#what the literal fok

[be-kind-to-all-kind]

What the fok.

Imagine buying and consuming a lamb's head, or any body part, imagine looking at a lamb

and going, "yum, they and their heads will be delicious."

And calling yourself civilised and mentally healthy, and smart and kind and respectful and just a good or at least decent person, and believing you are so. And that they're good healthy food. Other animals, their parents and other relatives for a start, is one thing, but if you have no qualms about forcing a baby to go through hell (kidnapped, raped, drugged, starved, abused, tortured, suffering in agony, poop, diseases such as cancer and covid and pathogens, noxious drugs and chemicals, and more) and then get sick and slaughtered in front of their loved ones...!

And worse yet! Imagine not only calling it food, or lovely, or pure, or using an image of a happy lamb on a box of baby food containing a mashed-up diseased slaughtered baby's body parts, using CHILDLIKE HANDWRITING, or NAMED AFTER ANOTHER MOTHER WHO ALONG WITH HER BABIES AND THEIR LOVED ONES IS TREATED THE SAME!

There's more like this but I just threw up in my mouth and my blood pressure is all over the place so I'm calling it a day at this.

Baby feeds baby. Baby kisses baby. Baby gets kidnapped, raped, drugged, starved, abused, tortured, suffering in agony, poop, diseases such as cancer and covid and pathogens, noxious drugs and chemicals, and more, to be fed to baby because people who profit off them say so and if baby doesn't want to, well that's too bad. And then baby grows up and is forced to be part of the problem too while countless babies like him (trillions of animals like us which is babies like these and their loved ones) go through this ever year.

But when a human does it to ONE human, or a kitten or puppy!, they're an irredeemable monster and the worst terms who needs the death penalty, right? And if a wild animal, another animal like us, defends themselves, or tries to save your baby, they get murdered. Puppies and kittens no but lambs and calves yes? This is utterly arbitrary at best, and you're just following what you're told to an incomprehensible level.

And of course, everything else done to them and made from their slaughtered bodies.

How would you feel if it were YOU and YOUR baby?!

And then the humans justifying anything bad done to any animals like us rush to blame others, everyone but themselves, for what's happening. And not to mention the fact that many of you not only are against actual goodness and food of any kind, but are against anyone threatening your indoctrination/brainwashing and try to get rid of anyone against any of what you're used as destruction meat puppets for while acting like YOU'RE the victim and martyr NOT your trillions or quadrillions counting humans of yearly actual victims, and our planet, the only one we were given but most of you don't deserve it, AND try to invade elsewhere because too many of you never fokin learn.

Whether it's for them, or yourself, or the planet, there's no longer any justification or excuse, with all the information everywhere and increased obvious problems of what it involves&causes, and everything. Even if you're the most selfish person ever, still none.

Yes, you've been made to be afraid, hurt, miseducated, and indoctrinated and brainwashed, but you have every incentive, and increasingly so, to use your heart&brain, and do&be better. Just because you didn't start out bad and still have&are good deep down, doesn't mean you have any excuse to still be it, even if brainwashing is a powerful thing. At some point, you HAVE to realise what your actions cause and involve and take accountability for your actions. It's not like it's North Korea and you're not allowed. You are. You're not forbidden to use your heart&brain. You have them for a reason. So do. Be a good decent human not a cancerous parasite. Be part of the solution not the problem. Before it's too late, and that's coming real fokin quick.

[beryllineart]

Dictionary Day

October 16, 2024

[itsluckystrikes]

this have been pointed out, most likely, but what I like about the movies is how realistic they are —a "parasite" living up a human's ass? How's that realistic? yeah, yeah, lemme just— because, I've read others said they didn't like Anne at first and i do understand that, honestly. Probably 'cause we're not used to such kind of character, like, she's secure, she's independent, she's strong, she knows boundaries, she can and will say "no" if needed. she's decisive, anyway, she's a doll because she also don't hesitate to help Eddie and be in a healthy relationship.

