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#boyfriend update#!!#he took a day off work with me today so he could drive to ikea with me bc im moving soon#🥺🥺🥺#and then we had to cut our trip short bc we were planning to go the hardware store too but on the way i started to get a migraine#and now we're just chilling on his couch#me waiting for my pain meds to kick in#and him just gaming a little#just a nice chill time except tge feeling shitty#he made me tea and all that#and just now asked if i needed anything else if he could do smth#and i asked if he had any chocolate but he didnt and then immediately was like#im gonna go buy you some!!#and now he literally on his way across town to a grocery store to buy me. chocolate#and also dinner#and im just chilling on his couch still 🥺🥺#when i tell you thats hes just the best#personal
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Arcane ships ranked, for fun
The main ships and some rarepairs I've found, I like pretty much everything in the first 4 rows. I probably missed some but idk what they are and I'm too lazy to add more rn.
feel free to add your thoughts or ships but again its just for funsies :)
#you can probably tell which characters I like most by how many ships of them I know lmao#ignore the many tags im legit just rambling abt my thoughts on each ship#caitvi is in its own rank cause Im not playing with caitvi fans they are correct that is the best ship even if I like other some ships more#arcane#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#caitvi#jayvik#timebomb#lest arcane#whats the ship name for mel and lest?#lestel? idk im not calling them melest lol#mel x lest#catcouncil#oo is that it? it came up when typing. thats kinda cute but also vague#vilco#ik that one for sure#vanco#jaymelvik#mel x sevika#idk the ship name for that one either I actually just found out abt it but editing the pic for them convinced me to ship them#idk if anyone else ships ambessa and viktor there were only 4 fics on ao3 under it but i ship it cmon he's her type#she would eat him for protein#jaymel#melvik#i actually like both of these ships but they're infinitely better as poly imo#dont know how many people ship viktor and vander either but i saw a lot of potential in act 2 for it with all their astral plane connecting#sevika x ambessa#that would be hot but also hate sex probably#I love sky but i do not ship her and Viktor he just is clearly not interested and she kinda lets go of her crush on him before dissolving
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okay i will admit it: i don't like 431 from a narrative standpoint (or really any standpoint) but if you view it exclusively as the true epilogue in an alternate universe of mha in which 5 year old katsuki is right about deku looking down on him and doing everything to spite him and wanting to bring about his downfall then the whole thing becomes kind of absurdly funny
#telling a guy that hes your symbol of victory and that youve been chasing after him for years#& establishing a rivalry with him & getting him to confront the fact that he's in love with you & fighting TOGETHER in your final battle#to the point that he DIES for you and you lean on him when you lose your quirk#and he spends 8 years grinding so he can buy you a suit and be partners with you so you can BE together#and then JUST when he decides to ask you to work with him- you leave him for a woman haunted by the ghost of yuri's past#and specifically dump him in his car with his best friend next to him.#ALL as an elaborate scheme to get back at him for bullying you in middle school#like idk its almost fucking funny.#imagine thinking that the guy who helped you up once when u were both 5 is plotting to make you suffer and twenty years later#it turns out you were RIGHT#okay to be clear this isn't actually how i feel about what happened in 431#thats more complicated. in the meantime: shitpost!#mha leaks#mha manga spoilers#mha#bnha#bkdk#bakudeku#bkdkbk#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku#ant speaks
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something something when your best friend, your wife, and your daughter take the killing shot that was meant for you
X-Men: First Class | X-Men: Apocalypse
#where is that person that said that when charles got shot in cuba erik probably thought he got him killed for a second#mine*#xmenedit#filmedit#x-men#gifset#cherik#erik lehnsherr#long post#while i think its RIDICULOUS the way they killed off nina and magda i also can't stop thinking how this has to be a scene out of a horror#movie for erik like??? he takes his eyes off them FOR A SECOND and next time he looks back they are both DEAD#also there's NO WAY he realized they were both killed at the same time. nina was covering magda when it happened so he probably thought#they killed nina and when he got there he realized magda was dead too. thats just ??? how do you even start to move on from that man#simon kinberg i'm in your walls#and his face when he realizes he shot charles??? that's just horrifying i'm so sorry#you are fighting with your best friend and you tell him you don't want to hurt him and five minutes later hes stumbling into the sand#because YOU shot him and YOU hurt him and then hes telling you that YOU did THIS#what if i killed myself what then
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Ride 789: Inheriting wishes
Pag 1
3: Yes, I got it! The last one!!
