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Bitchboy isn't a compliment?
It is probably just thought it'd be funny to accuse someone else of not liking tim for once instead of the question always being if I don't like tim
#ask#anon#let other people have some fun for once#also some very interestind replies ive seen#also off topic but its stressing me out rn so gonna talk about it#got put on the wrong tax code this month#and they took away half my paycheck#so now bc of the bank hoilday weekend and strike action today im gonna have to wait til Tuesday to try and sort it out#why does everyone want me to be poor#just trying to live my life#damn
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finally started p5 royal ‼️‼️‼️‼️
expect some royal trio art soon they are my dearly beloveds (minus akechi i hope he dies in this reality too)
#love that ren got the sad boy kdrama fit#also no idea how akechi survived i want to shake it out of him so bad why are you gatekeeping stupid bitch#idk if this is just him w/o the pleasant boy facade but he seems so much more exhausted and cruel#like everything he says is verbal irony bc he’s patronizing everyone. he hates being a team player sm it’s insane 💀💀💀#he’s so withdrawn and short tempered and actually mentally unstable. like sadistically so#i think these are all warning signs#if he dies again i’m ending it all. you didn’t come back from the dead just to die on me again#also sumire….i love her so bad…..my sweet girl….my baby ☹️☹️☹️☹️#sumire yoshizawa they could NEVER make me hate you#she reminds me of a fawn 😭😭😭😭 with her big soft doe eyes and how she’s so curious and eager#GAAAAAHHH every time she comes up on screen i want to give her a headpat SO BAD…..SHES SUCH A FUCKING CUTIE#i feel so bad for ren bro he’s literally stuck babysitting the new kid and simultaneously keeping akechi on a leash 😭#poor boy needs a break. we should go to hawaii again that was fun#anyway yeah that's all#hopefully i’ll finish the game this week i’m sick of this. i want to move on
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horror is so BLESSED he's the only one out of the murder time trio that has actual good people trying to influence his story 💔💔 dust and killer were both driven to INSANITY because of the choices of their respective humans but horror??? every time without FAIL the polls for horrortale's plotline have always ended in a good place for aliza (either by bettering her relationships/reputation or for her to just. not DIE)
horrortale's potential alternate timelines my beLOVEd🙏🙏 they're SO lucky that we're being kind and benevolent hehe (≧ω≦) now where are the aus based off the possible different outcomes that could've happened in horrortale HUH???? (like how aliza couldve killed toriel or chosen horror's puzzle or gone with undyne to the core........)
#something something all three of them have their fates determined by an outside force#ermmmm but horror doesn't- yeah he does. what aliza does decides EVERYTHING for horror and horrortale#just because its not direct like dust or killer doesn't mean theyre all subject to the same community x3#PARALLELS MTT PARALLELS FOR THE 500TH TIME THEY HAVE SOOOO MANY PARALLELS OHHH MY GOOOOOODDDDDD#mtt going to visit horrortale would just be dust eying aliza (out of paranoia. he knows shes a good kid)#and then killer knowing in his head that the poor kid aliza that horror weirdly seems to like doesn't have control over her actions#she doesn't know horror doesn't know nobody knows except killer. is that a bit sad?#theyre all living in the dark unaware of the reality of their world. i mean thats how its meant to be after all thats what the players want#but....... it would be tempting to tell horror...... hehehehehe- and then he's interrupted by horror and dust#(theyre trying to get killer to eat papyrus's spaghetti in their place. he's the only one that can stomach it even though there's no human)#mtt i love thee SOOOOO much. theyre back in horrortale for the holidays ✨✨ coming back to visit the family ✨✨ WHAT horror's visiting.......