#way too proud of myself for this 😭
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Trying to translate Seb's car names to Latin is making me lose my shit 😭😭
#some are like just yknow obviously the latin form of the original name#julie = Julia yknow#i wish there was a better equivalent for Kate than Catharina#i dont know latin nicknames :)#but some of these are so fucking funny 😭😭#like the appeal of 'luscious liz' is the alliteration right?#so i cant just translate it directly and use 'elizabeth'#and so the adjective translation is 'praedulcius'#SO: 'Praedulcia Pru' HAHAHAHAH ITS SO FUNNY TO ME IM SORRY 😭😭#way too proud of myself for this 😭#catie.rambling.txt
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wonderful
#there is a ranboo that goes withthis but i didn't like how he was looking imma restart from scratch tmrw😭😭#ctubbo#michael beloved#ctubbo fanart#Guys you have no idea what i went through today like it wa fucking crazy i need to share this#so i went to the mall after school right and im going home at like 8 on the train with my friend bc i was supposed to be picked up ay her#stop right but then im told to just go to my stop and take the bus and im like ok sure but the problem is my phone is on SEVEN PERCENT and w#hen i get to the stop my moms like u have money for the bus right and im like ueah and i check and i have NO MONEY#BUT I DIDNT TELL HER ANUTHING BC I DIDNT WANT HER TI GET MAD BC I KNEW SHE WOUDKNT WANT ME TO WALK ALL THE WAY HOME AT NIGHT (FOURTY BLOCKS#So im like ok im getting on the bus now my phone is on four percent i have to WALK HOME allll that way and there's this crazy ass upward hi#ll that's like ten blocks long ITS NOT EVEN THAT BAD but like my mom thinks im on the bus so im trying to speed walk as fast as i can and i#RAWDOGGED it too because MU PHONE WAS GOING TO IDE!!!!#I made it home at two percent U guys i was so proud of myself thank u for listening#IM SO MAD IT WOUKDVE BEEN OKAY IF I WASNT IN A RUSH And also if i had music uggghhh Whatever#I bought this really cute skirt at garage hold on let me find it#lexi pleated skort color Navy blue ITS SOOOO CUTE got some new leg warmers too yesss....#I NEED TO DOWNLOAD THE TRANSIT APP i woukdve been able to attach my apple pay and buy the stupid ticket if my phonewasnnt#too dead to do al that...#Guys always make sure u carry cash with yiu goodbye
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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed
#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself#and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change#it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly#so there was somewhat of a gradual progression#but still#also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time#i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i#had been socially involved#anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change#and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find#the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever#and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha#(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically#it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni#ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that#but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped#and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr#i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years#and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it#and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing#kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao#i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school#and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build#--ing towards#which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now
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Wait you ship Albedou with Tighnari!? Not to sound rude btw
Hmmm I don't really ship them ?? Like, yeah I clearly don't mind the ship and lol i drew them for fun because it is my main and the one fictional character I'm simping for more than 4yrs now but
I can't see it as a romantic relationship (i am convinced abt tighnari aromantic rep and bisexual sorry) 😔
And my mind was like "what if albedo flirtly provoking tighnari during science session and--- oh." the second I regained my consciousness, my hand already slipped and drew a comic.
#reply#there is also one i would like to share and it is queerplatonic tighnari sucrose#I know my taste are not like the majority and I don't wish people judgin my safeplace sob#so I tend to keep everything for myself#I wasn't supposed to post my albe/nari drawing but I was soso proud of me 😭#and it is my art too )': i know there is people who follow me for my art and I am grateful#but i know there is also a lot who follow me for content )':#in result on instagram I believe I lost 300 followers ?? more or less#worth it ? worth it.#i enjoy reading my followers's reaction bahaha since it is not something I usually post 😭#like my account is fully silly funny pretty drawing and in the middle there is two nerds who are making out#it is way so fun and I love having fun#thank you my friend for encouraging me to post it 😔🫵✨️🫶
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Tagged by @soyouwinagain to post 6 photos from my camera roll in the past week, thank you comrade, I was hoping someone would tag me 🫡🫡 except then I had to go back a couple weeks otherwise all six photos would have been my dog at a cocktail garden.
