#was theres nothing wrong with saying “this person seems to have an identity that i connect to and i see myself in them''
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the historical source we have for understanding much of the early roman empire are so fucking bad. like whenever you hear any insane story about tiberius/caligula/nero/commodus/elagabalus imagine trying to put together an account of any modern figure if your only avaiable sources were tucker carlson archives and the daily mail
#THIS EXACTLY#like i get the desire to look for people who share our identities in history and queer people have always existed#but also. when queer historians say stuff like “we cant apply modern identities to the past'' what they MEAN is#that what we think of as “gay'' hasnt always meant the same thing throughout time#queer people have Always existed but not always in the same exact way and its#even as recently as in the early 20th century! like sure maybe a lot of drag queens at stonewall would call themselves trans women Now#but theres no real way to know that! and it gets worse into antiquity#we talked about this in my queer biblical studies class a Lot and one of the things i took away from that class#was theres nothing wrong with saying “this person seems to have an identity that i connect to and i see myself in them''#but you cant always definitively say “this person was gay/trans/bi/queer''#and for me thats the fun part about queer historical work :)#queer people have always existed but not always in the same way#and its our job as historical interpreters to figure out the contexts they lived in and its Fun to do that
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ive been thinking about that thing people say about mental illness. yknow, 'its not a part of your personality' 'dont make it your identity' etc
but when you have a personality disorder, that doesnt really make sense anymore.
which makes my feelings on cluster b pride flags a little conflicted. coz, sure, it is fundamentally a part of your personality and certainly shapes your identity, but something about pride flags has always been off to me. perhaps especially as a person with aspd.
now, sure, on the one hand i get it. theres something appealing about having that kind of validation that you arent alone, especially when you are constantly masking and shifting who you are to fit the situation best.
we might have antisocial personality disorder but we are still, at our core, social creatures. we still desire community, we're just also afraid of it.
so yeah, a banner of community and others 'like us' seems fair enough, right?
BUT
theres still something... off to me about it. what it was, exactly, only came to me after a discussion with my partner about DID and PluralKit - yeah i know, im diving into plural drama now, lfg i guess
they showed me an infographic about the process of DID recovery which showed the progression from very disconnected and separated identities to a more blended 'final fusion' (a term they take issue with but thats a different story). i said that PluralKit must be confusing for people on the later ends of the spectrum they were showing me because, at that point, how do you tell who is blending with who? when the lines are blurry, how do you know who to tag yourself as? it seemed like an inhibitor to recovery if you were constantly cutting yourselves off from each other. (this is not me saying anything one way or the other about plurals and recovery in DID or whatever the fuck else, im just using this as an example. stfu i dont care about your opinions on any of this so dont waste your breath)
i think my feelings on aspd flags is somewhat similar. coz i mean, they are pride flags, right? and i think if you are taking pride in being aspd then you are far more likely to lean into your symptoms, and i think thats a slippery slope to go down and has just a very 'anti-recovery' vibe, if you know what i mean.
with that all said, i also very much think that if you dont want to recover, you dont have to. i dont think you can force anyone to recover and i dont think you should even try to. recovery is fucking shit and its hard and if you arent ready for it, you are just going to hurt whoever you are trying to make recover.
but i also think that you can have that opinion, whilst also being a voice for recovery, and be against 'anti-recovery' thinking.
because look, like it or not aspd is a fucking disorder. and at some point that becomes unhelpful or it wouldnt be a disorder. symptoms of aspd are debilitating and pretending otherwise that helps nobody. especially with all the 'all pwASPD are evil' scum out there.
so yes, i think the pride flags are... unhelpful at best and harmful at worst. but what about the other stuff? the creatures alla tbh creature and the plushiedreadful rabbit? (i think both of those designs suck btw but thats not the point)
idk those feel like they are in a different category. theres not really a sense of pride in those, more a sense of comfort. again, community, but also a sort of softness(??) that the pride flag things seem to miss - especially when they are like 'vampire aspd' or 'evil aspd' or any of the other bullshit things ive seen out there. i guess they are also just way more 'mental illness' coded than pride flags are.
pride flags have always been a 'we're here and theres nothing wrong with us' kind of thing. but the creatures and the bears are more lighthearted and sort of making fun of the conditions a little bit. highlighting symptoms and coping mechanisms. just look at the imocreature - specifically the worm one which is my favourite - and the way its able to be so pathetic looking and cute. its not meant to be cool or badass or whatever else, its just a lil guy that gets sad without supply.
which, yknow, relatable.
#cluster b#actually aspd#actually narcissistic#aspd#npd#actually npd#aspd safe#cluster b safe#npd safe#imo creature#aspd pride flags#recovery
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I've written this piece of advice shortly before, and alot of people seem to dance around this idea alot but I don't think I've personally see someone outright say it clearly. This might be good advice, idk, it helped me.
So, to be clear, this is about questioning gender identity and sexuality.
This advice is for people in the situation of "I might be x, but I'm probably not because y". And the key question is, its hard to tell, it can be very subconscious, but how does that make you feel?Dissapointed?
Lemme give a few personal experience examples to explain what I mean: "I think I might be Ace, but I'm not because I have a libido". And I felt disappointed. That's the key thing. The reason feels more like a barrier than an explanation. It didn't feel like "I'm not ace because", it felt like "I CAN'T be ace because". And that's a hard difference to tell in your feelings, but it helps. As it goes, it often turns out that the barrier is based in misconceptions anyway. Ace people can have a libido, its got nothing to do with being ace.
And another example: "I can't be ace because Ive had a crush" and I was dissapointed, but after further examining my feelings, I realised I was wrong, it wasn't really a crush.
"I can't be trans, I don't feel dysphoria." And I was disappointed. But Not all trans people do. However, I did later realise I do feel dysphoria and just didnt notice it before.
And, the important one: "I might not be aro, because I think dysphoria was clouding my judgement and attraction, I just couldnt be hally in a relationship as a guy and so repressed my feelings, I think Im a transbian." And I did not feel dissapointed, I felt fine and comfortable with this fact.
What I'm trying to say is, when finding yourself in a position of "I can't be x because y" if that makes you feel disappointed, there's a good chance you're x. And you also need to do some looking into reason y because theres a good chance it turns out to be flat out wrong and not a barrier. If you think you aren't x and you feel fine with that? You're probably right. Keep an open mind, don't get me wrong, but you're probably right.
I don't know how useful this is, or how original it is, but I hope I'm along the right lines and can help someone either figure themself out or give others the right explanation of how to help and advise other people who they talk to.
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Did you see the recent scott post (2/22/24) defending polygenic selection of embryos? I personally think his reductios are "missing the point" of the original objection, but I can't quite put my finger on why.
I think examples 1 and 3 are different in a morally significant way from the polygenic selection case.
