#writing is so? hard but fun ig
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no elsword fics for me to read .i suppose i must do it myself
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Johan things from twitter
Punk/emo Johan and eating a burger
Johan playing the ps2
#fanart#these were fun to draw I’m gonna post the rest#I think with this au Johan and Nina would be taken#in by tenma and it would be sometime in the late 90s so joh would be a good age to play and take part in emo culture#I think tenma would be none the wiser to his sons antics#Johan would love to write poetry and express himself I was thinking but it was hard to come up with a good design for emo joh ngl#but I think he’d like the gta series. he’d be old enough to play ig but tenma#doesn’t really approve of johans gaming choices#requests#ask request#digital art#kenzou tenma#monster#naoki urusawa's monster#kenzo tenma#dr tenma#johan liebert
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Maybe I’m a lame ass or don’t have taste, but like I want Harringroveson to have a threesome, but I also don’t want Eddie and Billy romantically involved?? I just want them both obsessed with Steve and him only and are willing to share like damn.
#I dont ship them together at all so it’s hard for me sometimes#SIGH#I make it hard for myself but you like what you like LOL#😔💔#Ok I’m always like this when it comes to trio ships Ig#Like it’s no fun for me if Steve isn’t involved like he has to be there#I DID WRITE THAT ONE FIC of them three in relationship I did that#And it is sweet i like it a lot
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Unpopular opinion but I just can't get to liking Taash. They've got some funny moments but it's like they wrote this character thinking they should have the personality of a moody teenager which is a... choice.
#me being so excited for taash vs me hearing their dialogue#the 'why am i never enough for you' was definitely some of their best moments#but other than that having taash around feels a lot like getting babysitting duty#overall the game is fun#but i totally get some of the criticism directed at the writing#i hate to say MoDeRn AuDiENcE because only a specific type of person says it these days#but it very much feels like they werent sure if their audience was 12 years olds or actual adults#harding referring to your romance as The Special Feelings sure is a choice as well#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#veilguard spoilers#ig I'll also tag this as#veilguard critical
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honestly thank god for those of u willing to create & write fun and unique platonic (& familial) dynamics that aren't less significant to ur muses' life just bc they aren't romantic
#I remember when I used to have such a hard time getting interactions... finding people who'd keep writing w me#but now here I am with so many amazing dynamics that I love writing & discussing...#so many people important in byan's life ;u;#obvs there's nothing wrong with enjoying & writing a lot of ship stuff. obviously!!!#ships are sm fun who doesn't love writing a good ship#I'm just v grateful to have found so many people who don't see shipping as the be all end all of rp uvu#and ig I'm!!! just a little emotional about all of byan's relationships today!!!! don't fuckin @ me!!!!#love u guysssssss love u sm ♡♡♡#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.
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my new link click fic, currently nicknamed "golden" as just a placeholder name, has reached around 5K words, though i'm still barely at the beginning, haha! Still unsure of whether it'll be a multi-chap fic or just a oneshot, but i'm leaning more towards the first option. though i'm not sure yet, so we'll see! it is one of my many WIPs i have for link click, but honestly? I'm having the time of my life with this one! i'm so excited to share it.
and just for fun, i'm just gonna drop a little snippet from it here!
i can tell this fic might take a long while to finish (perhaps even longer than how long my last LC fic, 'Thanatophobia', took), but it's been such a fun ride so far! So please, please wait for me!!!
