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An awards show that is playing the WrapItUp music for every winning speaker could've:
1. booked the venue and production for a longer time
2. shortened the number of awards presented to save time
Playing almost everyone off with music means you fucked up, somewhere, logistically.
#there's no sense of class anymore#not to be bougie on main but like get it together#i would have host an event where the wgole point is giving speeches#only to cut every damn speech#im alicia and i believe in awards season bc it is fun and theres nothing wrong with sportsmanship#when done correctly
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tennis
#death note#light yagami#l lawliet#eyestrain#?#i like shapes and colors AND patterns#fun combinations of all of those things#anyway i feel like i donât talk in the tags on this blog as much as i used to. i need to do that more how else will i make more ppl#parasocially in love w meâŚ..#so hmm. i graduate in less than a month which is exciting bc school sucks ass and i want to be done w it forever (until i decide i want#to go for a masters that is T_T) and have u guys heard abt the mcrtour? making mefeel fucking craaazyyyyyy yes iâm gonna try for#tickets. and perhaps even visit some beloved mutuals in the process. and fool that i am i never finished my last scarf but am wanting#to start a new one but this one is for someone so perhaps i will have more motivation to like. actually finish it lol. knitting btw. i am#not very good at it but it is a good skill to have and crocheting is my motherâs thing and i like the look of knit better. i got yarn the#other day and i was like ough am i remembering their favorite color correctly but if not i can just die forever or smth. iâm not sure#what pattern i wanna do or if i want to add a second color or anything but like i have a small collection of yarn that i got when it was#on sale like crazy so iâm sure i can find smth that will complement my base color if need be#okay iâm done goodbye
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Tired of people applying concepts of gender and gender hierarchy specifically made for cis people to trans people and thinking we're the problem when we point out that it doesn't fit.
#men privileged women not#so various groups will both correctly gender and misgender all trans people#and try to put one in the evil group#and when they're not cisnormative then the answer is yes they are#and try to come up with some theoretical notion why without asking them#notaterftip#not sarcasm#transgender#trans#yes this is about transandrophobia but can be applied to all of us#the same thing is done to justify transmisogyny and ignore nb people#im speaking as someone who's sick of being left behind in feminist discussion but also very aware that most of it excludes trans women too
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my middleschool best friend
#legend of zelda#four swords#vio link#link#sketchbook#idk how to tag the zelda stuff correctly sorry i am juat doing my best#i will start posting agaun soon. when im done with fallout#wil might be. well. i am buying a minuteman flag so#i might be in too deep#steam puts my time in fo4 at. 800 hours đ đ đ đ#but thats just cause i always leave it open
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Their fate is in your hands!
#I have never done one of these#I hope I did it correctly#Basically what I tried to say with the image is that if this post has more reblogs then Enot will be hydraulic pressed#And if the post has more likes they will be spared.#I don't know when exactly I will stop the count and draw the outcome based on the results. I'll do it at some point. Probably in a few days.
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Once again thinking about how Ever After High's premise leans heavily into being about a predetermined versus malleable fate, and how it could've played with the question of whether we decide how to live our lives or they were already set from the moment we're born, but instead we got... the Royal and Rebel debate.
#it bothers me so much bc there is legitemacy in both sides WHEN PRESENTED CORRECTLY.#AND THEN THEY ARGUE FOR EACH IN THE WORST WAY POSSIBLE#like there are other ways to interpret it fs but also... they could've done so much#if they focused on this side of the premise#bc it's so obvious they wanted to make it a debate instead of trying to make one side right#but it just flopped so hard in execution#uhhh hope this makes sense i rlly need to go to bed lol#eah#ever after high
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there's definitely lots to be said about how "fired up" i get about LO and WT and all that, but frankly all the energy i give off here is healthy compared to the blind rage i experience when i'm playing project diva and miss a single note at the end of an otherwise perfect streak
"talking shit about LO and rachel all the time can't be good for your blood pressure" y'all hatsune miku has been bad for my blood pressure since 2010, LO doesn't even come close LOL
#IT'S JUST FUCKING HIBIKASE TOO#LIKE THE HARD MODE FOR THAT SONG ISN'T THAT HARD#BUT THE BEATMAP SUCKS#THE ACTUAL NOTE TRIGGERS DON'T FEEL LIKE THEY WERE ACTUALLY ALIGNED CORRECTLY WITH THE SONG'S RHYTHM#AND THE SONG JUST KEEPS GOING EVEN AFTER IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE#AND THEN IT ENDS WITH SOME WEIRDLY OFF-TIMED NOTE AS A FINAL FUCK YOU#IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I WAS ALREADY SICK OF HIBIKASE WHEN I BOUGHT THIS GAME#I'M BEING BESTED BY A SONG THAT SHOULDN'T EVEN BE THIS HARD TO CLEAR#IT'S FRUSTRATING AND EMBARRASSING LMAO
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Rhaenys Targaryen being perceptive as HECK:
Devotion has never sat well with him. Where he goes, he wishes to be his own master. [...] Not as such (will he challenge her). But neither can he allow her to command him.