It is true that the child who would have been born absent the rehab stay or fatherhood lesson almost certainly is not the child who would have been born with the rehab stay or fatherhood lesson, at least if (as scott seems to assume and seems relatively unobjectionable at least in this context) would-be children are individuated by originating sperm-ova pairs (problem case: identical twins). But it is no part of the mothers/fathers plans, nor any part of the doctors/educators plans in putting the future parents thru these regimens, that those particular would be children are swapped. From their pov, if it just so happened the egg-sperm pair that would have conceived their child absent the intervention actually were the pair to conceive their child with the intervention, this is perhaps surprising but not really violating their plans, either in their means or ends. Which of the two relevant pairs (the one that would conceive absent the intervention and the one that would conceive with the intervention, but specified rigidly in terms of particular sperms and ova) in fact conceives is a matter of indifference to them. It is not actively declaring any particular would be humans lebens unwertesleben as compared to another
In the polygenic selection case, things are different. Assuming again would be humans are individuated by sperm/egg pairs, by choosing which embryo (whose conceiving pair is already definitely settled) to keep and which to destroy one is already making a choice about which of two or more (would be) humans is more worthy of life than another. If another egg-sperm pair happened to be the one to actually get implanted, this would involve frustrating the couples plans, which involved choosing some particular egg-and-sperm pair in the already-fused form of a particular embryo. Which pair gets chosen to become their child is expressly not a matter of indifference
Note that this doesnt even in and of itself require you to think the embryo is a person or has "moral standing", only that a) choosing one among different would be human individuals as more worth living than another is wrong and b) that would be humans are individuated by sperm egg pairs, which are already settled by the time an embryo is conceived
I think theres less of a principled distinction between the polygenic selection case and his 2nd example. Tho even there, in selecting among developing embryos on non genetic criteria like development, one seems not to be choosing on the basis of features essential to any would be child, as genetic features (roughly) will be on the theory that would be humans are individuated by originating egg sperm pairs
Eta: "I can never tell how much of this is linguistic hair-splitting versus an actual moral objection to considering this strategy a success, but I think it’s worth arguing against the moral objection." Idk why but someone describing an argument as "linguistic hair splitting" or "word games" vel sim is extremely predictive of missing what seems to me the nub of the matter on any particular topic
Eta2: ig this post runs the danger of ppl interpreting me as saying "merely potential" ppl have "moral standing" in the sense of rights or deserving to be included in the utilitarian calculus. Obviously that is false: only (actual) ppl have rights, and nothing should be included in any utilitarian calculus bc you should not be a utilitarian. The question is of whether lebens unwertesleben is a concept that potentially makes sense, whether there could be ppl unworthy of having been born by dint of their inferior nature. If you dont think so (and you shouldnt), you should oppose eugenic interventions like polygenic embryo selection
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Could I have a reality check? If that isn't okay, please disregard this message.
I worry I am starting to have the delusion that we are a lil spiritually/psychically connected, that we may be the same "souls" experiencing similar but different lives. A lot of the things you post I feel like I "get it", and maybe I project my own identity onto you.
This all sounds very narcissistic and egotistical 🤢 But it is comforting. I don't wish to be close, and I wouldn't want to cause you harm. I've followed you for like 6 years, and these thoughts have only been recent.
This doesn't seem right, does it? /Genuine
Im probably not the best person to ask for a "reality cheek" from since i belive reality is individual. But ill try answer this ask regardless.
I think im a very "spiritual" person, i do belive in connections between people that are deeper than "normal connections", and connections that are meant to be. But theres no way for me to know if we have any sort of connection because you are anonymous, i know nothing about you or who you are, or if we have talked before. I have discovered to have deeply spiritual connections to people before though. But thats alwaya been discovered in physical reality, not online. As its also a physical feeling.
I do not belive in souls at all. In my mind there is no way two people can be the same person. There is only me, in my current life. I wish it was different honestly, and i could hope for more. I cant allow myself the comfort of thinking i have or am more than what i currently have. (Unless we are talking about different dimensions , but we share one, and i can only exsist in one dimension at the same time. But all dimensions i exsist in are a part of me and my current reality, not separate and i could not interact with myself from another dimension, just gain consciousness of it and experience them Simultaneously)
Its very normal if you "get" my posts, and relate to me. But before you get delusional about me , maybe talk to me on a personal level first. Because im very complex in ways that cant be precived from just following me and seeing my online content... even if you feel yourself seen or reflected in 100% of what i post online, that would not mean you are me or even similar to me as a person, or that you even understand me in any degree as your preception of me could be horribly off/wrong.
And again, i dont show all of myself online. Im very carefull to keep my most personal information or even traits to myself or close ones to learn about. I also have DID, so this is just a small part me as an antire person in itself. Our life experiences that shape us are completely diffrent too.
If we do have similarities, if youre able to relate to me deeply, or feel we might have a connection, i think thats at most a great opportunity for friendship. Feel free to dm me, id love to talk. If not, thats fine too. If you are concerned youre getting attached to me in an unhealthy way, maybe just block me and walk away. Whatever you think is best.
I don't understand "dont wish to harm you". The only thing that would upset me is trying to claim you are me online or impersonate me. Id also be uncomfortable to me if you tried to copy my behavior, art or style in order to feel closer to me or being me. There is lovely wonder in accepting yourself as your own being and exploring your own self. Being you is the one thing you will always have that can never be lost or taken away. (Well.. only by de*th...) id say you are the most important being in your own life/reality. Just like i am to myself. And you should focus on that and enjoy it while you can.
Youre free to find comfort in me and my content though. I know a lot of people do relate to my posts and find it comforting and it makes me glad to hear. I want to bring comfort to people. Never pain, hurt, fear.
Wish u the best<3
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i kept going back and forth on if this would be an appropriate thing to post, but i feel like this is another thing that a lot of people should know regarding the situation, especially since all the things i've seen are only visible to the notes of my post that i feel like others need to be aware of.
so since making my post about the no-fly list situation, ive honestly received almost nothing but people absolutely agreeing with it. other than the first reply of that post being someone who called me anti-american, which i deleted, all the notes have been very civil, open, and completely appreciative of what i wrote, and especially it seems like it's given people a lot more respect for both maia and the targeted people of the list.
ive seen people talk about maia's identity and how important it is to acknowledge that what it is was also correlated to what it did. a lot of people being supportive of maia's personal labels and saying that it doesnt matter what you think of them but whats important is what it did. even someone who said they didn't like maia for being a bi lesbian said they appreciated the effort it took to do what it did.
there's a fair amount of tags on the post from people who had their own, or similar experiences related to the list, or general discrimination when it comes to travel. one person who had a japanese teacher who was on the list for protesting the vietnam war. one whos dad was flagged during screening because of his muslim+indian name. one who had a friend whos been on the list since 4 years of age, meanwhile none of their other family is on the list, because they were the only one with an arabic name.
there were people in the notes who were muslim themselves, some not from america aswell, who had very little info even about the list, and when reading about it were absolutely shocked by what was found, but also grateful for its discovery, probably even feeling a lil safer knowing that there is someone who cares about them enough to do something that many, many people wouldnt.
today, someone who was on anon sent a message in my inbox, saying that they appreciated my post for very personal reasons. out of respect i wont share it, but one particular part of it that stood out, among the other details, and something that many, many people in the post notes have been saying is that my post was their exact thoughts on the situation that they couldnt put into words the same way i did.
i think theres another important thing that people are missing about the no-fly situation. something i've seen myself, which many people will completely discouraged and say it's dangerous.
you should not be scared to talk about and have opinions on things you care about. because if you cared about them, then it doesn't matter what others think of you. if you say an opinion and you lose a friend over it, that's their decision. you lose family over it, that's their decision. you lose followers/subscribers/supporters over it, that's their decision. it's everyones decision to do what they feel depending on the reactions they have to what you say. there is nothing you can do about it. there is nothing you can do about someone disagreeing with you. and that's okay.
it's okay if you lose a friend, a family member, and supporters. it's okay if they disagree with you. it's okay that they don't want to be around you anymore. because then that means you can be happy. that means you are finally getting room to be who you are and have no one around to tell you otherwise, to tell you that they think youre wrong and deserve to be left alone.
as time goes on, you'll gain people who will care about you again. who agree with your opinions and agree with who you are. people that want to let you know they value your opinion and will keep you in a space with others like you. by then it won't matter what or who is against you. all that will matter is that youve given yourself a new start. a new area to be free and not worry about those who go against you.
it's okay to show that you care about people. that you want the best for them. that you want the world to be a better place. it's okay for you to surround yourself with those who will respect you and care about what you have to say. it's okay that you've formed opinions based around you and others experiences. that's okay. you're okay.
learn to care about yourself. to care about people who are like you and have been through what you have. to listen to others and understand where theyre coming from. you dont know them and they dont know you. and learn to stand up for yourself. be open about what you believe in. dont be afraid of who wont like you. of who will threaten to leave or hurt you for what you think. your opinions and what you have to say are important. you are important. as important as everyone who is similar to you and thinks what you think. you will never lose that.
to people who are also in LGBT+ like maia, i'm glad you have someone to look up to. to the muslim, indian, arabic, hispanic, japanese, chinese, korean, russian, ukrainian, and many others out there, i'm glad you know just how much people care about you and want you to be happy.
and to the anon, i won't post your ask. but i will keep it with me out of joy that i've made you feel comfortable.
