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perfectblve Ā· 7 months ago
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got lost looking for the hotel, finally found it, its 3.30pm, check in is from 3pm, my room isn't ready help
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mas-que-loucura-menina Ā· 1 year ago
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JuHaaaHUUAAAGHH *dies*
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ch2n2o2x3 Ā· 2 months ago
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another-clive-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Thinking about the Clive and Bill parallels again...
Both started with pretty average goals (gaining money / getting closure). Both became obsessed with said goals to the point of going through with their plans no matter the cost. Both became consumed by the desire to pursue a goal that isn't actually achievable (You can get more money but it will never feel like it's enough. You can lash out in anger but it won't make the anger go away). Both ended up killing innocents.
And yet.
Bill getting rid of his humanity in the hopes of getting money. Clive getting rid of his money in the hopes of getting his humanity back. Bill claiming he despises people like Clive when he has himself killed innocents for his own selfish plans. Clive claiming he hates politicians and scientists but still using science to build a mecha and politics to justify its use. Bill hiding everything, hiding from Claire that the machine isn't ready, hiding his crime from everyone. Clive exposing everything, exposing his secret base to Layton, exposing Bill and Dimitri's crime by his staging. Bill covering up the incident while Clive broadcasted his crime inside the fortress.
I don't know where I was going with this. Maybe that prime minister Bill looks like a honest citizen, just your regular Londoner really, while Clive is so obviously violent and destructive : and yet, Clive is the dove and Bill the hawk. Funny.
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treasure-goblin Ā· 6 months ago
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*hitting head on wall*
I'm still an artist
I'm still an artist
I'm still an artist
I'm still an artist
It's ok that I can't always draw
It's ok that I burn out quickly
It's ok that I can't remember to finish things
I'm still an artist
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seventh-district Ā· 10 days ago
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#Sevenā€™s Public Diary#vent#vent post#cw negative#cw health issues#ā€˜Youā€™re such a heartless and hateful person.ā€™ well have you ever considered that iā€™m not really a hateful person and i just hate You#like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so youā€™ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want#ā€˜That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.ā€™ MF that was made TODAY. ITā€™S FRESH AND THEREā€™S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT#if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it#dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache#i feel sick too but i know itā€™s my fault so iā€™m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting#food. because you act like youā€™re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and thatā€™s why I feel sick#but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so weā€™re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when itā€™s my fault#everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and thatā€™s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasnā€™t enough#for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so iā€™ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dogā€™s teeth need#cleaning too and thatā€™ll come out of my pocket and i guess thatā€™s My fault for not taking care of him either#i think i have another goddamn UTI and thatā€™s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i canā€™t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess thatā€™s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position#my eye keeps twitching and i guess thatā€™s my fault too. i donā€™t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired#god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if theyā€™re packed in a way that shows whatā€™s inside then iā€™ll have to explain#That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night#the living room floor is caving in so now thereā€™s Two roomā€™s floors that need fixing so thatā€™s super fucking fun! šŸ˜ƒ#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis#well i donā€™t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that iā€™ll go to all this trouble and theyā€™ll say i donā€™t qualify#and god itā€™s NYE now. Besties iā€™m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just canā€™t make myself write these days. iā€™m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now iā€™ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but#thereā€™s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what iā€™m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.
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w0nderland Ā· 2 years ago
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oh my god and i forgot something i needed to bring to work FUCK
ugh today is off to a bad start i put on a cute outfit that is SO weather inappropriate thinking it would be warmer today and left my mask at home and didnā€™t study enough for my exam
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panharmonium Ā· 2 years ago
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well, after a little break, we picked up our naruto rewatch again with the beginning of season 10 (itā€™s so good.Ā  SO GOOD), and since all i want to do is sit here and talk about how good it is, i figured iā€™d try to do that while simultaneously catching up on some overdue fandom correspondence.