4: Bon apet...
5: What, Kabu, are you eating trash now?
Guaa- the worst person saw me!!
Th- that's not it, this it- uhm....
Pag 2
1: Have mine
3: Nom nom nom, so good!
You worked a lot for the sprint
Good job following on this climbing while resting and resupplying
5: Imaizumi-san is treating a kouhai kindly!!
Hotshot is rewardina kohai!?
I....
Ho....
What is it, I feel a weird atmosphere
Pag 3
1: I received my orders from Onoda-san!!
2: Climb and pull the team
3: Climbing at a fixed pace as much as possible, while watching the condition of tiredness of everyone's pace, synchronizing our breaths
Pag 4
1: It's the least damaging way to climb!!
The pack is coming!
It's Sohoku!
Pag 5
2: Danchiku... this is a good pace
He's good at watching everyone and matching his performance to them
3: You really are his polar opposite
Ah, person who gave me food
4: Rokudai, watch closely
Ye-yessir, teh!!
5: What Danchiku is doing now is the correct way to “pull”
Yessir, teh
You also
6: got your orders, didn't you?
Pag 6
1: From Onoda!!
2: Mountain King and Manami are overtaking the other climbers who had come out!!
Are they going to the lead like that!?
They-
Pag 7
2: What, how, they're so fast....!!
3: Amazing!
So fast!
They're running at an incomprehensible speed
This is a race between the Inter High's
Pag 8
1: two times finalists!?
2: Sakamichi-kun!!
Manami-kun!!
Pag 9
1: It's true, Mountain King and Manami are racing
Yeah, they're fighting seriously
For this year's mountain prize....
2: You seem to be in good condition!!
Yeah!! Manami-kun!!
3: the first day's mountain is gonna be the most amazing!!
4: There's a lot of people in the audience too
Yeah
A huge crowd, the summer air, and the blue sky
Pag 10
1: I wonder if Toudou-san and Makishima-san also felt the wind like this, on Hakone's mountain two years ago!!
2: The sky is blue!!
There's a lot of people in the audience too!!
4: I'm having so much fun chasing after it it feels like I'm in a daze
Pag 11
1: Even though my body is tired and my muscles are exhausted, it feels like my heart is saying “let's go until our limit” and pushing my blood!!
5: Yeah!!
I think Makishima-san and Toudou-san definitely felt like this!!
Pag 12
1: Shooo
Just get ahead of him by a few millimeters
My heart is pounding
Jinpachi!!
Maki-chan!!
2: About the race between them that day, I heard other people saying:
3: “It was fierce”
“It was a race of their souls”
“I saw a battle of the limits of climbers”
Pag 13
1: But looking at their backs, it looked fun
3: Back then we could only imagine it
4: But now, like this
Running against you, who shares the same feeling
Pag 14
1: It's like we can “experience”it!!
3: Yeah!!
Pag 15
2: I didn't think the mountain on the first day was so freeing, that it would make my heart feel so clear
3: It's strange
4: The thing I longed for from the bottom of my heart... my strong wish....
5: even if I couldn't fulfill it at the time
Pag 16
1: it still came true in another form!!
Pag 17
1: You're right!!
Pag 18
1: Mountain King and Manami accelerated again!!
4: The orders!!
Pag 19
1: It's time, go
Switch with Danchiku
2: Pull the team, Rokudai!!
Yessir, teh!!
I received them from
2: Back-gate slope-senpai....
Pag 20
1: My “orders”!!
2: Rokudai-kun
Yessir, teh
3: Please pull the team on the mountain while switching with Danchiku-kun
Yessir, teh!!
4: My first orders.....!!
