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cowsandcrows · 2 years ago

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dsmp theatee production braainrot

no but like. c!dream actually just wandering through the crowd, monologueing- better, SINGING THE LMANBERG ANTHEM AFTER DOOMSDAY

i am so happy for this

and just all the characters with different amount of armour

wilbur with none obviously but most of dreams costume would be his armour, aside from the mask, and techno would have a lot but it would be embellished and detailed and golden to fit his aesthetic

philza would have just enough to give him some protection but not too much because he doesnt care enough and hes not regularly on the offensive or fighting short-range

so hed have again, armour that fits his aesthetic but mainly like plates on his boots and arms, and maybe a vest that like just covers his chest a bit

OH MY GOSH WAIT. PHILZAS COSTUME DESIGN. WITH HIS WINGS. WOULD BE SO COOL. OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHH AA

I would kill people to create that costume

ANYWAY characters like tommy or jack would have a lot less armour, just basic stuff

and then when its an actual war like doomsday people will wear change their amount of armour, and it will be so noticeable how much they cover up in that situation

ranboo puts on a full set

techno keeps it easy to maneuvere

tommy doesnt have much, and what he does have would be visibly scuffed and not entirely durable

tubbo has an okay set only because hes the president

dream takes off some of his armour as a power move, unnoticed in the midst of it all

also i just want to. discuss ghostbur. because ohhh my gosh thats such a good focus.

id probably have part 2 focus a lot on techno, though i wouldnt want there to be a clear main character in any of it- like wilburs story would be the focus in part 1, but he dies and that would throw off the audiences understandinf of who the protagonists are supposed to be! MORALLY GREY CHARACTERS HOORAY! CONFUSE THE AUDIENCE AND ANYONE WHO EXPEXTS STORIES TO HAVE A CLEAR GOOD VS BAD DYNAMIC!!!!!

focusing on techno in the second part of the play would be amazing because his interactions with the audience are so unique to other ccs

he talks constantly during lore, breaking 4th wall liberally, hes way less performative in the way he does it too, whereas wilbur and dream would do it with the idea of performance

and like that other person said, techno could actually spend his retirement arc IN THE AUDIENCE AREA

all od this is makinf me think the stage should have a thrust section that is level eith the audience, and maybe even multiple clearings throughout where characters can move to when needed, like with dreams wandering, and where characters that gradually move on-stage will start out? not like for the audience to see, but if youre near them you do see it. different perspectives and stuff

and Tommy might actuallt pick on members of the audience for comic relief, joking around and shit, which would contrast so heavily to exile where he would just sit on the edge of rhe stage and talk to them quietly

and ranboo could be constantly ramblinf to the audience withour a clewr understanding of what they are, and then one person in the audience could actually reply to him, and he could kind of jist stop and go 'wait what, thats not supposed to happen' almost like they did in wandavision if anyone knows what im on about. like that whole interview section? that

AUGHHHH MY BRAIN IS DECAYING schlatt should die in one of those sections in the middle of the audience. im just sayinf. he should.

becayse there are so many different povs to the dsmp i think it would be cool if the stage was set so that different sides of the audience would have a completely different idea of the story

like characters that can be seen wandering around in the background might only be see by the left audience, or the right side might get a different impression of the lighting

or the spotlights could be angled on some characters so that one side of them is obscured by shadow and another side is brightly lit (could work so well with Wilbur or schlatt to communicate how different people hate or idolise them)

please send help

#unavailable rambles #dsmp #mcyt #lmanberg #cranboo #cwilbur #ctommy #ctubbo #cdream #ctechno #why did i mention so many people #cphilza #ack

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corsairspade · 6 months ago

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Celegorm but everything about him is 10x funnier because he's a chronic ainur fucker and just doesn't tell anyone about it. He looks inwards and decides marriage is between elves so deciding to roll around with maiar of the hunt is absolutely valid and not marriage. Who's ever heard of an elf marrying a Maia?

Elven polyamory may be illegal but it doesn't count if he's just ferrying kisses between Oromë and Vána- they're not elves. No, it's not hypocritical, what are you talking about. Just don't tell his father. What? No, not because of the whole polyamory thing, Feanor's just got a thing about Valar. Yes Celegorm is sure that's the only reason he doesn't want to tell his dad.

