#which makes me scared cause ik how important that is

[slytherinshua]

valentines day is coming up and just the idea of dating …. I want to date so bad and it’s weird where I’m finally at an age where that would be appropriate to get into my first relationship except it feels so far off cause I don’t even have in person friends. like not a single one. I don’t see or talk to anyone face to face besides my immediate family, doctor, and piano teacher. so yeah now dating kinda feels like a scary thing the more I get older but still something I desperately crave for

[amarayys]

SPOILERS FOR DRDT AND THE CANON DANGANRONPA GAMES. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Okay, so. I've seen quite a few people hating on the chapter 2 culprit choice due to their execution and it not fitting their ultimate talent. The reasons they include as far as i've seen are; - Min's execution was centred around her talent, so to have the chapter 2's execution not centre around their ultimate is inconsistent. - The canon Danganronpa game's executions are centred around the the culprits talent, so having the culprit's not revolve around their talent doesn't make sense. - The "sections" (can u tell im not trying to spoil bfore the cut.) of the execution felt random and didnt really make much sense. My opinion of these takes? "NO, THAT'S WRONG!" In other words - I wholeheartedly disagree. And this post is going to explain why - as well as why I believe the culprit's execution is wonderfully done. *btw this is not an attack towards anyone and is purely my opinion as is your own dont come for me. please.

To begin: let's tackle the points I mentioned above. (side note - ik the colour coding looks a little random but its fun okay.) - "Min's execution was centred around her talent, so to have the chapter 2's execution not centre around their ultimate is inconsistent." I can understand why you think that, but Min's execution is more than just being based off her talent. Min's character revolves around how the only reason she's seen as anything more than a normal person is due to her being the "Ultimate student" and extremely smart (which can be seen in her bonus episode dialogue.)

She's terrified of making any mistakes and her life revolves around being enough. She also has imposter syndrome due to her talent not being scouted out like usual.

This plays into her execution as well - It gives her questions that have no real answer, causing her to fail - in other words, make a mistake. She also has to spend her last moments alive doing a test and being a student - which we know she feels as if that's all she's worth for.

Basically - Her execution fits her character well, as well as her ultimate talent, because her talent is very important to her character. Let me copy and paste a line from the above paragraph -

"her talent is important to her character." Min's execution fit her talent because her talent was a big part of her - which cannot be said for Ace. Sure, there's some lore behind him not enjoying jockeying - but it's not as major to his character as his fears. As we know, Ace is scared of many things - But the things he is scared of all have some way of hurting/killing him. To boil it down - Ace is extremely scared of death.

That's very major to his character, obviously - as it's the reason he kills Arei in the first place. Ace's execution is based on his fear of death and false alarms because that is the best way to cause despair for him- to make the execution as interesting for the audience and as torturous for him as possible. To sum this up - Ace and Min's executions are consistent. Sure, Min's execution revolved around her talent - but that's only because to her, talent is extremely important to her character. Her imposter syndrome and insecurity around her talent makes it a very big part of her, so that's why her execution was a test - Because it fit her character. Ace's talent, similarly, revolves around his character. He is scared of death and that is what led him to murder. The only difference is that Ace's talent is not as relevant to him as Min's is to her, and therefore it isn't part of the execution.

moving on! - The canon Danganronpa game's executions are centred around the the culprits talent, so having the culprit's not revolve around their talent doesn't make sense. Okay, to put it bluntly, no. as for the actual explanation!! I can give you multiple examples of danganronpa characters who's executions revolve not around their talent, but their charater. I think the best example I can give is Celestia Ludenburg. (please excuse me if i mess up anything on the following section its been a hot minute since i've played thh)

To recap on her execution: Celestia is shown tied onto a pole. A fire starts, and she begins to get burned alive witch style. Suddenly, an ambulance crashes into her, killing her.

Now, if you've been paying attention to the canon Danganronpa games, you would know Celestia's talent is the Ultimate Gambler. Which - shock - has absolutely jack shit to do with her execution! Anyway. Celestia's execution is actually pretty smart if you think about it. Celestia's character revolves around her wanting to seem extravagant and royal. (her clothing style, the whole European castle dream, you get me?) She doesn't want to be seen as some "Basic Japanese girl".

When she is caught as a culprit, she eventually says that she'd be okay with dying as long as it was extravagant. And, at first, it is. She's being burned at the stake - like a witch, probably referring to her gothic (?) like style - which is certainly not a boring way to go. We see in her execution she's pretty chill with dying like that, as she is smiling. However, the ambulance then crashes into her. The genius in this is that car crashes are one of if not the most common cause of death. In other words, a basic way to die, and nothing special. That's the best way Monokuma could have caused Celestia to feel despair - Make her feel normal. Unlike everything I've just stated above, Celestia's talent is not too relevant to her arc. It's really most relevant in her FTE's, which are completely optional. Hey, doesn't that sound familiar? A characters execution is based of their character and not their talent due to their talent not being as major to their character? Yeah?????? YEAH??? - Kirumi Tojo's (and maybe korekiyo's??) execution also doesn't really fit their talents, but I wont go into detail on that.

Moving on!

- The sections of the execution felt random and didn't really make much sense.

Well...no, not really! If you look into more detail, there's actually a lot of cool stuff to notice. (all the below comes from this post! check it out, it's super cool)

The first "death" is Death by Illness. This is alluding to how Xander's family allegedly died to an "unexplainable illness", which you can see in his bonus episode.

Death by Fire is referencing his "Fiery" attitude/temper.

Death by Car Accident - Ace mentions this one directly in chp 1. episode 2.

Death by falling is referencing Min falling to her death in her execution.

Death by murder is kind of obvious. The attempt on Ace's life Nico made - as well as how the weapon is pointed at his neck, similar to how Nico garrotted Ace's neck.

Death by drowning - This one is my own interpretation - maybe alluding to how water was used in both the murders so far?

Death by lightening: Xander being electrocuted?? Maybe??

Death by Execution: I hope I don't need to point out how this relates to DRDT.

Ace dying from fear induced cardiac arrest is both ironic and incredibly tragic. This post explains it VERY well.

TW FOR TALK OF EDs If I were to horrifically sum up the post - Ace could have lived if he didn't suffer from an ED. Anorexia makes your heart beat slower - having a slow heartbeat makes it so that, when you feel very intense emotion, your heart rate shoots up, making you more prone to have a heart attack, and therefore cardiac arrest. It's really, really sad that this caused him to die in the end. TW OVER

anndddd we're done!!! haha im so tired. anyway honorary teruko mention!!! also drdt dev i love u for chp 2 you did INSANELY well.

[palzeddie]

high potential 1.13 (FINALE) thots

LOL this is such a fun way to start the episode

oh oz and daphne definitely make little bets at all these social events. we have gotten crumbs of them but i’m so excited to get more of them next season

ik we were primed for this bc of the previews but like i’m seriously getting stressed out already

this is a season finale for a show that is already renewed… while i’m p sure they were already wrapped when the renewal was announced i’m still scared of what can happen to these characters to leave us on a painful cliffhanger 

“i don’t like when you’re impressed by me when i haven’t done anything impressive”

oh i really don’t love the idea of them splitting up in the woods… like have we learned nothing from the scooby gang

no matter how prepared i was for this to be a scary serial kidnapper moment. i am just so fucking stressed i’m actually getting palpitations. it is objectively ominous that this first guy only took 7 minutes to find

i am so goddamn serious someone NEEDS to take the airbrush tool away from these editors. this is a cast of already beautiful people u don’t have to rewind their skin to prepubescence 😭😭😭

ava making the scrapbook for her dad… god i am on death’s doorstep that’s devastating

oh what the fuck why is her lil bf back i already felt so sus about him. but now??? only coming back for the finale ???

omg oz lore ???

oooh the grief group is interesting but also makes me so so so very scared for my baby oz 💔

“daph is the only one who knows” ozdaph u are everything to me. also how do u keep a death in the family from ur boss realistically

oh karadec is getting sooo protective and i’m getting scared !!! his nervous energy is enhancing mine i think

going off the rails because no one came to bar trivia… yeah i’m sorry that’s feeling very me coded (is anyone surprised that i felt so seen by buck bothered and bewildered)

every time karadec looks lovingly at morgan bc he’s impressed by her a fairy gains its wings

“wait listen… she’s locked inside” baby respectfully did u think she was pulling a jason mendoza and doing this for fun

i should never be surprised when characters like morgan have daddy issues tbh they all fucking reek of it

i love the gillory family more than my own life but also i’m so scared for when my giggling stops

omggg not karadec’s lil bf showing back up too…

OZ NOOO I’M SO SCARED FOR U BABY

no amount of knowing this was coming makes it any easier to watch him get kidnapped like oh my god

truly anything can happen on a season 1 finale which makes me even more scared than i normally would be. like we do not know that he will survive this

“i’m pretty sure she’ll be easy to spot when she shows up” oh yeah bc ur eyes are gonna whip to her so fast it’s gonna make an audible noise

oh my goddd they’re giving us gilladec to try and DISTRACT US from OZ being KIDNAPPED

i’m so sick that oz is in danger while they’re slow dancing… how can we be winning and losing so much at the same time

karadec is so protective of her but does he not realize that what she’s hearing is that he doesn’t trust her. and she’s obviously not going to leave this alone and it’s gonna cause a whole thing w them. i’m so sick

ugh why do i have to look at this other guy go back to veronica mars !!!

okay i’m now more confident that oz is gonna survive this. BUT STILL seeing him at the bottom of that pool … i’m at the end of my rope 

STOPPP THEY ACTUALLY ALMOST HAD ME W THE SILENCE. I’M SICK I AM GONNA KAY EM ESS

“if i can’t get over almost losing a stranger… how am i supposed to get over losing the most important person in my life” oz baby 💔💔💔

karadec is stressing me outtt

but also i’m so incredibly stressed about this oncoming cliffhanger

STOP IS SOMETHING GONNA HAPPEN TO THE GILLORY FAMILY. I CAN’T HANDLE THIS. 

okay why does the kidnapper look like dennis reynolds !!!

this cliffhanger is lowkey giving 911 2x10 Merry Ex-Mas cliffhanger. i’m so sick

i am so so so stressed about season 2 i need it NEOWWW

i am def gonna have more thots about this episode/cliffhanger in the coming days but i need to turn my brain off i’m so sick

[laylawatermelon]

Y'all i just cracked the davinci code and idk if you're gonna like it.

As a Buddie fan devastated obviously, as a 9-1-1 fan devastated obviously and as a writer absolutely blown away by the finessing they just graced us with.

They literally found a way to make Eddie straight and by God they've done it successfully.

Lemme explain.

I was locked in when he was having the speech with Shannon and didn't get to deep in the emotions (heinous ik but I wanted to hear what he was feeling).

I did get some water wobbles in my chest but that's neither here nor there. I did scream horrifically at the cliffhanger of the show.

Guess the nun did scare the life out of her (and me!) after all! Heeh should've seen that coming honestly but I didn't think they'd go there.

