#well i would say that. but i didnt. so whats going on here

[k-aemi]

itoshi rin ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ see me for me.

smut, choking, lost of virginity(both), unprotected sex

for the longest time youve been friends with the itoshi brothers. you guys were inseparable, always doing everything with each other! theyd teach you football tricks, but you did suck, youre no where close to them at all! youre the same age as sae, so rin was younger than you.

youve never even realized it but the more time you spent with them, the more you realize your feelings. your feelings for sae. just the way he makes your heart fluttered when he would ask why you looked so nervous, feeling your headache to see if you were ok.

the way he always makes you laugh with his sarcastic comments. the way hed tease you for being bad at football. all of these contributed to your feelings for him, but youre not so sure about his feelings for you.

rin was too young to understand these complicated feelings. he felt as if his heart would explode when he was close to you. his face always burned and he could never keep a cool facade with you around. he thought you placed a cursed on him!

the day when sae left for spain, pained you. youd miss him so much! you wanted to tell him how you felt first. but how? youre not so sure. you feel like youd regret it so much if you didnt. but youre scared of rejection. maybe when he gets back, youd be sure to tell him.

you and rin held hands as you went to see sae fly off, you hugged him, wishing him the best over there. saying your goodbyes, you face his back now, as he walked away. the feeling in your chest ached.

“s-sae!” you yelled out. he could only turn around, facing you with confusion. you hesitated to say the words you wanted to say. cmon, just tell him you love him! stop being so scared!

“hm?” he settled down his suitcase. you stood there dumbfounded, you called out to him, you might as well say it right..? but what if he rejects you? it wouldnt be worth it.

“i…i hope you land safe.” you give him a weak smile and he returned it.

“yeah, i will. thanks [name.]” before picking his suitcase up again to walk away.

fuck. you cant. maybe some other time. another time where youre sure youll confess. and just hope for the best.

for the remaining time its just you and rin now. still spending time together like how all three of you guys would. you missed sae so much, your sure rin did too.

even as time passed by you can never get sae off your mind. with every body passing by, youd reject them, because your eyes only set on sae. hes gotten so well known too! you see him on tv sometimes and it makes you happy.

but rin knew you liked sae. it’s so obvious, the way you talk so positively about him. saying hes the best. he was jealous. he wanted you to see him. hes not the best for no reason too right? maybe youll take the chance to recognize his achievements.

learning about saes return, you cant help but contain your excitement. youd immediately enter the itoshis residence, to see sae. hes grown so tall! but he still looks the same as ever. though his eyes do seem to be a bit empty.

“sae! oh my god!” you go up to hug him. you missed him so much after a whooping four years. “its been so long!” you flashed a smile at him.

“sure has.” he keeps a stoic face. hm, that was interesting? it was a bit weird to see him like this, not like he hasnt but you thought hed at least be happy to see you too.

you guys decided to take a walk on the seaside. its night, and the stars are shining bright. the moon light reflects on the water. you walk bare feet, feeling the soft sand as sae walks besides you.

“it feels like back in the days where we walked here and talk about anything!” you giggled. looking at sae, keeping his eyes forward. it looks like the conversation wasnt going anywhere and you frown.

maybe you should tell him..? that would spark up something at least, well you hope. you inhale a sharp breath, exhaling out before stopping in your place, grabbing hold of the hem of his sweater.

“sae.” he turned his attention on you. before fully turning around facing your figure.

you let out a sigh and build up the courage to tell him.

“i like you sae…ive always have! and…” sae could only stop you there. gently lifting your hands off him. he looked conflicted of some sort as you set your gaze on him.

“i’m engaged [name].” and that shattered your heart. what? engage? you just heard wrong right? maybe hes just kidding with you.

“i was going to ask if you wanted to come to our wedding.” he rests his hands in his pocket. you can only shift your gaze away from him, looking down to see your feet sink down to the sand.

how could you possibly go to his wedding, seeing another woman marry the boy you liked ever since? you knew it. you were going to regret it. now look what it has become. youre so stupid.

“o-of course sae. im so happy for you.” your voice starts to break. you dont even realize it at first, but globs of tears fall down to the sand. sae only pats your head in comfort. the air was only filled of your sniffling and cries, followed by the tide waves.

“ill be going back soon. i only came to renew my passport.” he retreats his hands. its so embarrassing for him to see you so vulnerable. but can you blame yourself? actually. yes you can. its your fault you didnt confess so soon. now hes in love with some other woman. that was supposed to be you!

