#with my tail and wings to the world

[dracothefoxdragon]

A recounting of my personal experiences with autism as a furry, feelings of being non human, and a thank-you letter to @patricia-taxxon (which is hopefully not weird and parasocial, but rather inspiring).

This is a long one, so full story under the cut:

I have never been truly dehumanized by people on purpose, most people i've talked to probably wouldn't know i'm autistic unless i told them. Yet i still don't really fit in with what's considered "normal", exactly. I regularly tap the side of my head as a stim, confusing friends and parents really hard. I barely talk to people i don't care for, but to the few people i do hold dearly, i'm a chatterbox. I do a sort of running and jumping jog whenever i go get some water. Nothing i do really feels human, despite my human body showing everyone otherwise. My fursona is a fox dragon hybrid, like if you grabbed a fox and made it huge, gave them some wings and horns and fire breath. Typical furry thing, but i really clinged to it. Being a fox and a dragon at once just fits with me. Hoarding things that matter to me, having a den where i feel safe, that sense of strength being kept hidden by shadow unless provoked makes me feel like a dragon. Yet the soft fur of a fox, the joyful frolicking with friends, a playful but ultimately good natured mischievousness makes me feel like a fox. Being a hybrid makes sense to me. I never made a backstory for this character, since that would imply he has parents, and i don't have a healthy relationship with my own parents to think about that. I never experienced things that people in the otherkin community have like phantom limbs, and i don't really considered myself to be otherkin, i look in the mirror and see the flesh and skin that makes me look human, and accepted that as undying proof of what i am. I never got to think much about not being human because it seemed... wrong. Like i'm escaping myself, despite not really knowing what i am. Things changed when i watched Patricia Taxxon's video "On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People" (A strange title to those who haven't seen it, but please watch it if you haven't). That's how i really noticed what the appeal of being a furry really is. That mix of human and animal is inherent, always played with and aknowledged with the highest sincerity. That's how i noticed that not feeling human is inherent to being autistic. I feel more secure about this now. I am a fox dragon. I am not truly human, rather a creature of warmth, who loves and protects a select few people who matter to me. I am power, yet also comfort. I feel like there's something inherently queer about being a furry: being alienated by society at large, forming a tight knit group of people who care for eachother and exploring themselves despite what a "normal" person would think. I suppose what i'm trying to say is: Thanks Patricia. You helped a fox dragon guy feel better about himself. Your art means more to people than what you may think. I'd offer a part of my hoard to you as thanks if capitalism didn't exist and the postal service was nicer. I'll keep being myself from now on and let my fur comfort those who need the help that i did.

[deadsh33p]

honestly kind of sad the changelings stopped being hardcore goths

[littlestar-center]

*hugs a random toon*

-distractor anon (from confessions blog)

…

( After leaving the room was filled with a silent sob. )

[meegan420]

🧚🏼Fairy Tails gif w/music🧚🏼It’s a Beautiful Day

[raitrolling]

Aren't I hurting anyone? Perhaps it's time for me to tear apart For what it is I've been Denote my place within humanity Projecting by my will I've been amassing solid iron claws Ignore the rottenness My recitals will decay in a flash

Happy birthday @cloudbattrolls! my buddy, my pal, my partner in writing hilarious and occasionally deeply cursed crimes

here's your blender gremlin :]

(full view)

[lillunar]

Here eat this (Hazbin Hotel oc??)

[songleap]

every time i remember how badly star flower gets blundered in dotc i get so mad like. the first half of a forest divided feels like its building her up to be the next big bad, manipulating clear sky by taking advantage of his ego and eventually either ousting him as skyclans leader or having such tight control over him that she may as well be in charge and trying to use that power to exact revenge on the cats responsible for her father's death

and then half way through the book she turns into generic wife?????? how????? what????? why??????

[glowingshiningbright]

I want to learn how to take the shape of a murder drone.

