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internalised ableism sucks every dick in the world. what do you mean not only will random strangers be ableist to me (not even overtly), but my own brain will do the same thing????
#idk just lamenting#shit’s so fucking stupid bruh#i’m very much wedged between mourning the life i could be living and the fact that i probably wouldn’t be living such a life even if i#wasn’t disabled#it’s laughable really#like who do i think i am??#congrats dad your lesbian daughter won’t embarrass you since she won’t date anyone anyways#she won’t get a man she won’t get a woman or anything in between#i will always find a way to ruin everything#genuinely curious why i waste time wanting this when it’s never gonna happen and i should just make peace with it#it’s pathetic otherwise#genuinely don’t feel attractive or worthwhile currently#like yeah yeah my worth isn’t just in my attractiveness#but i don’t feel worthy in other areas either#i neglect my friends#i cant function as a normal human being#my own body constantly betrays me#and even if it didn’t i wouldn’t have anything to offer still#it is just made worse in the situation i find myself in now#which isn’t gonna change#so yeah#i’m not much of a friend to the few i have and genuinely don’t get why they like me#i have been and will continue to be a shit romantic partner#i’m a shitty daughter#just all around shit basically#god whatever i’m being so fucking stupid#ya know what my problem is?#i don’t know what it’s like to not be unbearably lonely#and whatever reprieve i get i spoil#idk delete later
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while i do agree that saying rhaenyra’s inheritance is rightfully hers based on the fact that her daddy said so is incredibly weak and very much entitled of her (i can literally talk about this at length) it’s also a weak take to say she isn’t the rightful heir because of *checks notes* ah, misogyny. like, come on.
#rhaenyra targaryen#house of the dragon#hotd#i do agree and before anyone comes for my ass i thought it was very funny when emma said that ok no hate to that beautiful angel person#they were both (aegon and rhaenyra) “given” that inheritance if it’s a thing about character none of them “earned” it#“so i think aegon is the rightful heir bc he is the first born son”..... 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐#y’all always bring up the great council i ain’t even gonna go there bc i just don’t want to#rhaenyra’s THE ELDEST BOY idc#plus what really like really actually determinates what makes them “rightful” heirs to something like that?????#mind im not even team black nor team green but this is seriously a very weak take#you can argue about the multiple holes in rhaenyra’s heirship but i don’t really think anyone can argue about the legitimacy of it#i DO blame visery’s for the dance bc he never actually stood up in a meaningful wayfor his chosen heir#and i’m not trying to blame CHILD rhaenyra for not even trying to secure her heirship beyond her dad’s word#but she grew up and still did not gaf#which actively fuled the green’s cause not that aegon was any better but ykwim#n sayin she isn’t the rightful heir based on law... law can be change?? and didn’t they use to say back then that the king’s word was law???
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Can I be mega autistic here and vent for a second and ask if anyone else is lowkey scared for whatever the next RE game is HSBWHDNDJ
#having hyperfixations/special interests combined with a PARALYSING fear of change SUUUUUCKSSS MAAAAANN. IT SUCKS ASS#like realistically I KNOW it’s silly and I KNOW I’ve got nothing to stress over BUT ITS STRESSING ME OUT BAD AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO#RE4R/Luis has been SUCH a massive comfort of mine and turned into a full blown special interest and I guess the thing I’m most scared of is#the fandom moving on and forgetting abt re4r/luis as a whole which again I KNOW is silly but I can’t control my brain!!!!#and also combined with the fact that Luis probably isn’t coming back to the franchise at least anytime soon is HEARTBREAKING man. like thats#my special interest!! that’s the thing I’ve poured hours of my time into!!!!! I’m scared to see people move on#he’s already a fairly unpopular character in the wider fandom too!! and the fact that the content we do have of him is ALL we’re gonna have?#I dunno that makes me so much more stressed out and anxious than I should be which. again. I KNOOOOOOWW IS SILLY BUT I CANT HELP IT MAN#THE AUTISM!! THE AUTISMMMMM#I dunno I’m expecting Capcom to announce their next game this summer fest and it’s genuinely stressing me out sm which I hate#I hate being so afraid of change it sucks so much man#anyways sorry for the massive vent I just had to get this off my chest cuz it’s been weighing me down massively and making me more anxious#than it has any right to BCNDNENDJXJ#and again the fact that there’s a solid chance we may never see him again at lest not anytime soon is so so so so so devastating to me it#again makes me so much more upset than it has any right to HDNSHENDJDJ#not to mention people who are already weirdly mean and nasty to people who DO like him. I’m Not having a Time rn
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Sejanus is like Chappell Roan in the sense that he was only ever meant to be loved by queer people, but it got out of hand, and now there’s way too many cishets who don’t get him, expressing opinions about him.