So there's two things I think is gonna happen, one Eddie's gonna go on more straight woman dates (yay 😮‍💨) and Chris is leaving.

Now the second one I'll address first and don't bash me if it's not trueee.

I'll get the Chris one over with. First Gavin, Chris' actor, family moved. Since he's become a main he's had little to no screentime in the show.

What I think has happened in real life it's that Gavin will step away from the show. They have him main to show his importance in the cast and storyline (i can also guess pay raise but I'm not saying that's unreasonable really) before his send off.

Realistically he's a disabled person, a child/minor at that, who i assume has a lot of equipment and things he has to travel with. I can imagine it's not that easy to consistently travel across states with equipment, doctor's appointments, schoolwork etc.

So this is probably his last season for a while.

The birthday party (which can also double as a send off or until next time message) and the promotion/upgrade in role despite not being written as such or having storyline outside of the adults.

(off topic but I'd love a mini 118 hijinks b story with all the kids or a low stakes disaster where they all team up until the 118 get there)

He's been hypocritical to him about cheating and even tarnished his mom's legacy by bringing a fake version of her in his house.

The reason i can say the story can effectively write him off for the first half of next season is that Chris will go with his other family because he feels betrayed by his dad.

He doesn't feel safe anymore (😞😭 I'm making myself sad) so he opts to leave until his dad gets better.

The hospital scene is Eddie realizing what his kid needs isn't a new mom but to trust in his parents and that's now shattered (ooh this starting to feel personal be gone trauma!).

So he'll throw a tantrum (a rightfully deserved one that's my boy😤) and say in anger he doesn't want to be with his dad.

Buck will obviously be there cause yeah Eddie (delusional hubby) clearly needs help in his hour of need and so does Chris.

Eddie will do self isolation. Buck will be there for him (Tommy probably staying too but I'm neutral for this post) but with everything Eddie going through he's gonna be wrecked.

And because Eddie's a (good? Eh so so right now) dad he'll let Chris decide when he wants to return.

Hence the heartbreak.

Boom it solves the Gavin problem where he can probably stay during the summer so maybe mid season 8 or limited role like how they did this season and his family can focus on him/life.

Now the Straight Eddie!

By God he's done it!

You've pulled a real good one. Tim I salute you truly.

Idk how you made a straight man out of him but by his you've done it!

(so did you Ryan I'm watching you!)

Since buddie isn't on the table this season the platonic hasn't been more platonic-er since season 7 episode 1.

The way he did it was so easy and smooth I'm in awe.

This is how he kept and can probably enforce straight Eddie.

This is also how he can not enforce straight Eddie (haha got you).

The line you were the love of my life but I'm living it without you now stuck out to me.

That means he's going to find himself and what he really likes without a partner. Therapy, hobbies all that good ish. Maybe a few dates but def church.

Here's why.

Church has been something he drift away and let's be honest American tv and society is still founded in Christianity and all of its adjacent branches.

You must have God somewhere in there for the older audience to tune in/connect with of it's getting a lil secular (aka the bundle of lgbt characters. They're probably saying at least one of em knows God😮‍💨😮‍💨) /hj

The book of prayers symbolizes him going back to God to find answers about himself.

Anyways for the straight Eddie he can get closer to himself better in his faith and get a nice Christian girl who he matches with and (maybe) even has a kid/ similar background.

Since he's been to therapy and he's let go of the love of his life he's now free to find love in someone else. A new woman. (And truly this time)

(or a man, or they/them)

Yes my queer Eddie agenda rises!

Go FORTH!

BE ONE WITH THE SKITTLES SQUAD!

But seriously though the other way it can go is that he's discovering stuff about himself away from romance. He becomes more comfortable with religion but when confusing feelings (attraction to the same gender anyone for $10?) arise then he'll maybe start to fight his Catholic guilt about it since he's gotten closer to it.

Then he'll have to ask for for forgiveness but not permission for the live he wants to live.

(with buck in a house on the waves! Let me be delusional! I've kept it under wraps this long!)

But anyways they've truly dodged the lgbt fruity storyline.

They've also shown us that yes, Buddie was NOT platonic because I've never felt more friends energy in my life this season.

And what the AuDHD brain says is canon/not canon I vibe accordingly.

The vibes were low. Like a suspiciously low.

Dare I say subtextually low.

That's not happened in the history of buddie this is a code red!

CODE RED!

Okay I'm done btw hate me or whatever! /big J

[frog-plague]

Hey uh very fucking random of me and please don't kill me (or do, your choice really) UHHH but like I'm not gonna say alot bc like ik you've been like getting harassed by random blogs (noah) but literally besides all that I'm pretty sure I may or may not have some form of Disassociative disorder as well...

idk I'm really sorry and I know it's really shitty of me to like ever talk to you again lol um but like your kinda the only person I've ever known to be confident enough to identify these kind of things in yourself and be open about it, I'm not gonna trauma dump but I have experienced levels of trauma as well including neglect, and I'm not really sure how it shows but I'm too scared to tell anyone because I know I have BPD and C-PTSD as that has been diagnosed but I feel like I always experience this level of derealisation and that I can't recognise myself when I look in the mirror, sometimes the tone of my voice changes and like ejejejejen idkkk

I didn't know who to ask because if I try reach out for professional help I'd feel really embarrassed and my parents definitely won't agree and won't let any diagnosis through and ahhh how do you deal with it or identify alters (in like the most non-personal way) like should I do more research or... idk.

[Feel free to block me after I'm just kinda confused :(]

To my knowledge (please know I am not a doctor and cannot diagnose you), disassociation is a common symptom of cptsd and bpd

I feel like before jumping straight to the CDD label you should try to do your own research on the different types of CDD that can cause a system (maybe look more into p-did and osdd both 1a and 1b if you really think that there's a possibility that you're a system)

If you think you've identified an alter then try to get to know them, write notes to them and try to improve internal communication, they could help with understanding what possible diagnosis you could have (that's what happened with Atticus and Aaron. Both are dormant now but that's not the point here)

under the cut I will copy paste the sys info channel in a server I'm in

Diagnoses There are 4 diagnoses that can include Complex Dissociative Disorders (Systems);

Dissociative Identity Disorder

Partial Dissociative Identity Disorder

Other Specified Dissociative Disorder

Unspecified Dissociative Disorder

Only 2 of these are CDD specific; DID and PDID. PDID is often less known, as it is only a diagnosis in the ICD-11 and not the DSM-5 OSDD is split into multiple parts, and is used when you don't meet the full criteria for another dissociative disorder (eg, depersonalisation without derealisation), and partially covers CDDs. This section is widely known as OSDD1 (osdd1a/b are actually community terms!). UDD is a temporary or emergency diagnosis, as is used when there is insuficient information to make a full diagnosis.

Diagnostic Criteria DID A. Disruption of identity characterized by two or more distinct personality states, which may be described in some cultures as an experience of possession. The disruption in identity involves marked discontinuity in sense of self and sense of agency, accompanied by related alterations in affect, behavior, consciousness, memory, perception, cognition, and/or sensory-motor functioning. These signs and symptoms may be observed by others or reported by the individual. B. Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting. C. The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning. D. The disturbance is not a normal part of a broadly accepted cultural or religious practice. Note: In children, the symptoms are not better explained by imaginary playmates or other fantasy play. E. The symptoms are not attributable to the physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during alcohol intoxication) or another medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures)

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PDID A. Disruption of identity characterized by the experience of two or more distinct personality states (dissociative identities), involving discontinuities in the sense of self and agency. Each personality state includes its own pattern of experiencing, perceiving, conceiving, and relating to self, the body, and the environment. B. One personality state is dominant and functions in daily life (e.g., parenting, work), but is intruded upon by one or more non-dominant personality states (dissociative intrusions). These intrusions may be cognitive (intruding thoughts), affective (intruding affects such as fear, anger, or shame), perceptual (e.g., intruding voices fleeting visual perceptions, sensations such as being touched), motor (e.g., involuntary movements of an arm), or behavioural (e.g., an action that lacks a sense of agency or ownership). These experiences are experienced as interfering with the functioning of the dominant personality state and are typically aversive. C. The non-dominant personality states do not recurrently take executive control of the individual’s consciousness and functioning to the extent that they perform in specific aspects of daily life (e.g., parenting, work). However, there may be occasional, limited and transient episodes in which a distinct personality state assumes executive control to engage in circumscribed behaviours (e.g., in response to extreme emotional states or during episodes of self-harm or the reenactment of traumatic memories). D. The symptoms are not better accounted for by another mental disorder (e.g., Schizophrenia or Other Primary Psychotic Disorder). E. The symptoms are not due to the effects of a substance or medication on the central nervous system, including withdrawal effects (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behaviour during substance intoxication), and are not due to a Disease of the Nervous System (e.g., complex partial seizures) or to a Sleep-Wake disorder (e.g., symptoms occur during hypnagogic or hypnopompic states). The symptoms result in significant impairment in personal, family, social, educational, occupational or other important areas of functioning. If functioning is maintained, it is only through significant additional effort

OTHER DIAGNOSES As a questioning system, we will always support you in your journey of self discovery, however it's important to look into other possibilities!

There are many disorders that can superficially mimic or have symptoms very similar to a CDD;

DPDR or other dissociative disorders

Personality Disorders

PTSD

Psychotic Disorders

As you know your symptoms best, it's important for you to do your own research into these! As you do, it is important to also keep in mind that these are also commonly comorbid with CDDs, so if your symptoms match both, it may just be both.

Good luck!

[jaydenblogs]

SHE HAS TO CARE, RIGHT?

THEODORE NOTT FAN FIC.

| I haven’t written in a while, IK. Im sorry for being away for over a year, thank you for 123 followers, I hope you will enjoy this and yeah we’ll see how this goes and if I have improved, yall tell me if I have.|

/ Context: Your Father is Tom Riddle, so yeah you are Mattheos sister (I’m sorry this is a female version, tho you can ofc ask me to write a gender neutral story or some, tho I have a little nickname in mind that’s why imma write it in female) you hate slytherins, you despise your father , cause of obvious reasons he’s a horrible person, you expect that every slytherin follows him and that’s the reason why you don’t like them, you got sorted into ravenclaw btw. /

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she walks down the hall, Confident as she is. Everybody knows her, the daughter of Tom riddle and the sister of the famous Mattheo riddle, they were scared of her, of course they were, her father and brother scared them, she must’ve been just like them. But no, if you get to know her you find out why she’s in ravenclaw and not in slytherin, she’s smart very smart, she’s a kindheart and most important she despises the slytherins, she despises her father. With her books in her hands she walks to her next class, which has to be potions.

While she walks she gets a lot of dirty looks, she’s used to it by now, it happens all the time, who wouldn’t look at Tom riddles daughter, who walks down the hallway with such grace, so beautiful. As she walks she gets spotted by a familiar slytherin, Theodore nott. He smirks confidently as he sees her walk by, he’s tried to reach her multiple times, always failing, she ignores him, doesn’t even look at him. He’s up for that challenge, he knows probably better than most who she is and who her father is, tho he doesn’t care, he doesn’t just look at her because of who her father is, he looks at her because she’s gorgeous, she’s smart and she’s always kind to anyone but slytherins, she’s a confident and cocky sweetheart.

