#vent 10/27/23

[venting-town]

Also, no, violence ISNT “ always “ the answer..

But SOMETIMES it IS the answer, whether ANYBODY likes that or wants that or not

Example, if a kid is being bullied, MOST times the bully won’t stop bullying you if you just “ ask them nicely “ to stop or “ ignore them “. Even if you tell an adult ( even though a LOT of adults, at least the ones I’ve been around, won’t give a damn OR will just gently reprimand the bully. Some adults will even blame the VICTIM and take the bully’s side!! ), the bully may still choose to bully you

At times like these, it is ABSOLUTELY OKAY to beat the fuck out of the bully.

And no, the victim IS NOT “ JUST AS BAD “ as the bully for defending themselves. When the bully believes that their victim is an easy target, yet gets their reality is shaken violently by said victim, bullies often start rethinking about bullying them. Because they now know they’ll fight back

Not to mention that, if a friend of the victim beats the hell out of bully, that friend is NOT “ bad “. The bully is NOT a “ victim “. They got what they deserved

You DO sometimes have to/NEED to use violence to get the point across

This is reality.

Reality isn’t always “ feel good happy times “.

As I said, violence isn’t always the answer.

But sometimes it IS.

[chaoticace2005]

Reasons why Niffty might be so small:

(Related: list of why she has one eye.)

1. To represent the fact that her whole life she felt looked down on by people living in the world as a mixed-race woman in the 50s

2. So she can crawl through the vents easily.

3. Budget cuts. All the money for height was used on Angel, Sir Pentious and Valentino. So there was very little left for Niffty.

4. She was one of Santa’s elves until she fled to become a dentist.

5. Why aren’t YOU that short? God, some people!

6. Everyone else is abnormally tall.

7. To stab people’s ankles when they least expect it.

8. So she can be closer to the floor and closer to the bugs.

9. So she can fit in the oven to take naps.

10. It’s a good size to sneak up behind someone while they’re talking and stab them :)

11. Angel stole it from her.

12. She’s half Egg Boi.

13. With deals with Alastor when you trade away your soul you also trade away part of your height. This happened to Husk too to a lesser extent and is why Alastor can grow to be so tall.

14. She’s a bug puppeting a doll of a demon. This was the biggest size they had.

15. She was actually really tall in life and this is her eternal punishment.

16. Unlike the other characters she never got out through a taffy puller.

17. She’d be too powerful if she was any larger.

18. You need to sleep to grow. Niffty never does.

19. She’s Alastor’s ventriquist dummy

20. So her eye to body size ration is REALLY out of wack

21. She lost the bottom half of her body in the Great Pirate War

22. To consolidate her power. Short people contain energy in a smaller amount of space, making it more pressurized, the more pressure the more powerful.

23. The ears Alastor has actually used to be her feet, but she didn’t want them so she gave them away.

24. Rosie and Alastor got hungry once

25. Every kill she has takes a mm from her height (you don’t want to know how tall she was originally.)

26. So she can be closer in size to her greatest love, a roomba with knives.

27. She knife monopolied too hard once. Got in debt, you can fill in the blanks.

28. So her enemies underestimate her

29. So she can hide under your bed and you will NEVER know :)

[thelonelyempath]

Nonverbal Love Prompts (saying "I love you" without saying "I love you")

Laying on your partner's lap while watching a movie

2. Cooking your partner's favorite meal

3. Giving your partner a massage after a stressful day

4. Randomly hugging your partner out of nowhere (bonus points if you're not a physically affectionate person)

5. Forehead, cheek, nose, and hand kisses

6. Kissing your partner's scars to show that you care

7. Remembering a tiny, insignificant fact about your partner because you thought it was interesting

8. KIssing your partner's knuckles to ease their anxiety

9. Playing with your partner's hair until they fall asleep

10. Watching over your partner with adoration as they sleep on your lap

11. Buying/making your partner something that reminds you of them

12. Laying on your partner's chest and listening to their heartbeat

13. Holding your partner's hand in crowds so you/they don't get lost

14. Texting your partner to tell them you got home safe/make sure they got home safe

15. Cuddling your partner back to sleep after a nightmare

16. Listening to your partner vent about whatever's bothering them

17. Helping your partner with chores/homework

18. Sharing your food with your partner

19. Laughing at your partner's jokes, even if you don't find them that funny

20. Taking care of your partner when they're sick or injured

21. Giving your partner your jacket when they're cold

22. Tucking a strand of your partner's hair behind their ear to better see their face

23. Adjusting your schedule to spend more time with your partner

24. Getting your partner out of a situation that makes them uncomfortable

25. Intertwining your fingers with your partner's while making love

26. Holding your partner against your chest and letting them cry when they're upset

27. Giggling at how cute your partner is when they blush

28. Clinging to your partner when you're tired

29. Deep, passionate, breathless kisses that leave you aching for more

30. Dancing with your partner in the living room

31. Defending your partner in their absence

32. Smiling at your partner just to see them smile back at you

33. Back hugs

34. Having a conversation with your partner using only your eyes

35. Looking at your partner fondly, appreciating the fact that they exist and they're in your life

[prettyboychainsaw]

Gather up variants, cultists, software guys, business majors, and independent journalists alike for (the first?) Outlastober in the year of our lord, the Walrider, 2023.