#Spilled Stars' writing snippets#writing is so hard yet SO fun#i have so many feelings about shiguang and link click that I just cannot ignore#so here i am#working on yet another fic even though it hasn't even been a month since i finished my last one#but oh well#it is what it is ig!#shiguang daili ren#shiguang dailiren#lu guang#link click
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im actually going to tear into totk’s dragon’s tears/ memories rn bc i remember feeling distinctly unsatisfied with them when i got all of them so im just going to write some general bullet points about them, about what i dislike or maybe what i do actually like about them, leaving out both master sword scenes and the mummydorf one because i’m here to talk about the stuff in the past not that
- off the bat (i play this game in english btw so all of this is based on the english text and translation i am aware some stuff is slightly different in other languages) im not really a fan of how the descriptions of all of the tears is just a literal description of what happens?? i think my issue with it is that some of the text is a little bit too in depth, as in it just tells you literally everything about the scene. this might be nitpick-y but i personally dont like it
- what’s up with zelda saying ‘but that must mean...!’ at the end of the scene. is it suggesting that she’s made the realization that rauru and sonia are the first king and queen of hyrule? because they literally tell her that like ten seconds before. i guess it’s suggesting she’s realizing she’s in the past but... idk the texts says ‘she’s left startled by a suspicion that she’s heard those names before’ yeah theyre the first king and queen of hyrule?? they tell her that. they tell her their names and that they are the first leaders of hyrule is she just now connecting the dots that she’s in the past? that’s what the next cutscene implies. but all of the surrounding dialogue and the description don’t suggest that that’s what she’s realizing i feel like this was kind of muddled in the translation
- why did sonia elbow rauru he was just standing weird he didnt say anything this isnt a nitpick im just confused. is it because he’s not being very empathetic towards what zelda’s going through? she elbows him and then she goes and talks to zelda why even elbow rauru. ordinarily you elbow someone like that if you mean for them to go do something why elbow someone if you’re going to do the thing you want anyways
- why doesnt zelda offer to help with the purah pad or anything like that. what happened to her sheikah tech fascination from botw. not even as someone actually familiar with the technology who could give mineru some points as to how it works
- what are sonia and zelda doing behind rauru when he shoots that insane fucking beam at the mulduga swarm they’re clearly doing something with their stones but like... are they amplifying rauru’s power somehow?? what do time powers have to do with the beam of light i dont- what were they doing please the text description only mentions him using his powers so are sonia and zelda just... supporting his powers? idk man
- dragon tear #5 is a whole can of worms with its worse-than-oot reenactment of that one scene from oot. why the focus on sonia and her tear btw. i mean yeah she dies to motivate rauru and zelda but like. why not aim for the new girl who probably doesn’t know how to use it as much and is probably more likely to be separate from the king who can shot insane lasers. im really not a fan of this scene for how strongly the game sides with rauru and zelda being passive and judgemental but ganondorf is literally the best part of it there’s a lot of character in just how he picks up his sword and stands up to leave
- putting memories 6 and 7 together just because of how there was just. no fucking care put into the idea of zelda learning to use her time powers. memory 6 zelda talks about wanting to use her time powers and sonia gives her tips on how she could use it and visualize the use of it and then in memory 7 she can just use it perfectly with great control and timing. why even bother talking about her nothing yet understanding how to use it when the very next scene she just uses it like it’s nothing. how much time has passed we get nothing to show us zelda trying to practice this power just. nope. she’s good she can use it perfectly. also more awkward dialogue sonia saying ‘what a picture zelda paints of him’ as she is. looking directly at zelda. change the line to like, ‘what a picture you paint of him’ she is literally looking right at zelda so why would she say it like that
- generally i feel like memory six should have been before 4 and 5 (4 being where she uses some power to... support??? rauru and it being before memory 5 so that there isnt this weird break in between the memories concerning ganondorf.) memory 6 does not have anything to do with memory 4 or 5 so just put it earlier so there isnt a weird shift in focus between the two big ganondorf scenes
- good god they introduce the idea of sonia and zelda being aware of ganondorf using a fake zelda but theres literally nothing about it having been a problem or them having experience or like. anything. they just TELL you that they know and suggest that it’s been like. a thing for a bit??? also obligatory ganondorf’s face model rigging is fucked comment he’s still the best part