Sejanus I’m sorry that your character keeps getting absolutely murdered and turned into everything you’re not, just cause a bunch of straight girls wanna fuck the actor who played you in that horrible adaptation, and keep projecting their fantasies onto you, and aside from how bad that is, they won’t even admit the objective truth that the actor was actually a terrible pick for you and he doesn’t fit you at all
#i always hold my tongue let me be a bitch!!!!!!#i’m tiireddddddd#also kindly asking for no reblogs <3#and this is a joke but also not#the wording is a joke but i mean everything i said#and guess what? i’m right about everything i said too!!!#he’s a gay for the gays not whatever the fuck is going on in this fandom#the problem is not cishet people in itself#the problem is cishet people who go against everything canon about him to change him into whatever they want to fulfill their fantasies#i’m sorry girls but book sejanus aka the only valid sejanus is a homosexual 18yo who likes older men#and he’s not a buff dom daddy IN THE SLIGHTEST#nor is he manly like josh is#he’s canonically still very boyish and childlike there’s actually nothing manly about him#if he were real none of you would like him as much as you think you do or would have a chance with him#this fandom talks about a completely made up character or oftentimes ABOUT CORIOLANUS SNOW slapping sejanus’s name on it#and it’s…. questionable to say the least and to be very kind about it#also enjoy the movie enjoy the casting whatever the fuck but don’t pretend it’s good!!!!#the casting in tbosas is just as ass as in the other movies both for side characters and for the main characters#and josh is not one bit suited for the role of sejanus for multiple reasons#nothing to do with his acting skills but no i’m not gonna get into it#that’s a post in and of itself the tags are not its place to be#and the fandom isn’t ready to hear it anyways nor would want to#it would either fall on deaf ears or ppl would get offended and defensive without hearing reason#many straight up wouldn’t care and would keep mischaracterizing sejanus to fit their little fantasies#which is just weird as fuck let's be honest#in general the fandom’s treatment of sejanus is absolutely fucking disgusting but i’ll hold my tongue for longer on that#might delete this at some point might not#definitely not tagging properly cause this is just me getting stuff off my chest
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funniest thing they could do rn is to say that the girl in the fansa scandal isn’t actually hiyori, but just someone with a similar hairstyle
#i mean. y’know. it’s not out of the realm of possibility right? anyone could have short dark hair and bangs…#people can have the same hairstyle. even idols.#if i had a dollar every time i saw an idol with short dark blue hair in the idol series i’d have $3#which isn’t a lot. but there’s like one in every other group (yujiro lxl; yozora apparemanten; riina frusu)#so. like. my point is: ([redacted] anime notwithstanding) that could still be anyone.#it could still be retconned though. like asuka’s existence#plus the fansa scandal was from years ago… before nagisa’s first appearance even. a lot has changed since then#like. they threw out p much the entirety of hiyori’s first solo song. a *whole song* retconned just like that#so… who’s to say that they won’t retcon an unresolved two-off mv image?#this has truly been our honey ‘unsolved’ works#tune in next time for installment 6 of honey 10 works#(it’s never gonna come out is it…)#ummmmm… right. the fansa scandal sure was one of the evidence for yhy shippers huh…#but wellllll. guess we’ll see how the mvs go from here~~~~~~~~~~~
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all of a sudden today everything has kind of just gone silent in my corner of the internet and my friends aren’t on their phones anymore and now im alone
#i am better than i was yesterday but im still just feeling so heavy and bad and like i can’t do anything but think about this#this is gonna stick with me for a long time but i hope by tomorrow i can start moving forward a little more#everything is just quiet now and i have to deal with the very real fact that this happened and nothing can be changed#its a new reality now and im having trouble accepting it#but ill be fine#its just very quiet today as everyone processes this on their own#I know this isn’t true at all but now that it’s quieter i feel like everyone has already moved on and im the last one still in the trenches#that big sense of community we all felt the last two days has already fallen away at least in my corner of the internet#now its just normal… which hurts#anyway. i think ill watch this is us soon for some nostalgia and coping cause i need to grieve a little more#hope everyone is doing okay today#one direction#liam payne
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SOOO WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT SEASON 4???