when i was watching last night, iĀ kept thinking back to a conversation i'd been having with @professor-of-naruto after they sent me an askĀ about how naruto started off as an ensemble show and then became solely ā€œthe naruto show,ā€ and i STILL owe them a full response about that, but iā€™m going to consider this post my attempt to talk a little about it, because season 10 is simultaneously one of the best examples ofĀ ā€œensemble showā€ that naruto ever pulls off AND the scene of one of the most frustrating crimes ofĀ ā€œthe naruto showā€ that it ever commits (in my opinion; your mileage may vary).Ā Ā 
but before it reaches that frustrating point - season 10 is unbelievably well-constructed!Ā  EVERYBODY is doing something important and relevant to their character arcs, and the plot is moving fast, and the world is expanding in fascinating ways:
first of all, thereā€™s the fact that the season starts off with young ninja from a totally different village, all of whom are deeply concerned about their missing teacher, and then shows us their confrontation with team 7 and later naruto himself - instantly expanding the world and humanizing the leafā€™s [former] enemies and forcing the audience to widen their perspective and confront the idea that ā€˜hang on, people in other villages are just like people in the leaf; they care about their friends and families and comrades the same way; and HMM, what sasuke did to bee was really bad actually; is it fair to expect other nations to just sit around and accept it; would we expect one of our favorite characters from the leaf to do the sameā€
the political tension created in the first episode by tsunadeā€™s absence and danzo being named hokage creates a compelling new dynamic where the leaf is beingĀ ā€œledā€ (ruled) by someone who doesnā€™t have the confidence of the people or the support of the jonin assembly, which then forces kakashi to start making hokage-level decisions covertly (aka taking down the foundation agents sent to spy on naruto, openly instructing a subordinate to lie to the hokage, smuggling the nine-tails out of the village, engaging in diplomatic relations with a foreign kage), which dynamic continues to escalate when danzo loses the trust of the other kage and said other kage decide that kakashi should act as the leafā€™s representative, which later, despite tsunadeā€™s recovery, is a dynamic that continues to push and and foreshadow throughout the war to the eventual conclusion of kakashi actually becoming hokage at the end of the story.
SAIā€™S ARC.Ā  how he witnesses naruto taking that beating from karui; how the editing later cuts from naruto crying at the raikageā€™s feet to sai sitting in the forest thinking about naruto telling him toĀ ā€œstay out of this,ā€ and his decision ofĀ ā€œno.Ā  i canā€™t just sit still, either,ā€ and how he then goes straight to sakura to tell her that he still doesnā€™t know team 7 all that well and heā€™s not very good with emotions, but he does know that that narutoā€™s been suffering, and that theyā€™ve all been relying on naruto too much, and that he doesnā€™t know what promise naruto made to her, butĀ ā€œitā€™s really no different than what was done to me.Ā  itā€™s like a curse mark.ā€ how he tells her that he doesnā€™t think itā€™s right that sasuke has caused naruto and sakura so much suffering, and heā€™s not going to sit silently by and let it continue -
and how that then PERFECTLY intertwines with the konoha 12 discussing the situation, and shikamaru - newly matured shikamaru, shikamaru who took down an akatsuki member, shikamaru who lost asuma, shikamaru who used to be so lazy, shikamaru who used to be so allergic to responsibility - entering the tent and agreeing with sai and saying that theyā€™re not kids anymore.Ā  they have to act.Ā  they canā€™t let sasuke start a war between nations...so many people will die...him asking for sakuraā€™s consent -Ā 
and how THAT perfectly dovetails into sakuraā€™s arc - her ENORMOUS decision, which none of them are even aware of yet - when she says she wants to be the one to tell naruto that theyā€™ve decided they canā€™t protect sasuke anymore, but what sheā€™s really decided is that SHE IS GOING TO KILL SASUKE HERSELF, because sheā€™s the one who put naruto in this position by asking him to promise to bring sasuke back, and she canā€™t stand to make him suffer anymore, so sheā€™s going to take the burden off his shoulders and suffer herself instead -
and MEANWHILE
this is happening against the backdrop of narutoā€™s petition to the raikage, which is a) the set-up for the raikageā€™s eventually decision to let naruto join the war many seasons later, b) the set-up for the raikage voicing his support for kakashi as hokage after danzo flees the summit, and c) the visual parallel for us between sai and sakura discussing narutoā€™s suffering and us simultaneously seeing him down on his knees, crying in the snow
and THIS is all happening against the larger backdrop of the five kage summit, where weā€™re introduced to MORE characters from an even WIDER world, and each kage and their attendants have their own unique personalities and weā€™re once again thrust into this new perspective of being asked to humanize and care about previously unknown entities who have always been considered potential antagonists, if not outright enemies
and the five kage summit brings back gaara and our old friends from the sand, which is important not just for the way it highlights the difference between new and old ways of thinking/generational changes, but because whoops, suddenly sasuke is crashing the five kage summit, and as soon as gaara hears about this, he leaves the summit room and goes to confront sasuke and tries to HELP, in his own way, which is brilliant and so effective on a storytelling level because gaara fought sasuke during the chuunin exams, and back then gaara was the one who was out of his mind with rage and pain, and now their positions are reversed, and gaara wants to save sasuke from that same fate, not just because itā€™s what naruto would want, but because gaara himself was saved in much the same way
