then ellie is like we still have to finish this we’re going to the fireflies #maria: um haha ur funny no we’re not #ellie: i—#maria to tommy and joel: no we’re not everybody pack it up #we’re going HOME #joel and tommy: yes ma’am #maria miller #joel miller #au #i had a dream abt this last night couldnt at least do a tag story on it

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astralhope · 2 months

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Yuma's unshakable trust in Astral makes me cry every time

#Yuma doesn't even think twice about jumping in and defending Astral every time #He just trusts Astral so much #When Mr. Heartland said that Astral was a bad guy Yuma immediately got angry and started defending Astral #and also with Luna he talked in defense of Astral #and even when Astral started to have doubts about himself Yuma was quick to reassure him #because he knows that Astral is a good person #and no one will change his mind #Yuma is like “Yes I know that Astral is weird and arrogant and sometimes makes no sense but he's a good person and I'm sure of it”#He has no idea about what the Numbers are but he knows Astral and that is enough for him to know that they can't be completely bad #and he is sure that Astral will never misuses them because he knows Astral better than anyone and he trusts him!#he trusts him even when Astral doesn't trust himself #and Yuma's trust is so important to Astral #he remembers so little about himself and doesn't know what he really is but Yuma cares so much about him #to the point that even his “baseless confidence” is enough to reassure Astral #because Yuma's power of believing in people is one of the things that Astral admires and loves the most about Yuma #and Yuma believing in him gives Astral hope that he will be alright #Astral even said that Yuma believing in him without hesitation made him happy #These two make me feel too many emotions #they are everything to me #I will probably talk about these scenes in future posts because I love them #but for now I wanted to have all of them in the same spot #I love this manga so much I want to talk about every scenes of it #(and seeing how much manga posts I have in my drafts that is likely to happen)#astral zexal #astral yugioh #yuma tsukumo #yugioh zexal #yu gi oh zexal #ygo zexal #zexal

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figofswords · 8 months

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saw some tags on one of your posts and u have a cat name midna?? 🥺 I love that 🥺 can we see a pic pretty please

oh boy do I EVER have a cat named midna. and she is Deranged

(bonus: rare photo of midna being NOT a maniac + tiny baby muppet midna)

#today I went digging under the couch to figure out where all her springs went #and found THREE of my d20s which I guess she stole during my last dnd game without my noticing #like I knew she was picking up my dice but I didn’t realize she was STEALING THEM AND DROPPING THEM UNDER THE COUCH #she’s a menace to society with zero common sense too much energy zero fear and a talent for being annoying on purpose #when she wants my attention she will not just go do something she knows she shouldn’t #she will loudly meow first to make sure I’m watching. and then do the thing she knows she shouldn’t #she’s a PEST and she’ll be one year old on February 2nd #and I love her even if she’s probably an alien #asks #and yes her eyes are actually that brown/orange in real life #midna is: very vocal. extremely bossy. probably the pickiest cat on the planet. big fan of eating plastic tho #crunchy treats? chewy treats? of any flavor? freeze dried minnows? no #plastic bag? mmm yum munch munch

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fisheito · 8 months

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my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

#rei looking directly at the camera like why are you subjecting me to this. i do not need any of this. i know how to do it #rei wearing stilettos the size of your head so he becomes ur very tall bird goth gf #you know how yakumo gets when he instructs someone on how to cook something #he becomes confident and just tells ppl how to do stuff without his usual amount of stutter and secondguessing #i'm gonna pretend that after his stiletto training in misty vale he gains a TINY MOLECULE of confidence due to experience #like [i can help you if you've never done it before?]#honestly i can't imagine this scenario happening because i am so SURE that rei can walk in heels HAHAHA even tho nothing has proven that #SOMETHING COME PROVE ME WRONG SO MY DELUSIONS CAN SLIDE CLOSER TO POSSIBILITY #anyway even if rei didn't know how to wear heels #would he ever mention it? would yakumo ever learn of it?#rei would probably be all . i don't need to wear heels. they can't even see them under the dress. i'll wear my practical shoes #but if he can't get away with that and will be forced to wear heels at the party...#maybe he'll go [meh. i'll figure it out] and just not wear them until the day of the dance #at which point his feet will hurt after 20 minutes and for the whole night he takes any chance to sit down #rei can be frequently spotted on SOME surface SOMEWHERE in the palace. sitting all splayed out and uncaring of propriety #because he is in PAIN and these shoes are STUPID and why do people wear them for ANYTHING . Royals are so IMPRACTICAL #yakumo keeps trying to avoid heels for the dance because he doesn't want to be any taller than he already is #i bet there's a full convo about it between him and eiden #eiden trying to reassure him that if he wants to wear heels then he shouldn't let others' perception stop him from doing so #but if he genuinely doesn't want to wear them then that's ok too #eiden craning his neck up at yakumo in heels like you're my pretty princess 1-2 heads taller than me your height doesn't matter 🥰#i'm now torn. yakumo and rei both wearing heels now? in order to stay at similar heights?#or. rei starting out with heels. getting tired of them. going barefoot for the rest of the night lol #yakumo and rei still dancing in their ballgowns together but a much shorter rei leads a yakumo in heels #yes. yes this is the vision #yakurei #replies #nu carnival yakumo #nu carnival rei