"Neither can he allow her to command him." - We never see Rhaenyra actually order Daemon's flight to Harrenhal. Not directly. It was his choice to go when he did, it was his plan to being with, at the start of the whole thing - to create a toehold in the Riverlands. It was Daemon's instincts and feelings. He follows his own path.
Again, Jaehaerys's murder was done without Rhaenyra's sanction, he chafed against staying on Dragonstone whilst she searched for Luke's remains, and he took charge of the war council and drew his sword against Otto without waiting for her leave to escalate. He addresses Otto's terms before she does. Whilst he shows loyalty and believes his motives to be selfless and his allegiance as true, it's not true deference. He seeks power/independence where he can.
Devotion and love don't sit well with him, though he has great capacity for it - we see him struggle with those feelings and the warring sides of his nature during Harrnehal: his brother, his niece, his second wife. His ignorance of his daughters. There is a corruption to his love. An acidity.
"Where he goes, he wishes to be his own master" = he goes to Harrenhal, and wishes to be his own master, and even King.
He doesn't not challenge her "as such" = he never raises banners against her, never pushes for his own claim other than in private conversations. Still, his behaviour causes Rhaenyra to have doubts in herself as Queen and others to have doubts in her as well.
It absolutely challenges outside perceptions of her rule - his lack of communication creates fractures in her council, leading, amongst other things, Alfred to question her suitability. It also makes her strategy wayward as they cannot be sure of ground support for any campaign. She's doing things she shouldn't have to do because of his behaviour.
His behaviour also challenges her because the things that he does impacts how her cause is received. Her name is cursed in King's Landing because of what he enacted, leading to the death of Jaehaerys. They blame her for what he did in her name.
Otto Hightower would never have allowed this. Hotter blood has prevailed, I think. The young men have taken the bit in their teeth. They wish to punish, to avenge. Soon they will not even remember what it was that began the war in the first place.
Otto Hightower did, indeed, not allow or know anything about sending Arryk to assassinate Rhaenyra, leading to the death of both twins. In fact, Otto was appalled by the scheme.
It was, as Rhaenys surmises done on the orders of the "young men" (Aegon, and the less young Cole) - as punishment and revenge for the death of Jaehaerys.
Aegon has "declared" war following the death of his son and has seized on offence. He did this whilst his blood ran hot: a scene where he is smashing up Viserys's model.
We teeter now at the point where none of it will matter. And the desire to kill and burn takes hold and reason is forgotten.
The deaths of the children (Luke & Jaehaerys) in the scene with Alicent and Rhaenyra, ultimately don't affect the idea of peace or war. Alicent does not change her behaviour due to the loss of a grandson, and Rhaenyra does not for the loss of her son, either to make war or peace more or less likely. The road is already set. They reach a point where it doesn't matter.
Rook's Rest represents a point of no return. They pass the point.
Rhaenys sees "the desire to kill and burn" take hold over reason in close quarters - she sees Aemond burn his own brother. That is the kind of savagery: the unforgivable. The bloody war between dragons and the hateful act of kin against kin. It's chaos.
Rhaenyraâs council is wayward. She has a hard task. I must hope she will rise to it, but I fear sheâll need you by her side sooner than late.
After Rhaenys dies, Rhaenyra has one council session, where each of the men around her have individual ideas - they argue amongst each other but none of them have no true plan to offer her. There is no progress.