but unfortunately gaara is butting up against the lowest point of sasukeā€™s arc, as sasuke tips over into something truly disastrous, and his descent is (magnificently!Ā  deftly!) illustrated NOT through his behavior towards danzo (which is never depicted as unjustified) but through his behavior towards TAKA, who notice that heā€™s not acting like himself (suigetsu: ā€œgee, and this is the guy who kept telling ME not kill anybody?ā€) and whom he then systematically, one by one, abandons, betrays, or outright sacrifices in the service of his goal, when all theyā€™ve ever done is aid and protect him.Ā 
in other words: the worst thing sasuke does, in this storyā€™s eyes, isnā€™t breaking the law; itā€™s abandoning his comrades.Ā  his lowest point in the narrative isnā€™t communicated to us by his rebellion against authority, but by his betrayal of his friends.Ā  SOMEHOW THIS SOUNDS THEMATICALLY FAMILIAR -
this betrayal then flows seamlessly into new character development for the taka crew - for suigetsu and juugo, whom sasuke abandons to die or rot in prison, and for karin, who finally sees firsthand that sasuke is using her and that he doesnā€™t care whether she lives or dies as long as he gets what he wants - which turn of events pushes karin into the arms of the leaf, where sheā€™s technically a prisoner, but where sheā€™s still healed by sakura and carried by kakashi, and where she comments internally on how everyoneā€™s chakra, even that of her cell guards, is so warm and different from sasukeā€™s... (iā€™m frothing at the mouth here at how well all of this with taka was set up and how it just falls apart later aGUGHHHHHH)
and these are hardly the only things going on in this season - i didnā€™t even touch upon the way kakashi and yamato are told the truth about itachi (this was something!!!!!Ā  it needed to be something!!!!!), or even the brief confrontation betweenĀ ā€œmadaraā€ and yamato, because when obito first pops up on narutoā€™s windowsill, itā€™s yamato who strikes first, and yamato who says ā€œyouā€™re in my territory now,ā€ and obito just laughs at him, and i cannot handle how well this sets up him being captured, interrogated, and used by obito later (if the story CARED enough to CARE about it, i mean; i just - !!!)Ā Ā 
this is all i mean when i say that naruto is at its best when itā€™s an ensemble show.Ā  all of this happens in just the first six episodes, but every single character who appears has something important going on in their own story.Ā  everything that they do connects to something else, and every move they make affects the plot.Ā  every time someone appears on screen, you care about whatā€™s happening with them - because something IS happening with them!Ā  everything is intertwined, and all of it matters.Ā  this season is woven together so well - itā€™s hard to stop watching.Ā Ā 
that isnā€™t always the case later, though.Ā  after naruto appears on the scene of the sasuke/team 7 confrontation (aka the point where the show attempts to make aĀ ā€œnaruto is and has always been Everythingā€ retcon that i will never forgive them for), the story starts leaning harder into the ā€œnaruto is the only one who can save sasuke and oh yeah do everything else tooā€ message, which is eternally frustrating to me, because the original message of the story was alwaysĀ ā€œteamwork is more important than anything.Ā  all of us are necessary to succeed.ā€Ā  itachi literally chides naruto, ā€œyou canā€™t do everything on your own.Ā  never forget your friends,ā€ but then the show keeps creating situations where only naruto can Do the Thing and the other charactersā€™ sole purposes are to sit back and monologue about how amazing he is.Ā Ā 
i understand that this is a silly thing to complain about when the story is in fact titled ā€œnaruto,ā€ but i do still feel frustrated about it sometimes, because i think an approach like this makes for a weaker story.Ā  there ARE ways to tell a naruto-centric story and have it be incredible - eg, the pain arc is all-naruto, all the time, and i have zero complaints about it, because everything naruto is able to do in that arc makes sense and is completely appropriate for who he is and what his strengths are.Ā  he should be able to use sage mode and toad summons - those are powerful inheritances from his own teaching lineage that he worked incredibly hard to master.Ā  he should be able to resist the nine-tails transformation - he has help from his own fatherā€™s spirit, as well as a lifetime of experience living as a jinchuuriki.Ā  and - crucially - he should beĀ able to save the day in the end, not because heā€™s a super skilled ninja with godlike powers, but because heā€™s able to compassionatelyĀ connect with nagato on a personal level and lead him back to the light.Ā Ā 
that is narutoā€™s true power.Ā  itā€™s not about him being the strongest fighter, or the smartest strategist, or the most skilled shinobi in history.Ā  his special ability is precisely what kakashi called a ā€œremarkable giftā€ in season one: ā€œ[naruto] doesnā€™t need much time, or many words, to make friends with everyone he meets.ā€
thatā€™s why i think the pain arc is an example of ā€œnaruto-centricā€ done right, and thatā€™s why i love how war arc!naruto is able to befriend kurama/the other tailed beasts and use the nine-tailsā€™ power.Ā  those things are so, so appropriate for who he is and where his strengths lie.Ā  but there are other points in the story where naruto is showcased for things that donā€™t make as much sense or havenā€™t been earned (as an isolated example, the six-paths magical powers stuff was too much for me) or where heā€™s highlighted at other charactersā€™ expenses (what happens to all those amazing intertwining arcs of season 10 by the time we hit the end of the story?Ā  why do so many of them falter or disappear?)