#tolkien #silmarillion #silm #celegorm #tyelkormo #orome #vana #yes this means tyelko is taking the dog in the divorce #the moon appears and he's like immediately “ayo that's Tilion”#curufin voice: how are you recognising a maiar who is currently the fucking moon #tyelko voice: funny that you'd mention fucking the moon #do you see my vision #no one makes him weird enough. this man speaks dog and bird and fistfights people over dragonfly linguistics #of course he's mental gymnasticing his way to convincing himself that he's definitely not disappointing his father #(a common feanorian pastime)#just imagining the Doriath beef here btw #“why's thingol so special huh” “I mean he did marry a Maia” “he's not special do you know how many times I had to get an impromptu divorce”#“what” “yeah cause I'd accidentally marry a Maia. or like Oromë once or twice”#“OROME??” “ok maybe three times”

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the-last-butter · 3 months ago

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HC they first met a year or two after Yelan got her vision; post fighting the in abyss but when Kaeya was still navigating his identity from Kaeya, Brother and Right hand of Diluc Ragnvindr to Kaeya Alberich, Cavalry Captain and Quarter master of the Knights of Favonius.

#We know Kaeya's a bit of a sadist and does leave his men in the dark most of the time #Back when he he'd been newly appointed i feel he'd be quite reckless as to how much 'pushing' his knights could handle on missions #used to working from diluc's shadow rather than being the one to direct commands #And Yelan after her experience in the Abyss chooses to work alone and secrectively so that the lives of her comrades won't be in danger #She sees that Kaeya operates very much like her but he does not have the luxury to work as 'freely' as she does when it comes to official #missions for there are still people working under him #(ofc both of them do whatever they want when it comes to going of abyss side quests)#There's no way she doesn't feel some sort of kinship they're really similar in many aspects #she does not want to see a repeat of her certain mistakes #Yelan is also questioning how the actual fuck do the knights operate because why is a 16yr old beefing with her to get to a mafia boss firs #They come to 'good terms' as time passes where they have mutual respect for each other #both of them try their best to outwit each other form time to time of course #Kaeya being petty(er) and Yelan being 'i need to set this guy straight'#But back then after seeing Kaeya work missions for the first time Yelan's thinking that this kid is too smart for his good #additional hcs for Back In That Day #Yelan: -still hasn't gotten her signature bob. -often uses a crutch because Abyss did a number on her and her pre existing chronic illness #Kaeya- has a fuckass mullet #yeah.. my apolocheese for the ramble #genshin impact #genshin impact fanart #kaeya #kaeya alberich #yelan #yelan genshin impact #kms mention

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dykedvonte · 3 months ago

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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?

What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.

#this is my curly slander post ig #disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception #but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things #to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im #having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point #with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men #mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #shitpost #suggestive #ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig #but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its #crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see #body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments #like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save #the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to #the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself #to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya #and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing #their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of #his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve #Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain #between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over #just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up #to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise #verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct #and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to #tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho #i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would #disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone

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cawsket · 3 months ago

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The moral of the arcane season two act three is that if you're suicidal you should just go ahead and kill yourself

#Why did they give all three of their suicidal characters successful suicide attempts #If it just happens once that's one thing but all three of them #Suicide mention #the arcane spoilers #Before anyone says anything no I do not think they literally meant to say this bit it's kind of. An unfortunate turn of events #Arcane handled so many really heavy themes really well in s1 and then in s2 uh. Well the themes were there #Case in point is season one was like oh let's subtly yet plainly imply it by having jayce and viktor step off a ledge and jinx k #Let herself get blown up by one of her own grenades to blow up ekko to signify her lack of self preservation #And then in season two she goes off to kill herself and vi is like damn alright I'm gonna fuck my girlfriend in her jail cell now #And then jinx literally blows herself up like 10 times and then fall into a hole #The jayvik double suicide wasn't as bad but it still adds to the numbers and man it sucks that a disabled man who fought so hard to live #Just dies anyway #Oh Isha kills herself also but it's a noble sacrifice which makes it fine I guess #Heimerdinger also kind of does it. Listen I know tragedy writers love writing noble sacrifices but like can we calm down for a second #It's possible for people to die for normal reasons also

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ririsasy · 10 months ago

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Varadha touching his nose ring while looking at Deva, remembering the time when Deva himself that put it there for him with his own blood in his hand, remembering the fact that it was Deva who protected and kept his "little honor" intact.