„Hey, Hey! Stop walking sweetheart“ he calls after her, trying his luck once again.

Stone cold ignored. She ignored him, she kept on walking ignoring his entire existence, it’s like he didn’t even exist. He just grinned as he went after her „ignoring me again, Miss Ravenclaw?“ He smiled at his own words, oh how he adored it when she stopped walking, standing still at one spot just because how annoying she finds him and this nickname. And just how he thought she would, she did. She sighs heavily as she turns around slowly facing him with an annoyed expression on her gorgeous face. „Oh? Finally stopped ignoring me, huh miss ravenclaw?“ he smirked, that annoying smirk made her mood even worse and she couldn���t hide it. Not at all. She sighs again as she walks to potions, ignoring him again, she knows he’s not worth it so she doesn’t waste her time with him, why would she? What a waste of time. She enters the classroom following closely enters Theodore, She sits down next to potter on the right and Luna one the left, she got along really well with them. But Theodore on the other hand Couldn’t help but get jealous at the look of her smiling with potter. He sits down next to Mattheo with this expression that tells it all. „You can’t reach her Huh?“ Mattheo says, Theodore rolls his eyes at him „I mean I would help you but I can’t reach her either, but I happen to know that she’s skipping next period in her dorm room. You should pay her a visit, talk to her maybe you’ll be the exception of all the Slytherins“ he says that last sentence with such an ironic tone to it, Theodore is annoyed but actually likes the idea of making her talk to him. If she wouldn’t do it herself, He would have to make her.

After potions he saw her head to the ravenclaw tower, he watches her enter her dorm and then knocks on her door with a wide smirk on his face. The door opens slightly, she stands there looking at him confused, she wants to shut the door but he puts his foot between the doorframe so she can’t close it, “well hello there miss ravenclaw, I heard you’re skipping? Well that’s not very appropriate is it?” He smirks as he lets himself in her dorm, he closes the door behind him as he sits down on her bed like it’s the most normal thing ever. “Gosh you look gorgeous” he says with a large grin on his face, her expression slowly warms up tho she’s still ignoring him, she will just carry on with what she was doing. She sits down on the floor and starts playing games on her phone, he was watching her closely “Cmon miss ravenclaw, don’t ignore me like that.” Theodore scoffed, complaining in a whiney tone in her voice. The next thing Theodore heard was a loud exhausted sigh coming from her. „I don’t have any interest in talking to you, nott.“ she said, she finally spoke, I mean she still said it with that cold tone and without looking at him, but she talked to him. A big smile spread on Theodore’s Face immediately, he couldn’t help it, he stood up from the bed and sat down on the floor, right next to her. He then leaned his head against her shoulder softly, after a minute he was surprised she didn’t pull away yet, he just stayed like that, resting his head on her shoulder. She rolled her eyes when she noticed how softly he was grinning because she didn’t pull away, but she didn’t mind, infact she enjoyed his company, she always has, she just doesn’t want to trust in Theodore, she can’t put her trust in him. He is a Slytherin after all.

The bell rang, oh the fucking bell rang. How he hated this moment, he hated watching her standing up and getting ready to go to the next class, he knew she would never skip more than one. „Cmon get out nott.“ she said with that cold tone in her voice, like she didn’t care. But he knows she cares, how could she not, she let someone rest on her shoulder, no, she let Theodore, a slytherin, rest on her shoulder, she cared, didn’t she? No She has to care, right?

Theodore scoffed loudly, as to which she looked at him with a softer but still cold expression on her face, „let’s stay a bit longer, please?“ he asked, knowing her answer, but he still wanted to give it a try. „As if I wanna stay another second with a selfish idiotic slytherin“ how fucking cold. He was used to this, if she talked to him she was so fucking rude. But it still hurt, In the same time he couldn’t help but get turned on by it, he loved every little thing about her, her cocky personality, how she acts towards him, how he will do anything to even talk to her, how beautiful she was, what a sweet personality she actually had, he loved it all, he loved her so fucking much. „Cmon, pretty girl.“ he whined with a smirk on his face, she sighed „no shut the fuck up.“ she then went to the dorm room door trying to leave, but that won’t happen.

He grabbed her wrist and turned her towards him, he then quickly pinned her against the door. „Cmon, you know you can’t hold back any longer“ he teased with a huge smirk on her face, he then slowly watched a grin appear on her face. „Oh how right you are, that’s what you want me to say, right?“ she was giggling, making fun of him, it frustrated him, he then leaned in and pressed his soft lips against hers, he smirked widely into the passionate kiss and she actually kissed him back.

|| if y’all want me to write a part 2 of this tell me please<3 ||

[seattlesellie]

this is super random (also this is my first msg to u hi <3) and i’m honestly asking this generally to anyone else who also happens to read this, but recently i’ve realized my sexual orientation and come to the conclusion that i’m like REALLY attracted to women (as a woman myself ofc). so obv this made me also think abt how someday i’m gonna have to tell ppl close to me abt this but i’m literally losing my mind cause i’m NAWT vulnerable especially w/ my parents 😭 and also i just now was watching a tiktok live that was full of homophobic ppl and whenever i see that on the internet, it makes me wanna go deeper in the shell (or closet lmao) that i already am in. like it makes me realize how many horrible ppl there are that won’t accept smth so simple (i’m also very emotional as u can see 😍) so like tbh i’m not sure what i’m seeking here but ig i’m just curious if u or anyone else has felt like this/what helped u come out? like it’s so hard for me to be open and as someone who recently graduated and is going to uni, in a completely diff country alone, i’m gonna have more freedom and if i were to date another girl, it’d feel unfair to my parents if i didnt say anything prior abt my identity. ik they’re also very supportive, which i’m thankful for, but i just HATEEE vulnerability. idk man :( it’s also very weird finally realizing more abt myself. it makes me SO happy yet so so so scared? aarrghh idk sorry abt this long message, u seem like the nicest person and this place feels safe, so i just felt like i could ask/find some kind of relatability. 💗 sorry again for this long ass rant LOLS 🌟

okokok im gonna tell u my coming out story because i can awfully relate to this ?? n adding a read more cos this is so long sorry <333 🤧

literally knew i liked girls my entire life and like suppressed the shit out of it. would try and date guys all throughout highschool and would feel so terrible afterwards… but like you, i was super uncomfortable with that type of vulnerability and also barely had any gay friends, let alone any gay female friends. so i spent my life just thinking im gonna be in the closet forever !! until i met my now ex gf, she would constantly be sleeping over— but i did the classic thing of telling my parents she was just my new best friend, until one day my dad was like… be so fr rn are you two dating. like you said, my parents are also very liberal and supportive (especially my dad), but still— it made me panic and drop a mug and deny deny deny !! then, after being together for like 6 months it was incredibly hard to hide it, and obvs she felt super uncomfortable bc i was super closeted and she was super out. so i kind of had to come out to my parents (i hid under a blanket and told them i have an important thing to say n then they already somehow knew). my parents and i literally never talked about these things like my mom didn’t even know about my first kiss or literally NOTHING about me, we didn’t have that type or relationship at all so i can relate to u so hard !!but like here’s the thing— i don’t think it would be unfair to your parents, this is your story to tell and you should do it when you feel comfortable enough, and if it takes you dating a girl for that then so be it. you shouldn’t worry about other peoples feelings about this, as this is yours to tell and not theirs! as long as you’re in a safe environment, coming out can truly be such a big fucking relief !! like that absolute weight that drops out of your chest is so so freeing. if the people who are close to you love you— they will accept you. if they won’t? truthfully, they don’t deserve u and never have. about the homophobia, its always going to be here, unfortunately for us hateful and bigoted people will always exist, and that can be extremely stressful and painful, which is why surrounding yourself with people from your own community is so so important and necessary. uni is such a good place to do that !! so many new people to meet and especially queer people to surround yourself with !! i super understand your fears but the good things that happen after you come out— that feeling of no longer needing to hide yourself is so so worth it 💗💗💗💗

[nereidprinc3ss]

hi! i was wondering if i could ask for some writing advice? (pls feel free to ignore this if you'd like!) so i've posted a couple of fics that have done really well, which i'm super pumped about. but now i'm scared to keep posting bc i don't want my newer fics to flop. idk if this makes sense at all or if you've gone through a similar thing before, but if you have what were ways that you tried to get out of this mindset? thanks in advance and i absolutely love your writing <3

hiiiii so i did go through a similar thing!!!! i will elaborate below

(WARNING ⚠️ most diabolical yapper of all time has access to a keyboard😰😰😰)

ok so my number one thing is that you should be writing because you truly love to do it. i see a lot of people frustrated with lack of likes or comments or reblogs etc and i do understand that but if you’re solely writing for engagement people will be able to tell and you likely won’t find the numbers you want and it won’t be worth it. like yes the big numbers are really nice but (sorry we’re going to talk about me now ik im insufferable) i was writing long ass stories that were never posted and will never see the light of day for years before i ever started posting on tumblr. i write fanfic because i love to write. i adore my silly little bf spencer reid but the actual writing part is the most important aspect to me. i wrote stories before i knew what fanfiction was, i wrote before i watched criminal minds, and i will continue to write after. that said i think the reason that fanfic works well as a medium for me is because im also really truly interested in the character of spencer reid from a writing perspective. like i wanna get all up inside his brain cause he fascinates me, and that leads to me writing him in the hopes of discovering something new about him as a character, not just cause i wanna smash (but i do wanna smash!!) and all of that is basically how i stay out of the numbers mindset

so yeah i will reiterate that the most important part of creating something that feels lasting rather than just a phase or whatever is a love for the art form and not just the desire for engagement!!!! like write for FUN!!!! you do not have to be as pretentious as me btw u can literally just write cause it sounds fun at the moment like u don’t have to have some mission of highfalutin soul quest fulfillment or something to write spencer reid fanfic quite honestly im talking out of my ass rn and this was probably entirely unhelpful BUT i never claimed to be helpful (but i still hope it helped in the slightest omg i just read it back and wtf am i talking abt im sorry ily)

[autismvampyre]

https://www.tumblr.com/autismvampyre/741462958593441792/hate-how-its-practically-impossible-to-find-anti?source=share

I saw this post and I couldn't agree more and Im asking anonymously cause I don't want to get judgement and stuff and I know this is going to sound a little dumb but I'm having a crisis about like. Whether or not I should support Taylor anymore like. Im going for the eras tour soon and I'm obviously really really excited but I've been seeing more and more anti swiftie media and it all really makes sense. Your blog was like the only anti swiftie one that didn't say all swifties deserve to die lol (at least from what I could find) but I just wanted to know if you have any advice on like letting go of the music in a way. I love her music, and one of the reasons I'm really scared to let go is that my childhood best friend and I share so many precious memories over her music and I don't want to disappoint her in a way by not listening anymore and her music helped me through really really hard times, which feels kind of dumb to say cause I'm 15, but like it's always really helped me and I don't know if I can or if I want to let go but at the same time I'm huge on ethics and a big part of my life has always been helping people and empathizing, and I just don't know if I want to support an artist who can't seem to publicly do that. Idk I was just wondering if you had advice? Thank you so much :)