(love your art btw!!!)
smeltbracket found dead in this kitchen
#okay in all seriousness though i fucking loved it#hands down favorite episode was earth rake#but also contending is stockiverse and.. Bouillabaisse..#i really love how family focused this season is. dont get me started on tervo. i love how much nicer everyone is to each other#except for them really juicing up korvo’s bitchiness in super gooblers (which i guess was meant to push jesse into her confrontation)#speaking of korvo his voice was a delight this season. just so expressive and is now up there with the rest of the casts distinct voices#i guess trying to ease back into finales that end with a season reset#and why didnt pupa change color??#overall it was pretty fucking great. had black spots in my vision during the invisible kitchen scene#tervo this season was fucking crazy my god what are they gonna do for the valentine special#UGHHH. they really keep raising the bar every season. SOOOO GOOD#this isn’t a very In Depth discussion of my thoughts sorry i need to spend more time in this seasons nooks and crannies#ooh ohh and the replicants this season were so cute too. THEY GREW TOGETHERRR#i liked the shlorp lore and little peeks into their past too#anyways i got sidetracked yeah amazing season#I FORGOT TO MENTION THE ANIMATION#THE ANIMATION THIS SEASON WAS BONKERS DUDE. LOVED HOW FLUID IT WAS AND ALL THE FUN NEW EXPRESSIONS THE SOLARS HAD#THAT SCENE OF THEM SAYING DEENOSAUR WAS LIKE MY FAVORITE EXAMPLE#gonna keep adding as i remember things im glad they wanted to explore jesses character more#but i dont like how they jeopardized korvos character for them to get there#kinda made him backtrack his progress for the sake of that episode :/ just a really big shift i wasnt a fan of#and they didnt make him feel remorse that whole episode either he didnt even say sorry :/#also terry was just chill with chris that whole episode? have we just moved past the hall of betrayals thing?#i guess jesse’s roast about him being sky blue really just set him off for the rest of the season#he needs to talk to someone professional#i feel like solars is a really weird blend of being umm. Emotionally episodic
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do you think Nadeko has a stance on free will and determinism?
I think Nadeko would not initially know what determinism means, art is Nadeko’s only good class.
But if you explained it I think Nadeko (of now) would probably have an arc abt it and think “I thought like that a few years ago, when I was really miserable in middle school I felt like I couldn’t really change anything and it had to be that way. But now a days I’m doing what I want so I find it hard to think that it’s all predetermined in some way. If so then fate is stranger than I could imagine.”
Nadeko really comes to believe in the human element of their existence over time so it’s probably not gonna b something (modern) Nadeko puts personal stock in
That or the thought would be something like “it’s kinda like shonen manga in a way isn’t it?” And then proceed to think abt the concept of fate in manga
For koi or otori or even before that Nadeko I think she’d go “…that’s interesting.” And then it would haunt her/feed into the complexes for a while, the fatalism of “I have to be this forever.” Is a big part of Nadeko’s whole deal and finding out about determinism would probably blend into the ambiguous concepts of fatalism that exists In Nadeko’s mind (I can see Nadeko easily conflating those)
Decent chance it could make nadeko worse solely bc of Nadeko’s complex on autonomy is just, like that. And adding unregulated words could easily factor into Nadeko’s mental list of excuses and justifications for not trying to self improve (or change anything about how much she hates her own pretty privilege and social dehumanization but is too comfortable in lukewarm misery to get out) or get some sort of help (that isn’t whatever bizzare cope was going on with Koyomi).