I tried to get a good variety from all the currently out games. Feel free to write, draw, spatter, or whatever else you can think of for every day of October! Or every other day. Or not at all. I can't control your schedule.

Anywho, tag it with Outlastober2023 and @prettyboychainsaw so I can see it! Good luck! And remember, you're not a fighter.

Plain text under the cut.

1.) My friend, Billy.

2.) Wedding gift / something old, something new

3.) Broken lenses

4.) God?

5.) We want you!

6.) I Deserve to be punished

7.) Jane Doe

8.) St. Sybil

9.) Tongues and teeth

10.) Liver and tongues

11.) Silky

12.) Crown of thorns

13.) Trager Juice

14.) Life support

15.) Trinity

16.) Little pig!

17.) Committed

18.) Gluskin's Hell

19.) Elevator

20.) Beautiful

21.) Vulgar

22.) Frank's Kitchen

23.) Vents and grates

24.) Decontamination

25.) Nachtmahr

26.) Hope

27.) The morgue

28.) Fired

29.) Radio tower

30.) Numb

31.) Kill the snitch!

[ziseviolet]

Ziseviolet’s 2023 Tumblr Top 10

1. 2,297 notes - Jan 1 2023

Q: Can you explain the difference between hanfu and huafu?

2. 1,208 notes - Jun 26 2023

Q: How did Han women manage their menstrual cycle historically?

3. 1,104 notes - Nov 21 2023

“Chinese style meets the Matrix”-esque looks.

4. 454 notes - Aug 21 2023

Q: The intricate "eye patches" seemingly made from gold or metal that cover only one eye - do they have a name or is it something made up? 

5. 278 notes - Feb 15 2023

Paintings of couples in Chinese hanfu.

6. 266 notes - Feb 19 2023

Q: How to distinguish fake/knockoff clothes sold online, so we can buy hanfu from official brands and support the designers.

7. 162 notes - Oct 23 2023

Qipao/cheongsam Taobao shop recs.

8. 145 notes - Feb 27 2023

Vent.

9. 141 notes - Mar 13 2023

Q: It’s better to change "modernized hanfu" into "hanfu theme modern dresses" because most of those are Western dresses with Chinese elements.

10. 136 notes - May 30 2023

Q: What type of clothes did Chinese maids wear? Did they wear ruqun styles and wear their hair in two buns?

See previous years here.

Created by TumblrTop10

[keeskiwi]

I had a lot of fun doing Avian August this year, but the focus on a single family of birds had me thinking a lot about how much I love cuckoos and the sheer variety they have, so I decided I would make my own list... Please join me for #Cuckootober !!

Prompt list in plain text under the cut:

1. Striped cuckoo (Tapera naevia) 2. Red-crested malkoha (Dasylophus superciliosus) 3. Lesser ground-cuckoo (Morococcyx erythropygus) 4. Running coua (Coua cursor) 5. Yellow-billed cuckoo (Coccyzus americanus) 6. Violet cuckoo (Chrysococcyx xanthorhynchus) 7. Dwarf cuckoo (Coccycua pumila) 8. Scale-feathered malkoha (Dasylophus cumingi) 9. Pavonine cuckoo (Dromococcyx pavoninus) 10. White-eared bronze-cuckoo (Chrysococcyx meyerii) 11. Black-faced coucal (Centropus melanops) 12. Lesser roadrunner (Geococcyx velox) 13. Green malkoha (Ceuthmochares australis) 14. Dwarf koel (Microdynamis parva) 15. Pallid cuckoo (Cacomantis pallidus) 16. Rufous-vented ground-cuckoo (Neomorphus geoffroyi) 17. Fork-tailed drongo-cuckoo (Surniculus dicruroides) 18. Channel-billed cuckoo (Scythrops novaehollandiae) 19. Moustached hawk-cuckoo (Hierococcyx vagans) 20. Guira cuckoo (Guira guira) 21. Sumatran ground-cuckoo (Carpococcyx viridis) 22. Chestnut-winged cuckoo (Clamator coromandus) 23. Black-bellied cuckoo (Piaya melanogaster) 24. Groove-billed ani (Crotophaga sulcirostris) 25. Sirkeer malkoha (Taccocua leschenaultii) 26. Pheasant coucal (Centropus phasianinus) 27. Crested coua (Coua cristata) 28. Hispaniolan lizard-cuckoo (Coccyzus longirostris) 29. Yellow-billed malkoha (Rhamphococcyx calyorhynchus) 30. Pacific koel (Eudynamys orientalis) 31. Common cuckoo (Cuculus canorus)

[the-muno-project]

Hey everyone! MunoMari here! This month I decided to do my own October list! It kinda late but I managed to finally figure out something! If you wanna join here the

MUNOBER List!

