#when they finally fuck this season the earth will shatter

[shesnake]

Myha'la & Marisa Abela in Industry season 3 (2024).

[househrt]

househrt's Repression fic rec list

Fic recs where Wilson and/or House is incredibly repressed and/or oblivious (about their sexuality, their feelings, their anything). I've tried to tag authors' tumblrs where they exist, but pls tell me if I've missed any!

Repressed!Hilson

Diagnosis by tornyourdress Creator's summary: House has a dream about Wilson and decides it's his brain's way of telling him Wilson's sick. The fact that it was a sex dream is completely irrelevant. Rec notes: 1.1k. Hilson getting together. Mutual repression from these two losers (affectionately)

every burn hole smells like home by JesseStresse Creator's summary: When House's pipes break in his apartment in early season 5, leaving him with no running water and no ability to shower, Wilson is recruited by the ducklings to make House shower because he smells distractingly bad. But Wilson doesn't smell anything bad. Actually, Wilson thinks House smells really good. Which could mean nothing. OR: Wilson discovers boysmell and has a midlife sexuality crisis about it. Rec notes: 20k. Hilson getting together. Trans Wilson thinks he's straight, both House and Wilson think the other one is straight, Wilson is in deep, deep denial

Repressed!House

systemic by ictus Creator's summary: Ever since Wilson moved in, House has presented with some inexplicable symptoms. Fortunately, he has a team of talented doctors to aid him with his diagnosis. Rec notes: 10k. Hilson getting together. House keeps having vivid Hilson dreams and runs a DDX on himself (one of my fav tropes). He's so repressed about his feelings for Wilson :)))

He Won't Tell You That He Loves You by hellshandbasket Creator's summary: “Finish it out,” he grits between clenched teeth. “Go on. Ask it.” Nolan shifts in his seat. “Are or are you not attracted, at the very least, to Wilson?” House knocks his forehead against his cane. “I don’t know. Maybe.” In which Nolan pulls at the Wilson thread, and House can't stop it all from unraveling. Repression is a hell of a drug. Rec notes: 25k. Hilson getting together. Repressed!House (not) dealing with his big gay crush realisation, Wilson is more observant than people think (quote: “You are the stupidest fucking person I’ve ever met,” Wilson declares. “You’re a moron, you know that? I don’t even know how you get through the day. An idiot.”)

Polygraphing by DarnGoshit Creator's summary: Greg is in a room full of liars and he knows what his Power is before he hits junior high. Or: Everyone is born with a supernatural abilities. House's is knowing when someone lies. Rec notes: 5.4k. Pre-Hilson. (Mostly background Hilson) House is the last one to know he's in love with Wilson, and is desperately trying to find out if Wilson feels the same (but he won't ever just ask, of course not)

keep me where the light is by RMarie124 Creator's summary: "House has his earth shattering, (good) knee weakening, life changing revelation about Wilson at such an inopportune time, that he’s tempted to laugh. He would have, if he hadn’t been hands deep in his patient’s organs." Rec notes: 13k. Hilson getting together. House realising he's in love with Wilson and panicking about it, feat. some bad pain days

Repressed!Wilson

a thousand teeth (and yours among them) by itooaminthisepisode (anarchy_opossum) Creator's summary: He just takes in the sight of House, loose and pliant and beautiful despite the pain he’s in - the glazed look in his eyes, the way his mouth drops open, the way he presses his nose into Wilson’s palm. The way he digs his teeth into Wilson’s skin. “Ow!” he yelps, quickly withdrawing his hand as the tender mood vanishes without a trace. “What the hell was that for?”' or: Sometimes, when House gets too overwhelmed by his emotions, he gets a little bitey. This is five times House bites Wilson, and one time Wilson finally bites him back. Rec notes: 1.2k. Hilson getting together. James "I'm not gay" Wilson, my beloved, with some hurt!House as a treat

only fools rush in by bittereternity Creator's summary: so take my hand, and take my whole life too. Or, the one in which Wilson realizes he's in love. It kind of throws him off-kilter. Rec notes: 3.7k. Hilson getting together. Wilson is the last one (except for House) to figure out he's in love with House. Includes Foreman giving Wilson the shovel talk and Cuddy's response to Wilson's "I'm in love" confession being “Which nurse do I need to replace this time?”

Noticing The Little Things by erimeows Creator's summary: Wilson notices things in House that he didn’t before. He notices that House eats the yogurt first because he knows that Wilson’s favorite parts of the parfait are the fruit and the granola, notices that House has beautiful flashing blue eyes and a gorgeous smile. He notices House’s cute little habit of playing with his own hair when he’s bored and the way House likes his coffee; black with an ungodly amount of sugar. Wilson notices things in himself that weren’t there before either. He notices that his heart is beating far too fast, that his face is hot, that his fingers twitch with anxiety and that he can’t stop himself from scratching the back of his neck. He’s so tired from losing sleep over the issue that he can barely stay awake, even with House looking him in the eye the way he is right now. “The hell’s wrong with you?” Rec notes: 4.4k. Hilson getting together. Wilson's big gay sexuality crisis. House's concern takes the form of thinking he must be sick and running a DDX on Wilson's big gay crush symptoms

Five Times House pranked Wilson And One Time He Didn't by vampiremustdie Creator's summary: what it says on the tin. crack fic + some very much earned yelling at each other as an excuse to get them close together !!! Rec notes: 5.3k. Hilson getting together. House being annoying, Wilson getting annoyed, then they kiss about it (also includes House drugging Wilson, one of my fav tropes)

I wanna scream “I love you” from the top of my lungs (but I’m afraid that someone else will hear me) by eating_custardinbed Creator's summary: “Call your divorce attorney and pack your bags, Jimmy. Me and you are shacking up.” in which Wilson is told that he is gay, and goes on a journey of self-discovery Rec notes: 5.8k. Hilson getting together. Wilson is the last person to figure out he's gay

A Little Experiment by roamingbee Creator's summary: House and Wilson have a drunken one-night stand. Wilson freaks out. House deflects. Rec notes: 7.8k. Hilson getting together. Wilson freaking out after his first gay experience (with House)

James Wilson and the Cozy Blanket of Denial by tornyourdress Creator's summary: "Why not date you?" Exactly, House says - why not date me? Rec notes: 3.2k. Wamber + Hilson -> moving into Hilsamber. Jealous!House and James "I swear, all straight guys fool around. It doesn't mean anything!" Wilson

your slightest look easily will unclose me by tornyourdress Creator's summary: Wilson has an unusual response to hearing about a patient of House's trying to 'cure' himself of being gay, and both House and Sam realize something's up. Rec notes: 3.6k. Wilson/Sam -> Hilson getting together. Wilson went through conversion therapy as a kid and is in major denial about how it fucked him up

starry eyes sparking up my darkest night by lawrussoauto Creator's summary: In his office, at work, with a girlfriend at home, Wilson was about to watch his best friend and their boss have sex. The realisation that House had emailed him a sex tape finally sank in. Where, in said sex tape, they were talking about him. “You think I’m afraid to go public? I want to prove you wrong … With a sex tape. We’ll send it to Wilson. It’s a win-win.” -- House, S07EP01. Rec notes: 1.6k. Huddy + Hilson -> Hudson. Wilson is repressed about his big gay feelings for House and watches Huddy's sex tape.

Correlation Does Not Equal Causation by housethemd (Whiskeyrose1) Creator's summary: “This… this hasn’t happened before.” “Most people say that in the opposite situation.” Alternatively titled: Wilson Doesn’t Actually Have Whiskey Dick Rec notes: 3.1k. Established Hilson. Previously repressed!Wilson and House have a drunken hookup (quote: “You don’t have whiskey dick, you’re just gay.”)

Shake The Disease by WeirdAn Creator's summary: Wilson moans House's name in bed. His marriage goes downhill, but he isn't gay, right? Rec notes: 3.3k. Hilson getting together. Wilson having his big gay freak out

Simply Complicated by wearywren Creator's summary: Wilson has made a big discovery about the true nature of his feelings toward House. House, of course, wants to figure him out. Rec notes: 2.7k. Hilson getting together. Wilson having his big gay freak out, House being nosy

Commedia Dell'Arte by IreneSpring Creator's summary: Even the most ornate masks eventually crumble. Wilson's lasted over thirty years, which would be impressive, if it weren't for the devastating ramifications. Rec notes: 7.6k. Hilson getting together. Wilson in denial about how he's autistic. James "But everyone does that, right?" Wilson. (Quote: How the fuck does anyone get diagnosed with autism when all the criteria are just normal parts of being a person?)