“get home safe.” he whispered out to you before walking away. probably to the airport or whatever, not like you care right now. your heart was broken. after all those years of being so loyal to sae, it was just for him to end up with another woman.

you take yourself back…your mind still stuck on the events that had happened. those words sank inside your head like a ship. engaged. that should of been you. married to sae, start a family with him and live old and die together. all of that wasnt possible now.

walking up the stairs from the seaside, you bump into someone unexpected. you let out a yelp before the person catches you.

“[name]? why are you still here?” it was rin. he balances you up and observing closely he can see the tears that drip down your cheeks. he cups your cheeks, wiping the tears with his thumb, leaning down to your level showing a face of concern.

“why are you crying?” he coos you and all you can do is hug him, crying uncontrollably. hes not sure what to do but hold you close. your tears smearing on his jacket but he doesnt mind, hed very much worry about comforting you right now.

he lifts your head up to face his him, tucking a strand of hair behind your hair. he stares at your teary eyes, patting your head as a sense of comfort. you never really thought of it much, but rin really did look a lot like sae.

your hand trails to his jawline, tracing random patterns before caressing his cheek softly. “you look just like him.” you whispered out followed by a hiccup. were you talking about sae, rin wondered. he can see the way you look at his lips, slowly leaning in. but he doesnt back out.

your lips connect with his. kissing him with such passion. this is what you wanted to do with sae. you wanted to give him your first kiss. but this will do, rin…hes so much like him.

rin reciprocates the kiss back, taking hold of your back, indulging himself with your soft lips. he could smell the cocoa chapstick you always applied on yourself, it smelled so sweet, but your touch was much more addictive. the way your tongue explored his mouth felt so good. hes always wanted this, he wondered what your lips would of felt like on his.

but it was so sudden, something definitely happened between you and sae. he leaned back from the kiss and youre left disappointed from the lost of contact. youre met with his teal eyes with his conflicted look.

“what happened [name]..? why did you..” you didnt want to remember. you hated it. those words that still swirl inside your mind. its like a nightmare you can never escape from. tears perked from the corners of your eyes again.

“sae…hes engaged and i…i was stupid enough to think hed would of waited for me.” you cried on his chest. is this what it was all about? sae? is that why you kissed him? because he resembles him..? his arm hesitates to hug you, did you only see sae in him, not because he was rin?

but he doesnt know what to do. he always wanted you. he yearned for this so much he cant just let the opportunity to go away right? youre in his arms right now. if this was the closest hell get you to, hell do it. just for you.

“s’okay im here…shh.” he embraced you. kissing the top of your head as he rubbed your back. soothing your crying self.

all of the sudden hes settled in between your legs, all bare. your naked figure was so beautiful. he loved everything about you, even if you did think you had so much flaws.

rin looks like him so much, its basically the same thing you supposed. just not the real deal, but itll do for saes place.

“im g’na put it in okay..?” he rubs his cock head on your clit and you whine, motioning your hips in a circular motion. you nod giving him that access he so longed for.

just barely putting it in, he hisses, it feels so good. this new sensation of pleasure. it felt way better than when hed fist himself to the thought of fucking your tight cunt. he lets out ragged breath, turning his attention to your face only to see you cry from the pleasure.

“does it hurt..?” he rubs your sides, you only let out gasps. youre glad hes being gentle right now because it hurts, you wanted your first to be sae, but its fine. its not like his would be you.

you nod. “its okay…just keep going.” you hands wrap around his neck for leverage, signaling you were fine for him to move. he exhales a breath before moving and oh my god did it felt good for him. the way you warm walls would tighten up when he entered back in made him feel like he was gonna come already.

rin could only take in the moans you let out. its so erotic, hearing you moan out because he was making you feel his cock. his big cock.

a night you two had, rin couldnt believe you let him take your first. and you took his. but he knew why, because he resembles his brother, sae. but if it made you feel better hed give in into your delusions, even if he did wanted you to see him as rin.

the day of the wedding, it was a big one indeed. very expensive looking. you know you should be happy for sae, but really, seeing someone you loved for a long time to marry someone else? that truly was heart breaking.

the toast starts, and never in your whole life have you seen sae so happy before. his eyes lit when he speaks so positively of his now wife. watching from afar as you see sae closing in the gap with his wife to kiss her with a chuckle. rin takes note of your obvious frustration and he can only feel so bad.

too hard to watch, you leave the room. not like anyone would care to notice since it was loud after. but rin would. his eyes were always on you. following after you.

your heels echoes thru the hall as you scurry off to the exit. still devastated from what had just happened. theres no way you can just stay there, seeing the newly wed couple, which was the person you loved so dearly.

