#writing an essay i will never be graded on

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☁︎𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾 𝗅𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗌☁︎ (𝖼𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗅𝗒𝗇 𝗄𝗂𝗋𝖺𝗆𝗆𝖺𝗇, 𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍)

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𝖺/𝗇: 𝗁𝗂 𝗉𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝖾𝗌, 𝗂'𝗆 𝗌𝗈 𝗀𝗅𝖺𝖽 𝗂'𝗆 𝖺𝖼𝗍𝗂𝗏𝖾 𝖺𝗀𝖺𝗂𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗉𝗈𝗌𝗍𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝖿𝗋𝖾𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗇𝗍𝗅𝗒!! 𝖺𝗅𝗌𝗈 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗈𝗇𝖾𝗌𝗁𝗈𝗍 𝗂𝗌 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗉𝗂𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝗒 𝗍𝗈 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖻𝗈𝗒𝗌 𝗂'𝗏𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗏𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝖾𝖿𝗈𝗋𝖾. 𝖾𝗇𝗃𝗈𝗒!

𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀: 𝗌𝗍𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗇𝗍!𝖼𝖺𝗂𝗍𝗅𝗒𝗇 𝗑 𝖿𝖾𝗆!𝗌𝗍𝗎𝖽𝖾𝗇𝗍!𝗋𝖾𝖺𝖽𝖾𝗋, 𝗆𝗈𝖽𝖾𝗋𝗇!𝖺𝗎

𝗐𝖺𝗋𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀(𝗌): 𝗌𝗅𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝖺𝗇𝗀𝗌𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗒𝖻𝖾?

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listen to: lovers, anna of the north

practically, you've known caitlyn for your whole life and never once have you ever doubted your friendship with her, up until 10th grade where you started questioning your sexuality. you did feel something for girls but at the same time it wasn't just any girl, it was caitlyn. since she felt comfortable with you, you two would always initiate physical contact by randomly intertwining your fingers together, her laying on your shoulder or you putting your arm around her.

when you realised your feelings for her, those gestures slowly started feeling awkward to you. it would feel as if there was a huge lump in your throat whenever caitlyn is near you, not that you've ever minded. you were just concerned over the fact that she'd distance herself from you if she ever found out about your feelings towards her. she was always supportive, constantly accompanying you while you search up "am i gay" quizzes online, listening to your rants about your crushes.

ever since then, you decided to write a love letter for caitlyn because you were set on moving on from her and locking your feelings away to avoid any complications. the letter was kept in a black square shaped box with a lock on it, with the intention of keeping it safe from everyone. especially her.

the time on your laptop is currently 12:57am, the shining blue and green screen reflected on your glasses. caitlyn was fidgeting with the hem of your shirt while resting her chin on your shoulder and observing the essay you were typing out. the sounds of keyboard clicking and soft music playing in the background filled the room. the lighting was dim since she decided to leave only the night light on and have the tv play some sitcom.

"you can sleep if you want to, i can finish this up downstairs" you said with your eyes still focused on your last minute assignment. "this is fine, i enjoy your company" a small smile flickered on her face. you hummed as a response, enjoying the comfortable silence between the both of you.

after a couple minutes of more brainstorming and typing, you finally completed your assignment and clicked the "submit" button after rechecking it twice. you turned your laptop off and set it to the side, then returning to your original position with caitlyn. now, even more comfortable with her hugging your arm and decided to focus on the current sitcom playing, "brooklyn nine nine"

"jake and amy are so cute, their slowburn story is absolutely perfect" you shuffled in your position, allowing caitlyn to lean into you even closer. "if you were to be in a relationship at the moment, who would you be? jake or amy?" her soft voice disrupting your focus from the screen. "not sure, depends on who i'm in a relationship with" you shrugged. "if it was with me, who would you be?" her question nearly made you choke on your saliva. you were stammering, unsure of the perfect response to the said question. "maybe jake? i don't know" there it goes again, the lump in your throat building up.