The Evolutionary Imperative by pleasuretoburn Creator's summary: "There's an evolutionary imperative why we give a crap about our family and friends, and there's an evolutionary imperative why we don't give a crap about anybody else. If we loved all people indiscriminately, we couldn't function." (2.04) or, Wilson gets involved in a situation he never expected to find himself in but, as the good, blundering creature that he is, he will people-please his way into his new life as a father. The only problem is, as always, House. Rec notes: 46k. Hilson getting together. Kid!fic that I, someone who rarely enjoys kid!fics, loved (Continued in this series)

Hypothesis by IreneSpring Creator's summary: At the beginning of the month, James Wilson decides to break out of his depressive spiral by having an affair with the first woman who is not needy. By the end of the month, he is facing an existential crisis decades in the making. Rec notes: 15k. Hilson getting together. Comphet!Wilson figuring out his sexuality (quote: "Am I gay, or just severely depressed?")

[feel free to send me fics you think should be on this list and I may add them. The rest of my fic rec lists are here. Last updated 05 October 2024]

[starlight-tav]

I'm going fucking insane over Jayce & Viktor so I offer you an unhinged ramble about the butterfly and the narrative structure of their relationship. I apologize in advanced for being batshit.

So Viktor and Jayce's relationship is a chiastic structure. A chiasm is where the beginning and end of a story point to the middle of it, creating an X or ∞ (a chiasma is also a structure in genetics, if you've seen the word in science classes before.)

This means that the rise and fall of the narrative mirror each other (parallelism). There are many parallels in Jayce and Viktor's relationship, with one of the most overt being "Am I interrupting?" and one of the more covert examples being Viktor's belief in Jayce's dream to use science to bring access to the Arcane ("Our hextech dream") and Jayce's belief in Viktor leading them to shattering access to the Arcane web ("We finish this together.")

At the center of this narrative is death and resurrection (metamorphosis). The first season ends with Viktor's death, and the second begins with his resurrection, the literal center of the story.

Now, Arcane is about love in its entirety. All-encompassing, earth-shattering, life-giving, life-taking love. Love, which inspires our greatest evil and our greatest good, is something that changes us. Love which can lead to grief, can make us into our worst selves (consider the warmongering), but it can also make us into our kindest selves (consider Isha.)

Jayce's love for Viktor saves him but it also changes him. Twice. When Viktor dies, Jayce is unwilling to let him go and uses the hexcore to resurrect him. This transforms Viktor into the Herald.

When Jayce is forced into the alternate reality where he experiences the decline of his body and the struggle to climb from the depths to the surface (a narrative representation of empathy), he finally understands Viktor. This transformative understanding primes him to fulfill his promises to Viktor, past and future - to destroy the hexcore and stop the Arcane from bleeding out all over reality; to save Viktor.

The butterfly is a well-know symbol of transformation, so it's no accident that it follows Viktor and Jayce from the very beginning to the very end. But it isn't just a visual representation of love and its power, but a reminder of the very structure of their narrative.

Because Arcane is also about perspective - narratives. Silco and Vander show us how our shared experiences can yield different motivations, as do Jinx and Vi, and Ambessa and Mel too. Every single one of these characters is motivated by love, but their methods are opposing forces.

We see, time and time again, that those with the most power are those who control the narrative (power in Zaun creating a righteous rebellion vs power in Piltover creating a narrative of dangerous insurrection), and that power lacking empathy is corruptive (Cait and Ambessa forsaking empathy in favor of violently seizing control vs. Vi and Mel embodying empathy to save that which they love.)

At the center of all of this conflict is partnership. Failed partnerships, like Vander & Silco and redeeming partnerships, like Ekko & Jinx. Viktor and Jayce share a dream, and that dreams bleeds the Arcane, corrupting reality. But when they forsake their partnership (Jayce joining the council and Viktor leaving the lab), it nearly destroys everything.

When they lean into their affection, when they utilize empathy, when they let their love be transformative, they heal the Arcane and reality. In their final moments, they mirror each other, and as they're scattered into all timelines and all possibilities by the explosion they are transformed into something cosmic together. Their story ends as it began.

We know from the lifecycle of the butterfly, by the structure of the narrative, that beginnings and endings are not so finite. Love is both a constant ("in all timelines, in all possibilities") and an anomaly ("That which inspires us to our greatest good, is also the cause of our greatest evil".) It is the infinite, and the infinite is not a line with a beginning and an end, but a tangle of time and potential.

The chiastic structure of Jayce and Viktor's relationship is one that shows that love itself is the most powerful and transformative force in nature. It demonstrates that love doesn't just have the potential create or destroy but to do both at the same time; that reality isn't binary, but it is symmetrical. A butterfly was always a caterpillar and a caterpillar was always a butterfly; it experiences both, not one or the other (there's even a moment where it's neither and both all at once!)

Love is imperfect. People are imperfect. When Jayce is transformed in the depths of Zaun, he finally understands this. He carries this revelation to the height of Piltover where he finds Viktor waiting for him.

"There is no prize to perfection, only an end to pursuit."

If love were perfect it would stagnate, dreamless. Recognizing its power is seeing it for all its good and evil, and choosing it all the same.

"You were never broken, Viktor. There's beauty in imperfections. They made you who you are. An inseparable piece of everything I admired about you."

Viktor's transformation isn't from a broken man into the Herald, it's from a man believing himself unworthy of love to one knowing he is loved unconditionally. If love were perfect it would require perfection of us. But it isn't and it doesn't. Only Jayce can show Viktor this, because Jayce loves Viktor and Viktor loves Jayce.

"I thought I wanted to give magic to the world, but all I want is my partner back."

Think about Singed telling Viktor that "Love and legacy are the sacrifices we make for progress."

And Viktor responding, "Jayce will understand."

He did understand eventually, only he sacrifices progress and legacy for love and transformation. Love is not the opposite of progress, perfection is the opposite of progress. In a perfect world, there is no need to dream together. Jayce understands this. He shows Viktor this. And together they change.

I've always been bad at concluding paragraphs, but I hope my rambling has made sense up to the point. TLDR; the butterfly is a visual representation of Jayce and Viktor's narrative as one of love and transformation.

[hush-writes-preg]

Spooky Season Day #13

Concept: Imagine finding yourself intoxicated with the pheromones of a werewolf's heat. You're flipped onto your belly and mounted like a bitch, their straining cock sliding deep into your hot, eager hole. This is no soft, gentle fucking; they pump into you with a ferocity and feral hunger that nearly sends your eyes rolling back in your skull. Their knot is a hot threat pounding against your entrance with blatant intent, and you know where they want it. Where you want it. When they finally drive it home, your climax crashes over you in an earth-shattering tidal wave. You're screaming out in pained pleasure, feeling them twitching inside you with every jet of potent seed into your unprotected womb, the knot plugging you up to ensure conception.

Months pass, and their seed has taken root. Their litter shifts and squirms in your belly, especially when they continue to pleasure themselves in your gravid body. Clawed, furred paws rub fondly over your massive abdomen while they're pumping you full of a fresh load, and you can't imagine going back to your old life.

(A Spooky Season prompt. Feel free to put it to good use! 😘)

[brownhood69]

TFE RANT (also spoilers)

Okay, so for those of you who haven't heard of Transformers Earth Spark, it's basically a show where the cybertronian War is technically over and now cybertronians are trying to get used to the life on earth. But they are completely treated like they are animals. If you want to watch the show yourself then go right ahead it should be on Amazon Prime or on Paramount Plus because this will contain spoilers for the first season and the 2nd season so feel free to skip this.

ANYWAY!

So all of you know the Decepticons right?

👆

These guys?

Well, near the end of the last episode of season 1 of Earth Spark they all decided to work together with the Decepticons to take down mandroid, the main antagonist of season 1. There was also two episodes where one of the Decepticons started to have a relationship with the Malto family. Like for example

Nightshade and tarantulas:

And Starscream and hashtag:

See how these two GIFs are completely wholesome? Infact, the first season teaches that even though somebody could be on the opposite side of things that doesn't initially mean that they are a bad guy completely, just misunderstood.

It teaches that everyone can have a second chance if they really try but not everyone can really get that second chance.

And then season 2 comes around,

And BOY was I pissed off about it.

Now I haven't watched season 2 myself but I have watched one episode in it and that's it. remember that I said that the Decepticons finally decided to fight Mandroid thanks to Twitch and that some of the Terrans actually had some decent relationships with some of the Decepticons?

Well season two just completely THROWS ALL OF IT OUT OF THE FUCKING WINDOW!!!

When I watch season 2 I thought it was going to be all cool and hype and I thought everyone was just overreacting over season 2. NOPE! THEY HAD THE RIGHT TO BE UPSET! Because one episode in and I was immediately flashed banged with shock. Robby was explaining after 2 years of like saving cybertronians from Mandroid's destruction the quintus prime Stone (I don't remember what it's called) kind of shattered into like thousands of pieces across the globe. He then says that the Decepticons help them to retrieve them but then they decided to turn on them and get the shards for themselves. EVEN THOUGH THE FIRST SEASON SAID THAT NOT ALL DECEPTICONS ARE BAD!!

