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But my boss was so annoyed about me showing the productivity report to the others that she said "I'll take it off you, and I'll do it" and so I agreed and then she said something like "but I'll need to deduct from your wages for me to do that" and just????? That's illegal, surely you can't say that to an employee who's on the minimum wage
#what else could she mean?????#oh MasterChef is on#i should be watching that#but like as I've said she either pays me more next week or terminates me#they're the only options she legally has#anyway#I'm over it#she called back and apologized#it's all good#maybe she was just really angry and not thinking clearly#she asked where i was and i said the supermarket and she's like 'funny time to be grocery shopping'#i mean#when else do i buy food#Jesus Christ#when's a good time to grocery shop#New book: the best times to grocery shop according to sophia#you must shop at those times or you die#sometimes i go into Glen Huntly Woolworths around 8:15am because it's always empty#mostly empty#is that a funny time for a grocery shop????#when's the best time to grocery shop???? stay tuned for part 50 of the sophia chronicles#I've lost my mind#I'm sorry Tumblr
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen chao#wen zhuliu#Apologies for how much I skipped in the last part of this episode.#I do love the scene of Jiang Cheng regaining his will to live and the ensuing scenes of Wei Wuxian seeing him off at the mountain base.#At the same time I very much want to keep pressing on with the story.#The notes I have are for scenes I did not draw:#I still think a lot about the symbolism of food in both consumption and giving - especially in regards to the Yunmeng Trio.#Prior to JC leaving we see WWX out buying food for him. Something that initially falls through as JC runs back to Lotus Pier.#But here it comes back full circle. WWX gives away a part of himself to be 'consumed' by Jiang Cheng.#It is about being led by desire (JC wanting revenge to losing his will to live to wanting his core back)#and about being bound by duty to do whatever it takes to see those desires through to the end.#JC can't eat until he has his desire to live back. WWX carves out his own ambitions to help another reach theirs.#And it isn't held up as noble! Not even once! He is routinely punished and criticized for this sacrifice.#Being thrown into the burial mounds really is just symbolism for how we can give away every scrap of ourselves to others-#-and find ourselves at rock bottom. Alone.#When you hollow yourself out it just leaves room for something else to fill it. Something worse.
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the barista lady in the treviso café fucking giggles every time you buy the fancy coffee lucanis likes from her btw. can't believe the game is calling out rook and me like this
#I've tried it several times to check it wasn't a fluke and nope it does happen consistently I'm pretty sure it's intentional#bioware Know. they knowwww. they know exactly what I'm like and god bless them for it#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#café pietra barista gazing kindly at rye like 'I know what you are.' (a simp) while the tips of his ears go very very warm#clearly some sort of underlying drift compatability here since rook in one night can somehow manage to hit on all two (2)#of the elements of lucanis' instinctive understanding of courtship behaviour (knives and coffee/food) hfksjdfhas#in lucanis' defense when a guy buys you knives AND good coffee (despite not even drinking the stuff much himself) on a first date...#when your love language is that unhinged and they straight up compose a shakespeare level sonnet in it on the spot#seemingly without even realizing it. I mean what else can you be expected to do but fall so cataclysmically in love#that you'd kill god over it any day of the week easy. wild stuff#even wilder since in my playthrough he isn't entirely sure rye meant anything by it/as more than a friendly gesture#for like. MONTHS.#lucanis is a regular at that place and they all for sure know exactly who he is so can you IMAGINE the gossip that must start#after that conversation starts to take on a flirty edge. hotboi crown prince of the crows returns from the dead and is making eyes#at ~*mysterious stranger*~ who just showed up in town. some I hear netherfield park is let at last stuff going on for these guys#as they watch all of this go down
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hello! i really hate doing this, but my state has been going through the worst flood we've had in over 80 years, and i just spoke to my dad on the phone and he told me there's a high chance the water might've reached the ceiling in our house — and if it didn't, it still reached pretty high anyway, as we've been informed —, which means there's a very high chance we lost everything (or almost everything) we own, except for the things we could pack up and carry with us when we evacuated. the area where we live is completely flooded and the roads are closed, and although i managed to make it back to my hometown before things got too bad and am staying at my mom's house where it's safe for now, i'm still dreading the moment i have to go back, and i don't know what we're gonna do and how we're gonna start rebuilding our lives.