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aroaceleovaldez · 1 year

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writing PJO chars' adhd/autistic/dyslexic/etc traits is extremely fun for me, especially exploring the different ways those traits might manifest for each of them and how they react to those traits in themselves based on their individual personalities and I need to do more of it.

anyways Nico autism hc that I've been meaning to write for ages but haven't gotten a good excuse to yet - if he gets stressed out enough Nico will very rarely have speech loss for up to a couple of days at a time. It TOTALLY freaks him out the first time or two that it happens because Using Your Voice is such a big thing for him. something something that quote from BoO about being halfway to Asphodel already. And he struggles a lot with general cues already so he puts even more weight on being able to communicate very directly and efficiently, and being physically unable to communicate verbally is like his worst nightmare. Plus he's already stressed and probably shutting down whenever it happens so it's just Extra Bad and it takes a bit of his friends helping calm him down and find other ways for him to communicate that works for him for him to start feeling better and shifting his perspectives a bit about what that whole "using your voice" manta means to him (mostly just. a little less literal). also he totally learns sign language in probably at least one or two varieties cause he cannot stop picking up languages.

#pjo #riordanverse #nico di angelo #autistic nico #headcanon #headcanons #i also have some other similar hcs for Nico of him just. randomly like. turning invisible or intangable ever since BoO #and like. he's fine. it's just mostly a his-powers-go-haywire-when-he's-stressed thing but he sure does panic about it #and so every time he's just like ''NOT AGAIN'' as he falls through a chair. trips through a wall.#blips out of existance while in a conversation. finds himself unable to speak for a week.#the day all three happen at once he probably panics so much his geokinesis starts acting up too #can't speak? can't be seen? can't tangibly interact with anything? time to resort to GHOST TACTICS #he proceeds to scrawl on the walls by telekinetically tearing the wallpaper with weapons #everybody else: are we haunted? || Nico: [DISTRESSED GHASTLY WAILING] || everybody else: oh so yes

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capybaraonabicycle · 4 months

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Doctor: Huh, is that who I am now?

Donna: It was never that far from the surface, mate.

Doctor: frowns Yes, it was! You know I used to be a woman. And that made people... assume all sorts of stuff. And - and pretending to be Graham's wife for five minutes was bad enough but - Byron? That was torture. Does the man ever stop talking?

Donna: Takes one to know one

Doctor: Oi! I just mean, there were all these men people assumed I would be into and I - and I just - I just wanted -

Donna: I know, darling.

Doctor: softly I just wanted Yaz.

Donna: I know. - There was one man, though, remember?

Doctor: No, there wasn't! I don't fancy the Master!

Donna: ...

Doctor: Okay, fine. But the Master isn't a man. He's like me! Flexible - uh - timelord gender and stuff.

Donna: Sure.

Doctor: So, anyway, I have always been primarily into wom-

Donna: What about Jack Harkness?

Doctor: - Jack doesn't count, everyone fancies Jack.

Donna: ...fair enough.

#Donna: can we also talk about how you were literally married to a man in Gloucester?#Doctor: How is THAT something that stuck to your brain?#Donna: I met you there. Shaun and I did the walking tour.#Doctor: Huh. - Was I any good?#Wild blue yonder #Donna Noble #Sorry I am just still hung up on the 'is that who I am now' comment #Because I feel like what they actually meant to say was the Doctor going I AM QUEER?!?!#as if they didn't just spend three entire series making heart eyes at Yaz #So it makes more sense to interpret it as 'Hang on I like men too?' but honestly even that is such a stretch?#Yeah sure 13 is very much not into men #(except for the Master)#(maybe Astos)#(possibly Swarm)#(obviously Jack)#But any other incarnation has been very openly into men?#Like 12 kept name dropping guys he fancied/was fancied by? Like that algae king and stuff. Also the Master #(Let's not talk about 11)#10 had a very intense thing with Harold Saxon AND Jack #Plus the number of guys he flirted with - among them Shakespeare #And I don't even have to talk about 9 whose first kiss on screen was with a man #To be fair it is mostly off-screen/casual and the Master and Jack #So like if we interpret it as above we can make it work at least #(But. Yes. Also: Lee!! Literally married a man. Even if that was only for staying undercover there were definitely some deep feelings there #and I am quite sure had they been purely platonic they would not have posed as married. But as siblings or best friends or something)#If we are being completely real the sentence is probably about the Doctor discovering they can find people hot now #But that actually wasn't there before I think?#So then Donna's comment makes little sense #Or no hang on - 12 found the dinosaur hot and all of them the TARDIS obviously #So maybe that's what it's all about actually

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b4kuch1n · 1 year

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fuck it sk8 sketches from da sketchbook. get sk8ed idiot