Nor does she rise to command them: they continue to ignore her, shoot her down, not work with her, leaving her isolated. As Rhaenys fears, she needs Corlys. Rhaenyra soon offers Corlys the role of Hand.
#genuinely all her moments of wisdom and guidance and even when she predicts the state of play and the future...#it all has truth ringing right through it#broadly speaking - everything she has ever said or judged has been done so correctly#it was the same in season 1 from the beginning#even if her perspectives have changed and the sate of play changes she is able to reorientate and use new context#even to the point where things are eerily precient#and i could talk about it all day#she fulfills the wise woman trope because she IS a wise woman#i could go on and on and I just wanted to put it some place#even the stuff she says about Alicent - correct#house of the dragon#rhaenys targaryen#rhaenys in s2 just casually going around predicting character arcs
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my cat has, after many attempts, still been unable to catch onto the fact that when i point i am trying to show him where the toy is.
but has learned very quickly that if he stands under the fridge when i open it there is a possibility, however slim and inconsistent, that cheese may fall on him.
#him: what are you doing with ur paw#what is that what is That#vs him getting war flashbacks to the time cheese fell on him and scared him so much#IT WASNT EVEN LIKE A LOT OF CHEESE IF I RECALL CORRECTLY#he has also learned that the click of my pen in the case means im done drawing and can go feed him#and the sound of a can opening = food#like when im trying to make soup and open a can he SCREAMS in excitement#like bruh this isnt for u!!!!! its for me!!! ur mom eats out of cans too sometimes
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rdj the (whitewashed) electric boogaloo
This is a reminder to everyone who's excited about RDJ's casting as Doctor Doom that this casting is whitewashing. Victor Von Doom is a Romani character and has been a Romani character since his introduction in the 1960s. (Fantastic Four Annual #2 [1964]) Not only that, but his Roma identity and the persecution he and his family faced due to it is integral to his character, it is what forms his identity. (Books of Doom by Ed Brubaker) Even if on the off chance this casting is meant to not be Victor but instead be some variant of Tony or whomever else becoming Doctor Doom, it is damaging to the character to rob him of that important cultural background. Doctor Doom does not exist without that history. Fans have been pushing hard to cast Doom as a Romani actor for years, especially since the MCU has whitewashed other Romani characters. (Wanda, Pietro, etc) This casting is not a celebration moment, it's fucking heartbreaking that the MCU repeatedly ignores the important and nuanced cultural backstories of characters.
I know I can't change anybody's mind on whether or not you want to be excited about RDJ's return to the MCU. But I do think at the very least you should be mad that the MCU is baiting us all and destroying nuanced and interesting characters for the sake of self-referential easter eggs and nostalgia bait. Because that's what it is. Feel how you'd like to feel about RDJ's return, but personally, this is soul-sucking. I had such a deep love for the MCU as a teenager, it was obviously something incredibly formative to me, especially Tony Stark. This isn't recreating what I fell in love with the MCU for. This is turning a well-planned and artistic storyline of adaptations into cheap cash grabs and fan service. Because, I think we're past the point of being able to call the MCU an adaptation of anything. They can use existing characters' names and powers, but to say they're being properly adapted is laughable.
This is not an adaptation of Doctor Doom. This is RDJ the Electric Boogaloo because Marvel's fear of losing the interest of dedicated MCU fans overrides their willingness to tell stories that are genuine to the characters. I don't know what there is to be excited about that. The MCU has lost its authenticity and aside from a few projects, feels heartless. Every movie is a copy of a copy. This announcement isn't something celebratory, it feels like a death knell of a cinematic universe that's so desperate to cling to relevancy it's resorting to nostalgia for a character/actor who hasn't even been dead for a decade. We're not getting anything new, we're just rinsing and repeating the same song and dance.
I get it. I love Tony Stark, his death destroyed me and I to this day, rue the ending he got in Endgame. It misunderstood his arc and it robbed him of a satisfying conclusion. But the solution to that isn't dragging the corpse out of the grave five years later to whitewash an existing character with rich and interesting nuance, just to forcibly tie his existence in the MCU to Tony. Whether he is a variant or not. Why would you want someone else's fave's legacy to be destroyed simply so your fave's legacy can go on? Hell, if we were really all so hellbent on the return of RDJ and/or Tony to the MCU, we have the multiverse for a reason. There were other ways to do it that didn't whitewash and ruin someone else. This just. Isn't something to be happy about.
