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an unanticipated problem with my silly little dnd cocktails is that I like the nightcap but I do not, it turns out, very much care for a brandy alexander, which is what it was based on but is much simpler and quicker to make :')
#I'm willing to blame this on the fact that I can only seem to find cheap creme de cacao which is maybe affecting the flavor?#anyway it's very annoying. oh I think I'd like to enjoy a nice little beverage :) time to pull out fifteen ingredience#(it's only five or six ingredients depending on how I make it)#(but it's also a shaker and two strainers and a separate container to lightly whip the cream in because it's floated on the top and--)#brandy alexander is just 'dump two spirits and some cream in a shaker and shake it. tada'#the trouble is I HAVE the stuff to make much simpler cocktails but this keeps being what I'm in the mood for :')#just not the lazier version with fewer steps and tools and dishes of course 🙄#it's really not just 'hehehoohoo melliwyk drink' it's genuinely I Like It and keep wanting to make one :')#which is VERY INCONVENIENT!!#why can't I be in the mood for JUNIPER'S silly little nerd cocktail (raspberry g&t) 😔#about me#potions
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Okay hear me out.... Journey to west au. Sun being the monkey king from the book and Y/N a traveller. Y/N rescues him from under the mountain and he joins them in their travels. Moon is a demon that's terrorising a town until Y/N and Sun stop him. Moon then joins the two. Finally Eclipse is another demon that kidnaps Y/N in order to eat them but instead is so utterly charmed by them that he joins the party. Shenanigans ensue... Thoughts?
The great monkey king is indebted to a mortal but he has little qualms with escorting you on your travels as a way to give his thanks for rescuing him from underneath the mountain. His magic and strength are at your disposal. Strangely, you prefer traveling peacefully and quietly, avoiding trouble and helping those in need when the two of you come upon them. The monkey king thinks you are vulnerable and too trusting, and he decides to protect you at all costs.
The lunar demon does not take kindly to his mischievousness and destruction being wrought, but when you and the monkey king stop the mayhem he inflicts upon a small town, the lunar demon can't help but become amused and intrigued by a daring, bold mortal who is so calm in the face of dangerous, sharp teeth, red eye demon. He thinks you are naive and foolish, but he follows you and the monkey king because who else will watch over you at night? Who will keep you safe from the other toothy and red-eye demons?
It is not too long down the road of your seemingly endless travels that a problem arises. The monkey king and the lunar demon venture to the river to fetch you food and drink and while you toil, you feel the shadow of a great personage fall upon you before you are snatched away. You struggle and call for your dear, new friends, but the dark being smuggles you into his cave. He ties you up and leaves you on the floor of his home as he prepares to eat you. You, however, remain calm and speak with the great demon and learn he is the eclipse prince. The eclipse prince wants nothing more than to cook and devour you, but you convince him to allow you to serve him tea first. Pleased by the offer, the eclipse prince unties you. You serve him a tea you have used to comfort the monkey king and calm the lunar demon, and speak with the eclipse prince. The conversation continues until the pot of tea is gone and he tells you to prepare another, pot after pot until he is laughing and telling you that he has forgotten his hunger—your charm and allure have sated him. He will let you go and return you to your companions, but you invite him to join your company.
The eclipse prince is pleased to accept. He opens his cave and returns with you to the monkey king and the lunar demon. When you come upon them, they are furious and frantic. They act quickly to take you back and prepare to attack the one who carried you away before you calm them. The eclipse prince stands rather unapologetically as you explain that he is now joining the three of you. The lunar demon does not take kindly to this change and the monkey king hovers close to you, refusing to let you leave his sights while the eclipse prince seamlessly joins the camp and prepares a pot of tea for you to drink.
You continue your travels, glad to have such devoted company.
#eclipse: tea anyone? :)#*sun and moon seething because they lost their little mortal for two minutes and were about to start ripping open the earth to find them*#lots of good thoughts#lots of shenangains#eclipse is arrogant but persuaded by charisma and is the most tactically minded and urbane while being smooth and sauve#sun is hypertension and soft and worries so much about everything at all times and possesses physical prowess#moon is mischievous and wants to bite things and make mayhem because it's fun while being cunning and crafty#y/n sometimes wakes up to moon watching them sleep at night which is very creepy but y/n just asks what they're looking at and moon just sa#“you”#sun man handles y/n the most and carries them and picks them up at the slightest inconvenience like a puddle in their path#eclipse is very haughty but he dots on y/n and gives them all the comforts they might need like fur coats and comfortable shoes#journey to the west au
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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest
#not art#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit#kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it#until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it#until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her#but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs#she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying#probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone#lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear#Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked#but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now#yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc#man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet#and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out#lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help#it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around#but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever#its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous#its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot#yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry#doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it#ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking
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hmmm something about dominik haunting the narrative in king of scars. everything nikolai does is at least a little bit for him. he learns about the life of average ravkan people by meeting dominik's family. he starts gaining influence in politics just so he can improve dominik's life. and then he promises dominik that he won't let ravka break him.
