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You know I get Sylph's rage at Gaverin now because I spoke to a stylist today who was helping my brother with some *fancy clothes* and he pulled a face at my brother's cufflinks and I was filled with rage and we fell into a homosexual judgment feedback loop. Like I'm sure he's a lovely person but the amount of polite southern aggression in that room- you could drown in it.
#bound smp#yeah it was maybe irrational#but im sorry are the black cufflinks too much for you?#is it ruining the outfit?#it was definitely irrational he didn't even say anything
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I love learning something and understanding a reference in a song lyric I hadn't realised was a reference at all.
ohhh. so that's what "somewhere, they're meeting on a pinhead, calling you an angel, calling you the nicest things" means.
#I'm sure is obvious but I've personally never heard it before. (fake edit: I just Now checked the interpretations tab on tmbw and. yeah lol)#considering the song seems to be about a person catastrophising over falling in love and the insecurity/denial it brings#being besotted with her to the point they're likening her to an angel and hardly able to believe their luck#because ''these things happen to other people. they don't happen at all in fact.''#then I wonder if this part is meant to mean she's having the exact same crisis to her peers unbeknownst to them#and these arguments with themselves are entirely pointless.#or maybe the song's through a lens of ''love. silly innit''#a self awareness that it becomes the consuming centre of your universe over all else happening in the world. irrational worries included.#OR does it mean the narrator thinks the idea that she could be feeling the same way about them#and saying nice things to others is as ludicrous as the debated scenario.
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im watching this reality tv show and it is fucking funny and unbelievable but it's pissing me off how they doing this black girl rn
#does she have anger issues and was her anger kinda irrational ? yeah but maybe if mfs would stop instigating and#pressing she could go n calm down by herself#shes definitely getting kicked off but she didnt even start the shit#the girl who did is definitely scary and its so funny to see her be like 'do something' girl u are not that bitch stop messin w her omg#and the only reason she never got hands on her is cause someone keeps stepping in 😭#kae.txt#'im watching' im watching a dude react to the show but still
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not to go off on this again but that people and articles are really trying to act like vesemir, a character who only appears in any kind of substantial capacity in two chapters out of an eight book series of which the show already adapted in s2 anyway, being recast is somehow more proof of what a failure the show is and how it's plagued with problems and scandals as if non-series regular actors are never recast due to scheduling conflicts, likE.
#the witcher#!txt: the witcher#the witcher spoilers#i mean if you liked kim and his performance and are sad abt him not appearing again#hey fair enough#but acting like vesemir is some major character#when going off the books he really wouldn't reappear again after s2#(except for maybe in a montage of other characters waking up from a nightmare)#like yeah you don't know what you're talking about lol#and it's super obvious that you're just biased and your hatred of the show is completely irrational tbh#(also this isn't confirmed but chances are higher than not that he'll just be in a flashback or a dream sequence or something)
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Just thinking about Buck and Eddie.
Just thinking about how Buck is always seen as the emotional one, the one ruled by his heart over his head, while Eddie is the guy who is calm under fire, who stays rational, the guy who doesn't panic unless a woman wants to introduce him to her family.
Just thinking about how when Eddie got shot, Buck took the breath and thought about the safest way to rescue him. How he used the truck as protection, crawling under it to get to him without getting shot himself. How he rallied the other firefighters on-scene to get out of there when they were frozen and panicking. How he pulled up every bit of his EMT training to keep him from bleeding out on the trip to the hospital, didn't let himself fall apart until after.
Just thinking about the lightning episode, how when Buck got struck, Eddie didn't think at first to lower him down, he ran up the ladder in the pouring rain to try to haul this 200+ lb man up with his bare hands on a line. How once Buck was down on the ground, Eddie froze, unsure what to do until Bobby ordered him to drive.
Just thinking about, "We'll do our best," and, "Do more."
Just thinking about how when it comes to the other one in mortal danger, Buck is able to put aside his emotions and do what needs to be done - the only one willing and able in that moment of terror - and Eddie for once is completely consumed by his emotions and unable to find that calm rationality that always saved him before.