"[name]!" rin follows behind as you exit out. hes met with your weeping state, your cries filling in the air of silence. rin can only sigh before walking up to you, rubbing your back. "wanna go?" he asks with a soft tone.

rin takes you home, ensuring you would be safe. walking you to your apartment, but tonight you just wanted to get your head off from everything today. grabbing the hem of rins suit, which makes him halt his movement.

"can you stay...for the night." how could rin refuse? he would give up anything to stay with you (maybe not football.) he knows what you want when you say things like that, and he wont miss that opportunity.

moans and smell of sweat fill the room with the pounding of rins rough thrusts. shit you look so good right now, well you always do. youre so perfect in his eyes.

grabbing hold of your jaw, kissing you while his tongue explores your mouth, the taste is sweet. rin manhandles you so well, putting you into a mating press makes him reach deeper. its like you can feel it in your womb. its so good. too good.

but of course, in your eyes, hell always remind you of sae.

"s-sae...fuck..!" your hand clawed his back and he hisses. it pains him that you still see him as sae. hes sick of it. why cant you finally open your eyes and see that he wants you to see him for who he is. that he loves you.

clicking his tongue in annoyance, he props himself up, his hand trailing to your neck, tightening his grip on you. you can only choke from the lack of oxygen you were getting. it hurts, but not too much.

"fucking sick of you calling. me. sae." he punctuated each words with his thrusts and it makes you scream. your hands grip his wrist, but he doesnt budge. only fastening his pace, letting out ragged breaths.

you cant lie, the way his hair sticks to his forehead was so hot, sweat dripping from his chin.

"call out my name. say rin." you can only let out hiccups. his hands were so big. one hand already covered your whole neck. and with his second one just applied more pressure. it was like a good kind of pain. you didnt hate it.

"r-rin....fuck rin...please make me cum." how could he refuse your request? that was the first youve ever called out is name while you guys had sex. he swears he can hear you calling out his name forever and he wouldnt get tired of it. he loved hearing your voice moaning out his name.

"goddamn it [name]. i fucking love you, ill treat you better than sae. better than anyone." he growled, releasing his grip on your neck, leaning down to bite down on the flesh. it stings, but so good.

his thrusts becomes sloppy, and he grits his teeth. the way your gummy walls clench his dick, he knows youre about to come. and he is too.

"say you love me." he props himself with his hand, focusing his attention on your face, eyeing your fucked out face. god you look so hot like this. "please." his face looks so pleading and it stirs something inside of you. it was like the first time youve seen him like this. but too into the moment, you give in.

"i love you. rin." flashing a weak smile at him, before he reaches his high, with one final thrust, he paints your walls white and the feeling of is cum filling you up is enough to make you orgasm. he rests his hands on your knees, catching up with his breath, seeing the way his cum spill from your cunt.

plopping himself to the side of the bed, giving your forehead a kiss.

"i love you too."

so sorry i will try to post three today! very busyyy so wrote this very quick so u guys think i am not dead. i hope it does not look too choppy! i will work on request :D

[emoboybrony]

Ill admit ive never been that into laurence (any his variations really) but something has been really bothering me since rewatching parts of MCD.

What really caught my attention about MCD Laurence is that he starts out as this well adjusted, loyal knightly and charming guy- and then after he becomes a shadow knight you just see this slow decay of him. Like hes slowly losing parts of himself and its causing him to become more and more unstable to the point where by the end of season 2 hes honestly kind of terrfying.

And ALOT of that is reflected with how his relationship with aphmau starts to shift. He goes from this sweet, suave and honestly pretty silly personality, to being so obsessive and vindictive towards her.

Theres this one scene, at the end of ep 95 S2, where aphmau has just essentially seen a ghostly image of aaron and is really shaken up by it. Laurence comes to sit with her and ask her about it. And at first, it genuinely seems like hes just trying to get her to open up so he can support her. But then it quickly spirals into him demanding to know why she cares about aaron so much and why shes greiving so hard for him, like its a problem. He becomes so aggressive and condensending to the point where Garroth has to intervene and he walks off.