Like where did this even come from!? And why make them back into villains when we already saw the shot of them HELPING TWITCH AND HER FAM FROM KILLING ALL CYBERTRONIANS!? Like, what is the point of this!? If you're just going to make them bad guys anyway, why give the Terrans a chance to understand them and sympathize with the 'cons!? You had such a good new take on the Transformers yet you decided to throw away that said good take and just take it back to square one!

WHAT THE HELL HASBRO!?

*SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*

And don't get me started with Bumblebee's relationship with Breakdown. You clearly set them up to be best buddies and then you just set that friendship arc on fire and just went on the 'Con vs 'Bot arc again. But the part that pisses me off the most is Starscream's abandon arc. Earthspark *clearly* wanted to make this Starscream as sympathetic as possible and this could have worked well. IF THEY DIDNT MAKE HIM THE MAIN VILLIAN IN SEASON 2!

And I guess prowl appearing in season 3 is kind of nice but it would have been better if he was like the villain instead of Starscream. If they were going to be good Decepticons then there has to be bad Autobots. But hey, Hasbro isnt keen on keeping promises are you Hasbro?

God, you had such a good idea and you just had to ruin it with season 2 and 3. I hope the rumors of Earthspark getting canceled are true thanks to this.

Also, GIVE US A TRUELY, ACTUAL, HEROIC, SYMPATHETIC STARSCREAM FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! **AND DONT FUCK IT UP THIS TIME!!!**

Okay, I think I'm done for now, but I might add a part 2 if I decided to watch the rest of season 2 and season 3.

K bye!

[piko-rose]

If there's one thing from Season 2 of Sonic Prime that lives rent free in my head, it's THIS-

It's a small moment, but so much is dissected in just three seconds of this one shot.

Mainly the expression and the voice from Sonic here.

Deven Mack's delivery on screaming out for Shadow's name is just, incredible. You can literally hear the fear in Sonic's tone when Shadow got slammed by some giant crystals and fell into the void. (or whatever the heck it's called I'm thinking about rewatching some episodes until Season 3)

And since we can recall the final moments in Adventure 2 where Shadow falls to the Earth, and apparently knowing that according to one of the Takeovers, Sonic was going to save him but Shadow refused him to so that way he wouldn't fall with him, this just makes this moment, and the delivery alone, even more intense, if not, heartbreaking. (At least in my opinion lol)

And we need to mention the eyes.

I couldn't help but notice some of the smallest of details not a lot of people pay attention to, unless you're me, who goes insane over outstanding animation details. XD

My personal favorite details are the eyes, since they express a lot of emotion without words. This is the best example.

These emerald eyes? Right here? Fucking horrified of loosing Shadow.

Frantically looking around the darkness looking for a black and red figure and just praying that he's still there, but especially alive and okay.

This tiny moment here just means so much to me.

Sonic here, for a split second, thought that he lost Shadow, and not only did he nearly loose him again, but Shadow was the only person he knows from his own world, meanwhile his friends (and Eggman) were shattered, and this was also after seeing his friends as ghosts on loop.

And even though earlier they were fighting over Nine's gadgets, Sonic here was worried, if not, terrified, about loosing Shadow, the only one who survived the whole shattering the shards shtick aside from himself.

Plus, he needed someone from his world to talk to anyway (at least try to talk to) since his friends right now don't know who he is, suspects him as a bad guy, betrayed him at some point, all of the above, etc.

He ain't loosing Shadow. He doesn't even care if they were fighting, he is NOT loosing Shadow.

He is NOT loosing his only friend.

And that's why I love this shot here.

And I also wish I can just clip videos instead of just taking pics without said audio god dammit-

[ficnoire2]

An Ode to The King, Briana Irene Matthews

When I say I love this character, I say it with my whole chest.  I cannot begin to express the joy I experienced when one of my fellow educators passed me this book and said “I’ve got a fantasy book for you, and there is a black girl on the cover.”  I am a child of The Neverending Story, Legend, Willow, etc (Google if you need to) and brown faces were few and far between, if there at all.  There are so many things I admire and appreciate about Bree Bree and the power she holds can’t be understated. 

*Spoilers Ahead so Exit Stage Left if You Need To*

Choices

In a story where choice has been hijacked for so many of our faves, I love the choice she makes at the end of Bloodmarked. To choose herself.  I know there has been controversy regarding this but fuck all that, she said what she said.  The fact that black girls need to be perfect and make decisions that are equally as perfect no matter what they are up against is absurd.  That line of thinking has real world consequences.  I love that she tried to consult with elders, those that came before her.  She seemed to be following this implied protocol that did not bear the fruit she’d hoped for.  

When she says, “I realize now why Jessie’s mantra to call root didn’t work for me.”  She said,  “Think of the power you possess and the woman who gave it to you.” I smile sadly,  “I used to think that woman was my mother, and through her, you.  Tried it her way and it didn’t work.  Because you all didn’t give me my power.”  I kneel to face the streams, thrust my hands into the earth from which they came. 

“I did.”

This was a hell of a scene because she is finally shutting off the noise of the outside world, the distracting chatter blocking her self actualization.  Arthur, the ancestors, the Legendborn, and choosing Bree.  Much like she puts the broken pieces of  Excalibur back together, she is in a sense doing the same for herself (pain welded blade).  It even bears a deep purple stone in the pommel. The color meant to speak to this pain, this literal and figurative bruising and beating she has taken.  In addition, the choice to go with Erebus and the uncertainty that hangs there was pure fearlessness.  As her character sheet says, she is intrepid, bold.  The way she is written, you just know it is in her soul.  As Tracy says in her dedication, For every Black girl who was “the first.”  Black is capitalized here, emphasized, because we are often demonized for making decisions or having experiences that those that came before may not have had the courage or opportunity to step into.  The First.  In Bree’s line everyone ran and she decided to stop running and turn to face the unknown, whatever may come with her chin up.  

In addition to being a clever badass, I loved watching how she navigated her relationships with Nick and Sel.  Again, another hot button topic where folks are clutching pearls and clenching ass cheeks.  I am not interested in “ship wars” but what did catch my eye was the way Bree allowed herself to be loved on.  The safety and soft intimacy she received and craved from Nick in a time where her world had been completely shattered was beautiful to read.  “I’m impressed, despite my still racing heartbeat.  How does he do it?  How does this boy navigate my emotions like a seasoned sailor, finding the clear skies and bringing them closer, when all I seem able to do is hold fast to the storms?”  He is patient with her.  The way he speaks, comforting and protective.  I love that she had this!  The giddiness at that age of meeting someone that makes you dizzy in the best way.  I love that Bree allowed herself to experience the respite Nick offered.  That relationship represents the light in her, hearkens back to a simpler time.

I also think Bree enjoys the challenge Sel presents.  Aside from him trying to kill her in the beginning (and being an all around asshole), she always seems to find interest in him (her shadow side).  “He’s dressed in black, as always, but his long coat is gone.  His tattoos are on full display below sleeves rolled at the elbow.  They wind down his forearms and wrists, and I can’t help but study them.  I wonder how far they go and how many he has before I remember that I detest him and shouldn’t care about his tattoos at all.”  

Bree is fiery (quite literally) and finds herself drawn to the darkness and mystery of Sel.  In truth, she likes to stir the pot.  When Vaughn is giving her shit about being Nick’s page, she intentionally fucks with him.  “But I’m not going to disappear.  And I don’t want to keep my head down.  Instead, I’m going to give Vaughn a glimpse of who I really am, and show him exactly who I’m not.”

She then throws the haymaker, “You’re a bigot and a bully, Scheafer.  You insult me because you think you know what I am capable of, but you don’t.  I must make you nervous, though, for you to expose your insecurities about your odds of success in the tournament.”

Long story short, Briana Irene is with the shits! How many times have you had to check in a loser such as Vaughn, who in all their mediocrity, thinks they are superior?  I love that she essentially says, “aight then.”

I say all that to say that I like that she is feeling her feelings.  She can acknowledge and accept the safety and easiness of Nick, while also reveling in the mystery and chaos of Sel.  Those two desires can (and do) live in the same body.  I love that this is confusing for her and she grapples with it because, what 16 year old wouldn’t! Low key/high key, folks my age would grapple with certain aspects of that but again, her choices.  