Ultimately it depends on which nadeko you ask
Bc like this is a thing that in narrative, changes
#summarizing the nadeko autonomy discussion for brevity rn may go back later#middle school Nadeko has no idea how to change as a person and what steps are even necessary to grow up and change to be better bc there#isn’t actually an easy way to do that and so she catastrophizes that it’s all over for her and she’s never gonna change and is stuck foreve#I feel like a lot of nisio’s fatalism vibes in works are like a product of shit like depression and feeling like you have no power abt it#which makes it interesting in how it changes over time#nadeposting#nadetalk
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Started knitting a kufiya pattern piece (solid bars, olive leaves, fishnet) and I’m actually really happy with how it’s coming out so far :]
Very early progress pics below cut - excuse my pyjamas
#ra speaks#personal#needlework#knitting#I tried a few different leaf patterns but ended up frogging them bc they were proportionate to the rest of it#I’m going w a more simple leaf pattern which means it doesn’t show up well until I get a few dozen more rows in#but bc I know they’re there I can see them and it’s like yessss yesssss#I’ve been planning this pattern for weeks bc I couldn’t find a pattern out there#and I hate changing colors and stuff so this is just a mono color textured pattern#which tbh I think will look nicer even if it isn’t a solid piece of fabric (eg. the net is lace instead of a pattern on solid fabric)#if I was gonna start over I’d make the bars a smidge thinner but the netting section is pretty big so maybe it’ll look fine once I’m done
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so I’m realising my intense anxiety for Hilda’s third season to come out is PROBABLY an autism thing
#like. it’s been 2 years of it being the same#the fandoms been in the same place and the show has too#and now it’s gonna change and it is giving me so much anxiety#when the special interest is so intense that you feel physically ill at the thought of new content because it’s just so overwhelming#<- that’s not my usual exaggerated ‘I’m so unwell’ thing either like I have layed awake at night feeling#sick LMAO#bc of s3#which is so frustrating because I’m excited! I love this show! I want more!#but because it’s so important to me. new content is going to have a big effect on me#and I don’t want it too cries#does that make sense? no? sick#it’s either an autism thing or there’s just something wrong with me either way I’d like this feeling to go away please it isn’t fun#hilda#textpost#it’s like I just want it to come out already so I can watch it and know what’s happening cause I hate not knowing what’s going on#i need to have. my information organised#and rn I don’t#and that makes me rlly anxious lolz#like I’m anxious for season 3 in a good excited way#but also in a geniunley bad way#I wish my brain was. normal lo#l#this got more venty than I meant it to sorryblads#might delete later#I’m sad hilda is ending bc it’s over and I don’t want it to be but#also it’s weirdly comforting to know that I don’t have to go through this intense anxiety again#cause I don’t get like this with other fandoms! dr who for example I’m living new content#but for Hilda I geniunkey feel unwell#it’s the same with the idea of there ever being new ducktales content#I care so much that it’s. bad for me lol??
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Hmm might bump up Solanges age a lil
#I was originally gonna have her be around 23-24 when she died#ie the later half of early 20s#mainly bc I was joking around abt the fact Nari gave his crown to someone who’s frontal lobe wasn’t fully developed yet#but I might change it to 25#granted she does still age during her vesselhood#which was around a year and a half to 2 years#and I hc gods ( especially gods that were once mortal ) do age but more slowly than average#and after a certain point they stop physically aging#or they can chose to stop aging at a certain point bc god powers ig#but I rlly don’t wanna update her ref again even if it’s a text change#oh btw if your curious abt goat they died in their late 20s? maybe early 30s idk#they are older than Solange both in that sense#and they’ve lived longer in the sense they’re probably at least a century old bc time isn’t shared between both worlds#so the events of what went down in goats world took a lot longer than Solanges#who by postgame depending on the timeline has run the cult for around a decade#or like half a decade idk#timeline is wack#cosmic chatz#cult of the lamb
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I’ll never understand younger siblings whining about their older siblings moving away like I bet yall were nasty and annoying too like wow all those years and you claim to adore the older sibling and post oh woe is me the older sibling abandoned me … girl … the older sibling didn’t have a parental certificate or anything.
#since when were we friends nor did I have any obligation over you or towards you#we are literally roommates here acting like we’re friends#dora daily#I say this cause I saw yet another younger sibling on tiktok trying to make themselves a victim like the older one is clearly avoiding the#whole family and changing their phone number so u guys don’t contact for a reason like wth did you guys do that’s so bad they would go#through all that trouble#‘older siblings will never understand how doing that affects us physically and mentally’ oh quit whining and cope#I didn’t have an older sibling I relied on only myself heck not even strangers help me when I’m in dire need#I think yall need to cope harder and wake up to the real world#not all younger siblings but a lot of them like my little brother 13yo is good id never want to abandon him but the rest … yeah bye#idgaf you should’ve not been an idiot because believe me ik kids mess up but not like this#and now she’s grovelling at my feet bye grovel harder#like just an hour ago or so she came up to me and was like I’m going to school for the first day are you gonna miss me#I said no because she always tells me no when I ask her if she missed me#and somehow she had the audacity to be upset like okay#the same girl who tells me to move out btw#my mum said oh u have to be her best friend cause if she has nobody here then she will have to rely on strangers#and she would find herself in trouble cause they don’t have good intent oh gee I wonder which person caused me to do that#it’s honestly ironic#like Eris and virtue happened because she couldn’t step up and be a normal mother byeeee#and anyways whyre you acting like having a sibling is essential#it honestly isn’t like why would I be nice to a girl who dogs on me and beats me up and is disrespectful#she’s not that young anymore she’s almost 12#‘oh they have different personalities’ well i hate hers and im not to be forced to like it either its my right
