#which is a vicious cycle

[jobycewl]

I believe in the “Everyone is jealous of Shang Qinghua” agenda

[roboshitting]

so uh. just realized that i don’t really believe anything that someone says about me unless i’ve already thought of it myself

[creep-girl]

i dont think ive ever hyperfixated on mosnter prom this badly before

[incorrect-web-novels]

"I hate Kim Dokja because he's too much like me" <-forced to bear the sin of knowledge

[buwheal]

out of context lyric discussion doodles solely because you guys like this... thing.... or.... whatever he is........

[yansurnummu]

TES fest day 6: abandoned

In the grief of supposedly losing her brother, Lilanwe certainly made some choices. She joined the Worm Cult, becoming a much more cold and cynical person. Granted, it wasn't entirely Auredil's fault for what happened to him, but I don't know that she'll ever really forgive him for leaving her behind.

[transpecter]

mouth on my tdick while you fuck me with the biggest dildo you have pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease

[morningmask27]

I find it so annoying how bad glasses look in many games. You can personalize your character alright, but the glasses will look like world's worst addon and an after-thought because they suddenly remembered people wear those actually.

I'd love to wear more glasses in games I play. I wear them irl constantly and even have two pairs now I change between (one has blue light protection, the other uv) and there's a lot that can be done with glasses, but in games they're One Color and usually just one (very likely rectangular) shape. If you're lucky they'll be a few different shapes but no funky colors.

My old glasses faded from a nearly wine-purple to transparent and were the sturdiest things I've ever dealt with. They kept falling and never broke. The glasses I have now are way thinner, but are a wine red too with a more cherry red stripe on the side and retractable things to make them more or less long depending on face structure (you do not know the pain of getting glasses to not fucking slide off your nose if you haven't gone to the fucking store to get them fixed at least three times in one month. I swear I'm getting these plastic dumb things again because They Won't Stay).

Irl glasses can also not be The Best (trust me, I am not super pleased with my new pairs, I find them a bit too flimsy), but there is some VARIETY! There are entire stores dedicated to these fucking disability aids and people trained to tell you which colors and shapes fit your face best.

Games however barely offer rectangular (and maybe oval or circular) one-note glasses and you'll have to be happy with that. Most games I play do at least the bare minimum of having glasses to choose from, but they are so unappealing that they might as well have none for me

[sweetestflow3rs]

regaining back aura to whip out a couple of more doodles / finally do the ship chart stuff, but in the meantime, i feel like like yapping about linoel’s ( linden / remy & noel ) dynamic because it itches my brainworms right

but essentially, to sum it up: it’s unrequited, almost oedipus-like complex linden has towards noel who does NAWT care about them at all and only sees them as a bag of income. cause when noel became “noel” and needed a fresh start, linden has been someone that’s been pretty “supportive” ( sees noel as an investment ) of her!! seeing this almost cagey animal in the body of a girl, linden offering her employment at their slaughterhouse while also giving her the benefit of bringing the meat back to her “roommate”, helping her get a new home: it’s all because they saw potential in her to be a great asset!! and like!!! she is!!!

when noel finally opens her own weapons shop, one of her biggest clients is linden buying gear for their thugs! but in the meanwhile, linden doing all this hoping that noel will show her appreciation, do a “wow boss! thank you so much!”, a fraction of a smile even, meanwhile she gives them nothing. just says a dismissive “thanks” for every gesture linden does, going to the next thing on her to-do list like as she if doesn’t want to be in their presence much longer. and yes… she quite literally doesn’t. she hates linden’s ass and linden knows it LMAO

which brings me to my next part of the “oedipus” thing - cause linden’s constant giving to noel and looking signs for positive validation, is because noel reminds them of their mom who neglected them as a child. the same disregard and lack of care, that makes linden feel so small under noel’s scrutiny. the only difference between the two is that unlike the other, linden has a slight power imbalance over noel who is still technically their employee. which, for linden who has mother issues, and is desperate for any sort of attention from noel, THEY TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE OF IT. noel going from having two menaces who like to bother her ( cody & leo ) to three menaces ( linden added onto the mix )

[pallanophblargh]

You know what the worst feeling I've been having lately is? Wanting more than anything to get back into Actual Art again but finding a sudden anxiety that stops me. Even if I'm still as capable as I was, it's the mental block. It's why I've all but kept commissions closed for this whole time: this overwhelming fear of letting people down. Especially in times as troubled as these, where money is tight, and patience is thin. I've always been blessed with such patient and considerate commissioners, but I would hate to test people because of my malfunctioning brat of a brain.

I just wish it came to me as easily as it did before the massive burnout/medication. But it's up to me to come up with my own motivation. And it's ME.

Anyway. Thanks as always for sticking around despite... all of this. I'll get back on the horse soon.

[daveyfvckingjacobs]

jack with reading glasses send tweet

[wormchaser]

you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.

i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.

[ri5k]

tried hard at the gym by doing some exercises i'm not so good at. squats are all fun and showing off but my bench is weak. but i did it anyway

[thefloatingwriter]

wiress with cats.

[firenati0n]

thank you to @suseagull04 @captainjunglegym @benwvatt @nocoastposts @itsmaybitheway @junebugclaremontdiaz @bigassbowlingballhead @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @getmehighonmagic @magicandarchery @heybuddy-drabbles @leaves-of-laurelin @kiwiana-writes @anincompletelist @affectionatelyrs @tailsbeth-writes for the tags in Sunday snips and wip games and the like. 💛 sorry for being so inactive and MIA, I am Tired and Unwell bc of irl Life Things and have no words to share bc of my debilitating writer's block BUT here are some images that illustrate my Current State. 😎

also want to, as usual, express my love and gratitude for always thinking of me and being lovely and kind 💕

[crows-murder]

God gives his toughest battles (making phone calls) to his strongest soldiers (me and my bad anxiety)