1. Cookies

2. Venting

3. Anger

4. Sorrow

5. Sub

6. Paralyzed

7. Noodles

8. Nintendo

9. Breakdance

10. Oranges

11. Hallucinate

12. Puppies

13. Roses

14. Timber

15. Childhood

16. Shining

17. Breathless

18. Encore

19. Forgotten

20. Euphoria

21. Discord

22. Alone

23. Fight

24. Smoothie

26. Argue

27. Burning

28. Eyes

29. Courage

30. Love

31. Heartbreak

I’m currently alittle late in the challenge but don’t worry all these drawings will be just as cool as the theme! Here even a sneak peek!

[star-dust-shark]

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20,21,22,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,30,31,32,33,34,35,36,37,38,39,40,41,42,43,44,45,46,47,38,49,50

For the ask thing <3

Woah holy shit

1. ( a nickname of mine? ) Will, Pookie, Brother

2. ( an embarrassing story? ) I once showed a preppy girl a picture I drew of gay furries kissing when I was like nine

3. ( a turn on ) @crowwolf8

4. ( a turn off ) bad hygiene and jerk personality

5. ( something I look for in a partner ) kindness, a nice ass /j, funny and caring

6. ( about my best friend ) I have a few, but @lucasthedoofus-mushroomskulls is the coolest guy ever and he makes me rlly happy and @justagremlinoncaffeine is a cunt ( /j ur so cool ily /p )

7. ( about my worst enemy ) he’s toxic and mean and I hate him so so so much :3

8. ( about someone I think is cute ) hehe I love him :3 ( my bf )

9. ( about someone I think is smart ) smartest girl or maybe even person I’ve ever met, she’s nice and laughs at my jokes even when they’re bad :D I sit with her in French class

10. ( about someone I think is funny ) you laugh at his jokes and then question urself ( lucas, one of my besties I tagged )

11. ( about my crush ) he’s so sweet and so nice and so funny and cute and strong and erm yeah- I’m not a simp trust chat

12. ( about my parents ) I love them most of the time more so my dad I think my mom can be…

13. ( about my siblings ) my brother is annoying as fuck love him tho

14. ( something I like about my body ) nothing lol

15. ( something I dislike about my body ) everything

16. ( something I like about my personality ) I’m sorta funny I think

17. ( something I dislike about my personality ) most things but specifically irl I’m really mean haha

18. ( a quote I live by ) WE HAD A BONDING MOMENT!!! I CRADLED YOU IN MY ARMS!!

19. ( my favourite book ) ermmm probably any pjo novel or spvtw comic

20. ( my favourite movie ) any horror one or star wars one ( attack of the clones, a new hope, Alien, I know what you did last summer, a quiet place )

21. ( my favourite food ) I don’t like food much but maybe gummy sharks

22. ( my favourite drink ) MONSTER MONSTER MONSTER

23. ( a talent I have ) NONE 😭

24. ( an unusual talent I have ) I once armpit farted fifty times in a row 🎀

25. ( one of my favourite followers ) GYATT DAYUM UH- @iloveyapping @justalunaticfangirl @imarayoffuckingsunshine @imqueerandadeer and others

26. ( fictional character I relate to ) Will Solace and Tobias Eaton ( vent warning? )

27. ( my favourite book I read for school ) charlotte’s web

28. ( my favourite play ) idk I haven’t seen many

29. ( a childhood memory ) crying when I had to get off a ride at the fair

30. ( my best birthday ) I don’t really know actually maybe my twelth

31. ( an embarrassing secret ) I’m gay 🫣

32. ( a little known fact ) I’m homophobic

33. ( a time I made a mistake ) dating my ex like girl is a mistake in herself ( my bad chat but she was horrible to me )

I KNOW U ASKED MORE I WILL UPDATE I JUST NEED TO SLEEP NOW LY CHAT

[skelotom]

Skelotom Tarot Masterlist

Below is a list of links to the posts I've been posting. It's easier than scrolling <3