itā€™s not enough to make me dislike the back half of the show - i love it right up until the last episode, my frustration with the ending notwithstanding.Ā  but i do think the shift in focus from ā€œensemble showā€ toĀ ā€œone-man bandā€ becomes a bit more dramatic after S10, and the overall story after that point is much weaker than it couldĀ have been (even though i still think that a lot of what it achieves is amazing).
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lyriumghosting Ā· 14 days ago
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Theneras finally made it to Inner Demons (and the Lucanis romance lock-in immediately afterwards) last night \o/ Neras and Lucanis both have so many hang-ups when it comes to family, it's so fun forcing them to confront their issues >:3c
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the-casbah-way Ā· 30 days ago
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i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry
#he looked so sweetā€¦..he looks SO much like my dad#i found the last picture of him that my granddad took a month or so before he died itā€™s so sad#trying to decide if i should tell my mum that i know about him or if i should just keep it to myself#idk if somethings wrong with me maybe itā€™s because i was already grieving before i found out#but itā€™s really getting 2 me i canā€™t concentrate on my uni shit i just keep thinking about it#i think i rlly need to talk about it with someone but i have no idea who or how or what iā€™d say. but itā€™s weird because itā€™s a secret yk#like iā€™m not even supposed to know he existed#idk. i have a gender clinic appointment next week and iā€™m going to ask if they can recommend any therapists#me being very very brave and trying therapy again after being forced into it my whole life and ending up a bit traumatised#idk. i feel bad that iā€™m alive and iā€™m wasting my life when my uncle got killed when he was just a kid#it makes me feel like i should be more grateful and do more with myself.#and i am going to try but iā€™d rather he was here instead. same with my granddad#every time i experience something beautiful or good i wish my granddad could experience it because he deserved it more than me#and the best i can do is experience it for him and be grateful. but i would chance places instantly if i could#him and his kid deserve to be here they were so special. i know i donā€™t know his kid but iā€™ve heard they were similar#so i know he must have been special too#i found a fb comment today from a family friend iā€™ve never met and she was saying that she only met my granddad once#but she called him gentle and it made me cry. because he was very scottish and sweary and traditional and masculine#so everyone just assumed he was tough and scary but if you knew him he was really quiet and kind#and iā€™m glad someone who only met him once could see that#iā€™m going to be half asleep for the rest of my life i think. iā€™ve been dreaming since my granddad died and i donā€™t feel like i ever woke up#nothing has felt real since i was nine years old. everything just stopped and never started again#iā€™ve just been waiting. iā€™m waiting for him to change his mind and come back. idk. i donā€™t know what to do with myself#and i continuously feel fucking insane and stupid for being this way. itā€™s like fresh grief all the fucking time#but it was fifteen years ago. why does it still feel this way#i canā€™t even tell people because they wonā€™t understand why iā€™m still so bothered by it#he was my parent for nine years. i lived with him he was my sole caretaker#i was nonverbal and him and my brother were the only people on the planet who knew what my voice sounded like#heā€™d think it was silly if i failed my exam because i was crying about him instead#heā€™d tell me to whisht and stick in. so i will
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skqramble Ā· 1 month ago
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Im developing trust issues from that AP math exam..