"are you alright?" she was concerned after seeing your reaction. "yeah yeah i'm okay, just a little parched. i'm okay now" you thanked the gods above for the darkness that covered your red cheeks. caitlyn's mouth formed into a small "o" shape and nodded. "do you want some water? i could-" her sentence was cut off with a quick no from you.

your actions were quite strange to her, she's never seen you this way. not even when you were around your "crushes", her worries faded as she felt your thumb rubbing small circles on the back of her hand. her eyelids started feeling heavier and slowly she drifted to sleep unconciously.

you exhaled softly after she fell asleep, not wanting to wake her up. her question from earlier kept on repeating in your head and you clenched your jaw whenever you felt a slight pang in your heart. you slowly removed caitlyn's arms from yours and rested her head on her soft pillow. after doing so, you got up from the bed and grabbed your sling bag that was leaning against the wall of her bedroom. it was dark so you relied on your touch senses to search for an item, it was the box. the one that had a love letter for caitlyn.

you unlocked the box and opened it, lifting the brown envelope with your fingers. it had the words "for my beloved" written on it, you used your index finger to brush against it. you had left the letter beside caitlyn where she was sleeping, you assumed that she wouldn't give you a good reaction. after cursing yourself internally, you zipped your bag up and put on your jacket. you left the room and quickly rushed downstairs while trying to reach for the car keys in your right pocket.

"leaving so late? don't you want to spend the night?" you were met with cassandra sipping a cup of tea with her husband on the couch. "sorry ma'am, i just figured it'd be better if i let caitlyn get some rest" you gave her an awkward smile and rubbed the back of your neck. "that's nice of you to care for her well-being, i noticed that she's more reserved around you and i never worry when she's spending time with you" her mother was nice which made your heart sank even deeper.

"thank you for the compliment, i'll come back tomorrow if that's alright?" she and her husband nodded in agreement as you walked towards the door and waved them goodbye.

the rays of sunlight shined through the curtains of her window, causing her to slowly wake from her slumber. "g'morning" her voice was groggy and raspy from waking up, she put her hand out since she couldn't see clearly. but she could only feel a thin, flat material on her bed. "hey?" the absence of your presence surprised her. before she could reach for her phone, the envelope was pressed against her albow which intrigued her. she stopped her movements and decided to open it.

"dear caitlyn, i'm aware that our friendship is extremely precious to both me and you. however, there's something i must confess which might ruin the bond between us but i can't keep it to myself for anytime longer. i've developed feelings for you, i can't help but admit this to you. this has been going on for years, i'd like to apologise for the lies and fake rants about my 'crushes'. maybe it is a mistake to write this letter but i'd hate myself if i were to see you happy with someone else without being honest about my feelings to you. whatever happens between us, i want you to know that you'll always have a special spot to me. no matter who i choose to date, i'll always catch a glimpse of you in their eyes and sense your presence when they're around. that will haunt me eternally, i'm certain.

my heart was once and always will be yours. i love you, caitlyn kiramman.

love,

y/n"

[gnomey22]

The Scythe Cutscene: A Failtopia Analysis

At the end of Failtopia Season 2, the final boss (Hank the Demon Lord, also known as Lee) is defeated in two ways - first, a frying pan to the head from Mar, in regular gameplay, and second, a scythe torn through him by C!Failboat, in a custom cutscene.

There’s an argument to be made that C!Fail should not have been the one to get the final blow on Hank, and a good argument too. He was the protagonist of Season 1, who wasn’t especially competent and only really succeeded for plot reasons, and because he got carried. Mar was the protagonist of Season 2, going through the final stages of his redemption arc after being the final boss of Season 1 three years prior. He was defeated with a frying pan to the head then, and defeats his ultimate foe (who takes on the exact same form he did) through the exact same method… only for Hank to revitalise himself after the hit, and get killed by C!Fail’s magic scythe he never uses.

It’s easy to see how Mar got cheated out of his thematic victory, for the sake of C!Fail-centric bullshit. Hank was Mar’s ultimate enemy, given that Mar possessed him for years on end in Season 1, only for him to turn around and pull the same shit on a close ‘friend’ of Mar’s, but his motivations were presented as hatred towards Failboat (the real one) for doing a terrible job of managing the world of Miitopia. A reasonable motivation, ignoring the lack of explanation for how he found out about all that, but it feels a little cheap knowing that his motivation could’ve simply been revenge against Mar for Season 1.

That’s a good argument, but my overanalysing brain came to a different conclusion about these events. Firstly, the finale.

I think it was the perfect conclusion to C!Fail’s character arc. He was largely unhelpful for the entirety of Season 1, despite being the protagonist, because he didn’t put the effort in, and had no leadership skills. These flaws are explored and worked upon in Season 2, where he’s relinquished his leadership position to Mar, and actually puts the effort in to become an indispensable teammate.