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ive seen this post and i wasnt going to engage, but if you insist
the half full vs half empty thing is purely semantic. its just how you decide to call the glass. the criteria proposed by the engineer is perfectly serviceable, just like any other. use-criteria of terms is decided publicly though and most people dont intuitively draw that distinction so you cant really argue its the correct way, moreso just a rigorous way of doing it (im being wittgensteinian here - oh wait, see how semantic arguments are influenced by our implicit philosophy of language ideas? huh)
as for the clone question and the last one, that's just straight up not engaging with it. the question is if there is a meaningful distinction between the clones. the guy just points out one distinction and doesn't argue for it beyond restating his point. the clone question is interesting in the sense that youre trying to find some way of functionally distinguishing the two. one comes first, sure, but that doesnt draw a meaningful distinction. if you ran into two identical clones with the exact same memories up to that point, youd have no way of differentiating, and then the interesting question is if theyd truly be ontologically the same object or whether theyd be the same person identity wise. but of course the engineer in this comic would rather be smug, and i understand that that's intended to be a caricature as well. and then with the true observation thing, well... i think that's self explanatory honestly, and if it isnt satire id be very concerned lol. just throw the entirety of epistemology and philosophy of science down the drain why don'tcha?
if it was just those silly examples i wouldnt be bothered, but what does bother me is the "engineers arent allowed into philosophy conferences" bit. that punchline. because the implication seems to be that since engineers just "have the obvious answers" they defeat the point of having philosophical discussions (which are presented as inherently pretentious) so they cant be invited. i dont know the author's pov tho, so its also possible that this is meant as hostile towards the engineer, in the sense that he refuses to engage so much that he shouldnt even be allowed to attend a conference.
both these possibilities are wrong and smug, and beyond whatever authorial intent there is, i wanna add something to the conversation by talking about it.
engineers, mathematicians, scientists of all shapes and sizes, in summary, stem people, need to engage with philosophy. philosophy itself is in a constant dialogue with the sciences (theres a whole field called philosophy of science, and phil of mind is closely linked with psychology) but the attitude i find towards philosophy from the stem side is often (not always, but often) a mix of "thats useless idea-talk" and "ohhh thats so complicated and beautiful". the second take seems nicer but it seems to reduce philosophy to an artform that has nothing to say beyond abstract babbling (though its a lot less malicious of a take for sure, its moreso ignorant - not that a more hostile take cant be born from ignorance, which is my point here).
if you can take something out of this comic strip and out of my rant here it's that the engineer here needs to attend philosophy conferences to broaden his worldview and realize that nothing is as obvious as he thinks! and this is especially important in the current world where instrumental reason runs rampant and everything seems like it has to be "engineerized" to give the simplest, easiest solution/profit. im not one of these pretentious philosophers thatll tell you that philosophy is better than other fields because its useless and only useful for itself. its not. theres a lot at play in philosophical discussions, and it has real life, practical consequences. the easiest example is political philosophy. hegel and marx, hobbes and rousseau, they influenced the course of history, did they not? well there you go. the thing is that philosophy doesnt set a goal from the start and then finds the easiest most efficient way there. its a field of inquiry where you go where the arguments take you. you dont set the destination from the start (ideally)
so yeah. stem people have to appreciate philosophy more. and the "engineers cant attend philosophy stuff" part bothers me because it displays smugness on one side, the other, or both. different fields gotta interact
I find it kind of stupid how 'half full' vs 'half empty' is framed as an optimist/pessimist thing. If it starts full and gets halfway drained, it's half empty. If it starts empty and gets halfway filled, it's half full. If you don't know the starting state it's both simultaneously.
#philosophy#writeup#rant#reblog#i feel like mike ehrmantraut saying “you wanted me to talk? ill talk”#no shade for tagging me though#i appreciate that you thought of indirectly asking for my opinion#so here you have it#i put more effort into this than i shouldve but oh well#philosophy of science and mind are cool btw you should check them out
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ok so
about the autism yippee guy. thing.
look i dont want to tell you that you cant like it. whether or not you like it is none of my business. i am specifically asking if there are other people who dislike it.
personally, i find that thing to be infantilizing as fuck. it simplifies autism into "yippeee!!!!!" and. i dunno. a little pixel sprite thats supposed to be cute, though i personally find it not to be. it looks like it tried to turn the homestuck baby characters into an animal drawn by a child.
what is it supposed to represent even? that autistic people get excited/loud sometimes? yeah, thats true, but i dont yell "yippee!!!"
thats the opposite of what i do
because im fucking autistic
one of the primary struggles of having autism is that your genuine emotions dont come out the way people expect. ive never had genuine joy or excitement translate to a verbal "yippee". it translates to stimming or nothing, usually.
and the expression of the thing rubs me the wrong way. clearly, its meant to represent the problem i just went over. that expressing your emotions genuinely is difficult. but as an autistic person, im the most expressive person i know. why? because i had to learn to be. being animated and expressive is a result of having to force myself to blend in.
so here we are; half of the autism creature is an innacurate representation of what its like to be autistic, something that we cannot express genuinely (socially accepted verbal excitement) and half of it doesnt actually represent how an autistic person might act.
so heres what you might argue: "you have it backwards! the yippee represents the social masking while the expression represents our actual selves!"
if that were the case, then yes, id be wrong. but dont you think theres a reason it reads the opposite way? am i, as an autistic person, reading it wrong? after all, everyone else seems to like it just fine!
but its just. those people who are connecting with the yippee creature guy. i cant relate to them. anytime i meet someone who is obsessed with the thing, they always come across to me as someone whos trying to be autistic. and dont get me wrong, im the last person to have an issue with people exploring their identities and self diagnosing. i think it can be productive, and a great method of soul searching. what im trying to say is that these people seem to be uneducated in what it really means to live with autism. these people always seem to have the "im obsessed with anime so im autistic" kinda thing going on. yknow, people who think that liking something makes you autistic. and yet i talk to them and i cant see any of what actually makes a person autistic beyond just liking something a lot. and i think its these people who use and spread and hype up the autism creature guy, thus why it literally represents nothing about autism except for the stereotypical traits spread by 14 year olds. this isnt a criticism of people "pretending to have autism" its not my place to decide whether or not youve got autism. maybe the thing that tipped you off to knowing youre autistic is the very fact that you tend to obsess over things in an unusual way. instead, im criticizing the fact that the creature that is supposedly a symbol of autism is an absolute bastardization of what an autistic person actually is. just a cute little fandom guy who gets excited about special interests. maybe that represents your autism, but not mine. sure, i like fandom, im a fucking homestuck, pokemon and fnaf fan after all. but simplifying autism down to that trait is why people dont believe we're actually autistic. its stereotypical and harmful, it ignores the traits of autism that actually are hard to live with. how is this creature supposed to tell you that taking a shower hurts because of how sensitive i am to touch, sound and temperature. how is this creature supposed to tell you how i had become socially outcast as a kid because social lines are blurry at best. how is it supposed to tell you that i cant eat 90% of foods, that i cant drink water because the taste and texture will make me want to throw up. or is it saying these things after all, its just hidden and unspoken, and i was supposed to guess. too bad i fucking cant, because im autistic.