P.s. feel free to ignore this ik it's loaded and not related to your blog entirely

hey! thanks for the ask. i wanted to respond to this before i forgot so this might be rushed but i hope i can still help.

i get your dilemma, i really do. i like her music a lot and one of the worst things about the anti swiftie community is how much it relies on the "her music sucks" card. its lazy and just personal taste, and i absolutely hate the puritanical idea that if you enjoy a single taylor song you are in some way morally lesser. people like what they like, and i think it's completely fine to enjoy her music because that isn't really an ethical concern

you can separate the art from the artist. its fine to do so. you shouldn't force yourself to stop listening to music you like unless you feel thats right for you. im very critical of taylor but i still occasionally listen to her music because there are a lot of memories attached to it and those memories are precious to me. art can make you feel so much, and you're not dumb for feeling comforted by it.

i dont think you have to let go of her music unless you want to. i believe the most important thing is to let go of the idea of taylor as a brand. people tend to get attached to her due to clever marketing; to a lot of people she's their friend and they feel very protective over her for that. taylor thrives off the parasocial relationship of her fandom which is financially beneficial to her. the most important thing to remember is that she is a billionaire with more money than you could ever imagine and it is impossible to get that rich without fucking over the poor. the image of taylor in the media is not real, she isn't the girl next door, she isn't your friend, she's an ultra rich celebrity who gets richer by pretending to be your buddy. once you've realized that, you're pretty much done

now, i definitely wouldn't recommend financially supporting her. if you're going to the eras tour don't go alone, be safe, wear earplugs(seriously this one is so important you dont want tinnitus believe me). i know there are a lot of different factors and ethics about the shows but as someone who a) hates live music cause im autistic and just end up overstimulated and b) was never in a financial situation where i could or even would buy eras tickets i feel very under qualified to tackle any of that so i'd recommend talking to someone else who knows about that.

to end, i'll just say piracy isn't theft if buying isn't owning snd there are guides out there so you can listen without paying her dime. sorry if this was incoherent, i am tired. have a good rest of your day/night/whatever time it is and please take care

[daisitynook]

Random Rottmnt Head-canons

sorry for rambling some of them are just me projecting but i just had too, can you guess who i kin lmao :)

Mikey🧡

* loves the fall

* not just for the colors but mikey loves wearing fuzzy sweaters and doing the Arianna sleeve thing

* huge pumpkin fan, loves anything that have a pumpkin flavor or aroma

* Saw a rerun of bob rose once and spent a month remaking the painting till he thought it was perfect, he was 8 so we all know what it really looked like

* raph hung it on their fridge cause he was so proud

* Owns 3 dream catchers, has a bunch of incense too

* we all know he gets scared easily so you can’t tell me mikey doesn’t take every ghost catching video he sees seriously

* avid buzzfeed unsolved enjoyer

* Whenever donnie’s glasses broke when they were kids mikey tried to fix them with his stickers before realizing they didn’t work like he intended

* Besides skateboarding i think mikey really likes roller blading for the aesthetic

* he stole an old pair from the dumpster and styled it orange and practiced around the sewer

* made donnie make him a playlist of 80s songs so he can pretend like he’s in a movie while he’s doing so

* Besides Donnie, Mikey knows the most about history specifically art history

* Like Mikey knows a lot about the world and different cultures while donnie knows more scientific facts

Donnie 💜

* So we all know how he does his own eyebrows

* donnie definitely watched a billion makeup up tutorials before he finally got it right so know he has intense makeup knowledge

* does aprils makeup when she has a date or is going to an important event

* had an intense kpop phase, like was on stan twt being a heavy defender of his favs

* likes to do dance covers in his lab when his brothers aren’t home

* definitely a twice stan

* got leo into kpop so they can both suffer

* Donnie once sprained his ankle when his was a tween and he told his brothers it was during a failed experiment but in reality he was trying to learn ballroom dancing from a youtube tutorial

* Really enjoyed club penguin as a kid

* Now bullies kids online

* uses discord and un-ironically roleplays as movie characters

* leo bullied him for this and he then stopped

* The type of person to say huh ten times not hearing what the other person said

* Donnie doesn’t actually have bad vision he just wanted something that had personality and decided glasses was it

* spoiler alert they didn’t have any lenses

* no one knew

* Donnie really likes murder mystery books or adventure books (like Indiana jones, ik it’s not a book but you get what i mean)

* Even though he figures out the resolution or who done it rather quickly he still likes the build up and clues you get from reading

* makes april do a fashion show with him which is just him trying on clothes he found and forcing her to give him compliments

* even tho donnie doesn’t know a thing about sports i think he has a secret appreciation for tennis

* idk why tennis but i feel like he would just like it

* hates açaí bowls

* he hates the texture of everything together and has never found the right combination of things

* he likes to say he only drinks black coffee but dumps creamer into his with a bit of sugar

* with his shell since it’s super sensitive i think he only let leo help him clean it for a while

* when they were younger mikey would always be too touchy not really understanding boundaries just yet

* and raph was either way too gentle or way too rough cause he didn’t know his strength yet but also didn’t want to hurt donnie

* leo was the easy middle so donnie specifically had him and him only help get parts he couldn’t reach while cleaning

* however this did lead to many fights in the bath between the two

Leo💙

* loves romcons

* literally sobs his eyes out during them

* loves watching shows like love island, the bachelor, love is blind, too hot to handle

* thinks he would be perfect for those shows but not in a douche way more in a sense of

* i could be the biggest problem and people would love me

* avid telenovella enjoyer

* asks hueso about any good ones he can binge

* had a kpop phase thanks to donnie

* big red velvet stan along with seventeen

* he loves irene and s.coups

* leo also enjoys 80-90s rock

* he specifically loves the hair

* had motorcycle phase for a bit where he would ask donnie a bunch of mechanic questions and donnie would be like ??? every-time

* never cleans his room

* like he’ll throw out his trash but he has clutter everywhere, randoms knick knacks everywhere

* gets all his puns off of reddit and other forums

* has an abundance of socks for no reason he just likes how they feel

* specifically his one pair of flush blue panda socks he only washes once a month

* no one is allowed to touch them

* He snorts when he laughs really hard

* Best singer out of the boys

* like literal pipes

* has joked about winning American idol but is secretly not joking and surprisingly his family agrees

* Leo actually goes to bed early like at 10:30

* compared to donnie and mikey that’s early

* he needs his beauty rest

* leo definitely wants a tattoo on his bicep if he can

* Loves andy samburg and no one can tell me otherwise

* like a huge brooklyn 99 parks and rec arrested development fan

* he also really likes percy jackson

* stole the books from donnie as a kid and read all of them

* told donnie he hated it

* donnie knew otherwise

* Leo for a while when he was a kid didn’t really know who he was so he just kinda picked traits from his brothers

* was scared he wasn’t funny enough or that he didn’t really have a point when talking

* he slowly realized it was ok to just go with the flow and that’s why now he doesn’t really like to over complicate things when he does it

* Leo genuinely loves being a turtle, isn’t insecure in the slightest about being a turtle like the other boys (donnie and raph) him and mikey embrace it

* Does share middle child nonsense with donnie where he gets insecure about his role and if he’s really needed

* wants to prove that he’s worthy of being part of this family

* no more angst

* leo definitely has the worst eyesight in the family

* it’s not horrible but boy does he squint a lot

* mikey was once insecure about his gap so leo drew in a gap in his mouth so mikey would see how cute his gap was

* leo did it for 4 days straight

* that tooth is now permanently this grey color

* Has a secret appreciation for the color pink definitely his second favorite color no one can tell me otherwise

* like donnie is good at makeup

* specifically he can do killer eye liner

Raph❤️

* Likes to watch cooking shoes with mikey

* Enjoys a good bbq episode of a show

* Enjoys old timey british shows

* for example downtown abbey

* lives for it

* made donnie pirate the movie so he could watch it and cried his eyes out

* Raph has a lot of plushies so he definitely thinks they get jealous when one is getting more attention

* with this he picks a name out of a hat in front of them and then places the ones who didn’t get picked at the end of the bed

* he feels bad just leaving them around

* raph also definitely likes cheesy cop shows

* like he loved law and order, NCICS, criminal minds, idk cop shows man 🧍‍♀️

* big desert man

* loves anything sweet

* specifically loves churros, chocolate covered strawberries, powdered donuts, and he’s a sucker for any type of pie

* Loves gaming youtube channels, big fan of markiplier, jackseptieye, Berlzy, Coreyxkenshin, some twitch streamers he likes something in the background so this helps

* As much as he loves pizza Raph is one of the only ones to actually eat healthier food

* had a gym rat phase but it wasn’t amazing since he couldn’t go to the gym but he was obsessed with calorie counting

* wasn’t healthy at all

* recovered and now eats regularly

* Obsessed with squishmallows

* like has a whole collection of them

* he really like the dinosaur one in blue

* Leo makes fun of him for it but raph shoved him into his pile of them Leo fell asleep in an instant

* Raph is not superstitious at all

* like donnie definitely believes whack ass conspiracy theories and don’t get him started on the paranormal however raph is the complete opposite

* he’s always wanted to indulge in stuff like that but since he’s the oldest he was always the one to like “don’t worry none of that stuff is real” or “nothing can hurt you, it’s all gonna be ok”

* basically he’s just had to comfort the boys whenever their were scared a ghost was gonna get them, the monster under the bed all that

* so now he’s just over it but he wishes he can just indulge crazy fantasies now and again

[nishisun]

couples therapy w/ KUROO!

pairing: kenma kozume x reader

summery: y/n and kenma attend “couples therapy” little did y/n know, there would be a rather pleasant suprised.

genre: just fluff and tiny angst

a/n: this is really rushed because ik y’all are waiting for another dorm buddies part so i wrote this in the middle of the night cause i was bored. i hope you like it LWNAJDHAJDHD. also, i hate reading my works so if there’s any errors i apologize

[recording. patients: kenma kozume & l/n y/n]

[kuroo] hello, kenma-san, l/n-san. how are you both doing today?

[kenma] why are we doing this again?

[kuroo] well KENMA, i already told you, this is good for my training and even better for my resume!

[kuroo] back to the question, y/n-san?

[y/n] (sighs) to be honest, i could be better.

[y/n] uh, kuroo, no need for the honorific titles.

[kuroo] right. kenma?

[kenma] i’ve been.. okay.

[kuroo] okay, so, one of your close friends, kuroo-san i think it was, scheduled you both for this session in which you both agreed to take, am i right?

[y/n] ... aren’t you—

[kenma] ...

[y/n] (looks at kenma, and then sighs and looks back at kuroo) uh— yeah, we did.

[kuroo] okay so, first, i want to know the reasons why you both are here, starting with kenma.

