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sucrecube9 · 7 months ago

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I think part of the reason I find games like Disco Elysium or Slay the Princess so interesting to me is because my brain has always felt a little fractured like that. Little parts, segments different enough that it's like multiple "people" having a "conversation" but they're still part of one whole, not enough to be seperate beings. They're part of the same idea, the idea of you, but they're still seperate. So close yet so far. They are different pieces in the same puzzle. They are different words in the same sentence. They are all different people with the same face and body and voice and idea of a person. I'm rambling here because it's such a specific feeling that's so clear to me because I can feel it but it's so difficult for me to put into words!

When the Voice of the Hero talks, it's hard to say that's not you/the player in Slay the Princess. It's part of you. A fragment. An echo. But the same can be said of the Voice of the Paranoid, or the Voice of the Smitten! They're all so different, yet they're still part of whatever the hell "you" is!

To end this, I generally have become a really big fan of fiction where you can see the seperated pieces that make up a person, taken apart like a computer you're trying to fix, because for a big part of my life that's how I have felt and I am unsure if there will ever come a day when the parts are put back together into one working machine. Maybe I will have to make do with being dismantled.

#ive been wondering if i have cptsd #and i dont wanna self diagnose it #but im pretty sure this is a big cptsd thing lol #disco elysium #slay the princess #ramble #it's part of the reason #i often have a hard time making stuff like personas #even though i like to do it #its because its hard to represent myself as one whole piece #when i am not whole #top 10 things i should probably talk to a therapist about

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hinamie · 1 month ago

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trick or treat!

#my art #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuji itadori #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #maki zenin #yuta okkotsu #inumaki toge #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #u could argue that the spoilers r hidden by the costumes but idw take my chances #i havent posted art in a billion years i feel like a fraud and i am going to get a bad grade in tumblr dot com #so i am posting these early idc anymore #i still have probably one more halloween draws i plan on posting but im cracking i want these out of my drafts Now #these KILLED ME #i miss drawing fast i miss it so badddddd #dont get me wrong the costume design ws so fun i loved it but god did it take ages #but on the bright side. yuuji in a toga.#on another bright side. little devil nobara n cowgirl maki #on yet anotHER bright side. eldritch horror pandachu #these costumes eat if i do say so myself ghjsdfkgjf undead inuokko makes me so happy also they r so cute #not to mention megumi in his gay little hat god i made itfs so obnoxiously flirty in this #remember when i said the timeskip art ws the least heterosexual group photo i've ever drawn i take it back #theyre disgusting . save nobara episode 356325746732 #anyway happy 10 days early halloween <3 #i will try to not take a whole week to finish the last piece(s)

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kokoinupi · 1 year ago

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also add in the tags if you want how your tolerance has changed over time!

#i wanna see on this site full of autistics if i truly am as much of a minority as i think i am #my tolerance is super ultra high and i LOOOVEEEE spicy food <3333 #i believe i could eat a whole habanero with little issue #my spice tolerance used to be mid-level when i was younger but it skyrocketed since i reached adulthood #i need to eat spicy food like at least twice a week or ill die i think #poll

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anna-scribbles · 1 year ago

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last one i promise(<—lie)

#let’s as a society think more about why adrien wanted to go to school #and what. perhaps. he thought school was #i think the way chloe describes it she really is just a beautiful rich girl with too much time on her hands #and no one at school is treating her accordingly.#abby got so mad at me today because she thinks it’s too cringe that i keep taking about adrien liking ohshc #which is like. how are you gonna know me my whole life and then be disappointed when i’m cringe.#i’ve never hidden who i am. it’s cringe all the way down #anyway #ml #my art #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #chloe bourgeois #ohshc #wait i am gonna tag this thirteen actually. just go with me #thirteen

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erabu-san · 6 months ago

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I enjoyed every second of this quest

[This art has platonic intention. Thank you for not tag ship!]

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stoopidstapler · 1 year ago

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SO IVE BEEN GOIN INSANE SINCE THIS TRAILER DROPPED. JUST. SIMON. SIMON. SIMON.

#simon petrikov #fionna and cake #adventure time #goin insane over him #thers no words to describe how im feelin #i wish i could draw somehtin better but i am goin INSANE #FINALLY. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS. we are being FED.#ALSO?? HOW THEY SHOWED HIM EXACTLY WHEN THE LYRICS GO ''WHATS WRONG WITH ME'. LIKE HELLO???????#ive seen so many good theories PLEASE GOD WRITE FICS I AM BEGGIN I LL DRAW U FANART BLS HEL P #IDK WOT IM GONNA DO FOR A WHOLE MONTH #SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT TIL THE 31ST. HIBERNATE ME. HELP.#also i need to put it out there the first thing i thought when i saw this trailer was simon is tryina rewrite fionna and cake #which is why their world keeps changin so much? idk idk #ive seen so many different ideas and they are all so good please help #ALSO GOD. THIS MAN IS JUST GOIN THRU IT. AND ITS ONLY BEEN A QUICK TRAILER.#im sorry for so many tags idk where to put these help #maybe i should make an actual blog for like. whatever. n reblogs. help.

