Not sure if I am broken by dint of burnout or grad school or overwork or disability. I would like to create again. But my notes document with fic ideas has been untouched since my performance review and realizing I need to publish more papers.
Probably a therapist would help? But a dentist is more urgent. Also nagging the plumber.
it’s finally here. in just over 12 hours I will begin taking the NAVLE (a 7.5 hour exam! - the longest exam of my life holy heckie!) to become a licensed veterinarian. im absolutely shaking with nerves and anxiety. I’ve been studying since june, but I still don’t feel ready. all I can do is my best, and whether I pass or fail the exam, im going to do the best that I can and im proud of myself for everything I’ve done to prepare and study for the next exam. and then finally after the exam is over I can have a little break from studying and working to actually enjoy life again and to spend time with my family and be online more to cry over destiel. I won’t find out the results until mid-January, so it’s going to be a nerve wracking month of waiting. but tomorrow im gonna celebrate finishing the exam, for better or for worse, because completing this exam is such a huge deal. anyway… all of this to say, wish me luck on the NAVLE, yall! im gonna need every single ounce of luck and prayers and good thoughts for the exam tomorrow 💙💚
If I had a nickel for every time I caught feelings for a sheepish, mildly pathetic male character with heroic hidden depths from an animated work of fiction whose main profession involved shoe maintenance/repair, I'd have two nickels. Which is not a lot but it's, like. suuuper weird that it happened twice...
I am feelin raw and sad about being a vet rn. I biffed it on, of all things, drawing blood from the jugular in a horse. A thing I've done before, a thing i tell the small animal people if you can hit a dog vein, you could close your eyes and hit the horse jug. Maybe its bc the horses were fat and fuzzy, maybe it's because i got a proctor who nitpicked me to death for the previous 15 minutes and made me nervous. I got it in the second round with nicer proctors so i guess it's fine im just embarrassed and sad. I struggled with the cow blood draw too but that proctor was nice about it but also i feel a little patronized idk. I gotta get stronger physically and i gotta get ready for the full ego death of clinics so i dont cry every time i fuck up.
the urge to tell this woman that she's fucking dumb in the pettiest most angry way vs. me having to calm myself down and be as friendly about pointing out things she might want to reconsider because I am trying to help this horse and telling her off in any way will just result in her shutting down and not considering my (very valid) points at all
got a little personal thing to get out bc i don’t feel like talking about it with people in my real life right not
so i’ve mentioned before on here that i’m currently working with a service dog in training for an organization via a club at my school. the dog i’m working with, justice, has fairly strong anxiety around new people but other than that has been doing amazingly in her training. i’ve had her for about 2 months now and have loved it, it’s hard but it’s a really rewarding experience. today i got a text from one of the professional trainers in the organization that, due to justice’s anxiety, they are looking at placing her with someone else for a while to see if it’s a phase or not. now i fully get that a college campus is an overwhelming place for a dog and that if it is a just an anxious phase this is a rough place to work through it. i also obviously want what’s best for her and her training, that is the priority, that is the commitment i made when signing up to be a puppy raiser. it’s just hard to feel like i did something wrong or that i failed her in some way. i know that this being considered is just due to justice and her issues and my environment maybe not being the best place for her. i’m just really struggling with the possibility of her leaving me so much earlier than expected. it’s also hard because i am finally finding a community here at college in my fellow puppy raisers and i (somewhat selfishly) don’t want to lose that by no longer having a dog i’m working with. i meet with a professional trainer on thursday to discuss and figure out if justice will be placed with someone else and i’m so so so nervous. the hardest part is that i truly think she would be better off being placed somewhere else. i just wish i could acknowledge that without feeling like i did something wrong. because i know that i have done the best that i possibly can with this dog. it also doesn’t help that one of the dogs in the college program recently got moved due to her raiser being irresponsible so i’m also scared of people thinking that a similar thing is happening with me. i hope we can figure out what’s best for justice and i hope that whatever it is allows her to overcome her anxiety and eventually have a career because i think she’d be an amazing service animal. i just wish it wasn’t so hard.
i seriously don't know what to do. i don't think i ever had a clear plan for my life, but if i don't at least know what my next step is, i feel so hopeless.
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