so if you're able to donate anything at all (literally anything helps), here's the link to my ko-fi (e se vc for brasileire e quiser doar pelo pix, pode me mandar mensagem que eu mando a chave em pvt)
if you can't help financially, reblogging this post is also really helpful!
thank you and stay safe 💜
#there's also a chance the water might rise in my hometown too lol 💀 so i'm just praying it won't reach my mom's place at least#i feel bad doing this but idk what else to do???#i'm also gonna have to buy a bunch of food to make sure we won't run out bc we don't know when things will be restocked#considering most roads are either blocked for safety reasons or totally flooded#anyway... yeah#this is kinda embarrassing but i'm also desperate so i'm rlly sorry !!
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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-cracks knuckles-
I don't have twitter and I've never drawn a Miku before in my life, but I adore that trend happening rn and wanna drop down my two cents, so let's go with the research to make a Hatsune Miku: but she is from my family (hard to explain, but it's absolutely Texan)
#ghostie mumbles#looking up some native american jewelry from the ones in my genealogy to be accurate and true#as well as merging it with some casual wear and subtle cowboy stuff.#culture stuff for me and my family is very lowkey and more in what you'd see as little details scattered around the house--#--and houses of my relatives. so this is gonna be a very tame Miku but it's gonna be a nice little depiction of my heritage n stuff#I am going to have at least 1 piece of jewelry that represents the native american tribe sin my genealogy which is..#tbh.. as close as I am with that side of me. I'm so far removed that my physical features are so subtle you'd have to look closely to see i#everything I know came from my grandma on my dad's side and the powwows we have gone to when I was younger before they all--#--kinda.. stopped happening and moved to the big one called 'red earth' which is out of state for me#I liked the small ones.. the smells. the food. the music. getting to see the regalia of dancers.. the beautiful art and jewelry and trinket#--and figures you could buy.. it was always so nice getting to go.#at least the state fair has some stalls dedicated to native american artists who craft and sell similar things#one thing they don't have tho is the fry bread. and now I really want some. :(#ANYWAYS Gonna mark down the jewelry and the tribe name next to it as I find it and get that noted before moving on with everything else#I wanna make her look cute and interesting. will also definitely be looking into hairstyles and clothing. taking inspo from my own family#all this just for a dumb miku drawing#I do my best to try and do research for my pieces!!!! mostly.
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One of the fun things about becoming an adult is that there is now an additional factor limiting my food availability: cost.
Now I can’t just try new foods and see if I like eating them and give myself options. Trying new foods costs money I don’t have. Money that could be going toward reliable safe foods.
But if I eat the same safe foods too much without variety then eventually (months/years eventually) I start being unable to eat them anymore.
So I need to find enough foods that I can cycle through, which I can consistently prepare for myself even on low spoons, which don’t set off any of my sensory issues, are filling enough to last me for a few hours, and don’t cost too much money.
I feel like I enjoy food a lot less than I used to. Eating feels like a chore I have to do, not something enjoyable for its own sake. When I love a food’s flavor and texture, I eat it so much that it becomes just tolerable. And then I need to hurry and switch it out for a new food before I can’t eat it anymore.
I know I’m lucky to be able to afford the foods I can eat, and that I have the option to pick and choose. I just wish I could eat more.
#blue chatter#actually autistic#it’s gotten to the point where I’ll eat like 5 meals consistently#I’m becoming bored of all of them but half the time when I try to buy smth else I end up not being able to eat it#and not for lack of trying#I did find popcorn chicken that I like so that’s good#that’ll help me#but I don’t know how I’m gonna spin all these plates forever#*melts into a puddle*#this post brought on by the fact that I tried making that one grilled cheese recipe going around on tumblr#which I had made before and loved#and had to throw it out halfway through because the texture was all wrong and I couldn’t make myself eat it anyway#if I had infinite money I’d buy more foods I know I like lots#like steak and chipotle burritos and ingredients for focaccia and onion straws#ooh actually.#I might be able to do a half batch of the focaccia#lemme try that#that’ll help
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Hello friends, I have been debating buying a hotpot to make hotpot. Unfortunately, I've never actually made hotpot myself before. (I mostly used to eat it at restaurants and at my one auntie's house) so idk like, what to put in it that would be good.