- the pacing of these memories is just weird in general, memories 7 and 8 being separate but the same scene is strange when other memories are long as fuck but cover one event each, plus theres clearly barely any passage of time between memories 7 and 8 it almost feels like they were split up to fill space or just because otherwise it’d be... too long? man idk
- ‘queen sonia needs you!’ girl she is DEAD good fucking luck doing anything to help her
- ganondorf’s horse and its armor both look sick as fuck i really wish you got to see more of it outside the memory it appears in
- everything about the original sages honestly sucks. they aren’t characters they’re just walking macguffins. they have no names and are not relevant or mentioned or make any appearance until they are needed by the story. why does the zora sage talk about getting word about the attacked gerudo village in this scene when like. they’ve all met up and have clearly. been together for a bit. when she gives them the news it’s clearly the first they’ve heard of it... but... why would she wait until this moments to give this info unless for the benefit of the player watching the scene. why does the ZORA sage have this news and not... the gerudo sage?? what’s with the masks. they’re all made of zonaite or whatever sure theyre gifts from rauru but like. i hate that it kind of denotes them being subservient and lower than him and the zonai. honestly i really hate this scene in general mostly because of the uncomfortable showing of how rauru absolutely holds power over them and despite them being leaders as well they are expected to be wholly blindly loyal to him. rauru only gives them these stones when he needs their aid and they swear loyalty too him soon after but you also see that sonia and mineru have stones, too, so they’re clearly withholding these things despite it being kind of reasonable for him to give each race their own secret stone as further proof of their pact? there is so much shit to be said about the imperialistic themes or whatever in this fucking story and i really hate it
- i do kinda like how the next scene shows you that the one rock in the corner of that first hidden room in the forgotten temple is sonia’s grave
- zelda’s phrasing and description of how she and link found ganondorf is weird to me ‘he’s still alive’ ‘he lives on’ girl that was a mummy. he was not moving until you got there. he’s undead at best as far as you know. this is def a nitpick but eh. also the reliance on link is a... bit odd when zelda does not actually know that link is safe until she gets the master sword. its fine but still. also her shell-shocked expression after rauru talks about her being in the past for a reason is a bit... it doesn’t fit her emotion it’s kind of similar to the expression she had when sonia was killed
- the memory about the imprisoning war starts with practically the whole story up until now being repeated back to you by mineru with a decent amount of bias on mineru’s part and while it’s fine because of some of the extra stuff you learn but it does a lot more telling rather than showing when it comes to the actual imprisoning war and... idk the whole thing about their ‘fight’ kind of falls flat when you don’t actually see any fighting you just see that the sages have gotten their asses beat. i think it would have been a little interesting if in the god-awful repetitive sage-awakening scenes they had actually showed you the og sages fighting ganondorf instead of just. slow-mo freeze-frames for whatever. once again ganondorf if the best part of the scene
- the rest of the memories are fine idc
i get the feeling that the japanese-to-english translation was either all-around rough or somehow rushed, because some of the phrases in the game as well as some of the dialogue is really awkward and... could have been better. i don’t know how it works but it feels like a lot of it was very literal, direct translation and no one at noa thought that it ought to be tweaked just a little bit
these memories also do a fuck-ton of telling rather than showing and it really is like they don’t really trust you to connect the dots, and some of it does come off like they either didn’t want to make more memories or ran out of time or something. i felt like the memory of ganondorf just summoning his monsters and riding on his cool horse could have been a bit longer to actually show us the forces of hyrule fighting him and having a hard time with it
a lot of the character animations doesn’t have a whole lot of personality to them, ganondorf is the character who had the most distinct and interesting movements. rauru and sonia had their... singular movement (rauru putting a hand to his chin and sonia taking zelda’s hands) and zelda was kind of just... standing around and reacting to stuff, and neither mineru nor any of the other sages had any really interesting animations asides from mineru’s coughing fit in memory 16 (plus her reclining chair that was a nice touch). very few of their movements really express anything about the characters besides some really baseline values or traits.
the ordering of some memories is kind of odd, the excessive flashbacks in memory 17 are a bit much, the telling rather than showing, the sometimes awkward dialogue, a lot of the scenes are characters just... talking at each other, you don’t actually see very much of hyrule in the past or any characters beyond the main four, and it really did nothing to actually get me to care about these characters at all.