#not dust or killer of course. this isnt their world noooope thats not papyrus. but that doesn't stop dust from having everyone like him#its just like the good old days :333 except now there's three sanses and triple the insanity :333 almost like nothing's changed!!!!!#oh killer??? yeah he's there. probably won't try taking up the sansish type of role horror and dust do but he'll find a way to get used 2 i#after all the point of this is whatever he wants it to be now ;33333 were these tags all just a reference to my mtt fic. yes. yes they were#LMAOOOO i forgot that aliza didn't fall into horrortale yet in my fic. still a fun thing to imagine tho!!!#i think it would be fun having aliza be the first of humans for horrortale to deal with that they won't instantly kill#itll be hard but really rewarding for all of them........ especially horror i believe!!! man he didnt even go through therapy but#just being away from horrortale and out doing new and FUN and NOT MURDEROUS things has done wonders for him :3#i need to get to writing smh..... winter break is the day after tomorrow (TECHNICALLY AT 2:32 PM SINCE THSYS WHEN SCHOOL ENDS SO HAHAHA)#so ill probably work on it more over break since i'll have nothing to do hehe.......#today was an amazing day for me ✨ TWO mtt angst death related hcs..... some work on my latest chapter i've yet to post..... SWAPINVERSE FAN#ARE YOU KIDDING ME MORR SWAPINVERSE ART THIS IS SOOOO AMAZING THABK YOU UNTITLED29876011111 I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY YOU DO THIS!!!!!#tricule rant#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au
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(anthytouga voice) why would i be compassionate to nanami ew disgusting nanami’s literally the worst nanami is a cockroach i hope she dies she’s so fucking stupid oh my god being compassionate to nanami is the worsttttttt so what if the worst things ever happen to her and it’s my fault that’s just lifeohhhhhhhhhhh oh? utena is experiencing the worst things ever and i helped? and i helped? oh well i should just kill myself. oh well i should just kill myself and save her because actually utena is Good. and stupid. but Good. unlike nanami lol nanami was born cursed to suffer haha nanami’s got that karmic punishment coming lollllll But Utena Does Not <3
#i find this ‘discrepancy’ (for want of a better word) FASCINATING#bc it’s not like anthy and touga don’t both identify with utena at times#in a manner VERY similar to their identification with nanami (‘you don’t know what i know but you feel and experience the same things’)#but with nanami. die kill maim vibes. and with utena. look at that poor kicked (noble) puppy vibes#something about utena being brought into something so obviously#when nanami has always been here. crab bucket moment idk#nanami in 32 vs utena in 39…. i think the thoughts#like why would nanami extend a hand to anthy. she wouldn’t#what’s crazy to me is she TRIES to do that w touga bc of course she does#but she realises he’s not gonna do that. and her wanting him to doesn’t outweigh her wanting to live anymore#utena reaches out to anthy bc she wants to#it’s like. nanami’s rejection of the system and in turn anthy and touga’s worldviews is that cold hard realisation one needs#perhaps more obviously touga but it impacts anthy all the same — next episode is 33!!!! hello!!!!!!!#but they still feel more or less powerless. just cogs in a machine it’s just that now they’re more aware of their own pain and others’#and touga gets left behind in this bc he’s ruined his meaningful connections with like Everyone Ever#but utena reaches out to anthy as i said before. and utena says ‘i care about you’ and it’s not for herself as much as it is for anthy#ohhhhhh i am just. i am Just#dais.txt
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some people will just take a character and.. make them act completely. different from their canon self. and it bothers me a lot more than it should. and i know people probably don't need to hear they're wrong (:D) and i don't want to be a killjoy and it doesn't really hurt hurt me but for some reason it's making me extremely uncomfortable to the point i kinda want to cry and scream sometimes?? yk?..
