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Incorrect, the fact that Biden has dropped out and a candidate with history of supporting medicare for all and being more receptive to a ceasefire in the I/P conflict has made me go from "I cannot morally support the Democratic nominee" to "I am voting for the Democratic nominee despite the fact she isn't perfect in every respect." I'm really happy this played out. The Dems for the most part abandoned the old Obama platform and it feels like its possible an actual progressive agenda could come to pass in my lifetime.
Kamala 2024!
If you weren't going to vote Democratic in this election before Biden dropped out you're a dorkass loser who does not care about any of the issues you're yammering about here and also a fundamentally bad person, and I hope you get run over by a bus.
But you got one thing right in all of this gibberish, Kamala 2024.
#personal#answered#anonymous#i mean let's be clear here no president is gonna attempt to be progressive ever again within my lifetime#because joe biden tried to do like 25% of that and got ZERO fucking credit#he did so much on healthcare on reform on loans on so many social issues and for all his litany of failings on i/p#he has been distinctly harsher on netanyahu than a good chunk of dems and certainly the entire republican party#for the first time since i was four we are not involved in any wars as americans and that is thanks to joe biden#but the thing is that he gets no credit for any of it!#him pulling out of afghanistan caused his approvals to tank in a way that never recovered#and leftists gave him FUCK ALL for it#they gave him nothing they just continued whining that even tho he cancelled a bajillion in student loans#he didn't actually cancel a QUADRILLION dollars so both parties are the same and voting is the most arduous task known to man#no democrat who is running is going to forget that catering to leftist/progressive policies gets them zero leeway with those supporters#that it not only tanks numbers but you still get constant haranguing about it anyway#so they're not gonna do it#we are gonna get fuckall for at least a good fifty years#and anything we get will be utterly in SPITE of people like you anon it will happen in spite of everything you've done#mostly because of people like me and mine who understand that voting is the bare minimum#and that for the democratic process to work the way you want it to you need to participate and not pitch a fucking fit#like a four year old who was told they can't go to disney this weekend#like i know you ratfuckers are happy this played out because this is all a game to you and you don't actually care#but that's why i've got zero faith in you people and why i'm glad it's my kind of folks#actual die hard democrats who have always been hardliners for supporting democrats in every possible election#who are picking up the slack and donating to harris and supporting her agenda#which is the exact same as biden's because she's his vice president and they share they same platform#because that's what they were both running on! twice!#anyway fuck you please feel free to find a necktie and test how tall your doorframe is
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#rdr2#rdr2 fanart#javier escuella#john marston#jovier#uhhh its implied i guess#im working on other stuff but ill leave this here in the meantime#sorry for only ever drawing these two im not normal about them#thank my social anxiety for not letting me act crazy on here bc otherwise id be so annoying 🙏#ive been taking it all out on my notes app it looks fucking BAD in there#anyway#john is so hard to draw I hate him and his stupid giant eyes </3#gotta get better at drawing then both tbh#thats why its taking me so long to post#I keep drawing shit and then deleting it#ok weird rant over if anyone reads my tags im sorry#my art
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i am SOOOO INVESTED in this au like im about to start a stan twitter account i'm about to make one of those one direction imagines IM!!! SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM!! i'm curious though how do triple s leave eggman's management and how do they continue as a band following that since you mentioned it in your answer about the music?? and seriously tysm for making this au it drives me insane /pos
AAAH IM GLAD TO HEAR THAT LOL i should make a Triple☆S fancam at this rate (also wooo on a roll with asks today asbdjf)
AND OUGHH still working out the finer details of this but i have a sort of vague idea of how i want it to play out!! (also brace yourself this is long as hell)
This is during a period where they start touring and are essentially at the peak of their fame!! They're all incredibly exhausted from the almost daily concerts - mentally and physically. It gets bad enough that Silver ends up fainting live (this was their sort of wake up call that okay shit, we seriously can't be doing this anymore)
With Rouge's help they manage to sneak away from their tour bus prior to the concert happening the next day (which would've been one of the bigger ones in terms of ticket sales). They stay at her place for the mean time, THOUGH OBVIOUSLY THIS CAUSES A PROBLEM FOR EGGMAN!!! Can't exactly have a concert without Triple☆S performing and there were already a shit load of people waiting within the venue - he promptly cancels the event and has to refund all the tickets they sold for this concert (causing a significant dent in his profit as well as reputation).