tldr i dont like totk’s dragon tears
#i didnt want to revisit this game but the memories in totk bother me. once im done with this tho i can go read my new volumes of berserk#salty talks#loz#legend of zelda#totk#literally the narrative of this game dragged the rest of the game through mud for me so im going to complain abt it more#any time i wanted to rewatch a part of a scene i have to sit through a few minutes of bullshit just to get to the point.#these things are so long and barely anything happens in them#half of these cutscenes are just characters standing around and talking theres so little actual character to most of the character movements#ganondorf has the most emotive and distinct movements in all of these scenes#they have the most personality and you get the most variety. with rauru and sonia its just. shes gentle n motherly hes uhhhh arrogant king#honest to god. i miss linebeck. i miss the way he was animated and the sheer amount of personality they gave him in every cutscene#fuck man i miss botw's memories. despite them being shorter (i'm pretty sure) i feel like there was more essence to them. more character#listen. i understand that gamedev is hard and so is writing and animating but like. this game is seventy fucking dollars.#despite him being so disappointingly one-note. ganondorf was the most interesting fucking character in these memories#finding the dragon's tears was fun but actually watching them was lame af#hey remember those posts i made about ph's cutscenes? maybe its the autism but i feel like i couldnt write those paragraphs abt totk#ig just. ph is my special interest and i have a negative bias against totk. if you think im dead wrong about this stuff go ahead.#i dont blame anyone for taking my words with a grain of salt. come to your own conclusions. if oyu like totk's memories cool!#anyways im done bye im gonna read berserk. which actually has a nuanced story and world and characters and a multi-faceted villain#totk spoilers#bitching abt totk
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I swear, this is the last ever New Year that I ring in with people who don't value me or my time and efforts. This is the last year that I spend the holidays etc feeling utterly despondant and miserable. This is the last time I spend the 2 weeks that encompass Christmas, New Years, and my birthday with my cunt of a mother and sister. They have had almost 25 of them in some way or another, and this is their last. I'm done.
#max rambles a lot#pissed off exhausted and ready to go to bed now tbh#i worked really hard to try and make the most of the fact that i'm stuck with them#i bought us some fun card games for xmas to try and give us something to do together#and they just half heartedly sulked through it and then pissed off upstairs again less than an hour later#i'm done trying and i'm done caring#if i'm ringing in the new year by myself then so be it#seems a fitting end to this crap shoot of a year tbh#like it would be one thing if i was choosing to spend it by myself#but yeah i've put a lot of effort into trying to make the best out of this and they just both fucked off#mums watching whatever bs tv show she like this week and furthering her emotional affair with a married man#my sister who said she was tired and wanted a nap is actually on a discord call and yelling and laughing and screaming with her friends#so yeah fuck em i'm done making an effort to make things nice or easy or whatever#fuck 2023 tbh what an absolute cunter of a year#gonna make myself a drink and see if i can write anymore of this current chapter of tmwyh(icfit)#might get it out in the first couple of days of 2024 who knows#anyway happy new year ig
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omg chat why is writing kinda hard???
ok so this is a bit of an aside (warning: this post is long) but @348kg and i talked about this and honestly writing fanfics is a way for us to express ourselves creatively while using our idols as inspo for our work. and it’s fun most of the time.. but like honestly, 70-80% of the time, writing is hard. it’s not easy, like… it’s actually quite hard work.
and i know everyone has seen posts of like “pls reblog instead of just silently reading” or “pls like at least to show your appreciation” etc etc etc and ur probs sick of hearing it but like, it’s so true???
writing is honestly hard. and for most of us fanfic writers.. im sure you know but we have lives outside of our blogs. we are students, or we work normal jobs, we have life responsibilities, we have problems to deal with, and yet somewhere in between our busy lives we manage to find the time to sit down and create these pieces of writing for you, the reader, to read.
and tbh, i don’t really know where im going with this? i just want to let you know this: a typical 1-2k words one-shot probably takes me around 2-3 hours to write (on average, on a good day - sometimes longer or shorter). but it takes you maybe 10-15 mins, at most 30 mins to read depending on your reading speed. isn’t the time gap a little wild 🫠 on a typical work day, i get home from work at about 6, i cook myself dinner and eat, i shower and clean up, and if i know im writing that night, i make sure to clear my schedule (ie no overtime, no phone calls to friends or parents etc) and i sit on my laptop and write from about 10ish to about midnight. then i pause and i edit, and set things up to get ready post (think: pictures, title, word count, writing the warnings, summary, doing the tags) and by the time i post, it’s probably 1am.
i breathe a sigh of relief because it feels good! it feels really good to release my labour of love (literally) out into the world. and honestly, you know who you are, but those of you who constantly read and reblog my work, i see u!! (Alexa play i see u by p1harmony) and those who leave comments or reviews in the tags, i also see u (that’s why i like to reblog and respond to your tags too)!! it honestly brings me so much joy when someone comes and talks to me about something i wrote and how it made them feel. or even when someone recommends a fic i wrote. all these things that are so little and take so little of your time actually mean so much to me and im sure other writers as well.
and so i guess what im trying to say to everyone is: if you are a fic reader, if you read any fics, i just want you to know that the fic you loved reading took the writer a lot of resources to write (brain power, creativity and importantly time). i hope this gives u an insight into the process of a writer/writing a fic because im hoping it might help with whether or not you decide to hit that like or reblog or comment button in the near future!!