What are your favorite hotpot recipes and things to put in the hotpot?
Also: if you make your own hotpot soup bases instead of going out to buy them, are there any good recipes for that?
#would it be heretical to put noodles in there?#I was thinking like sliced beef/pork/fishball/bok choy/bean sprouts/tofu#but do people put OTHER stuff in hotpot?#what else should I get to put in it?#food with tav#I feel like this is peak Second Gen Diaspora experience#'how do I do this very common thing that I've seen people do and participated in before by myself?'#'what brand of soy sauce does my mom buy? does it taste of home when I use it or only when she uses it?'#that sort of thing
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I should be asleep I’ll hate myself tomorrow, but while I’m preparing myself to go to sleep I remembered the dream I had last night and remembered that I thought in my dream that it would make a good story but now I don’t remember anything and I’m mad fbskndjd I haven’t write in so long, especially with characters that aren’t my long time ocs or fanfic it would have been good to think about something new but yeah 🥲
#i just remember there was 3 girls#and for once I don’t think I was one ??? I feel like I was mostly watching#i remember romance a lot of it ????#like evil vs good a lot also some powers maybe vampires ????? one girl I think ????#also what guy would they chose between 2 each but at the end it wasn’t the case I was only imagining one guy#now you will say but Alex that’s a lot you remember#a kiss and a school sitting is not enough to remember what was happening 😭 kfbskdns#I’ll try to remember more or take what I remember and have fun with it ckdbjxbdjd#anyway now I’m going to sleep I’m waking up in 4 hours 🤪#my dad better be in a good mood cause I probably won’t (period + lack of sleep is NOT a good mix kfbskdns)#he usually is on Sundays when we work together I think he put aside everything we usually fight about cause he has to pay me so if he makes#me cry I won’t be a good help fkdbdjd#also he already paid me in advance cause he wanted to#be sure he dosen’t use the money by accident ckbdjdjd#Idk what I’m doing with my calculation but I’m suppose to have 200$ a month but I feel like I never have enough money ????#cause I don’t have a lot left enough for my phone at least ????#(because it’s 50$ each Sunday)#oh wait now I rememeber Sowon’s food 😐 80 freaking dollars 😭#but at least I won’t have to buy one until like January maybe even February 😭#but she need this type of food or her stomach hurts :( (and something else that is nasty bdjsbs)#that’s why I start taking commissions to at least be sure to pay for pills if I get like one commission a month 💙#anyway good night !#alex.txt
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I have now made it to six weeks, I think, of my daily mini workouts. Unfortunately doing it this consistently has in fact not made it any easier in the slightest. In honesty, it is harder because I do not have the momentum of the initial change. I am still going though
In reality too I probably have 2-3 weeks left at most that I will do, because after that I will no longer be home alone in the apartment. Still will have been worth doing I hope, so that I can do it easier when I eventually have the space long term
#i just truly hate being observed doing anything#i hate showering when people are home#i hate working doing a singular push up while people are around#i hate cooking or doing basically any activity that is purely 'for me' when others are around#it's something worth pushing back on i know#but in many ways it is sort of one of those things that is just like.... in me so deep that i dont think i could like#ever stop being uncomfortable it would just be another discomfort i would put up with#because in many ways i DO#because i do have to make food for myself and i do have to shower and whatever else#but once you get past the list of 'have-to's it makes it kinda impossible to want to add in optionals#which again i feel like this is my core emotional relationship with the world#there is almost nothing i cant do if i set my mind to it#but that has no bearing on my comfort level#so i spend all my discomfort on the things there is no negotiating#like man i was thinking how it's so crazy that im 30 and who knows the last time i kissed someone#and in many ways i doubt it will happen ever again#which is like a shame i liked it that was cool#i remember being in head over heels love multiple times in my life#but man i don't think i could coordinate getting that going now#i have to make three meals a day and do my laundry and go to work and buy groceries#i have to brush my teeth and floss#i have to take showers and take my clothes off before and out them back on my wet skin after#every time i eat i have to clean my bowls and dry them#and now it's the winter so if ive been washing dishes i should really moisturize my hands#so where in the hell is anyone supposed to fit falling in love in all that?#and dont even get me started on allowing them into my bedroom
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...wondering how dramatic it would be to buy a mini fridge and stick it in my room because my brother refuses to understand that sometimes I purchase food and drinks that are specifically meant for me, and when I write my name on them that means that they are in fact, not for him