Ivan Fedotov and Erik Johnson at Flyers training camp, Fedotov in full Russian saint mode; a flower outside of an Indian restaurant; Yankees outfielders running away from each other and I'm so mad I only got them running back to position bc they were being SO cute while a reliever was warming up; Keats at the aforementioned cocktail garden, he was sweatin'; giant rotting boat outside of Ikea; boxes containing all of my earthly possessions.
#having a good day 😭 went to rittenhouse to hang with sierra while they did work then went to a flyers rally and got free stuff#heroically refrained from asking flyers reporters about danny briere's plan for eetu mäkiniemi during the q&a#took the bus all by myself!!!! an actualy achievement lol i'm so scared of buses and i was so worried i would end up in like delaware#but i did not i ended up at my house#so now i feel much more confident about taking the bus..exposure therapy LMAO#went to a pizza place near me i have not been too and it FUCKS#my new favorite thing to do rn is if i can eat anything on the menu and its super slow in the restaurant is to ask#what the cashier or server recommends. way better than if i were just panicking and ordered cheese pizza#i need to start unpacking my art supplies and bathe my dog but overall...VERY good day so far#if the padres and the phillies pull through we'll be in good shape#OH!!!! AND EVERYONE BEING SO SO BRAVE FOR TEAM LIFT FEST!!!#ME N MAX ARE SOOOO PROUD OF EVERYONE AND I'M SOOOO EXCITED TO SEE WHAT THE NEXT TWO WEEKS BRINGS!!!!#i've been having some frustrations with myself bc there was a lot of stuff i should have scaled down and didn't#and my ethos running this w max is way different than fth but none of the sign up materials reflect that#which i'm frustrated with myself for not thinking through more carefully and conscientiously#even tho going into this we knew so much of the fest was going to be us throwing puddy at the wall and seeing what sticks#but i have been frustrated with myself for not thinking through how materials like the sign up form don't reflect the like spirit of how we#wanted to run it#so it's really nice to see that people are being really brave and getting excited for each other and getting excited for what's#being offered#i'm sooooo excited!!!!!!!!!#ok i'm done lol i have to finish this soda and face the disaster that is how i packed my art supplies#when i can do art again. know.#fresno oilers.txt
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Happy pride 🎉
#art#pride#aromantic#lesbian#dino roars#shitpost#heheheheheh#now I'm not really into romance at all and i almost never think of it XD not even on valentine's day#my was of affection is friendship and it only goes as far as that#it will go further but rarely my romantic love is a bit lost.....#so here's a little insight of what happens when someone talks to me about love actually 😭#it's not slander it's just how i feel :]#my buddy is the complete opposite#she is pansexual!#congratulations 🎉 i am proud of you!#as an aromatic lesbian I'm not the best to go to for couple advice hehe especially if it's on a guy#the qu being in love or falling in love is kinda hard#why are none of you attractive???/j (can't say much myself cuz I look like a hobo :])#i just see romance as a very close friendship and not like a magical experience like ppl say#but i could be just me lol#either way it's my own feelings and opinions and you can have yours too! I'm proud of you no matter your love feelings or gender
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Hello I would love to hear everything you have about bluebelle
hi hello, sorry it took so long to get to this, it’s probably too late at this point lol, motivation just kind of dripped away in the last couple of weeks
I’m not really sure what to say except for what I’ve already said in this post: https://www.tumblr.com/murdleandmarot/751605283466379264/can-you-info-dump-about-bluebelle-im-very
Rn when I think about Bluebelle the most is when I’m trying to think of ways to introduce her to the rest of the jellicles or to keep her on the brinks. I’ll probably never actually write anything, but I like to have the story my head concretely.
