#what will google tell me Today

[crybaby-bkg]

I found a lump under my bellybutton now I’ve convinced myself that I have two months to live

[starscelly]

now that you're home, i dont have to be alone.

saad yousuf, twitter / vgk@dal 5.25.23 / adrienne rich, sleepwalking next to death / miro heiskanen, instagram / amal el-mohtar, this is how you lose the time war / x / Stars' top pick Miro Heiskanen talks at NHL draft / x / "the pull of you" by the national / dallas stars, instagram / Stars' top pick Miro Heiskanen talks at NHL draft / dallas stars, twitter / ernest hemingway, the garden of eden / miro heiskanen, instagram / x / dal@sea 3.11.23 / the letters of vincent van gogh / yle tv2 promo / lighthousekeeping, jeanette winterson / dallas stars, twitter / (caption) "woof woof" by arthur

[actualbird]

im having an anxiety spiral on my priv twt bcuz of vague ails and im sharing it here because the tail end made me laugh (and also because sharing my woes is like my number 1 hobby)

EDIT: ADDING POLL TO CROWDSOURCE REASSURANCE FOR ANXIETY

[baeshijima]

nothing is more soul crushing than finding out pages and pages worth of fic planning is permanently gone and deleted from any recovery/storage space bc it was something probably deleted from at least 2 years ago 🧍‍♀️

[quibbs126]

I can finally post this, after weeks!

But yeah, this here is something I made to celebrate the 9th anniversary of Evoland 2

Some people may remember this work in progress from weeks ago, but now I can finally show the finished product. Which I finished 2 weeks ago

It’s based on the 3D picture you get when you finish the game, specially the 100% completion, and more specifically, my screenshot that I took when I first completed the game and got 100%

Though I should probably also note that this was the only picture I had of the beach scene until I was mostly done with the picture, so there are some inaccuracies between it and the original. Except for Reno in place of the Prophet, that was completely intentional

This game was I think the first (and will probably be the only) game I’ve ever 100% completed, and when I did it the first time, it was just because I knew that games would have extra things for those who 100% it, and I wanted to see what the game would give me. It’s the only time I was so invested in a game that I had to know what I’d get if I got everything. It’s also the only game where losing nearly 10 hours of progress due to a (maybe) glitch does not make me give up the game in frustration, but instead complete the entire thing within a single school week

I may gripe about my issues with the game, but I absolutely love it, and I have a lot of fun playing it. Well, aside from the parts I’m bad at, but that’s just because I’m bad at them. I feel like I have next to nothing to complain about from a gameplay perspective (which is in part because I don’t know how to critique gameplay, but also because I think any issues I have are my own fault), it’s just narrative stuff. And even then, I wouldn’t nitpick it so much if I wasn’t so invested in the world, story and characters

Maybe today I’ll start replaying it again, seeing how I’m pretty sure I’m free today from any schoolwork

I’m still holding on to some admittedly delusional hope that a 3rd game could release one day, even if I know it’ll almost certainly have nothing to do with this one, but even if it never does, I’ll still have this game to play over and over again, so I can accept it

I was disappointed that I missed the last two, since I first played the game in 2022, but not this year, I remembered!

Now to just talk about the art itself, the reason there’s two versions is because I originally made the background lineless, but after finishing the characters I thought it maybe clashed a bit too much, so I made a duplicate of the picture to do a lined version. But I also spent so long on the lineless version that I didn’t want to just leave it in the void, so I’m showing it too

Admittedly now I think I can say the lined version probably is the better one, but I can still show off both

I used the card colors for the characters, since all of them have cards for reference, but now I’m looking at the colors and thinking they look somewhat wrong. At least on Menos

Also as mentioned prior, I switched out the Prophet for Reno. I know I’m biased but I really think he’d fit in this picture of all the main characters far more than the Prophet, considering he’s kind of the reason the plot started, the second half happened, and he’s the main motivation for one of our party members. I mean, I see why the Prophet’s there in the original. He’s really the only other semi-important character with a 3D model, and Reno never had one, so they’d have to make an entirely new one just for this extra thing. Also it doesn’t make sense for him to have a 3D model in the first place, especially not of his Present era self. But not only is this now a drawing where I have the power to do what I want, this scene isn’t canon in the first place, so put Reno in the background there!