#it's a silly little thing but i have a very particular need to plan things#even things like meals#i like knowing exactly what i'm eating - and even what i'm drinking with it - and when#even little snacks#so when i buy food and drink it's a very specific amount and i have a very specific idea of when i'm going to eat/drink it#so when my brother takes any (or all) of it it throws me off#especially because i don't have a car so i can't just drive to the store and buy new stuff#i either order everything at once to justify delivery#or i go when my parents do and buy stuff then#stuff he takes is not conveniently replaceable for me#i miss my housemates man#if we didn't buy something we knew it wasn't for us#my brother just has no consideration for people#not just when it comes to things like food just in general#if he wants something he takes it and if anyone else wanted it they should have been faster#though the family attitude of 'if it's in the common area then it's for everyone regardless of what you want'#is helping me understand why i'm so feral about people touching my things without permission now#the food thing is just a symptom of a larger problem that will never be resolved#because i am the only one in this house who considers it a problem#it's a lot of little things that are building up and driving me crazy#hi there these tags are brought to you by someone who is writing her problems down so she doesn't go postal irl#i'm venting to keep calm#and i am calmer now so that's good#feathers speaks#i might buy the mini fridge#it's only a couple hundred dollars and it can sit on my filing cabinet and i can just turn it on/off as needed#plus with christmas coming up i don't think it'd hurt to have more fridge space#my only real concern is how many appliances/electronics i have hooked up in my room#i'm wondering how much the power point can handle before shorting out
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My mom told me the other day that it was gonna seem like I was trying to date my friend if I payed for her ticket to a show, so maybe you should try and pay for his food and that’ll indicate your intentions lol 😅
LMAO fuck maybe I could try that 😂
#not snz#i feel like it would work better if i didn't like. pay for literally everything most of the time ahskaksk#but i can try#unfortunately that's my medic and if nothing else i was taught to buy/bring food for my partners especially if they're a medic#which is fucked up if you think about it bc they get paid more but i digress lmao#but maybe it'll work if it's not fast food 👀#god is that gonna be too obvious if i wanna go somewhere decent and not like fucking taco bell#fuck he's seen me eat taco bell tho there's no way he'd ever be into me after that 😭#tho to be fair one of my fire coworkers asked me out immediately after seeing me do much worse than spill half my taco on myself#so maybe I've got a shot ahskamska#this is literally so stressful ahsakms how do people do this lmao#also why do i want him so bad now after knowing him for two years#this is so fucking sad for me lmao#like maybe i was in denial for a while there But Still#like is being nice to me when I'm like a sickly little victorian child really all it takes to make my ovaries explode 😭#i need to raise my standards fr 😭😭#partner posting
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-->ANYWAY – while poor Victor and Alice were very much not getting any of the free food and drink they had been promised by the holiday, Smiler had gotten their stall set up right on the main drag in front of the archway into the park, stocked it up with the apple pie, the pumpkin spice waffles, the blueberry bagels, the cheesy bread, and the pumpkin spice milk, and started hawking their wares! As per usual, it took a little bit for the customers to appear (and I guess on a day where the local restaurants are all offering free food and drinks, it WOULD be harder to find people willing to PAY for snacks), but after a little while, two lovely ladies named Janae and Judy rocked up, along with a guy named Lucha. Smiler greeted and insta-friended them, as is their way, and started handing out sales pitches –
And Janae was quickly convinced and gave Smiler their first sale of the day, grabbing a bottle of pumpkin spice milk to down! And once she got the ball rolling, all the other Sims in the area proved reasonably eager to buy – Savannah Price showed up soon after for some bagels, while Mei Prescott and a dude named Tai Lum both got a slice of apple pie. :) Janae then came back for some more milk, while a lady named Ava tried the cheesy bread and a dude named Anjelo gave the waffles a whirl. Molly Prescott appeared on the scene to try the bagels (maybe she saw her mom over there earlier?), while Janae returned AGAIN to sample the pie and some guy whose name I didn’t get got some waffles. All throughout, Smiler just kept handing out the food, slinging sales pitches, and making friends, and by the time the sale wrapped up around 6:30 PM, they had sold all four bottles of pumpkin spice milk (THREE of them to Janae, who I guess either was really thirsty or REALLY loves pumpkin spice drinks), two plates of bagels, three servings of pie, one plate of cheesy bread, and two servings of waffles, for a total profit of $319! :D Nice – they were MADE to sell stuff at the food stand, I swear.