[kuroo] kenma, why are you here today?

[kenma] because you forced me to

[kuroo] ...

[kuroo] A for effort kenma! but that’s not the only reason.

[kenma] well, i’m here to... better this relationship.

[kuroo] okay, why?

[kenma] ... what?

[kuroo] why do you want to better this relationship you have with y/n?

[kenma] ... i don’t know.

[y/n] (scoffs) kozume, really?

[kenma] (shrugs)

[kuroo] so, you don’t know why you want to better this relationship?

[kenma] ...

[kuroo] well, if that’s the case, why are you here? do you want y/n to leave?

[kenma] ...

[y/n] (scoffs) kuroo, thank you so much for attempting to help, but i think it’s just best i go—

[kenma] no! wait. please y/n, wait.

[y/n] kenma, you know i’m trying my best to be patient with you, but it seems to me like you’re not putting effort! i’ve really tried. i did. all i’m asking is to at least put some effort.

[kenma] i know, i know you are. i’m sorry.

[y/n] it’s fine, kozume.

[kuroo] alright then, kenma—

[kenma] i want to better this relationship... because i care about y/n. a lot.

[kuroo] and?

[kenma] and..? (looks at y/n) and uh.. because she makes me happy. i feel.. happier when she’s with me.

[kuroo] thank you so much for sharing. now, y/n, why are you here today?

[y/n] i’m here because i’m willing to give kenma and this relationship a second chance.

[kuroo] (writes notes) that’s very good to hear. thank you for sharing that.

[kuroo] now, it has come to my attention that you both are currently not together, am i right?

(kenma and y/n glance at each other)

[kenma] ...

[y/n] uh, yes, that’s true.

[kuroo] okay. (shuffles through notes) now, a week before you both came here, i asked you both to come here with a video—

[kenma] kuroo, maybe the video isn’t necessary—

[y/n] video? i wasn’t aware of a—

[kuroo] ah, yes. let me rephrase that. i asked kenma actually, he insisted.

[kenma] you forced me—

[kuroo] not important!

[y/n] kenma?

[kenma] (sighs) i... made a video... apologizing because i didn’t think you’d want to see me.. and i’m bad at communicating... kuroo thought it was a good idea.

[kuroo] would you like to see the video, y/n?

[y/n] yes please

[kuroo] okay, i’m just gonna leave and let you both watch the video.

[kenma] maybe i should come with you-

[kuroo] no. (slams door)

——

“okay, it’s recording!” kuroo says behind the camera, giving kenma a thumbs up.

“kuroo honestly, this seems stupid. i don’t even know what to say.”

“say whatever comes in your head. this is a great way for you to realize how important y/n is to you.” he reassures behind the camera. kenma gives kuroo an unsure look as he plays around with his fingers.

kenma sighs and gives kuroo a bored look as he’s adjusting the angle of the camera and once he catches kenma staring, he straightens up and sighs as well. “kenma, you’re not good with words. yes, i know this. making this video is a great way for you to release emotions that you’ve concealed. i know you may think it’s stupid right now, but you’ll be suprised how much you’ve said by the end of this. even if you decide to keep this video to yourself, you’ll feel better. trust me.”

kenma nods slightly, still giving kuroo an unsure look as he readjusted the camera once more.

“pretend i’m not even here!”

“i’m trying to but you keep talking.”

“right. i’ll stop”

“uh.. hi y/n. if you’re seeing this, i want you to know that I’m... sorry for not being there for you when you needed me the most. I’m sorry for neglecting you in our relationship. I’m sorry that it took me so long to realize you were the one for me.” kenma looks down at the ground, pursing his lips and sighs. he looks behind the camera to see a smiling kuroo who’s shaking his head, signaling that kenma should keep going.

“I love you, so much. The truth is, I’m not very good at expressing my feelings, which you already know and you’ve accepted me for it. i just wanna tell you that i really do appreciate that. not a lot of people can handle someone like me and the fact that you could just proves how amazing you are.” kenma is looking everywhere but the camera. he looks up at the ceiling and smiles as he reminisces the first time he met you.

“When you first told me you loved me, I warned you, saying ‘You do know what you’re going to be dealing with, right?’ and you told me, and i remember, with a proud and positive voice you said , ‘Yes, I do. And i’m willing to have the best time with you, even if it’s going to end up being the best romance or the worst heart break.’” I laughed at that. You used to crack me up all the time. I missed that.

“Nowadays, I lay on my bed that used to be ours, staring at the wall for hours wishing you were there with me. Crazy, isn’t it? Because when you were with me I never wanted to do anything with you. Well, that’s not the case. It’s not that i didn’t want anything to do with you, i just... i don’t really know. As stupid as it sounds.. i didn’t think you deserved someone like me. You were— are still too good for me. I guess.. i always pushed you away because I wanted you to realize that.” kenma let’s out a silent laugh and sighs. He looks at kuroo for a brief moment and then looks away, fumbling with his fingers.

“uh... it’s been hard to do a lot of things without you lately. Remember when you’d always have to remind me to eat? Even though I pushed you away, you’d still try to get me to eat because you cared so much for my well-being. You always put me first and I hate myself for not doing the same when it came to you.”

“I miss you so much. I miss your voice. I miss everything about you and it hurts me so much that you’re gone... That I was the one that let you go. Everyday I lay in bed wondering if i should call you just to hear your voice. I wonder if you’d answer. Probably not. You probably hate me for letting you go. Trust me, I hate myself for it too. I hate that it took me actually letting you go for me to realize just how much i needed you.”

“It’s quiet at home. It doesn’t even feel like home without you, y/n. I miss the TV being on your favorite show at 9 in the morning as you’d sit on the couch with both our breakfast set on the table as you waited for me to wake up and eat with you.” kenma puts his hands on his face and sighs again for what seems like the hundredth time today.

“i’m an idiot.”

“kenma, no you aren’t. although you haven’t been.. the smartest recently, i’m happy you’re realizing your mistakes. you’re doing great by the way.” kuroo says, giving the faux blond a reassuring smile.

“thank you.” kenma nods.

“I’m sorry for all the pain I caused you. When I broke up with you, I hated the pained expression you had on your face. I thought I was doing what was best for you without even letting you have a say. You were begging me to not do this to you, but I didn’t listen.”

“I’m not trying to make this video to seek your forgiveness.. i’m probably not going to show this to you anyway. i’ll keep this as a lesson to not let go of the one person you love the most because i love you, y/n.”

“is that it?” kuroo asks,

“uh...” kenma thinks for a second, and then shakes his head “yeah. i think i’m done.”

—

By now you’re already tearing up. Tears of joy. You know how hard this must’ve been for Kenma but the fact that he was willing to step out of his comfort zone for you spoke volumes. He was sitting next to you, as you stared down at the phone that had already turned off covering your mouth and it’s your hands. Kenma didn’t know whether to comfort you, scared that you may reject his touch.

“i’m... sorry—“

“dont, kenma.” you sigh. kenma has a pained expression on his face.

You wipe your tears off your face and look up at him giving him a smile. Out of nowhere, a sudden urge of confidence came through you and you basically tackling him in a hug.

“you’re an idiot, you know that, right?”

“yeah, i know.” kenma huffs out a laugh as you chuckle. he hugs you back, gripping you tight with fear that this moment might end.

“i’ve missed you.” kenma places his head in the crook of your neck, inhaling your scent as he plays with his fingers that are wrapped around you.

“i’ve missed you too,” you break off the hug and sit up straight next to him. he’s looking at you— staring actually, you don’t think he’s aware of what he’s doing. “earth to kenma?” you wave your hand in front of his face and he rubs his eyes and chuckles.

“sorry.” he turns and faces forward, still having a small smile on his face.

“hey, what’s up with all of these apologies? are you gonna do something or not?”

kenma turns back to you in confusion, furrowing his brows and you cross your arms smirking, waiting for kenma to understand. Once he finally understands what you’re trying to say, he’s the one hugging you.

“will you take me back, y/n?” he asks— or mumbles. you don’t care though. he’s done enough today. what matters is that he tried. why wouldn’t you give him a second chance?

“of course i will, kozume.” you say, rubbing his back. “hey kenma,”

“hm?”

“a video, really?”

“shut up, i don’t want to talk about it. i just really missed you, okay.”

you laugh at that. you hear the door of that room open. it was kuroo, who was already having a smirk on his face. that idiot.

“a new couple in town, might i ask?”

“oh fuck off, kuroo.” kenma mumbles through your chest, you and kuroo laugh at how annoyed kenma seems.

“see kenma, i told you. chicks love romantic gestures.” kenma lifts his head up from where it’s resting in your chest and glares at kuroo.

“i wouldn’t say that was romantic, but it’s the thought that counts i guess!” you laugh, kenma turns back to look at you and you can’t help but laugh once again at kenma’s expressive facial expressions “but it was cute though. i loved it, baby.”

kenma drops his head back in your chest with a grumble and you caress his hair as kuroo crosses his arms and looks at you both with a smile.

“you guys are soulmates.” he says.

“you think so?”

“nah,” his shakes his head, “i know so.”

tags: @tazinva

[wishful-soda]

HI HIIII i am back for some psychoanalysis at almost 12:30am because i can :D strap in cause this one is gonna be a long one i think😭

okay first of all quick throwback to chapter 11 because i reread it before 12 and i still gasped like a fucking moron at the ending despite having read it 3/4x after it came out like i literally turned into that mfin pokemon meme anyways onto chapter 12!!!!

first of all i loved it everything about it so just like. jot that down real quick🙏🏽

'The fact that he couldn’t really tell when you were lying or not scared him. Really scared him.' - i did not know it when i read this but lord was this about to be true like i just know hes gonna be shitting it when he sees her and charles but anyways getting ahead of myself

the towels thing made me laugh so much god hes such a cunt i think he'd do something exactly like that😭😭

chloe is a legend i freakin love her💀💀 if she's based on a real person what a legend honestly

'You can still hate someone and have incredible sex with them right? There were books and TVs shows where that was the entire plot.' - they don't normally continue to end in hate sex tho buddy😭 god she's so blind for someone who's so smart it's honestly painful

oh my god protective!dan???? i just lost it like ik we had that in the other chapters when he helps her after baku or with that asshole guy but this just felt different idk i think its because it was at christian it just felt more important like shouting at your boss over some girl that you supposedly hate is so idk it made me feel so many things :(((

'You recognized the anger that was simmering in his eyes, it was so often directed at you so you were comfortable with it. It was familiar. But when his eyes landed on yours, the anger melted into apologies and…something you couldn’t quite put your finger on.' - if i shout 'its called love' at my phone do you think either of them will hear it because this just 😭😭 they're so blind but i love them so much also the trope of him being nasty to everyone except her kicked in a bit here (not a lot cause dan isn't nasty to everyone but yanno) and i just 🤓

'Christian looked perturbed.' - i want him to always look that way. that man should never know peace as far as i'm concerned (its horrifying how accurate you capture his asshole-ishness because not once through that whole victim blaming shit did i think oh no christian would never say that which is an Interesting thought)

' “From what Carlos said she was very…” Max finished his sentence with a low whistle' - oh honey..... you would not be saying that if you had the slightest clue💀

PLS THE SMUT OH LORD WHAT I WOULD NOT GIVE TO SEE THAT MAN ON HIS KNEES IN FRONT OF ME KSDJHSJDFH

'Now that you know he’s leaving you want him to go as quickly as possible. You are desperate for him to get out of your room so he can’t see how much you want him to stay.' - i was genuinely so upset at this bit and honestly the whole leaving thing idk it was just so interesting to me the difference between the earliest chapters where she spends time wishing for him to go, cannot wait for him to leave at just about any given moment and here in this moment, one of her vulnerable moments after they've just been intimate he's leaving like shes just another girl in his bed (well not his bed or any bed but anyways)

' “Go on then. Back to Max.” You taunted.' - almost like they're back to square one :((((

daniel thinking shes more upset at the fact someone saw her leaving than the fact he's leaving god hes so oblivious it just makes me wanna smack him upside the head

'“Then when you’re close enough….they kill you.” He opened his eyes and laughed, shooting you a wink before stepping out the door.' - this feels a bit too much like foreshadowing for a few chapters or possibly even the next good lord

i shit you not i gasped when it was charles and his reaction to finding out whats been happening is so funny and accurate like i could it imagine it exactly in my head and idk how you get them all so accurate, embody their personalities and the things they'd say so perfectly but its an incredible skill

' “Yeah, yeah, but you better talk to Daniel. I don’t need him knocking me out.”