00 - The Introduction

01 - The Dysphoria Beast

02 - The Lich

03 - The Puppet

04 - The Socks

05 - The Closet

06 - The Interrogation

07 - The Water Color

08 - The Ring

09 - The Weight

10 - The Bonfire

11 - The Watcher

12 - The Small

13 - The Rock

14 - The Walks

15 - The Mirror

16 - The Traveler

17 - The Nail Polish

18 - The Relatives

19 - The Inadequate

20 - The Slime Adoption

21 - The Glacier

22 - The Conundrum

23 - The Project

24 - The Tempered

25 - The Prom Dress

26 - The Eyes

27 - The Flood

28 - The Reprieve

29 - The Bridges

30 - The Scapegoat

31 - The Creechurs

32 - The Pupper

33 - The Companions

34 - 38: Venting with Pictures

39 - The Storm

40 - The Thief of Joy

41, 41.5 - The HRT Slime

42 - The Standards

43 - The Mountain

44 - The Painted World

45 - The Fire

46 - The Party Animal

47 - The Edge

48 - The Fool

49 - The Creator

50 - The Creature

51 - The Cold

52 - The Egg Princess

53 - The Composer

54 - The Forgotten

55 - The Illustrator

56 - The Sunk Cost

57 - The Drained

58, 59, 60 - Slime Wisdom

Extras:

Slime Time #1

Slime Adoption, check the "#slime adoption" tag for results

Pollen :(

Long form thank you

Sqirrel Tide

Happy Pride

Creechur adoption, check the "#creechur adoption" tag for results

The Robot

Computers

Depression Creechur

Music:

Ghost Story

Better Together

Green Slime Fields

[snowyaika]

to start off strong, and to give me more motivation to write, i’m opening my asks for requests!!! please feel free to request certain characters or prompts, whatever you’d like!! 

here’s a list of some dialogue i’m up for putting into my work!! but you can always request more than whats put here!!!🫀

[angst]

1: “i wish you never had trusted me.”

2: “i guess this is a lesson in not trusting people, right?”

3: “none of it was real, but i wish it was.”

4: “from the day we met, i knew i’d hurt you eventually.”

5: “i told you not to get too close to me.”

6: “i never loved you.”

7: “what was going through your head when i told you i loved you?”

8: “say you never loved me, say it.”

9: “what are you going to do, shoot me? do it.”

10: “don’t make me kill you.”

[hurt/comfort]

11: “you are what’s important right now.” 

12: “i don’t have anyone anymore.” “ you have me.”

13: “it’s okay, you know. if you need to vent.” 

14: “please don’t go.” 

15: “why didn’t you tell me the nightmares were back? you know i never minded helping with them.”

16: “you know my door is always open to you.”

17: “you shouldn’t smoke, you know.”

18: “you shouldn’t be out here by yourself.” 

19: “you’re not as bad as everyone says you are.”

20: “i just thought you’d like some company.”

[fluff/humor]

21: “are you jealous? want me all to yourself, do you?”

22: “i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile.”

23: “i knew you had a heart.”

24: “would it be too cliche if we matched armor?”

25: “quit smiling at me, you’re making me mess up.” 

26: “i’m trying my absolute hardest to see things from your perspective, but i just can’t get my head that far up my ass.” 

27: “i don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how i feel.”

28: “i turned out liking you a lot more than i originally planned.” 

29: “don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

30: “i just lied to a guard, am i badass or what?” 

aanddd there we go!! as of right now i’m open to all characters, but i cannot promise they will all be romantic! if i don’t feel confident enough writing for them, i’ll just make it platonic! 

also i see other writers do this, where people have their own anons! if you’d like to be one, do your thing! 

ask away! 🫀

[ms-m-astrologer]

Mercury-Sun Inferior Conjunction

Timeline (current events in bold)

Wednesday, July 17, 03:51 UT - transiting Mercury enters pre-retrograde shadow, 21°25’ Leo

Monday, July 22, 10:49 UT - transiting Mercury’s greatest eastern elongation, 27°02’ Leo

Thursday, July 25, 22:42 UT - transiting Mercury enters Virgo

Saturday, July 27 - transiting Mercury enters Storm

Monday, August 5, 04:56 UT - transiting Mercury stations retrograde, 4°06’ Virgo

Thursday, August 15, 00:16 UT - transiting Mercury re-enters Leo

Monday, August 19, 01:58 UT - Mercury-Sun inferior conjunction, 26°35’ Leo

Wednesday, August 28, 21:14 UT - transiting Mercury stations direct, 21°25’ Leo

Wednesday, September 4 - transiting Mercury exits Storm

Thursday, September 5, 02:33 UT - transiting Mercury’s greatest western elongation, 25°09’ Leo

Monday, September 9, 06:50 UT - transiting Mercury re-enters Virgo

Wednesday, September 11, 23:52 UT - transiting Mercury exits post-retrograde shadow, 4°06’ Virgo

***+++===+++***

Yikes. This conjunction matures just over 16 hours before the Aquarius Full Moon - this is a lot of stuff happening at once!!

This particular piece is all about our authentic voice - finding it, honing it, treasuring it. Some scholarly interest or concern may emerge; wait until after Mercury stations direct to pursue it.