#am i also thinking about how buck didn't come out of cardiac arrest until it was eddie doing cpr?#maybe so#there are so many different kinds of love#but nobody can tell me these two aren't the loves of each other's goddamn lives#yeah yeah i know buck was irrational at the well scene for a hot minute#but then he got his brain in gear#and refused to give up#9 1 1#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buck x eddie#buddie#sorry my aftg peeps#i'll be back soon#just kind of consumed by these idiots
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ngl, the whole malevolent fandom limbposting blog whatever the heck phenomenon is incredibly convenient for my trying to find fellow fans to follow
I can find someone who made a cool post or two about my blorbos and I don't even have to anxiety myself up about whether following them will just give me 90% unrelated content about fandoms I don't care for, 'cus the whole fandom is committed to bit that revolves around having devoted fandom blogs. it's great
#I am. borderline irrationally overthinking of the whole following people thing#like technically it's not quite irrational there is some basis in reality#it is mildly inconvenient to follow someone and then have my dash swamped in unknown fandom 'cus they switch interests or wtv#..but that's not actually such a huge issue that the idea of following anyone ever#should be so impossibly mountain-climbingly daunting to me#and yet#yeah so thank you malevolent fandom for having so many easy to find blogs devoted explicitly to one fandom#.. maybe I should make one of those blogs too#I've been playing with the idea of having fandom sideblogs already after all#might make integrating into the fandom easier?#'cus that is always a whole ordeal and I feel I haven't achieved it fully in a while#just me rambling
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i don't think i'll ever get over how people treat kids that aren't good in school as worthless no matter what. "oh it can't be that bad" my guy idk how to tell you this but the last time i went to a normal high school the principal called me into his office to brag about how he failed me in all of my classes before the semester was even finished & i should quit while i'm ahead cuz i'm too stupid ("officially" diagnosed as such by a school counselor & a psychiatrist!!) to succeed. & this is considered normal
#''poor teachers!!'' yeah well at least they can fucking quit & go work somewhere else#''okay but times are different than when you went to school in the 1970's'' this was 2016 my guy. shut the fuck up#''well maybe you were a violent & severely misbehaving kid!'' i wasn't. i have ADHD & severe anxiety disorder & depression#my biggest crime was being too exhausted & dopamine deprived to do my homework#my dad talks about how he was treated in school & i'm like damn dude i went through the same exact shit#how is it that a majority of teachers & principals are still abusive power-tripping pieces of shit 60 years later#why haven't things changed#well actually the answer is simple & it's because they want disabled people to disappear#& if abled students that simply disagree with the way things are done get caught in the crossfire then that is acceptable#because anyone not fit to make billionaires a billion more dollars should just die!#anyways here are my original tags from that gravity falls post i just reblogged:#I know this is supposed to be an appreciation post but like. ''for being the ''dumb one'' he's surprisingly rational.'' seriously??#as ''the dumb'' but ''surprisingly rational'' one of my family this is THEE biggest misunderstanding & it drives me up the fucking wall#just because a person struggles in one area doesn't mean they're stupid & should be an irrational dumb dumb idiot baby holy fuckkk#sorry to OP but even when people try to ''appreciate'' stuff like this they can't help but throw in insults#simply because they genuinely believe that ''even though you're stupid you SURPRISINGLY act competent sometimes'' is a compliment#I'm less mad about this & more sad that this kind of shit is still so prevalent in 2024#both Stanley & Stanford are smart & competent & rational#they just show it in different ways & exceed in different (sometimes overlapping) subjects#this is normal for human beings but the big societal scam is that if you don't do it in the way Ford does then you're stupid & a failure#& being surprised that Stan is also smart & competent in his own ways is the biggest sing that you fucking fell for it dude#btw before i get @ ed for this. i WAS that kid#i was so much that kid the school actually diagnosed me with stupid & spiteful & i was told to quit while i was ahead (they failed me befor#obviously this is very personal for me but also i don't think people realize the language they use is on purpose & it's used specifically t#& it's still happening right now & that just. makes me wanna cry honestly#like why are people still surprised that people can specialize in something despite bad grades in school#you know. the thing we all know is literally rigged to either put you in jail or in a factory to make billionaires more money.#man sorry for the rant the original spirit of the post is super correct but like fuck HS grade-centric judging of people's entire character#Stan being able to defeat Bill is just not at all surprising if you were him or knew/know someone like him#or really paid any attention at all to the show while watching it
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it sucks that so much of my family has also dealt with cancer but it's really lovely that they were able to give me warnings about things
#a friend of mine just had a computer glitch and lost a bunch of work and i said it sucked and i'm sorry and asked if he could email his prof#and he's i think just really upset about it as i would be too bc that does suck so bad#but i don't have the energy to commiserate. i feel like a steaming pile of shit right now. i only got home 30 minutes ago from the hospital#and i have to go back tomorrow and then spend the rest of the day probably feeling like this while also having to go to another appointment#bc i need to get my earrings changed out so i can take them out for my body scan#and then going home with earl and setting up. and finally getting a bday gift to my friend as well and dropping that off#i feel increasingly gross and sick rn and this was just one injection#but my relatives were like 'listen. no one in your life is going to get this unless they've had cancer. and it sucks but that's how it is'#and i'm just very glad i got that heads up because i'm getting a lot of love and support from relatives now#esp the ones who also dealt with cancer#but it's just been radio silence from friends. and i get it i get they have their own lives and might not know what to say#but it does still hurt a little#i do have one friend who has been lovely and accommodating with the diet i have to be on#but my other best friend is just. i think with his school he has his own friends and his own life but. yeah. it just hurts a little#maybe i'm being irrational idk. something to discuss with my therapist today at our appointment#not everything is about me etc etc#this is the same friend who lost his work that i mentioned in the tags#cancer tw
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Me after watching 13/120 episodes of a show: hm, I think this entire thing needs a rehaul!