Bree is supposed to be complicated. At times infuriating.  I find it strange however, when folks don’t give her the space she has earned to develop.  So many of us Black girls are not afforded this space.  No room to grow, change our minds, or choose a different path.  She is grappling with grief and grief is messy, complicated.  The vessel in which she entered the world ceases to exist on the plane of the living and she is floating in the darkness and uncertainty of that.  “Your anguish is wrapped around your very heart.”   Not to mention navigating racism, sexism, supernatural beings, and understanding her own body and power.  That is a tall order.  She represents multitudes of girls who were “the first” and I am so glad I get to witness her in all her flaws and greatness.  THE KING.  Rumble black girl, rumble.  

[irisbleufic]

This will probably feel like it’s coming out of the blue, as The Simpsons isn’t something I’m known for posting on main, but like…I’ve had a long-term fascination with this show. I saw the first few seasons when I was a kid. I had to watch it at a friend’s place and my grandparents’ place, because, like many parents raising kids/teens in the 1980s-1990s, mine were convinced Bart was a bad influence. Lisa’s ambition and cleverness have always meant a lot to me, but this strange rumination has more to do with my eternal puzzlement over the bad rap Bart has gotten from parents.

I can say more than ever, especially with regard to the past decade or more of seasons, that Bart is actually a really sweet kid. Mischievous and bored, but genuinely sweet. Meanwhile, Lisa’s got a devious streak a mile wide and is probably the fictional kid my parents should have been most worried about teaching me dubious behavior and scheming (because she knows how not to get caught).

I’m sure this conversation has been had many times over on the internet, but this moment of navel gazing in the wake of watching the first handful of episodes from the latest run (Season 35, how the fuck has this show been around for all but the first 7 years of my life?) just feels…necessary somehow. Every once in a while, when a piece of media has been with me for a long time, I’ll have this weird realization that the character who means the most to me isn’t the one in whom I saw the obvious parts of myself at first.

Sure, I’ve always been a dutiful, ambitious student—even now that I’m an adult who teaches college undergrads, I don’t think I’ve ever shed that. But I was also that weird, imaginative, often-bullied kid who didn’t know they were neurodivergent, who got yelled at for not paying attention during class and sneaking off to the woods adjacent to my elementary school during recess. Sometimes, I took the fall for the occasional prank my few close friends and I would play because I wasn’t good at getting out of the way in time. I had a real disdain for authority, although I knew how to hide it from the few teachers and admins I genuinely liked/respected.

I don’t really have an earth-shattering point to make here except that, huh, it’s neat to realize Bart is the one I related to the most all along. It never even occurred to me that we’re both oldest children; Lisa is eldest-coded sometimes even though she’s the middle kid, but…damn, if Bart’s experience as the oldest isn’t similar to mine. You get cracked down on, get in trouble for, things that your parents can’t be arsed to go after by the time your younger siblings come along. You love those little shits with all your heart even though they aren’t above rubbing their immunity in your face. You shatter beneath the pressure of things that finally, finally hurt too much to keep up the tough-guy façade.

Anyway, Bart: my parents were wrong about you. Everyone’s parents were. I feel that even more strongly as an adult than I did when I was a kid. And the kids like you, like us—more sensitive than meets the eye, mind always racing a mile a minute, mischievously curious, all too often misunderstood—are the reason I became a teacher. Thank you for that.

I’ve been saying to friends for a long time, when The Simpsons comes up in conversation, that the cast of this show are our Players: “Let them be well used, for they are the abstract and brief chronicles of the time. After your death you were better have a bad epitaph than their ill report while you live.”

[deanstudies101]

5x10, Abandon All Hope

[mid-season finale]

Critical theory: Sacrifice. Family. Fathers. Inevitability. 

Discussion point/question(s): Cas in holy fire as a genre of images. 

Key quotes: (2x06, Ellen “Joanna Beth, this family has lost enough. I won't lose you too.”); Dean, “Bobby, it’s Dean. We got problems.” Bobby, “It’s okay boy, that’s why I’m here.”; Lucifer, “What a peculiar thing you are.” 

Further reading: 

“Last night on earth” is Dean’s pick up line. And he used it on Cas (@drulalovescas)

Discussion: 

Quite sad innit. 

Not exactly a surprise. They are women. It was a more classy death than most women on the show. Well written. Jo’s dad comes to mind—he died because John used him as bait, and John failed whatever he was trying. They both died as bait. But this was an active choice that they made. Dean was really trying to avoid the reality, didn’t want to face it, couldn’t look at her. He didn’t want to cope with that particular loss. And the fact 'hat it was hell hounds, that he’s well acquainted with and has trauma over. [The thing that always gets me. Ellen stays so that she doesn't have to live after Jo dies. And she still does.] But there was no way she was going to abandon her daughter. That would never happen. And good thing she did stay, because Jo wouldn’t have managed it alone. [Actually, I think Jo died because her mum hugged her. She felt safe to let go, maybe?] Yeah, maybe she would’ve held on otherwise.

It’s sad because it’s pointless death. And like, obviously they’re not going to kill Lucifer halfway through the season, you know that they’re going to fail. Obviously they’re going to fail. [It hurts because they don’t know they’re in the mid-season finale.]

[Mid-season finale moment.][When I came up with the theory, this was the season that I remembered the easiest. It has two parts. I have written a little note to myself that one is more important than the other to me, and it’s not the one you think.] Kai, Cas and Lucifer have a conversation about God. Iga, a theme of sacrifice and failure, but need some time to digest the episode. Kai, yeah, a vibe of pointlessness, it’s so big it’s out of their hands. 

Iga, I think I said a while ago that it would be funny if Lucifer came out and he doesn’t even like the demons. [Possibly. But. You did say. After 4x22; “It would be funny if Lucifer and Cas have a conversation, and Lucifer goes ‘you’re just like me bro.’” And I just put in brackets. [Damn that would be funny.]] Oh damn. Called it. 

[Lucifer, “What a peculiar thing you are.” He's the devil. The devil just looked Cas in the face and said “you’re different.”] He doesn’t fit anywhere but with these weird hunters. [It is tism. But also for me. How world shattering. You’re a rebellious fallen angel, and thee rebellious fallen angel is like, yeah you’re like me, but no you’re not.] But it’s like, there’s that sense when you’re around people that you’re just. Different. There is something different about you. [I think for me it’s like. Cas doesn’t fit on either side. He’s on people's side.]

Iga, “Crowley is the only one with a brain.” Lucifer made demons to prove that humans aint shit. To corrupt them and bring out their worst. Or course he won’t like them. He hates everything they came from. Of course he’s not going to take them to heaven. [I love Crowly.][[What follows are all direct quotes.]] Iga, he’s hot. Kai, yeah he’s hot. Iga, I’d fuck him. [Okay.] Iga, is that not allowed? [[the truth is this is too funny to me. I’m saying nothing.]] Iga, Dean and Crowly fuck, right? [[oh drowley summer of love.]] Iga, Cas, Dean, and Crowly are like, dream threesome, and ideal blunt rotation. I don’t smoke weed. But I’d watch them. Kai, like yes, it would be a great threesome, but Cas and Crowley would both get crazy possessive over Dean. Iga, no, they’d fuck each other. It’d be hate fucking, but they would. 

After this they both apologised for derailing the discussion after a very serious episode where Jo and Ellen died, but they like Crowly. [No no. We’ll circle back.] … Do Cas and Crowly fuck? [We’ll circle back.]

What gets people into hell or into heaven? At least for people who don’t make demon deals. Good Place situation. What’s the point system? We haven’t heard of anyone getting to heaven. Like, what happened to John? He escaped hell. [So. He escaped hell, through the devil’s gate. I think the implication is that he goes to heaven, but it’s unclear. And ? The ghost in Roadkill? Does she go to heaven?] She like looks at the sun and fizzles out. They always talk about peace, like finding peace. [We’ll circle back. But I honestly don’t know how clear they ever make it.] It’s just general questions about the lore. If someone stays behind as a spirit, they’re not in heaven or in hell, but then do shitty things as a spirit? [I don’t know. It’s a good question. I feel like they frame the spirits as evil most of the time, but I don't know? They kinda just… stop existing.] And we know the spirits aren’t evil, they’ve just been here too long, and they don’t really know what they're doing, a lot of times they were victims. 

Sam is no longer the main character. Dean got a goodbye with Jo. Ellen got a goodbye with Jo. Sam didn’t go anywhere near Jo. His only job was getting Dean to realise Jo was dying and to go say bye to her. [And like, I’d sat the two have equal history with her. Obviously Jo was attached to Dean…] And it was a soft crush, a bit of tension both ways, but very innocent, which makes the kiss very sad. [But there was that whole thing with Sam and Jo with the possession episode… equal interaction. Also. The scene with just Sam and Lucifer? Jared’s acting lets it down.] Kai, knowing how Jared was on set, maybe they did write a goodbye with Jo, but he was goofing too much they they didn’t get anything good. [Or maybe it was the bad acting.] He can’t do serious episodes. But by God can he goof. [I wish I was still 16 and didn’t care about bad acting.]