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strangerhands Ā· 10 months ago
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mmmmm heyyyšŸ‘ļø. ive basically been gone from tumblr for over two days because ive been feeling like a shitty piece of shit. BUT. i finally saw dune part 2 and ohmygoddddd it was so so good. but yes. i was missing leto so bad the entire time. Father come back pls. i need you.
#it was so good tho#like so cool i was internally freaking out about how cool things looked#the fight scenesšŸ¤Œ#the environments/settingsšŸ¤Œ#all of the fuckin machineryšŸ¤Œ#the actingšŸ¤Œ#the everythingšŸ¤Œ#yum#also i dont find austin butler attractive but funnily enough feyd was the only time ive found him hotšŸ˜­ yes i have issues. but like. okayyy..#i watched it alone and i wish doing things alone wasnt seen as such a weird or sad thing like. theres nothing wrong with it#sorta vent->#but basically ive been feeling like an annoying piece of shit so ive been staying off of here for the most part#because ive been convincing myself no one likes me and everyone in my life would be better off without mešŸ˜šŸ˜#just tee bee ehch#and idk i was just feeling like ass and was doing nothing and when i finally would go to use tumblr i was already too tired to do shit#so i just went to sleep#and i was busy today#yesterday*#and ill probably be a bit busy today too but idk maybe hopefully ill catch up a bit#idk ya boys just been hating himself like usual but not as usual bc it was worse but it is what it is#i felt a bit better yesterday though#and also my new antidepressants ive been on havent been doing shit for me so im going back to a previous one i used to be on so yea#hopefully that helps soonish idk#i never vent on here so i feel kinda bad for doing so but i just wanted to puke my thoughts here#also since im already here complaining ive just like. not written at allllllll basically like i got into my head and made myself discouraged#so. that sucks. but also nothing out of the ordinary there#why does Everything i say sound so embarrassingly depressing and pathetic hhhhhhhgggggggggggggghhhghghg#anyways yea i was doing bad im still not doing good but hopefully will be a bit better so ill be back and caught up later today or tomorrow#idk if anyone gave a fuck or noticed but i just like complaining into the void so yea#talkin shit
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mossterunderthebed Ā· 2 months ago
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Y'know what honestly frustrates me about the JJK fandom?
When people make stuff that's like JJK 0 Gojo and Getou talking or whatever, and it's like Getou being totally deadpan about all the horrible things he's doing/going to do/believes in *insert various types of wholesale murder here* and Gojo just laughs along, treating it like it's a joke and Getou's so cute and funny.
Like, no.
Gojo did NOT indulge Getou's philosophy. That was The Whole Point.
What do you think the whole encounter on the street in front of a random KFC was about? That's why there was such a deep divide between them. That's why Gojo was furious and disbelieving. That's why they didn't see or talk to each other for TEN YEARS even thought they were best friends.
Because Getou killed people, chose to kill people, and chose to keep killing people. Because he dehumanized an entire, MASSIVE group of people who were good, bad, kind, cruel, and everything in between, men, women, children, everyone, simply because of something they couldn't help and didn't even know about. Because he took advantage of those that Gojo had decided and felt duty-bound- even though he didn't like it much- to protect.
(And all that came BEFORE Geotu ever stepped into the picture. Yeah, Gojo whines about having to protect the weak and admittedly thinks it's a drag, but he still does it. He was raised with the ideal that he should do it.
That wasn't a Getou thing. Getou believing in that as a teenager did change the way Gojo saw it, but it wasn't New. He already was raised that way, believed that way, and intended to live that way, or why go to Jujutsu High at all? Even if he found it annoying, he was still always going to become a sorcerer, not only because it was kind of his only option- which is it's own kind of horrible- but because he was a sorcerer, down to his bones.
He had that madness in him, and maybe it was nurtured, but that doesn't change the fact that it was there. He wanted to be a sorcerer, loved fighting and killing curses, whether it had anything to do with helping others or not.)
I know it's just fanart and fandom, and look, I myself really like art of Gojo and Getou in their good days. They were kids and they were happy. While I don't ship them, they were best friends, and their own kind of soulmates, I've never not believed that, it's too forking obvious. Gege practically shoves it down our throats and literally designed them to balance each other and be Messed Up Forever when they split. Every official art we see of the two of them practically has them as each other's reflections. I know, okay? I can't not know.
