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lightblueminecraftorchid · 3 months ago

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One of the fun things about becoming an adult is that there is now an additional factor limiting my food availability: cost.

Now I can’t just try new foods and see if I like eating them and give myself options. Trying new foods costs money I don’t have. Money that could be going toward reliable safe foods.

But if I eat the same safe foods too much without variety then eventually (months/years eventually) I start being unable to eat them anymore.

So I need to find enough foods that I can cycle through, which I can consistently prepare for myself even on low spoons, which don’t set off any of my sensory issues, are filling enough to last me for a few hours, and don’t cost too much money.

I feel like I enjoy food a lot less than I used to. Eating feels like a chore I have to do, not something enjoyable for its own sake. When I love a food’s flavor and texture, I eat it so much that it becomes just tolerable. And then I need to hurry and switch it out for a new food before I can’t eat it anymore.

I know I’m lucky to be able to afford the foods I can eat, and that I have the option to pick and choose. I just wish I could eat more.

#blue chatter #actually autistic #it’s gotten to the point where I’ll eat like 5 meals consistently #I’m becoming bored of all of them but half the time when I try to buy smth else I end up not being able to eat it #and not for lack of trying #I did find popcorn chicken that I like so that’s good #that’ll help me #but I don’t know how I’m gonna spin all these plates forever #*melts into a puddle*#this post brought on by the fact that I tried making that one grilled cheese recipe going around on tumblr #which I had made before and loved #and had to throw it out halfway through because the texture was all wrong and I couldn’t make myself eat it anyway #if I had infinite money I’d buy more foods I know I like lots #like steak and chipotle burritos and ingredients for focaccia and onion straws #ooh actually.#I might be able to do a half batch of the focaccia #lemme try that #that’ll help

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