Fans are incredibly worried (and frustrated)- they don't hear from the band themselves for about a week as they keep missing the tours, Eggman is continuing to lose A LOT of money and his patience!!
this is the part that i'm still working out BASJDHF but eventually they make an appearance again, on a little stage in the middle of the city center. People quickly take notice, crowding around them, barraging them with questions and complaints ETC ABSDJ. They encourage people to start recording and they talk about Eggman, his cruelty (to not only them but his other workers), greed, unethical practices THE WHOLE LOT. This info spreads like wildfire and eventually Eggman is taken away to be put on trial (and is clearly guilty) - effectively ruining his whole business and severing them from his management (yippee!!)
after all that they take a LOOOONGGG ass break from the spotlight absjdhf but they've grown to really enjoy the band and each other's company - choosing to instead be a bit more of an underground (ha sonic underground) group, performing music more catered to their tastes and initial vision for the band (this does dwindle their popularity but they find comfort in that).
They do obviously end up losing their apartment too absjdf - Sonic lives with Tails again, Silver finally gets his own place and Shadow sort of bounces between living with Rouge and back with Gerald and Maria!!
#LONG POST ALERT ABSJHDF#if there's any typos sorry its like 1AM and i am SLEEPY#that last part with the public announcement is definitely still a WIP#i like to think they posted some super fucking cryptic message on social media before it thinking it would be sooo funny#if you're wondering why they didn't do this way earlier: DONT THINK TOO HARD ABT IT ABSJDF#working with Eggman made them feel as though he held power over them though - like no matter what they done it would be fruitless#and hell they kinda need to give it to the man- without him they wouldn't have been where they were.. so he clearly knows what he's doing-#they don't need to interfere#WEEE WOOO THEY'VE BEEN MANIPULATED!!!!!!!!! GASLIT!!!!! WEEEEE WOOOOO#asks#t☆s txt#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#silver the hedgehog#eggman#rouge the bat#triple☆stars
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Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests
#dont look at Salde for rhe love of my sanity do not even percieve Salde i dint kwno what ifmf doing g#art#fanart#ISAT#puyo puyo#in stars and time#madou monogatari#kitscribbles#sig puyo puyo#schezo wegey#arle nadja#ringo ando#sig really do be sig no last name#prince salde#their ages are different in this one. oldest to youngest - schezo > arle > sig > ringo > salde#you see that stubble on Sig thats baby stubble. thats unfortunate facial hair on a teenager#sometimes it works out for people still in their teens but not sig#Ringo is!! Perhaps a bit too young to travel!! She's basically a foreign exchange student#i have to admit all the roles and dynamics in ISAT are NOT 1:1 in this AU#i have it all mixed up#when i say sig and schezo are besties i mean theyre both awkward with people they just happen to have an understanding. also sig bullies hi#Sig is he/they here!! I dont usually mess with canon genders (hella respect those who do) but honestly i just like it for Sig...#I still need to learn more about Salde but imma just go ahead and say that Salde is kid gender#Was tempted to hide Sig's lil hair thingies under his hat but then was like. Why would i do that#favorite joke in all this is that Schezo tried so hard to Change that he fucked up his own speech patterns and now socializing is. well#sig didnt shave before the loops and now he has to do that every time or suffer the teasing of his friends at some point in the house#thanks guys im going insane over here and youre laughing. going nonverbal now#How does Salde balance a fish on their head? uhhhhh well you see. have you ever balanced a massive bag of frozen peas#Salde doesnt cook but there's money in that fish. Nobody feels comfortable enough to ask a kid for cash but they WILL reward good behavior#in puyos and time
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do you ever just get so exhausted by the same characterization of characters in fanfic that you have to binge read hannigram fics??
like fanfic is riddled with characters wrestling with their morality and making sure they’re good people and if they even do something slightly morally wrong they’ll beg for forgiveness and apologize over and over again through stumbled rambling. and the characters feel guilty about the dumbest fucking shit like having sexual fantasies about someone and they spiral because “it’s not right and they don’t have the right to have sexual fantasies about that person”. and the romances are painfully all healthy and sweet and they have conversations about everything in depth.
like god fanfic is so filled with morality it can just be exhausting and sometimes i just need to read about two men who are unapologetic about how toxic they are and use murder and manipulation as foreplay.