I'l ldo it with all my strength
Actually
5: I wanted to say “please climb the mountain together with me”
8: Huh!? Together!? The mountain!?
9: When I was in first year, I didn't see the race between Makishima-san and Toudou-san
10: …. so
Onoda....!!
For Rokudai-kun
Pag 21
1: I wanted him to see the race between me and Manami-kun as a first year climber
2: Onoda-kun
3: But it'a not as easy as taking him along to race together
4: If I don't refine my thoughts I'll never catch up with Manami-kun as he is now!!
6: That's why I have another order for you, Rokudai-kun
Another one...!!
7: Look up at the mountain
Send your heart out to the road before you
Pag 22
1: Imagine it with everything you have!! Our
2: our fight to our limits!!
Their fight!!
Pag 23
3: Back-gate slope-senpai!!
Then... on your first year... or your second year- when you'll have a rival....
4: A ri-rival!? Me!?
5: Hakogaku caught up!!
Pag 24
4: Remember about today, please
5: Ah... the guy who came on Minegayama with Manami-san...
Is this guy really the manager....!?
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal translations#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal manga#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 789#MAN WHAT A CHAPTER OH MY GAWD#both manami and onoda are so so sentimental i love it! like you ofc expect it from onoda but#manami doesnt seem like the type ya know and yet hes just as sentimental as onoda is especially about toudou and makishima and their race#but ofc the best part of the chapter ;A; you already know what im going to say but imma say it anyway#onoda wanting to bring roku-chan along to see the race ;A; bc thats what he would have wanted in his first year ;A;#and telling roku-chan to remember that day one day when he'll race against his rival ;A; AND THE LAST PAGE#i'll say it again but mark my words!! roku vs tobirama will be the final race for the finish line!! and roku will win!!!#man i love these parallels and passing torch to the next generation so fuckin much it makes me ridiculously emotional okay
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rin will hastily tag along with you when you tell him you’re shopping for swimwear that afternoon and while you’re skimming through the racks of clothing you loose sight of him for a bit and you think he must have decided to sit down to let you wander around freely but then he returns with a pile of all different kinds of bathing suits in his hands telling you a bit bashfully that he thought those would look good on you. (you’re a little surprised when you notice they’re all the skimpiest two pieces you’ve ever seen btw… it swells your ego that he wants to see you wearing those, that he wants to show you off… also i think hes particularly keen on those bikinis that you have to tie together. he absolutely loves it when you ask him to help you tie the back of your top also thinks they’re a bit risqué and it makes him a little crazy… is constantly playing with the strings of your bottoms that look so good digging into your thighs…) goes inside the fitting room with you to help you tie the bikini tops and kisses your shoulder before standing behind you with his hands on your waist and you’re trying very hard to suppress a smuggish smile from showing because he’s staring so intensily and he’s so tense, his hands are digging at your waist and it’s kinda amusing “so?”
“look so fucking good.” it's so characteristically blunt and you chuckle softly because he’s said that about all the bikini sets you’ve tried on so far. and he means it. you tell him to help you pick one but he's sooo far gone and he feels a little guilty because he's not being much of a help but he's only thinking about hurrying back home where you'll model your new purchase for him like you always do (a way to show him your gratitude, you say, for spending his money on you yet again. he thinks it’s a fair exchange.) he'll close his eyes as per your request as you walk out of the en-suite bathroom of your shared room - doesn't matter he bought it for you, that he's seen you in it and that he's been thinking of you in it ever since. he's thinking of beckoning you closer to him sitting in bed and kissing your exposed tummy. you'll smile, knowingly, because you know how he gets, because you’re all too aware of what he wants yet is too reluctant to put into words, when he begins to play with the strings of your bottoms, his face still buried in the plush of your stomach - a bit too embarrassed to let you in on his desire, scared that it is too flagrant on his features. he feels his greed might be inadequate. you'll smile and guide his hands to your waist, it's okay, you can touch me, and he will trail his hands up your spine and strip you slowly, starting at the knot on your back, followed by the knot on your neck and then the ones on each side of your hips...
he's rushing out of the fitting room with the pile of different bikini sets you couldnt choose from and goes straight to the register to pay for all three of them despite your protests that three new sets is excessive and completely unecessary.