-->But what was happening with the others while Smiler got their salesperson on? Well, Victor and Alice ended up having a nice meal together in the end, despite their previous troubles, with Victor getting flirty with Alice over their respective pasta dishes, and Alice happily reciprocating. :D They ended their lunch together on a kiss and a story, then Victor flew back to the library to use the toilet while Alice hung out playing on her phone. I had her head back to the park to keep her in sight and maybe see if she could do any scavenging –
And then, to my surprise and delight, found that there was a metal stone and a crystal stone right nearby to where I’d sent her! I promptly had her go and collect those – the metal stone gave her some silver (and a couple of robot salvage parts, for – some reason), while the crystal stone gave her an emerald. :) She then proceeded to play Blicblock on her phone, which I let her do for a while, then – noticing that she was Energized from the new moon – sent her on a little jog to get in a bit of exercise. Because that’s important, everyone!
Marm, meanwhile, was sufficiently charged enough that I felt I could wake him up and get him to read some books while they were at the library, with Victor joining him once he was out of the bathroom. Marm thus submerged himself in the tale of “Orbital Pudding” while Victor read a book of his own choosing for a bit, then headed upstairs to play “Road Rage Alpha” on the library computer. XD I don’t think that’s particularly respectful of the other patrons, Victor!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#marm l iser#another excellent food sale from Van Liddelton Snacks :D#seriously I am very glad that I got Home Chef Hustle#using the food table to sell treats to Sims in various worlds is very fun for me#I love seeing Smiler hawking their wares as the crowds gather#the magical first moment when somebody decides to buy#and then everyone else going for whatever most interests them on the table#it just feels like what Smiler was meant to do :)#and of course it's always nice to see Victor and Alice being cute together#I'm glad they had a nice time even if they couldn't get their free food from the food stall#and Marm is -- there#be easier to include you in stuff if it didn't take you ages to charge Marm#dang Lazy trait#queued
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I don't understand people who buy things they don't need.
#txt#My mom just blew like $200 on a dresser (from temu of all places) and a heater#when she already has a dresser#(a solid wood one#which she is replacing with a cheap temu plastic one) and a working heater. Then she tries to dump#her old stuff on everyone else#but nobody else needs it#because we also already have clothes storage and a heater. Why are you buying things you already have??#and replacing them with something cheaper that wont last as long!#growing up poor has made me very careful with money#she grew up poor and seems to want to buy everything that she sees for some reason#which we can not afford to do#to be clear i am talking about buying something that you already own#that is functional and in good condition#just for the sake of it#not as in like...buying yourself something like food or entertainment that you do not already have even if you do not 'NEED' need it
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Nothing more frustrating than having a dream set in an amazing book series and then waking up to find out it doesn’t exist. Guess I’VE gotta write this now
#it was so INTERESTING and vivid. i woke up like ‘i swear i’ve read this’ but it doesn’t actually exist#okay so the setting was this world where the moon has cracked in half (potentially due to human intervention idk)#the tides have gone super weird because of this#the majority of humans live at basically the tops of really really tall buildings. like at high altitude#at the lower levels; it’s just water. the lower down you go the humidity increases also#so as well as the humans who live at the top of the world there are vaporous species living at the mid level and there are mer-creatures#in the sea. god knows how agriculture works in this world. i know people had rooftop gardens#maybe everyone had adapted to a vegan diet or maybe there was trade with the mermaids to get fish. idk#anyway; the majority of my dream was concerned with this elite university academy and this one problematic student named alex#he had been sentenced to life imprisonment for basically insulting the government (this was a very totalitarian regime that had formed when#the world first cracked and everything went to shit)#but he would be able to get