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Wine stains on porcelain
(Alternatively: @katkastrofa and I have created 5 OCs in 3 days and I suffer from chronic “I wanna draw the little guysssssss” disease)
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#original characters#I have not figured out a tag system yet so for now this is all they’re getting#their names are liba and abyan and I’m very much obsessed :)#they’re the children of two of our other newest OCs. Himman and Summiya#the latter of whom just happens to be Zaheer’s older sister#but he ran away from home years before these two were born so he most likely isn’t even aware of their existence#I mean. I’m sure he suspects his sisters had children. but that’s the extent of what he knows#anyway#quite a few headcanons came to mind as I was drawing so I’m gonna type them out while I can still function#(haven’t slept for two nights in a row. I’m starting to doubt whether I’m actually alive or not)#Liba is older by about a year but once they grow up a little it’s barely noticeable and people assume they’re twins#over time they stop bothering to correct them because really. they’re so close they might as well be#they were both burn with port wine stain birthmarks on their faces. much to their mother’s dismay#she has a whole perfectionism complex and needed her children to reflect that to maintain the family image#thus they were taught how to hide the marks early on. but the powder makes them constantly sneeze#liba is very self conscious about it bc of what her mother put in her head. Abyan less so bc while he’s expected to be perfect#his future doesn’t depend on his looks. he always tries to comfort his sister whenever she spirals too deep. no matter that she’s older#when no one is around to hear he calls her Lili <3 it annoyed her at first so she dubbed him Yanyan in retaliation#but over time they both grew to love the nicknames and now use them unironically#they’re the ultimate partners in crime. their goal? gaining as much freedom from their mother as possible#and sooner or later they will manage to do so permanently. which will make Summiya fall apart. but that is currently Kat’s domain#speaking of. hi Kat. I know you’ve already seen this in pencil but look! I coloured them!!#the birthmarks were both kinda annoying and rather fun to do. maybe I’ll change them later. I was too tired to look at refs so I improvised#and there’s no detail in clothing since again. 0 energy whatsoever. but once I refine their full body designs I shall go all out#that reminds me I need to go collect my new sketchbook. might do it on the way home from the store#okay I’m getting distracted. is this my very unsubtle way of trying to influence Kat to write that Summiya fic?#maybe. maybe not. you can’t prove anything 😁
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so if you romance and ascend astarion you can kick him in the balls when he tries to turn you and it’s just very funny, he’s so pissy about it. so much for the most powerful vampire of all time or whatever, he stamps around like a toddler and then leaves forever
#i’m glad i saved before that choice so i can go through all the scenes i wouldn’t have got otherwise#(‘that choice’ meaning ascension)#im Fascinated by a whole bunch of stuff if you ascend him#like if you succeed on the detect thoughts (or maybe insight i forget) before he turns you to see what he think of you#it says something like ‘he will always see you as degrading yourself while you choose to be with him’ which is just BONKERS INSANE#like not confusing or anything. just wild to include. in a good way; like yeah of course that’s how he feels#and then the narrator follows it up with something like ‘but isn’t that what you want?’#like i’m glad they do actually try to impress upon you how fucked this dynamic is. they’re not trying to make you think it’s a good outcome#(i know there’s discourse about this and it’s very annoying)#(people who are like ‘actually it’s romantic and kinky’ uhh 😬)#(but then people who are like ‘how can anyone think this is ok’ and direct that towards anyone who enjoys playing it)#(like no it’s fun and genuinely interesting and i can see the appeal. just not when it comes to analysing the relationship)#(most people are aware that this is a bad dynamic they’re just playing a game chill out)#(like when i said 😬 about it being romantic/kinky i mean that from the perspective of analysing the story not personal enjoyment)#(anyway. moving on)#like i did that specific bit of dialogue probably a month or more ago and only once (because the test was really hard)#and it’s been creeping around in my head ever since. i love it lmao#i saw a video of that kiss where he makes you kneel a while ago and didn’t quite believe it was a real thing#but no it’s one of his actual default kisses. amazing#like i’m definitely gonna do a playthrough where i get everyone to make the power-hungry soul-destroying choices#and i might have to romance astarion again for that one because he definitely seems to have the most bad-decision relationship content#although he has the most relationship content full stop so it’s not surprising#but i think that’s the only one that notably changes your character during the playthrough rather than just the epilogue#personal#ash plays bg3
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#again. I am. upset with change and have been upset with change for the past like. month#idk the friend I usually play 14 and do stuff with is hardly on and barely talks to me much anymore#which is just like. her being busy and having a significant other#but there’s a lot of stuff we started together in 14 that I’m now doing on my own#and man. man it’s fucking lonely af#I’m doing diadem alone. I’m doing anima relics on my own. I’m doing other relics on my own#dailies on my own which has gotten me much braver about playing healer and tank but man. man it’s fucking lonely#and I have other friends I can play with but it’s like when you have so many projects you’ve started with a friend only to be left#to do them on your own…it sucks#I’m not upset over her having personal stuff but I’m still missing the times we used to play together#it’s been like this for going on two or three months which isn’t a lot to really think about but still#it feels like a long time#it’s not that my love of 14 is fading it’s more that the act of playing alone when you have so much joint investment isn’t all that fun#owen talks#idk if it last through the summer then idk what I’m gonna do
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pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.