Overall though, I’m honestly surprised the piece turned out as good as it did. Those who follow me know that I was really struggling with drawing during the summer, more specifically drawing people and the Evoland 2 cast. But despite all that, I think the characters turned out pretty well. Certainly not the best, but better than I was expecting. And not only that, but the background turned out so much better than I thought it would, especially since I don’t usually do backgrounds. Though I suppose it does help to have a reference for all this though. But yeah, there was a reason I was so proud of how the sketch turned out, and while the final product may not have entirely been what I was hoping for after the sketch, it still turned out pretty good

As long as I can remember it next year (which I really hope I can, considering that’s the 10th anniversary), I’ll try to make something there too, hopefully with much improved drawing skills, since I’m still trying to figure all that out again still

Not sure what I’ll draw then. Maybe I could redraw the beach scene, or make an entirely new beach scene concocted by my brain. But it’s also the 10th anniversary next year, so maybe it should be something more special

Ah well, that’s next year’s problem. For now, have this to celebrate the game’s anniversary. For the minuscule amount of people who actually play this game, I guess

[bangcakes]

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[iiboronii]

Me upon realizing that I can just have an AU instead of writing an entire fanfiction about an idea I had in my head once:

[dedummekrakene]

hey guys uh.... what's a "scorpion save"

[deanpinterester]

(this poll is trans inclusive)

[aria0fgold]

Sorry I'm not your God (神様じゃなくてごめんね) Romaji Lyrics

Nee,

Kimi kara mite boku no kao wa

Nani iro ni mieteru no kana

Hontō wa kimi ga egaku yōna

Sunda iro nanka janainda

Monogatari no shujinkō mitaina

Seigi no hīrō no yōna

Kodo to kotoba o nazotta

Sono kekka ga ima no bokudatta dakenanda

Shinzō ni tenteki o sasu yōna utade

Asa o ikinobite wa

Yoru no omosa ni kubi o shimerare nagara

Iki mo tamerare yashinai

Nigiri tsudzuketeita shinzō mo

Dareka no bunda to shitteshimatta

Sono kuse dareka o sukuitakatta

Sore ga hontō no boku nanda

Aa,

Shōdoteki na aide sukuwaretakunai yo

Nante mie o hatte itteshimatta

Kakkoyokunakute gomen ne

Aa,

Sekai yori kimi o erabutte

Minna ni ichatta

Kono ude wa ni hon shikanai no ni sa

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Aa,

Furimaita nasake ga

Kiba ni natte osōtekichatta

Kitto subete yuruseru to omotta

Tsuyokunakutte gomen ne

Aa,

Tsunaideta te o hanashite

Kimi o oite ichatta

Kimi o mamoru tame no hazudattanda

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Kitto boku wa yasashii hito

Demo kimi wa boku yori yasashii hito

Yasashii hito bakari kizutsuiteiku

Kono dōshiyō mo nai sekai de sa

Kitto boku wa orokana hito

Demo kimi mo onnaji orokana hito

Dakara wakattekureru to omotta

Sore o negatteshimattanda

Aa,

Kitto boku wa yasashii hito

Demo kimi ga boku yori yasashii hito

Dōka kimi dake wa boku mitaini sa

Hikari o miushinatte shimawanaide

Kitto boku wa orokana hito

Demo kimi mo onnaji orokana hito

Dakara kimi ga nami o omōka wakaru yo

Konna ketsumatsu jaiyada yo ne

Aa,

Tsuranuita shisō ga

Dareka no kokoro o koroshichatta

Sore dake ga tadashii to omotta

Kirai ni narenakute gomen ne

Aa,

Itsu no hi ka nageta kotoba ga

Zenbu kaettekichatta

Kono ondo wa tashika ni aru no ni sa

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Aa,

Sayonara o shinai tameni

Kōsuru shika nakattanda

Kimi no me ni tayoritaku natteshimatta

Risō ni narenakute gomen ne

Aa,

Zen jinrui o aisu nante koto wa

Dekinakatta yo

Dakara dōka boku o urandekure

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

[dyrewrites]

Bloodhound -- flower

“House to ourselves, flower,” Deluca cooed to the less wriggly infant in his arms, “you don’t like him here, do you?” He asked, wondering if she could smell Leandro’s intent as easily as he could see it—if it blurred too often.

Searching the office for anything he might need to clean up or hide from her, and eyeing the phone but unwilling to check his voicemail, he nodded. With the silver put away—the memory of the wolf’s efforts burning through the taste yet throbbing in his veins—there were few worries for one hardly two feet tall if she tried to stand.

