#why does nothing work

[beeanddoddi]

not so fun news.....

i can't easily get the van registered... it's such a long and complicated process....

idk i just feel like i did so much waiting just to do more waiting and i've been so patient and so hopeful only to have to wait more and more and more and get my hopes up yet again.

another goal leaving date passed today and i still can't legally drive the van.

i can't leave in june i need to leave now....

[siennaditbot]

Today's mood:

Had one (1) picture taken of me for a school thing

I now wish to rip my entire face off and I want to never eat again

Aka

I probably have to go see a dermatologist or smth for my constant acne my parents like to remind me of

And I should probably quit sugar altogether cuz PCOS not happi and start to regularly exercise or smth but TIRED

I have made changes and I've been intermittent fasting for a while but UGH I HATE MYSELF AND I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO SEE ME

Also new life situation and I'm lost and stressed out and this. is. not. helping.

Anyway continue with your day, no need to interact with this, I just wanted to vent and my mom is both asleep and immediately going to tell me to do things which I do not want to hear right now

[cirrem]

my research code has decided to hate me. I am very sad.

heres a list of things that aren't supposed to be happening, but are happening: 1) atoms flying off 2) regions of brown+pink inside the purple 3) regions of brown and blue without their respective pink and salmon 4) 3 is likely caused by LAMMPS deciding to make 3 rows of brown+blue and 2 rows of pink+salmon 5) When I did it with a shorter simulation (as in the blocks of green+purple were shorter, and the brown+pink+blue+salmon were the same sizes everything worked fine 6) running my python analysis on the shorter one looks like this

which is very interesting! the highest strain seems to be not in the middle as I was expecting, but very much on one side, (aka, although mixing most occurs at 0.5, the atoms on the right move a lot less then the atoms on the left do) this indicates that one of the materials has a lot weaker intermetallic bonds then the other, and the stronger metal's resistance to movement can really shut down the amount of internal vibrations experienced by the other. However, I'm not super satisfied with the range - I want something to go further left and right because that would be interesting and I want to see the leftwards curve.

and on the bigger, more comprehensive graph, that should do just that, looks like this:

which looks like a face. I can't tell if its in pain or if its incredibly smug. either way, it makes me sad.

even worse: these graphs took forever to make. the larger simulation had over 100,000 atoms, and python is not necessarily a quick language.

if you want context: I'm investigating how stress/strain propagate between layers of a thin film between copper and aluminum, and how that changes if based on the amount of diffusion between them. except to keep things simple, instead of a thin film, im doing blocks with a thin-film-esque diffusion boundary. I think in a thin film the strains would overlap and superposition would happen, unless you wanted the thin film to be 1-2 atoms thick, which would be a very different type of analysis then what I'm doing. I guess I'm analyzing thick thin films.

[puppppppppy]

who is your favorite AA character? 👁️👁️

ziska… I hope capcom brings her back someday

[honeyilovejoo]

tumblr showing me all the rat posts in my recommended despite 2 hours spent blocking every species of rodent known to man is my villain origin story

[snippetclipper]

my tumblr "for you" page is just... not working? It keeps showing me the same 5 posts over and over in different orders over the last week. I've seen the fucking post about the cat named Brother Dubious 700 times.

[friendlyneighborhoodghostpal]

i’m just gonna say it i love how kaos handled orpheus and eurydice. i really did, im a huge greek mythology nerd and that story has always been about the refusal to give someone up even when you should, its not a love story its a story about grief. and i just- ah they did something really cool there didn’t they? i’m gonna rewatch the season and like properly form my opinions but i really like it.

[kaddyssammlung]

Vessel just looking good Budapest - November 2024

[s0fter-sin]

still thinking about gaz doing ghost’s skincare

even when they’re on base and the worst of the all-encompassing exhaustion is held at bay, he knows ghost doesn’t have the energy to spare to do any kind of in depth routine; knows as much as it makes him feel good to feel soft and clean and cared for, he won’t be able to keep up with it by himself

gaz just didn't expect how good it would feel to do it for him

how accomplished he'd feel when he figured out the right combination of products to soothe ghost's sensitive neglected skin without him breaking out or getting even more dehydrated, the best moisturiser for his scars, researching no-wash products so he doesn't have to get up once they've started; all ghost has to do is lay back and let gaz work

it's an honour, not only to be trusted enough with ghost's - with simon's - face but also to watch him lose every ounce of tension in his body

they usually - and how amazing that they have a usual, that this has become a routine - end up with ghost's head in his lap, a soft pillow beneath his head so he can just rest. it's not uncommon for him to fall asleep entirely as gaz follows his steps

