#yeah it drives me insane

[icestardragonhc]

Just some thoughts about Belos/ Philip Wittebane from TOH (ramble)

For all of his shortcomings and aborent qualities he has one single thing that makes him stand out among a cast of characters with plenty of positive and lovable personality traits. He's the most hopeful character in the show. Lemme explain:

When he really shouldn't be. Sure it's part of his delusion but at the end of the day he doesn't have any good reason to do anything he does in the story and deep down, he knows that. Ultimately he does everything he does to justify the death of his brother. But that's clearly not his true wish. All he want is his brother back, take back what he did and make that his brother never left. Return to a version of reality that can never be obtained. His brother will never return and he knows it. Considering he killed every grimwalker copy, the 20 or so he made of Caleb. Despite being a smart man, he refuses to grow up and accept change (or death) as we see in Hollow Mind. For 400 years. This child like naivity translates into a neverdying hope that finishing his plan will change anything, fix anything. It's not even about personal revenge as much as it is an escape from reality. He could have wiped out Caleb's decendants anytime in the 50 years he had total power in the empire or even way before that. But he didn't. Killing the Grimwalkers also seemed to upset him but he deems it a necessary step to fix what went wrong all that time ago. But the Grimwalkers never are like his brother, they only vaguely resemble him. For him it's not killing his brother again and again (ignoring he's killing actual individuals), it's rebuilding him stone by stone. It's all for nothing. It serves no purpose and is meaningless. And I think he knows. But he refuses to accept it, no he is completly unable to accept it. Much like a child who can't accept that a specific obscure and crazy dream of his will never come true. This dedication to that meaningless cause is even more visible once the Collector pretty much oneshots him at the end of season 2. He's reduced to a puddle, a soul without a body and he's most likely in a perpetual state of pain and confusion, now returned to the human realm that is nothing alike to what he left behind. Which he can't even interact with properly like he wished to do. Giving up, just dying would be easy and probably is an attractive alternative to his constant state of agony. Yet he clings onto the last bit of life remaining. Despite his carefully made masterplan he took decades if not centuries to realize failed horribly. Knowing he will have to face the seemingly all powerful Collector eventually who squashed him like a bug. He stays alive against impossible odds to "right his wrongs". For the slightest chance to see the reality he gaslit himself into believing was possible. A reality where his borther could have stayed, for a reality where his actions were justified, a reality where he didn't waste the entirety of his extended life, a reality where he's the hero, not the villian. He clings onto hope like a scared, hurt beast. Hope is powerful and scary. It can make a normal man go through hell and become what he swore to destroy. Hope as much as it can build a new future can also raze it to the ground. The sweet and horrific duality of hope.

[unnamed-atlas]

Been noticing some strange weather patterns on the hc server lately?

[rudeboimonster]

HI I still need help with moving funds! So I'm going to do something silly!

I'm going to play the We Heart Katamari Rerolled "roll up 1 million roses" level on stream until I get all 1 million roses or I meet my fundraiser goal starting Oct 13th at 3PM PST/6PM EST!

Note, speedruns of this level take between 16-19 hours. So, come join me yeah? I'll have friends coming in and out to help me on this Endeavor.

>>KOFI LINK WHERE I'M COLLECTING DONATIONS<<

>twitch link<

[corethetrueidiot]

habbpy birthday emu enjoy ur 50 taiyakis from ur gf

[mune-mice]

Quick + shitty Tango while I fight the diseases once more

[blood-starved-beast]

Do you think Nemesis fantasizes about being the Knight to Melinoe's Princess and being quest-given to fight Chronos for her or something. Then she sees Melinoe out on the Run somewhere covered in blood and bruises and such and it fills her with unfathomable rage.

[ivyithink]

part 2 to this, kinda + older doodle

you wanna chomp on a tasty fresh frenchman, you be prepared for what comes after, armand

translation!

lestat: “You're going to teach me everything you know, now, aren't you?” (if google translator doesn’t lie, I don’t know french sorrrrry)

armand: “How the devil did I get mixed up with this imp?” (sorta, god it’s hard to translate idioms)

speaking about idioms! there’s another ukrainian one that really does fit these two like a glove imho (at least from armand’s pov). “лежати на серці” which literally translates to “to lie on the heart” (like in the first pic, get it?), and it can mean two things: 1. to be the subject of constant thoughts, worries, sufferings; to trouble, weigh someone down. or 2. to cause someone’s affection, to be liked by someone. liiiiiike, how perfect is that????

enjoy the stupid ass sketch of pic.1 that made me laugh, so I saved it

[dizzybizz]

some doodles

[elevensbian]

can we please stop using 60th stuff getting good view counts/a lot of hype as 'proof' of 13s era being bad somehow. like yeah nostalgia bait is gonna... bait people with nostalgia and therefore be popular. does not mean doctor who is 'back' or whatever because it literally did not go anywhere lol

[alluralater]

do you ever get so fucking randomly seized by a wave of pleasure at 4:30 in the morning and start rubbing your thighs together laying on your side in bed under the covers until you’re grinding your hips back and forth to nothing other than how good it feels to move and oh my god when you bring your top inner leg flush to the bed and keep it angled high and then start rolling your hips in a nice rhythm that seems more instinctual than attempted and you can feel your clit throbbing and their fingers filling you up and pumping you nice and slow and maybe they even have their strap and maybe it’s a squirting strap and when they start fucking you hard and fast and you’re reaching up to place your hands on the bottom of the headboard for something to hold onto and they’re stretching you out so fucking well and your mind is so close to going blank and empty because you’re holding on and you know that they want to cum in you and while you’re moaning and whining and taking it like the good girl you are they finally do cum in you and it’s so warm and deep inside you and your brain turns off and they say you’re the prettiest slut but in a very mean way but it doesn’t bother you because you’re miles away on the highest cloud without a single thought in your head as their cum leaks out of you and the whole idea makes you so insanely hot and bothered that you have to make yourself cum this early in the morning or perish?? or like, is that just a me thing?

[ptieuca]

buffy & angel + that one particular spot in the mansion

[liimonadas]

"if you stare into the fire long enough, you can see the whole world pass by." ive been thinking a lot about the early days of the gang

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

mann im still thinking about that one foolish stream jaiden was on and was talking to him and forever (?) and said basically, “yeah roier is my platonic partner.” And like that alone fucking kills me but what nukes my tombstone is that IS. she said IS!! present tense roier IS her platonic partner. he’s married to cellbit but that doesnt change what they have!! cellbit Is roier’s romantic partner and jaiden Is roier’s platonic partner and one does not negate the other and fucking. it’s jaiden who says that. jaiden who was surprised to be invited to their wedding. she’s no less important to roier and she Knows that now. she was so reluctant to take up space in roier’s life (and i cant stop thinking about the house she built and then abandoned to live in his, and then to refer to the house as his) but here she is. roier has a new partner now but that doesnt mean she’s been replaced it just means that there’s a new place in his heart for a husband to go. she doesnt have to leave to make space he wants her to stay and she knows that.

[papersnatch]

nobody knows where they might end up

[itsdefinitely]

hey don't cry. the jeri/rys will never be able to share simple human intimacy. they'll never get to hold hands. why are you crying louder

[pestilentbrood]

despite the warnings, you stare into the sun you're willingly blinded by its brilliance beauty enraptures you so comfortingly you miss the blood dripping down your back