(also, i think it’s a shame that as writers sometimes we have to compromise on what we actually want to write vs what to write to get more engagement, likes, rbs etc. personally i have been writing on tumblr since 2020 on and off so ive been on here for four years now and i have a good sense of what is a good formula for a “successful” fic - usually it’s smut, usually it’s for the most popular member in terms of fic reading, and usually it’s of a certain length posted around a certain time etc etc. but i guess i don’t rly care anymore bc im a kinda old tumblr writer who isn’t bothered about the notes as much as i am just grateful for the little comments people send me saying that what i wrote made them feel seen or resonated with them. cos i think that is priceless 🥹)
PS. in no way am i complaining about the engagement or lack thereof that i personally get, nor am i complaining about the mere fact that writing is hard bc yes i am aware that i wanted to write in the first place and so it was my decision haha
#i wanted to do an ot6 fic by the end of tonight and i ONLY wrote jiung and felt bad about it T_T#but yeah#writing is hard ig#also to cover my ass i am not complaining just to be clear#I’m just stating that yeah i wanted to get fics out earlier rather than later but sometimes it’s just hard and life gets in the way#if you’re one of my mutuals on here u might know this but there’s some other external stuff going on in my life rn#which is making me like not as free to write essentially#and i really wanted to write something this weekend but I didn’t manage to so I am kinda disappointed in myself ngl#but#we live and we learn#and at least the blog got a face lift :)#I’m gonna keep working on the ot6 piece tho cos it’s rly fun#1 down#5 to go haha#good night friends#I hope ur having good weeks#don’t be too harsh on urself like I am bahaha#p1harmony writers#piwon writers#kpop writers#p1harmony fanfic#piwon fanfic#Kpop fanfic#shoutout to my readers#shoutout to my moots <3#I love you all actually#sending you a jiung style greeting AKA I’m keeping you all in my heart#*pounds chest cutely yet aggressively*#rach 💭
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shuichi was late to breakfast. shuichi is never late to breakfast. “he probably slept in.” kaito says, shrugging his shoulders. “god knows he deserves it, he’ll be here in no time!”
“What if he’s dead?” Kokichi responds playfully from across the table.
Kaito gives him a glare. “Don’t joke around about that shit! Shuichi’s fine. He wouldn’t get killed just like that!” he yells back, irritation fulling his voice.
“As much as i hate to say it, Kokichi’s right. We are in a killing game so it is a risk,” Kaede explained hesitantly. She turns to look over to Kaito, “Wouldn’t it be best to check on him?”
“See!! A supreme leader is always right about this stuff, Kaito! Even the dumb blonde thinks so!” he said, practically sparkling. “Since you’re all soooo busy i’ll do you all the favor of checking up on our dearest detective, kay?” he says before standing up abruptly and running off.
“WAIT-” The doors slam shut.
“..it’ll be fine.” kaede says. “probably.”
He walks outside of the school and down to the dorms, no real rush. ‘he probably is sleeping.. oh well.’ he smirks to himself as he grabs out his lock pick. Crouching down to his knees, he starts fiddling with the door lock.
After a bit of prodding he hears a small click come from the door.
Bingo.
He turns the handle and pushes open the door, stepping inside before closing it shut.
What he expected to see was a shuichi still in bed, sleeping peacefully. Maybe his head was under the pillow so he didn’t hear the alarm. Or maybe he heard the alarm and just didn’t get out of bed. Something along those lines.
What he didn’t expect was a completely empty room, with shuichi no where to be found.
Huh.
The sound of water running could be heard throughout the room, as well as a soft angelic voice humming a melody Kokichi couldn’t recognize. It was oddly beautiful.. Listen, he wasn’t often moved by music and such but even he had to admit it was pretty.