and 2 out of 3 are watching the dub? Really? There's no consistency to be found by "nostalgia" alone at this rate considering that.
I want to hope you are trolling people on purpose and this is a social experiment of some kind. Please be trolling
Hi, I am actually currently going through a rewatch of it and taking notes episode by episode. I have advised the other two to watch/rewatch the show for this, though quite frankly, they have their own specific areas of expertise, and don’t really want too much involvement outside of that.
Void is only here to help me write aspects of the worldbuilding that relate to technology, and to help me use the right terminology, because she is studying computer science at college (and. there’s many hackers in the show). Utopia is only here to help me write duels, because she plays yugioh competitively at our local cards store and frankly is the best duellist I’ve ever met. We had intended to explain this today actually in the intros (I was just waiting to speak to Utopia’s about hers before posting it).
I am in control of the majority of the plot and character depiction and arcs, but I want to credit my friends because I could not do this without them. I understand I’ll struggle to do the lore aspects mostly by myself, which is why I said I’d be open to other writers joining, with the permission of my friends.
I am an english & psychology major. Yugioh has been my special interest for much of my life, and, although I’ve used a different name and different blog because I don’t want my prior works to be associated with this, I’ve written fanfiction for this fandom before, with little to no complaints. I am not trolling.
I find it fascinating that you assumed this project to be some sort of social experiment, before the first chapter is even released, before you’ve read any of it. I can only assure you, this is me and my friends having some fun, it may become more than that, but as of right now its just a plan. I’d say ‘don’t like dont read’ but there isn’t even a fic to read yet, you’ve sent anonymous hate over the mere concept of a fic you don’t think you’d like.
- Teal
#i think ik who this is bc i used to have someone blocked for just. hating ppl who watch the dub to an irrational extent#like not even just ‘yeah i prefer the sub’ im talking full on harrassment of ppl who watched the dub#and i didnt reblock them when i made this account but… maybe i shouldve😅#alsoo both me and Utopia have watched the sub#Void struggles with reading subtitles due to dyslexia idrk what u want her to do abt that#but still#anonymous hate#in less than a day#my goodness its not going well for us
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I miss my mean millionaire bf..
#ash rambles 💚#you were beautiful 💸#i hesitate to talk about him sometimes on this blog because his fans scare me but i miss him so much#rich husband <3#well#ash is equally as rich- they're the dual income shady filthy rich couple that's probably drinking champagne on a yacht or something#because he's fine#he's fine and he made it#he didn't.. you know#the things he did as a villain were so horrible but i do think that he managed to redeem himself a bit at the end#too bad he#...#he's fine i swear#it's been.. how many years since y.3 came out? and i still miss him#i like to think that him and ash just ran away together after it all and they're happy somewhere#also ash gets him a cat#she's honestly really worried about his mental health after... yeah. figured maybe having something to care for would help#but yeah#he's fine and happy and he really does become a better guy#i miss him..#i sometimes avoid talking too much about him because i have an irrational fear of getting cancelled ahdjqhdjh#yes I'm well aware that he canonically likes men but methinks he does like women also#i dont think he's too big on labels and prefers men#it's kinda funny how ash is like 'i usually date women but..' and he's like 'i usually date men but..'#these two just really get each other#sigh.. i miss him#he's fine btw not dead just uh#chilling at a beach somewhere
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My therapist hasn't killed me yet 👍
#unfortunately i actually. like i had so much to say that i couldn't get an in-depth response#sometimes that happens.#so like. not a negative 'oh you are going to die badly if this continues' reaction. just very thoughtful like#'oh... yeah... that's heavy. but it makes sense' response. which is. honestly. i feel better#even just w that. like. coming from the insane paranoia jumping to conclusions thought crime religion#one million guilt one million years. and also something Wrong w you. die. one thousand deaths#like. it's maybe gonna be okay. maybe i can explore heavier topics w care and consideration#without being shot on sight. or at v least knowing that if i am. i'm not necessarily The Problem here#feels. like an oversimplification. but you know. you know how it can be.#never ever ever wanna get into discourse though. ever. idk if it's irrational but i have always had an intense fear#that someday i'm gonna post something and then get lolcow'd to death.#like. it's not just my upbringing i don't think. it's the whole culture surrounding certain fandom spaces#which is honestly why i don't even consider myself a fandom blog. i'm an autism blog.#you get whatever i'm fixated on. forever. and nearly 100% of the time it's askr siblings#idk i also just think it sucks. that you need to have 'valid' reasons to explore certain subjects#which firstly require you to be a victim and secondly requires you to be a perfect victim.#which puts people in terrible spots where like. what is this a confession booth. i wasn't even cathlolic. get OUT of here!!!!#sorry i still have a lot of Feelings. about it. and ultimately that's what it is. i have a lot of very intense Feelings#they are my own. to protect. to process. i don't want to get confrontational about it. that's stupid.#already this feels like a confession of guilt. is it the christianity? is it the way some online spaces just Are?#i don't know. all i know is i want to make art. it means so much to me. to say what i need to say.#and to be heard. that's been the craziest part. all these things i've been terrified of. but sometimes. i'm heard.#idk idk idk. no more emotional vulnerability. ass hurt. done.