In this moment you see how far hes really fallen, he goes from semingly reasuring and gentle, and by the end of it hes disrepecting a dead man, who gave his life to save both his brother and supposed love of his life, who he travelled and fought along side with for months, who close to the end of his life was taking care of an orphan (something he comlimented in aphmau), and hes thowing all of that out the window because hes taken Aphmau's attention, due to the fact he fucking died.

After that happens, aphmau has a conversation woth vlyad where he basically tells her that laurence has to accept what he is and go to the nether or else hes gonna go insane, and that the only reason he came back is because hes "chasing a fantasy". Aphmau responds by suggesting they get cadenza over so that he can be with family, and vlyad says she can do what she wants but implies its pretty much inevitable that laurence is going to hit a breaking point. And hes completely right.

Before laurence even gets to speak to cadenza, he eavesdrops on the conversation where aphamu reveals shes pregnant, and just immediately peaces out, out of fear that hes going to MURDER HER.

Not to mention that in that conversation, cadenza herself tells aphmau not to tell laurence because shes scared of how he would react. He has gotten so unstable that his own sister, who loves him more than anything, can recognise that he is a danger to some degree and shes RIGHT.

All this paints a stark contrast, the laurence we first met vs the man he has now become. Its tragic because its this inevitable downfall brought on by an act that was completely selfless, him sacrificing himself that got him turned into a shadow knight in the first place.

Even this is eventually tainted, his selfless act becomes a selfish one as he seems to cling to aphmau's love and affection as an emotional crutch. Aphmau obviously loves and cares for him deeply, but not in an explicitly romantic/sexual way. And if she doesnt love him the way he wants, then why is he suffering through this? Why did he bother to sacrafice himself at all if theres no reward? Its honestly horrifying how pretty much everyone who loved and respected him, makes what should be incredibly out of place predictions on him, but they always end up being right except for aphmau. She cant accept that hes changing and theres nothing she or anyone else can do change that. Its gut wrenching.

This all lead me to beileve that i didnt give enough credit to his character. I love this. This is the type off tragic story telling im here for. Theres so much more to this character than i ever expected.

Heres the thing.

Why the fuck do laurence's biggest fans seem to just completely disregard this? If you believed a good portion of the fandom, laurence is just this sauve uwu sad boy who was unfairly rejected and ignored by a woman who demamded the world from him.

Im dead serious, i saw people saying that laurence "deserved better than aphmau", that he deserved someone who recognised the sacrafice he made. Which like- there is so much to unpack there.

First of all, aphmau did recognise his sacrafice, she did love him and try to support him in the best way she could, even when literally everyone around her was saying it was a lost cause. She did everything she could for that man and forgave so much of what he did while struggling with the calling and she got nothing but shit for it.

Second of all, no the fuck he doesnt?? As illustrated in the examples above he did not respect Aphmau's boundaries. He did not respect her feelings. And by the end, he didnt even respect her bodily autonomy. Lets be honest here, he basically abandoned everyone he apprantly "loved", because bro tapped it before he could. She loved him so much, but because he wanted something she wasnt willing or able to provide, that being explicitly romantic and sexual attention, he just didnt see it. To try and argue that hes the real victim here, is in the same vain of "nice guys finish last". Him being kind, compassionate and selfless- shouldnt be reliant on whether or not this woman will fuck him or not. That is an insanely misogynistic way of thinking.

But most important to me in the context of this analysis- what is there to like about laurence with this interpretation? What possibly sets him apart from the gazillion other brunette pretty anime bois? Am i to gay for this? Is there something im not seeing?

I understand fanon can wildly divert from canon, and i understand that alot of this is probably down to the fact that i find dissecting and critiquing canon more intresting than reinventing it through fanon. Im locked into the Baldurs gate 3 fandom and i had the same experience there (laurence fangirls got NOTHING on Astarion girlies). But both experiences have left me with the same question- what draws you to a character, when all you do is boil them down to their most generic aspects?

I find Laurence intresting cause we are seeing this man crash out and become a monster in real time. And i dont see how he is worth even an honourable mention, when you take that away.

What is there left to be compelled to?

[femmeftal]

‧˚⭒ 2 OF HEARTS . ⊹

pairings ⊹ : allen x alien!reader

summary ⊹ : allen and his gf stroll around the Coalition when he finally gets a break.

“ you’re finally off for a day? wow surprising “ the sarcasm in your voice was extremely obvious, humoring allen you smiled at him. putting your hand on his shoulder and tilting you head “ so what do we do today big guy? “ you were curious on what he even does when he is not working.