#... we will not be addressing that i'm a dead blog#no one say a WORD about my inactivity for 4 years this isn't about that /lh#also if anyone tries to get smart about âromani isn't a raceâ i don't care and you can shut up.#it's an ethnic and cultural identity. and it should be portrayed correctly.#ESPECIALLY for a character like *victor von doom* of all people. like it is fundamental to him.#i would've included panels of the comics mentioned but most of them use the g-slur and i don't wish to encourage that here#like listen i don't think you need to be a comics fan to be an mcu fan. they're so divorced from each other atp#nor do i think the mcu owes complete comic accuracy. but i do think you should at *least* care when characters are whitewashed.#look. i really don't want this to be a debate on if rdj's return is good or not#i've been frankly baffled at how many old mutuals are excited but. whatever if you want him back i get it.#but it shouldn't be like this. not at the expense of a different character.#this whole thing made me realize i'm *far* more jaded and turned off to the mcu than most of you guys are.#which is fair you can still be an mcu fan. if it brings you joy i'm so happy for you#but how does this like. bring joy i don't get it.#this is soulless. it's uninspired. it's done purely for shock value.#i occasionally get asks to this blog about why i left and asking me to come back#and i get it. i *want* to come back.#but i don't *care* about the mcu anymore. this is not the franchise i fell in love with.#i don't recognize what once meant everything to me.#winteriron will always hold a special place in my heart (as will tony stark)#but like. i just don't have love for it. and it sucks that this bullshit from marvel actively kills the love i had.#this sours tony stark to me. i'm sorry but it does. because was it really worth this? is this what his legacy has become?#this does cheapen his legacy btw. like without question. it turns him into a cheap cameo reference. heart of the mcu my ass.#my fandom circles have *massively* changed#i'm now entirely surrounded by comics fans bc my primary fandom is dc comics. that's what i'm up to these days#and the difference was actually baffling to me. everyone i follow now is *pissed* about this. comics twitter is so mad.#and then i see ppl on here excited and i'm just genuinely surprised this is something you want. i don't get it.#i don't say that to be rude. i just don't get it. how is *this* actually something people *want*.#do i still care about marvel? eh.#i like winter soldier comics and i could give a comprehensive rec list. and i read some other characters i deeply enjoy.
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Ameda Ravers by geckoSegno (2008)
#sparkledog#sparklefur#furry#art#eyestrain#scene#rave#ravefur#<- i gotta start tagging the ravefurs correctly this is like the first one ive done that for..#i gotta add more specific tags in general#or idk depending on when this is queued i might already be doing that x3
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⨠Star Friends â¨
When I found out that @chessman-protocol boy Crit liked Astronomy, letâs just say I was beyond estatic and immediately planned this little comic. Hereâs to my boy Vincent doing his best to make friends with folks who share similar interests đ
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Funny enough, I didnât realize I put this in Vincent characterâs until I looked at the whole thing, but Vincent very much shares the lack of stranger danger the way I did/ I do to this day. To quote one of my past managers Iâm âabnormally friendlyâ or whatever
I canât tell you how many times even as a small child (drove my parents nuts) that I saw a cool person with whatever connecting factor and I just straight up walked to them and was like âOk cool. Weâre friends now.â And nobodyâs really stopped me? So apparently I have friends now. đ
Vincent however is just a wholesome baby boy who doesnât realize heâs actually an intimidating hunk of a turtle and randomly walking up to strangers and not saying anything can be taken the wrong way.