Aspects between now and the direct station:

Tuesday, August 20:

Mercury Rx/Leo trine Eris Rx/Aries, 25°25’

Mercury Rx/Leo square Pallas/Scorpio, 25°07’

Second of two for both of them. There are smarter ways to get our point across, than shouting - we just have to make the effort to find them.

Thursday, August 22 - Friday, August 23:

Mercury Rx/Leo (23°26’) sesquiquad North Node/Aries, semi-square South Node/Libra (8°26’)

Mercury Rx/Leo trine Chiron Rx/Aries, 23°11’

Mercury Rx/Leo semi-sextile Venus/Virgo, 22°59’

Mercury Rx/Leo sextile Mars/Gemini, 22°48’

Second of two for all of them. The main thing is the double sextile between Chiron, Mars, and Mercury. It is possible to be direct and honest, without being aggressive and belligerent. We may not feel very comfortable if we can’t rant and rage and vent - try to find a safe place, if you need to let go.

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Venmo Mary_Brack

PayPal MaryVBrack

Thank you!

[venting-town]

Having my own family be complete and utter fuckups at ACTUALLY BEING “ family “ is so disappointing yet.. not really surprising

The majority of stuff I remember from my “ life’s “ or whatever retarded bullshit that is/was/will be/won’t be/ /etc I remember shit family/friends/etc, even though some of them weren’t/half way/ /etc

My own grandmother told me to “ stop acting like a victim “ when I was LITERALLY being raped/sold out for sex daily, not to mention that I HAD been raped/sex trafficked for YEARS at that point, not to mention the other retarded entities/beings/non beings/spirits/non spirits/angels/demons/aliens/ /etc were bothering me ( but at least I got to harm them/still harm them like they deserve for being pricks ), AND not to mention I had nearly died at LEAST twice, my mother constantly chose the fucktard lardass over me ( at least I got to harm/still get to harm him too ), not to mention my own family was a bunch of fucking ignorant retards, not to mentions a fuckton of etc bullshit

So yeah. Fuck family ( I don’t need to do either actually fuck off bitch/bitches ) and fuck hate and love and no and yes and maybe and and and and etc

[ikoarts]

June 2022 Art

vvv dates + info under the cut vvv

1, 2, 3 - 10/06/2022 : Diamond Suit Rouxls! and some of the OG Spade Suit Rouxls, but younger

4, 5 - 20-21/06/2022 : vent art probably, i forgor what about, idk if it even was vent art i think i could also have just been feeling a bit edgy x

6 - 21/06/2022 : SPIDER RU!! shes so beloved to me

7 - 23/06/2022 : My first doodles of my Eustace and Luisa designs!

8, 9, 10 - 27/06/2022 : Think I was playing around with coloured lineart here, also theres a MettaFell since i wanted to try my hand at drawing him

11, 12 - 29/06/2022 : some doodles I did for an AU where I think mtt is used as a supercomputer to power the whole underground and its fucked up and spooky and once hes freed he tags along with Frisk as a decapitated head lollipop chainsaw style

[vibratingskull]

The last farewell

Part1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28

Tags : Angst/hurt/comfort, physical remission, hospital, reader is disabled

You spend your time in the hospital learning how to walk again when Thrawn visits you with an unexpected demand

FemaleReader x Thrawn

“Another step”, the meddroid proposes its voice echoing in the gymnase. 

You hold down the parallel bar and take another step, unsure. 

You're trembling, searching for your balance on those robotic legs. You're not used to them yet. They feel foreign to you despite connecting to your nervous system. Your muscles are shaking as you relearn how to walk. 

You lost so much. 

“Continue the rehabilitation, you are on the right track!” the droid speaks with what is surely supposed to be coded as excitement in the voice, but it just comes out weird. 

You sit on your wheelchair and take out the legs, you still have an immense hill ahead of you. 

You sigh. You're tired. 

“Let's go to your room,” the droid informe stepping forward to push you. 

“No. I'll do it myself,” you decide, waving at him to get out of your way. 

You roll in the hallway, lost in your thoughts. You have so much work ahead of you, so much to reconquer… You're supposed to receive the visit of lower officers but you don't want their pity thrown in your face, you need peace. 

You want peace. 

You arrive at his room. 

You don't get your hopes up, but you can't help it. 

You pass the door… and sigh. 

Vez is still in a coma. 

You roll up to his bed. 

“Hello friend. It is particularly sunny today, you would love to stroll in the garden and sketch some plants.“

He is unresponsive. It's not like a doctor told you he would wake up soon, but it still pains you to see. 

If they have been cruel to you, they have been down right animalistic to Vez. His legs have been cut and he lost both of his lekkus. You're not totally aware of what it entails but you remember the lekkus hold some brain tissues. The docs say he will not have long term brain damages but you doubt he will see it that way. What they took was irreplaceable and you're afraid of his reaction. 