Interested, he walked over to shuichis bed and sat down. The singing continued; the voice echoed from wall to wall, vibrating off every surface. A range from high to lows, long notes to short notes. It was entrancing. His breathing slowed, his mind calm, as he let himself fall victim to the song radiating from behind the bathroom door. 2 minutes turned into 6 minutes turned into 10 before he finally heard the sound of the faucet turn off. The humming still continued, now louder then before, not being covered by the sound of water. The door knob turned and Shuichi walked out, a towel around his waist and his hair still damp.
“i didn’t know you could sing.” he said.
“AHH!” he screamed, his feet staggering back in shock. “K-Kokichi?? Why are you in my room?!”
“Well, i was going to kill you while you were sleeping but turns out i missed my shot.” he sighed. “Also you were late to breakfast.”
“Shit, i must have lost track of time..” he mumbles to himself. “..How long have you been in here?”
“About 10 minutes.”
“O-Oh..” his face turns red with embarrassment.
“Don’t worry i didn’t go through too much of your stuff!!” he exclaims. “Just went through your secret drawer full of sex toys! Wow Shuichi, i didn’t know you were such a perv!”
“what?? i don’t have- ugh nevermind. Just, can you let me get dressed?” he pinched the bridge of his nose, he can already feel a headache coming on.
#danganronpa#kokichi ouma#drv3 killing harmony#saihara shuichi#i don’t remember writing this#but it’s finished- so ig i’ll post it??#i’m still getting used to writing fanfiction style please don’t make fun of me too hard ty#maybe saiouma?#i’ll tag it anyway#saiouma#kaito momota#kaede akamatsu#based off of a headcanon that shuichi can sing#cuz like his parents were famous and shit!!#they put him in singing lessons as a kid :P#maybe i’ll touch more on that later
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it’s about to be june everybody :)
#ladrien#ladrienjune#ladrien june#wip wednesday#well. here we are again. i think im going to let the plot of this one be a surprise simply because i have no idea how to describe it#and i haven’t even thought of a title yet. june is (technically - it’s one in the morning here) TOMORROW😭😭😭#ive only prewritten two chapters and i have a vague outline of an incredibly complex plot. a typical peachcitt ladrien june ig#anyway. get ready for the vibe of a lifetime#been really into the idea of just writing a fuck all whatever vibe for fun lately. just really being confusing with it#and i think this fic will be a hard launch into my new era of self indulgence#also so far both prewritten chapters are around 1000 words which.#maybe they partly needed to be because of how i need to do setting building as fuck while also sticking with the prompts#but i think a big thing is i cannot physically shut the fuck up and i am worried about how that bodes for the rest of the month#but it’s been a couple years of this. the only way to survive a ladrien june is c’est la vie it the whole time and then it’s fine#im gonna post a bigger sneak peek to my kofi tomorrow (may 31) so keep an eye out if interested!!#okay anyway that’s enough rambling. goodnight everybody happy ladrien june eve eve
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baby mike, not long after the Bite
different/no background versions + pencil original under the cut
#brought to you by the rp im in rn#idk what the first background is. trying smth new ig#ask away abt this mikey's mental state bc it is not great but he's headed into repressing zone to avoid spontaneously combusting#he's so fragile and fun to write#this is very specifically the day before he turns 14#so he's literally a baby baby#it's so hard to draw him younger and still recognizable since his main thing in my art is just very sharp features#but look at him! he's angry and confused and trying to convince himself that his brother is still in the hospital somewhere!#fnaf#michael afton#mike's actual art
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Hiatus
I am going on hiatus for a bit more. I really really hoped the stuff that have been going on lately were already "sorted out" but, uhm... they aren't. I need to take a bit more time offline once again, and try to work things out.