And same goes for Eddie. He's the perfect male character, no toxic masculinity, no scared of asking for help, he is a complete mess of a human, anxious, nervous, he literally has an alien inside his body and some dare to say Eddie was overreacting???? what the fok, y'all just scared of a real human being. Also, the way he just accepted Dan, how good he was for Anne, and end up being besties, probably. Eddie is going thru it, not having it at all, but he's so real, he's not scared of showing emotions.

Anyway, I love Eddie, I love Anne and I love Dan.

I also adore the fucking blob. Venom learnt about Eddie through Maria and decided he was perfect for him. bye.

[ra1nb0w-m4ggot]

Looks at you.

what ocs do you have..

oughhhh gooddddd immm jus daydreaminn about themmm nbutttt theyy r so inchoherent i cant describe em

literally whfat tha fok

also this thing????? love it

ALSOOO THHIISSS she's the only one ive PROPERLY drawn lol :>

[noodleodoodleo]

Final part (5) Nightcord at 25:00; N25; Niigo; 25-ji; 25-ji, Nightcord de.; 25時、ナイトコードで。Whatever you wanna call them it's the nocturnal and depressive group.

Let's start with their leader Kanade, so starting of strong I have reason to believe Kanade is actually ambidextrous.

here she is clearly shown to be using her right hand to write

but here she uses the fork with her left

the chopsticks are in both pictures in her left hand

but here she's using her fork in her right hand

and the chopsticks are also in her right hand

in this 4koma she uses a fok in her right hand

and just to be 100% sure I even checked Petit Sekai the chibi animated series and look what I found in episode 10.

Kanade is holding the chopsticks in her left hand.

This constant change in which hand she uses is pretty consistent throughout all the different sources leading me to belive that she is ambidextrous.

Now Mafuyu, let's see if she's also gonna send me on a scavenger hunt for evidence. In the Petit Sekai screenshot we can see Mafuyu using the chopsticks in her right hand.

Same thing with this card (bless the shinonomes)

spoon and fork are also used in her right and if you really wanna search there is the 2nd anniversary card, not Mafuyu's but Rui's;

she's holding a pair of scissors in her right hand.

I think it's safe to assume that Mafuyu is right handed which would also make sense thematically. Back in the day, left handed people were seen as defective and wrong and were forced to use their right hand but Mafuyu is this perfect student which would include her being right handed. It just wouldn't make sense for her to be left handed in any way even if you go the route of her having to conform and be perfect, but that is not what her story is about. Shizuku's story would be more like that; she's not perfect but she has to be. Mafuyu on the other hand is perfect from a societal viewpoint; she has talent is diligent and studious and does what she is told. Mafuyu doesn't struggle with being perfect, Mafuyu struggles with finding happiness and meaning in that perfection, she struggles with her sense of self outside of the perfect student. Her problem is that she doesn't want to be perfect but she is. So it just wouldn't make any sense to have her be left handed. Anyway, this thread was supposed to be about random fun facts and not analyzing character story themes, my bad.

In a previous post I already established that Mizuki and Ena are both most likely right handed but just to make sure I'll provide some more evidence starting with Ena.

She's an easy one. Ena draws so we see her using a pen or similar quite a lot and in Mafuyu's part we already saw Ena using the chopsticks with her right hand. But other moments include

Like there is this but considering it's this one image vs literally everything else I believe it might be a fluke

and even then in the cover art for their album it's like this

It's literally the same card set and Ena is holding the brush in her right hand. I think that one might be a fluke.

Now Mizuki, as said before I have concluded that Mizuki is right handed.

and that's all there is. Mizuki has nothing else that would show they favour one hand over the other but I'll take it.