For now he's sleeping peacefully as you were, unaware of his body's damages. Like you his brain puts him in a deep sleep to prevent him from damaging his psyche, docs say he will wake up when the brain will have finished processing what happened but he can still hear around him and feel some sensations. So you come here everyday to talk, to vent, to speak of everything and nothing, trying to put him at ease the best you can. You take his hands, caress his forehead, his cheek, you tell him tales of Ryloth and your own planet, anything you could think about. After the Chimaera left you both at a military hospital you observed these habits religiously. Thrawn wanted first to put Vez in a civil hospital but you refused and fought him on that until he surrendered. You wanted to be here when your friend woke up. 

“I'm making progress with the legs, I thought they would be heavier but once they have been connected to your nervous system they are so light.“

Your hand reaches for the metallic apparatus they jabbed in your spine to control the legs and grazes it lightly.

“We don't stop medical progress,” you say almost to yourself.

You hear his bed neighbor cough, you tilt your head to see if they need help. 

“By the way, yesterday your mom tried to see you. She can't because it's a military hospital but your family is worried about you. I could discuss a bit with her, you're so alike it is fascinating, you caress his cheek, you take his hand and squeeze it. Don't worry, I'll ask Thrawn to put pressure on the direction so she could see you.” 

“A Grand Admiral influence is not supposed to be used as such,” a voice rises behind you. 

You jump in your wheelchair before turning your head to Thrawn, hands clasped behind his back with an interrogative gaze. 

“You scared me,” you chastise him. “How did you know I was here ?” 

“I knew you would not be present at your own meeting with the officers, you were not in the gymnase, it was the only logical option.” 

You nod. Of course. He comes to sit next to you and observe the body of Vez in silence. 

“He did not wake up?” He asks with a soft voice. 

“Not yet,” you shake your head. “The doctors aren't optimistic.“

He nods in silence. 

”Why are you here ?” You inquire. 

He turns towards you with a puzzled look. 

“To give you what you asked me,” he responds like it was obvious. 

You can see the bag he's transporting

“Yes of course, but what are you doing here, on Coruscant ?” 

“I have a martial court about how I supposedly almost destroyed a city to retrieve you.” 

You flush. 

“Didn't you ?” You tease. 

“Absolutely not, each parameter was studied to do the least damage possible, but it was impossible not to deal some damage to the buildings nearby. The arrest of a large slave abductors demanded some sacrifices.” 

He sounds almost angry, but you know better. You hide your smile, it is pretty funny to see Thrawn flounder in politics, it has an innocent and moving side to it. Without thinking about it you take his hand and kiss it. He looks you in the eyes with an unreadable expression. You immediately regret it, maybe he doesn't like physical demonstration of affection in public… 

“Let me escort you to your room,” he says. 

He rises and goes to push your wheelchair, once again you refuse. 

“No, no, no. I can do it. Let me do it.” 

You head towards the room, side by side, he gently adjusts his pace to yours. You advance in silence in the corridors. 

You really hope you didn't cross a line with him… 

You enter, he goes straight to open the window while you maneuver to go to bed. He closes and locks the door and sits on the bed. You look at him with sorry spelled in your eyes. He grasps your hand and caresses it with his thumbs. 

“ I heard you will soon be interrogated by the ISB agents.”

“In three days,” you sigh,” it promises to be hilarious.”

“It is for the good of the Empire.”

“Sure…”

You gulp, in reality you try as much as you can to not think about what happened or you feel yourself overflowed by hate, anger and sorrow. 

It’s eating you alive, terrifying you. You may or may have not exaggerated certain symptoms to get a higher dosage of the drugs to get high and forget. You don’t brag about it to Thrawn, obviously.

“ The date of the trial have been chosen,” he continues

You dig your nails in the sheet.

“Okay…”

Thrawn already explained to you how Nather was surprised by the flash operation, how him and his goons fighted in each rooms, how much lives he took, how he almost made the entire structure collapse on itself with everyone under it when he realized he was trapped but was swiftly disarmed by a precise shot of one of the Stormtroopers. Now he remains silent, surrounded by his army of lawyers in the prisons of the Empire, he refuses to give any intel or names to the ISB agents, hiding behind his pride and his fan. As a prominent Governor he doesn't get the rough treatment, but they are not nice to him either, he holds on surprisingly well. 

You’re not ecstatic at the idea of seeing him again, even in the perspective of his own trial. You’re happy justice will be served, but you don’t know how you’ll react in his present. Will you burst into tears or try to kill him on the spot? Maybe you will go into a deafening torpor and dissociate completely from your body. You don’t know… for now the simple idea of seeing him again makes you sick. 

Thrawn puts your hand to his lips and kisses it delicately. 

“I know it is painful and uncomfortable, but it must be done, he tries to comfort you, be strong.”

You gulp.

“ … Will you be with me?”