[fluffypotatey]

This is going to sound crazy, especially since we’re all sure SunBurst’s fight is a parallel to ShadowPeach. But I find the blue chains far too strange. When Wukong used them, they were gold. When Tripitaka used them, they were blue. If they don’t reflect the magic of the user, otherwise Trip’s should be gold too, then could they respond to the magic of the restrained? MK does also have gold colored magic like Wukong. Macaque’s should be purple then. They ARE slightly purple when LBD restrains him, but barely. Only the other ends that *don’t* make contact with him. Since they are mostly snapped off in the flashback, they’re pretty blue. I would almost say “Macaque’s” vision of his death was actually LBD being restrained before they moved her to that underground tomb to be sealed. They obviously wouldn’t have fought and finished the job there, right? The only thing that makes me hesitate is Nine’s being orange, but we can disregard that as the same rules don’t apply. It reflects the user bc it’s purely his magic and not a spell. We don’t see that circle design the others had. Who knows, maybe Macaque already had some LBD in him when he fought Wukong. She has a tendency to possess people instead of transforming in LMK to reflect the “disguised as three innocent civilians” in JTTW. It’s easier to revive a dead monkey whose corpse a part of your essence already inhabits than to reach him after you’re sealed away.

no yeah the who deal with seals and chains and shit is not explained very well in lmk. mostly just a “yeah and X got sealed by Z….how? don’t worry about it, it just happened in the distant past.”

like do i mind overall? not really because it isn’t harming the plot that badly (bc the plot is focusing elsewhere)

is it becoming a problem? yeah. it is actually because nothing in lmk’s magic system has really been explained or fleshed out fully. it made sense as a throw away for LBD, it made sense as a tease for Macky’s possible death, but they make it a big deal in 5x09 and no one really explains HOW is is fine or WHY the colors of it are different from when LBD and Macky had theirs

we are diving deeper into the past in order to foreshadow the future which means those chains will need to be elaborated on. not ignored or brushed off like they have been

[teka-chat]

hey i finally get to make art for myself again ! hi !

[richardazer]

⚠️ BLOOD ⚠️

Dragon Cap my beloved but I love horrible hurt/comfort way too much to not make it painful 😭

My skin has become rough

Scales coming through

My teeth are falling out

Sharp fangs fill in the gaps

My back is aching, itching

Useless wings are there to weigh me down

My nails are now claws

And you have scars as proof

My throat is burned

My tail's in the way

Yet you are here

You stay and learn the pattern

You study my attacks

And tame the beast with kindness

I'm scared I'll hurt you badly

You' don't seem scared at all

Little bit of writing for those who want it 👉👈

- Is the potion helping?

Sparklez just hums in response, the pain is still there it just became duller.

- do you want me to make you a pretty necklace out of your teeth? I think it'll look badass.

Silence hung in the air but Xeen could feel the little tail wag. Sparklez was calming down and relaxing in his arms little by little.

- I'll save them in a jar until you decide what to do with them.. Going to be like a collection of cat whiskers but.. Captain's teeth.

X33n rubs the cool potion into the tender bleeding skin, Sparklez hisses at the sudden pain. The warm droplet of blood ran down the dragon's back, more, more to clean up later. But that will be later. Now? Now is gentle loving touch. Now is a strong shoulder Sparklez can lean on.

[rhiusvell-art]

He a proud boy

[worldeaterart]

I drew Gard again for the first time in several months, and it's my first full body shaded picture of her in nearly a year. The Miniature Garden is going to be going back to the facility she was created in soon, and she isn't feeling great about that. So here is Gard in the facility alone with only her thoughts. Possibly her next nightmare sequence, as she has those fairly frequently. All in all, I think that Gard going back to facility is going to damage her mental state more at present than help her immediately, but it will be interesting narratively. 

[fell-court]

managed to successfully reach the leap of faith goal and survive all the rounds of any way the wind blows today

[puppetmaster13u]

They're returning to nature <3

It's always morally correct to creatureify your blorbos. Give them teeth n tails n wings n stuff. Make them purr. It's good for the environment.

[jatlokgwo]

Who would you say me, you, and Doll are from your beloved show (murder drones)? /nfta /just curious if you've had thoughts on it before

you: alive tessa

doll: v (or doll necause its funny)

me: uzi (i could also be n)

i havent though about it before but!!!!!!