bottles of cleansers and serums and moisturisers all bought just for him, each one dutifully researched with ghost's skin type in mind, all stored in a black leather bag moulded into a skull bc gaz found it browsing one day and thought it was too perfect. ghost doesn't even know what they all do, just knows how blissful it is to feel the gentle pressure of gaz's fingers massaging his face; following the contours of scars that haven't pulled or flared since they started doing this

gaz never tells him about the rollers he could use instead, the applicators that are technically better for his skin bc it would mean he'd know that gaz uses his hands just for him; that he can feel how much he craves his touch and knows he enjoys it just as much, if not more than the actual results

gaz just tells him that a thorough massage after everything is applied is necessary for all the products to marry up and sink properly into his skin and spends the next half hour smiling down at his superior as he lets go of all his pain and trusts him to keep him afloat

[rbtlvr]

why does sissel know what a putting green is. did yomiel take him mini golfing. please this is fucking haunting me

[veththeebrave]

if your only response to this is "I don't like to imagine Veth cheating!" you can go ahead and scroll past this poll it's not for you. and if you think imagining fictional characters cheating on each other is evil and I'm evil you can do us both a favor and block me. peace and love on the planet earth talk to me about veth rarepairs

[un-pearable]

only ninja funding options i’ll accept

odd jobs and miscellaneous shenanigans that result in them ingratiating themselves with a handful of salesfolk around ninjago. e.g. the people of jamanakai having a fondness for lloyd after experiencing both Shitty Little Kid attacking them in s1 and The Green Ninja™ saving them in s4

actual real life jobs between seasons (s2 and 4 ily)

pixal’s investments

residuals from licensing (the ninja video game from s1 and s4 <3. and the movies and the actual merch made by dareth from s6 lmao)

residuals from jay’s TV-Show-Which-Will-Not-Be-Named (now on streaming. it’s real-kid-now-unagami’s favorite show)

ideally all at once. but also? they do not need traditional funding. this is an urban fantasy. they are not paying rent (when living on the bounty/monastery). they can and do grow a significant amount of their own food when they do have a place to live. they have multiple times explicitly started businesses?? after they already were publicly known for saving people? when would the government have started funding them if not then. the ideal ninja state is not worrying about money unless it’s funny, and then they’re spider-man.

[thursdaysyme]

unfortunately i got my dads gene of “this is ten dollars but if you give me any reason it’ll be zero dollars just for u” and then you never make a single dollar ever

[elftwink]

to preface this post i am anti-advertising i think we should explode the entire industry but it's sooo funny when you people make posts like "and they don't even work!!" like. sorry to be the bearer of bad news but yes they do. that's why we have to put up with so many despite everyone hating them and thinking its annoying. because they actually work really well and make a shit load of money

[cankersoregirl]

It was another version of him that kinda shocked me. It was cute, though. He’s normally quiet, but, on that day, he was like… He was saying something about the stars being cute. I was like, “What? Is this really happening?” I was a bit surprised. I was rambling and babbling. I didn’t know what made me say that. It was probably my true feeling.

DMD Friendship The Reality EP. 4

[lizzybeeee]

Missed opportunity to have the 'magical god-killing macguffin' weapon be Andruil's spear. Rather than have an idol somehow become a dagger (not to mention cleansed of the blight and somehow expect us to just accept this - no questions) it could be this?

Veilfire writing from a ruin in the Arbor Wilds; the script is so ancient it defies translation. There are whispers from the Well of Sorrows. It's impossible to understand the entire text, but certain parts suddenly reveal a shadow of their original meaning. "She shook the radiance of the stars, divided them into grains of light, then stored them in a shaft of gold. Andruil, blood and force, save us from the time this weapon is thrown. Your people pray to You. Spare us the moment we become Your sacrifice." There is a brief image of an elaborate golden spear, glowing with unbearable heat. Then it fades. Codex entry: Unreadable Elven Writing, DAI

She began stalking the Forgotten Ones in the Abyss and became mad from it.

Andruil put on armor made of the Void, and all forgot her true face. She made weapons of darkness, and plague ate her lands. She howled things meant to be forgotten, and the other gods became fearful Andruil would hunt them in turn. Codex entry: Elven God Andruil, DAI

She made weapons and hunted Gods? The Evanuris, according to this myth, were frightened enough that Mythal had to come battle her?

Also imagine Ghilan'nain being killed by Andruil's spear...raised to Godhood by Andruil's hand and then slain by the weapon forged by her hand???