So he moved on to show her more of the house.

After showing her some paintings, “Oriana, meet Lucient, your papa.”

She cooed and burbled, earning his giggles.

As well as a response to projected words—for she was not speaking so much as trying mouth sounds,“Yes, he is close to the werewolf here earlier, isn’t he, but it’s important to me that you to see the differences.” Adding, for himself alone, as I should try to more often.

While pointing out more memories of Lucient, Deluca ended up wandering through the office, around the corner from his desk and out into the garden.

Bad place to be.

Even with the glass long swept up, flowers replanted, and every pot of soil where it belonged...there was a hole. More than the one in the ceiling telling of his agony and shame, the greenhouse itself—cradled by high stone walls crawling with flowering vines—was empty of life. Oh, the flowers were growing, would have been beautiful if not for so many missing petals from his last dive into them.

But his love wasn’t there, wasn’t tending to them in his delightful hat and gloves. Wasn’t singing to them as he so often did, or giggling so sweetly rich when he was interrupted by warm arms and warmer lips.

So it was a bad place to be.

With the lie of him still in his veins, on his lips, on his skin, and a promise in his arms he worried he’d never get to meet...it became a worse place. Emptier, darker, bleak despite the bright colors of marigolds, chrysanthemums, lilies, roses—and far more important but less emotionally relevant flowers—spread among long planters, tall pots and flatbeds.

All were kept alive by sigils he’d had carved in the walls to preserve what he couldn’t—ever active. Sigils which pulsed, every so often, to make them appear more sweetly vibrant than reality.

“This,” he tried, really he did, to tell his own flower of all the ones her papa grew there, all those he worked so hard to keep alive for him. Those he failed to do so for his heat ruining the delicate temperature of the greenhouse—facilitating the sigils.

But he couldn’t get the words out.

Oriana didn’t mind if the big warm thing that took her from all the choking blood and screams could tell her about the pretty things, only if she could touch them. Which she did her best to do just then, worming out of his arms and landing perfectly on feet that shouldn’t have been so steady yet. Dropping to all fours, she ignored the sniffling heat she escaped—one ignoring her as well, lost to his sorrow—and crawled for the closest pretty thing she could reach.

Golden as her eyes it was, though she’d not seen her eyes, and she held it high to catch morning light through the great big hole above her. Burbling loud and almost saying a word, which came out more as, “fow-ah.”

But it was close enough to get attention, to notice.

Deluca noticed too the color of her eyes so close to that flower and why, perhaps, he chose to call her his.

Kneeling beside her to point at it, he spoke clear and slow to tell her what it was, “mar-i-gold, it’s your papa’s favorite flower…just as you are mine,” he added, snatching her up and earning a slew of giggles for it. The flower she kept, close and tight in her arms as Deluca sniffed more tears and nodded at the mess, “non più broncio, fiore mio. Babbo is done with all this sulking,” aware he was lying, he tried again, “or I will try to be done. We’ll fix up the garden and...and maybe a certain flower would like to learn to care for others.”

[homochihuahua]

Stephanie: I was watching MLP with Cass the other day, and you know you two, you and Dick, really give the vibes of Applejack and Rarity.

Jason: The what now? Of the who?!

Stephanie: All that yearning and pining. Your undeniable compatibility, how you care for each other yet how blind to each other's needs , so you just accept the pretense of friendship or how you'd like to call it? Oh "camaraderie".

Jason: Wtf are you about.

Stephanie: Know that I am you number one fan. You are my OTP, I will always cheer on for you. Who knows maybe I should write you a fic someday...

Jason: A.."O" what? Steph what the fuck are you talking about???

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

Ok i have a confession to make- i actually haven't listened to tma podcast itself, I just got really hyperfixated on the fandom to the point of watching every amv, scouring all the characters wiki, reading every fanfic and repeatedly diving in the tags to know all about to the point that I know atleast the major plot, themes, the entities, the avatars, most of the more important characters and what happens to said characters.

That being said I am listening to the podcast now and everytime I know something important is happening I am just like-

[pensivespacepirate]

memories, or the loss of it // Wolf 359, ep 41: Memoria // Malevolent, Coda // Wolf 359, ep 61: Brave New World // Malevolent, part 21: The Unconquerable // The Mechanisms, Ulysses Dies At Dawn: Riddle of the Sphinx // Wolf 359, ep 61: Brave New World

[rustinged]

incessant advertisement and sponsorship is seriously bringing me to the brink of it all