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #sure whatever. tagging ship is probably easier than explaining what the fucks up with these two in my head #hi. I watched sk8 with my friend cosme a while ago. I actually dont care about the allegations that much I just got #blasted with teenage years flashback. and now I need reki to have everything on earth and be well #these have been around for like a week lol Ive just been debating posting them to tumblr. bc like. Im not finishing these lol #hesitant to call sk8 ''therapeutic'' but boy oh boy. does it make me confront some stuff. yes a sport anime leave me alone!!!#its just. I think I was this way about raz too actually. listen I have History with Stuff. I'm allowed ok? I'm totally allowed #u can See it in some of these doodles actually. this fuckign anime got me so unwell #hey. if ur a fellow adhd potentials-havers out there. ur a real one. thanks for still hangin out doin what u love/ur best #if u were an 'if u wanna do art u have to be excellent and high-art at it otherwise it means nothing' kid. I am holding ur hand #I'll be normal now I prommy (lying)#well. what I'll be doing now is taking a nap. maybe. gods my schedule backslid like four hours again #eh whatever. I go to bed anyway. got my portion of the day done and tomorrow I go buy new knife #hope someone come give me a new table top and lower the whole thing a bit soon. so I can stop sitting like Im in a shopping cart #have a good night lads. have fun. its imperative

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alluralater · 4 months

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hey everyone, i won’t be as active for a while. got home last night super late after being on the road for 20 some odd hours. dealing with some family things and as an older sister, my priority of taking care of my siblings comes first before anything else. being on here is amazing for me but i don’t think i’ll have much time for it. reminder to please treat those in your life who are battling addiction with patience and care. i lost my older brother (sweetest person i’ve ever known and he remained that way up until his last night) to suicide and alcoholism, trauma and ptsd, depression and his feelings of hopelessness. talk with the people you care about. another of my siblings is dealing with the same and i refuse to let it escalate to such a terrifying end twice in less than a fucking year. remind the people you care about that there are beautiful things to live for. show them kindness and love. there is all kinds of misinformation out there but know this, you can make a difference for someone. don’t let them suffer in silence.

#if you have me on snap then you saw the super gorgeous views and such on my way to idaho but what you did not see was me picking #up my little sister. propping her body up with pillows in a hotel room to make sure she didn’t aspirate on her own vomit in her sleep.#pouring out her water bottle of white claw and talking to her about drug use.#i never make her feel as though she has disappointed me or that she should feel ashamed. shame helps nothing. love helps everything.#i’m going to get her back into treatment soon- i just need her to know she has a home when she’s out. detoxing here first and being #positively reinforced for every single step of the process is so fucking important. it was terrifying to learn that if i had not gone to ge #her when i did that she probably would have died there in the next few weeks.#my fear of death for her is not what guides me though and there’s a huge difference between that and doing something out of love. being #there in dire moments is important yes- but being there through the mundanity of recovery is JUST as vital. it’s a process and it’s hard.#she’s moving in with me for awhile so i can help her through this sensitive time in her recovery.#she’s trying so hard and being recognized for that has literally been making her sob. knowing she has people who truly care for her is #everything. now that my stepdad is away from her like across the country i can actually finally help her. she’s starting to understand and #without me saying anything- she is starting to see what he’s done to her and our family. she needs love and support and stability. she need #reasons to live. sorry im kinda rambling a lot in these tags but i just… i can’t lose another one. the love i carry for my siblings is #unlike any other. i’ve treated them like my children since i was a child and those are my own issues but our mother is gone now too so it i #up to me.#losing my brother last september and my mom the year before that- grief has just been back to back.#in the hotel room i couldn’t sleep. she fell asleep so quickly and all i could do was watch her and think about all of the things i want to #do to make her feel like her life has value and worth enough to stay here and not go. my little sister is forever four years old in my mind #yes she’s an adult of 23 but she is a baby to me. she’s so young and she has so much ahead of her. she deserves a happy and fulfilled life.#our lives have been… very hard. 4 out of 5 of us are still standing and i plan on keeping it that way.#this is not the pain olympics or whatever but listen- if i put an adult in any of the situations we were in as children they would not #survive. we only did because there was no other choice. now there are escapes and we are old enough to try them all- every single one of us #has searched for some escape. it spirals and escalates and it doesn’t help but it is an escape. giving her love and affection and getting #her the help she needs and doing it the RIGHT way- it lessens the need for escape. there is nothing wrong with being an addict.#addiction ends one of two ways. life or death. unfortunately there is no in between. she’s going to feel everything- bad and good. i want #her to know there is so much good. that she is good. every move i make right now matters so i don’t think i’ll have time for tumblr or #much socializing.#just a heads up yk. thank you for your patience in advance <3

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janthonyfell · 3 months

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hear me out- HEAR ME OUT.

Terzo in his white "He is" music video suit and Copia with his white suit, together just like Nihil and Imperator in the "Dance Macabre" music video, having that peculiar wedding and kissing while it's raining blood-