“ I have to give my own testimony, so yes. I will be at your side.”

You feel relieved to hear that, knowing that you won’t be alone in this trial alleviate the pain and ease the knot in your stomach.

Thrawn reaches for the bag, changing the difficult subject

“I brought you what you asked for.”

You take it to verify what it holds. You found your purse, the key to your apartment, some holos, your personal datapad… You thank him with a heartfelt smile. He nods with a serious face. 

“There is also an important matter I wish to discuss with you,” he says with the most stern face. 

“Okay ?” 

You brace yourself, he looks a bit tense and that scares you. What could possibly put him in this state ? Are you both suspected in the affair? Did you do something wrong? Outside of getting yourself imprisoned like a damn rookie. Is he gonna criticize your tactical decisions on that day? Is he entangled in problems after helping you out? Did they criticize him for engaging in armed conflicts while on supposed vacation. Come to think of it, he surely didn't take any vacations and planned this from the beginning. 

You look at him ready for any slap across the face, but he manages to surprise you. 

“(Y/n), would you live with me?” 

The air is punched out of your lungs and you can't think straight during three seconds 

“ Would I… What ?” 

By reflex you retract your hand from his and pull the sheet over yourself. 

“Would you live with me?” 

“Yes, I heard the first-I mean… Urgh... Why ?” 

He holds his chin like he is gathering arguments. 

“I do not think you will be able to keep the apartment Governor Satlove is paying for you.” 

You tried to push that thought away so many times, but he's right, unfortunately. 

“And I am already living in the apartment you rent me, I think we should try.”

Well, you didn’t see him as that keen but it looks like you were wrong. And you can’t help a snarky remark.

“ Isn’t it just an adroit ploy to stop paying me your rent?” You grin.

“ No, I am serious, I think we can both benefit from that idea.”

“ I know. It’s a joke. I was joking.”

He looks like he’s computing the info. 

You munch on your lower lip, feeling like a little girl. You giggle, squirming on the bed like a child. 

You never lived with one of your… partners? 

“It seemed to me like a good solution, but I understand you would not appreciate the idea,” he tempers.

“No, no, no! It’s a good idea! It’s just… It’s so sudden.”

“ I figured that is what people like us tend to do.”

“ And what “people like us” are?” You ask.

He seems to think about it.

“Ch'an'ecivon'ot.”

“I have no idea what that means.” You smile wryly

“In basic you would say…” He caresses your hand with the tip of his fingers “Soulmates.”

You freeze again, processing the info.

“That is what we are then?” you ask breathlessly. “Isn’t it a tad dramatic?”

“You think?” He smiles lightly “I thought about us and I liked how that sounded.”

He seems to notice your reluctance.

“I shocked you.”

“No? No, no,no” You try and temper “It’s just that you're coming out really strong and serious and…”

“Yes, I am serious. I am serious about our relationship. Are you not?”

“I… Didn’t have time to properly think about it.” You admit.

He gauges you up and down.

“Do you love me?” he asks bluntly.

You're so taken aback, being cornered like that. Your mouth and throat are dry, you open your lips to speak but nothing comes out.

You love him.

You do, oh yes you do.

But you never worded it, and even less spoke it out loud.

He seems to relax and smile sadly at your discomfited expression.

“Pardon me. It is wrong of me to ask you without telling you first. I should not have put you in a corner like that.” He gently holds your face and kiss your forehead, “Do not fret, cha’cah.”

You slowly relax under his touch.

“Alright, I must go now. I wish you a rapid recovery… “

He seems to hesitate. 

“And come back to me quickly,” he said it so low you almost didn’t hear it.

But you did hear it.

He kisses your forehead and leaves the room.

You look in your purse if he didn’t put your comlink in, but find something else. With a raised eyebrow you take out the envelope simply signed with “Eli”. You completely forgot about that. You never took the time to read the last letter your friend left for you.  You open it carefully, taking ou the folded sheet of paper.

“ (Y/n), I hope this letter finds you better than when I left. I must leave to help Thrawn, but I trust we will see each other again, if you stay by his side it is bound to happen, I am sure. Do not leave his side, it is the most secure place in all the galaxy, and I have reason to think you are not safe. I had the occasion to speak with Governor Satlove alone, and this man sent shivers down my spine, I see nothing behind his eyes but a black void. I do not trust this man (Y/n) and so should you, something is not right with him. He made some inappropriate advances and tried to convert me to his church without my interest. I pushed him back but he insisted. There is something about him downright animalistic and uncivilized despite the dignity he drapes himself in. I had the occasion to speak about it with Thrawn and he agreed with me. Do not refuse the help of a friend, and accept my warning. I picked upon your disdain towards me recently, and even though I don’t know why I want you safe. If I ever did something to anger you, know that I am truly sorry. I wish I could tell you face to face, but I have to go. 