“ well first we could stop with the sarcasm “ frowning, allen crossed his arms puffing his chest out as if someone offended him.

“ oh cmon bro! it was just a lil sacrasm.. “ the look of defeat was worn on your face now, you barely said anything to him and he was already getting all defensive! raising one of your eyebrows he knew he has done worse than what you just did, whatever you thought.

“ ugh.. allen don’t be like that “ As you rubbed allens back, he was behaving like a petulant child recieving an eye roll from you. With a sigh, you plopped down in front of him, your expression a mix of amusement and exasperation. the sun casting through the window, casting a warm glow in the shared house.

“ well we could try out the new restaurant that had just opened! “ you looked up at him smirking, finally he stopped with his little tantrum of being offended.

“ and dont call it new if you already went there allen.. thats messed up “ you said getting up and walking over to the collection of purses he gave you from his planet journeys.

“ what?! thats something only douchebags would do , unless youre trying to say something.. “ the bass in his voice rose up like he was hinting you were calling him a douce

“ allenn baby.. you know i would never call my sweet lil ol helper a douche.. “ using a baby voice you caressed his face rubbing the fat of his cheeks and giggling.

“ stop that woman! “ softly smacking your hand away from his face, you know how much babying him would get him going. he always said the way you used that baby voice made him feel like he was a doggy.

“ mhmm fine m sorry baby, you forgive me? “ looking up at him the height difference was lethal, you’d always have to get on your tippie toes to actually peck him on the lips “ now lets go so we can eat.. im sooo hungry “

“ me too babe, lets go! “ allen picked you up by your waist twirling you around, both of you giggling scrunching your face up from laughing, “ allen stop! we should be going to the restaurant not playing! “

minutes later you and allen arrived to the restaurant being welcomed to fairy lights and decorated tables with white cloth, it looked like a beautiful cabin in the woods

“ oh allen this is soo beautiful! “ you said having one of your arms wrapped around his, the bright lights shining in your eyes as you smiled freely “ just like you hun “ snickering from his comment you pinched him.

“ oh stop.. dont get me all riled up here “ you said rubbing your slightly reddened cheek the makeup on your face making your features pop out so much, you looked truly divine especially in these lights.

“ lets book a table shall we? “ he said walking you both over to the desks where there was two waiters waiting to take your guys requests, talking with them you finally got to get a table, both of you sitting down in front of you were menus “ these prices are so cheap! i hope the food actually taste good “ he smiled behind the menu snickering

“ allen whats so funny?! i didnt even say anything “ his snickering continued, making you stare at him like he was a maniac “ allen.. “ you said frustrated.

“ this is for you sweetness “ sliding a box over to you, your eyebrows frowned “ is this what i think this is?.. “ you said quivering hands reaching the small soft box, biting your bottom lip slightly you looked at him

“ allen this better not be what i think this is “ you said sniffling, and opening the box open. seeing the small shiny ring that looked like it was perfectly for your fingers “… “

“ oh allen! “ you squealed jumping over the table and hugging his frame, rubbing you head into his neck you’d sniffle even more. people giving weird stares at you both, allen was also smiling trying to pry your tight hug off of him. “ im finally married! “ you squealed out getting tons of claps and applauds from random bystanders

[midnight--sadness]

I love the idea of the Masked Officer also wanting a piece of player 456, but In-ho is so possessive he only wants Gi-hun to cum from him.

After the rebellion, In-ho tries to break Gi-hun by doing things like strapping a wand vibrator to his thigh and letting it tease his clit for hours. He especially likes to do this and leave to do his Frontman duties.

One day the Officer walks by the room and hears the moans and whimpers. When he steps inside, he’s both taken back by his boss’s perverted cruelty but also extremely aroused. He knows it’s risky but he ends up taking away the vibrator and fucking the fallen hero himself.

Even better if Gi-hun was left blindfolded and gagged so he assumes the man fucking him is just In-ho giving him the silent treatment. The officer cleans gihun up and puts the toy back to try and cover his tracks. He almost gets away with it until the real In-ho returns and Gi-hun says something like “Can you at least try and be gentle tonight? I’m still sore from this afternoon.”

