#ik this is part of vet school but my Fears

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I am feelin raw and sad about being a vet rn. I biffed it on, of all things, drawing blood from the jugular in a horse. A thing I've done before, a thing i tell the small animal people if you can hit a dog vein, you could close your eyes and hit the horse jug. Maybe its bc the horses were fat and fuzzy, maybe it's because i got a proctor who nitpicked me to death for the previous 15 minutes and made me nervous. I got it in the second round with nicer proctors so i guess it's fine im just embarrassed and sad. I struggled with the cow blood draw too but that proctor was nice about it but also i feel a little patronized idk. I gotta get stronger physically and i gotta get ready for the full ego death of clinics so i dont cry every time i fuck up.