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[shslpunkartist99]

-rubs hands-

Long post time that's still considered a short explanation of Leia and her role in this series

Tw: suic//idal thoughts, but nothing graphic

Leroy has experienced suicidal thoughts and wished to be someone else. Although it hadn't come up in some time, the lingering thought was always there, until it exploded one day, bringing back Leia.

The reason Leia hates Leroy so much is because he himself hates himself a lot, so it got projected onto her. Every negative thing he thought of himself, she would vocalize. It's also because he has people that care for and love him, but he's still hung up on the family that abandoned him. To her, he doesn't appreciate what he has now, and he's only focused on what COULD'VE been (not even what WAS, considering only his siblings were good to him, but even they left). She saw him as ungrateful, and the people around them would feel more appreciated if she was there instead of him.

When told what would happen if they died, nobody could even deny that Leroy wouldn't go with the fake illusion of his family, thus keeping him dead forever. Back at his old home, all he did was wait for his siblings to return. That showed just how "little he cared for the others". Leia claims she's simply stating facts on Leroy's behaviour, as well as saying what he's thinking all along. Sure, her words may be more blunt and harsh, but Leroy can't deny he isn't thinking those exact thoughts about himself.

When he fronted again, he shunned everyone away. She was right; he didn't appreciate any of them. They've done so much good for him, yet here he is, still wishing for his family to come back together. He's still depressed, still self deprecating, still unable to accept and be grateful of his current life. He really should just die..

When he tried to leave the city, knowing fully well how severe the punishment can be, Oreo stopped him. Leroy told them that Leia was right about everything, and it would be better if they all focused their time and energy on someone who would actually appreciate it. Oreo wasn't sure what to say, so instead, he asked if he could show Leroy something before he went away. He hesitated, but Leroy gave in to Oreo's request, and was then pulled up to the sky, over the entire city.

Oreo explained how their purpose was simply to lead this city. They weren't born as babies and grew up like the others; they were simply created just like this. It took time for them to develop emotions and personal thoughts that didn't involve being a Leader. They saw their city flourish as time went on, and ever since these recent Cards came to be, it's been more bright and exciting than ever. Oreo learned to care and want when Keith and Leroy became his Cards, and all he wants to do is give them the most exciting life. Something to make them smile, feel strong, feel free.

"Whether your dark thoughts will let you believe me or not, I've never experienced love until I met you two."

It made Leroy think about to the others who have said similar things. Keith knew love was a difficult word for Leroy to accept, but he was so happy to be his best friend. Sophia and the others are eternally grateful for what Leroy did for them, and they support him 100%. Even Tsuri, who was once cold and rude to him, eventually opened up to him, and held him close because he WANTED to. None of it felt fake. It felt so real, so heartwarming. And Leroy remembered that he was so HAPPY when it happened.

... he had to know himself..

"Oreo.. I'm really sorry to ask you this, but.. can you drop me from here?"

Oreo knew the implication of this: to fall from this height would surely kill Leroy. And if this was when he was at his lowest, crying and grieving at the ground, they would've declined immediately. But Leroy was different this time. His eyes still had no life, but there was a small glint in there as well. A hint of determination. Leroy wanted to be faced with the choice.. to know for sure what his true feelings were.

With a soft kiss on the forehead, Oreo let Leroy fall, doing everything in his willpower to not try and catch him.. until the thud echoed the city.

When Leroy came to, he was in an open field. Some clouds in the sky, sprinkling some rain, not a building or person in sight.. well, except for two people.

The one in charge of the passing.. and Leia.

Leia wasn't smiling this time, but she also wasn't on the attack. "So, we're finally gonna see what you do with yourself?" She asked. "Then let's go. We already know the answer anyway." The other girl greeted them, a bit surprised they were together, but went along with it nonetheless. The guide was calm yet playful, saying they could jump on the puddles if they'd like. Leia wasn't here for games, however, so she pulled Leroy away from the field, rushing to their destination.