that promise fucking haunts him. it follows him wherever he goes. it's the driving force behind everything he does, every step he takes to heal the centuries-old wounds in ravka. it's what drives him to do better, be better.
dominik is always there, in the back of his mind: this country gets you in the end. always pushing him to do more, because he couldn't save dominik and so he has to save ravka (for dominik) (because he promised) (because he loved him)
#my spicy hot take is that nikolai's relationship with dominik actually affects the narrative of the duology more than -#- his relationship with zoya does#you could argue that *none* of the events of the duology would have happened without dominik's influence#and honestly zoyalai as a relationship doesn't really affect the narrative/plotline all that much#which is One of the problems i have with it being endgame#anyway yes i am writing an angsty nikolai backstory fic why do you ask?#it's mostly about how he reinvents himself at every minor inconvenience (but also how incredibly fucked up his childhood was)#and if i have the energy it might turn into a rewrite of the ending of rule of wolves#bc him giving up the throne just plays into that pattern of running away#so honestly i think it's not a great ending in terms of his arc and character development#this may just be a me thing idk but i just feel like he doesn't actually get that much development in the duology#bc there's this idea of him as being Perfect and Invulnerable and Not Affected By His Trauma#which. is not the case.#it's all very dear reader (taylor swift) imo#ANYWAY#mayhem.txt#mayhem grishaverse originals#nikolai lantsov#shadow and bone#king of scars#grishaverse
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I was personally assaulted (honorific) by this essay on ambition. It's very good.
#megs is reading#I would've linked it as a full link but it didn't parse right. which probably means it has some settings against AI which. good for them!#hilariously I was complaining immediately before reading it that SO MUCH of the discussion around burnout and overwork are like#'well you should train yourself to enjoy things and live in the moment and say fuck work and not worry about it making you more productive!#and like. as a writer. as a person whose brain will eat itself alive if I do not write. NOT because augh productivity#but cuz [that one post about how if you don't draw the images will clog up inside you and make you sick]#this does not ever spark joy. I want to do the work I enjoy and find fulfilling! I want that work to be valued enough to let me do it!#where is my discussion around burnout for people who like. can in fact sit down and enjoy a nice cup of tea or cooking a pot of soup#that's not the goddamn problem here. the problem is that not all labor is valued and in fact very little labor if any is valued.#the products are labor are valued. the labor itself is an inconvenient stepping stone that it would be nice to not have to take.#ANYWAY I'm just going to go try to finish my fucking book draft now. and convince myself that it matters.
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i’m still working on it but uh. my relaxation from my hobby (making a fanfic comic) is to do more things with my hobby (drawing another sona comic. because of course it is.)
ANYWAY anyone else super hyped for the graphic novel?? like holy shit, new official danny phantom content in 2023, and it includes TUE?? wicked.
#ney’s art#ney’s comics#danny phantom#it’s related i swear#sona art#i keep saying i'm not going to do daily uploads bc it burns me out#and then right when i SAY THAT my motivation skyrockets immediately#which is hilarious and also very inconvenient#c'mon man... my hand is gonna die :'D#like the comics style i use now is less strenuous than rending—but that means i can make more pages lmaoo ;;#bah i guess i'll just take advantage of the rush while i got it
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The scene is pretty much the same but the wording to me is just so much more volatile. He's not even calling him a freak here, he's calling him a monster, which is something he has never called N before now, not in the games and not in the manga in any translation I've come across. It reads as so much more dehumanizing here and the way he says N is "biting the hand that feeds him" is so interesting to me. N is being disobedient by expressing his love for Ghetsis, that is what gets him marked as being unruly, going against the rules. This Ghetsis isn't just expressing his disdain for being N's father, he's expressing his disdain for N as a whole; N is "disgusting" to him. I prefer this translation rather than the official one just because it feels so much more emotionally charged, it feels so much more hate filled.
aurghghgh……….