“I’m not his property and we’re not in a relationship. I don’t need his permission. Besides, he’ll probably think it’s brilliant.” You gave him a cheesy smile.' - i have a teeny tiny feeling that daniel will have for some reason or another accidentally seen them having this conversation, gotten the wrong idea and before she can even explain what's going on, he is gonna be an asshole to her which is gonna make me so sad but a small part of me would in fact like to see it😭

ANYWAYS jesus this is so long if you open this on your phone i'll pray for you so feel free to ignore this i really don't mind!! and i'm sorry its not a whole lot of psychoanalysis i had many thoughts when i read this the first time and now it seems my brain is fried but i hope u enjoyed!!!

- formulathot

GIRL. BESTIE. BABE.

This is the most in depth response to anything I've written ever and I'm seriously so in love with it. I'm going to hit you back on every single one of these because I'm living for this rn.

Thank you for that reference to the pokemon meme because I straight up giggled at this. Ily.

Listen. I am floored that you caught this set up. Like seriously I'm so excited. It's going to definitely be a theme that he can't tell when she's lying or not and it scares the shit out of him and ESPECIALLY when it comes to things with her and Charles.

I AB. SOLUTELY. think that he would do the towel thing too!! I have a running list of things they could have/could do to each other so if you ever come up with a great idea, please pass it on.

Chloe is very similar to real life best friend 🤣

Thank you so much for thinking that I captured Christian because honestly I struggle with his scenes so much, they drag and I think it's probably because he's a drag.

Literally the same thought I had in my head about Max when I wrote this part 💀

It was so heartbreaking for me too to write that part where she wanted him to stay but she wouldn't actually SAY she wants him to stay. Girl is so scared of showing him her emotions, ya just wanna shake her. 😭

Dan really is so oblivious isn't he, god the boy is just in his own world.

I like to think he calls her a siren because it shows how absolutely terrified he really is of getting close to her 👀

"his reaction to finding out whats been happening is so funny and accurate like i could it imagine it exactly in my head and idk how you get them all so accurate, embody their personalities and the things they'd say so perfectly but its an incredible skill" This is the sweetest compliment ever because it's SO important to me for them to feel like themselves, I spend a lot of time on the dialogue making sure I could see them really saying things or acting a certain way and I seriously could cry at this compliment.

Girl. I promise you that things are gonna get chaotic and dramatic and Dan is definitely going to be an idiot. 🥴

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS. when I get notes like this on what people loved or just what they were thinking as they read, it is my favorite. This just made me so happy so THANK YOU BABE

I LOVE YOU ❤❤❤❤❤❤

[junikshanasar]

bnha chapter 320 thoughts

yea im back to this, because look how adorable froppy is like the art is so pretty-

Alrightttt I liked what i did last time so let’s go through this chapter!

oh snap. that’s called a character growth burn

That aside, I rlly like how everyone gets their own turn to face Midoriya and tell him their feelings, especially since we get a lot of action from the side characters of class A. 

Like bro

Koda didn’t just talk, he YELLED

Also

Sero’s the og spiderman here Midoriya

But yea you can rlly see the impact and relationships Midoriya has had with the people around him, and in turn how they’ve impacted him

^^ gave me a scare this panel, he looks more and more grungy

^^ Satou pulling out the big guns

This is a curious panel, because it feels like Midoriya doesn’t quite understand his own importance to the people around him, which is why seeing all his classmates explain his importance to them seems so emotional for him. It brings us back to that fact that Midoriya believes his like is expendable, or at the very least only valuable because of his responsibility for OfA.

Thank you Kaminari I thought I was the only one commenting on that. My man knows what the real priorities are lol

Nothing here, just me appreciating my favourite kid

But also Todoroki would know a thing or two about sharing burdens...

aaaaand our girl Tsuyu gets that last point.

I’ve read a comment saying that here, both sides are right. Yes, Class A has good thoughts, but Midoriya is right in being cautious because frankly AfO is vicious and brutal and very strong, and did you see Midoriya easily overtaking his classmates? I thought he would for sure lose against all his classmates but he’s holding his own WITHOUT harming anyone (granted they’re trying not to harm him back)

not counting whatever the heck Yaoyorozu had going like dude ik it was just smthing to make him sleep but man that looks scary:

woww she’s so pretty

anyway the comment mentioned that his classmates may just end up as liabilities and hold him back and that even if they forcefully made him rest up, he would just leave again.

But that’s the thing, isn’t it?

Midoriya may be strong, but for how long? He is NOT going to last at this rate, he isn’t even keeping his health and hygiene in check. There’s a reason proper rest is important, because if you can’t take care of yourself how can you take care of others? 

He’s stubborn and determined and barreling down one path without noticing the things around him (staring ahead blindly, as I said before), and even if he does end up just yeeting after some rest, at least it will be with a clearer mind. Like honestly, notice how the people he saves explicitly note how villainous he looks? Yet that doesn’t deter him at all. He doesn’t even stop to think why that might be, why it would be a problem.

There’s a reason All Might always smiles, the image may sound shallow but it’s actually very important in order to give people hope and positive emotions, which they need more than ever in this newly-turned dark world. Midoriya is not at all living up to being a hero or All Might’s disciple - Heck, he’s playing into AfO’s hands by being this out of sorts. 

Did you see that potatohead’s smirk? He was totally expecting Midoriya to push himself to the breaking point.

So his friends aren’t there to hold him back; they’re there to step on the brakes entirely. They’re there because as his friends they can convince him to take a break and go forward with a less destructive determination, in a way the other pros, not even All Might, cannot. (it’s called peer pressure for a reason lol)

At the same time, they’re also the perfect people to tell Midoriya that he’s important for being Midoriya, not for his quirk(s). Tsuyu is the one who explicitly states this (the others mentioned all the ways Midoriya is their friend), and she also outlines on of the main themes on the series that’s been brought up multiple times:

I don’t think I’ve seen Midoriya go this long without crying or trembling before. Right now he’s way stronger, but he’s also not a hero - not the way he was before.

Alright, that’s all for me, so I shall leave you with my favourite image of this chapter:

(i totally did a double-take cause i thought Midoriya went SPLAT! against the building)

[iayhifbigyakwiltbsywps]

Fuckkk I had something really long written but my connection failed and now I can’t find it but this is important if you or someone you know has adhd and takes stimulant medications like methylphenidate. This will probably be weird because I wrote the original like 12 hours ago and I just got home so if the other one magically reappears then they will be really different.

Basically I wanted to make people aware that taking stimulant medications has the potential to do more harm than good. I have adhd and have drank concerta since the third grade and im currently in 11th. I have been noticing throughout the 2019-now time period that I really have lost all motivation and that I don’t really have interest in anything even getting up to eat. And I was like ‘well that’s not alright’ and so I did what every one does: I googled it. I asked google “can adhd medications cause brain damage and lessen motivation?” And honestly I was not really expecting an answer, kinda just hoping to see blankness and be relived that it was just something random I thought. Boy was I surprised.

I actually found this:

This is literally the answer I was too scared to find because a) it proved my suspicions correct and did kinda bring a different kind of relief in knowing I’m not just hysteric and b) this hit wayyy too close to home. The part in blue feels wayyy too familiar to me because all I do Is be on my bed on my phone most of tinge time and my parants keep getting concerned and like “go get a job, find a hobby, do something!” And I am honestly strangely alright with my situation, like I hate it but I still don’t try to change it because I can’t!

Forgot what else I could of said there on the fist draft, but onto the next peice of evidence!

This pretty much said that this meds were tested on rats and that the rats ended up losing all motivation to even react when they should be looking to escape a bad situation. That once the medication stops we no longer have drive to motivation.

This also states that the nucleus accumbens is the part of the brain that forms motivation into action and when you take these meds your actually risking it shrinking and leading to no motivational drive.

Also that there are other options if you are convinced you or your child needs help to lead a successful life then there are other options that are not stimulants!

I also found some videos but could only resurfaced one which I think is the most important: https://youtu.be/nif8TFPhjuI

This video basically talks about one of the beginning trails of adhd medications that ended up being a huge success after the recorded 14 months that this trial was conducted, but what most people who do their research probably don’t dig deep enough to check that after they took the pills away they came back 3 years later to see how they faired. Turns out that the my were actually worse and the adhd was too much or something. ( sorry I’m trying to remember what I wrote but I only slept like 10 minutes last night and it’s already 1am so my eyes are shutting)

I can’t remember much right nos but if I find the other articles or videos Ik re log or something.

Here are the links to the articles:

https://www.nytimes.com/roomfordebate/2012/06/09/fewer-prescriptions-for-adhd-less-drug-abuse/adhd-drugs-have-long-term-risks

https://www.leonardsax.com/stimulants.htm

There were more but I’m fighting To stay awake right now sorry.

Oh I just remembered something:

This is what happens when you give stimulants to a brain that is underdeveloped (brains aren’t yet developed until they are like 21) so if y’all need meds try taking non stimulants or else you’ll just cause growth problems for yourself

I really hope some people find this useful and that no one goes through what I am cuz it really kinda sucks and I hate it but I can’t do much to change it.

Also after hours trying to figure out a way to tell my mom I had finally told her and you know what she said? She said “if we take you of these meds will you promise to try to care about yourself more?” And like I didn’t say anything but sure mom I totally didn’t just work up the courage to try and tell you within the day I found this informants on when it would usually take me months to say things I think are important but yeah I totally need to try a bit more ugh!