Farewell my friend, I hope to see you under better auspices.

Eli.”

This time tears roll down freely, your body is shaken by sobs, your hands holding the letter tremble erratically. 

“Eli… Oh Eli…” You cry.

How could you? How could you doubt him? Your own friend. But maybe you don’t deserve to call him friend after how you treated him. You hold the letter against your heart. He never deceived you, it’s all Nather’s fault, isolating you more and more, until you had no friend remaining. But he couldn’t get rid of Thrawn and Eli completely. And he won’t be able anymore…

“Hey, girl! How are you feeling?”

You raise your head in surprise, an overjoyed Karyn is here but her expression changes immediately when she sees you crying. She immediately sits on the bed and takes your hand.

“What’s happening (Y/n)?”

“Eli… Eli…“ You can’t formulate a proper sentence.

She takes you in her arms and cradles you.

”We will find him. I promise,” she assures.

She doesn't know the truth, and it is not your place to reveal it. So you just hug her back, squeezing her in your arm, appreciating the warmth of a friend.

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A Month of Mental Wellness - February Spell A Day Challenge

I wanted to write this month’s challenge focused on both self love and mental health in general, so this is the resulting theme- taking care of yourself and your mind. As always, don’t be intimidated by the concept of doing a spell every single day. Just focus on creating or writing the spell, and if you have the energy to perform it, go ahead and do as many as you can!

Day 1 | Spell | Courage

Day 2 | Bath | Mindfulness

Day 3 | Spell Jar | Gratitude

Day 4 | Potion | Beauty

Day 5 | Glamour | Confidence

Day 6 | Sigil | Shadow

Day 7 | Spell | Vent

Day 8 | Charm | Growth

Day 9 | Divination | Fears

Day 10 | Sigil | Acceptance 

Day 11 | Bath | Mental Stimulation

Day 12 | Ritual | Inner Monologue

Day 13 | Spell Jar | Happiness

Day 14 | Spell | Self-Love

Day 15 | Glamour | Respect

Day 16 | Potion | Connection

Day 17 | Sigil | Journal

Day 18 | Spell | Inner Child

Day 19 | Divination | Progress

Day 20 | Charm | Grounding

Day 21 | Bath | Reflection

Day 22 | Spell Jar | Routine

Day 23 | Sigil | Rest

Day 24 | Glamour | Communicate

Day 25 | Ritual | Habit

Day 26 | Divination | Reframe

Day 27 | Bath | Comfort

Day 28 | Charm | Boundaries

Day 29 | Spell | Forgiveness

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Hey regarding the question thing can I get your answers to 9 and 31

YAYAAYY I LOVE ANSWERING THESE TYY

Ok so

9. idk if ive ever had a true accomplishment tbh but probably passing an exam i knew i was gonna fail? ( im so sorry i cant think of anything)

10. i am allergic to mango

11. highs- when i bought a game i really wanted and was able to lore dump for hours, lows was when i had a breakdown ( rlly bad one ) to some music i dont remember the reason but i was 100℅ sure i wasnt gonna make it to today ( sorry about the personal vent,, tldr i had a breakdown with music playing thats it)

12. definitely spain. no clue why but definitely spain or france

13. i listen to ambience / save room music and rant to myself . or just music in general and rant to myself

14. pinterest and last fm ( or any app that lets u track what music/ movies uve watch i love stats and numbers sm)

15. lore nerd with bad taste in movies

16. i like my eyes the most so probably those

17. im somewhat good at writing but only about my interests

18. i am terrible at math and science

19. im ngl probably anytime i went to the doctor and they asked me about how im doing mentally

20. radiohead was named after the talking heads song and they were originally called on a friday because theyd practice on fridays hence the name

21. probably myself? i dont like revealing much about me to anybody tbh

22. my keyboard and guitar definitely i love them sm esp the key board

23. one that ive had since 5th grade iirc,, idk how long its been tho but its defo been a long time since we've been friends

24. when i realized i had to get a job eventually snd pay taxes and move out someday

25. ive never played any :(

26. bad

27. night owl, i wish i were an early bird though 😭

28. i kinda do but i kinda dont its hard to explain. more on the not at all side though

29. these r very weird answers ik i sound like an edgelord rn 😭

" i want to be someone else or ill explode " ( talk show host by radiohead)

" we were good as married in my mind, but married in my mind's no good" ( pink triangle by weezer)

" a heart that's full up like a landfill, a job that slowly kills you, bruises that wont heal " ( no surprises by radiohead)

" you'll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking " ( nude by radiohead)

30. probably just basic self care like showering i dont do anything past that tbh

31. thom yorke, thomas edward yorke, the radiohead singer ( i cant think of anyone else 😭)

Im actually so sorry if any of these were too personal or the answers were too long 😭 i just really like answering these but in so sorry if they seem weird or like im venting