#was it about de? yes. yes this is about de.#kim. especially kim. poor guy. they take so many qualities of your character away from you regularly. makes me want to explode#everyone in the game is so well-written and some people will just... ignore characters' core aspects???#why WHY why does it bother me so much
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hate when i see a youtube video that's like 'analyzing why [thing] is bad!' and you watch the video and they just say nothing for twenty minutes
#random thoughts#watched a video on why a specific character was poor representation for survivors of assault#and it was such a nothing burger of a video#'this character is bad because children might see them and think their behavior is okay' okay?#i learned how to block out memories from finn adventure time but that doesn't mean memory suppression shouldn't be addressed in media#plus hazbin hotel. i'm talking about angel dust btw if that wasn't blaringly obvious. is an adult cartoon. for adults#adult cartoons shouldn't have to restrict their subject matter because kids could see it#and angel dust being a male queer SA victim using hypersexuality as a coping mechanism could be good!#and the fact he hits on other people despite it making them uncomfortable isn't exactly a problem a la his character?#it could be a control thing. i used to do something similar (pushing other people's boundaries and complaining when they pushed back)#because it made me feel some kind of control over my life#it could start off as a really shitty joke and then grow into 'oh god is that why he does that??'#but anyway their second main point was that the songs were bad? and that poison being an upbeat song makes it bad#like despite listing many other songs which are upbeat with heavy lyrics. but somehow poison is the exception because it's a cartoon?#like again that could be a character thing. angel dust using obfuscation as a coping mechanism to distract himself from his shitty life.#｡･ﾟﾟ･the lyrics are upbeat to distract you from how dead i feel inside･ﾟﾟ･｡#and their reading of the second song seemed really mean-spirited?#like as 'everyone has problems so you're not special because you're a whiny baby' rather than 'you're not as alone as you think you are'#and like if op wanted to just complain about a show they watched then yeah go off i do that all the time#but don't parade it as character analysis???#and they say 'oh reading it as a feelgood you're not alone message doesn't work because these characters' struggles are not equal'#but like. sometimes rape needs to feel like it's not some special trauma. it's not unique and you're not uniquely fucked up for it#two characters' traumas don't need to be directly comparable for them to bond!!!#and im not like. defending hazbin hotel btw. never seen it not going to see it no thanks#i'm just complaining about a mediocre youtube video that i'm going to forget about in a week#god i hate that brand of youtube video. where they just complain about things without going into depth about why they're bad#especially if their complaints are shallow and don't have to do with like. the actual structure of a character or story#like it's so easy to say 'this character is bad because theyre a predatory stereotype' but like. go into some depth at least#i think i hate these videos so much because they're fueled purely by hate. no love for the source material or even a desire to learn#or a love for storytelling even
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Every fucking time I think my stupid ass hyper fixation for SPECIFICALLY getter robo Armageddon is gone it reignited at 2 fucking am when I’m supposed to be asleep and I dm my moot who has a different timezone then me about it cause he started watching and I’m telling him all the stupid shit I know and ohhhhh my god it never fucking ENDS
#meg text#this is not me even being mad at myself it’s just arma so fucking insane it really DID alt my brain chemistry#like are their shows more fucking weird and incomprehensible? Absolutely. But does it change arma being an experience? NOPE#we are legit in a era where everyone is sick of this show and i understand and yes new deserves more#HOWEVER yeah no the more i remember this show i get why its more fucking appealing to people#I said it shouldn’t be the only getter thing people consume but also not everyone going to want to get deep into it anyways#and if your gonna go with one might as well go with the one that doesn’t make any fucking sense#yet still is weirdly compelling for the fact it’s held together by fucking sticks and glue#oh and a lot of hot blooded passion#I’d say this is me coping that arma writing is poor but it’s honestly not the worst even if it’s not ideal#they did a lot of genius stuff just- yknow- swapping directors moment#but also something being a bit of a mess adds to the experience#I now wanna rewatch this too when I said I’d rewatch sins and I have two things im rewatching rn fuuuuck
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I’m always attracting people I have no compatibility with, nothing in common, it’s so draining
#ik it’s because I’m too fake but it’s like!!! if I’m not fake I get treated like scum so sometimes I just want people to be niceys to me#or like at work where my leftist ideals of giving workers free food and drink is taken as flirting#I just. ugh. where are the cool people at. where. why is everyone a fuckboy or a demure cutesy whatever the fuck#HELLO???? IS ANYONE OUT THERE???????#I wish my work uniform exposed my tattoos I think that would help just a bit#it really does feel like being my exact combination of social detriments (mentally ill. politically homeless. detrans. poor.) makes me#completely isolated from every other human being#ik it’s not true and my people are out there. but it really does be feeling that way#I need to get back into the city#swear on my life people out here are being piloted by bugs or maybe water contaminants#(living in the worlds stupidest suburbs)
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burke for character bingo please <3
Burke Devlin
Character Opinions Bingo
#polkaknox talks#he gets a gold star for being A Bastard. i don't really want to kiss him but muah.#honestly? was not particularly sold on Burke as a character until really late in his run as the antagonist. and then they pulled his teeth.#if he was real i'd have to kick him off a cliff. he didn't get bullied anywhere near enough. absolute nightmare of a man [honorific].#jackass theater kid with too much money and massive control issues. pathologically insincere. <3#PEOPLE LIKE YOU ROT WHEREVER THEY ARE.#DIVERSITY LOSS.#the gatsby-ahab-edmond dantes-heathcliff hybrid that every supernatural soap opera deserves. <3#why be normal about your ex sending you to prison and stealing your fiance when you could [checks notes] metaphorically sell your soul;#amass a fortune the likes of which has never been seen in collinsport; lie to everyone about your intentions; flirt with your exboyfriend#[when you're not threatening his life. especially when you're threatening his life.]#& everyone else including your ex's older sister his barely-legal niece your ex fiance and the family governess;#threaten to ruin this one-horse town's economy and then end up shocked-pikachu when no one's happy about it;#befriend your [unknown to you] son and cover for him when he tries to commit patricide;#realize that your oldest friend in town was the one who sold you out for $15000 and just. have to live with that. forever.#i think about him & joe & bill being all three cut from the same cloth - poor kids from the wrong side of the tracks in weird relationships#with the Collinses that are the making and the breaking of them at least once a day.#if you ever need me to bite through steel. remind me that he's the second main character we see - reflected in the dark train window;#right behind vicki. does the writing always live up to that intention? no. but he's such a good shadow archetype for her.#ANYWAY.#i don't get bullied enough for being the fandom burke partisan. probably.#ask meme#ETA: i don't feel right saying that everyone else is wrong about him because no one else has strong opinions about him. i get that.