In Season 1, the final blow on Mar was not dealt by C!Fail. It was dealt by Smuk, using a frying pan to the head, assisting C!Fail’s attack. He wasn’t competent enough to finish the job without his team, but because he’s the team leader, the burden to take credit falls on him. Mar, on the other hand, has always worked in tandem with his team to dish out hits on the enemies, especially as he cries over their falls. This is a huge step up from feeling so empty inside that he literally killed himself, he’s learning to express his personality.

Therefore, the final blows on Hank are dealt as follows: Mar avenges a fallen teammate by delivering a tearful final blow on Hank, perfectly mirroring the one he himself was given three years prior, completing his redemption arc. Then, C!Fail steps up to the plate to finish the job, using the weapon at his disposal he’s been wilfully ignoring this whole time, completing his arc of learning to be a competent fighter. Mar takes the credit afterwards, because he’s earned it, but C!Fail is the one who talks to the Great Sage and helps to heal Hank, because the single good thing he did in Season 1 was help to heal Mar. He’s still the same optimistic dumbass, but he’s become experienced, and worked in tandem with the team to win this, he wasn’t just carried.

As for Hank’s motivations, he attacked the unnamed Dark Curse for seemingly no reason, unless you consider the fact that he was possessed by a Dark Curse for all those years of suffering. He does, in fact, hold a grudge against Mar, he just has other, bigger priorities. Do with that information what you will.

My point is, there’s a lot of thematic significance to be found in C!Fail dealing the ‘final blow’ with the Scythe, and it’s much easier to find it if you don’t call it the ‘final blow’, singular. Hank wouldn’t’ve needed to revitalise himself if Mar hadn’t killed him the first time. There were two ‘final blows’, dealt by Mar and C!Fail respectively.

All we need now is for C!Fail to be left the fuck alone for Season 3, I cannot stress enough that he doesn’t need any more plot relevance.

[echodrops]

I'm just procrastinating work by thinking about the distressing decline of critical thinking and media literacy, but the take "Writing dark content allows people to heal from their own negative experiences," while true enough, also feels like it is missing a critical dimension:

Fiction needs victims because empathy is a learned skill.

Through sympathizing with the plights of fictional characters, upon whom we can safely project ourselves, we learn to identify with the suffering of others in the real world as well, even those with whom we do not share similarities.

Fiction's central function is the recognition and resolution of conflict, an absolutely vital real life skill that requires the ability to resonate with the challenges of those outside our Self.

Our stories need suffering so the real world can have less of it.

[hearts401]

thinking abt my universe's school system and deciding to draw them working on an essay

[jils-things]

this feels too soon to say because its still not well over a month that i started uni but like...

im quite happy by how things are going now- it doesn't feel all too restrained unlike my past school years. and apart from that, i feel a lot more independent being able to travel miles away from my home which has been my biggest anxiety as i got older. just the fear of getting lost spooks me a whole lot! even if i'm travelling through a planned route, going all by myself is probably the bravest thing i did this year and i say this as an introvert who doesn't go out all too often

[pepperdee]

oh my god i actually have. a pdf of my diploma. i didn't fuck it up. i actually have a degree

[earl-grey-crow]

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[choking-on-roses]

My goal was to grade 10 papers today. I really really reeeeaaaallyyyyy didn't want to and had to fight tooth and nail through the executive dysfunction. I clawed my way through at a pace of one essay per hour. I hated it, but I did it!

It's not even the fact that I reached my goal that made me happy (it was arbitrary). It's the fact that I'm even capable of getting through difficult things I don't want to do at all. I have been working on my self-discipline and focus for years and I'm very proud of myself for how far I've come.

[sexygaywizard]

I wrote 2500 fucking words today and I'm gonna go buy myself a BORGER as a treat

[andytheoverthinker]

Can someone please tell me the world won't end if i don't get into university please i need the reassurance

[girlitfeelsgood]

I'm so nervous about writing an essay for the first time in two years. What if I do horribly 💀

[gnomey22]

Canon evidence for EriBo (Failtopia)

"EriBo is a bad ship because it will never be canon!"

Counterpoint: Daniel Failboat is obviously fine with the ship, and there is quite a lot of canon material pointing towards the possibility of it. Such as...

Erica is the only member of the party to find out that Bo is a ghost before S2E18, and she finds out through Bo's own admission.