im not a cute little animal thing, thats not my autism, and thats not how autism feels. not even on my best day, do i relate with that creature. not even when my interest make me happy, can i look at that thing and go "yes, this is how i feel!" because its so obviously not me. it just feels like its trying to be me, and insulting me in the process.
i dont understand why people like it, and how im supposed to relate to it. i honestly just fucking hate the autism creature :/
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hmp
why cant i communicate clearly? i dont know i feel like im doing.. what others are doing... mimicking them in a way but everytime i talk with someone i never seem to get the reaction im expecting. they always take me the wrong way. i dont feel like i can win in most conversations... ill either be silent and get nothing out of it or say the wrong thing that i dont even know is the wrong thing... and end up feeling weird and off putting. its strange i thought i was getting better at it but i lack the consistency that others seem to have. i thought i if i ignored the expectations i have, and just say what i want it would be more natural and easier. but that doesnt seem to work either. i feel like with the connections i do have, ive already fucked up enough to where i cant say anything to affect their pre established thoughts on me. id love to be able to find out what people truly think of me, not in a narcissistic sense but.... more rather in a way to understand how i come across to see how they think about the things i say. i really dont get it . they can say the exact same things i say, even in the same tone, but it will elicit a completely different reaction. do people just naturally hate me? i know thats self pitying and obviously not true but... even a space where theres no prior history or link to any of my identity i still fail to connect in the way i desire.
"like theres not anyone who.. needs me to be around"
"do you know why that is?"
i dont and thats what bothers me. its weird i want to learn how to not need others but ... in doing so i would definitely solidify the already presence lack of anyones requirement for me. its one of the selfish reasons in why i desire i relationship. i want to need someone in the sense that.. there are few people in this earth who i feel i can share certain parts of myself with, to be able to share it all with one person must be magical... and i want someone to bless me with that same trust. is it so selfish to want to feel special? i dont know i think i deserve it... i just dont know how to get it. not only in a romantic relationship but in all of my connections... i want to be... liked i want to be trusted i want to be ... loved. but. i dont know i guess i must be going about it the wrong way. i cant accept that im just not loveable because well. what do you do then... just die alone and sad?
but i just.. i cant keep waiting for that moment. the flame inside me lingers dully, it will last but it will not give me the strength i need to even enjoy life. i float miserably along. getting stuck on random things that dont even phase others. i dont. i dont know. i WANT to know though, thats the worst thing i WISH i knew what i was doing wrong. maybe i still wouldnt put in the effort to fix it but . atleast id know.
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I fail to see the issue with “masc nouns” (mealexical language). Such nouns refer to language that is generally used to describe individuals who experience some sort of gender masculinity or consider themselves a male/man, hence the use of the use of the word “masculine” (of or referring to men/males). Everyone knows that men do not have to be masculine, but by the same token, surely you realize that masculine people don’t have to be men and can choose referential language that describes them as anyone else. So, yeah, it does make sense if a person who isn’t “male”, a word that is used to describe a binary gender identity, bodily sex and the gender role of “man” often ambiguously, wouldn’t want to be called male if they weren’t one. Still, they may have other connections to manhood, maleness or masculinity they deem significant enough to use mealexical language, and they deserve to have that respected. Male isn’t a dirty word, but it’s a loaded word for many trans people. Also, some people who are masculine aren’t males. Surely, you, a GNC trans man, can at least appreciate that. After all, you describe yourself as effeminate and can obviously distinguish presentation from identity. What it seems that you are misunderstanding is that they can be intertwined in complex ways that you yourself may not understand, but the individual themself does, which can include a non-male identity, but a legitimate desire to be referred to using mealexical language. I find it strange you can separate presentation from identity, but not pronouns and other similar functions of grammar. Can you maybe explain why you feel that way? How is one okay with you but not the other and why?
see i can separate presentation from identity, but i consider he/him pronouns and words like man, which mean nothing except for male, to inherently be.. male and completely separate from presentation.
you basically asked me "how can you separate something that has nothing to do wifh gender from gender, but can't separate words that have no other purpose except for describing gender and referring to someone in a gendered way?"
its not like i think that people have to exclusively be okay with using the accepted pronouns n words n theres no exceptions, but i am saying the people who genuinely want to be called a man, a boy, a him. words that do nothing except describe being a male, have no reason to call that something masculine when it's not, its male.
i get what you mean by masculine people not having to be men, for sure. but why would someone who isn't male actively wish to use "masculine" nouns and pronouns and actively wish to gender themselves as a man? as a male?
and see, im fine with it in a lot of situations. im fine with people calling me a girl in the way that i want crossdress. im fine with people using she/her on me in the same sense. but i am not a girl and i dont use she/her pronouns. i am fine being Seen as a woman because i just don't care. theyre wrong and they dont change what i am, i am not female and i dont identify as female or with female nouns. i like FEMININE things, feminine words. being pretty, being beautiful. none of those things are inherently female. being a girl, a woman, a ma'am however? those are female. so why call them feminine nouns when theyre not?
if someone is a "non-male" but actively wants to call themselves male (1. at that point they probably are male 2.) it is not an excuse to actively try to degender words meant to males and try to force men into using masculine instead of male. there is no "gender masculinity" there's masculinity and theres gender. separately.
#transmed#truscum#masc nouns#whatever!#its just weird to try to take away the word male from men and replace it with masculine
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she didnt look like a man. she looked like a woman wearing a silco cosplay. which is how i could tell she was a woman and not a man. because you can typically tell the difference between short haired women in mens formal wear and regular ass men. do you think theres something wrong with being attracted to masculine women who embrace being women and know that rejecting femininity doesnt make them not women?"
By your own admission they arent a woman bc of her pronouns? Now you're saying bc your opinion and feelings on them that they are and you didn't just insult them and talk shit? Lmfao you spend alot of time creeping on people it seems bc you can instantly spot somebody in formal wear and tell their gender. By your own logic someone like Eliot Page isnt a man bc he isn't masc enough but wasnt a women before bc they looked masc beforehand.
It must be confusing to be so stupid and full of hate plus being small minded.
If this was 50 years ago you would be in a freak show 🤣
you lot tend to get really defensive over people having pattern recognition when it comes to recognizing biological sex. creepy? we are animals for fuck sake, it wouldnt serve us or any other species to not be able to tell who plays what role in reproduction. recognizing sex is literally the basis of sexuality and every time you play stupid youre being homophobic. gay people dont accidentally end up in gay relationships. if people couldnt tell the sexes apart, homophobia wouldnt exist and no gay person would get beaten or murdered for being gay.
anyway, that cosplayer is a woman who rejects her womanhood. she still is a woman and always will be but doesnt see herself as such. pronouns or any other view she may have of herself dont change her reality of being a woman though.
and elliot page isnt a man not because "he isnt masculine enough,” but because she was born female. she is and always has been a woman simply because of this fact. it doesnt matter what she calls herself or how drastically she alters her body. it never mattered how she acted or what she wore because femininity and masculinity have nothing to do with anyones sex. being a woman is the reality of being an adult human female, not an identity you can hop in or out of. same as the cosplayer. not sure where you pulled any of that bullshit from though.
but maybe if you could read what i wrote without twisting every word into something to be offended by you could understand what im actually saying and come up with an argument built upon that instead of arguing with an imaginary person over the made up point of view you gave them?<3
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in your opinion what’s ur top 4 worst dc writers and top 4 worst marvel writers (and maybe top writers too for both?)