#h…#see this one feels almost more genuine. as if ghetsis really felt betrayed by n turning on him#which i’m sure he was but like. in terms of inconvenience#this feels almost like ghetsis was personally wounded by n’s change of heart#like ‘i did everything for you i would’ve loved you but you rejected me’#like that he does at least have some kind of argument (obv not a good one a very manipulative one)#i mean like not in a deep real way but like in the sense that he’s trying to appeal to n’s sense of guilt even now. one last manipulation#whereas the original i feel more accurately carries the sense of pure heartlessness and detachment he has#like the original is just a pure outburst of disdain and entirely selfish rage and hate#like it’s just ghetsis absolutely losing his sanity much like at the end of the game version of the story. just losing control of himself#like this one would hurt n emotionally more for sure. but the original feels more like what i think ghetsis would actually say here#but i do like the ‘monster’ thing it’s a good touch#asks#colorful-bees#b2w2 pokespe liveblog
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Hello :))) So, i was today years old when i learned you had a girlfriend (if i’m not mistaken) and somehow it means a lot to me as you’re one of my comfort blog and that i’ve been struggling with my own sexuality for a while. (I hope it does not come off as weird this is really not my intention 😭) So i was wondering if you would mind sharing how you two met as i love hearing about queer love stories coming from real people and not only in fiction (somehow i need to be reminded that yes, it can happen in real life too for me??) If and only if you’re comfortable doing so of course!!!
aww hi anon! first of all, thank you so much for the kind words--i'm so glad to hear that my blog is a source of comfort for you. and also, re: your sexuality--i'm sending you so much love! i know how scary and how overwhelming it can be to still be figuring out your sexuality and navigating your own queerness, so please remember to have some compassion for yourself, and please know that you're not alone.
as for my girlfriend: yes! i do in fact have one, and we've been together for a little over a year and a half now. we'll be going on two years pretty soon, which is all very exciting!
as for how we met: it's all a pretty funny story, because we actually met while we were both in college. and also right during that first covid summer too. we started off as long-distance friends, bonding our love for star wars and writing.
anyways, i totally had a crush on her, although i was trying to play it off most of the time. the fact that we lived in separate cities was another factor too, of course.
fast forward to a few years later, when we've both graduated college. i've just started my first year of law school; she's working at this point. we're still texting and calling each other a bit, and then i tell her, oh yeah, i'm going out on a date with this guy.
and just like something from a kdrama or a movie or something, this ridiculous, lovely woman texts me as i'm boarding the bus for my date. her text? hey, i dreamed about you last night! we were sitting on a park bench together and we were holding hands :)
and of course, at this point, i still have a disastrous crush on her (hence why i spent a lot of time dating all these random guys in my junior and senior year of college, because i was like i gotta just get over this), but anon, that text message was the other shoe dropping on my brain. i decided right then and there that enough is enough, i'm gonna call her tomorrow and tell her i like her, so she can't just say stuff like that anymore because i don't think i can take it anymore.
so we arrange to have a phone call the next day, and we chat, and of course, true to form, i have to have some liquid courage on me (peach soju, btw . . . but turns out, if you're jittery enough, you don't even feel the alcohol, because i still remember every detail). anyways, at some point, we're chatting, and then i blurt out, "i like you."
and she goes, "i like you too."
and i went, "no, i mean i like you more than a friend. as in i like you."
and she goes, "uh, yeah. i like you to do. the feeling's mutual."
and of course, i didn't know what to say to that. like, i swear i was just like "??? what?" because the thing is, i had this whole speech planned out in my head--something like i like you, and you don't like me like that, so i'm sorry that this is awkward, and i can just take care of my own feelings, but i just really needed to say that so that we're both on the same page--
so to say i was pretty stunned would be an understatement! so cue a lot of laughter and flustering, and fast forward to today, with her living with me for the summer (because of course, she'll need to go back to work and i'll have to go back to school once august hits), and we talk about how many pets we're going to have one day (she has this hobby of sending me videos of increasingly exotic animals and going "??? so can we have this as a pet? :)"), and we've talked about what our wedding is going to be like (as well as what our wedding will not be like) . . .
this is just a whole lot of details, but as you might be the first one to ask me about this lovely person on this webbed site, of course i'm going to ramble and gush--but anon, to give you some hope here, queer love is a beautiful thing and it certainly happens.