#salaar #varadeva #prithviraj sukumaran #varadha rajamannar #devaratha raisaar #what deva didn't know was the fact that putting a nose ring on a mannar yourself in front of many people as their witness #was considered as wedding ritual #that's why Varadha was holding his breath because there's also blood in deva's hand to seal the oath #lol in Varadha's heart he considered himself a married man #but Deva didn't know that #no one told him #this is obviously made up custom I think in my head lmao #funny scenario in my head is that Varadha was staring so intensely at Deva wondering if he should stop him or not #contemplating in his head if he wanted to be married at such a young age #but in the other hand he didn't want to embarrass Deva in front of many people because he was determined to put the nose ring himself #every mannar knows that Deva was Varadha's husband as well #the only one who's left in the dark was Deva perhaps if he told his mother about the detail his mother might tell him #he clearly told the event after his mother asked him how did he got the electric scars #but of course between Deva and Varadha both never mentioned the part where Deva put the ring on #that's why the first thing that he did when he met deva was to run into his embrace #he was like I didn't have to feel like a widower anymore my husband is here after 25 years alive and healthy #then he also didn't hesitate to sleep on Deva's lap #he is his husband after all #who's going to tell Deva that he's a married man #thinking about older Varadha trying his best to give a hint for Deva to consummate their marriage #they have waited long enough #25 years he has been waiting for him and he only has a little patience left especially if his Deva has grown into such a fine strong man #Deva of course never shy away from Varadha’s touch #but he also never do it more than that only a cuddle and a kiss on his neck one time and never more was he not into varadha the same way #just imagine the misunderstanding the chaos the pining and just how confused they both feel like bad communication at its finest

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bucephaly · 17 days ago

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People love finding random natives online and dumping their family story on them expecting a reassuring 'of course you're native!!' Lol

Sorry, if you don't wanna reconnect why would you even mention your supposed apache or whatever ancestry. If you aren't connecting to the tribe what does it even matter. 'I find it interesting' so you're using supposed native ancestry as a fun fact to make you look more interesting? How is that different than any other 'great grandma cherokee princess' person. Especially since you apparently have time to research the history of all your ancestral cultures but you don't have time to do genealogy

And of course when I tell them 'assume the stories are fake until you've got actual proof' they block me.

#sigh. just the usual #like i watched this person see my popular cherokee video posts. they liked then #them. then immediately i guess went looking on my blog for somewhere to put their family story in the replies #ended up being my post on why dna tests arent relevant in native genealogy #and they were like 'yea i have 2 native family stories and whenever i mention them to someone they say join a tribe! like no?? im not #im not of any particular group im just an american mutt'#ok then dont claim it? why claim any ancestry if youre going to just say 'lol but not Actually'#and they did Not like hearing that #'well i find it interesting' ok? these are living people youre claiming a connection to. claiming native ancestry isnt the same as going #'oh im 2% swiss haha thats fun' youre claiming to be a part of one of many cultures who are constantly stolen from and misused #idk. shits so annoying #'its too far back and im just a mutt' ok what does that make me then? a white native with Low blood quantum? is mine too far back too? like.#its funny how many people ill hear say 'well its too far back id only be like 1/16 lol so i shouldnt bother with it'#if you wanna know whether youd Count just ask who can reconnect. you dont need to self depreciate and try to get the random person youre #talking to to reassure you #anywayyyyy idk #its funny reconnecting and finding out all these things that are just par for the course to any other native #like 'yup. those guys' and im over here fuming hahaha #ill learn to just not engage eventually but right now i still have hope i can actually help some people who are here to genuinely learn #and at least im getting these people instead of them going to connected folks who have to deal with this shit way more than me #like ugam said at one point. its my job to play interference lol and i dont mind it #i just wish id get some people that will actually be reasonable instead of arguing and blocking me

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kinokoshoujoart · 8 months ago

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the coolest kids in forgotten valley!!☆

(…it seems there may have been a stretch of time where rock and lumina were the only kids in forgotten valley…🥲)