Like I said, heâs trying his best. He wasnât exactly the most socialized if you canât tell, but he does love dearly and is certainly a boone of a friend to have once you get past the inevitable social awkwardness. Heâs loyal to put because he really doesnât know better, and I adore him for that. Anyway, dunno if Crit knows any ASL or not, but either way Vincent is just excited to meet somebody else who likes space â¨đ đ
#just being jayus#doing this ugly and scared#my boy <3#Vincent my beloved#rottmnt original character#rottmnt oc#original comic#rottmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rise of the tmnt#time to go feral in the comments again; please ignore the ramblings of an insane person#Fun fact: Vincent is mute (late mutation and didnât fully develop vocal chords) and so he only speaks turtle and partial ASL#Morrocoy Tortoise AKA Yellow or Red Footed Tortoise bop their head to assert dominance and show emotions#Head hopping and headbutting is Vincentâs tic and you can tell how heâs feeling by how fast or slow he goes because itâs a VIBE#Working on this comic was like the preverbal attempt of taking a horse to water#except this horse is a pony (anything under 14 hands is of the devil) and would not even spare it a glance unless it was perfection#Alas mockery and spite is unfortunately my demise and I could not handle the blank page any longer#Can you see how my style changed when the focus and subject changed?đ
#Forgive me my son#for I have not learned to draw you from all angles yet.#Why did I make you so pretty and detailed in my head and yet have my hand betray you?!#The true tragedy is when your idea level is not at your skill level bECaUsE I KnOw wHaT hEs SuPpOsEd To LoOk LiKe BuT I CaNt DrAw HiM yEt#So here we are and I am accutely aware of how much work there is to be done. Iâm looking at you flippin turtle anatomy#But hey we all have to start somewhere#so here I am#I tried and by golly I will keep trying. Vincent deserves that much đ
đ§ĄđŤĄ#I just looked back at this and realized I MISSED A STINKING PANEL. And Vincentâs shirt.#Flips a table in my mind#Also Iâve never made a mute character before so if anybody has notes especially about ASL PLEASE PLEASE P L E A S E lemme know.#Wanna make sure I represent the peoples correctly đŤĄđ§Ą
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Something I'm personally a huge, huge fan of in the live action is the way they went about the foreshadowing, especially the comments they made on later arcs. Like when Mr 7 from baroque works asked zoro to join the agency, but he declined unless he could be the leader, and then later after zoro lost the duel with mihawk Nami was reading him the story of Noland the liar, which comes up later in the Skypea arc. I just really enjoyed their attention to the plot, and effort they made towards bringing the entire story as a whole to life
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Hey Reid Girlies
I swear to god I'm going to start blocking each and every one of you who posts a Reid fic with "Emily Prentiss."
You should not be tagging Emily in a Reid centric fic.
I will give you some leeway if she's in the fic, but if she's not like one of the main characters, don't tag her or anyone else that isn't the main character.
I don't know how many times other people in the CM fandom have to post this to get it through your heads, but it's annoying as hell.
I'm in the tag "Emily Prentiss" FOR EMILY. NOT REID.
Keep him to his own tag.
#spencer reid#reid#like its not cute its not funny#its not going to make any of us click on your fic#if i want reid ill search for him#dont make me go back through all of my fics and tag them all as reid x reader#because i have no life and im petty as fuck and I WILL#i feel like the emily fandom has been pretty nice about asking you guys to STOP DOING THIS#but since i opened the emily tag today to find a gif and was immediately assaulted by the pipe cleaner boy im reminding you all AGAIN#ill start getting nasty about it i dont care#learn how to tag things correctly jesus christ#see how done reid looks in that gif??? thats how done i am with all of you#and dont get me wrong i like reid! i just dont want him when i want emily! >:|
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In a little over a week we'll find out if we're about to have our first female president or live in Gilead.
To all my American readers who are adults and able to vote: please. Please vote. For the love of god, please. I can't fucking do this again.
#meanwhile musk is literally buying votes and trumpers are sabotaging the mail#and nothing is being done of course#that guy who has predicted the outcome of every election correctly predicted a harris win so there's that#(he was technically wrong in 2000 but i don't really count that against him because recounts did show that gore won)#(he couldn't have predicted the gop would intentionally stall the florida recount until the election was certified)#and this is the first election after he attempted a coup a TON of republicans are voting blue#and a ton of women are voting blue because of rvw#i just worry she won't win in the right places#or that they'll just declare trump the winner anyway#i have a pap smear later this week honestly think i'm going to ask my doctor for like a week's prescription of xanax#anyway yeah sorry it's been hard to write when my country might implode soon#vote blue so fai can get back to writing about ninja turtles and not worry about being sent to a lib reeducation camp
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Childhood Crush
Chapter 19: Vanadium
Killer x gn!reader word count: 2.8k a/n: hopefully releasing two chapters will make up for the cliffhanger eheehhehe
Working with Myra was hard at first. Mostly because all you could think about was what she had done - the pain she had caused. Slowly, she became tolerable. You treated her like a colleague, nothing more. You didnât talk about anything else except work. She had tried to talk about something else a time or two, but you shot her down. You were uninterested in anything she had to say unless it pertained to the research at hand.