[I loved watching them watch this. Because, it’s so ingrained that like, yeah, there are things the Colt can’t kill, but this is the first time we see that! I don’t remember my reaction to finding out the Colt can’t kill Lucifer. And they were shocked. It was all “That’s not really Lucifer. It’s not the real Colt. Someone fucked with the Colt.” But no, that’s Lucifer, that’s the Colt, it just doesn’t work. It’s so beautiful.]

Who are the five beings? God? Michael, probably for balance? Lucifer and the four horsemen? God, Lucifer, Michael. Maybe Death? Death. [theories on this, with spoilers for seasons 6 onwards; https://www.reddit.com/r/Supernatural/comments/3kp9g9/figured_it_out_5_things_the_colt_cant_kill/ ]

The Colt was clearly made by a hunter who was autistic and hyper fixated on killing demons/hunting etc. So, did God make these beings immune to the Colt before it was created? How do the gun mechanics work? Need to know more about this gun. 

Notes: Iga, 4x22; “It would be funny if Lucifer and Cas have a conversation, and Lucifer goes ‘you’re just like me bro.’” [Damn that would be funny.]

mid-season finale moment under the cut

Lucifer does tell Sam exactly what will happen; Sam will say yes, it will be within six months, and it will happen in Detroit. However, for me, the more important one is

5x10 Ellen’s “I will not leave you here alone.” to 5x22 Dean’s “I’m not gonna let him die alone.” It's about saying 'even if there's nothing I can do to change it, I'm going to be there anyway.' And in the end, that is what changes things

[buryyourrevolutionaries]

trying to explain justified is so hard. like, season one is literally perfect television the whole way through but like it also takes a few random episodes (like that one where connor roy is a criminal dentist) before the amazing story kicks in . season two is ACTUALLY perfect television and i would argue its low-key on the same quality level of a season of breaking bad but it also changes the entire course of two major characters arcs in an insane way. season three is straight up fucking insane and has the most batshit crazy villain ever but its finale is so anti-climactic (and doesn't play "you'll never leave harlan alive" for some reason) season four is lowkey bad in the beginning and the protagonist is in peak womanizing corrupt cop mode with no consequences for any of his actions but the antagonist is simultaneously going through the most devastating earth-shattering arc ever and it ends so tragically and wonderfully and it's now the best season of justified somehow. and season five exists!!! and season six is so freaking tense and good but you just want these two men to kiss instead of making their fucked up relationship everyone else's goddamn problem, please go home and spend a single minute with your newborn daughter, please give up on stealing millions of dollars from a pizza place when EVERYONE knows that is your plan and you are being hunted down by every law enforcement agent ever. every female character serves incredible cunt and the protagonist fumbles every single one of them. every male character is queercoded to some degree. all of the side characters are funny weirdos with insane amounts of trauma. justified is the best show ever and severely underrated. also at one point the protagonist almost dies half paralyzed in a bathtub because he decides to visit the house of a woman he knew was part of an organ stealing operation and flirt with her for some fucking reason.

[feyburner]

“Wen Kexing’s stories are always about death. He populates them with animals and children. He tells Chengling about a boy who chases a firefly into a dark forest only to find himself lost, dead leaves crunching like bone underfoot, owls laughing overhead. In that story the boy gets adopted by a wild tiger. Years later when winter is cruel and the tiger is starving, it eats the boy. It makes the mistake of swallowing him whole. The boy makes his home in the tiger’s belly and lives there for a season, surviving on scraps of meat from the tiger’s other meals, until finally he is strong enough to claw his way out. Afterward he skins the tiger and fashions its pelt into a cloak, and all the other animals of the forest are so stupid they believe he is the tiger, and that is how the boy becomes king.

“I like shishu’s stories,” Chengling confesses, crawling into bed after Wen Kexing has gone. “But sometimes when he tells them, he looks sad.”

Chengling is so young, Zhou Zishu thinks. He is too young to know it’s not sadness Wen Kexing feels, not exactly. At a certain point there is no such thing as sadness. Either you’re hollow or you’re full. Wen Kexing reminds Zhou Zishu of a wine gourd. He was born full, scraped hollow, and now fills himself with wine. It’s something they have in common.

…

Zhou Zishu closes the doors behind him and waits until the candle is snuffed out, the cracks of yellow light replaced by the blue dark of evening. He takes his time wandering back through the halls of the manor to the east wing where he sleeps. He lingers in the shadows and thinks about a boy in a tiger’s belly, picking at the torn bodies of monkeys and wild pigs. Eating around the bits of fur and gristle. Fitting his own teeth to the marks of the tiger’s, pressing his small hands to the soft floor of the stomach, feeling along the bars of rib. Zhou Zishu thinks about wearing the skin of the thing that devoured you. How long does it take for a boy to become a tiger? Is it when he swallows his first mouthful of bloody meat?  

Lao Wen, Zhou Zishu wants to tell him. You can take off the pelt. I already know what you look like, wild, adorned with viscera. Gore-soaked and naked as a newborn. Maybe I wasn’t formed in Ghost Valley, but I have walked the realm of shades. The difference between you and me is I climbed into the tiger’s mouth and brought my brothers with me. From within its jaws I beckoned. I told them we’d be safe there, protected from the wolves.

…

Night comes alive outside the window as they drink, the nightingales fluting their songs. Together they discuss Chengling’s training and the search for a silk painter, the local wine, Gu Xiang and her Cao da-ge—Wen Kexing curls his lip, for show—and the orchards. What a pleasure it is, Zhou Zishu thinks, to live such peaceful days that you can spend your nights remarking on unremarkable things. What a pleasure it is to talk for the sake of talking, to sink into the familiar patterns of his voice. Wen Kexing has said nothing earth-shattering. No grief or fury stalks his words. He complains about the weather and quotes a poem he’s quoted before. He picks at a plate of nuts, avoiding the bits of dried fruit, and cackles at his own jokes. His laugh, when it’s real, is either low and soft or high and foxlike, a rasping bark.

…

This time when he leans in, he brushes their foreheads together. His eyes slip shut. The last time he kissed someone was in a lavish room draped in gold and peacock blue. He remembers the skin of his chest pulled tight around the two nails embedded in it, still an unfamiliar pain back then. He remembers the heavy scent of plum wine, the scrape of stubble against his chin, his jaw, then lower. He remembers staring at a hanging scroll on the opposite wall, an ink-wash scene of a single pine tree overlooking a misty gorge, its knotted branches reaching out into the empty space. That night he fucked or was fucked, it doesn’t matter. His hands did what hands do. His body took and took again, half clothed. Afterward he rolled into the damp spot and drove his knife into soft flesh. He listened to another round of gasping. More spasms like the desperate flopping of a fish. Men die and fuck the same.

He thinks if he said that aloud, Wen Kexing would respond: And there are so many ways to do both. 

…

How terrible, at the end of this life, to find someone so funny who likes him.”

…

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i wish i could copy paste the entire fic here. i can’t tell you how many times i’ve read it. your writing is beautiful. it is pure rhythm. it feels effortless and i know thats bec the level of skill is insane. thank you. i hope you never stop.

Thank you so much. This really means a lot. That fic is special to me bc it broke a writing dry spell. Thank you for reading it and sending this, I really appreciate it. 💛

[shadowkoo]

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The Ex Text ✓ ↠ ex boyfriend with benefits, booty call

The 2 AM texts have started again. It’s a bittersweet familiarity that you can’t run away from, and despite wishing to forget him: no one will ever measure up to the exceptional standard set by your ex, and you’ll never have anyone as good as him either. Like a permanent mark on your heart, Jungkook’s presence has become an insatiable craving, an addiction you’ll never outgrow or cast aside. ❤︎ ☺︎ ☹︎

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The Taste of Sin ✓ ↠ witch/warlock au, s2l, horror, black magic au

Following his sister’s passing, Taehyung faced a daunting battle within himself, one where he eventually succumbed to the enveloping shadows that gripped his soul. Your task is to free him from the clutches of the black magic that now consumes him. The only problem? He doesn’t want to be saved. ☹︎ ❤︎

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For the past three years, Kim Taehyung has made it his mission to annoy you relentlessly on campus, finding every possible way to drive you up the wall during your shared classes. However, as you both enter your senior year, something strange happens. Taehyung begins to sense a shift in his energy, realizing he might just have some secret feelings for you. What unfolds when you make this earth-shattering discovery too? ❤︎

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Namjoon made the decision early on in his training that he would abstain from dating or entering any form of relationship while in active duty. He’s determined not to burden anyone with the likelihood of being to be notified of his death or causing pain to someone he loves by his long absence. Ironically, he found himself drawn to you, a doctor who challenges his beliefs and contradicts everything he upholds.