THIS IS AMAZING OMGGGG 🙏🙏🙏😩😩😩

gihun and the masked officer is such a guilty pleasure of mine.... and now u send me this three course feast 🤧🫶

inho would go insane for sure!! he'd be looking at the security cameras, trying to figure out who did it and then discovering that it was his loyal second in command. i think he'd feel just a tiny bit betrayed bc it never crossed his mind that anyone would see gihun the way inho did. he never anticipated for gihun to "entice" anyone else, let alone the officer (of course, gihun isn't at fault here but i think inho wouldn't rationalize the situation very well).

now, what would the punishment be? we all know he'd edge gihun until he was crying, leaving him on the brink of an orgasm until he felt like he was passing out 🥴

but the masked officer; would he be killed? would inho bring him into the room and fuck gihun in front of him, showing him what he will never have again, before shooting him in the head? would inho play some fucked up reverse psychology and tell the officer to fuck gihun but when he tries to, inho kills him?

and poor gihun, he'd feel so betrayed and disgusted that it wasn't inho who had him after all. it was another man, someone he didnt consent to.... or maybe inho never tells him what happened and kill the masked officer discreetly.

[crayfee07]

OKAY YALL here are my theories on Logan and Aidens backstory (which does delve into some Clark Family theory stuff and some things about Aidens mental state)

I originally posted most of this on the discord but then thought yall on tumblr would eat this UP so here you go! Would love to hear yoru guys' thoughts/feedback!

(quick TW for talk of suicidal thoughts)

With Logan, we know his family is involved with the mafia and that he now lives with his grandparents (personally I think they're his maternal grandparents, so mothers parents, just because I feel it's more likely).

Now firstly, since the grandparents were able to get the mafia to attack the facility to help get them out and (presumably) provide pain killers for Tyler, we can ASSUME theyre pretty high ranking and still have some contacts which are willing to help. This could mean they're still on good terms, that Logans family knows something that could be detrimental if the facility goverment people find out/is holding information could be used against them, or it could be nothing personal and just like an honor/obligation thing (in a 'you used to work with us now we help you' kind of way) We also know Logan had experience with a gun, enough so that he was about to hit a moving target (Jasmine) in three critical spots.

You know those targets you see in movies which are like a cardboard cut out of a human body? There's usually targets on it and where he hit looks like the places those targets would be, also the order he did it was very strategic. Now, we also know in the Phantom realm he was nervous when trying to hit the Phantom attacking Ash. We also know that Red has out empthasis on him not wanting to take a human life.

Maybe this is because in the past he miss fired and maybe hit someone on his team, like a parent, family friend or uncle/aunt however since they still seem to be on good (or at least neutral) terms with the mafia i don't know.

Or maybe he didn't take a shot in the past because he was afraid of killing someone. He hesitated and that person died regardless. This is the scene that gave me that idea:

If you can't already tell, im thinking Logan was raised as a child soldier. My best bet is the grandparents left by choice. Maybe, for some reason, Logans parents couldn't (maybe they were too far in, or they had people they needed to look out for) so they sent Logan away with them. Either that or the grandparents saw how damaging the environment was for Logan and chose to run off with him, keeping some contacts so Logan wouldn't grow up completely cut off for his family. Whether Logan wanted to leave or not... I don't know. There's a chance that perhaps he didn't want to leave and was forced but as he grew up he understood his grandparents reasoning and now instead doesnt fully understand why the rest of the family didnt come he could've been literally begging to leave. The mafia or at least people related still owe them so that's how they were able to call in those favours.

Overall, there's ALOT Red could do in terms of Logans backstory and whatever path she takes I'm sure it won't be without it's twists and turns.

Now onto Aidens.

As for Aidens, I think one thing we should note about the Clark family is that it's seemingly matriarchal (female led). The surname 'Clark' is both Aiden and Ben's names, the mothers are sisters meaning the name came from their side of the family.

Another thing of note is that both Clark sisters seemed to have raised their kids very differently. When we see Ben's house in the flashbacks it looks like the kind of well kept cabin you would find in the middle of nowhere, meanwhile, Aidens modern house is clean, too clean in my opinion. It doesn't look lived in if you get what I'm saying.