âYouâre making it difficult to act civil.â You turned to look at her with a blank expression. âAnd why would I want that? That has nothing to do-â
âWith the research yeah, whatever. Iâm trying to make amends and youâre making it impossible.âÂ
âWhy would I want to make amends with the likes of you?â Your blank expression slowly turned into a glare. You werenât in the mood.Â
âIf weâre going to work together - we might as well get along.â She looked annoyed and you couldnât believe the gall of her.
âGet along? Did you forget what you did?â You felt like pulling your hair out. How hard was it for her to just fuck off? Things are going just fine without trying to âbe civilâ. âWhy canât you just get the picture? You left me bitter.â You let out a hollow laugh. âAll thatâs left is bad blood.â Youâd never forgive her. She had completely destroyed your crew and your brother lost an arm because of his recklessness thereafter. It was a pipeline that she caused.
Myra looked at you with an expression you couldnât quite make out. It seemed like a sea of emotions on her face. âI thought youâd be able to understand where I came from. You and I were like two peas in a pod. Two of the same mind. I figured if anyone could figure out why and forgive - it would be you.â
Your eyes widened and you still justâŚcouldnât wrap your head around whatever the fuck she was on. âWhat burns the most, Myra, is that you lied right to my face. All that time together - two years, mind you. Was any of it real? Were you just nice for the experiment? For your research? Cause that was one hell of an act that you put on.â The domestic bliss of it all - was it all just a lie? The extent she was willing to go to manipulate you was astronomical.
The scientist looked at you before shrugging. âI cared about you, yes. I needed you to succeed in my mission, so your wellbeing was important.â You just stared at her, dumbfounded. What kinda card was she trying to play now? âThatâs notâŚâ Did this woman care about anything? How were you so blind to it before? This was a completely different woman than the one you knew; the one you knew was warm, inviting. She was cold and calculated; heartless.
âWhat, y/n, can we do to help you move on from this? We need your complete focus. Obviously your feelings towards me are too strong for you to operate properly. Would yelling at me help? Would letting all that anger help aid you in this mission?â You just stared at her as she spoke. You head was spinning from the sheer audacity of this woman. Once again, you felt like an absolute fool for ever having liked this woman in any capacity. She was worse than Kese. She had no remorse in her actions.
âYouâŚyou canât relieve these demons, Myra.â You felt your eye twitch as you tried to keep yourself calm. You were soâŚyou didnât even know. You felt so many things that they all just conflicted with each other. âYou canât make this okay for me. Youâre the one that caused these feelings.â You shook your head, closing your eyes and took a deep breath. You just needed to calm down. She wasnât worth it. She wasnât worth your anger. You had a task at hand that needed your attention. You needed to finish this so you could get back to your crew. You had so many things you needed to do.
âBut your efficiency-â She stopped short as your dagger flew towards her, slamming into the wall right next to her head. Her head slowly turned, looking at the blade - her eyes meeting with her logo. âYouâre the one impeding my work right now.â You looked at her, your breathing ragged as you were now worked up. You were trying with every fiber of your being not to absolutely throttle the life out of her. âNow, no more chit chat - get to work.â
She swallowed hard, nodding with wide eyes. You seemed to finally pull some kind of emotion from her. So, she wasnât a robot after all, huh? It was just an act. It seemed whatever facade she had was starting to fall. She started crumbling.Â
âIâm sorry,â she said in a strained voice. You looked at her - this time your face was void of emotion. âI did care. I cared about you so much - thatâs why I sent you back with your brother. Because what I did was wrong and IâŚI wanted to repent for what I had done.â You just looked at her as she slowly slid to the ground - you only let her live because she had Lily. You kept her alive for her. You werenât going to rob her of a parent.
âDonât ask me for forgiveness - Iâd rather watch you bleed,â you said before walking out of the lab. You needed some time away from her. You needed a breather.