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#in the remake hugh and the player’s kid are the same number of years apart #so i can see them having very similar conversations n friendship #surely these two kids will grow up well adjusted and they will have no lasting effects from this kind of isolation. they will be fine #i have been thinking a lot about what their childhoods were like. i want to protect both of them #everyone who has anything to say about them as kids says that both of them were not well behaved children at all #tei says rock was rambunctious and energetic and hard to handle. sebastian says lumina was less than amenable #rock says he was bored to death when he first came here and lumina asks you not to tell romana that she’s lonely #lumina also hated wearing dresses so. she is very mad and ready to bite people maybe #sos awl #bokumono #my art #rock tumbling (sos)#harvest moon #story of seasons #story of seasons a wonderful life #bokujou monogatari #i like to imagine a au where pony and cecilia come to visit their family’s respective farms #so these two can have more friends ;w;#i am always thinking about how they were both severed from their families and taken in by someone else at a young age to live in nowhere #and they are both not exactly enthused about following the path laid out for them #headcanon ⚠️ i wonder if rock’s moving out on his own happened when he was a teenager. he was extremely confident everything would work out #anyway he got fired from every job ever and after many years came crawling back. and he came crawling back blond #at the time of chapter 1 lumina is baffled by the state of the guy she grew up with. why is he using dated slang and wearing disco costume #she is also kind of mad at him for having been gone for so long #hc rock probably had more freedom as a kid than lumina did which probably annoyed her #once again takakura retrieves a small rock from the goddess pond and he’s covered in poison ivy bee stings etc. no remorse #lumina from her window on the hill feels somehow jealous of these misadventures #lumina mentions in her heart event that she doesn’t often visit the beach because her skin burns easily #meanwhile rock was probably playing outside always. if his kid is any indication #idk i like thinking about the history of this extremely small village

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teyrnacousland · 29 days ago

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I'm so disappointed that Veilguard doesn't at all go into how Illario was doing blood magic. Illario, a non-mage, can just suddenly do an unspecified amount of blood magic and the only explanation we're given is "gods 🤷‍♂️"

#And then it's just never brought up again! Can he still do it? Was he altered in some way to make it possible for him to do this #or was it a temporary blessing that can be taken away when the gods' favour is?#Is the only thing he can do with it control Spite? Can he do other stuff? Why is it never mentioned that the pin he wears is involved #in some way? Is the pin enchanted to do the blood magic for him? If that's the case why does he still have it in the endgame fight?#veilguard spoilers #I have so many questions #Also if the evanuris can give people blood magic why did they only do it for this one guy this one time

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starry-eyer · 6 months ago

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comparing elia martell to princess diana is kinda insane

cause the real princess diana of westeros was rhaegar

#lmao i’m sorry but i just saw the most cray cray post and i wanted to laugh #what did elia do for the common people? did they even like her? she’s loved in dorne but in the rest of westeros? she barely mentioned #the fact that diana created this approachable image & had so many charities under her belt is why she was so loved #rhaegar singing to the commoners == dany helping her sick subjects == diana shaking hands with people with aids #tbh charles and diana’s story should actually once again remind people that arranged marriages fucking suck for both individuals involved #i do not like charles at all but it’s not his fault that he didn’t love diana 🤷‍♀️#i’m just so suprised by the absurdity of trying to compare charles and camilla to rhaegar and lyanna #asoiaf fandom critical #anti elia stans #rhaegar targaryen #rip prince rhaegar the silver prince who’s still so beloved by the common folk 💔#im here to fight for rhaegar’s honor #i’ll call him the peoples prince 😂#asoiaf #to be serious for a sec: i hate these surface level takes. it completely strips the text of any nuance and context #this nuance and context is so important bc it is key to understanding the themes and underlying messages of the text #but instead people wanna compare aesthetics. which is fine and fun. but theres nothing in the text that even hints-#-that any of these characters can be directly paralleled to these modern royals.#my silver prince 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

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pilonciillo · 2 months ago

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lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety

#to the judge that’s gonna see this case next year and the lawyer that is representing it assuming the state idk how this all works #why has the person to say the least get to go a whole year without consequence? a known criminal who after stealing from me and being #released and again getting arrest now for gang violence or some shit she was let go? she maybe associated to the group that killed that boy #last year. and here i am panicking because im afraid to carry cash. im paranoid that imma go outside and my car will be missing. i’m get #panic attacks when i drive to close to that gym and tired going back but physically cannot get out of my car and i start to cry in the #parking lot. i’m not sitting at work shaking forcing myself not to cry because someone handed me cash and i’m afraid someone is going to #steal my purse again. you think that’s not a big deal and honestly i didn’t think it was until my purse was gone. my cards stolen and used.#my key missing EVERYTHING in my purse GONE. so many things in there plus the purse i had money and all that is stuff i paid for now im out #all that cash i’m out 500$ for a key replacement i stopped feeling safe leaving my house all my non replaceable things gone and everyone #spoke to me like it was my fault and had to stand their crying while adults told me not to use a gym locker ??? but in the same breath telli #telling me this isn’t the first time she’s done this she has a warrant for her arrest she’s known to steal cars i’m the problem and there’s #nothing they can do to help me. so while i cry because all the money i had lost and never got back i had to do ALL the work to call my bank #track where my cards were being spent at call the jpay line she transferred money to look up the person she cashapped money to call the #business she was actively spending money at ask the manger if she is currently there and if they could give the police all the receipts and #video of her there for them to act like the hero’s for my brother and i tracking her down while you all belittled me #FUCK YOU AND FUCK HER i can’t be fucking normal about STUPID mundane shit i’m stuck here shaking and crying and what you tell me later it’s #not a big deal? give me all the content of your car and wallet or purse or backpack take nothing out and see what you’re left with and how m #much you need to spend to drive your car again and to tow your car home let a stranger have all your cards and address and tell me you feel #safe #OH and for the gym to tell me they know about her she used to be an employee there she doesn’t have a membership so they don’t know how she #got in and they can’t help but she did steal from another girl that night and an employee last month and who knows how many more ppl like #that’s convenient you pos sounds like she has friends that still work at the gym and open the back door for her or just let her in that’s #crazy no ? and this is all alleged because when if i lost all these things i can’t speak on what did or didn’t happen that’s some crazy bull #shit anyways the towing company felt bad for me maybe because i hadn’t stopped crying they gave me the key replacement number and told me to #mention he referred me so i could get a discount and the layman felt back for me because when i called him i started to cry and when he told #me the price i cried harder so 500$ was the cheapest but pretty much my whole check #key man*#bad** LET ME FIX TAGS #allegedly all these ppl are privileged kids from a privileged background that grew up in a sheltered community and thing there’s no #consequences to their actions because of the lack of accountability from their parents who willing pay for people to look the other way

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the-acid-pear · 8 months ago

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Dave and Steven's relationship is so fucking mental literally THE toxicest of yaois 💥

#luly talks #like literally everything about them is insane. fact that dave says steven is of the few people who treated him like a human yet is willing #to just fuck him over and like basically kill him #fact that steven refuses to give purps to the authorities even when he knows he's the criminal and that he WILL keep killing #like its so funny bc usually its dave the one who refuses to leave a situation but this time its phoney whom has him leashed #and its mental cuz WHY I DONT GET IT #and he even lets him do fuck all too remember my post pointing out how this is the only place where dave steals from the prize corner?#when i replay dsaf 1 and the good ending from 3 imma write my essay on steven and their relationship #(<- empty promise bc im a lazy ass)#but seriously steven is such a speciment he's as toxic as it gets in every way possible #not even outright evil just. he's all fucked up man #like he had so many chances to do things right but he only did wrong again and again #also do you guys think dave knows he's steven?#i dont actually remember if there's mention of this on the flipside #and. do you guys think steven REMEMBERS dave?#he's a gen 2 according to himself i guess so he probably has some vague memory #i like to think that's why he's so... favorable to him #LIKE THAT'S THE THING EVEN IN THAT WAY HE'S SO MEAN TO HIM #but not as mean as he is to jack whom he regurlarly kills over nothing #jack and all thef ucking other employees he literally implies bad employees dont last

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valewritessss · 5 months ago

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Finally deleted MyFitnessPal off my phone for my own personal sanity

#got some memories with that app #at first it was just sitting there bc I couldn’t stop myself from tracking the calories of some things #but after a 13 day streak shit could only get worse so I deleted it #proud of myself #that thing had me in chokehold last year did not want a repeat #tw myfitnesspal #tw mentions of eating disorder #random post #ooc post #kind of vent #???#started to wake up stressed out about what I’m gonna eat and I was like nooo not ts again #was literally restricting myself to 1200 cals a day AND IM 5’7 #tw eating issues #sucks when you’re not even underweight so you don’t feel valid #waitttt I was not meant to trauma dump in this post #can we not bring being 2000s model skinny back into being trendy bc why are body types a tend in the first place #I can change fashion but definitely not my body #no bc this world is fucked up why was I scared to die alone bc I wasn’t skinny when I was literally 10 #I hate that it’s normalized to praise people’s bodies #like idc if that makes me soft but a girl just living and everyone just talking about how good her body is #why is that okay bc yes it is positive but it also creates so many negatives #like does anyone get what I mean #it’s a compliment but it also makes everyone including that person afraid to be anything but ‘body goals’#idk how to explain it but like imo bodies shouldn’t serve aesthetic purposes #they actually have functions and needs and they allow us to live #tw body image issues #I hate wiead’s too but that’s just because why is everyone’s food so gourmet I literally just slap some butter onto toast lol #late night post

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thesmokinpossum · 3 months ago

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Eh chat, how long you think this laptop still got?