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So full of love to give (Patreon)
Bonus:
Sauna-ley, he’s gotta plastic-wrap his arm
#Doodles#The Stanley Parable#TSP#Employee 416#Thinking about v2 more! I'm not even going to pretend I'm not biased towards him lol#I really like v1 I think she's very fun ♪ She suits how I'd most like an Employee to be but v2 is just so interesting to my brain gosh darn!#So more of him for the moment! Haha#I was already thinking about Love Languages recently so why not bring it in with me lol - he's the type to express with gift-giving#Stanley doesn't really get it lol#Like he's not unappreciative he's just confused! Partially because of how Narra treats him lol the bucket was the first Object in how long?#Not counting the Demo with the mug haha#He's just trying to tell you he likes you Sinister! He wants to give you nice sensory experiences without being too intrusive!#That said he does want to hold hands so maybe not Just solo-play sensory experiences lol - keep dreaming 416!#Specifically wants to hold his free hand so he doesn't hurt him ♪ He probably hasn't seen Sinister's gimmick but he can see the ouchies#He turned out so cute in that intro panel ah <3#Has everyone seen the original love triangle comic? I don't know the original artist unfortunately but ahh it's so good haha#Narra must've stuck Sin's hand into something again and he's telling him off haha#Poor lads hehe ♪#Bonus of a post-bath Stanley! Been thinking about body hair headcanons again because who can stop me at this point lol#Have I ever mentioned I HC Stanley as having some Grecian heritage? Fuzzy lad <3#Making sure to cover up his arm so as to not irritate it :) Would probably feel really nice in cool water ahh
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Its kind of insane like genuinely insane how many people on here have no idea what life is like for average people in the third world / global majority and the Neo-colonialism that creates those conditions to support conditions in the North and how insanely cruel they can be as the absolute baseline and the type of killing and death that maintains the boundaries between the north and the south.
Like tell me you've never met an immigrant or refugee without telling me. Do you genuinely not know what happens to people who get deported, or work in the farms or meatpacking factories that feed the North?? The child deaths in the border crossings? The mines all over the globe? The people that die from lack of baseline vaccinations and sanitation and healthcare trademarked by western companies? The literal MILLIONS of third worlders killed in the wars across the globe defending US economic hegemony? The agent orange, the land mines, the carpet bombing, the drones? What the fuck is wrong with you?