even writers i'd put at the top i have issues with sometimes or im not willing to commit to them being good for the future i dont wanna get too friendly w these bitches
tbh most writers write for both marvel and dc (and other stuff) so theres only rly one list and it’s more than 4 because i’m jessie, 25, and i never learned how to shut the fuck up
frank miller - has wronged me personally as well as just. being a bad person and that showing in his writing
dan slott - will see a spiderman franchise doing perfectly fine, ask who is going to fuck this up for the rest of time? and not wait for an answer
grant morrison - just never seems to care about the history of the character theyre writing. like there's jsut no substance because they pretty much do whatever they want regardless of the consequences
charles soule - has wronged me personally. writes comics for years and fails to convince me even once that he likes the character
scott lobdell - just. a fucking idiot. just dumb as all fuck w the atrocious choices he makes in his writing. an honest to god moron
dc: tom king - just writes in circles whist thinking he's saying something profound. he isnt
chuck austen - makes some balls to the walls insane choices no one asked for. sees a woman, fuckin floors it. yes she hulk SHOULD fuck juggernaut and anyone who disagrees doesnt understand redemption
bendis - just. wildly shifts from writing good shit and then some absolute nonsense. often tries to take established characters in new directions and it WORKS sometimes ie daredevil identity reveal but other times its a shitshow ie mcu tinged guardians
brian azzarello - edginess isnt a skill. i would know
favourites that i like but exist eternally on thin ice
mark waid - basic action superhero genre shit w a real intelligence and thoughtfulness which is what makes comics more than just silly little picture books sometimes
ed brubaker - has a classic spy brand throughout all of his books without it being repetitive or boring or out of place
ann nocenti - really DEVELOPS her characters. no character shes ever written has been the same at the end of her run. you believe that theyre really gone through some shit
greg rucka (elektra vol 2 notwithstanding. i do not perceive it) - just fuckin. GOOD honestly. innovative stories without the need for continuity events, care about what hes writing
peter milligan - this is a me thing i think. i just find his writing kinda comfy. ive read elektra vol1, justice league dark vol 1, xstatix more times than i can count. theyre nothing universe changing or groundbreaking and they dont really matter in the grand scheme but i have Fun. his red lanterns book give me bleez content. i owe him my life
john byrne - his superman stuff has real like. soul. and u cant write superman without it. ppl talk about frank miller ~~~~defining batman or daredevil or whatever but byrne's superman is what Defining a character looks like imo
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I'm interested to know what you stance on Misha is after all this. peope seem to be pretty divided about this. has your opinion of him changed?
ok, i think this is gonna be a bit wordy. ive been in this fandom on and off for about a decade. if you follow a show and its actors for that many years, you are going to see them act in ways you cant support. everyones boundaries are different and ive withdrawn my support for people over things that other might find laughable, so i would never say that he hasnt done anything so bad that people should "unstan" him. personally, i dont think he has done something so bad that i cant ever support him again. over the decade he has said and posted some really dumb and sometimes offensive shit and i cant give you an itemised list of all happenings, but iirc he almost always apologised and i dont remember him making the same mistake twice. so if he says he apologises and is learning, i want to believe him, i just have no idea what thats going to look like.
see, a lot of us arent upset about a "misfired joke", if anyone else had done that people would be like "haha embarassing, lets move on", but a lot of people genuinely assumed him to be queer even before he made that comment, which is proven by the thousands of comments going like "i thought he had been out this entire time". a huge amount of people drew the conclusion, based on his actions and his words, that he wasnt straight, even though he personally never said so. so the thing most people are upset about is that theyre now having to recontextualise years (in my case a decade) of stuff we consciously or subconsciously interpreted as evidence. YES you shouldnt assume someones identity, but its not like he dissuaded people from speculating. quite the opposite and that is another reason why people are upset.
they feel like misha has been deceiving them, using his ambiguity for attention and support from lgbt people and theyre not entirely wrong. a lot of stuff can, in hindsight, be explained by him noticing that his fans seem to really respond to him acting a certain why, so why not act that up a little. what i take issue with is the claim that most of his personality and his support for queer causes were to garner support from queer people. i dont know the guy and i cant make any definitive statements, but i believe he is really mostly like that lmao. he has talked about how people are surprised by how, for a lack of a better word, 'unmasculine' or emotionally open he is. if he was just 'acting up the gay' around fans, then why have his colleagues and friends also commented on this? and he definitely has had to experience homophobic microaggressions esp on the set of spn, which doesnt make sense if hes like, a normal macho dude when fans arent watching. again, yes, i totally believe he purposefully exaggerated some of it bc fans eat that shit up and if nothing else hes a people pleaser. and also sometimes straight guys just act a little gay, idk what to tell you.
so now theres the theory that it actually WAS an honest comment, but for some reason he decided he needed to go back into the closet. now, if someone states their own orientation THIS explicitly im bound to accept that, however i can see where this theory is coming from, given that there are some instances that simply cant be explained as jokes or him acting up the gay etc. at least from our perspective. so idk buddy, he might be, he might not be. however i dont agree with the sentiment that him going back in the closet is funny. like ive seen posts like "funniest outome would be him actually coming out in 5 years and nobody believes him" idc if im a little softie, but that idea isnt funny to me at all. IF he ever comes out, im fully prepared to believe him immediately, even if it makes me look like a clown again.
so i can empathise with people having all kinds of reactions to this from trying to make sense of it, to distancing themselves, from trying to forget about it, to dragging him for filth, imho all valid reactions. i dont agree with people saying that this situation is the fault of the fans, ive said multiple times that this specific situation and the fact that people were so ready to believe he's bi were misha's own doing. and i dont agree with people saying he is a master manipulator who has been tricking lgbt people out of their money for years by being a 24/7 gay for pay.
so tl;dr: idk lol? im waiting to see how his behaviour changes after these events, but aside from being really confused i cant say my opinion of him has changed that much?
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Love Malady.
Summary: Daughter of the notorious gang of thieves. One day your brothers group kidnap a nobel woman. Feeling guilt you gave her warm clothes, tended to her injuries, and helped her escape. instantly the world falls under a deadly pandemic and is killing/infecting people left to right and you are the only one who is immune. All because you saved a girl years ago coming to find out... it was the goddess of death(Famine).
Warnings: Blood, injury, cursing, violence. (if theres more feel free to just let me know.)
word count: 1,980 (around there)
Ya’ll this is my first Wanda story(first ever on here) so bare with me. thank you.
its in first person(ill learn 2nd person soon)
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February 12th, 2017.
God, I hate the rain. The sounds of the droplets banging against the roof outside my window is a wonderful way to keep me up. A loud crash rang throughout the room I laid causing a yelp to fall from my lips.
“Y/n?” my brother's voice was heard from the door that seemed to be miles away from my bed. His tall silhouette approached my nightstand switching on the lamp. The brightness that lit the whole room could light a whole village in this type of storm and night we’re in.
“Thunderstorm.” he humbled taking a seat at the end of my bed. I gazed at the window that painted streaks of clear droplets.
“So, what did dad make you and your group do this time?” I whispered, fumbling with my fingers. A sigh fell from his lips knowing how much I hated the deeds my father does, but it's our lives now.
“We crashed a business party.” He answered by handing a beautiful Rolex watch that held so many diamonds that cost more than the house we were in.
“Jaime! You know how risky that is right?” I raised my voice, swiping the blanket off my body walking towards my closet. I opened the doors rummaging through my hoodies finding a white Nike pullover throwing it on. I pointed at the black warmups next to Jaime, he stood up grabbing them, tossing my way. I slipped on my black running shoes heading downstairs.
“Wait Y/n!” Jaime shouted, sprinting from his position which was late by a second when a cry was heard from the entertainment room downstairs. I glanced at Jaime making sure he saw the glare I gave him as I made my way downstairs.
“At least put on a mask- you know how dad is with you and me.” He begged, handing me a mask which I snatched with a frustrated sigh. I placed on the face mask heading towards the door as another cry rang out the room.