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After thatâŚincident, Myra didnât try to make any more small talk. She followed your lead, letting you order her around as needed. It seemed that she realized who was really in charge now - that you werenât to be pushed around like some helpless, insecure person anymore like you were when you were staying with her. You were your own and strong. Shit, you almost rivaled with how you used to be.Â
Eventually, you were ready for human trials. You weren't going to make Toko try yet; she was just a child. You took some willing adults, having them try your samples. None of them died, luckily enough. The most that happened wasâŚnothing. Most of them were duds.Â
You were irritated. Everything was right but why wasnât it working? You tweaked and tweaked and tweaked it but nothing seemed to be changing - no matter what you did. You wanted to pull your hair out.
âYou should head to bed. A fresh mind will help.â You just glared at Myra who held up her hands. âIâm just saying. Youâve been tweaking it for hours. Besides, all the subjects have gone to bed so you canât even test it right now.â Without another word, or waiting for a response, she left you to your thoughts.
You sighed, leaning back in your chair, letting your head fall back with a long sigh. You supposed she was right. Everyone was asleep, so you couldnât even test the new formula anyway. You stood up, stretching as a yawn escaped your lips. You were exhausted. You were working from sun up to sun down every day - it was starting to take a toll on you butâŚ
You couldnât give up now.Â
A nap. All you needed was a nap. You walked over to the loveseat that was in the lab and in moments you were passed out.
Crash.Â
You bolted upright, squinting in the dark. You saw a small figure over by your desk. Your heart stopped as you ran over to the light and turned it on. Toko was standing there, beaker shattered at her feet. âToko!â You ran over to her, sliding on your knees - not even paying attention to the glass that was imbedding itself into your knees.Â
You took her face in your hands. âToko! Answer me!â You searched her face and she looked at you with wide, confused eyes. No, no, no! What was she doing here? Why did she drink what was in the beaker?
âT-Toko thought this was the kitchenâŚâ Fuck! You shouldâve locked the door. Tears began to line your eyes when her face started to move. âT-Toko?â you whispered, emotion clear in your voice. You couldnât live with yourself if anything happened to her. At this point you heard voices coming from down the hallway, heading towards you.
Shit. If Toko died, you might die. You told your brother not to die, but here you were - probably going to die. Though, youâd gladly accept the fate because you made a mistake and hurt someone so innocent in the process.
The twisted smile on Tokoâs face began to shift; corners of her mouth uncurling and slowly sliding down. Her large smile slowly closed and her face slowly relaxed. Your own eyes widened. Was it working? Or was she dying? You werenât sure. âT-Toko?â you asked, your voice cracking.
Suddenly, tears appeared in her eyes and she started wailing. She threw her arms around you as she cried and cried, and you held her there in disbelief. Did it work? Did it really work? You held her close, looking up as Hiyori appeared in the doorway, stopping dead in her tracks as she saw the scene before her.
âWh-âÂ
You looked at her, tears rolling down your own face as you held the crying Toko. You slowly stood up, still holding her as she continued to sob into you. âIs sheâŚcrying?â Hiyoriâs voice was full of disbelief and you nodded, smiling through your own sobs.
All those years of being unable to unleash those negative emotions properly were coming forth all at once. You knew she was never able to properly grieve for her father either, soâŚit was all coming out now.
Tears began to fall down Hiyoriâs face as she watched Toko. It was clear that she wanted to hold out and hug her, but she was holding onto you so tightly and her body was shaking so much that she didnât want to interrupt her. She needed to get all of this out. You had a feeling that these next few days were going to be absolutely exhausting. You were going to have to do this one at a time - to give people a moment to collect themselves.
Though, Toko was a small child compared to the adults. They might be able to hold better, but for now, you were just going to let her do what she needed to do.
It wasnât long before the small child was passed out against you. All that emotion had taken its toll and wiped her out. You slowly handed her off to Hiyori. âShe should at least sleep good,â you said with a small smile. Hiyori nodded, smiling at you. âThank you so much, doctor. I-I donât know how to thank you.âÂ
You shook your head. âNo need to. Iâm just doing my job.â
Hiyori let out a small laugh, knowing it was going to be pointless arguing with you. âIâm going to tuck her in, you should rest as well, doctor.â
You nodded, waving as they left.