#tw suggestive#i was shopping for swimsuits this afternoon and i thought rin would be sooo indulgent.......#treats you like an angel then goes and picks the swimsuits with the least coverage possible.. just loves it when you show skin i think#hates that other people can see you though… is so distressed#sae though................... ill elaborate later. tomorrow maybe.#you think he's bored but hes behind the curtain like. let me see....#also oliver... hes such a nuisance..... you have to tell him to behave.#mr. i love summer because i get to see girls in skimpy clothes#rin itoshi x reader#itoshi rin x reader#rin x reader#bllk x reader#also. i think maybe. hes only ever know football. and his desire to be the best at football. and i think hed be soo conflicted when#suddenly he starts liking someone and his desires go beyond football. he feels so bad. likes hes treating you like an object.#you have to tell him like. its okay to want intimacy and its okay that you want me and that you want me to want you. oh.#also i think that its easier for him to show that he loves you that to say it#but thats at the initial stages of your relationship. and if you’re his first.
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OC
#my characters#mmofail#HIS name is Beta Burst but he is played by a woman named Haley#and shes chill correcting people that hes a she irl but also just doesnt mind which pronouns people use online#irl though shes a she/her through and through#also she tells one of her employees at work (shes a manager at a convenience store) to get a hobby or find a fun online game#cause he always looks super tired and he tells her he doesnt wanna socialize out of work in person people are tiring#and then hes like hmmmm a hobby or game hmmm#and then he gets the same game and goes on the same server and lets his sister design his character#while he naps then he just picks a name and chooses ETA 1400 bc he works overnight and if he logs in#he plans to log in at like 2pm so why not make that his name#however there is a guild owner who wants to collect all the greek letters (her own name in game is Omega Rising)#so she makes the executive decision to include eta 1400 and when he and beta are talking one day in game#hes like oh yeah im just playing cause my boss at work told me i needed a hobby#and beta is like oh shit thats me im the boss who told him he needs a hobby#so eta starts calling beta boss in game just like he calls her irl#and its just a nice lil friendship and shes happy when eta starts to make friends in the guild#he still has a lost lil puppy like following vibe when hes around boss but eta does do some growing socially#mostly with betas friends in the guild which are: a guy with no backbone and a guy playing a girl who doesnt tell anyone shes a he#anyway thank you thats my oc essay tags and i love beta and shes just really funny to me#bc she just is there to vibe and play pvp#which the horn lore is those are high ranking pvp rewards for heavy blade users#and when eta finds out the pvp reward for a healer is a bloodied crown#hes like please please please help me learn pvp that sounds really cool ill do my best boss
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#AYEAAA the chapter art always delivers#tbh i was kind of neutral on kabru for a while bc i wasnt sure ab his purpose or much ab him really#to form a solid opinion but hes rly growing on me.I LIKE HIMM!!!#isnt that so interesting though. like thats kind of the role he plays come to think of it#hes an observer . he studies everyone he meets / sizes them up while simultaneously concealing his own true nature#adopting diff personas to best fit his prerogative so its cool that he genuinely is harder to understand when you meet him#and like toshiro / namari / his own party say- you can tell that hes not entirely authentic ab himself#but you cant really dissect much below that without having access in2 his internal dialogue#id known beforehand he was one of the more popular characters but i had a hard time conceptualizing why#given there was so little to be said abt Him!Kabru! but no i see it now he got me Guys he Got Me#i also have so much go say abt mithrun in retrospect but idk how to word it or rly what it means outside of the abstract#but i lovedddd … the goat.. THE IMAGERY WAS INSAAANEEE THE MIRROR OF DESIRES AND THE GOAT DEVOURING HIM#dude . dmesh symbolism is so great.#and i think his story in particular is just incredibly interestingn#the kind of person to bend to desire and then have it stripped from them completely#dunmeshi#dunmeshi 61#dungeon meshi spoilers#dunmeshi spoilers#kabru#mithrun
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Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, I recently went into the x-men and I found my own dead with Charles and Erik AND I NEED READ MORE OF THEM BUT I SO LOST AFTER POWERS AND HOUSE OF X SO I DON'T KNOW WHERE CONTINUE, can u help me?