“Oh we’d be dead if Mr. Rome was here.” the figure spoke turning his head towards the smaller figure standing in front of the stranger tied to the chair.
“But he's not.” the smaller guy breathed out picking up his hand sending another hit towards the “criminal”. I barged in pushing the small figure full force into the bar sending him over the top landing onto his shoulder. I turned towards the taller man which completely surprised me,
“Got damnit Adam!” I growled sending a hit towards the younger yet taller boy. I looked forward to the stranger with a bag over their head, examining them which sparked my curiosity seeing woman-like features. I grabbed the bag and gently lifted it making eye contact with the horrified woman. Her emerald green eyes filled with tears stared back into mine, I gasped not knowing what to do. Her eyes spoke a million words to me yet I could not find one to say. My hand moved towards her gently placing it against her cheek, she shuddered under my touch but it was not happiness nor relief. It was pure fear.
“It's okay, I'm not going to hurt you.” i reassured her not breaking eye contact letting her read me knowing my true intentions. Soon she nodded, I returned the gesture standing up facing the two boys with an emotionless expression.
“Take off your masks.” I spoke-
“But Y/n-” I walked towards now seeing his face; Buck, grabbing the back of his neck squeezing down onto his pressure point. A cry dripped from his mouth as I faced him towards the terrified woman.
“She is a woman! What did I mention to you all when you were introduced to the group? Hmm?” I asked pressing deeper into his pressure point causing him to grunt. I shoved his neck so his eyes can lock onto the woman's injured face.
“WHAT DID I SAY BUCK?” I yelled, causing the woman to flinch at how loud I was but I didn't care, they're gonna get taught a lesson. He whimpered under my touch letting fearful tears fall from his eyes. I looked up towards Jaime nodding my head towards Adam, Jaime grabbed Adam placing him on his knees next to a crying Buck that stood in front of the girl.
“Respect the ones who mean no harm. We are not strays, we are survivors.” Buck spoke between his tears. I let go of his pressure point sending him to the ground, I huffed loudly looking towards Jaime with disappointed eyes.
“But now since you don't have the right mind to follow those simple rules-” i spoke softly ripping off Adams mask then proceeding to Bucks. Snatching their hoods back to show their whole identity, Jaime placed his hand on my shoulder which I shoved off.
“Now apologize.” Adam was the first to apologize with a small head bow, I nodded to him letting him leave the room. Buck remained quiet breathing heavily, I pushed his back awaiting his apology which nothing happened.
“I don’t owe you anything.” Buck spat towards the quiet woman spitting towards her feet. I grabbed the back of his shirt and sent him back first towards the wall, I grabbed the golf club swinging towards his knee. Screaming in agony clutching his knee I dropped the club sending blows towards his face. Jaime jumped between Buck and i knowing he had enough, i huffed fixing my hoodie walking towards the woman untying her from the chair.
���If I untie you, will you run?” i asked locking eyes with her once more, she shook her head awaiting for what comes next, i helped her up looking back towards Jaime picking an unconscious Buck.
“I want you to tell dad what he did. Both of them.” I ordered Jaime, he nodded walking down the hall to the pool house. I turned towards the girl helping her towards the staircase, she whimpered struggling up the stairs. I wrapped my arms around her waist placing her body weight onto me walking towards my bedroom. Walking into the bedroom I sat her down walking towards the restroom grabbing the first aid kit. I knelt front the quiet woman's legs grabbing the alcohol wipes looking back up to her wondering eyes.
“This might sting a little but i promise i won’t hurt you.” I whispered, placing the wipe against her bloody wrist. A small hiss fell from the girls mouth as she gripped my hoodie, i quietly apologized dabbing the wipe around her wound on her wrist.
“Wanda.” She whispered under her breath when I grabbed the bandage from the kit beside her foot. My head snapped up towards her breathlessly smiling, I grabbed my hood gently taking it off. She watched intently as my hand ghosted over my mask pulling it off, and I looked up sending her a small smile.
“Hi Wanda, i’m Y/n.” i uttered letting her take in my profile, she let out a breath sending me a small smile. I moved up dabbing a warm rag against her eyebrow, I held my breath for some reason being around her made me feel at ease. I looked down to lock eyes with her own thoughts and ran through my head which I shook my head clearing up the dry blood that painted on her forehead.
“Why did they bring you in Wanda?” I asked standing, picking up the used wipes tossing them into the trashcan heading towards the closet. I grabbed a track suit handing it to her,
“I was doing my nightly stroll and I walked past the Richland Suite and I heard crying and it was a little boy. He said his dad was hurt and I saw some people hurting these men and I just froze. Next thing I know I'm getting tossed into a trunk with a bag over my head.” Once Wanda finished I huffed leaning against the bathroom door shaking my head.
“I am truly sorry for what these men have done to you.” Looking down whispering, she walked towards me placing a hand against my cheek,
“ Why am i feeling like this towards a stranger?” she asked gazing into my timid eyes. I gently placed my hand against her waist looking into her eyes.
“Will it make it better if I told you, you’re not the only one?” I whispered my eyes flickering down to her lips. The flashing from her lips to her eyes was repeated multiple times until I leaned in capturing her lips into mines.
Complete bliss.
After what seemed like forever but was only a couple seconds, Wanda pulled away resting her forehead against mine. I sighed knowing it’s wrong to leave her with me, grabbing her wrist I dragged her towards my bedroom door.
“You can’t stay here. My father finds out you were brought here and you’re still here he’ll kill us both. Let’s get you home.” I spoke untying my red bracelet tying it onto her wrist. She watched my movements and slowly looked into my eyes,
“I will never forget you my love.” She spoke but what caught my attention was her voice didn’t sound like a regular American as of before, it dripped with this foreign accent that made my heart flutter. She placed a kiss against my cheek making her way downstairs to the door, I held it open watching her walk down the steps.
“We will meet again Y/n.” She said before walking down the street towards the corner then disappearing into the night. I sighed looking at the sky that cried droplets of water, why am I feeling this way.
“Hey.” I snapped my head towards the hallway to see Jaime playing with his fingers, i hummed waiting for his response,
“We have to take Buck to the hospital.” I scoffed slamming the door walking towards the back door,
“I didn’t even mess up his knee that bad, a little ice and a clean up will do” I grumbled out picking up my pace as I opened the back door walking into the pool house.
“No Y/n, he’s sick.” Jaime defended opening the door for me, walking in I gasped watching a pale Buck throw up into a small trash can that stood near the small couch. Furrowing my eyebrows I leaned down placing the back of my hand against his head-
“He’s on fire- Buck what did you do?” I couldn’t bring myself to look away from his fatigue state but so many unanswered questions danced through my head. Jaime turned on his flashlight on his phone, shining it into the trash can. I gagged seeing the black blood and mixed vomit that pooled inside the can, I wobbled back looking out the huge window.
“My head hurts..” Buck wheezed out, squinting my eyes watching sweat trickle down his temple I noticed his eyes weren’t as blue as they once were. I placed a hand against Jaime’s chest patting rapidly,
“Call Pedro. Get the car ready. Somethings wrong.” I ordered, Jaime fumbles his phone in his hand trying to type in Pedro’s number with shaky fingers. Once Jaime gave me the okay, I grabbed Bucks hand gripping it tightly.
“I’m sorry for the harsh punishment.” I apologized sighing deeply, he weakly smiled tapping my wrist 2 times.
“Gotta learn some way huh..” he tried joking, coughing dryly black and white substance dripped from the side of his mouth.
“Pedro’s here.” Jaime breathed out running in. Jaime grabbed Buck taking him into Pedro’s car, I leaned against the window frame glancing back at a wheezing Buck.
“Keep me updated when you get to the ER with him okay?” I scolded Jaime, he nodded looking at Pedro giving him a firm nod. I stepped back watching the car back away from the driveway riding off into the rainy night.