--
As you predicted, the next few days were rough. There was so much crying, touching, and wailing. You didnât like being touched all that much by people you hardly knew, but you knew they couldnât really help it; overcome with emotion and you were the nearest person to them. It was draining what little social battery you had past its breaking point. You were slowly realizing that you only had a social battery with your crew.
âOn behalf of Wano, we cannot thank you enough,â Momonosuke said, inclining his head to you. You shook your head, holding up your hands. âI mean, you guys provided free room and board, not to mention all the other shit that I needed soâŚweâre even?âÂ
He looked at you with a surprised expression. âEven still, you are so humble. Is there really nothing else we can do for you?â
You shook your head before you realized something. âActually, yes. Could you, perhaps, lend me a boat and supplies? Iâm going to need to take a bit with me since Iâm pretty sure my brother doesnât have anything that Iâm going to need on his ship.â At least for now. Youâd eventually be able to restock and everything would work out in the end.
Momonosuke nodded and smiled widely. âI would be more than happy to provide you with a ship and provisions!â He looked to one of his retainers who nodded at his silent command and headed off. He turned to look at you. âThank you again.â
You held up your hands. âPlease, Iâm begging you. If I hear that phrase again, I might go insane.â You heard it so much over the past few days, you weren't even sure if it was a real expression anymore. Momonosuke only laughed and put his own hands up. âFair enough, doctor. I will mind my tongue in the future.âÂ
When you headed out, Hiyori popped up with Toko. They were both smiling, a genuine one from the smaller. âWeâre going to miss you!â Toko chimed, running over to give you a hug. You knelt down, wrapping your arms around her. âOh, Iâm going to miss you too. Iâll make sure to call and write, okay?âÂ
Toko looked up at you with a bright expression and nodded. âOkay!â She ran back over to the other woman, holding her hand.
âHave fun with your hunkidy do of a man,â Hiyori chimed on your way out and you stopped. âMy what?â The woman just laughed, leaving you absolutely confused. Who the hell says that? What does that even mean?
--
Surprisingly, it didnât take long for them to gather the things that you had requested. You were double checking things on the port when you heard someone say your name. You grimaced, turning around to see Myra. Câmon, couldnât she leave you alone? She stopped as she saw your face. âYouâŚare still mad at me?â
You just looked at her and she frowned. âI-I said I was sorry. I never meant for it to go as far as it did I-â
You just scoffed, shaking your head as you looked at your clipboard. âSpilling every lie youâve spilled before,â you said in a dismissive tone. You shook your head. âStill, Iâm not forgiving you.â You looked at her with a determined stare that bored into her soul. âAnd I never will.âÂ
Her eyes widened at you as you radiated sheer anger from your very being. She took a step back as you took a step forward, towering over her. âI hope that you never hear my name without your chest in flames.â Your tone was resolute and full of venom as if you were placing a curse on her. You could tell it already was. After all, she had sent you to Wano where your brother had been. She was obviously feeling guilty. She had tried the tough act and you tore right through that.
You were on a warpath - not to be fucked with. You had a mission and youâd be damned if you were going to let Myra get in your way. Though, you were leaving now and you couldnât be happier. You just wanted to see your brother again. To see the crew again. To see Killer.
Man, you had so much to tell him. You had made the decision to confess your feelings, no matter how it ended up; you just couldnât keep it a secret anymore. Though, Hiyori made it clear that it wasnât as secret as you thought. If your brother had caught on, who the hell else had?
--
After bidding farewell and more tears being shed, not from you - you were pretty sure you were all out, you finally sailed off. Unlike your brother, you werenât going to dive off the side of a fucking mountain, you were going to take the official port.Â
It didnât even take that long and you werenât sure why your brother made a fuss about it. Though, when you thought about it, he was just showing off anyway. It checked out actually. Constantly in some kind of dick measuring contest with someone.
Once you were out on the sea, you took your brotherâs vivre card from your pocket, getting ready to set course.Â
Your heart stopped as it burst into flames.
#ON THE PLUS SIDE#i pretty much already have the next chapter done i just need to reread it and format it correctly#i was possessed by killer himself writing it when i was opening on saturday#its also HEAVILY influenced by a song frfr#one piece#one piece x reader#one piece x you#killer x reader#massacre soldier killer#killer one piece#am fics#cc
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