Eventually, they saw it. The happy family Leroy had been waiting for all these years. His siblings were setting the table up, his mom was finishing cooking the food.. even his dad, who was the one who started this whole mess, was helping them out and making jokes, making them all laugh at his bad puns. When they saw Leroy, their faces lit up, and they excitedly ask Leroy to come inside, dinner's almost ready.

"That's what you wanted, right?" Leia said. "That's your happy family. Something you would only see on tv, and that you imagined so hard for it to be true. Congrats. You finally got your wish-.."

And then.. Tsuri came in.

The family greeted Tsuri as if they knew him all along, and.. he was smiling as well, offering any help. Then Keith came in. Then Oreo. Then Sophia, Nova, Poppy, Vivian, Naomi, Olivia.. a bunch of people were coming in, all laughing and talking with one another. It stunned both Leroy and Leia at how many people there were now. It was supposed to be just the family, no? And yet all the friends he's made in the City.. they were all here. All of them.

All of them.. were who he wanted.

Without another moment to think, Leroy rushed back to the field and jumped into the puddles, splashing and kicking and spraying the water all over the place. Iridescent colors sparkled with the water droplets. Little rainbows formed in bigger splashes. Leroy let the sprinkles mess up his hair and clothes. He was a wet mess by the time he was done.

Before Leia knew it, Leroy was running past her, a big smile on his face, as he rushed into the open door that would lead him back to the land of living.

"Wow, I've never seen all that before!" The guide giggled, unsure what just happened, but happy nonetheless. "He's leaving.. will you join him? You two seem connected, after all, and it'd be a shame if you left yourself behind."

Leia.. didn't understand any of this..

When Leroy woke up, his friends were surrounding him, relieved that he was okay. He explained what he saw, and he realized the error of his ways. From now on, he's going to focus on his present now than worrying about the past. It's going to be difficult considering that's years of severe depression, but learning how much he'd lose if he died, and how incredible everyone was to him because they actually liked him, he wanted to treasure that.

When Leroy was left alone, he saw Leia in the mirror, frustrated and disappointed. She thought she knew how Leroy worked, and he would've went with the fake family for sure. Leroy explained that she only knew the negative side of him because that's the only time she would be able to take over. She didn't know of the positive side he had.. which was his fault. He subconsciously made her as a way to escape, so of course she would only know negativity and self hatred. He apologized for making that Leia's "purpose".

The disappointment came when Leia said that she's going to disappear again. Since she only takes over when he's in a dark state of mind, she wouldn't be around to experience the good times. It was fun while it lasted.. that's when Leroy realized that Leia wasn't just pretending to be the perfect person Leroy thought of, but genuinely living and enjoying life. Now to hide away into the depths of his mind..

With that, he put the wig back on, and Leia was back.

"If you want, we can take turns being in charge. I only ask that you don't speak bad of me when you spend time with the others. It'll cause problems if you do, and I'm gonna try my hardest not to think that way about myself. You deserve to become your own person that isn't revolved around my thoughts, Leia. I think you're a good person, so..

"You deserve a second chance."

Thus starts Leia's redemption arc, as well as becoming her own person.. whoever that may be. They simply swap by taking the wig on/off, and they're both awake and present; one is simply taking the reigns while the other watches.

[its-tea-time-darling]

im sorry, we turned your boyfriend into a mole. yeah and all of tumblr‘s interested in him now. sorry

edit 9/12/23 11.22 CET

and so it begins…

fic1, fic2 @pathsofoak ao3 tag. Mole Poem @thaliaisalesbian . fic by @tourmelion .

update:

ao3 link. please vote for mole scene in most underrated goncharov scene poll

[mizaruwu]

Let's switch it up a bit! (Style swap!!!)

[ministarfruit]

time to head backstage!

[lazylittledragon]

look i understand that humans are complex creatures who do bad things and are capable of learning from mistakes but also i think saying my ex should never get a good shag again is funny

[daily-odile]

odile with a gun perhaps

gun

[uncanny-tranny]

The whole "breasts shouldn't be politicized because the primary purpose of breasts is to feed babies!" can be a fine jumping-off point, but I really wish people thought deeper than that when we talk about the ways in which bodies are politicized and restricted.