#i'm gonna save my various files right now just in case but it might surprise me tbh #it's like 8 years old and i dropped entire cups of coffee on it on at least two different occasions #back in 2020 i actually bought another laptop because i thought that this one was on its last leg and it's still going strong so...#who knows?#anyway the fact that i still own the 2020 laptop is the main reason why i'm not more stressed out about the situation #i'll miss this one a lot when it die tho because it still has a dvd player #did i mentionned that i used to play the sims on this thing?#when it dies i'm gonna give it actual funeral because it did more for me than many people who have been in my life for years

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pikonv5 · 8 months ago

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my job wants me gone so bad , like 1 month in and they have already brought out their no effort in communication and gaslighting full force, and telling me much of the work I am doing is wrong and accusing me of not doing the basic things like stocking, that I try so hard and am sure to keep up with being the only person working at a time? like if they are going to do this at least do it while i am on the clock..

#this morning i kept apologizing for doing what i was told and trained to do and the lady sent so many messages of 'well I don't remember #telling you' over n over like ??? so then i had to apologize for her not remembering which like no one does that #to that extent unless they are trying to affect you negatively and or try to get you to say something they can use against you #like ive been abused enough i know how it goes 🙃 ??#and then they are like 'why would you be stupid and put in so much effort when you work the busiest shifts of the week?'#when like literally ive got a good eye for design and decent with sales so like i will touch a merchandise make it more presentable #and suddenly the next people coming in will be drawn to the item to buy like im their little magical willy wonka like they said they wanted #on their original job listing #and ofc there is no mention of how the floor is no longer just perpetual dirt mud to slather around bc i actually cleaned the floor #instead of doing there method of just mopping by putting a mop back in dirty mop water.. like you can visibly see the floor crusted when it #is like that and i wont even start on the dust #nor any mention to how the backroom hasnt remained cluttered from extra my extra tidying or severely cluttered by all the work i did #the last two days #just how i have consistently done a bad job not even keeping up with the basics apparently this entire time 😐#anyways 3 hours of my day Wasted and unpaid from how much they made me cry like there is so much more bot mentioned i hate itf

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melverie · 9 months ago

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Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh today I've been constantly experiencing the urge to un-private today-in-the-devildom & start writing for it again

#i'm gonna ramble in the tags but #i've been talking with starr (if you're reading this--hi starr!! <3) about the blog today and sharing some of the entries #and it just made me miss it so much #+ the conversation actually made me realize some other reasons why i didn't enjoy the blog in general anymore #like i genuinely love the blog and i genuinely loved writing for it & that conversation reminded me of that #but also there were so many reasons that ultimately pushed me to more or less abandon the blog & then later private it too #so i'm kind of at a loss here #tbh i think i'm mostly just scared to pick the blog up again only for it to end exactly like last time i picked it back up #i've actually always wanted for the blog to be a source of inspiration y'know?#like the things mentioned in the entries are kinda just small ideas right #i was hoping that people would read these & feel inspired to write or draw something of their own based on my entries #that was actually what made me start the blog in the first place. the hope that i could inspire others that way #aaahhhhhh.... maybe it's on me since i could have more openly communicated that idea......#i did get to meet one wonderful person who wrote a few fics based on my entries tho!! (hi ali <3)#but yeah..there's that #also the way engagement just dropped significantly after a while #like i know i was gone for a good while & that a lot of people left the fandom and all that #but still getting maybe one reblog if i'm lucky really feels like a punch to the gut #ESPECIALLY considering that i was close to 900 followers on there #do you guys know that feeling when you proudly show someone you care about something you did only to get a disinterested answer?#yeah...#that's essentially how it feels like to me #and well as you might know the feeling of “why should i keep writing if apparently no one cares” eventually won... haha.....#but aaaahhhhh i'm still clinging onto the hope & what ifs here #that conversation with starr really just made me forget about everything that frustrated me about the blog & left me with this #longing feeling to start again lol #hey if you've made it this far into the tags let me just ask--would you care if i picked the blog back up?#would you also *show* that you care?#i'm actually quite curious (you could almost call me george lol)#anyway maybe we'll see each other on today-in-the-devildom again in the future.. who knows

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