#fucking awful

[oddestoddish]

I uh. I know I’m already in a kind of sudden hiatus but I might not be on for a while longer.

[craigslisthorses]

i'll be honest that horse looks like it's in so much pain I wouldn't have any issues putting it to sleep

[dogtoling]

deep sea dead zone drinks night.

[stinastar]

Just had another of what we figure are CPTSD attacks, after not having one for a long time. I’d like to just dissolve and disappear please.

[env0]

New Gundam cgi anime goes hard for Halloween. Legitimately horror of war but also the Gundam as The White Demon.

[ampersandbastille]

as someone who used to be a (mostly) one direction blog (and a liam girlie back in the day) i am understandably not doing well.

i haven’t been posting anything related to it because frankly, i have been grieving. seeing him and all the beautiful tributes make me cry, the awful realities of what happened make me cry, seeing his dad and paul in argentina makes me cry, having old friends reach out to me and check on me. seeing the boys’ posts, their families, etc. and then…i opened twitter to the leaked photos of, well, his d*** body (don’t even get me started on my absolute anger and disgust over that entire situation, i am very genuinely traumatized and will be talking through it in therapy this week). i cannot express in words how much and how many feelings i’ve felt the last handful of days. my hope is to reblog posts related to the statements from folks, some of my old posts, and just in general the wave of positivity that i’ve been seeing on here since it happened.

if you scroll back enough in my blog, i was defending liam way back during the 1d days, because there were always times liam wasn’t treated fairly. i’d like to mention, it should go without saying that certain situations with liam in the last few years were not situations i was okay with defending, and instead welcomed the apologies he’d give and NEVER ever took part in the dogpiling and bullying. criticism, concern, and respectful discourse, sure. the apologies weren’t mine to accept though, and i genuinely just welcomed them in hopes he could conquer the struggles he faced so publicly. i was rooting for him to get the help and support in his personal life that he needed and deserved. addiction and mental health are not issues so easily helped. it is heartbreaking. none of us can ever know the worst or in fact the best of him…we weren’t in his life and we didn’t know him.

that being said, i have absolutely no interest in discussing those matters here. i respect everyone’s opinions on those fronts and how they feel. it truly is complicated. all i would like to say is that here on this blog, i want to at least have a moment to briefly remember the parts of my life that one direction greatly improved: giving me friends for life, memories i hold dear, strength and solace during dark times, unbridled joy, community, and etc. etc.

anyone who needs someone to talk to, i am here. this community has been nothing short of chaotic over the years, but the love and care has always shone through, and those who were there just get it. we always wanted to protect the boys and i know they know that we have always wanted the very best for them. liam loved one direction the way all of us did, and he flat out showed up for and supported his brothers in their solo endeavors. he loved the music, the joy, the shows, the fun, US, and all the good parts of one direction. and that’s what i will keep reminding myself as i continue figuring out how to grieve.

long live one direction.

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[thatgirlwithasquid]

fighting this burnout cause im still so behind on this wip ;-;

[thelunarsystemwrites]

...I just- I feel unmotivated rn

Screw my life and me too

I wish I was a sketch that could be drawn over and fixed

[fancylala4]

Kpop not only steals from black people and then have the nerve to be racist as fuck to us, they also do the same thing to south Asians and indigenous Americans.

[catgirlexplosion]

it's so frustrating seeing a common mindset of people saying trans women are the loudest and everyone always listens to us when literally time and time again people talk over us or past us or for us against our will. people who dont share our experiences will openly admit it while putting forth blatant misinfo to a wide audience without even pausing to think maybe, *just maybe*, we should talk to a trans woman.

[muckyschmuck]

who else watched onision when tbey were seven years old

[courtana]

i hope ao3's servers get destroyed one day lol

[xxs0d4p0pxx]

‼️DAILY DRINK⁉️

Blended pizza....

I forgot to take a picture of the pizza after I blended it

2/10

+1 for the taste of pizza

I added too much water on accident

Worst consistency I've ever had the misfortune of consuming.

[feyarchived]

someone: hey shelley, is there a reason you dislike the n.everland o.uat arc so much, or is it just because it's so fucking dark

me: welllllllll, if the shoe fits

[tieflingbi]

literally every time i hear of something that is "happening on tiktok" it's the worst fucking trend imaginable where clearly nobody ever stopped to think critically about it for even just a second and my life would have always been better not hearing about it like. ever

[enevera]

ew self care