So now series conclusion:

Leo/need are all right handed MMJ are also right handed VBS are all right handed Tsukasa and Emu are right handed Nene is ambidextrous favouring her right hand Rui is ambidextrous favouring his left hand Kanade is ambidextrous with no preferance Mafuyu, Ena and Mizuki are right handed

part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5

[gayspock]

mm

it's like I don't know the best ican really ever do is jsut hop from distraction to distraction and the fucking feelingof dread jsut gets som much worse the more I fucking waste my time with thwt bt what fucking else is there and who fucking cares oh my god who fucking cares is anyone else nuts I'm so fucking dizzy again I feel sick I don't fucking care I haven't cared for a long time what's it matterrrrrr

I doknt know what I'm doing im so fucking alone all the fucking time I don't know it's so funny how people used to tell you it was gonna get better like it was gonna matter some day you'll find something but it jsut keeps going and going and going and it's still so impossible and it's your fault and I don't know it feels like the only thing that evereans anyrhing is if you're not alone. You can only get hwlpif you're not alone you can only find some meaning if you're not alone you can't do anything. Its how much yourewprth it won't matter it will literally never fucking matter unless you exist to at least someone and icant fucking do it I don't know what's wrongwoltih me I don't know whqtd to do I . Indontnkjow what to do I fucking try and it's like I'm jsut a fucking freak and I can't eve make it stop and I come home and I cry alone i don't want to die alone I'm going to have to I fucking hate myself I fucking can't do anything right I fucking fele so fucking angry sometimes because I don't know why I kept likgin people when it's never going to matter I don't know what difference it's ever going to make I jsut fok round and round and round and round and round I need to fucking end it I can't imagine it going on and whenim dying alone in this fucking house with it falling apart because I cantufkcing find the energy to do anyrhing and I fucking rot in here what will I have achieved but fucking making it all 2orse for years and years and years and who will care. The exact same number of people as if I died now. 0. So like sonfuckijgnwhwt

[slovo-kvnnt]

CBS X PISS CAKEHOLES %100 REAL NO FAKE 😳😳😳😳😳😱😱😱❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

ATTENTION This fanfic is only made with the aim of entertaining and giving the viewer chills, do not take it seriously lmao

CBS: Hello bitch. I'm going to fuck you

Piss cakeholes: HAHA no

CBS: *GRABS HIS HAND AND PUSHES HIM AGAINST THE WALL*

P.S: ahh.. fok! *I throw it away and it goes away epically like painis cupcakes* SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

CBS: AHG! COME HERE YOU DAMN BITCH! *persecutes*

IN THE MEANTIME...

Spyper: hEY, GENtLEmEN WhAT dID YoU TeLl ME THaT I FeEL wEIrD AND aT ThE SAmE TiME I SeE ELePHaNtS?

gentlemenspy: hehe nothing bad, just something that ami and CBS have a lot of fun-

CPS: GENTLEMEN! WHAT ARE YOU DOING !?? *grabs his head with his hands*

Gentlemenspy: Little do you realize lately?

CPS: BUT YOU'RE LITERALLY DRUGGING SPYPER TO STEAL HIS CAR BATI- *Sees Piss cakeholes and CBS chasing him* huh?

GENTLEMENSPY, SPYPER. DON'T MOVE FROM HERE, I'M BACK, I'm going to gossip about what's going on with CBS *flies away*

CBS: *points and shoots, hits Piss cakeholes in the leg and foot* Matanga.

Piss cakeholes: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHAAAHHAHHHHH *pain*

CBS: Come here you little shit :) *grabs him and takes him to an abandoned place and lays him down on a dirty old chair* HEHE..~ . got you~ *he takes off his belt and puts it on Piss cakeholes's wrists, and his classic machete in his hands* Now yes, let's play?...~

Piss cakehols: NO! W-WHAT ARE YOU DOING MENTALLY ILL!? *blushes and starts kicking him multiple times*

CBS: COME ON~ I'm just having fun-

DEMOPAN: Ayo! how are you guys- *someone grabs his pan* HEY MY PAN!!!-

CPS: *Hits CBS mercilessly* IM-BE-CIL (God forgive me) WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING WITH PISS CAKEHOLES!? *angry*

CPS: WITH YOU ALSO SMOKING MARIJUANA WITH GENTLEMEN, NO!?

CBS: OH COME ON MAN, YOU SMOKE IN CHURCH AFTER MASS IS OVER IN THE BATHROOM!

CPS.: ....

CBS: that's why they call you a HYPOCRITE- *GETS A PAN IN THE FULL FACE* AAAHAHAHAAAAAHAHHAHAAHAHHGAGAGAHAAGAHHQ SOORRY, SORRY MATE!