personally, i would love to go back in time and find my sad high school self and go "hey, hang in there, because you're gonna be lucky enough to finally fall in love with someone who's kind and warm and patient and loving, and she's going to encourage you to be a better person, and she's going to make friends with literally every single stranger on the street (much to your partial exasperation and partial wonder), and she's going to be really bad at staying hydrated, and she's going to take so many photographs of everything, and she's going to make friendship bracelets on your bed, and she's going to almost fight the secretary at a dentist's office for you (while you tug at her sleeve and go come on, i'm fine, let's just go), and she's going to recite and write poetry that you keep both on your walls and also in your head, and her grandma is going to show you the dorkiest photos she has of this silly, lovely, beautiful person who you love."
so: all that to say, anon, i hope that gave you some hope! it's such a long journey for some of us, but i promise that queer love is out there and healthily alive, and yeah, sometimes they're just as good (or even better) than those that you find in fiction :)
#answered#anon#i could talk about my partner literally all day#like how she has a lot of freckles and how loving and lovable she is#and how she's always the one telling strangers how cute their dogs are#and she's also INCREDIBLY organized#and she's really good at parallel parking#and she's also very artistic and so creative and she has a gazillion hobbies that i'm in awe of#when we were installing my air conditioner i was the one swearing and going 'FUCKING hell oh my GOD'#because it was so humid and hot#meanwhile my partner's smiling and laughing and going 'this is gonna be a funny story later'#which is the other thing: she takes all the inconveniences of life and turns it into a funny story whereas i just swear at the whole thing#(which is why i know that in the case we have kids she's gonna be the mommy the kiddos will run to#when they've broken something or if they threw up in bed)#(whereas i will be the mother who goes 'oh for the love of god')#(our kids will have their mother's sense of humor and their eomma's potty mouth)#but anyways. yes. i love her dearly :)
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i shouldnt have gone exploring bc now i wanna relocate my base so i see this all the time
(the only problem with putting your base at the top of a hill is that like. whenever you wanna go anywhere step 1 is get off the hill)
#which is less of an issue in terraria bc of the mobility#it's more like fuckin uh#when you build your base in subnautica in an interesting / inconvenient location#ive tried the seatreader path and jellyshroom caves before#both very interesting places aesthetically for a base#but whenever you want to do literally anything#step 1 is 'leave the stupid place you put your base'#before you can go do anything else#it's not very uh#ergonomic i guess#maybe i'll build a little house up here for decoration then not use it#i don't like having a House in minecraft anyway#i prefer the outdoor views#dibi#minecraft
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IT'S A GIRL!
After many, many, many, many FATEs... Ardwin finally has her amaro hatchling!!!!!!!
The Ards named her Skoenbyrt, which translates to "shining axe." "Scone" for short. She's also Seto's descendant :)
#ffxiv#ardwin tag#ardwin pics#ardwin lore#i'm so happy to finally get the baby#i started the fate grind sometime last year but it was around the time that playing with a keyboard started hurting my fingers#and then between that and a ton of other stuff i had going on it's taken me until now to really get back into it#super happy that Ardwin will get to take Scone on adventures in Tural :)#also funny thing. my plans for Scone pre-date me getting an actual irl puppy this past year#which also means that now I can give Ardwin my experience of: there is a baby animal in your house and it's adorable and it loves you!#but also said baby has an absurd amount of energy. and does not understand the concept of things which are and are not for chewing on.#and is very needy at inconvenient times such as 'when you are trying to get things done' or 'at 3 AM in the morning'#also: a trait i expect is shared between old-blood amaro hatchlings and herding breed puppies: way too smart for their own good lmao
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@.critical_role: Get to know #CandelaObscura's fabulous Cordelia Glask (@.MissGinaDarling) with her Instagram story takeover starting TOMORROW!
Join her as she shares moments from throughout her day before the premiere of the Tide & Bone finale! 🌊 🦴
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And here is the summation of Gina’s takeover stories! If you don’t like watching in Tumblr’s native player, find the video »HERE« on YouTube instead.