#mine#sorry bitchy posting#idk why I even read discourse on here anymore its mostly just beefing or more motivated by a specific shitty user or whatever.#idk but like we can accept that you can be poor and disabled and still have other privileges why is it not ok to point out the#overwhelmingly oppressive conditions the North holds the South in and the passport and supply chain and linguistic and exchange rate and#labor protections other such things that all citizens of the global North have closer access to than those of the South. What if it didn't#matter who was in charge of your country and no matter what liberatory things they wanted to do the IMF could still have you gutted and#economically force your country to cut your social programs and use national debt to put your entire population to work serving the#producing goods and raw materials that everyone in the global north consumes whether they have a choice or not.#It not like similar conditions don't exist in the north but its crazy to see people posting that imperial core privilege doesn't exist.#It fucking does.#and it grinds up the bodies of the south in million upon millions and it's fucking insane to act like its an imposition on you to even try#to care or understand. Borders are material and they fucking kill people. They fucking kill people#I literally know someone who almost died because of his non-residential status. His life was only saved because he happened to get diagnose#in a country that had a medical system that could treat him. He had to stay sick and dying and away from his family for 4 fucking years#because if he went home he would never be allowed back again. He was only able to stay because he had support from a vouching citizen frien#who could speak the language well. Then after he was cleared he was sent home and because he has a 'preexisting risk factor' he will never#be granted a work visa in the country again. If /when the illness relapses he is going to die without treatment.#It makes me fucking livid that people can discard the violence of borders so quickly. Borders fucking kill. And they kill in the millions.#The north runs of southern blood. That doesnt mean that northerners arent killed too. But its fucking crazy to act like no such axis exists#any american president would kill the same number of southerners without the destruction of the north-south extractive supply chain.#Im sorry about the spam lol. But this just pisses me off. HOW ARE YOU SO BLIND. How can you say these things and think youre a good person.#How can you say these things. How.
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hmm. isabeau teaching brynjolf ballroom dances
#thats all. thank u#x: isabeau/brynjolf#no thats not all actually. yknow i was just briefly thinking abt these two#doesnt happen often bc they r difficult to think abt bc just like most skyrem npcs. bryn has like zero characterization to work with#like what was his life before the thieves guild what made him join the guild what r his motivations what r his relationships like#all i know is that he's definitely not former nobility like isabeau (or is he. who knows. not me bc bethany esda tells us nothing)#but like lets assume that brynjolf comes from a poor background. knows nothing about ballroom dances.#isabeau prefers to distance herself from her noble background. except when playing the nobility card benefits her lol#but one of the few things from her youth she remembers fondly is attending balls and celebrations and dancing until she was out of breath#and one day when they're at that stage where there is mutual attraction but neither is taking it further bc beau is emotionally stunted#and brynjolf is ????? idk maybe hes oblivious or maybe he thinks he wants to keep it professional idkkkkkk#anyway imagine if u will. one day. beau and bryn sitting together at an empty ragged flagon. everyone else is asleep or just. elsewhere#beau is a lil tipsy and accidentally oversharing abt her past and Reminiscing#she catches herself being Serious and is like haha anyway. wanna learn some traditional breton ballroom dances#for fun. not bc shes into bryn and emotional bc of the tipsiness and wants to be close to him hngnnhgnnhg#its the first time bryn sees beau Genuinely smile and laugh !!!#shes always wearing a fake polite smile but on that day its Real and it reaches her eyes#and shes clinging to bryn laughing bc shes having fun and brynjolf cant dance and she finds it cute. ok.#hm. to me they're kinda like those two cats from that movie... wjat was it. aristocats right. except beau doesnt have kids#or the one with the dogs... lady and the tramp....#any skyrem mutuals wanna throw some brynjolf headcanons at me btw. i need.. something to work with... please give this man some personality#like. he's loyal to the guild? (why?) skilled thief? not particularly religious? not interested in leading? (why?) thats all i got#cares abt the dragonborn enough to go look for them but does he care abt them as a person or as an asset to the guild. or both. idk idk
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please PLEASE beware massive spoilers for gi in the tag but im just so upset so i need to rant
#i KNEW like in the back of my mind i knew a female character who has done wrong against children can never remain in the narrative#like dont get me wrong i think characters should die and some of them deserve it but unfortunately in this game#if a character dies it meas they wont be playable and will not be relevant anymore#and like doing this to arle........ it sucks but honestly why did we expect anything else#(i didnt want this leak btw it was on twitter without a spoiler warning 💀)#like once again she does deserve to die. as does dott0re. as does scara and i still wish he did at the end of the aq line#but that doesnt have to mean non playability and complete erasure from the narrative#and like. sign0ra and arle die. meanwhile tartag gets the whole family man hes not actually so bad everyone can trust him stuff#and scara not only gets his character retconned but literally gets the entire FABRIC OF THE UNIVERSE AND HISTORY rewritten#so that he doesnt have to deal with the consequences of his actions#and some might say well the leak also says d0ttore will die so its not misogyny is it#but not only has he commited atrocities towards children he has also wronged hoyos favorite poor little helpless baby scara#yeah idk. im just unbelievably upset#multiple leakers have backed up this thing but even still this might be fake and im getting upset over nothing but hdkfjdjd
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Why has Tumblr introduced all this merchandise?????