Honestly I think it’s shit that I’m not even 18 yet and I already feel like all my fight has gone out of me. Like if it weren’t for my parents that actually care about me I would of let myself starve to death. And now there’s no way to thank them because I can barely move to get food much less show them my thanks. Mom dad I love you and I’m sorry my brain if fucked up.

Hi just a little edit here, I wanted to say that both articles are by the same person I just put the second one because the link didn’t work for me so I had to look for their actual page that was mentioned. But also I read further down on the second article and I saw there are more links to other related articles in the second link where this person wrote their actual research and citations

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Hey Sunny.........I am having a major burnout.....just full on academic frustration and I want to cry because I did my second and third exam for the sem finals so terribly. I have never ever written an exam this bad.....I was the topper of my class throughout 11th and 12th grade and now I feel like I am being stretched in all directions and I feel so fucking hopeless sometimes. Lots of things happened to me last year and well.....I wasn't given time to process....to grieve or mourn or just fucking cry out loud at all.......I am just feeling so fucking sad and I feel so dejected at myself. As much as I wanna ask for help, I feel weak because the culture that surrounds me bashes a person who dares to ask for help in the first place. I just want someone to hold me and let me cry until I just fall asleep from crying because God knows how long I have been just repressing all sadness in me just so I can be seen as the 'jovial' kid. I am so frustrated and mad at myself because I feel like I will never recover for whatever has happened to me and that I will never get to live my life the way I want......ya know be queer and free and live as such. Sorry for the rant, I just didn't know who to talk to.

- ❤️ anon

Hey bub 💕 first off, you have no reason to apologize. I always love when you show up in mg inbox :) im sorry that you're going through such a rough time rn. It seems like a lot of stuff is happening at once which os making it difficult for you to cope and function, and i am so sorry for that. I'm not the best at giving advice, but hopefully my past experiences can ease your pain:

I was depressed throughout college. I was away from home, i was living in the basement of my conservative aunt and uncle's house, i lived off campus so i didn't make any friends or join any clubs. I was so unbearably lonely and sad that i often cried once i was alone. Ofc there were happy times, but it was a very stressful three years of my life. It's not easy, there's a lot going on that can cause burnout, but it's important for you to prioritize your health over your grades. Ik it's easier said than done but you have to do it. Turn off and put away all school related items. Take some time to breathe and just let yourself meditate and clear your mind. Take a nap if you want to. Your brain is struggling to keep up with everything, you have to let it rest. Make a recipe that reminds you of the past and brings back happy memories. Watch a comfort show. Talk to family or friends that make you feel better. Just gove yourself some time to decompress bc you will not be able to continue studying if you are still overwhelmed.

I'm gonna let you in on a secret: it doesn't matter if you fail. It doesn't matter if you do terribly on your exams and fail a class bc you can always take it again. The funny thing about university is that it feels very important but it's similar to high school in that no one cares about your grades as long as you have a degree. There was one class i took that i got a 1.5 GPA on, and the only reason i passed the 1.0 GPA requirement for it was bc covid made learning remote so i was essentially able to cheat on my last exam sksksk. But i never think about that class a year after graduation. It has no effect on my day to day life. It will never affect me in the future. I have my bachelor's degree and i have a plan for the future. Life moves on.

But maybe you're just scared of the idea of failure in general, but everything happens for a reason. I was devastated when all of my vet school applications wete rejected. I felt like a failure and that i wasn't good enough and never would be good enough, but if that had never happened then i wouldn't have all the experiences i have today. I wouldn't have a new job that i love and i may not have made improvements in my life. Your failures give you opportunities to learn and grow, and you can make more informed decisions with your newfound knowledge. It's still scary bc you still fear failure, but now you have experience to look back on and reference when in a similar situation. Think about what worked and didn't work for you on your exams. Is there any way to talk to your professor about them? Perhaps you could go over your strengths and weaknesses to find out what you need to work on for your next tests. Idk what country you're in but many professors enjoy when students are passionate about improving upon their grades, so it wouldn't hurt to reach out and ask for help.

Ik it's hard, but you need to allow yourself to be weak. You need to allow yourself to cry until you're exhausted. Crying helps the body release excess chemicals, including those that stress you out like cortisol. Ik it's difficult, but you need to let this biological process happen so that your body can rebalance itself and function properly. The longer you push it down, the harder it will be on your brain and body. So just cry. In your pillow, in the shower, in public: wherever you want. Just let it out. Let yourself feel those feelings. Here's a good graphic to help you do that:

If it's any consolation, I've felt the way you have before. I've felt hopeless and awful and i convinced myself i would never be happy. Just last year i believed people who called me a narcissist, manipulative, a psycho, pathetic, a gaslighter, etc etc. I hung onto those words and convinced myself that i would never be happy bc i didn't deserve it.

Well guess fucking what, i am happy skskks. Im lucky enough to be able to attend therapy and i worked on things with a therapist and with this hard work and time gone by, im better. Im happy. I felt hopeless but i kept on living and now im experiencing so many new an wonderful things! I would've never guessed i would've been this happy a year or two ago, but i am. Sometimes it just takes time. Life will continue despite how stuck you feel, and you will move past these life events and you will smile and you will laugh and you will be able to breathe without struggling not to cry. You need to allow yourself time to heal and grow. Be patient with yourself. You are not perfect, you are human, which is much more exciting than perfection in my humble opinion. If i was there i would give you the biggest hug, squeeze you tight and rock you side to side and let you cry. And once you've gotten it out of your system, I'll make you some food. Maybe broccoli cheddar soup with toasted sourdough. Ooo and apple pie for dessert, with vanilla ice cream. Something yummy that's definitely self indulgent sksksk.

I hope you feel better soon bubby. I hope my words help in some way and if not i apologize. If you want to talk in private, my dms are always open 💕

[still-a-morosexual-help]

OBEY ME! LESSON 49 DETAILED SUMMARY + THEORIES

One locked lesson

Mammon, Luke & MC are visiting Diavolo’s hotel. Mammon talks about wanting to book a suite and have a party, Luke says he doesn’t like the devildom opening businesses in the human world cause he’s scared they’ll take it over completely. Barbatos says that Diavolo is only interested in coexisting in peace & if he’s gonna snitch to Michael he should tell him their actual intentions. Luke says he’s not a tattletale Mammon vehemently disagrees with that. Barbatos reveals that Diavolo & Levi have started staying up till dawn gaming together (I’m so happy they’re friends!). Mammon said he never knew that Levi previously had issues against Diavolo. When Luke asks where Diavolo is Barbatos tells him he’s out on a date with Lucifer. Mammon asks about Barbatos’ choice of human clothes and MC says he looks really good in it. He says the look he was going for is ‘tea leaf importer’. In a private lounge Barbatos serves them fairy ring tea which surprises Mammon & Luke. In the Devildom on rare occasions small sparkling golden flowers grow in a ring rather than the more usual mushrooms, and the teas is supposed to smell like those flowers. He says despite what the ring is made of there’s a legend they form when fairies dance in a circle. Luke says the tea smells and tastes amazing and MC asks if fairies are real. Barbatos says fairies in the human world are supposedly extinct and us humans are really fucking up the ecosystem huh

Mammon seems really disappointed by that and when MC asks why he says that treasure can be found near fairies, leprechauns are also related to fairies btw. Barbatos says there’s still a chance there are fairies somewhere in the human realm – there are rumours about fairy rings made of flowers in the human realm which can only be caused by fairies whereas mushroom fairy rings have a scientific explanation. And that there are rumours that those flowers can be used to make a rare sweet. Obviously Mammon & Luke are excited about finding fairies for their own reasons (AND is this gonna be a Mammon & Luke lesson!??? I desperately need that) and MC says lol good luck with that anyway byeeeee~ Mammon & Luke immediately strongarm MC into coming along. Barbatos tells them to bring some flowers back and he’ll make tea for them out of it. Luke & Mammon briefly argue about whether they’re after sweets or money, and Luke wonders where they might even start looking. Mammon suggests going to a library to find out what they can and Luke is surprised Mammon suggested that to which Mammon gets annoyed.