END :)

[writemywaytoyourheart]

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-chip

[nimmenstjer]

Hallo!

Quick question for you! I’m slowly learning Dutch and I wanted to ask if you have any advice for a beginner.

I’m a bit ashamed to ask but I really want to improve and I figured that asking to someone who is Dutch might be helpful.

Also probably by the end of the year I’ll be able to visit a friend that is moving near Utrecht. Do you think I should try to interact a bit in Dutch or people will get upset if I can’t pronounce/catch the answer very well? (I’m autistic and sometimes I have some issues in elaborating what I hear even in my own language)

I hope I haven’t annoyed you too much with my questions

I think the best kind of advice would be from someone who is also learning dutch, since they would run into the same difficulties.

The one thing I can think of is figure out how vowels sound so you can get the pronounciation more easily when reading something, wich is pretty consistent in dutch, so that might be helpful.

A thing you might at first have trouble with spelling 's ochtends, 's avonds, and suchlike, but that's the same rules as how "you're" is short for "you are", it's just that "des" is an old fashioned version of "de", and basically only survives in contractions like that.

Something you might run into is also the difference between "de" and "het". Both of them are basically "the", with "het" ocasionally leaning towards "it", but in casual use, getting it wrong a couple of times isn't a disaster or anything. Pretty sure this one is mostly an experience thing, so don't sweat it too much.

A lot of compound words have a connecting "e" such as pancake being pronounced "Pannekoek" but spelled "Pannenkoek". This is because in casual word use we went the opposite way of the Germans, and rather than not always pronouncing the "e" en words that end in "-en", the dutch don't always pronounce the "n". As such, at the time this spelling rule was established, it was assumed to be lazy/casual language usage, and the "correct" spelling had an "n" put in, despite the fact that the "e" in a lot of compound words is more of an ease-of-pronounciation add-on than anything else.

I don't think anyone would be upset, your biggest issue with trying to talk in dutch will be that a lot of people know a decent amount of english and will switch to that mid conversation once they figure out that's the language you're better in.

Hey, fellow autistic! Anyway, you have the perfect excuse built in right there! Not that you really need an excuse, but "Oh, I didn't quite catch that, could you repeat that?" and similar is a pretty useful response in those cases, and if you're surrounded by people with varying levels of accent or you straight up don't know the entire language, it's even more effective.

What I remember from school, in grammar, the trickiest bit was figuring out wether a verb ended in a d or a t or a dt, which I basically always just always did by comparing it to "Ik loop, jij loopt, wij lopen, ik heb gelopen/I walk, you walk, we walk, we have walked" rather than figure out what kofschip/fokschaap stands for (some grammar trick about letters I never bothered to figure out, as my method worked most of the time)

A fun fact: There is something called "steenkolen engels", literally "coal english", wich is basically what happens when english speaking crews have to work together with dutch speaking harbour workers, and they figure out that if you pronounce things with the other guys accent and add some of the words you do know, you can mostly figure things out together. So it's basically dutch with an english accent and some english words.

second fun fact: if you ever become fluent in dutch, as an english speaking person, your accent has a chance of sounding frisian, even if you don't speak frisian at all. This is because frisian and english are closely related.

third fun fact: You are not annoying. People who try to learn and improve in anything are a delight. You are, therefore, a delight.

A joke (paarden is dutch for horses. Fokken is dutch for breeding a type of animal) A guy was at a party talking to an englishman when he was asked what he did for a living. "Oh, I fok horses." "Pardon?" "Yes, paarden."

[cottoncandiescupcakes]

Ed: I would jump overboard to save this parakeet before I give three fucks about anything Izzy says, at this point

Karl: Squawk

Ed: I literally care more about this random potato I found on the floor than Izzy

The Swede: I am? Not a potato? :)

Ed: I love everyone. Everyone on Stede's ship matters to me

Izzy: Really boss?

Ed: Yeah but not you.

Izzy: Oh. :(

Izzy: What about my years of loyalty and dedication? You care more about this... fop and his crew of idots?