I just get really frustrated when Gojo's disregarded like that. He is his own person with his own beliefs who's made his own choices. They both are. And maybe it's dumb to get up in arms about a story that's not even real, but Gojo's a really imperfect person who struggles and suffers, and at the end of the day? He tries his best.
Even with all the power in the world, he's still only human. He can still only do so much. He's expected to be more than he is a lot of the time, and still he really tries. He wants to make the world better. He wants to make life better for the next generation. He has, in a way, given up on himself, but he's still going, because he knows his place in the world is still one that needs filling.
That's a narrative that means a lot to me. It's disheartening when it's misinterpreted because of the fun, silly, giggly side of his personality, or the reckless, careless, cocky side, both of which are wonderfully, excruciatingly human.
That's all.
#sorry for the rant#didnt mean to go up on my soapbox#i just saw an art and it really pushed the wrong button today#ive been very frustrated because a story im trying really hard to write because i really want to tell it is not going well at all#every word is like pulling teeth#so im sorry if this isnt a very encouraging post#i guess i just wanted to write one thing i knew i Could write#and like i said#that art really set me off#it was a lovely piece and im sure the creator worked very hard on it#im not trying to diss them#i just get frustrated because i think fandom as a whole kind of forgets a lot of what getou did and was planning to do and wanted to do#gojo cares so much about him so i think that makes the viewer also want to care about him and see the best in him#but gojo was also very well aware of getous flaws and sins#he let him go for ten years because he couldnt bear to chase him down himself#but when getou came he absolutely did not let him go after his students the people of tokyo and other sorcerers#we never see who or how many people did die during those ten years but we know his takeover of the star religious group was a hostile one#and we know his initial killings in the village#which included 112 people who didnt necessarily know about or approve of how nanako and himiko were being treated#'small town' this and 'everybody knows everything' that yes i know but do you know every little thing that goes on in your neighbors houses#no. and its safe to say there were most likely Other Children in that village#what made their lives worth less than nanako and himiko's?#how they were treated was Not Okay#but what getou did wasnt okay either#nor was what he continued to do okay#just. you know. the series literally talks about how getou had a choice. he could've come up with another way. a lot of other ways.#ways to improve and change jujutsu society. he was familiar with feeling marginalized and he saw what happened in that village so#why not search for unfound sorcerers who might be in similar situations even as teens or adults?#his cursed technique was perfect for it. curses that could do recon and find sorcerers and alert getou#so i just wish people would remember that sometimes. and not drag gojo into it. what do you think he was grieving for all that time?
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carbonateddelusion Ā· 2 months ago
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sits here. my mood has been swinging back and forth like a pendulum lately
#i still can't bring myself to make anything art-wise. and it is ripping me to shreds internally#i have no motovation whatsoever and i'm feeling disgusted by my creations. like that's the best you could do huh mixer?#i dunno. trying to keep calm. i'm going to my uncle's tomorrow to puppysit for 3 days#i'm happy that i'll see puppy but being out of my house will be stressful.#plus i've still got work to go to...#and i need to do the laundry and take out the trash and stop buying uber eats and forward my snap benefits email and.#and later today after high school lets out i'm going to talk with an old teacher i had#i need to change my bedding too..#i at least took a shower yesterday#i think my ptsd has been acting up in the background or something#my other uncle tries to tell me to let go of the past. but i don't want to. my past has forever impacted the way i'll be for the rest of-#-my life yk? and my 'past' wasn't even that long ago. it was 2/3 years ago. and my brother's still with that awful man#i can't pull him away from him.#i just wanna sleep. might take a sleep med early just to take a nap#i've been hating everything i make so like. why even try yk.#i drew one thing while i was hospitalized- a tiny sane jack head#i dunno. i dunno. i feel so empty. my depression's been super bad. i don't enjoy things that once made me happy#i feel so aimless. i'm thinking about going to college but i have to see what scholarships would be available because i can't work this job#WHILE in school. it'd wear me to the bone#i don't want to quit my job though. i like my job. i like my boss and my coworkers..#i dunno. idfk what's wrong with me anymore. i just want the pain to stop man.#i dunno what i want to do with myself but i feel like a. fuck it ik it's from firework but i feel like a plastic bag in the wind#i'm so tired. i miss my mom. i miss my sister. i miss my brother.#vent#delete later
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tiredflowercrown Ā· 5 months ago
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ashersbraincell Ā· 3 months ago
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Me, making my not so merry way to the bathroom for the nth time because I convinced myself my hands may smell just a little but funny and hence I need to wash them for the nth time
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