#yeah thats how im feeling tonight

[fbfh]

okay I'ma be so for real with yall. after the bullshit incident with Nancy, Steve is two things: determined to be a better boyfriend, and absolutely desperate for words of affirmation. when you fall right into Stevie's big buff arms and muscular hairy chest he's already whipped. Steve loves you. like a lot. like when Steve is up late at night thinking about you (which is often) he sometimes gets freaked out by how much he loves you. Steve loves you more than he's ever loved anyone and once that hits him like a truck, he won't be able to put off saying it for long. he was planning on just telling you, just laying his cards on the table without expecting anything back, but you did before he could. you were snuggled up together about to fall alseep when you press a kiss to his nose and murmur quietly in your adorable little voice that gives him butterflies whenever he hears it, "I love you Stevie..." as you cuddle into his chest. he startles and wakes up at your words.

"Wait- like, seriously?" His voice is all gravely from being tired and up so late, and you look up at him with your big sparkly eyes.

"yeah..." you say, starting to get worried. he can tell by the look on your face, you think you said something wrong. you think he doesn't love you to.

"I love you too," he says with no hesitation. "love you so much..." he mutters against your lips as he kisses you and kisses you. you say it a lot after that, and every time you instigate, every time you tell him you love him, tell him what a good boyfriend he is, how well he treats you and how great he is, his stomach flips and he's thrown for a loop every time. you are his first reciprocated I love you, and that means so much more to him than anything ever could. three little words and he's wrapped so tight around your finger. he's head over heels for you, and every time you tell him you love him, he gets a little crazier for you.

[crystalpallette]

"Huh? Which one did I like best?"

happy birthday to the girl who started it all!! arle nadja my beloved darling I wish you only the best and only the spiciest of curries on your special day. I'm sorry I couldnt integrate curry into this piece

[kinos-fortress-2]

does this even looks like a tf2 fanart anymore

[boxwinebaddie]

hi uncle nina! sorry if this is kinda overbearing, but you havent posted anything today so i just wanna check in and make sure youre doing okay! <3

oh my god, sweetheart!!! this is not overbearing AT ALL! this is extremely thoughtful and makes me feel extremely validated. <3

i'm sorry for causing concern, but ty for being concerned about me.

because the school year is coming to a close, things around me at work have been pretty intense, so i've been tossed around like a ragdoll the past week and haven't had much time to write as a result. i also haven't been sleeping very well and rush a lot in the mornings, so i've forgotten to take my mood stabilizer the past couple of days which makes me v sluggish, zombie-ish and unpleasant in general. :/

...when i am like that, as a weird way of sparing you, i suppose, i try not to post on here too much because it feels quite shitty indeed for you to get a notification for my blog just to watch me bitch n moan.

however, i have taken my medication today and feel bad for fumbling kyle week...as we know i'm not really good at holding myself accountable or making deadlines. oddly enough, it's not that i don't want to answer my questions, it's just that other than not being able to really find the time recently, i just can't find the right...words?

( this ask is long and irrelevant, but read if you wish. ilysm. )

or, rather, i don't feel knowledgeable enough the subjects to answer? specifically in the areas of my tsot/tfbw styles and ncuniverses, i feel a little insecure because i don't know sp or the games as well as many other people do, so i'm trying to speed watch episodes/watch speed runs of the games online so i can at least keep some canon intact?

i also am finding that creating and understanding how high fantasy universes work is...difficult? lmao? also because i did crazy stuff with mutations and science and politics in my tfbw ncuniverse, that's also complicated and out of my wheelhouse...tldr: i have big ideas, but i'm not very good at backing them in fact or doing analytical stuff.

but...iiiiii need to, lmao. mental illness, but if i make a universe it has to be fully realized, it has to all make as much sense as possible, echo the canon, enhance it, feel real and be fluid...so if i'm not around too much it's because i'm trying to bolster myself with my sp knowledge ( ik, i'm a fake fan ) and watch/read/research high fantasy concepts and superhero/scientific fiction/dystopian stuff...so if anyone has any recommendations for me to watch or learn from in those realms, i'd appreciate it. again, this is intense...but i care a lot about my craft.

and specifically crafting something worthy of all of you, that makes sense, lives and breathes, reflects the show we love & is interesting.

ANYWAYS!!!! with that said, i got a cool ask about whether or not i have a gunslinger kyle? which? not yet? BUT YOU'RE A GENIUS BABY I AM SOOOOO ON IT!!! please let me cook and watch some things because actually, oh my god, i am very down. i'll update you. i might make a board to gather ideas, omg, omg, it'll be SPICY.

i got an ask about princess kylie, which, bless you, i am also still developing her character, i am going to pour over the books, watch some GOT, do some mapping out, watch some intricate dnd play throughs...and have some answers for you very soon: hang on, baby.

( she's little, bitchy, prissy and does need to be babysat, i'm afraid. )

got some on jersey i'm excited about! sorry for writing that ask meme about the sour skittles like that, again, writing has been trying for me lately and i had a concept that i wanted to share but wasn't sure how to express that. if you guys are alright with getting my asks in the form of notes some times i would appreciate it! anyways, keep your eyes out for some of those...if kyle week runs into next week, sorry.

idk...this is so long. all this to say...i'm really sorry? i haven't been a very solid creator lately, but i'm a little unstable rn. but i am working on it and i hope to be back on the horse by tonight and share my notes at least and show you guys how my brain is working.

in the mean time, please direct as many questions as you would like in the direction of riley, teri and ana who not only are epic writers but have been an epic support system/helping me get back into things.

thank you for caring, thank you for reading...keeping up with this blog and the questions and creating constantly is sometimes challenging, but very rewarding. i promise that i am not neglecting my asks or all of you because i don't care, its actually because i care very much and only want to give you stuff that is awesome and cool and well researched. so, again, just give me a second to get my barings and while it kind of eats at my bad bpd brain i might try and share stuff with you guys that's half baked because the feedback might help.

tldr: i love you, this made no sense, i'm a mess, but i am fine.

miss you and love you. happy kyle week.

-uncle nina

[poems-of-a-lover]

do u guys ever think abt the fact that henry lived for years feeling this incredibly heavy and painful weight of sadness and guilt and loneliness and he just held onto that because everyone around him just ignored it bc he put on a good face for the public. do u ever think abt that.

[isdalinarhot]

Man im so sorry im on the Bad Posts Every Night Due To Being Wasted train. If it helps i really did try today. If it helps i waited until 5:45 to be like well the cravings are so buck wildly bad that i want nothing more than to get drunk. If it helps i tried. I didn’t succeed but i tried. That’s gotta be worth like. Half points. Like an assignment turned in late.

[arielluva]

waiting for files to upload and having a moment about feelings ive had my entire life but never realized i had

[ratislatis]

COME ON COME ON AND LOVE ME, NORMAL LY

[hecksupremechips]

The best feeling in the world is when there’s a piece of media you know you love and you’ve hyped it up as your favorite thing for so long but you haven’t revisited it in a while so you start to worry if it’s really as good as you make it out to be and so you go back and revisit it and it’s like. Oh this is even better than I remembered this shit rules

[phagodyke]

ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

[todayisafridaynight]

time a flat circle why the hell am i usin the same loafers i bought for one cosplay of my fave antagonist for another fave antagonist

[emypony]

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[septemberpdf]

there are some people in my life right now that i would be okay losing touch with after high school. well not okay like id be sad but it wouldnt be the end of the world. but if i lose touch with her i will never get over it

[the-kipsabian]

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[mainfaggot]

Had the most exhausting day ever

[onocleqs]

can't fucking believe vent is still down. where else am i gonna yell about being ill