Ed: Listen, Stede Bonnet has the best legs I have ever seen on a man. He has marmalade. He has TWO chandeliers!

Izzy: Who the fok even cares about that stuff??

Ed: I DO. I care. I care so much. /Sobs/

[kominfyrirkattarnef]

er fokking hjola auglysing fra vordur.is literally nanast það eina a dashinu þinu eða just me

BRO!!!! HÚN ER SVO STÓR WHAT THE HELL IS THIS

[weirdingone]

Saw the way of water and... It was aight

I don't think James Cameron has learned much about decolonisation since the last movie.

I've seen people trying to defend this movie by saying it's not real and "why do y'all have to make everything a race thinkpiece"... Meanwhile, these movies have real world mirrors and are literally underpinned by the link between social justice and environmental justice.

It reminds me of Cloud Atlas. Wanting to talk about racial oppression but too arrogant to actually educate itself on the nuances of racism and colonisation. For example, in the first Avatar, Grace opens a school to teach the Na'Vi English. In the real world, such schools were tools of colonisation along with missionaries. This is a grey area that Cameron is either unaware of or willfully skipped over. Not great either way.

There's also a pervasive implication that indigenous people simply had to fight harder and they wouldn't have been colonised along with the implication that having a white leader would have been their greatest asset. If only there was a benevolent white man to lead the primitives to victory.

I'm not saying that James Cameron is, like, a bad person. I'm certain that his heart is in the right place and you can see that he cares very deeply about these things. I just think that he needs to educate himself further before he starts to do more harm than good. The road to hell and all that. I don't think it helps anyone to keep making these self proclaimed anti racist movies that still centre whiteness and do nothing but assure white audiences through cartoonish portrayals of villainy that they would never do anything like that.

The movie itself is okay. If you liked the first one then you'll probably like this one. It's a lot of the same stuff. Also goodness me, this movie is LONG. Jirre fok

Anyway

Grappling with ideas is good. Negotiated readings of art are good. You might disagree with me on this movie and that's fine. I'm not trying to start discourse, just sharing my thoughts. Go argue elsewhere if that's what you fancy. You will find no sparring partner here.

I am curious though how indigenous people, particularly any Pacific islander friends felt about this movie. No wrong answers :)

[blissfali]

sharing house md x c!crime stuff. idk how much ive said before but idc just pretend youve never heard it ever. i truly think House, hearing that tommy and wil have both died and come back, have seen the other side, wouldnt be as interested as he leads on to be. As much as he strives for answers, he also LOVES the questions, and having such an easy answer at his hands well. I think he’d inherently be curious but i dont think he would be desperate for details. and i also think that fact would drive ctommy NUTSSS. flipflop reversal youknow. Also athiest House vs Prime believer tommy gogo

House: The hell are you doing? in MY OFFICE

Tommy, praying in front of a hunk of log in the center of the diagnostic conference room: do you mind. im literally talking to god

House: does god have boobs and/or a good time. if so im interested

Tommy, seconds from beating him with a bat: dont fuckin say that Thats so disprespectful what the fok. Youre literally going to hell for this <-(lying)

[kintsukuroi-babes]

I’m off my meds. I just felt like god absolutely on top of the world like my brain was going to explode from the amount of euphoria for a good 6 hours, ans now I want to destroy everything and want to fucking di3. Just waiting for my seroquil I geuss but that doesn’t even help anymore like it’s supposed to. I wanna self harm but I won’t because what is everyone going to say. They will think I’m fuckig stupid and “why did you do that”. Fuck you. You don’t live it you have no idea. I knew a crash was coming and this is it I just have to be strong and not act on anything even tho I want to so badly. But it’s always for everyone else. Everything I do is always for someone else not myself. I had no idea my life was going to be this way, I had no idea the responsibilities this life came w. Can’t just be in the idgaf mindset anymore because I’m not alone anymore. “How to be a responsible adult when you feel like your age regressing”. Fucking idiot friend of mine who has no business triggereing me f triggered me and now I’m angry upset and want to burn everything down. Fuck off jason litterly fuk you don’t get mad at me what did I do. U accidentally took my silliness as being rude fuk off that’s not my issue but u triggered me into being angry so fuk u. I’m too nice to say that but literally that’s it. Do not disturb mode on. 4:20 am I feel so alone. I need to go to bed come on Polly pill let’s go get to it. I smoked all my dads smokes it’s all ur fault. Fok u I am mad u ruined my night by your stupid ass attitude.

