#working on getting a car though at least

[zombearzilla]

how many love interests do you have in your life? you often mention that no one likes you, but clearly they do. why not just go for it and try a chance at happiness?

Oh I didn’t realise that I said that, I thought I’d been pretty clear that I don’t feel like I’m in a stable enough place to be in a healthy relationship. And whenever I think I am my brain seems to sneak up on me and hit me over the head with a baseball bat.

Maybe a long distance casual thing might work but then I seem to get hate for that idea so

[the-ultimate-muses]

@despairs-memorial cont. from (X)

Back against a tree as his lighter flicked to life, Kaz took a moment to simply breathe now that the din of the party was behind him. Watching the smoke curl up into the tree's branches before disappearing beyond the leaves, it took a moment for him to register the steps coming towards him. Very familar steps that he'd become accustomed to over time.

A grin was on his face even before he'd turned to face the breeder, his cigarette being snuffed out beneath his shoe (note to self: pick that up so Ibuki doesn't get pissy at him again) as he drew in close to Gundham, oh so near, but still not touching quite yet. "Heya babe, Sonia drag you here again?" He wasn't trying to tease, the mechanic simply friendly by nature, but it was hard to ignore just how his body languge changed when Gundham was in his company with idle hands coming up to fiddle with the man's scarf.

"I still got the key to 'buk's room, if you wanna go someplace quiet 'n all."

[erospourfemme]

i'm a very don't tolerate bullshit kind of person and I respect and expect it so much when other people are real and straight up with me anyways whatever I say stems from my own thoughts and I cannot lie to you and tell you to do something I think is stupid if you ask for advice. anyways an acquaintance of mine who majored in English unless you want to work in primary school for a pay of barely 700 dollars complained how her parents want her to get a masters degree and she's thinking about getting one in marketing or something similar and then later on spreading into tech saying how she can work as a data analyst and I literally almost laughed out loud like it's absolutely insane how little university life prepares us for the future and how absolutely useless it is that you have university graduates here thinking they can work a job that requires a degree in either IT or economy as someone who read and talked about books for grades like please be so serious right now. I'm not upset with her for thinking this is possible just the general society for letting these young people down by telling them every career option is valid and it doesn't really matter what you study in university because it does

[rebrandedbard]

This work day has been TORTURE because I host karaoke at work on Fridays and the seniors chose THIS week to request absolute BANGERS when I'm only two medicated days into recovering from bronchitis.

[didnt-hear-cold-as-you-live]

Like zoom out and it’s actually fucking PSYCHO, I am better at anyone in the universe at keeping a smile on my face when shits fucked up and just powering through it being “resilient” etc etc etc but like. JESUS dude. Give me a fucking break. It’s just been comedically bad thing after comedically bad thing and it’s RELENTLESS; I feel like I’m being fucking emotionally water boarded and it’s never going to end

[digitaldiseas3]

well that physics quiz went quite fucking awful

[feyarchived]

someone: hey shelley, is there a reason you dislike the n.everland o.uat arc so much, or is it just because it's so fucking dark

me: welllllllll, if the shoe fits

[front-facing-pokemon]

[mirrortouchedsea]

Day 5

Madara is running, mind trying to keep up with everything that just happened. Take a left and then a right, there’s a contact there that can help. He feels blood dripping down his arm but he has to keep going. The shouts behind him are getting louder so he takes a left instead of a right, hoping to find a place to hide for a moment and catch his breath. 

He has to make it to the meeting point and get his arm checked out before his date with Leo later. If he has to cancel again over this… He’ll make it. He has to.

Madara must have bled more than he thought at first. He’s stumbling and it’s harder to breathe and he almost doesn’t notice when he runs into someone else until that familiar voice cuts through the fog. 

“Mama? Mama are you okay?” Why is he here? Did he have something going on? Madara tries to turn around, find a different place to hide. He can’t talk about this right now, not with Leo. Leo grabs his hand and Madara is too weak to pull away. 