I’ll prolly do more art of her or Bluebeard in the future but whether or not I’ll post it is anyone’s guess. Bluebeard is a character that I basically stole from 17th-18th century storytellers but I still adore his design so fucking much. Sorry guys I cat-ified your fairy tale villain.
I guess I’ve sort of slid to the funny side of oc headcanons lately because in my head I keep referring to Bluebelle Vicci and Plato as Bluebelle, her girlfriend, and her girlfriend’s boyfriend.
I just kind of thought it was funny i have no idea what im doing 😭😭
I’ve had a couple of funny little comic ideas that I’ve been scribbling out in the past couple of days but they’re giving me so much grief that I honestly don’t know what to do lol. One’s with @/mysticalcats’s foxglove and one is with @/toki-toro’s chaumet but I have no idea if I’ll finish or post them butttttt I’m not sure what else I’m doing at this point.
This probably wasn’t really the answer you were looking for but I felt rly rly bad about not responding sooooo
#if I seem super uncharacteristically apathetic in this it’s because I’m very exhausted and angry at the state of myself/my life#but I will probably be back to normal next week or something#anyone’s guess#anyhowwww the insecurities are getting to me and my brain is too foggy to say anything significant at all about Bluebelle#she’s asleep rn and so should I be#I can’t believe I peaked two weeks ago with the Bluebelle lore dump that’s crazy#fr though I’m so unrealistically and unreasonably proud of the way her backstory turned out#I should do more angst pieces because I adore angst pieces especially with ocs because they’re crunchy to me butttttt#nah because no because rah#I promise I’ll be better at this soon Jesus Christ I don’t even know what this post is 😭😭😭#I’m so so sorry 🫶🫶🫶🫶#cats oc#jellicle oc#asks!!!!!!!
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Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:
Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#lok malina#still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now#and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that#don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before#to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021#because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing#but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence#anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he#*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character#for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop#I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like#I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her#if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet#okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself#lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer#about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long#this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh#I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out#*surprising#less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know#anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous#her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this#and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning#I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭#I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb#okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary:#she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵
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My sister’s graduation day 😤 let’s go 👏🏽
#gosh it’s gonna be a long day and I’m running on two hours of sleep again#i only get the chance to work at night because I don’t have ✨privacy✨#and I’ve been going to bed late and waking up even more tired than usual and my mom’s been scolding me for it#and now I’ve had to tell her what I’m doing and I feel like I just gave another piece of me away again#everything I am everything I do has to be for other people#im so tired when will I give my last piece away 🥹#this was to make ME proud of ME I was doing it for myself and now I feel like it’s for her#and then she’s going to tell my dad and now it’s for him too#also I can’t even cry about it because she HAS to know why I’m upset#she keeps glancing up at me and talking to me in bits#all I have left is my emotions 🥹#anyhow sorry to start the day off so gloomy and depressing I have literally nothing to be sad about I’m very privileged#sorry you guys see me being a baby constantly 🥺 I really do have a good life and shouldn’t be complaining#here’s to a better day for us all#melifails#now i feel like a jerk subjecting you all to this😭 sorry sorry let’s move on#im gonna be a busy bee hopefully I can squeeze in a time for a nap#😭 I don’t waaaaaannnnnaaa sit for hours in the California heat MAYBE with the sun hitting us in the face#our football field is NOT kind in this way#hopefully my sister gets the shady side but even then the sun will hit us in the face eventually just not as long#im !!! excited!!!! I bought ice cream for today 👏🏽 I originally bought choco chip and minto moose tracks?? my sister loves mint flavor#so I bought mint Oreos too so she can eat them with her ice cream 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽#i assume we’re getting take out of some sort so that; ice cream; and uuuuuuu I don’t remember anything else I bought; my best friend did#bring us snacks yesterday!!! pretzels and cookies!!! so that!!!#okay brain no work no more I gotta get dressed love you muah muah muah
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bruh i get such a superiority complex over being a good writer
#i keep seeing ppl post their ‘essay that got me into harvard’ and every time i’m like damn. ig i should’ve applied to harvard#like not to be full of myself but these essays SUCK i am a way better writer than them. lol. i have edits#i don’t act like it on here bc it’s fun to break grammar rules & i never believe ppl when they say i’m a good writer but then i see someone#else’s writing and i’m like oh wow. i am really really good at this apparently#i’m not necessarily the best at fiction but journalism? narratives? PERSONAL ESSAYS? i am a MASTER apparently#these kids r sooooo proud of their essays and i look and it’s like ‘babes why r u showing me this. isnt it just a draft. huh’#i wish i could afford one of those fancy schools with no merit aid 😭😭 goin to a good school for mega cheap but i feel like i would have#gotten into some ivies if i’d been able to try. at least on the basis of writing.#affirmative action isn’t keeping you from the ivies babe it’s your horrid essay topic & style & grammar & concision & approach. lol#sorry for being conceited or whatever but also if u’d just read this girl’s essay u would be too
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signing contracts yippeeeee!!!