Like, why's it that when we talk about breasts, they must have some Higher Purpose? It's true that breasts aren't inherently sexual, but they aren't valuable solely because they can potentially feed a baby. A human body doesn't have to serve a Higher Purpose in order for it to not be legislated against or policed, and I just wish people would remember it isn't always about babies, about other people, about anything else other than the people who have that body.

[emkini]

I think about Zuko and Ursa a normal amount

[furfag-cringelord]

happy disability pride month to anyone having a really bad flare-up rn btw. take care of yourself

[deoidesign]

One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)

We all start somewhere!

[beif0ngs]

I’m done pretending you’re my sister, you’re not. You killed her. I’m not gonna let you stain her memory anymore.

Then stop me. ‘Cause no matter what I do, I just can’t seem to die.

[slyandthefamilybook]

Imagine you have a friend over for dinner and you make them steak. It's a traditional family recipe, and you know it turned out great. You're really proud of this good steak you made. After the meal you ask your friend what they thought of your steak and they say: "I loved it! I hate food poisoning, though."

"... Okay, what did you mean by that?"

"Nothing! The steak was great! I just hate getting food poisoning!"

"... Is the steak going to give you food poisoning?"

"Oh, not this one. This one was great. But some steaks give you food poisoning."

"Okay, but not this one, right?"

"No, not this one."

"... Then why did you bring up food poisoning?"

"I just didn't want you to think that because I liked your steak that I also like food poisoning."

"Why would I think that?"

"Because some steaks give you food poisoning."

"But not this one."

"No, not this one."

This is how goyim talk about Jews

[transmasc-rose]

I'm thinking about the horror of the Doctor from the perspective of non-companions again, especially as it relates to people those companions know.

Rose? "Ran away" (not wrong) for "a year" (a week) with a "man" (alien) "twice her age" (approximately 50 times her age but yeah, he is Time Lord middle aged), and then gives absolutely no explanation for how or why that happened, except that she was "travelling".

Then when her mum does get an explanation (which, frankly, is only comforting because of the unfamiliarity of the alternative given. The devil you know.), Rose barely checks back in.

She almost dies for him. When she thinks he's dead, she's changed in a way her family doesn't know how to handle. Then she's gone for who knows how long and comes back with the Doctor wearing a new face.

When her original tenure as a companion ends, and Rose lives in Pete's World, she works for Torchwood/UNIT (they become the same organization). She volunteers for the Dimension Cannon. She explains to the alternate earth how to rig up a time machine.

She's changed in ways that no one else can really understand.

Amy? There's everything with River Song of course (though I'm still not there in my viewing), him running away with Amy the night before her and Rory's wedding, and also the connection between the Doctor and the Time Crack being the reason all of Amy's family's dead. Obvious stuff.

However he's also the strange man who broke into this child's house and made a mess of her life that she never got over, that promised to take her away from here, that she wrote about and drew and carved and made her friends dress up as.

And they sent her to psychiatrist after psychiatrist without any help. In their perspective, to work through what she imagined. In her perspective, to tell her that her reality wasn't real.

And then he comes back.

And to some extent, later, when he shows himself to everyone, isn't that more frightening? That the story your child told you, of the strange man she met as a child, of time travel, of nearly being stolen away, hadn't been a lie, or a misinterpretation, or an imagining?

And so he shows up at her wedding. And steals her away again.

Donna I feel like has the least horror until her final episode. I think exploring the in between section of her meeting the Doctor and finding him again would be interesting, but not exactly horror. More an exploration of how obsessive the companions can get about him, how it eats their whole lives with even one encounter, even as it makes them better people.

And then, obviously, the horror of having your mind altered and erased against your will by someone you trusted. For your own good, of course. Because he knows best. How could you know better than him? He's ancient. He's practically all knowing.

Shouldn't you be grateful?

(And he's forgiven.)

[kelocitta]

Gris is officially up on Artfight for the lizard likers (Or just people who want to draw an anthro)

[front-facing-pokemon]

[sassypantsjaxon]

We really should talk about how twice now Aizawa's only warning that everything was about to go to shit was that Mic was in immediate danger