#AND I CAN’T FUCKING BELIEVE I HAD THEM STEALING THEIR WAY OMTO#THE PLATFORMS WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNN oh i love being right#also that all the kids are there watching when he kills the guy whose name i forget because i simply cannot hold names in my brain but the#evil one. who i was like oh thank GOD he died i was so sick of this plot he kept killing everyone & i screeched when he almost got claudia#something something calla saying ‘you’re not a child anymore’ about tenax’s cruelty to the brothers (which in my twisted narratives. sorry.#there’s only one scorpus who KNEW the child tenax was. the child he’s still healing and caring for. all of the children whose eyes he looks#into and sees a hurt that’s just like his? the children tenax saved whether he’ll admit it or not? scorpus saved him. and that’s all)#(also this is a terrible thing to say i knew it about but like. oh i knew it about the master of the house. tenax making sure NO ONE#touches the kids or does anything with them really but Claudia and him—the people he trusts which also now includes calla but he makes sure#it’s someone he knows. also do we have a claudia backstory??? or would i just get to invent a reason why she’s there and what she’s doing#and why she’s so loyal to tenax. did she also see the child he was and that’s why she’s so protective of him but also why she gets along#with calla so well because the two of them see how he’s festered in that. like calla fully has the rights here i think she should rip him a#new one for his lack of decency and good qualities he can be corrupt without being cruel y’know. and he should be called out on his#peter pan ass behavior you’re not a child!! there are such consequences!!! dream a little bigger a little kinder!!! change the dream you#made up with scorpus when you were a young angry teenager and make it fit who you are NOW. the life you want NOW not the life you thought#you should have & deserved. what did you learn from growing up. what changed. what do you need now & what do you want. not the same things#and i too wish that this was 30k and covered their entire backstory#BUT IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION of i also need it to be 100k canon-divergent (presumably. i’m only through episode eight. but i can’t imagine#that they will follow the plot EYE would write because they need to have a second season & you can’t have that without conflict which means#titus overthrown scorpus is gonna die metaphorically or literally etc etc the gold faction in shambles but technically triumphant with#domitian on the throne and tenax in a position of patrician power accepted into their society but still not equal and happy. whereas lmao#domitian you’re getting shipped off to some other city because your plot to overthrow titus failed and yet he is merciful enough he won’t#kill you he just sends you and hermes together (at which point over the months long journey you forgive and re-learn each other bc titus#didn’t know of the betrayal he thought it would be kind to send your (ex-)lover with you. do we see how this works perfectly) & tenax falls#back into the underworld where he now knows he belongs because blood is everything except when it isn’t. when he realizes what he has is#worth more. no matter if the blood he has is tainted or patrician the blood oath he swore with scorpus iron on their tongues means more.#calla’s split lip defending him and their winnings. kwaame’s blood on the hard packed sand of the arena fighting to stay alive and to come#home to them. the fire in aura’s cheeks when she laughs at ivy. SURPRISEEEE EVERY NARRATIVE IS A FOUND FAMILY I GUESS IT SPRUNG ON ME TOO.#and tenax doesn’t mind a little dirt and bribery every now and then. doesn’t aspire to former heights and shining brilliant out of shadows.#the gaudiness of gold &flash of fools’ dreams. YES CAN I FINALLY PLS GET MY BLACK FACTION TO REPLACE THE ILL-FATED GOLD THATLL COLLAPSE W/D
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