Among the piles upon piles of compliments and exclamations Erica responds with, is "You're wonderful! How have we never talked before?" I think that first part is a lot to say to someone you only just talked to, considering this very scene shows how Erica uses the word 'wonderful', and the whole line is talking up Bo herself, rather than the mere fact that she's a ghost.

Bo's big development in S2E18 involves Daniel Failboat going into her character menu and altering her Mii itself, giving her a smile. This is something he also considered doing just after the garden scene with Erica, because it clearly meant that much for Bo. He even went into the menu before clicking off of it, so it wasn't just a passing thought.

Erica specifically says "I love it!" in response to Bo's development, which is certainly a strong word to use, especially for someone as usually cold as her.

The very first time Erica sees Bo get hurt in her new form, she immediately rushes to her side to comfort her, before immediately killing every single enemy they were faced with in one attack. Daniel Failboat's platonic explanation for this is, quite frankly, bullshit, and it's never brought up again, so I'd say there isn't one.

Erica and Bo have one of the more insane in-game-relationship-level-to-canon-relationship-level ratio in the entire series, only making it to Level 6 within the game, but canonically, they're most likely on a similar level as Erica and Chi. In case you couldn't tell, that means a noticeably higher number.

My reasoning for that previous statement relates to the party organisation for the final fight against Lee. That being, everyone being sorted onto the same team as someone they're strongly connected to. Shrimp fights alongside her found family, Lee has to fight against all of his worst nightmares, and Erica fights alongside the people she actually likes, that being Chi and Bo. All of these reasons technically go both ways, such as Shrimp being Orion and Bill's found family, and Lee being half the party's worst nightmare. Meaning that Erica was Bo's ideal teammate for the final fight.

I cannot stress enough how many times Daniel Failboat has interacted with EriBo fanart. He's obviously seen a lot of it, he's liked a lot of it, and he's featured a lot of it on his stream countdowns. If he had an issue with the ship, most of what I just said would probably not be the case, or he would've said something about it.

This isn't to say that ships have to have canon evidence to be good, because that obviously isn't true, I just think that using a cringe argument against a ship it literally doesn't work against is stupid, such as saying "EriBo sucks, it can't be canon!" when not only does that not affect the quality of the ship, but they clearly haven't paid enough attention to canon.

[violentdevotion]

Hi. Op of the college post. I wanted to extend my apology for your friend's death (i actually made the post in memory of a friend who also died) and to ask what major you were in? An essay on hauntology sounds intriguing, id be curious to know more. Well, sorry if this is random and sudden, your tags just jumped out to me in the notifications as the most interesting thing someone left on that post. I hope you have a lovely day!

thank you for your thoughts. i want to extend the same to you, i feel losing a friend so young at such an already tumultuous time in your life is one of the most difficult things to go through, but we did it 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻

i studied english literature at uni. the class i wrote the essay on was contemporary world literature and the prompt was 'discuss the importance of grief or loss in contemp world lit and I chose the books Autumn by Ali Smith and Alfred and Emily by Doris Lessing (which if you haven't read already id really recommend). i think the conclusion sums up what my thesis was better than i can now 2 years after writing it

In conclusion, grief and loss within these texts are tied to nostalgia, of either objects, memory, or people. However, this grief disrupts the memory and the linear narrative, and as such time bleeds into eachother. Events from the past cannot be remembered without knowing what is to come, whereas idealisations of the future must be rooted in something from history, the consequence of which is that ‘the futuristic now connoted a settled set of concepts, affects, and associations.’ (Fisher, 2012, p.16). Difficulties arise however when these concepts and associations are established in a history of violence and loss. This exchange expresses the continuous feeling of grief, as characters are repeatedly acknowledging and ‘burying’ what ‘haunts’ them while unable to live in a future without what they have already buried. Evidently, like a leaf ‘so stuck that when it eventually peels away, it's leafshape left behind, shadow of the leaf, will last on the pavement till next spring.’ (Smith p. 259) Contemporary World Literature must constantly acknowledge the past and present while looking to the future, forcing all three to exist concurrently.

dont worry about it being random, i made the joke that the post was made in a lab for me when its actually two people coincidentally relating over similar life experiences. i hope you have a lovely day also :))))

[autism-swagger]

Getting ready for the next stage of my life has made me realize that me being really depressed on and off for years is really fucking up my college opportunities. Crazy how that works haha (<- in immense agony)

[gaytobymeres]

it doesn't seem to matter how much effort i put into assignments i never improve my grade :/