[forestshadow-wolf]

Uh okay so turns out I'm a little less normal about this 2 minute post than I thought so... *whoops I slipped* oh nooo... some of my angst......👀

Whatever it is that's made him angry, it's bad. Super astronomically, ruin your life for months, bad. Usually he's so good at curbing the red and purple violence, but not this time. He actively forces himself to freeze. Hands clenching and uncleanching. Lungs crushingly heavy with rage. Jaw locked up tight against the onslaught of anger bubbling up. He storms off to god knows where.

Ghost is only notified hours later. He's not sure how long it's been, but he can only hope the answer is long enough because he really doesn't want to deal with the fallout of having someone accidentally thrown at his head again. It's hard enough keeping soap near proximity as it is, much less when he soap's starts pulling away more. Last time it happened it was a month before soap would allow himself in the same room as simon for more than 5 minutes without supervision. To be quite honest, ghost is so sure that it's because he terrifies himself, and he thinks that if it terrifies him the it must terrify Ghost as well. He's so afraid of becoming something from Ghost's past, he won't, Ghost knows it, now if he could only convince soap of it.

When he finds soap, he's in the gym, dripping exertion, beating the life out of one of the punching bags with bleeding fists. And he shows no signs of slowing. He doesn't even react to the glass gym door slamming closed behind ghost, like he hadn't even heard it. He doesn't respond to his name nor his rank. He just keeps on going. And going. And going.

It's only when ghost takes the gamble to wrap himself around soap from behind, clamping his arms over top of soap's. Less to restrain him, and more to avoid injury from an elbow that surely would have flown.

Ghost notes off the stages. First it's the flash of the eyes, and soap locks up. Then he disappeared, where to? He's still puzzling that one together. Next it's the running. Literal running for what must equate to miles and miles. Followed by whatever you call... this. Ghost doesn't like this step, it hurst to see soaps work himself into and well past over exertion, but he doesn't know how to stop it. It's the screaming and shoving now. And ghost thinks this is the worst part of it all. They say it gets worse before it gets better, and it is horrible.

"GER AFFA ME! DON' FOKIN TOUCH ME!" And he's shoving back with his shoulders and pulling forward with his legs, trying to slip from ghost's grasp. Ghost hugs him tighter, soap's elbow slam backwards. It knocks the breath out of him, but still he holds on. "GET TE FUK OFFA ME! I'LL FOKIN'- I SWEAR TO- GHOST GET TA FOK AFFA ME!" And ghost can only hang on and bury his face into the crook of his neck as he continues shoving and shouting.

He lets soap wear himself out, but he doesn't go down without a fight. No, absolutely not. It wouldn't be soap otherwise. No because as soon as ghost deems him calm enough to loosen his hold, he's off again.

This time fueled less by anger, and more by whatever follows... disappointment? Regret? More anger? Disgust? Contempt? Dread? Revolt? Panic? Motrification?

It doesn't matter because whatever it is won't let soap just stop. It won't let go

He already on his feet and halfway to the cleaners' closet Before ghost can even get to his own feet.

There's blood in the entire vicinity. On the equipment, on the floor, in their clothes where they dropped down into it. There's a smudged trail from ghost to the cleaning closet from where soap presumably stepped in it and smeared it actually the floor.

Soap's shaking. Very clearly shaking. From exertion and energy. Soap sets to work. He's got blood running the length of his forearm. His knuckles are split, and the edges are peeling back with tension, and they're still bleeding, it hurts. Ghost knows it hurts. And the clorox chemicals won't help with that. Blood drips onto the floor from his fists as he wipes at the stains, it only seems to spur more agitation, and soap wipes at the red again.