(alsoIlikeyoursdrawingsiwishbeingsoconstantwithmycontentlikeu)
i'll be very candid with you my friend: i'm totally lost too !!!!!!! your comic-reading journey is about as green as mine and so i cant personally give you a super great guide- but beautiful people on the internet exist who've done most of the dirty work for us when sorting through the stories you 'should' read so i'm borrowing them to help us both
you can read this article to read about one person's advice with exploring krakoa and- in their opinion- its most 'significant' stories, though to summarize the issues they recommend looking into:
House of X/Powers of X (which you should have already done)
X of Swords event
Hellfire Gala
Inferno
X Lives and X Deaths of Wolverine
Second Hellfire Gala
Third Hellfire Gala
Fall of the House of X/Rise of the Powers of X (also should have already done, however...) +Single issue: X-Men (2021 series) #35 aka Uncanny X-Men #700 is featured at the end of the FoX omnibus, though the omnibus excludes an extra bit at the end involving a cliffhanger for Charles's fate after he's arrested
if you want to dig a little deeper though, you can check out this article from another individual which includes another wave of 'relevant' (word used loosely as some can be considered more poignant than others) krakoa stories and stories related to it or set during the period.
it's a lot longer and more in depth than the last article, so again i only really rec peaking at this one depending on how deep you wanna go, or if you decide you want to explore more after reading the more 'key' stories. def wouldn't hurt to give it a glance just in case you read some summaries that pique your interest!
all in all, don't take these as concrete rules or guides to follow: comics are meant to be fun, these are just good starting points if you're feeling lost or overwhelmed. at the end of the day, you decide ultimately what you want to read and which stories interest you the most
happy reading !
#snap chats#my tried-and-true method of comic reading though is 1.) talk to my brother long enough til he tells me an interesting run#2.) poke around my comic shop and see which stories catch my eye#not a PERFECT method if youre trying to be methodical but i think the most important thing with comics#is not to make it stressful or not make it like. a homework assignment#just read what you think will interest you the most or what friends rec and just have fun :]#again ive just started picking up comics again after like. A Decade so im not exactly The Guy to ask at this point in time#but we're all friends we're a community so we'll do it together#as for right now tho. i am very sleepy my eyes are heavy. so goodnight my friends !!!!#i think i'll start legion of x tomorrow.. i really wanna read the first class issues i got#but i think those will be a good cleanser after LoX .... LoX gon make me sad i know it will#anyways! good night! and if anyone has any stories they rec or wanna share with me or anyone else readin my blog please do :]]#OH and thank you for liking my art LOL. on that note please dont stress about the 'content' you put out and how much you make#if you also refer to art then please remember youre an artist not a content machine: you make art and you make it when you make it#it aint a race or a competition so just like comics just have fun and do what you do !!! thats always how you get the best results#ok im sleeping fr now my eyes hurt and ive been chewing this gum for like seven hours GOODNIIIIGHT
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would you like a red boy? hold out your hand i'll give you a red boy 🥰
#sentai#RED BOY TOP 10 RED BOY TOP 10#WHICH ONE WOULD YOU LIKE WE'VE GOT#NUMBER 10 juru kiramager he's just a lil guy and he's doing his very best#NUMBER 9 gaku fiveman OOF. OUCH. OUGH.#NUMBER 8 sassuuukeeeee kakuranger monke monke monke#NUMBER 7 akama goggle v i like it when he p unches thi ngs#NUMBER 6 chief boukenger PRECIOUS MAN#NUMBER 5 jan gekiranger muni muni niki niki waki waki etc etc etc#NUMBER 4 ryouma gingaman number 1 guy who deserves a nice hug#NUMBER 3 matoi gogov pushing him over. whipping him with a towel. eating his leftovers. unplugging his xbox. telling lies about him to mum#NUMBER 2 sosuke go onger thats my guy right there thats my BOY thats my BOY.#NUMBER 1 TSURUGI HIRYU CHANGE DRAGON DRAMA QUEEN SAD MAN GUILT RIDDEN ACE KING B A S E B A L L B O Y#i am a red boy connoisseur and these ones are IN FACT the best ones#in my humble. expert. always correct opinion 😌😌😌#ur welcome thank you for listening
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oshi no ko aqua is such a fun character bc by most counts he's a more than decent guy.