his sentence overturned if he took this one class (i think it was civics or politics or something#with a media focus) and basically created the best propaganda video imaginable#so they were basically requiring him to recant his claims publicly; endorse the government; and he had to do it so convincingly#that his video would be rated the best in the class#the other people in the class included these two sisters who also badly needed to pass in order to graduate#and a bunch of exchange students#also the sky is basically a television in this world#everyone is up so high that they can see the moon fractured in two and it’s Really close to the earth#but you can’t see much else in the sky. so they were doing shit like beaming everyone’s class schedules and syllabi and lists of what you#need to buy for class directly into the sky#i don’t know if i’m selling it but it was so INTERESTING. i was really annoyed when i woke up and realised i couldn’t actually read this#because it doesn’t exist#APPARENTLY i have to write it. which is worrying because i’m not at all good at worldbuilding. but honestly the dream was so vivid#i can basically just.. take it and expand on it very slightly#i think what interested me was the backdrop of this elite university that all the kids of rich family go to vs the obvious reality#of this world; where there is food scarcity and very little diversity of habitats. and a dictator#personal
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Putting on last year's trans rigs stream from Drawfee before i have to get ready to go out with my mum and her bf today (bc i have the worst feeling in my gut he's gonna make that An Thing for me if given the chance today, aka whenever i eventually need the restroom while we're at Mystic)
#text post#Housemate was amazing and helped me calm down a bit before ae went to work bc my brain woke up in meltdown mode over this tbh#it sucks bc like. im excited to see my mum despite the Everything with that lmao#but im not excited for how her bf has been acting since they got here (and it's been day 1 out of 7 days)#with some outright homophobic comments while Housemate and i hosted them briefly at our house yesterday afternoon#not abt us but like. i mean. u know we're both queer so#doesn't really matter if it's abt us or not it's still fucky and makes me worry abt how he's gonna be today!!#doesn't help that he really wanted to go to Italy with her instead this summer#(despite the passive aggressive complaints from him & mum to a degree abt how expensive it was for them to come out here)#(we're ignoring the fact that a European trip would be even more expensive lmao tho i do think if they want to/can afford it they should go)#like. the Vibe from him has just been that he'll be Just Polite Enough but that he didn't want to be here#and he doesn't expect to have any fun and it's like#dude i am Trying. i and Housemate have looked up stuff to do that includes things he likes (like guns and historical weapons)#we tried making comments abt that yesterday like hey u might like this but if there's anything u have in mind already#and he was just. whatever idc but then made comments that made it clear he's not excited for anything else#like museums or the beach for sea glass hunting or the bird sanctuary or even the zoo#and all have places to rest/sit plus restrooms and food so I don't think it's a worry abt facilities thing for him#i think he's just fed up that I'm still involved in my mum's life since i moved and like#yes there's a detangling of the umbilical cord i and my past therapist were trying to eventually get my mum to cut#since cutting it myself in any attempt has had her metaphorically taping it back together#but like. it's not entirely on me here. I'm trying to set boundaries and make sure she's giving him more attention than me since he's w/her#more than i am now#i know he's upset when she helps me financially too (i offer to pay her back but she always refuses it) bc she took me aside yesterday#to give me some cash for the time with them for souvenirs/fun stuff i might not buy otherwise bc im trying to be mindful of money#aka still waiting on money my fkn job should have already paid me like. a week or more ago now#he makes her happy so even if he hates me i still care abt his frustrating ass#and i do want him to have as much fun as he can while still relaxing during the trip out here#but i feel like im gonna have to physically shake him by the shoulders screaming this before he listens#and even if he listens he probably won't believe me#sorry for the tag essay the edible hasn't kicked in yet can u guys tell lmao
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