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You and Yoongi have been relishing the comfort of your newly married life, savoring each moment together. However, there’s an additional want tugging at your heartstrings – the thought of becoming a mother. That’s right, you want a baby. Yoongi isn’t sure if he’s ready for the journey of bringing a baby into your lives. But he’ll agree to anything that makes you happy, and if it’s a baby you want, it’s a baby you’ll get. ❤︎ ☺︎

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The upcoming season for the Denver Dragons is predicted to be an absolute game-changer! From lightning-fast breakaways to jaw-dropping saves, get ready to witness a showcase of skill, determination, and pure passion in both the game on the ice and the one in these player’s hearts. The team is hungrier than ever, prepared to do whatever it takes to secure their victory. With rivalries heating up, new talent on the rise, and fresh sparks flying, this season promises unforgettable matchups that will have fans on the edge of their seats. So grab your jerseys and get ready to witness what this season has coming. Let the games begin!

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[pleasantspark]

Mating Season Cell x Bio-Android! OC (Genesis) Genre: Romance Tropes: Mating, ABO (Sorta) Warnings: Smut, Porn Without Plot, Curcumsized Cell, Mating Seasons, Porn With Plot, Inaccurate Biology, Cringe, Breeding, Cell has a fucking breeding kink holy fuck, God put me on this earth to describe a fictional Bio-Android with a shitton of DNA from an acrosian, monkey and a pickle boinking something that could be CONSIDERED his sister, Adam and Eve Analogy between Cell and Genesis AUs Utilized: Overhaul AU A/N: I always believed that the Perfect Final Form of Cell was somewhat based on a Cicada (I'm certain he is) and by GOD I fucking HATE Cicadas they chirp annoyingly. And as a result it's me translating Cell to being a needy bastard. I literally found out the reasoning behind those LOUD ass chirps is to attract mates. ONLY THE MALES do it, so Cell is gonna be that needy. As usual any suggestive content is hidden under the cut. Yes, that was an Adam and Eve reference when Gero took Cell's DNA to make Genesis. Word Count: 2746

In an abandoned lab, where it once was filled with machinery of all kind, stood a pink female android. She looked down at the shattered remains of the place that once held her. She didn't know what to do. She's been in existence and emergence for 4 seconds and she didn't know what to do.

She looked around the lab. Trying to find any clues of what she had to do. There was other tubes. Some like hers, broken. She then passed by another. This time... It... Caused... her body to tingle. She stopped in front of the tube and her body picked up on the distinct scent of another. Like her. She felt weak in the knees... She shook her head. No. She needed to focus.

Walking up to a lone table in the room. She picked up something. There was a file... With the name of... Project G? She opened the file, and began to read.

It has been done. I have thought about what to do with my C.E.L.L project. It's been something weighing heavy on my mind. I spent countless nights and days awake at night trying to figure out what the plans for C.E.L.L will be. He was built to destroy. And then... I figured it out. It's obvious that C.E.L.L would need something to make it happy, and now... I got it, a bride. A bride it could call its own. And that's why I decided to work on a new project. One dubbed Project G.

I did it, using the DNA of C.E.L.L I removed all the other DNA and isolated C.E.L.L's DNA to create a whole new being, a being I would dub as GENESIS. She is the catalyst to making C.E.L.L happy. I know she wouldn't fail, because by the time of her emergence we, and by we, her Android Comrades would have been gone.

Genesis closed the file, it gave her no... Answers? What was this... C.E.L.L... And who was the person who wrote this? As she backed away she stepped on something. The... Smell of... death lingered by. She gags and looked down. It was the dead body of... A... What's that?

She noticed it was a male, he seemed to be an Android himself. Was... He? No matter now. He's gone, she atleast had the decency to cover his body with a blanket. And did a prayer. She walked outside the Lab and felt the lingering smell of the Pod she felt attracted to. For whatever reason.

The past. C.E.L.L or known as Cell, stood over the ruined remains of the city he plundered. He's been absorbing things left and right. And he's staring down upon the city. With such disdain. For as long as he lived he's been thinking about what comes after. He's been having issues controlling himself.

No, not the absorbing issue. I mean... other issues. Lately, he's been chittering and chirping uncontrollably since he achieved perfectism. And he didn't even know why.

He thought maybe, he was ill? But he didn't feel sick. Sure there was the occasional burning up and sweating. But he thought nothing of it. The feeling got worse as time went on.

Then, he felt... Another presence. A Ki that was... inviting. Inviting and enticing enough to make his body go under.

Eventually. He noticed a pink... Female that looked close in appearance to him. He tilted his head. Then, out of nowhere. Another chitter. He covered his mouth embarrassed.

Why does she... make me feel this way?

Cell walked up to her cautiously and looked at her. She looked just like him. A being, of perfection. Just for him.

He could get used to this.

He will get used to this.

"You must be my mate." Cell said, as a matter of fact. The female, who he identified as his mate nodded, and she looked away.

"Y-Yes, are you... The C.E.L.L I read about?" She asked.

"C.E.L.L?" He questioned. Before remembering what she was saying and chuckled.

"Yeah, I am. But you can call me Cell. What you're calling me is by my-" He let's out a chitter covering his mouth. "I apologize, this never happened. Yes, my name is Cell, what you are referring to is by my "project" name Gero gave me."

"Gero?" She asked.

"I take it as you never met our creator. Hm?" Cell said.

"No, I haven't." She said.

"What is your name?" Cell asked.

"My name, is Genesis. Your bride."

Cell placed a hand under the chin of his wife to be, and gave her a seductive gaze. He traced a thumb across her chin.

"Well, you're my bride. And I-" He chitters, his face turning a bright red, he blinks and looked at her. "And I have you all to myself."

Genesis shuddered and looked at Cell, her breathing hitched as his hand on her chin was causing some... interesting feelings well up in her.

"Hm, do you feel it?" Cell asked, sensually.

"Feel what?" Genesis asked.

Cell had her where he wanted her, he straddled her as she was on the edge of the Cell Games Arena. Even though he had currently no time. Until the games, he could have time to fool around. He was currently kissing her passionately. His hands roaming her body, a mirror of his own.

He kissed her neck, and bit into the side of her neck, leaving a bite mark.

Claimed.

He was currently trying to please her slowly, but he heard a soft... Pop.

He looked down and realized her hatch opened and he smirked. He placed a finger in and shudders. "Ooh, you're, wet, wet. Perfect."

Pulling his finger out he began to lick it. "And tasty too~"

Genesis face flushed red, she looked away. Cell proceeded to place a finger in her bio-pussy fingering it. Genesis whimpers and Cell kept fingering it.

"C-Cell!" Genesis cried.

"Mm, yes~" Cell gasps out. Genesis continued to cry out in pleasure but before she could cum, Cell removed his finger and hummed.

"Ah, I could bring you to the edge that... easily. But I want to save your releasing for when something much more big is inside." Cell said.

"P-Puh-Please... Cell..." Genesis whimpers out. Cell tilts his head.

"Please, what, pet?" Cell asked.

"I... I want... I want, your... Your cock..." Genesis begs.

"Of course, anything for you, my bride... But, let me warn you. I am a little different from most down there." Cell said.

"W-What- What do you mean?" Genesis asked. Cell, chuckled and a pop was heard, his cock pops out.

"Well, I hope my size doesn't... disappoint you." Cell said.

"W-What are you-" Genesis asked.

"I am what most would label as curcumsized. But, no matter. I don't care about size, as long as you... are satisfied my dear." Cell then smirked.

Genesis looked down and saw Cell's dick, it was... Green with black spots, and it was of course uncut. She didn't really care, while it was small, it made up for it's girth. Kami... It was wide, she didn't know if it could fit... She gulped.

"What's wrong, my pet?" Cell asked. Before gauging her reaction, he chuckled. "Relax, think of it as my fingers penetrating you instead of something much more big."

That seemed to ease her worries, until Cell sheathed himself within her. She let out a struggled gasp, her hand clasping over her mouth Cell knew she was trying to prevent the strangled screams of pain from her mouth.

Cell, wanting her to feel comfortable immediately placed his finger where her clitoris is located and rubbed it, hoping to soothe her pain. She breathes out and clenches her hands into fists. Cell eased in gently and stroked the insides of her pussy with his cock, at this point her pussy fully embraced his cock and he began to remove his cock and slam it back inside, now he's fucking her at a regular pace.

"There it is..." Cell chitters, this time, he allowed it. He was happy. He deserved it. He began to rock inside her at a steady pace, Genesis slowly began to ease into the pleasure forgoing the pain. She moans, Cell huffs and chitters enjoying her reaction.