#i had plans to get stuff done today and i did not whoops#anyway i do not recommend pulling an all nighter 😁😁😁#(it ruined my sleep schedule i cant sleep!! when will i be eepy at a reasonable timr again...)#oh i graduated btw i forgot that happened! i will be proud of myself no matter what anyone tells me <3#i get that I still have college and a hs diploma unfortunately ain't worth as much now a days-#-but it's 12 years of this education system finally being given a benchmark. took way too long 😭#quakie rambles
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"Non paeniteo potitus."
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And, process !!
The jump btwn the second to last and last always surprise me whenever I make one of these because I always forget to take snapshots after I start painting. It's always like: oh yeah heres the lineart with some colors- BOOM fully finished✨️
What he's holding are the Austrian imperial scepter and orb, seen below:
I was going to draw the crown too but decided I don't hate myself that much(maybe some other day), and gave him a golden laurel crown, bcs I'm obsessed with that as a motif, and also its very remincient of the boy king statue that started this whole thing!
There's some symbolism of this, both intentionally but also just historically. I love that the orb represents that the monarch is holding the world in their hand, basically every old monarchy has one of those, and I think it's very cool for symbolism. But also bcs of that, I was forced to basically draw catholic fanart so, you win some you lose some. The star halo above him head is both to reference those religious statues with star crowns(I saw them a lot in Europe and they imprinted onto my brain), as well as: his four championships of course!
#TL: 'I don't apologize for winning' 🤭🤭🤭#^ was gonna find some old latin quote to put but was like. oh yeah of course !!!#noy sure if its entirely correct. kinda wanted to email my hs latin teacher to ask but i finished this too late at night#anyways please dont let this flop SKDKLGLVLV#im really proud of it okah 😭😭😭 it was actually so much fun and enjoyable and nice etc dtc#i questioned to myself earlier abt why my chibi art always gets more notes than my detailed art#and i realized. like unless youve been following the lore of my blog. this isnt even recognizable as f1 fanart SJFKLVLV#but thats okay because its my niche brainrot au and i will do what i want >:)#the hair and the relics are def my proudest part of this#i mentioned before but i have trouble yknow translating irl stuff or complicated stuff into drawing#but all of this came really smoothly to me in a very unexpected way#god his hair is just sooooo its ssoooooooo!!!!!!!!! i wanna pet him 🥹#but i think it def helped that i kept posting the process on my close friends#and my two irl friends(as well as some friends on here! ty!!) encouraged me a lot abt it so :D#but anyways yep pls take my brainrot art 🙏🙏 it took me 13+ hours in the span of like 3 days basically#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#catie.art.#boy king au
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REMEMBER that one cutscene in shadowbringers w. ykyk those two blondes 🥹