Aidens parents seem to embrace their richness however Ben's don't. In the family portrait with Aiden and his parents we see his father holding some kinda award which suggests whatever they do as a job they do good at. Also I would like to point out that while the parents are smiling ever so slightly Aiden isn't at all. He has eyebags (something I would like to note that he has had since the start of the series. Its been more prominent than the other characters) and his eyes lack spark (which... we'll get to that later)

They comment on publishing at some point or another, so im assuming they're in that industry. Sometimes, publishing can come with fame however I think it would've been brought up by now if his parents were well known

Now.. I wonder what Jessica and her sisters parents were like. If they were matriarchal, was alot of pressure put on the girls to succeed? Did Aiden and Ben's mother have different reactions to this which could explain their different life styles (Jessica went with it, got a good paying job, nice house, married well, out pressure on Aiden etc meanwhile her sister went against it, and put less pressure on Lily and Ben)

I can imagine if Jessica and her sisters parents were controlling and putting pressure on them, they would definitely put pressure on the grandkids aswell (especially Lily if the matriarchal theory is right 😭)

Obviously Aidens parents being like this wouldn't have helped his mental state at all. I feel like they're the kinda parents to neglect him for months on end and then come back and be incredibly overbearing. According to them Aiden used to be a quiet kid, and I believe that the constant travelling, moving around and lack of structure could've caused this. He never had the chance to properly socialise and make friends. I believe having Ben come travelling with him impacted him more positively than what's been admitted...

Also, Aiden used to look ALOT like his father. He changed his appearance at some point or another and now he looks the complete opposite of his father. This could be a sign of rebellion (basically saying "you don't control me" and "I am who I am") or simply apart of his mask, which is now both metaphorically and literally slipping (his hair dye is coming out, he has no contacts and at the same time his mental state is slipping).

Anyways moving onto my next point.

We know from Reds insta stories that Aiden canonically has ADHD and one other diagnosis she hasn't noted. Given the fact we have confirmation that Aiden has had suicidal thoughts and that we have seen flashbacks of him in a seemingly really depressed state most people think that it could be depression.

He used to be a quiet kid, so maybe over the years he's gotten better at masking his feelings to appear "normal" so he's more likable to those around him.

While I think it could be depression... part of me has my doubts. Now I would like to preface this by saying I'm not a professional. I don't know mucb about this subject so I may be totally off the mark here.

Honestly I need to do more research however I think it's quite possible he could have BPD.

Here's a few things I have found on Google. While we haven't seen ALL the symptoms in him, and his reckless behaviour could just be a product of his depression/suicidal tendencies and ADHD I wanna remind you... we don't know much about Aiden. We don't know what goes on behind close doors, we don't know his past, how he thinks, feels. We know the least about his relationship with his parents than anyone in the entire group in my opinion (which in itself is very telling) and even less about his relationship with his aunt and uncle. But yeah I think it's just an interesting possibility.

Now... the spark thing I was talking about earlier.

I tried to add more images to give you guys example however I can't so for reference two examples of what I'm talking about are in the train scene and in the scene where Tyler and Aiden talk in the bathroom.

There's a couple panels where Aidens eyes look... vacant. Almost like he's dissociating. I just think that's interesting to note. Both of the scenes i have mentioned have this happening when we are shown a flashback. They look similar to how they did in that portrait I pointed out earlier. Im pretty sure also see this with Ashlyn. I don't know quite what to make of it however I think we should just keep it in the back of our minds.

Anyways... yeah. Those are my thoughts. I invite anyone who feels like elaborating/adding to this to do so with a re blog or a comment, whatever best suits. I would love to talk to you guys in the comments about this!

[mikkolas]

happy saturday caturday everyone. sadly this doesn't work because there isn't a cats game today but if you look into your soul there can be! | yeah these are all going to be max images now. I'm also unsure how we got here, yeah

[perilegs]

shoutout to people working their dream jobs doing something mundane

[hauntingblue]

Jayce telling vi she won't make it on her own.... okay mr. projector...

[nonsensechemicals]

crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 26

someday if i can figure out how the hell people get these things made i would like to do some little destiny & malice acrylic charms. i think those are so fun. and while i mostly want them for Myself i figure that if i DID figure out the process, i should maybe open up the option to anyone else that might want them, soooo...

informal poll: if i figure out how all that works, would any of y'all be into that, and approximately how many of you?

[downsteepy]

i am very grateful that im not someone that has to deal with daily seizures but it is evil when it takes like a week and a half's worth of business days to recover from a seizure

[cosmicrhetoric]

this morning has been so laughably crazy LOL

[risingsunresistance]

twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao

[altruistic-meme]

i didn't get the specific one i was after, but i DID get a k-cup coffee maker!!! fuck yeah!!! and it came with a coffee filter too, so i can still make regular coffee in it :D