#hannibal#hannibal lecter#hannigram#will graham#this is also why i don’t read modern day books#cause they’re just so dull and exhausting#the characters all HAVE to be morally correct#AND we always get rants about dumb shit so we know how the author feels about a subject#i remember reading an adult book and a character went on a random fucking internal rant about how virginity is a social construct#the way i rolled my eyes so hard#because it literally did not matter to the story and it was so random#books are so filled with moments like those and it’s so boring#we get it you’re liberal and woke#please at least let your characters be interesting#that’s it#it’s fiction#please for the love of god this is where you can be creative and interesting#but they never are#op
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The emotional crash and anxiety spiral that hits immediately after hanging out with someone
Did I do good, did I socialize right, did I sound cool, gods do they hate me now, was I to weird, was I to much, did I talk to much, did I have enough to do, I miss them, do they hate me, God I fucked it up probably, whyd I say that, why didn't I say that, do they think I'm weird, do they like me, did-
It exhausts me, but I can't turn it off
#actually autistic#actually adhd#ramblings#mental health#generalized anxiety disorder#social anxiety#anxiety#social phobia#socializing is so Hard#they even said they'd try to hangout again soon why am i so worried i fucked up somehow!!#mag barks
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Why am I not good at anything I do :(
#not to vent on main but man. everything i do is terrible#my art fucking sucks i cringe whenever i even see it#i should just give up already lmao ive been drawing for years n my art still looks like it's drawn by a kid#my artstyle fucking suuuckkks it's so unoriginal n doesnt look good at all#my fanfics r so awful too. the writing style is so choppy n uninspired#rereading them again n holyshit i hate them so much??#i wanna delete all my art n fanfics from every social media i posted them in#i hate everything i make#tryibg to learn a new skill rn too n i think i just gave up on it cuz it's too hard#why am i like this#i should just stop creating#whats the point if im never gonna be good enough#i havent drawn anything in so long. i dont even enjoy drawing anymore cuz nothing i make is good#i hate myself
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Critters, how we doing? 😭
#first Hank now Sam#i woke up to that announcement today and bawled#i know he's doing okay now and has a good support network but jesus#it explains why everyone was taking it so hard when FCG died and Sam left the table#and Ashley's little Sam portait at her spot#why he's been absent on social media#why Liam's been off on social media too (that plus Sprigg#poor man 😭😭😭)#my heart goes out to him Q and the kids#that's not an easy time#i hope it continues to get easier for him every day#sam riegel#critical role#crit role#fuck cancer
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the comments on the bridgertonnetflix account
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what the fuck is going on
#i thought i escaped social media hell#now insta is getting worse#why the fuck are people being so negative...#yes some of the changes are surprising but look at everything they gave us this season#nic and luke and everyone else did not work this hard for you to stop watching the show altogether just because of a gender swap#bridgerton#bridgerton season 3#bridgerton s3#bridgerton spoilers#bridgerton season three
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watching mindhunter and so far holden seems like a gay autistic people pleaser
#random thoughts#mindhunter#gay because 1. in his relationship with his girlfriend he seems to be very passive and not very emotionally involved#2. in the scene where he's eating her out he says he wants to get it over with as fast as possible (paraphrasing)#autistic because he has like zero social awareness and no ability to detect sarcasm#people pleasing mixes in with the autism because he seems to be trying to say what people want to hear#also why are his scenes with kemper so sexually charged. 'it's hard to fuck a neck' he says while grabbing holden's neck#'why do you keep talking to him about your girlfriend' yeah why ARE you talking to kemper about sex dude#i wouldn't be surprised if he asked his girlfriend to try something ~different~ that night#what even is her name hold on#DEB!!!
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nailing my theses to the door: the way hua cheng acts about xie lian is precisely how those carefully non-toxic insane kpop stans behave. like “i love them and support them no matter what” and “let’s respect their boundaries” and “let’s raise a ridiculous amount of money for charity in their name” but also “every inch of my bedroom walls are plastered with their face” and “i spend hours every day getting into arguments online defending them against haters” and “i collected all 700 of their album photocards” and “i have them blocked on twitter so they can’t see my smut fics” and most importantly “if they end up dating someone i’d be devastated, but as long as they’re happy id support them no matter what”
#tgcf#hualian#my hyperfixation demon#tgcf meta#meta stuff#i have a whole au about this#but also as a veteran non toxic insane kpop stan#like. the way hc acts about xie lian is exactly just that#the parasocial relationship is real but he is acutely aware it is one sided#and he goes to great lengths to personally police himself against crossing any boundaries#that’s why i SAY. he tries so hard not to be toxic#but it doesn’t mean his obsession isn’t utterly insane and over the top. bc it is#but he’s self aware and tries to do it in a way that won’t hurt xie lian in any way#have u guys ever navigated the non toxic stan culture that exists on social media. it’s a minefield. the way they fucking talk#anyway
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MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!
grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.
#ramblez#little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao#this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it#hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD#hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you#batim#batdr#bendy and the ink machine#bendy and the dark revival#and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions#it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting#But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent#dw Im not going anywhere <3#also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently#old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD#also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns#he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs#and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get#and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they#dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves#to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent#mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did#so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!