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#gina darling#critical role#candela obscura#cr ig takeover#very sorry that this took so long to post#my software went glitchy and now every video I make is entirely muted???#inconvenient#so I had to find new tools :/#also I’ve been deaf since Friday#which is also rather inconvenient#inconvenience all around#anyway sorry pls enjoy Gina’s adorable countenance
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baffling decision for season 2, episode 18 to end with lewis making a legit effort for charlotte, making a picnic of things she likes and hugging her and seeming really happy with her
only for episode 19 to trample all over that with him blowing her off after she mentions that she misses him and hasn't seen him for a while, then apparently forgetting he even has a girlfriend altogether and softly flirting with his ex while the narrative agrees that this is correct because, unlike charlotte, cleo always smiles when she first sees lewis. you know. unlike charlotte. who goes out of her way to try and make lewis happy and smiles literally every time she sees him. there's not even an episode between these!
#@opalsiren bestie this one's for you#like seriously. she even says that she's happy he wants to plan the date because that means he's happy and he verbally says he is#but then the next time we see her she says that she hasn't seen him in a while and he completely blows her off. like. what?#again! i don't even ship them!#i am one hundred percent a clewis shipper and i am very happy they got back together!#my problem is that the narrative has to twist and bend on the back of a character whose only role in this story is to get punched around#and humiliated so that other characters can grow#and lewis isn't even a little conflicted! it's like he knows that charlotte's role in life is just to be a contrived roadblock in his story#to getting back with cleo and therefore can pick and choose when she's an actual person he cares about and when she can just be tossed asid#why even have her in that episode if she didn't add anything but as a reminder that yes don't worry#lewis doesn't care about her when it's inconvenient and in fact here's a shot of her being abandoned and sad bc of it!#seemingly just as another kick in the stomach#you could literally take her out of the episode and lose nothing. bc it's about lewis meeting max and learning about the 50s mermaids as#well as getting closer to cleo. which is fine! they're going to get back together anyway! but why oh why#did we need to humiliate someone whose only crime at this point is being upset that her boyfriend is ignoring and blowing her off??#like. the one who can't stop smiling when she first sees you??? that's charlotte! her whole character is about lewis! and she's his actual#girlfriend at this point and they. last time we saw them together. were doing fine! he MADE HER A PICNIC LIKE SHE DID FOR HIM#gahhhhhh#h2o just add water#charlotte watsford#lewis mccartney#cleo sertori
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i was inspired by @autisticarachnid's musician merula! i love the idea of her having music as her hobby and using it to vent her feelings... its gREAT
I like to imagine she'd start off with an acoustic guitar and write a bunch of her own songs 🥺
#merula snyde#hogwarts mystery#hphm#i dont think wizards use pencils which sounds very inconvenient to me#lets just say she stole it from ben#mellas art
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idk I kind of live in a bubble but to have a pretty antizionist gentile relative who grew up in a military dictatorship, took place in mass protesting, and also was at the receiving end of anti Asian discrimination from Ashkenazi Jews in her program - something we’ve talked about and had some complex discussions on - just outright say she doesn’t know how safe America is for Jews. It rocked me socked me knocked me over
#I don’t want to be paranoid but like. This was one of those coming from outside the communtiy things#I do think self aware East Asian Americans and Asian diaspora people need to be smart about the extent to which the#Mass backlash against a so called model assimilated minority can turn#Is something that might turn against other so called model minorities if politics become inconvenient again#But it’s also soemthing else coming from a gentile who isn’t white and who is very aware of racialization#Idk. Idk
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i still like your idea of the fanfic where, soohyun gets injured but doesn't die, and the rest is canon but gaon doesn't know yohan is alive... You put it in one of the chapters note (i forgot which chapter) i am a sucker for angst and i like to give myself sadness lol... I can imagine how broken and angst ridden gaon would be. It would be a devastating sight but also delicious.
It is a fascinating thought! But, admittedly, also the idea I'm the least likely to write out of all the ones I've come up with — for the very same reason why you like it x'D
I'm really not a fan of angst and sadness and, sometimes, I can look at a story idea and realise that it wouldn't be fun for me to write. And this one is, unfortunately, one of those. Because it would focus so much on Ga On's grief and his failing relationship with Soo Hyun and I just... don't want to write that?
Sure, it would be fascinating, but also way too depressing for me. Partly because I don't see an easy solution. Like, even if Ga On eventually finds out that Yo Han is alive, just how bad would he feel? How bad would they both feel? And just how much more pain and anguish would they have to wade through? Would they even be willing to try?
Basically, now that I've had time to think about it further, I've realised that it just doesn't work. The math isn't mathing in this scenario, at least not for a fic written in my fairly realistic and down-to-earth style.