#🌙.rambles#[ ffxiv. ]#impulsively watching an ffxiv cutscene rn before i work on some stuff & immediately i feel rather better i love this game so much :<#THE WARRIORS OF LIGHT OF THE FIRST :c GODDAMN HEROES IN FFXIV I LOVE THE WAY THEY DO IT SO MUCH AND HOW IT HURTS#also lamitt & ardbert i hate that so much ffxiv you're so mean. & then w ardbert.... sacrifice.... n then the end of shb fuck.#hope.#why does ffxiv make me cry so easily i'm#I GOT AN AD WHEN TOMORROW AND TOMORROW REPRISE STARTED PLAYING IN THE OST SMH#last year i cried so much when i first went through the cutscene bcs. her words n her struggles were#i'm crying i missed playing ffxiv ahh i remember the words i wrote to myself the first i played through this. i remember crying too#burdens. ryne w her regrets n. the help of others.... so many times close to giving up but she made it w them#'yet here you stand resolved. now....tell me your hearts desire' :< this cutscene is so precious to me#yk i cried too the first i listened this ost. alphinaud. eulmore. his character development is smth i admire so much!!!! i'm so proud!!!!#ffxiv w shb means so much to me :< stuff w shadows and light and remembrance and hfkajfklsdf all the themes !#'we stand now at the crossroads. a decision must be made' reminds me of that one line in to the edge#oh my god i aspire to be like. minfilia. the wol too :< 'tis only natural to be afraid. to hesitate'#SHES GONE THROUGH HER OWN SUFFERING TOO N YET. look here w her soft smile n comforting words she's so beautiful#i'm so proud of ryne she's grown to be her own person n have her own purpose n love herself n#smh yk what i wish i had a partner like gaia too smh where's my rinoa 😭#'i cant help but believe' ryne you're making me cry i love the way she delivered that line#'but i want to do more' & 'make a difference' & 'i want to help them like they helped me and even maybe inspire others to do the same'#oh she's just like me fr. but she shines so brightly like the sun she's so loved i cldn't compare at all but.... SOB WAIT#only way forward & 'since all of our heroes are gone we'll just have to make heroes of ourselves'. what a wonderful dream. hope....#i can't do this i'm crying wait 'if ever you should falter remember this: no one however powerful is immune to the whisperings of doubt and#despair. do not give in to them but do not deny them either. look instead to the light within that you may continue to serve#as a beacon to others' :< minfilia fuck you 'but not even the most valiant heroes can stand alone' ARDBERT fuck you#'only together may you change the fate of two worlds' sigh n then the ending of shb!!!! & after this cutscene w thancred n urianger 🥺#i feel a bit better again :< i can always allow myself to be vulnerable when it comes to fiction. i shld indulge myself more in this#to.. distract myself. live vicariously through fiction. sigh. no this'll just be my coping mechanism so i can perform well enough irl#& then i'll let myself free when it comes to my passions like this yeah i'll cope i'll distract myself on my own c: stop thinkinghfkldk </3
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If I had a genie and could make one wish I’d wish that romantic relationships and anything to do with falling in love would be completely eradicated from existence. Not only is it gross and weird, but it’s also fundamentally an issue, like you can’t tell me it’s anything feasible to yearn for or believe in when so many crimes hardships and negativity stems as a by product of love. I wish everyone was aroace and we sprout from the soil via mitosis but somehow we still have genetic variation bc it’s a unique sub section of mitosis where it’s a hybrid of mitosis and meiosis.