Thank you for your patience ❤
Wren
#EDIT: I've deactivated my IG for a bit because it wasn't helping at all. I'll be back there but I need time#wren text tag#somehow issues from mid July/early August have managed to get worse. Like I'm not even surprised bc I'm used to it but GIRL . What the fuck#“it's finally summer”+“can't wait to draw!” * gets 3 hiatus in a row * maybe drawing or summer isn't really meant to be 🤨🤔#I hate having to log-in to post a hiatus message and then dissapear again when I'm supposed to post my doodles n have fun#Feels like one of those jesters that appears at luncheon to entertain the royal court and then they go missing for the rest of the month#bc I'm trying very hard not to hide in my shell + having a bit more presence here to post my artwork#and somehow I fail at both like fucking heck. How can you be so bad at this.#but in short I won't be here to answer stuff and being silly or whatever people expect me to do#because if you're here for the silly stuff. MAN. I'm am sorry but I don't feel silly at all.#Somebody once said “the horrors are never ending yet I remain silly” but I forgot the “remain silly” part#And if you're here for drawings. I don't even have time and I don't feel like drawing at all. Idk which one is worse#The bakery hangs up the “closed today” so people know they have to go to buy bread somewhere else. Same here. But it won't last a day#idk why the bread analogy. Guess I'm a birb after all#this is also the closest thing to a vent post I will ever write and I managed to say nothing at all. Vagueposting about vent. Good job Wren#tw: vent#tagging in case somebody like me needs to have some tags filtered#the hiatus will go on also a bit longer because the last few weeks my mental health suffered a lot and I know my limit#also this post was queued. If I see I can still be active before publishing I will delete it otherwise see for yourself#also queue doesn't work ig like I programmed this for 9 pm hopefully it will be up by then and not any other random time
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opening the second chances fic doc after barely writing anything this week and remembering why i was so stuck :) sigh :) i absolutely love trying to connect little bits and pieces of unfinished scenes that are written out of order :))) why am i like this :))))))
#also worrying with how im formatting this fic. bc it goes back and forth between 1989/1990 and 1997. often.#and im like hm. maybe. maybe thats not good. maybe i go back and forth too much.#but as the fic goes on we'll be getting fewer 1989/90 scenes and the 1997 scenes will get longer....but idk#just worrying abt the pacing and the format/structure and worrying that the way it is now is gonna make it hard to read#but also this is a silly little fic that im writing for fun in my free time so like. i can do whatever i want ig#also where is the spencer that once cranked out 13k words in 5 days. am i back to the spencer who takes ten months to write 10k words.....#bc thats how long it took me to write my chaptered benvi fic but i wrote my [redacted] fic in FIVE DAYS. a chapter a day!!!#this is gonna be a oneshot which the longest oneshot ive written is 5k and this one im hoping to get closer to 8k-10k with it#maybe longer if it needs to be idk. we shall see#anyways. back to writing the mike/joyce scene even tho im lowkey dreading it & getting secondhand anxiety from my own writing lol#yelling
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Should I reblog an ask game. Question of the century. Idk maybe it will make me able to form a coherent thought about hetalia
#just talking recreationally#Honestly? This month my hyperfixation on hetalia kinda slipped away a little? I sort of focused on other things#And like. Forgot how much fun it is. How much joy it brings me#History(and history adjacent things) is the love of my life and hetalia is related to that y'know.#And storytelling too which I sort of use hetalia as a way to exercise telling and writing (historical) fiction for#The hypothetical day I will write non hetalia maybe original stories.#I loveee hetalia and I really wanted to write so much about it since it's summer and I have some free time#But I just cant bring myself to sometimes. Sometimes it's hard even thinking about it#I don't know. I'm trying to remember why hetalia is special to me in the first place.#This is a mess but I just. Man I used to be able to make a million posts a day (cuz I was ignoring school ig)#I'm so frustrated about evrything and I hate the way my brain works.#Tl;dr : My hyperfixtion on hetalia kinda slipped away a lil and I don't have any current hyperfixation (besides maybe FOB) +#+ and I am cranky about it.#Delete later maybe
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welp, just submitted a story to a lit mag whose response times can apparently be as big as 6 months so, now it's a waiting game to see which side the coin lands on but i should at least be close to the top of the reading pile if they go in order since submissions only opened a little over an hour ago so hopefully the response doesn't take forever.
#james talks#i reread it and deeply wanted to rewrite the whole thing but i knew there was simply no time since submissions were only open for 6 days--#and i would just edit out all of my voice if i rewrote or re-edited it so i made a few minor word choice changes and submitted it#nothing to do now but worry incessantly and wait to hear back#it's a horror short btw but i don't wanna say too much rn#anyway just shaking a little bit rn although it's hard to tell if that's the anxiety or the coffee or both#just gonna try not to think about it until i get any sort of email ig.#the magazine features so many cool shorts i doubt i'm getting selected but if i do it would be fun to call myself a published author#anyway i'm gonna go try to sleep now although we all know i'm not going to be able to actually sleep lol#james writes stuff
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