"Hah... There it is, my lovely ladybug, the pain is gone, hm? You can fully embrace the pleasure. Come, let us enjoy this together." Cell teases, he pounds into her.

"C-Cell! A-Ah! Fuck!" Genesis cried, feeling like her body was reacting heavily to Cell's influence. She was crying and whimpering Cell pants and cries out. Pounding further into her. He is currently holding his hands on the floor railing into her. The desire to mate her and fill her with his young overriding his original goals.

"Ack! Fuck." Cell huffs. "Hah, I'm about to bring us to the edge, darling."

And with that, Cell gasped at the hilt and finally, grunts cumming inside of Genesis, filling her completely. He pants catching his breath before he tried to pull out, it took awhile. But he pulled out, his cock struggling a bit as Genesis' pussy clung onto him like a vice.

Cell looked down at her, a look of wonder, he scanned the area, The arena where his... Battle against the Saiyans and... Their friends will happen. No, this won't do. He can't just fight and do this. If he's going to be a father-to-be he can't bring his children in an environment where he might die and leave behind Genesis at the haste and anger of the Z-Fighters.

He may be a evil bastard but he isn't that evil. Cell thought about it... Was he capable of change? Maybe. He noticed that Genesis passed out, perfect. He wrapped her up and placed her aside, and wrote down a small note. He placed the paper down at the arena stage and picked up Genesis to leave and find a proper place to start their new life together.

EXTENDED ENDING

Gohan and the others arrive to where the Cell Games were to be held, but saw nothing. Confusion was on their faces as there was nothing here. Gohan looked around.

"Where is Cell?" Gohan asked.

"You'd think after announcing a challenge he'd show up to his own fight? Tch." Vegeta mumbled.

"...Hm?" Goku flew over to the stage, and saw a note. He picked it up.

"What's that, Kakarot?" Vegeta attempted to swipe the paper but due to the height advantage that Goku had over the manlet, he unsuccessfully grabbed it.

"It's from Cell." Goku said.

"Well, don't sit there and say it is! Read it out!" Vegeta snaps.

"Jeez, you're so impatient, Vegeta. Hold on." Goku opened the paper further.

To whom is may concern, I formally am writing this note to apologize for all the countless damage I have caused, and I am well aware that no amount of apologizing will ever, and can ever undo the hurt I have caused, and as such. I am cancelling the Cell Games, why? Well. It is said when you fall in love... You... Become a whole new person. While what I did in the past will never change, I can decide what happens in the future. As such, I need to think of my future family. I decided to cancel the Cell Games in pursuit of a safe place where me and the missus can raise our family.

Gero made me for a selfish reason, but he also made my wife for a reason that balances out the very reasoning of the other Androids, without life, destruction wouldn't be a thing, and without me, Genesis wouldn't be a thing. Again, I would like to reach out and apologize through written prose.

I would be open to apologize face to face, but I doubt you want any pleasantries and would cut to the chase and kill me, I do not want any bad blood, as long as you stay clear from me and my family. I wouldn't want any issues. Again, I apologize for the amount of destruction I have caused significantly over the time of me arriving here.

Sincerely yours, Cell

Once Goku read all that, Vegeta's eye twitches, Gohan was speechless. The others were shocked.

"So, the big bad... Cell found love?" Krillin asked.

"This all seems too convenient. How can a being of hateful origins be cured from hate, and turned to love in an instance! This sounds like some horrible written story that woman reads!" Vegeta said.

"...Now, we shouldn't be... Dismissive of Cell's reasoning. Sure what he did was... Horrible, but we can't just write of his want to change." Goku said.

"Kakarot, you gave him a Sensu Bean, you absolute idiot. He could've been killed if it wasn't your humbleness that acted." Vegeta snarks.

While the two bickered, Gohan pondered.

"...Maybe he changed. Really..." Gohan looked up to the sky.

Exactly a couple of months later, in a Cave that has been decorated and thoroughly changed to accommodate a family was seen. Inside a female was currently helping her small quadruplets to bed. Then the sound of footsteps were heard. Her ears perked up.

"Cell?" Genesis called. Cell chuckles and placed down the catch of the day.

"It's me." Cell commented.

"I'm glad you arrived back, I was worried you die or something." Genesis shifts a bit.

"Hah, have you no faith in me, my dear?" Cell asked.

"N-No, I do. It's just... When you're gone I can't help but worry..." Genesis said. Cell looked at her with a look of sympathy and sat down next to her, and smiled.

"Ah, I understand. But, sweetie. I would always come back, do I not?" Cell asked.

"Y-Yes..." Genesis said.

"Mhm." Cell, holding onto Genesis' hand gave it a reassuring squeeze.

A chittering sound came from where the quadruplets lay, Cell chuckles. "See? They even agree with me." Cell said.

Genesis smiled, and looked a little relaxed. Cell picked up one of them. He was pretty gentle with the handling of his own kids.

"Pretty intriguing that all of them were born males. I was sort of hoping 2 were boys and 2 were girls. I suppose that's the result of my Namekian and Frieza DNA." Cell said.

"Haha, you wanted girls so you can spoil them, don't you, Cell?" Genesis asked.

"I suppose, so. But there's not that much to spoil them with." Cell commented.

"I see-" Genesis began before another Ki was felt, Cell seemed to be alert. Before he could do anything however, the Kis entered the cave.

"...Goku." Cell said, without even turning to face the male.

"Cell, we came here to talk. We've been tracking you for awhile... And... We wanted to make sur-" Goku began.

"That you weren't being a lying disingenuous snake." Vegeta huffed. Goku's eyes widened.

"Vegeta! That's... Not very nice." Goku said.

"Oh, what? What's he going to do? Kill me, he's proving his note wrong if he kills me, proving this sack of shit never changed." Vegeta said.

"...Right." Cell mumbled. Before Goku can apologize on behalf of Vegeta, Gohan stepped up.

"While, I won't forgive you for what you did to countless others, including Android 16... I can... Appreciate that you're taking the effort to change... Starting with your... Kids?" Gohan peers over. He noticed 4 Kids. He sensed that their kis were pure. He glances over at Genesis who was hiding her face.

"Is that the one who you mentioned in your note, Cell?" Gohan asked. Cell blushed and nodded.

"She was built for me after I completed my goals, but seeing as... Well... Seeing as... I... Wanted a better life... after I fell for her hard. I didn't want this path of destruction anymore. And chose her and our family over whatever I was made for." Cell explained.

"I... I didn't know you had compassion like that." Gohan said.

"I didn't either." Cell said.

"So, you're going to live in this cave?" Goku asked.

"It's pretty damp... And dangerous." Gohan points out.

"It's safe from any crazies that dare try and harm my family. I don't want any crazy people getting ahold of the Quadruplets and trying to do some... experiments on them." Cell said, a dark look appearing in his face.

"But, we can ask Bulma to get you guys a capsule house. I don't think the lack of sunlight is good enough for... You know..." Goku points to the Quadruplets.

"...I'll think about it." Cell said, "But I make no promises."

"Great! Does that mean we're going to be able to fight-"

"No, Goku."

[multitrackdrifting]

Peak Media I've enjoyed this year:

1000xRESIST (100%)

Chrono Ark (STS but on crack)

Needy Streamer Overload (100%, surprisingly good)

Shin Megami Tensei V: Vengeance (Platinum is WIP)

Final Fantasy XIV: Dawntrail

Frieren (anime and manga)

Fear & Hunger I/II (not for the feint of heart)

Ousama Ranking (a good boy's adventure)

A Space For The Unbound (100%)

SIGNALIS (100%)

Fafner in the Azure: Dead Aggressor / Right of Left / Heaven and Earth (pain)

Granblue Fantasy: Relink (i'll shatter this sky when the last chain breaks)

True Detective Season 1 (yaoi detective show)

The Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent (yaoi movie)

Gridman Universe (pure kino)

Helldivers II (just a fun game)

Heavenly Delusion (though the anime ends in a fairly jarring place, I'll admit)

Late Night With The Devil (hehe)

The Sinner (fucking immaculate detective show)

Dark (German mystery-thriller kino)

Abyss Media:

Metallic Rouge (abysmal)

Them (just grating to watch for me)

Midsommar (ass)

[euphoriabled]

don't you think it's really fucked up to start chasing your best friend's ex when she dies? what, were you just waiting for her to finally be out of the way? (100% anon you'll never catch me)

Send My Muse Unhinged Anons. || Meme.

⸻ Darcy's tired eyes avoid all eye-contact; it's clear she's been up for hours trying to process her own feelings, still somewhat in denial.