Because it would, quite frankly, be easier for them to just cut their losses and continue living their separate lives. I think the hurt would be too much for either of them to come to terms with and reconcile. So, on top of being a very depressing story overall, it wouldn't have a happy ending, either. Which means it immediately gets disqualified because I only want happy endings xD
I wouldn't be able to give it a happy ending with a clear conscience because, sure, we all know Yo Han is a vicious asshole and Ga On is good at forgiving him. But this?
Faking his own death for months, maybe years, and not telling Ga On about it, instead leaving him to grieve — on top of all the guilt he's already feeling? And for what? Because Yo Han was hurt? Because he was jealous of Soo Hyun? Because he wanted to punish Ga On?
Well, Yo Han would certainly achieve that.
Ga On would be an absolute wreck.
And, to be entirely honest with you, I think Ga On would be too broken after spending only god knows how long thinking Yo Han is dead because of him. Because, let's face it — that's what Ga On would believe.
I wouldn't know how to fix that. I don't want to fix it because if Yo Han truly did all that to Ga On — something so vindictive and cruel — I'd side with Soo Hyun and say that it's probably best for the two of them to stay apart. Because, clearly, they're going to destroy each other eventually. Especially since Ga On would most likely become suicidal again. And Yo Han must have predicted that might happen but still chose not to tell Ga On about being alive.
And, sure, I understand being hurt and angry — Yo Han has no obligation to forgive Ga On for the things he did. But to intentionally choose to put another person — someone you care about — in a situation where you know they might end up wanting to take their own life? Just to get revenge?
Unforgivable, in my opinion.
But that leads us to the part where we also have to ask if Yo Han truly would do that and, personally, I don't think so. Maybe that's me giving Yo Han too much grace, but I really don't think he'd be that cruel considering how much he cares about Ga On. Maybe he wants Ga On to suffer a bit, sure, but not die.
So, in the end, the whole thing is a bit of a moot point x'D
The scenario doesn't work with how I choose to interpret these characters.
I think a more likely outcome if Soo Hyun doesn't die is that Yo Han would still do all the things he does in the drama, including telling Ga On that he's alive, but then go radio silent. Like, go to Switzerland and just focus on himself and Elijah. But do it more firmly than in Who Holds the Devil when he always had plans to return. Here he wouldn't.
Which is painful, too, but not quite as bad as "I'm knowingly letting you think you had a hand in killing me." And Ga On would still wallow and he'd still realise that his relationship with Soo Hyun isn't what he thought it would be, but without the looming threat of Ga On's (in my opinion) likely suicide. They might actually be able to reconcile eventually.
But, even then, I'm not sure if this is a story I would want to write. At least not right now when I'm already struggling with both my physical and mental well-being. It just wouldn't be healthy for me and, most likely, not something I'd enjoy. Some people get a feeling of release and catharsis from writing about difficult things, but I'm not one of them. I just end up feeling worse because I have to immerse myself in the misery to a point where I just sink even deeper into it.
So while I agree that this is an interesting and quite dramatic scenario, I've realised it's just not for me. In more ways than one xD
But if someone else wants to write it, then go for it! :D
#Amethystina Replies#1-boiledpotato#I hope this didn't come off as negative or condescending#It IS a fascinating idea#And I understand why some would like to explore it#But I've since realised it's not a scenario for me#I wouldn't enjoy writing it#Nor would it be healthy for me to write it#So I'm not going to#The Black Knight AU is more likely to happen than this story x'D#Which I admit is still puttering away at the back of my mind#Which is very inconvenient#I should be focusing on Who Holds the Devil#And I'm TRYING#But it's harder than I want it to be#Then again#Life has been truly shit lately#So maybe I should just try to be kind to myself#Ah well
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everyone who meets me thinks im a top at first!! i dunno why! could be racism, could be my resting bitch face, could be both.
n e ways i pushed this insecurity onto my oc malory, who is verrrry intimidating. but shes a bottom through and through!
she's also nonbinary and has days she feels like a boy, but shes a very gnc boy, she doesnt wanna go on hormones or anything
shes also a total sweetheart, just very aloof and to the point, but she wouldn't hurt a fly
#personal#and then did stuff: shes the systems primary physical protector#anytime the body gets hurt she switches out which helped when they were younger but is very inconvenient in adulthood LOL#im feeling so chatty rn lol ignore me#or u can ask me abt my ocs uwu....
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