Mammon suggests splitting up to be more efficient and Luke is surprised ‘efficient’ is part of Mammon’s vocabulary. MC can go with either of the boys. With Luke; they find books about angels and demons, including a picture of Michael but nothing about fairies. Luke says the picture doesn’t capture how amazing Michael really is. MC can say A.) that Luke seems to really love Michael. He says everyone loves Michael before remembering the brothers and saying they’re the only ones who don’t (no offense but everything I hear about Michael has made me highly suspicious of him too – I’ll get into that later). B.) MC asks how Michael’s been doing lately and Luke says the way they worded it made it sound like they know him personally. But he says it’s understandable that they’re curious when Michael’s the greatest angel to exist (how can you say that when Simeon is literally raising you!?). He says Michael is till sad about what happened with the brothers and seems to regret it and that though their portraits are no longer in the Celestial palace you can find Michael standing and staring at the empty spot looking lost time and time again – that though he doesn’t say it, he misses them (I’LL GET INTO IT). Luke says that the brothers are happy in their new home and have forgotten the celestial realm and Michael and that after meeting them Luke acknowledges that they have a FEW good qualities but whenever he remembers Michael standing under that empty spot and how the brothers don’t even stop to think about how Michael feels or to look at things from Michael’s perspective he gets pissed off (do…do you think Luke knows about Lilith…..I – I highly doubt it because the circumstances behind her death and everything we’ve seen and heard about the celestial realm so far makes me feel like the brothers were completely justified to leave it all behind). With Mammon; He finds a book about Angels, Demons, Fairies and their worlds – though it’s mostly about angels and angel!Lucifer. Mammon asks where the part about him is and MC says they’d love to hear about his time as an angel. He says he was really talented and that Lucifer recommended him to be a Cherubim (so the others as angels said that angel!Mammon could do anything he set his mind to and we’ve seen that despite what his brothers say Mammon actually has a pretty vast array of skills and can really step up and be the responsible big brother when it’s needed so am I the only one who feels like Mammon’s that ‘gifted’ kid in highschool who got burnt out and then said fuck it and decided to stop trying? And now everyone looks at him shakes their head and asks wtf happened to him? Solmare gave me a blank canvas of a character to project on to and instead I go and choose Mammon :))) I’m in pain). Michael & Raphael treated Mammon like he was a problem child but Lucifer saw his potential (GIVE ME THEIR BACKSTORY!). MC can ask A.) If he was sad to leave the Celestial Realm. He looks surprised and then thoughtful and distant and says he never thought about it. He says dwelling on the past isn’t his thing but if he had to pick he’d say he didn’t miss it. But he doesn’t hate it and or like he never wants to go back and that he doesn’t hold a grudge (okay so usually during a Mammon centric lesson I write this after I finish the whole lesson instead of one by one after each chapter like I usually do and I’m gonna tell you things happen that show that he might’ve been unconsciously lying about the grudge thing). He says he doesn’t know how his brothers feel and that they maybe less happy with the celestial realm than he is (calling back to the grudge thing we know Mammon tends to bottle things up emotionally, specially when it’s things that hurt him, we also know that right after they fell Mammon was the one who took care of everyone so I think it’s very likely while the others had their emotional fallout about Falling and Lilith and being Demons and Satan’s birth Mammon just never got the chance as he was taking care of their well being and I have this whole fic floating in my head about it let’s see if I put it into words). He says even if they wanted to it’s not like they could go back )  B.) If he loved Lucifer back then. Mammon goes Loved!? LOVED!? -ED!? PAST TENSE!? I still love him and fjeodkkfnak BABY! (love that angel!Mammon refused to admit he loved Lucifer while demon!Mammon was like fuck yeah I love him what’dya think!?). Mammon then blushes and then tells MC not to tell Lucifer cause he’ll get a ‘I knew it’ look and grin like he was self-satisfied. Given how happy Lucifer became the last two times Mammon admitted to caring about him and how in the recent lessons Lucifer said he didn’t think his brothers love him I really want them to tell Lucifer. In the end they don’t find anything. Mammon wants to quit. Luke doesn’t want to, he wants to see Michael’s face when he eats one of the Legendary sweets. Mammon gets annoyed saying that Luke’s always going on about Michael and asking if he’s worth it (NO GRUDGE HMMMMMM?!) Luke gets really pissed in return. Mammon laughs and tells him to cool down and that despite being a demon he’s being honest and asks why a ‘goody-two shoes angel’ so pissed (no grudge huh? I mean it’s miniscule rn but everything’s way too complicated for Mammon to be just over it). Solomon interrupts them and tells them to stop shouting. Okay so first off starting from S2 Michael’s being brought up a LOT and I’m pretty sure MC spoke with as well and nearly met him and he said he’ll have to meet them on a later day. S3’s going into depth about the Celestial Realm and Michael’s getting way more mentions and they’ve started bringing up Raphael as well and at this point I’m 100% sure they’re gonna actually introduce them as new characters? Maybe by the end of the season? And I’d love this cause I need new dynamics and to learn more about the brothers’ past and the celestial realm but it also sucks cause I have such a clear vision of what they look like and ik solmare’s gonna destroy that. ANYWAY I don’t think they’ll introduce “bad guys” to the story given that this is a dating sim at the end of the day and Michael & Raphael will probably wanna bang MC too but with what they’ve given so far the Celestial Realm and the higher up angels seem very morally dubious? We know that Michael as an angel gave out punishments that were worse than Lucifer as a demon – Mammon saying he still shakes when remembering them thousands of years later. We know they were against mixing with humans and demons – enough that they were willing to kill off an angel for healing a human. We know they supported the war with the demons and were not actively looking for a peaceful end to it unlike Diavolo (to the point that even Lucifer one of the highest angel in ranking was surprised by the notion of peace). We know their rules were much more strict than that of the Devildom and Raphael acted as somewhat of an enforcer and he considered human parties immoral. We know they highly looked down on the demons and considered them pure evil & below them despite not really knowing anything about them. And sure all of these facts are things that happened when the brothers were still in the celestial realm and I bet they’ve changed after thousands of years and are more open minded, but have they changed enough? The way ‘Michael’ spoke to MC when he called the brothers wicked despite not really knowing what they are like as demons, despite the fact that ‘wicked’ doesn’t cover what the brothers are at all and that there are probably humans who are worse people than them, that he thought MC would be wicked too just because the brothers liked them, the fact that Luke still had these beliefs that all demons were evil and terrible despite having never met a demon, which were the same beliefs angel!Lucifer had when he met Diavolo thousands of years later, the fact the angels still have a very strict idea of what exactly an angel should be like and enforced those ideas on the brothers during the angel event to the point that after they were back to normal they all freaked out. All makes the angels seem highly…..um? questionable. Also luke said Michael missed the brother, but does Michael actually miss them or does he miss the perfect angel versions of them? We know in the celestial realm the brothers had to repress a lot of their urges, likes and even small parts of their inherent personalities to be accepted/to not be threatened to be kicked out (ex: Mammon supressing his pranks/more playful/mischievous side in the celestial realm vs being comfortable enough to fully express that side despite Lucifer’s punishments in the devildom) to the point that they had a secret room they’d escape to just so they could skip work/hang out/relax, we know angels still see demons as evil beings and probably don’t still accept them despite the peace, we know that Michael’s view of the brothers as ‘perfect angels’ completely strips them of any identifiable characteristics even if you were to compare them to what they were like when they were really angels. So when luke says Michael misses them I feel like he doesn’t miss them he misses them as these perfect angel versions of themselves that never really existed. If this season is about getting MC’s stars will next season be about getting Michael and Raphael to accept the brothers for how they truly are? More interdimensional therapy sessions? Does this make sense? Talk to me

Solomon says he doesn’t know what happened to the fairies but that they’d have more luck finding them if they went out and looked deep in places free from human influence than looking for info in a human library. Mammon says Solomon should change his name to the “not so wise” & Solomon says it’s not like he came up with his nickname in the first place. Luke has the idea to ask Crowe for help. When Mammon asks Levi about his falling out with Crowe Levi says though they aren’t friends anymore he’s still useful. MC asks crowe where they can find fairies and they find out about rumours near Lake Io Lanthe. Though they can only get there and back within a day with a private jet. Mammon says it’s not like they can use their own wings to fly in the human world either and I’M!!!!!!? would Mammon have had to carry MC? Have they seen the brothers flying in the devildom? Has anyone carried them and flown? In the end they decide on an overnight train ride. Levi says the “kids” should probably first get permission from the “adults.” MC who’s a fully independent grown adult doesn’t need permission.

Simeon happily agrees as long as they can find someone to cover Luke’s shifts in the café. Luke asks MC which of the brothers they should ask, there are 6 options and for each the 3 of them imagine the scenario that would take place. 1.) Levi; Simeon getting steadily more and more irritated while Levi tries to win a game instead of working till black-purple smoke is rising out from Simeon even as he smiles sweetly and calls Levi. 2.) Lucifer; looking deeply disappointed with crossed arms says “So, are you going to tell me your order or not? Hurry up. I don’t have all day. I have (list of café related chores) French chocolate cake with hot cocoa? Are you insane? Who in their right mind would pair chocolate cake with hot chocolate?” why is this so funny!?? 3.) Satan; Fully serious “Simeon, table two wants an earl grey. And a pretty kitty special to go with it.” Simeon, “WTF is a pretty kitty special!?” The pretty kitty special is paw shaped pancakes and Simeon thinks they’re cute. In this universe no customers or Levis are harmed. 4.) Asmo; Asmo starts almost instantly hitting on the customer. “You know I don’t usually do this but how about I sit down with you for tea?” Luke says while bright red, “ABSOLUTELY NOT! He’ll turn the Angel’s Halo into a different sort of place.” And umm Luke buddy what exactly were you thinking of here… 5.) Beel; Simeon: Hey have you seen the BLTs? Beel: *actively munching away* No. Can’t find them? Want me to help? Simeon: …Nevermind 6.) Belphie; Orders food for himself from Simeon during a lull in the customers and takes a nap before Simeon even gives it to him. In the end they decide on Satan.

They find Satan at the pizza place watching his tab with a serious expression, Luke wonders if he’s learning new things about the human world (languages, the economy, etc) Mammon says that’s the face he makes when he watches cat videos. When Mammon tries calling him he pretends he doesn’t know them until Mammon’s yelling his name and he can no longer ignore them (Wonder how humans feel about some buy yelling ‘SATAN’ in the middle of a diner). Satan immediately refuses to work at the café cause he’s busy (watching cat videos) until MC lies through their teeth and says that Simeon wants to turn the café into a cat café. Luke jumps on board instantly and starts supporting MC’s claims further adding that as a cat lover they need Satan’s advice and that working part time at the café will give him a better understanding to how the business is normally run. He then agrees to help. (Luke none of that lying seems really angelic…). At the café Satan immediately goes “okay, so… let’s talk cats”. And Simeon’s like????????

At home Lucifer’s still not back from his date & they tell others about their plans for the trip. Asmo says if he had a choice he’d like to meet Narcissus… Mammon tries to play off the fact that he’s nervous about asking permission from Lucifer and Belphie tells them to watch out for Banshees – a type of fairy - when they get there (I first heard about banshees as a little kid and they freaked the shit outta me, gave me way more anxiety than I already had). Satan says there are lots of types of fairies including those that make you fall in love. Mammon is way more interested in them than in Banshees – Asmo tells him he’s being a pervert. Lucifer arrives after dinner and they follow him to his room. Lucifer says a quiet lake might give Mammon the chance for some self-reflection and personal growth (pretty sure Lucifer needs that too ngl) and it’ll give Lucifer some peace and quiet but also who the fuck’s gonna pay for you huh!? Mammon tries to play the “my favourite older brother” card. Lucifer disagrees and they decide to gamble on it – if Mammon wins he gets to go and if Lucifer wins Mammon gets bathroom cleaning duty for a week. Lucifer says Mammon’ll just cheat so MC volunteers to play and Mammon gets really happy that they’d do that for him, saying he feels like crying. Lucifer agrees except if they lose BOTH of them get bathroom duty. MC has to guess if the card Lucifer draws is odd or even. Even’s correct and they get to go without a fuss. If they pick even they lose.

If they lose the next chapter starts with Mammon crying in MC’s room about MC and Luke being allowed to go and not him and how with MC gone bathroom duty is all his, MC says they’ll do anything to get him to forgive them and he blushes and asks them to stay with him till he allows them to leave and that means they’re gonna be at it all night…. ALL RIGHT ANYWAY Luke then texts them saying he’s impressed that they managed to convince Lucifer to let Mammon go and that Lucifer had actually sent Luke three tickets for “Mammon’s journey of Personal Growth” and Lucifer’s such a good dad sometimes I can’t deal with this BS. Mammon immediately runs off to thank Lucifer and you can then hear lucifer screaming at Mammon to get out and stop hugging him cause he’s in the shower and I love them both so much I NEED them being soft to each other more and the only reason Mammon ended up being the avatar of greed is cause Lucifer probably spoilt him rotten growing up *cough*Lucifer’s B’day Present To Him*cough*. If they win the next chapter starts in Mammon’s room where he’s asking crowe, who’s apparently been borrowed from Levi, how much money he could make selling fairy ring flowers, he then asks MC to ask crowe something too. They can ask crowe about tomorrow’s weather or tease Mammon by either asking crowe how to control Mammon or asking if they’re compatible with Mammon. Mammon blushes but Crowe says they’re fairly compatible and if they can control Mammon’s self-destructive tendencies and how he puts money before everything they may last – mammon says all of that is wrong (I mean we have seen that he actually puts MC before money and material goods quite a few times so yeah…). He says they already know how well they work together better than anyone in all the 3 worlds and they don’t need anyone to tell them that and MC kisses him. Mammon blushes and says “yeah ik Luke’s gonna be with us but let’s try and get our own room to share cause this is the one chance to get time alone away from the others so we can have all kinds of fun. Though we can still have plenty of fun rn” and then he calls them closer and the screen fades to black :) It later opens to screams being heard from inside the house somewhere.