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knownoshamc · 3 months ago

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Armand + why would you say that if you have only met this man once

#armandaniel #armandiel #devil's minion #armand iwtv #assad zaman #interview with the vampire #iwtv #myiwtvedit #no but whyyyy #why would he say Alice wanted to say yes instead of just moving on with the interview (if not louis' cruelty)#why would he explain himself to Daniel??? why would he want to protect himself from daniel #what does he mean it's in his nature?? has daniel dropped a bomb before fucking off for good? has he??#anyway I am normal about them #also why would keep the whole ''mr molloy'' thing when you are angry at him #just... why

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letsplaythermalnuclearwar · 3 months ago

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Homer!Odysseus and Epic!Odysseus would try to kill each other if they ever met

#Homer!Odysseus: you sacrificed your men to save yourself? Detestable coward! How I wish I was never born if it would ensure you had not the #Epic!Odysseus: you’d understand if you *loved your wife.* But I guess a guy who stayed with Circe for a year wouldn’t know that!#H!Odysseus: do not speak of things you know nothing about! I long for my return to sweet Penelope but I have a duty to my men #E!Odysseus: A YEAR. A WHOLE YEAR. I WOULD KILL ANYTHING AND ANYONE TO GET A HOME A YEAR FASTER #H!Odysseus: that was clear when you served Scylla six men like they were cattle!#E!Odysseus: it was them or me! And don’t keep talking about my friends like you did any better. you’ll go home alone too #H!Odysseus: they doomed themselves when they ate Hyperion’s golden cattle. I am not responsible for their suffering. But you could have ens #H!Odysseus: Now Eurylochus’s body lies at the bottom of the sea where there can be no burial and no honour #E!Odysseus: AND I’LL GO HOME TO MY WIFE. MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT LOVELY LOYAL WIFE WHO’S BEEN WAITING FOR ME FOR TWENTY YEARS.#E!Odysseus: and when I go home and she asks if I came back as fast as I could I’ll be able to answer honestly #H!Odysseus: WE HAD BEEN THROUGH MANY TRIALS. THE MEN NEEDED TO REST #E!Odysseus: FOR A YEAR???? DID THEY NEED TO REST FOR A YEAR??? AND DID THEY NEED THAT REST RIGHT AFTER A MONTH’S LONG REST WITH AEOLUS??? S #H!Odysseus: IF YOU WISHED FOR ITHACA SO DESPERATELY WHY DIDN’T YOU OBEY PALLAS ATHENA AND KILL THE CYCLOPS #E!Odysseus: *drawing sword* I WAS HAVING A ROUGH DAY #Epic the musical #Epic odysseus #The odyssey #odysseus #Homer #Greek mythology #Jorge rivera-herrans #nuclear war speaks

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bikananjarrus · 5 months ago

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can i just say it felt so fucking GOOD to have good, well-executed, fast-paced (!!) lightsaber fight choreography. the fights were exciting! each character had their own distinct style that matched their abilities and size! they were fast!!!!!! hands down the best saber fights we’ve seen in live-action sw in a long time.

#(and before y’all say ‘but Anakin v ahsoka in the ahsoka show’ no. Hayden CARRIED that fight. sorry not sorry but r*sario can’t match up)#i could go on and on and i def need to rewatch to analyze the fights a bit more #y’know. when I’m not in shock lol #i say a bit more about this in my ep5 thoughts post #and i have a whole spiel about what the other live action lightsaber fights have been lacking recently #but for now i just have to say how fucking excited i am that the fight choreography (hand to hand & sabers) has DELIVERED #the acolyte #the acolyte spoilers #star wars

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myopicry · 6 months ago

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lurking in radfem spaces has really changed my entire view of most mainstream internet spaces because once you realize just how censored women's voices and feminist thought are on these sites, and how much porn and misogynistic values are defended, you can't unsee it.

how anyone can bear to participate in an online space where porn, of all things, is lauded as the bastion of "self-expression" and yet any woman slightly critical of popular cultural opinions is demonized is wild, especially when a lot of that porn is a) violent and misogynistic b) often accessible by minors c) gross and shallow d) myriad of other reasons far better writers have probably described

fuck I'm just so tired. seeking rationality online is just opening a pandora's box of garbage and seeing the reflection of how bleak the social hegemony has become.

#the worst part is that the only mainstream opposition to this kind of culture is from the right #and they're also fucking terrible most of the time so that's great #the fact that most popular leftist online “thought-leaders” don't discuss this more often is certainly something though...#imagine being too busy to make navel-gazing video essays about identity with fancy lighting and silly editing #when this kind of attitude towards a whole HALF of the population is perpetuated online #god I hate thinking about social politics #and yet here I am #I need to throw my internet router against a wall I think #radical feminism

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aquanutart · 11 days ago

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THEY'RE BACK!!!! my childhood manga!!!

#ranma #ranma 1/2 #akane tendo #ranma saotome #rankane #aquanutart #un-follow me now this is all i'm going to talk about for months #I LOVE RANMA!!!!#i had the first 20 volumes of the manga nearly memorized as a kid and i am thrilled with how the reboot is following it #they're getting the panels so spot on it feels like seeing old friends. i am SO happy #this was the first manga i read after pokemon and what got me into drawing anime #ranma is the whole inspiration for how i used to draw i cannot TELL you how excited i am #also rankane was my first ship (before i knew what shipping was) when i was 11-12 #(i first read it when i was 9 but i didn't start to ship them until later rofl)

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 1 year ago

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anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...