HUHH ...Don't you see I am broke...
who wants to help a sister in need? 😭😭😭
#tumblr#merchandice#new tumblr update#money#broke#asena rawlin#help#charity#gosh i want the journals and notebooks#aaaaah#aaaarghhhhhh#jsakfdhkljflas#i wanna cry#tumbblr feed#why does everyone make me feel soo poor ?
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so help me I will go into the screen myself
someone hug him
#oh he has PROBLEMS#yeah he's depressed and anxious and I have headcanons that.#he wakes up earlier than everyone else sometimes.#just so he can cry and get everything out while he's overwhelmed. and he's always super anxious and hates himself or somethin#like he is probably REALLY self-conscious and thinks he's not as good as he's made out to be.#And his introduction in the welcome song is barely even about him! He just was mostly talking about being FROM HIS GAME.#He didn't say much about himself because he doesn't see value in himself‚ right? RIGHT?#He doesn't think he has value as a person! It's his SOURCE MATERIAL! That's why he keeps referring back to that!#He keeps referencing how he's the most popular route in “ARD: CoP”‚ but he never really says anything about why‚ does he?#He doesn't mention the value he has or anything! (Save when he woke up and talks about needing his beauty sleep‚ but I don't count it much?#I might just be overanalyzing and stuff‚ but I seriously think he's got some issues.#Also like this might be projecting lol but he feels like he definitely has a LOT of things he's hard on himself about even besides that#not even kidding#when that came on#I immediately thought of the Markiplier clip that was like#“Oh‚ it's adorable!”#“...oh‚ it's traumatized.”#“OH‚ IT HAS ANXIETY.”#Like OH MY GOD#Giorgio you poor thing‚ let me hug you IMMEDIATELY#When that part started in the song then I was like possessed‚ it took less than two seconds for me to open up notes and start writing thing#like headcanons and writing ideas‚ you know? I really want to write about him having issues.#HE DESERVES THE WORLD#yeah this isssss probably projecting; a lot of it#ffffffffrick‚ i'm gonna cry#that's a problem for future me#/// deserves a uh.#eteled's tag rambles#yeah ill make it a tag now //#tag rambles
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had the worst ocd day yesterday bc brain kept telling me if i actually let myself have goals or wish for something good then everything i already have will fall apart or be taken away even though i logically understand that isnt possible lmfao! and then i woke up sick this morning cant have SHIT in detroit bro
#bf was rlly sweet abt it he just gets frustrated bc he wants to help and give advice but im Too Self Aware and just need him to sit w me#he wants to fix it and he cant and ik that makes him feel bad bc he doesnt like seeing me go Trauma Mode and its not actually directed at me#its just that im so self aware that i already know what i need to do n it just feels like a lecture or a warning not to disappoint instead#like oh i know what i need to do im just Literally Paralyzed in Fear and scared everyone will leave me behind while i figure shit out!#like i dont believe in jinxing or that kind of higher power but SOME part of me does and cant accept that bad shit just happens sometimes#like no no see if i let myself admit that i maybe do want a life and a future and to marry the loml then it will all go away! bc reasons!#<- guy who had their identity stolen when they were already at rock bottom and couldnt cope w it so they developed magical thinking ocd???#like. if it can all be taken away when im at my lowest for no reason idk how id function if it happened when i actually HAVE SMTH TO LOSE#its the fact that it was for no reason. i didnt do anything wrong and yet everything still went to shit. why tempt fate by shooting too high#and i mean fuck i spent the last 10 years mentally preparing to be a poor laborer and self sufficient bc no ones coming to save me and now.#suddenly my bfs family is also my family and they have. money. money that id never even allowed myself to DREAM of having or wanting#and suddenly im sitting in a fancy house in front of a christmas movie lookin ass tree feeling like im living someone elses life bc i didnt#i didnt plan for this. i didnt think id ever have this option at all#like dgmw i am VERY grateful but im. having a hard time w imposter syndrome#shut up carter
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