#but it doesn’t mean his obsession isn’t utterly insane and over the top. bc it is

[yea-baiyi]

nailing my theses to the door: the way hua cheng acts about xie lian is precisely how those carefully non-toxic insane kpop stans behave. like “i love them and support them no matter what” and “let’s respect their boundaries” and “let’s raise a ridiculous amount of money for charity in their name” but also “every inch of my bedroom walls are plastered with their face” and “i spend hours every day getting into arguments online defending them against haters” and “i collected all 700 of their album photocards” and “i have them blocked on twitter so they can’t see my smut fics” and most importantly “if they end up dating someone i’d be devastated, but as long as they’re happy id support them no matter what”

[cultslugs-blog]

some dumb kamukoma hcs that i just have bc i can

they are. so. fucking. annoying when it comes to pda. like.............................................chill

and it's not even that much. they usually just sit really really fucking close to each other and hold hands but they do it so goddamn often that it gets annoying. sometimes ko will lean down and give kamu a smol cheek kiss.

kAMU IS FUCKING SHORTER THAN KO OKA y. HE'S. HIS ENGLISH HEIGHT. HE'S 5'8. OKAY. KO IS 5'11. LET ME HAVE THIS.

?????? they both have their anniversary fucking burned in the back of their brain like. they cannot forget. it's impossible.

and they'll go all out for it. kamu will spend like 6 hours a day at the store just trying to figure out the perfect gift ( bc no matter how he 'logically analyzes it' he keeps trying to find something better to the point where he's walking around in circles without even noticing ) and ko just piles a bunch of shit into the cart that kamu likes and drowns him in gifts and affections. and kamu isn't complaining.

kamu lowkey loves???????????? getting affection from ko. he loves being close to him. he's secretly a massive fucking sap and nobody knows it.

you'd think kamu would top but hahaha no

one time ko decided to throw caution to the wind and grabbed kamu's hand in the store and kamu. froze in the middle of the fucking deli isle. he coudln't move. it took him like 5 minutes until he was able to actually function again. 'kamukura.exe has stopped working' is fucking right.

any time kamu blushes its. bc of ko. and its just really small and barely noticeable but ko picks up on it and just mentally freaks bc 'holy shit h ei s  bl su ghi n a L ERT aLA aERT'

there was one specific time where they were having sex on the hood of ko's car and souda. saw them and tried to take a picture bUT THE FLASH ON HIS PNHONE WENT OFF AND SOUDA SCREAMED AND KAMU NEARLY FUCKING BOLTED OVER TO SNAP HIS NECK BUTT NAKED.

komaeda once used 77% of his savings to buy 125 hermit crabs and kamu came home and was..............................................so utterly con fu se d and after one died he just bought more so kamu had to resort to buying him a cat and the hermit crab obsession stopped.

kamu wears. ko's clothes. all the fucking time. sometimes he'll say it was an accident and he didn't pay attention ( which is the most bullshit answer possible ) but ko knows kamu likes wearing his shit so he just lets him.

the first time kamu smiled is bc ko just randomly went 'ilu' during one of their post-sad cuddle sessions and he just. looked at him and smiled v small and said 'ilut' anD KO GOT SO EXCITED AND HYPED BC. HE MADE SMILE. AND HE toL D K OHE LVOED HIm. AND He Can AN OT????

kamu gets. so pissed. about the term 'skype sex'. every time ko even brings it up he rants about it for like 2 hours straight and the only thing ko can do is gently pat his back and hope it calms him down bc he goes on an angry tangent and it's pretty hilarious to anyone else but ko just wants skype sex let this boy live

its so ridiculous tbh

one time in their group text everybody was talking about bands and mukuro's autocorrect happened and 'panic! at the disco' became 'panic! at the discount' and nobody would stop fucking joking about it. it went on for fucking ever. kamu choked on a milkshake when ko brought it up in private since hes too cool to show emotion anywhere else.

seriously. nobody understands???? like everybody figures that kamu is just using ko and that he'll throw him out the minute he gets bored with him but??????????????? no kamu is fucking head over heels for this boy he's so ridiculously smitten he needs help. i mean ko is also insanely smitten but hOLY SHIT KAMU HOW DID YOU FALL IN LOVE SO HARD.

at first kamu had some serious trouble with understanding how he felt for komaeda. like, he couldn't sleep for about a week, it bothered him that much. bc it happened gradually and the feeling started off super lowkey and then just started to take over his entire thought process. every time ko would walk into the room the analytic bullshit that was constantly running over his mind would just. come to a screeching hault and he never knew why

until he actually sat himself down and thought about it for like an hour

and then he was just like 'holy shit im in love iwth komaeda'

and it's not unreasonable either because ko was????? and is very nice to kamu and actually treated him like a living, breathing, sentient human being instead of a tool that needed to be use to administer some artificial hope into humanity so??????????????????? kamu just kinda. lost it. ko stole this presumeably emotionless genetic experiment's heart and kamu didn't really know how to deal with the fact that he'd lowered his guard so far as to allow himself to fall in love

another thing was that he knew ko loved him back ( that was literally so fucking obvious it hu r t ) but when going to confess to him he couldn't help but fear rejection and kAMU DIDNT. EVEN UNDERSTAND THAT PART. HE WAS A BIG BALL OF AN EMOTIONAL MESS.

but i mean their confession ended with a cuddling and kissing sessiona nd it was stupid and fluffy help them.

kamu will sometimes just. sit on ko’s lap. he won’t even say anything, and will look completely emotionless, and just sit there. usually ko knows that this is kamu’s way of saying he wants affection but if he doesn’t react quick enough kamu will turn around and snuggle him. and ko usually lets kamu be the little spoon ( who am i kidding kamu is always the little spoon ) and it’s p much just.......,,gay??