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It’s wild seeing some people trying to claim that no one cares about women’s sports during the Olympics.
Really?
Because last time I checked those people care A LOT about women’s sports when a trans women gets involved 🧐
#trans women are valid and just as deserving of being in sports like the fuck#‘no body cares about women’s sports- men just watch it for their bodies’#are the same crowd who’s like—#‘noo trans women can’t compete in women’s sports. it’s unfair to cis women who work so hard to be great at their sport’#which is it. are women’s sports important or not.#it’s also hypocritical because if supposedly no one cares about women’s sports why would a ‘man’ undergo an entire hormone and social change#just to compete in sports that supposedly no one cares about#(spoiler alert. it’s because trans women aren’t secretly super villains trying to take over women’s sports. The’yre#women who work just as#hard as all other athletes and deserve to be recognized for their contribution to the sport)#oh and also people who claim that women’s sports don’t matter are just uneducated. sorry that YOU only watch for women’s bodies#but most people are able to look past their objectification of women and just watch the fucking sport#women’s sports#trans#Olympics#transgender#republican hypocrisy#trans women#trans solidarity
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yk i have not been watching the rookie tournament due to the horrors but getting all my information secondhand thru @whoredeleau, it does strike me very much as similar to the '22 rookie tournament, where i walked out of it convinced this would be the cuda's year. and it absolutely was NOT, but i did proceed to have the most fun i've ever had as a barracuda fan in the 22-23 season. fingers crossed the vibes are changing
#i mean i was also severely incapacitated by depression last year so very much not having fun but also. no bueno. vibeless#what a catastrophically strange team in a distinctly unsexy way. i hope the new pr director fires the social media manager again#anyway sorry to scott sabourin you are a father now and not the sexy kind. enjoy spoon-feeding quentin musty#also just found out you can't share flohockey accounts so wishing a very fuck you to the ahl for nuking ahltv#i don't want to pay for the ncaa or sphl??? i want san jose barracuda ahl end of list. why are you making me pay $150#for leagues i don't want to watch and will not being watching?? perish#''oh yeah let me settle in for a nice night of brandon wheat kings hockey'' actually whl hockey probably does go hard#every prospect we have ever gotten out of the dub has been batfuck#but i don't want to PAY FOR IT#forgot what i was saying#anyway let next year be an old man appreciator season for the ages#i will be sad not to witness it in person 🥲#kaspershark.txt
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#absolutely do not want to argue because i get where the post is coming from with but im gonna give some thots#re: dennis autism!!!! ok!!!!!#ive talked about it before but there is WAY more to him being autistic than just the buzzer noises. when i first watched that i was like#is THIS really why people hc him as autistic. :/ and i get it! i do! i think he has misophonia inherited from glenn personally#its actually why i captioned the noise sensitive den gifsets as that rather than just. autism.#but personally i see his scripted social interactions and i go. yeah. me. me fuckin too.#and his outbursts. which are VERY personally relatable to me#i have uh. basically the same triggers? very similar triggers at least#i think dennis' neurodivergency presents itself differently because of his upbringing and thats why a lot of ppl go ???? when you say.#'yea i think den's autistic actually'#and like i said i was absolutely like. what the hell are people talking about. he's not autistic#but uh. on rewatches? hm.#dennis quite literally masks almost 24/7#charlie has no qualms about being perceived as like. weird. but dennis masks SO hard. SSSSSSOOOOO hard#i once saw a post like. charlie has boy autism and dennis has girl autism which honestly fucking hate that but its... kiiiind of true#ASD presents itself differently in adults depending on early social conditioning#mac fights gay marriage. group dates. new wheels. dee day. celebrity booze. all the big ones. all the hits.#look how he acts when he goes off script and is forced to speak off the cuff#the way glenn describes him as being very emotional but unable to adequately express his emotions too like. yeah. same.#theres so much more than the noise sensitivity#i could go on and on about how many fucking boxes he ticks but i honestly hate that shit. i know how autism works and that bitch is autisti#im going to refrain from commenting on the reasons why i feel charlie is more acceptably hced as autistic vs dennis because mmmmm but#dennis being 'hypersexual' (not about the sex. at all) and socially adept (has scripts/systems. charlie is more emotionally intelligent)#smells a lil stinky. smells a little bit like infantilization on charlie's part.#ada speaks#ok ill spare you guys. someday ill write a proper meta on this. ive talked about it before but.
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#tw suicide#idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT#i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone#and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess#but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm#but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing#hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse#to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house#and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like#to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age#but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me#also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently#tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me#i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship#but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation#i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself#and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons#most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks#idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear#this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly#sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point#and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have#the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona#so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem#anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope
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