“I’m fine, Leo-san.” The shouts that were following him seem to be getting quieter. They must have taken the bait. He relaxes just a little bit. “I have somewhere I need to--” He collapses before he can finish, everything goes blurry and he has to force himself to focus on Leo’s voice. He can tell that someone’s speaking but he can’t tell if it's himself or Leo. Stay awake stay awake stay awake. 

He feels his lips moving and he’s trying to say something while Leo is on the phone and applying pressure to Madara’s arm. Please don’t leave. I love you I love you I love you. Leo places a hand on his face and forces Madara to look up at him. Leo is saying something but Madara can’t hear it. I’m sorry you had to see me like this. Leo looks stressed. Madara caused this. He needs to leave before he makes it worse but Leo pushes him down when he tries to stand. His arm is throbbing. 

Someone hands Leo a bottle which Leo then puts to Madara’s lips, cool water quenching a thirst he didn’t realize he had. His head clears just a little bit and he can hear Leo finally. Stay with me Mama, please stay awake. I love you too. 

There’s more talking and Leo is pulled away while the emergency responders put Madara on a stretcher and put him in the ambulance. He tries to grab Leo, get them to let him into the ambulance as well, but they just strap his arm to his side and begin to assess the damage. 

Madara wakes up in the hospital, Leo sitting in the chair next to his bed. Leo tackles him in a hug before he can say anything and the nurses are running in to check on his vitals. He’ll be okay but he won’t be released until tomorrow. 

“I’m sorry, Leo-san. I really wanted--” 

“What’s going on? Don’t lie to me.” Leo’s voice cracks. 

“I was… trying to protect you. There are a lot of people who want to hurt you and I can’t…” 

“I can make my own decisions, Mama.” 

Madara doesn’t speak. He opens his mouth but any words he could say die on his lips. 

“I know you want to protect me but I don’t want you to get hurt because of me either.” 

“I know.” 

There’s silence and Madara is afraid Leo might finally break things off. His cheeks are wet and he refuses to look at Leo. Instead, Leo grabs his hand and squeezes it. 

“I love you. I don’t want to see you hurting.” 

He was much more serious than the Leo Madara knew and loved. He couldn’t bear to see Leo hurting either, especially if he was the cause. 

Madara squeezed Leo’s hand and made a silent promise that he’d be more careful from now on. Something had to change and continuing to get hurt like this wasn’t helping anyone. Maybe someday they could be happy together with nothing to worry about, but he would have to work to make that happen. 

[autumnalhalcyon]

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[keeps-ache]

ouhhh i'm turning into my grandmother [chewing on wriggley's gum]

[literally-12-people]

If you can not forgive you are destined to never heal.

Like, sorry, you can not be mad at someone for making a mistake and then be angry about it for 3 years and be like "why am i not over this".

[weyrleaders]

between expecting my car to break down on the way to work and forgetting to take the trash down to the end of the driveway until 1 am (so i have to hope they dont run early in the morning) i have reached maximum stress and probably wont sleep well so now my brain is like “okay well it’s gonna suck whether we stay up late or not so we might as well stay up and have fun on the internet”

[ayyponine]

got into minor traffic collision (lady w bike didnt look where the hell she was going and when she DID spot me just fukin. instead of turning away rammed headfirst into me rip i fell dramatically next to the road and everything). spent close to one hour at work sitting crying w an ice pack on my hand then almost four hours at hospital mostly waiting but at least 1. i made so much progress on my duolingo score you have no idea 2. meanwhile the beautiful man v kindly responded to me and kept the conversation going. wild 3. i can stay home for three more days and recuperate despite not having broken anything :) waheyy

[himbo-harrington]

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[orcelito]

Is going hiking with my family a cat death sentence?

I went hiking a week before Sammy died. I went hiking two weeks ago.

On the 28th, symptoms suddenly hit. 29th spent in hope. 30th they're dead

Sure are some mirrors for my boys haha

Ha