in his first life he regularly visited hospital inpatients who had no visitors. he was genuinely happy and excited to help Ai deliver her babies, because he wants her to be happy on her own terms. he saves Akane simply because he can, and gets angry at the staff on her behalf. he doesn't stop at saving her life and spends sleepless nights turning around her public image. at that point there was nothing in it for him to keep akane around, she was just a person he was able to help and wanted to help.
by most counts he's a pretty decent guy who steps up when people need him most, except. except he's also a guy who really wants to kill his dad and that makes him manipulate people somewhat often and this is somehow not entirely at odds with his instinct to help others
#oshi no ko#like he's a doctor i can rly respect yknow#except for the patricide thing#gorou said do no harm unless it's my dad#also the way that gorou regularly visit patients is something SARINA has to tell the audience and not gorou#bc to gorou is nothing worth mentioning#for quite a while i was like man gorou is kind of sleazy for only visiting sarina esp when she's so young and vulnerable#but he visits the others also... sarina was just the most special patient to him because she introduced him to ai and also#because she was a kid whose parents never showed up#also SPOILERS FOR LIKE CH90+ OR SMTHING BELOW#the way aqua doesnt let akane dirty her hands like ok aqua we get it you want the best for everyone who isnt your dad#wipes tear someone get him therapy hes a decent guy who's ruining his life#also the way he is conscious of how he's playing w akane's feelings and tries very hard to be honest with her and to do her right#like sigh okay aqua i GUESS i cant hate you#and that one ghosting kana arc where i wanted to beat him up and then he was like i dont want to drag kana into this & he looked terrified#like SIGH. OKAY. FINE AQUA i cant hate you after all#like apart from the patricide (which is big know) the biggest downside to his personality is how cold he is#he pushes ppl away all the time and is just borderline rude#but like idk i feel like thats a byproduct of his 'i plan to go to jail for patricide and dont want to drag others down' mindset#which is like... well. you can't hate him for that.. he's looking out for others in his own way
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I saw Wicked yesterday and it was pretty cute, I’d have liked it more if I were normal about The Wizard of Oz, but I am not. So, it was cute.
I like the strange little poly thing they have goin on, tho it feels close enough to the ol love triangle trope that I was a little irritated, but it was fine
It was very well produced, and as far as modern major Hollywood movies go, it was very good
#wicked the movie#I was really skeptical at first when I heard it was like “a wizard of oz backstory’#but i thought#hey let’s keep an open mind#it’s a very popular musical and has been for a long time#so the musical numbers will probably be fire and that’s the most important part#tragically most of those songs were not my style#I like maybe 3 songs and thats a maybe cause it may have been 2#maybe I’d have enjoyed it more if it were marketed to me as a wizard of oz alternate universe#since so much of it is just#wrong#ik ik that kinda thing is just part of art#but like I said#I’m not normal about the wizard of oz#I was really hoping I’d love it#and I was willing to overlook a lot#but there’s only so much I can overlook#like how Oz in the movie basically is a wizard#he doesn’t master in illusions and magic tricks#he’s one of the best goddamn mechanics out there#some steampunk level skill#and the emerald city is ACTUALLY green#missing the point they were missing the point#that’s not all but that’s the main thing I will not be getting over#unless they completely obliterate the emerald city and have to rebuild#and the wizard gets a lobotomy#but I mean half the point of the wizard of oz is that its all a dream so#that’s fine alternate universe whatever you can add depth to characters that shouldn’t have it#as a means to use them as a vehicle to tell a story you want to tell through characters people recognize I get it#but the Oz part makes me so mad cause it would have fit into the theme perfectly and they changed it cause why???