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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog#didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move#across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s#so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help#with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the#location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright#colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird#like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the#southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December#it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but#i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and#jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen#im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and#the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier#for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy#but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked#up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents#r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes#better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book#like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated
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i wish some people would realise that ‘just try it’ truly doesn’t work and doesn’t help sometimes
#this is mainly about completely irrational phobias but also about not liking certain foods tbh#like i get with some stuff trying things slowly bit by bit can be helpful#but believe me i know my limits better than you#and i am well aware it is not a rational fear#but it has been affecting me badly for my whole life and you telling me there’s nothing wo worry about will not FIX IT!!!!!#’it’s more scared of you than you are of it’ SHUT THE FUCK UP#OK YEAH maybe that worked for a little kid#but it feels fucking infantilising#OH YEAH THATS ANOTHER THING#don’t talk to me like i’m a little kid for stuff like that#and that once again includes disliking certain foods#txt
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what a rough way for this year to go already.
#I don't think I've felt genuinely happy in maybe months. probably since late february#I may have poor emotional resiliency but in my defense it is not exactly normal for a close friend to suddenly treat you this badly#went from yeah things are gonna be ok and we'll stay just as close or closer into just#a two year friendship being entirely blown up based on nothing but irrational anxiety and poor communication and projection in under a mont#really more like in a single week tbh. our friendship as it was ended the moment i got yelled at for crying at cold shoulder behavior#bc i wanted a hug bc i was thinking about my DEAD DOG??????#“why are you hitting me” says person beating you with a stick#classic#sorry I can't be a perfect little angel in response to being repeatedly verbally abused for things i wasn't to blame for!
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back at it again with the gender questioning like the 1799573rd time this week
#i hate coming out though i just want everyone to immediately know my name and pronouns#like i dont wanna change anything#irrational intense fear of change + fear of trusting others to do things for me = im going to supress these feelings forever#and then boom said feelings explode and im finally like 'yeah i'll finally commit to it! im trans!'#and then i get all my feelings back in the vault again and wait for the next time it explodes#rinse and repeat i'll be courageous enough to really do it some day#unfortunately i like my name so much but the masucline versions dont pack the same punch#except luciano maybe but thats like a mouthful
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My Ukranian friend told me that she supports israel because she thinks that it's in a similar situation to Ukraine. Like Palestinians are these evil terrorists like russia who attacked first and poor little israel is just defending itself like Ukraine. Am I insane. Am I going insane. Am I actually fucking insane.
#I am Ukranian too if you couldn't tell btw. And I think that. Is a crazy thing to think and to say#All this time I thought that it's irrational for Ukrainians to not support Palestine when we kinda were in similar situations#And like. How can you go through something so terrible and look at people who are going through something like that and think#Yeah they deserve this. (obviously I know it's just racism duh)#But I guess I hadn't considered THAT huh!!!!!!#I'm so mad. And she sent me 100+ fucking messages about this. She's really passionate about defending fucking war criminals I guess#Like. I don't have to tell you all why that's fucked up right.#I am actually going to go insane this shit is unreal. How can you say that with a straight face#I'm not usually that open about personal matters but like#I don't have any friends now lol (better than being friends with racists and genocide supporters btw) so#it's either oversharing on Tumblr.com or just exploding so#also it's almost 5 am I'm going to fucking die but I feel better now so maybe I'll get some sleep I hope#I could go on for hour about every terrible argument she presented that left me absolutely flabbergasted but I'll refrain#for your and mine sanity#Good night and free Palestine. My final message. Goodbye
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