Soap won't stop until He's done. He never does. Never leaves a job half finished. Ghost sets himself to work too, it'll speed up the process. Maybe it's not as bad as he thought, maybe soap will have tired himself out by the time they're done, enough to let ghost coax them back to their room so he can crash.

Ghost's hopes were in vain. Next thing he knew he was chasing soap out to the track, past that, into the dense trees on the south side of the base. To be honest he should have prepared better, he knew soap was a flight risk.. again. He doesn't understand how soap hadn't collapsed yet. He was literally shaking with exhaustion, and yet he kept pushing himself. And at this point ghost isn't sure if it was better to let him get it out now, or to stop it and have to watch soap spiral for the coming days. Maybe this is the lesser of two evils, at least he can be there to catch him when he's funally burnt himself to a char. If he stops him now, he knows he'll have to watch as soap shuts off his emotions to avoid the anger until it dissolves, and he won't be back to any semblance of himself for weeks following. But damn if he doesn't hate this.

It's a while before soap properly tires himself out, panting, collapsed against a tree stump. Looking down, more than likely berrating himself (if ghost has learned anything about the man). He watches soap shove himself up, only for his legs to give beneath him. Ghost catches him before he can crash to the ground.

He remembers the first time this happened, ghost hadn't been able to find soap at all after he'd disappeared the first time. He remembers watching soap all but drag himself back to their room, limping, and disheveled, and so so broken.

Soap shakes in his arms as he hauls them back to their room. From exertion or more anger, ghost doesn't know.

He finds out soon enough when he's tending to soap's split knuckles, and the scot is squeezing his mad in a death grip as ghost wipes away blood. Anger it is then. Ghost doesn't flinch from it. Only continues his ministratons. He works in silence. Soap won't talk, he knows that, and ghost won't pry.

He's finished quickly, leaving the mess to deal with later, he herds them to the bed laying soap down, and then himself ontop of him. It helps, he thinks. The compression. It seems to anyway.

Soap's still visibly angry they next day as well, but theres a carefully crafted lid capped on it, so the only thing to worry about is the fire in his gaze burning some poor sod.

Still gjost doesn't ask about it, and soap doesn't offer. He'll likely never know, only that soap took a week of leave to "take care of business", and he's fine with that.

Soap comes back still angry, but in a mellow simmering kind. It doesn't consume him, soap seems to breathe just a little easier.

Yeah idk how to end this...

Soap who hates his anger issues so he tries to tamp them down, but that just causes them to explode out at a later time. Which in turn makes him angrier because why can't he just be more docile. Why does he have to be so violent ALL THE DAMN TIME.

[nihanaeea]

the concept of family dinners is genuinely strange to me we have literally never done not even when i was younger it was always take a plate if mother or sister made anything or finish making if it was fend for yourself and take it somewhere to eat. i used to eat just in my bedroom. or outside. i still eat in my bedroom. its the only like place i feel comfortable eating beacuse it feels like nobody can see commit the sin of eating you know. Ive never liek embarrassed myself like i hwatched tv i knew of the concept of it i jsut never pushed for it at home because what a shitshow and like i knew in theory what to do when i went over to a friends which was well enough. i actually have just godawful table manners. examples

-i know Of the rules dont put your elbows on the table the placement of foks and knives because i took etiquette classes for a while but never put it into practice because everyone laughs it off and says "oh thats old traditional things we dont do" and im like shit ok

-i cant use a knife. The irony is fucking outsanding i know but i literally cannot like cut meat with ti i cant use a fork and knife at the same time. In a formal setting i can manage but i just use the side of my fork 99% of the time. or a spoon. I always opt for a fork. I eat tomato soup with a fork not a spoon.

-i chew from only one side of my mouth, and only drink from one side too. Whenever i drink i swig the bottle to the left side of my mouth. i used to get yelled at it when i was a kid. Dentists always go "what the fuck" when they see my teeth because one side is so much more Used then the other.

-i barely know how to use a napkin.

-i dont eat with my hands i eat with my mouth. i just bring the plate up and chomp. i dont like getting my hands dirty so i opt for my face.