She wanted to blame him for this; it was his fault for being so consistent. For caring. For being the only person she knew who experienced losing the same soul she had. They had both loved the same woman; who else could understand Jane like she and Thor could? He was the only one who truly understood the hole in the earth that Jane left with her passing. What was the point in the seasons changing when one cold truth would remain the same? Jane was gone, and there was nothing left to do.

He was the only one who would understand if she said she listened to Jane's voicemail messages at 3am when she wished she could have fireside chats with her again; putting the corny fake fireplace on her television in the living room and giving/receiving advice together, laughing until they cried as the sun would rise. He wouldn't tell her it was time to move on. He would understand, but what would Jane think of her now? How sickened would she be? Darcy shut her eyes tight, doing her best not to picture Jane's face contorted in disgust.

Who else but Thor could let her re-experience the world in ways she hadn't since she was young? Who else made her feel like she was truly wanted, not just there for a quip and some computer knowledge? Who else saw her as her, not just an extension or an echo of something ( or someone ) else? Although, maybe they were just a form of nostalgia porn for each other; they could pretend she was in the other room finishing up a project or taking a nap, but they both knew they had to acknowledge things. Maybe she was addicted to the warmth that came from playing pretend.

However, it wasn't like these emotions were new; Darcy had spent years repressing her feelings. She was cutting herself on the shattered glass of all the unspoken words she'd bottled up; her built-up walls unequipped to handle the weight of it.

She couldn't shoot her shot when they'd first started talking; not when she saw how Jane looked at him ... and how he looked at her. Darcy could flirt under the guise of it being lighthearted, and they'd all pretend she hadn't noticed how lovely he was from the moment he fumbled around with their tech, figuring out what a computer mouse was. She'd smile and tell Jane to go for it already, letting herself take a step back. She'd pretend she didn't still look longingly at the photo of him she posted on FaceBook. she'd pretend she didn't tell Jane she thought he was cut. She'd pretend she didn't just want an excuse to be near him as she poked him; asking him how space was.

She'd pretend. She'd pretend. She'd pretend.

But she never wanted things to be like this. She was Jane's biggest supporter, up until the end. She'd cringe at being a walking cliché if she ever said it out loud, but she always felt it should've been her instead. Jane had so much ahead of her. Jane had a God at her feet, a future brightly lit by her own accomplishments, and a million grand ideas to set in motion. What did Darcy have? Unresolved feelings for her best friend and her boyfriend? A shitty apartment?

A huge piece of her died with Jane. Her hopes of their futures were laid to rest alongside her; the partially written maid of honor speech she'd been updating since they'd first had their "holy shit, we're totally best friends" conversation made way for a few paragraphs she could attempt to deliver with blurry eyes at Jane's funeral. Jane had once had the world ahead of her. Darcy had a stray cat to feed.

And now, as Jane's voice lingered only within old memories and the videos Darcy had taken, the feelings were getting harder to hide. But nobody could make her feel worse than herself. Nobody could make her feel as disgusting. What kind of a person was she, to want to be held in his freakishly strong arms? It didn't matter. It was unrequited anyway. It'd be better for them both if they kept playing pretend. She didn't want to lose the only piece left of their shared past.

She'd just tell herself she wasn't a bad person for the nights she stared at her ceiling, wondering if there was a world where she'd made a move before Jane had ... and she'd tell herself it was okay to dream of a world where things had been different. It was too late now; she'd never had a chance. Being his friend was a gift too. It was fine. If Jane could see her from the afterlife, if there was one, had she seen the nights Darcy had spent in tears over this? Would she understand that Darcy hadn't ever meant for these feelings to resurface and intensify? Would she see how Darcy loathed herself?

⸻ ❝ Yeah, that sounds like me. ❞ She says dryly, trying her best to not let her emotions show. ❝ I relish in being heartless and fucked up. I couldn't wait for her to, ❞ She can't even say it sarcastically. Her throat tightens as she looks away to hide her tearing eyes. ❝ You think I wanted any of this? I didn't want this. I'd never want this. If Jane was here right now -- If Jane was here, I ... ❞ She places her palms against her eyes, shoulders beginning to shake. ❝ Are you happy? You got what you wanted, now just ... ❞ Her voice is but a hair above a whisper now. ❝ Please just go away. ❞

[the-chessboard-is-personal]

hfjone liveblog bc I've heard this one is intense and i don't want to wait for the 29th to be shattered again /hj

using this playlist

EPISODE 1

0:04 - okay so this is already starting out WAY different than the other ones I've seen /positive. like. just from STARTING to watch this I feel this like. aura of "yeah this is going to be INTENSE" and- oh hey chess pieces

1:04 - character that isn't named after the object they are?? WHAT HE'S GONE????

(credits) - woah okay. WOAH OKAY. so, confirmation that it takes place on (an alternate timeline) earth. watching this kinda made me think about like. the sort of energy? of the start of each object show. like, ii is really upbeat, a bit low quality but made with passion, reminds me of total drama a bit, probably bc of MePhone's voice in ep1. bfdi had a gameshow vibe from the very beginning, it felt simultaneously natural and manufactured. but ONE? one is dark. one is the blues. one is six people being kidnapped. it feels like, idk. muffled sound. tv static. like an ellipses in 102pt font. silence demanding not to be filled.

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anyway onto episod- oh there's a post credits scene

I- ..YOU SEE?? like that silence is LOUD AS FUCK. like that's "deep in an alleyway you're lost and alone" kind of silence, even though the scene was a grocery store. like the energy this series is radiating reminds me of WHITEPINE.

EPISODE 2

4:23 - sorry to keep mentioning ii while watching this but like. that limb thing is...familiar

14:08 - the fact that it's still nighttime when tomato is sent back implies to me that, while it has been a week on The Plane, everyone who gets eliminated will be transported back to both where and when they were taken from

EPISODE 3

9:59 - Airy has no idea what he's doing, does he.

14:58 - oh I never even thought stone would have malicious intentions...hm

EPISODE 4

0:24 - uhh.

1:57 - aww really? i liked Abstracty.

2:57 - uhh??

what is this

6:45 - wait what?? but people haven't even voted- 7:10 - oh. OH.

EPISODE 5

4:50 - oh there's. nowhere to vote in the description y'know I probably would've figured out that votes are fake if I had checked earlier

8:48 - ...I- I know what she's doing I think. "oh I can pay for [presumably life saving] surgery myself, I spent what you gave me on a TV and a phone" the candy guy I forget his name, saying he pointed out the warning she refused to wear a helmet? she. she's not trying to get rid of the mold, is she. she's using money as an excuse.

EPISODE 6

5:12 - oh Airy is. actually evil? or.?

EPISODE 7

1:56 - did he.drive home? drunk? 2:19 - oh that was Before.. huh.

4:48 - what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck wHAT THE FUCK- uhh.

EPISODE 8

1:47 - th. the. what the fuck. th- the entire show is powered by a ball connected to a wire. y'know if I had a nickel for every ti

5:55 - what the hell is that supposed to rnean

EPISODE 9

2:27 - dystopian ass billboard

3:53 - an address?? and holy shit stone knew he would keep those when he left huh.

(credits) - this show is amazing. this episode feels like a finale. because it probably IS the finale, of seeing the show from Backpack/Liam's perspective - or at least the gameshow (named one). or at least that's what it seems like to me. also the soundtrack fucking SLAPS and BRO THE DESCRIPTION THIS IS SO LIKE. POETIC?? d u d e

EPISODE 10

0:00 - the definition of rattlepate is "(ˈrætlˌpeit) noun. a giddy, empty-headed, talkative person; rattlebrain". interesting..

8:09 - sorry I don't have much to say about stuff, it is interesting, I just. I've been like half-speechless through this whole thing.

EPISODE 11

2:42 - you would not BELIEVE what my immediate thought was seeing that spoon character.

3:39 - what?

oh

5:09 - uh. 5:21 - TEXTY!! 5:44 - OH I saw a meme once where the airhorn was a Yippee instead-

EPISODE 12

1:21 - Liam is a telemarketer.. wait that link. SEASON TWO??? moldy with no mold. 2:00 - these. these images are censored very strangely. a- autophobic. afraid of being alone.. WAIT WAS TOOTHPASTE THE ONE ON THE OTHER CHAIR

EPISODE 13

3:19 - I knew he was going to do that.

6:40 - OH WHAT THE FUCK???

EPISODE 14

6:03 - Alan Becker reference?

EPISODE 15

(credits) - WHUH?? BRYCE???

EPISODE 16

6:58 - no. NO.

EPISODE 17

0:17 - I read that as "Transphobic" and was about to start writing a fucking comment-

1:16 - that's. that's who Abstracty tried to be that one time

EPISODE 18

5:13 - HE DIED???

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well I guess I was right about being shattered what the hell was that /positive