Part 2
Part One.
Im trying guys.
#wanda maximoff x reader#wanda maximoff#natasha romanoff x reader#the avengers#pandemic#book#wlw#lgbtq#love#goddess
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Infinite is connected to Solaris
This is gonna be a long one, strap in.
Infinite, Infinite, Infinite. The most recent in-game villain, and the most powerful in recent history as well. Despite being only around 3 years old, he’s become extremely popular. and half of that is because of the song.
Mephiles, Iblis, and Solaris. Villains over 10 years old that haven’t been used since their original game appearance in Sonic the Hedgehog (2006)
Or... have they?
Now I want to say before all of this, this all could be coincidences, me being delusional, or something otherwise. It is ONLY a theory, but for something as crazy as I’m claiming I need to preface with this for my own sanity.
But i’m gonna cut the bullshit. You’re here to see how I am going to bs my way to saying that Infinite the Jackal is connected to a dead god from what is regarded as the worst Sonic game.
And, like most of these, I need to start with some house cleaning, some things you need to understand.
1. Time Eater is Mephiles
You might have seen me meme about this before...
...But yeah that’s exactly the situation.
I had theorized this before I knew Ian Flynn thought the same thing. Their identical color-schemes, almost identical aesthetic, and completely identical power-set.
Even the name Time-Eater, that was Mephiles, and Solaris’s goal. To eat time.
2. Ifrit is Iblis
Now i’m going to assume you have two questions
If Time Eater is Mephiles, than where’s his counterpart, Iblis?
Who the fuck is Ifrit
Long and Short,
But, more importantly,
Ifrit is what caused Silver’s Future post Sonic 06.
Ifirit was their retcon for keeping Silver’s future the way it is (even though they defeat it at the end of sonic rivals 2, causing the future to not be that way, hence why Silver was 3 conflicting backstories. Thanks guys.)
So, when it comes to fire demon that destroys the world and causes the future that Silver the hedgehog lives in, that’s a good amount of evidence already, especially with the preface that Mephiles is alive in the form of Time-Eater. If Mephiles was reborn, why wouldn’t also Iblis? and Ifirit is so uncannily similar theres no other candidate.
also, might I add:
(thanks @zorloser)
For you who don’t know, Ifrit’s story ended being re-trapped in it’s pocket dimension with Eggman Nega.
3. The Phantom Ruby
The Phantom Ruby... Oh, the Phantom Ruby.
A very new addition to Sonic, and yet very important. It was the leading mcguffin of two games, and is made out to be very powerful.
yes I know that’s a lot up there, but you need to understand the Phantom Ruby to fully understand this theory.
It’s also very important that Eggman didn’t create the Phantom Ruby as he claims. He created Infinite, not the stone attached to him. Despite there being prototypes, which does confuse me, but from what info we’re given from the wiki the Phantom Ruby seems to have come from Classic Sonic’s universe, even retreating there after the events of Forces. This is also confirmed in Episode Shadow:
Although, Eggman did name it, seemingly on a whim.
~Tangent Time~
Despite being CALLED a Ruby by Eggman, the Phantom Ruby doesn't LOOK like a ruby, despite being magenta.
Rubies CAN be dark even to the point of being Black, but never connected. They’re usually just one shade.
(And don’t you dare say “The chaos emeralds don’t look like emeralds bc they’re not green. They’re all TECHNICALLY emeralds, they’re part of the beryl family, and even if only green beryls are called emeralds, they are all the exact shades of beryl.)
But what the Phantom Ruby DOES look like, is obsidian.
note this for later.
4. Infinite
For those who don’t fully know Infinite’s backstory, it’s expanded upon on the wiki and Rise of Infinite
Now that we’re all on the same page, lets continue to him now.
Lovingly referred to as the “Masked Clown.” Infinite goes about the entirety of Sonic Forces revealing nothing of himself, the only things we know about him are from Episode Shadow and Rise of Infinite. We don’t even see his real face in-game.
Although we have enough to know that his personality changed post Phantom Ruby, it’s even mentioned on the Wiki. Although how much of that change was spurred on by being beat up by a 15 year old, we’ll probably never know.
Although his goal has always been the same. Starting the planet over as a desolate wasteland. What a fun dude to be around. Probably the life of the party.
5. Connections
(i’m using Mephiles and Time-Eater intermittently, same with Iblis and Ifrit.)
Alright, now we’re all on the same page. Let’s move on.
I’m going to play a game we’ve played before. I’m going to name something about Infinite or the Phantom Ruby, and add something that’s eerily simmilar to Solaris (Mephiles + Iblis)
All of this Info can be found on the Sonic Wiki
Phantom Ruby: -It is an interdimensional gemstone of incredible power- Ifrit: It is an interdimensional, demonic fire-creature of incredible power- (wow those are, the same description huh)
Infinite: -After Infinite's fusion with the finalized Phantom Ruby prototype, he acquired the ability to generate, destroy, and manipulate virtual realities, which he could turn into virtual reality projections to interact with reality.[32] Said virtual realities are illusions, which Infinite creates by exercising control of one's visual and depth perception by feeding the brain false information- Ifrit: -Described as capable of binding one's soul, the Ifrit can enslave others with powerful mind control powers.- -Ifrit, which manages to use some kind of mind control on Sonic and/or Tails (or Knuckles and/or Rouge, depending on which team the player is controlling), but is defeated by the other teams, and is destroyed.-
Infinite: -Infinite's newfound strength proved so great that he was able to effortlessly defeat figures like E-123 Omega and Silver the Hedgehog, and ultimately best even Sonic the Hedgehog twice. He was even able to single-handedly overwhelm the entire Resistance army during Operation Big Wave. His power was such that not even the Miles Electric was able to give an accurate reading of his capabilities.[31] Time Eater: -the Time Eater has demonstrated immense super strength; even in its incomplete form, it easily knocked Modern Sonic and Classic Sonic unconscious with a single hit. After being completed, the Time Eater was able to effortlessly repel both Classic and Modern Sonic's and knock them out using brute force alone-
Phantom Ruby: Its powers can also warp the fabric of space-time,[1] allowing it to create pocket dimensions such as Egg Reverie Zone and Null Space, as well as teleport entities from place to place. When used alongside the Chaos Emeralds' time-space powers, it transported Classic Sonic and itself to another dimension, and later sucked Dr. Eggman into a rift- Time Eater: Its signature skill however, is creating "Time Holes",[8] spacial rifts that lead to any point across time and space, including alternate timelines and across different dimensions.
Infinite: When everything you know has come and gone (You are at your lowest, I am rising higher) Only scars remain of who I was (What I find in the ashes, you lose in the fire) When there's no one left to carry on (This is an illusion, open up your eyes and...) This pain persists, I can't resist But that's what it takes to be infinite Solaris: -Much like his two halves, Iblis and Mephiles, Solaris is immortal and virtually indestructible.- -As a transcendent life form, Solaris possesses a unique state of existence that lets him exist in the past, present and future simultaneously, making him omnipresent throughout time and virtually impossible to defeat unless he is attacked simultaneously in all eras-
Possible reach:
Phantom Ruby:
Solaris:
(I’m refering to the odd red-stone in the middle, also that the wings somewhat resemble Infinite’s sword.)
~Tangent Time~
remember the first tangent? Where I meantioned that the Phantom “Ruby” looked more like obsidian than a ruby?
Well someone else looks like a certain type of obsidian, Snowflake Obsidian to be exact:
Alright Reaching time over.
Now you might have noticed that the Ifrit-Infinite connections seemed to fit just a bit more-Maybe it was just me- even down to the Phantom Ruby and Ifrit’s OPENING DESCRIPTION being almost copy/paste, which i’m still amazed at.