#dora daily#idk ppl might think I’m being silly and I kinda am not that srs but in truth I’m also so srs rn#I remember when I was a little younger I would get so distressed about the fact relationships simply EXIST in this world and I’m just so#horribly disgusted by it and can’t accept it to be true that I just felt like sobbing so much whenever I remembered it existed#like the sheer panic 😭#I told dahlia this and how sometimes when I’m doing my own personal therapy with myself where I’m trying to ease my way into accepting that#as a reality (I’ve actually come such a long way in lowkey proud of myself) I still sometimes#in the midst of trying to normalise that concept I end up genuinely feeling so sick and having a headache then just completely throwing up#dahlia says that’s not normal to actually throw up at the thought of that stuff#she says that while I can be aroace my very visceral reaction to it seems unhealthy and like it ought to be addressed by a professional#I think so too because at one point I genuinely couldn’t live with the prospect of people genuinely having bfs and gfs and getting married#it was all too much for me to grasp and internalise 😭 like literally at some points it’d send me into internalised hysterics 😭#anyways … I’m a little better now idk if I’m fully better but I think I still have an issue#it’s so messy ndiskaakm#like honestly someone be truthful to me and tell me that love is not the root of so much evil#divorces abuse break ups manipulation etc are much more common in relationships than it being a healthy relationship#you’re more likely to have a healthy friendship than a romantic relationship#then there’s the issue of stupid hookups and situationships made for cowards …#anyways my point stands that that would be my ultimate wish#I wish aroace was the norm like straight is the norm
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today is the first time in like forever that i kept my hair open for the whole day without hating them by the end of the day and they're so soft and i tried on dark maroon purple lipstick yesterday with my bestfriend and she was like whoa. you look like. hot. and Mature. and i told her i love her because i kept using pink because it's cute pretty girly and i wanna feel pretty but it didn't really suit me but this this dark shade it's perfect i feel so confident and sexy and i hung out with my cousin little sister rn we used to be closest bestfriends but we drifted apart because of papa-chachu drama in childhood but
#she came over and she was like i don't have company to smoke with come on smoke with me#and i was like aaah okay#and she's so cute she's like okay have this vape after the cig to like remove the bad taste#and i gave her change for auto cause she didn't have any and she was like ill pay you back and i was like girl please shut up#choti behen hai meri itna toh kar hi sakti hu and she laughed and was lke arre aise hai fir toh main itne mein nahi maanungi aur do#so i was like bade hoke pakka abhi itni hi aukat hai#it's nice i feel happy#i also leaned my head on my office wali senior ka shoulder cause i was superrrr sleepyyyy today#only for like a minute but she was like aww are you sleepy it's okay so ja i understand this and she patted my head gently#like you know side face pe they pat🥺🥺🥺0#and like i was like do you need help what do i do when she was working and she was like kuch nahi i just need you to sit here next to me#and keep chattering#it's so 🥺🥺🥺#like this is big okay she's kinda very cool and smart and like real focused and serious okay she doesn't like disturbances#and i love her brain i want to be curious and sorted like her i love the way she understands things slowly but completely#like just work wise i aspire to be her everyone gets so impressed by her i do too the sir was like {her name} ko ab bank audit acche se aa#gaya hai ab wo apne aap bhi kar sakfi hai sign kar sakti hai#WHICH IS SOOOOOO COOL like bhai he's a very good ca okay crazy intelligent and to have him say that. just wow#and i was whining to her ki everyone sucks my relatives suck nobody even appreciates that im killing myself trying to make a career here#all my mami cares about is that why couldn't i take ek din ki leave and show up at her fucking dance practice😭😭#so she was like aww it's okay leave them ill say it you're doing very good {my real name} im proud of you#i literally said awww thank you out loud itna sweet tha na#wow a happy vent post this is a first
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i dont typically give a shit about how many likes my art gets but i kinda busted my ass to finish a big pinup piece in time for valentines day and it got 2 likes... i average a strong 9 to 10 what the heck man.
#alan yells#i dont really draw for others just for me but my god. 2?? 2 likes!??#i was hella proud of it too like 😭😭#its not that big of a deal im just a lil frustrated lol#and im not expecting that much bc like i said i average low anyways and only draw stuff to cater to myself but damn. 2 in total? crazy#i wont change my ways tho lmAO#i think whats bothering me is that i managed to finish it in 3 days whereas my last piece took a whole month and before that 3 months#so its like im getter better at rendering and finishing something more timely which im happy about#but the little acknowledgment is discouraging? idk idk#its fine i just wanted a quick throwaway vent
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