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i feel rly sad and conflicted abt one of my best friends on earth but idk who to ask for advice bc i usually would have consulted her in this situation lmao
#shes cool and i dont want to lose her and i know Logically i love her but atm i feel so strange towards her#and idk what to do abt it bc i know in the past ive like...over-communicated a lot and over the last few yrs ive been trying to not do that#bc thats an anxious impulse i think .so like . self control#AND IMPORTANTLY . i may actually be the problem here ?? ok again i love her i dont want to lose her etc but basically ive noticed a pattern#which is that whenever she gets a bf/a man (even fwb) in her life she basically stops talking to me and the limited interactions we do have#become abt him. and while i support her it is acc too much. like we barely talked while she was w her ex bf until he became abusive and#then we talked a lottt like all our convos understandably were abt him . and then when they broke up we kept hanging out so i didnt rly see#the pattern there but still she seemed to centre men a lot in her life like sbe was excited to not date and find herself and then#immediately afterwards started seeing this other guy with whom shes basically in a relationship now#hes nice and all but like . HES ALL SHE TALKS ABT . actually we barely talk atp but when we do its abt him#she sends me reels sometimes but its all abt being jealous abt him etc . and shes bi but she said she doesnt like the idea of dating women#bc theyre scary . and i thought she was kidding in the ohhh women r so beautiful that theyre intimidating way but no she was being entirely#fr . she explained jts bc she was bullied by a girl in the past but like...bro ur ex bf literally abused you like surely you see men are#capable of just as much harm? but obvs who she dates is her own choice . but anyway she has consistently made plans w me then cancelled the#like an hr before . or asked to call me and then proceeded to not do so . when i ask her to meet/call its the same she just doesnt respond#or she cancels ? and while i understand anxiety sucks it feels SO WEIRD STILL . maybe im the problem slightly too bc ik i have no right to#feel this way but it rubs me the wrong way that ik she has so much time to spend w him/calls him all the time despite meeting him just a fe#months ago whereas i just have to like ...be ok w not actually having talked to her for a long time#its gotten to the point where when she says do you wanna meet/call i automatically respond yes and then just assume it doesnt happen . like#there have been several times over the past few months i double booked plans over when we were supposed to call/meet bc i was sure she#wouldnt show up and ive been right each time#like she sends me texts that she misses me or im her best friend etc etc occasionally and then acts rly . contrary to that ?#ive talked to her abt the issue w cancelling on me twice btw. when i was still dating the situationship person she would get sooo mad at#them for not respecting my time and shed tell me i deserve better etc etc and then like . she doesnt seem to respect my time at all#anyway she said she understand and she admits to like...being flaky etc but does nothing abt it#and its not like i can tell her to stop caring so much abt men bc we sorta had convos like that b4 she got This involved w this guy#and apparently it did nothing and the last thing i want is to police her relationships or get in her way#its just AUSHD AUGH#anyway i rly miss her it just doesnt feel the same at all anymore
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My important reminder to all trans people this Pride Month: if you haven't yet, I promise you WILL find the hairstyle that gives you the most gender euphoria someday and it will be AMAZING
#when i first got my hair cut like this people told me i look like harry potter bc of my glasses and that gave me so much gender euphoria#and now that i dye it people tell me i look like dantdm or some other similar looking youtuber#which is also super gender euphoria inducing bc i loved watching dantdm when i was younger#also loved watching bijuu mike for a long time and he also has the short on sides long on top colorful hair#and now people are telling me i look like the men i found super cool as a kid!? omg!!#it is also quite possibly my most queer looking haircut ever#it's also the first short haircut i ever got#the first haircut i tried to express my gender with didn't work out and thats ok because i got it right on the next big hairstyle change#and its just#the best thing ever#hi trans people reading this. you WILL find the haircut that makes you happy i believe in you#anyways. this post was brought to you by how much i love my current haircut#trans#transgender#transmasc#transfem#nonbinary#enby#trans positivity#hair#also no terfs allowed on this post. sorry i mentioned harry potter i just happen to have had very transgender experiences having to do with#that character#i hope terfs are pissed off about me having postitive trans experiences having to do with that guy actually