This get’s to the next part of my theory.
6. Where are they (Mephiles/Iblis) now?
Welcome to~ where are they now!
Mephiles, or Time-Eater, So far is undocumented. It’s said they were “Destoryed” at the end of Sonic Generations, but for all we know it was just the machine additions, and Mephiles was “destoryed” over 10 years ago and he started kicking again.
Iblis, or Ifrit, was locked in it’s own pocket dimention along with Nega, and hasn’t been seen since...or have they?
haha that’s a callback! Do you remember the beginning of this post or is it too mindbogglingly long for your brain to comprehend in one sitting?
7. The Phantom Ruby is Iblis/Ifrit
let’s talk about the power set of the Phantom Ruby. Interdimentional, very powerful, capable of some kind of mind fuckery.
Ifrit is, Interdimentional, very powerful, capable of some kind of mind fuckery, immortal and is constantly on fire,
You may be wondering about this “Fire” thing. “Solaris was a sun god and infinite has no connection-” WRONG!
sorry that was forceful.
Infinite used a very specific and strange method to destroy the planet. He made an illusion of the sun, and set it on the planet. Out of all the methods, and interesting choice to be sure. But not for a sun god.
also: “What I find in the ashes, you lose in the fire”
“What are you saying you dumb bitch?” You might be thinking. First of all, rude, second of all, I’m saying that the power inside the Phantom Ruby IS Iblis/Ifrit, hence their connection.
Before I get to timeline and other stuff, some minor things:
The decision to have Infinite take on specifically Silver, and showing Silver being able to withstand a fight against him for a good amount of time, as well as giving them a minor repertoire, which no other seemingly “unconnected” Resistance Fighters get.
the name “Infinite” fitting the naming scheme if “Iblis and Ifrit” and you know how this franchise is about naming schemes.
Now, where we last left Ifrit he was trapped in a pocket dimension with Nega.
Where we first find the Phantom Ruby is “In Sonic Mania, the Phantom Ruby appeared on Angel Island after a dimensional breach occurred in the atmosphere.” (via sonic wiki)
Now, it is kinda hard to connect those two lines, but the dimensional causation is there.
(I could add an ENTIRE subsection of me trying to connected Mephiles to the time-traveling nature of Little Planet, therefore connecting Solaris to Classic Sonic’s world ((and “fun is infinite)) but this theory doesn’t need to be any longer and I cannot physically do any more research.)
it’s possible Ifrit would be trapped, Mephiles was trapped in the Scepter of Darkness, so it’s more possible than impossible.
But, Imma be fully honest with you guys, Most of this is because of the song.
If you haven’t heard “Infinite”, What is wrong with you. Go listen to it. Oh my god.
But, some of the lyrics, don’t totally make sense knowing Infinite’s backstory. But it makes more sense seeing through the lens of the added Ifrit influence.
“And after all this time you're back for more“ (If talking about Shadow, it wasn’t a “long time” inbetween Infinite’s defeat and his rise. And Infinite has no stated relationship with Sonic. However, Solaris and subsequently, Iblis, do.) “When everything you know has come and gone“ “But that's what it takes to be infinite“
Even the name “Infinite.”
He chose that name after fusing to the Phantom Ruby and “ABAndoNiNg hIS pAsT SeLf”
But, the Phantom Ruby has no connotations of immortality. None specified. it’s possible it’s power could be used to trick the user into immortality, but it’s never specified. You’d think he’d be called “Phantom” or, even, “Zero” (his working-and possibly true-name) But no. Infinite.
Now, think back to the connections earlier, and the info I took from Solaris’s wiki.
“Omnipresent throughout time and space”
Sounds pretty “Infinite” to me.
Am I saying Infinite is the new Iblis Trigger? Yes.
Ok my fingers hurt from writing this sorry it’s so long
bye
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SK8 the infinity theory: outfits & nicknames at S race
rekis the only character that doesnt have an s name. langa was named after S’s skaters as ‘snow’ but he didnt name himself deliberately, he just accepted it. also, theyre the only main characters that wear the same clothing as in daylight. joe and cherry, both have a nickname, i think is not stated that they purposefuly name themselves after but they seem pretty comfortable with their secret identity or hiding their real identity, like they did it on purpose. they also have specific outfits for S. these character are the ones who try to hide their identity the most if you compare how they are at S and at work. Cherry at S is completely covered up and when reki goes to hom for advice cherry scold him for calling him with his S name. I guess Joe outift (or the lack of it) doesnt try to hide completely but the way he dresses up at work and his personality switch from flirty to dedicated to his job might imply hes not being honest so im not sure if its just a complexity thing for his character or theres another reason. but what they do have in common is they dont communicate between them very much, that leads to many arguments, cherry holds grudge towards adam for leaving them and i think joe and cherry never brought the topic up, maybe their arguments show how frustated they are because of their past. adam wears an outfit too and changes it depending of how he feels when he races vs langa, adams received a stern education by his aunts and his only escape is skating, when he skates he puts all his rage on it (attacking and provoking skaters -reki, cherry) or inviting (langa) to be his companion, impliying that he does feel alone despite having tadashi by his side all the time. adam unleash his emotions, he doesnt have to follow any rule (unlike at his work or at home), he doesnt have to pretend anymore. adam cant appreciate tadashi because adams family neglected him (as a person and his love for skating), i think he feels tadashi lured him to the wrong path thats might expxlain why adam think so low of him, showing no respect pretty differently from when they were kids. i think adams a pretty emotional character, the level of detail he puts on his outfits to express himself how hurt he feels. also the heart symbol is constant of his main outfit throughout the serie might imply that hes looking for love, for someone who loves him for who he is but, does adam know who he is? hes behaving like that due his child wounds, i think he acts like the evil character to rebel againts his aunts, who taught him a distorted idea of ‘love’. i think thats why langa (who is good at skating and a kid/teenager -its nothing creepy i swear-) can remind him the innocence of being passionate about something you love and tadashi taught adam this ‘love’ so thats why he can appreciate tadashi and the end. i think the adults characters show how restricted is the adult world, where you have to pretend you are someone else to be accepted and reki and langa are the ones who can help them because they are teenagers, they can allow thsemselves to just be without expecting anything from the other. going back to the identity thing, thats why i find interesting that reki and langa doesnt wear an specific outfit, they are implying dont need to hide who they are or it might represents the sincerity in their relationship, reki thinks so poor about himself and its a problem when he realised langa is better than him at skating and he tells langa, when they argue he doesnt want to hang out with him anymore and some eps later, after reki solves his own problems he can reunite with langa again and this is langas turn to say what he thinks about reki (hes being honest too). miya wears an outfit too but im not sure whether he tries to cover his idenity cuz hes a junior champion, do skaters at S dont know who he is? or they dont care, i guess S is a place where you can be free despite your good or bad at skating, its a place where you can have fun sharing the activity you love. but i find miya being more cautious at S races than in his professional career. he worries a lot when reki races againts adam, he tries to persuade reki to NOT skate againts him, he even wanted reki to abandon the race because he didnt want him to get hurt. i think he want to protect himself from losing his friends because he was too good and doesnt want anyone getting hurt because of skating. shadow’s outfit is the most tacky of them all but hes pretty aware of it. shadow is the adult characters who mannaged to adapt his wild side and his soft side, that makes me think hes the most mature of them even when he acts childish at races. hes at peace with his personality and i love the duality of this two personalities coexisting like, you can enjoy being reckless but also soft when it comes to people he cares about.
#sk8#renga#theory#sk8 theory#sk8 the infinity#joe#cherryblossom#shadow#adam#kyan reki#hasegawa langa#miya chinen#higa hiromi#Sakurayashiki Kaoru#nanjo kojiro#ainosuke shindo#tadashi kikuchi#snake
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