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#nothing makes me truly reaffirm my commitment to being poly like the day after a rugby match#i love my bf. i love them wholly and truly for who they are. i dont want them to change outside of healing. y'know that being the best you.#but i dont want them to be someone else. so the fact theyre not a coddling caregiver isnt something I'm ever going to change in them.#they bring me coffee and check in on me and set reminders for my meds and tell me when they have to leave for errands with mum#but they always have to see to other responsibilities because they are that person.#and I love them for that. i love them for being a dutiful son and a pragmatic foreman who prepares for the week.#what does this have to do with polyam james you may ask? well ill tell you-#im learning as i have been for a while now#that as i am a chief caregiver for many ppl in my life including bf and now the ruggers (im a board member)#i deeply deeply DEEPLY want/need care when im in crisis or at a low point and theres no low point quite like post match#when your systems are coming down from adrenaline and everything fuckin hurts like hell and whats worse you're injured#im not good at being taken care of i acknowledge that. but to be coddled and handled with care rn?#have someone to sit with me and make me food and eat with me and help me stay tethered and hold me a bit and smoke with me#idk not even in a sex sense just to be held and cared for#thats why poly am is a thing for me. i love my partners and I dont want to change them i dont want to force all this on them#certain needs can be met by certain ppl in certain ways etc but love is love it is always love its just shown differently#as i was writing this bf called to say he was bringing home nonalc beer for me. i know he loves me. i know he cares. it's just different.#tbd im so very tired and achy and weepy today dont mind me#the match was great for the squad but im not thrilled with myself#hence wanting to curl up in a hole and not come out
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Right and his work menaces (Brent and Karen).
I don't remember last I mentioned it but apart from crude nicknames to people (except Chris), he also just puts them in his phone really weird (except Chris, who is literally in his phone as Chris). And I bring this up because in Right's phone, Karen is saved as "Lawful Obligation".
#my characters#oops i fell in love#can you guys tell im stressed and hyperfixating on my own fucked up ocs cause i am#also brents nickname at work and in rights phone is fuckwad#and hes like yeah if im called anything else at this point by right its weird and uncomfortable#and when it is finally approached as if paul is only in rights phone as shitty-ex (answer) now that hes an excoworker#what was he in rights phone BEFORE the transfer#and right is like annoying dickwad ... karen is like oh i see thats why you call him a dick still#thats like a nickname from his phone name#and brent has to ask why fuckwad and dickwad and right looks at him and takes a deep breathe before saying#because i like the word wad and it is very comforting bc like a wad of paper ? you can throw it away#and so if i realize i gotta get rid of attachment i wad it up#also dont tell paul that dickwad was a form of attachment or he will never shut the fuck up about it#karen and brent both swear to never mention it to paul#paul is honestly such a weird anomaly in the plot bc he doesnt directly work at the same police station#but he is CONSTANTLY a topic of gossip or annoyance or updates#hes literally karens best friend! aside from chris he was one of the few right worked with who HAD touch privileges before right banned it#hes also just genuinely well liked but no one can actually tell him or he will become insufferable#which is a crime that rick is guilty of once when he meets paul and karen introduces him#and rick is just OH i know that name! youre her best friend#and she looks so betrayed and paul looks so delighted and stunned and radiant over this fact#and rick makes up for it before the night is over which is why karen forgives him - he made paul back in his place#anyway yeah right has lots of fears and hes my bundle of anxiety and i love him and his atrocious nicknames#i think i would die if i gave someone a rude nickname even affectionately irl#also also final note on this ig#since right is a detective and not always at the station its worth pointing out brent and karen just work taking calls and#doing misc other work at their desks which are nearby so they 100% bond and its wonderful#ok i lied final note on them is#for a very long time karen has to check with right to make sure she isnt annoying brent because he doesnt emote well#and shes scared she wont know if shes annoying him please help youre like the only one who reads his moods accurately
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