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rainbowcrowley · 8 months

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despite the shitty day and the triggers and traumatic flashbacks that i had to endure today...

i stood up for myself. i said something in the face of injustice and i fought back (as best i could) bc i was being treated poorly. and i'm proud of that.

i did the right thing.

#using tumblr as a diary today #and my therapist said i should write it down soooo #addi.txt #personal

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midnightclover · 8 months

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Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

#my actual posts lol #haha what if i made a daily diary post thing like nico #..i was just thinking #today was a good day #and i thought of this song #ive been playing summon night swordcraft story a lot as of late.. though none today actually #its still on my mind though #i considered using dweller empty path's song flying through a stary sky instead.. but this is what i thought of first #i think it fits best to use it #i actually had to jump through some hoops to upload music!#cus my tumblr app is kinda old.. i cant properly upload music. i could only put a link #which isnt exactly ideal #so i tried in my web browser.. but maybe its cus i havent updated it in a while or maybe just cus its tor.. it didnt work #so i downloaded firefox and did it on there lol #now im editing it in my drafts back on the app #dont ask why im not just doing it on my computer... shes having some technical difficulties. we're working on it #but not today #...#today was pretty eventful.. even if not very productive. but ive never been a very productive person #we went and saw some light festival thing! it was rly nice.. a little simple at times but it was fun #we went and got some yummy snacks earlier too! tho ive already eaten them all hehe #and i started up animal crossing new leaf. i hadnt played it in ages! its startling how much better it is than new horizions.. imo at least #only problem is i couldnt make it the same as my island.. and i didnt remember why i named my last town #we searched for a while for some reference or somfin to name it after.. but we ended up just going with ''faraway''#cus i liked the idea of being asked where im going.. and just saying far far away #and as beth said it has a kinda fairytail vibe!#...only after i named it did i realize i accidentally named it after the town in omori. oops!#...im about to hit the tag limit. so whoevers still listening i just want u to know..#i love you. ok?#goodnight

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huellitaa · 6 months

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girl things

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one-time-i-jumped-off-a-cliff · 3 months

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#AUIAGAHAIVDKFJFHDNSKXJ #sorry #don’t mind me #on tonight’s edition of i don’t have a diary so i’m using tumblr tags #I JUST. HMMMMMM.#sorry for the second day in a row lmao. at least today we got a fun fresh funky gender crisis instead of sexuality.#i’m literally about to leave for college where nobody knows me and it’s not like i was out to lot of people here but. idk #and whatever tf is going on w my gender has never even been spoken aloud lol #from like being kiiiiiiind of a little bit out here #which is. nothing bad has happened. nobody cares. it’s just my friends.#but goddamn #literally i keep coming to the conclusion that i. don’t want people to know. and i feel bad #not even as like a safety thing. or even #i don’t even know #there’s something in me that is so so so so scared #and i just. don’t want it to be something people know about me #but not even as like #UUUUUGGHHHHGGGH #i hate words #i don’t feel bad about it being a part of me. i just #i want it to stay like. with me. which doesn’t even fucking make sense #bc all i do is agonize in the middle of the night. it’s not even like. pride. just sheer #i don’t know #wow ok. goodnight i guess i was not expecting to think abt that tonight holy shit #i literally couldn’t even say it in this whole wall of fucking text wtf is wrong with me lmao.#ok 👍 cool 👍#night

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kindlythevoid · 5 months

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Picture this:

Me, listening to some old-ish Tunes from the 2000s-2010s era, just minding my own business, not really paying attention but jamming out, finding a particular song delightful: *checks phone for band* Me: ... Me:

That is all.

#thank you for your time.#i've decided to just sporadically put (life/wip/otherwise) updates in meme format #so enjoy~#also I saw the frog and toad musical today #10/10 #cried 4 times #in case anyone was wondering how I'm doing #time to use tumblr like the diary I never learned how to use #meme time #nickelback #tbh I think nickelback's music gets a bad rap for no reason #granted I may be able to count on one hand the songs I know by them #but tbf they're all bangers sorry guys #:/#just yelling into the void

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elisedonut · 2 months

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Muliple customers said something along the lines of liking it when I'm working or calling me by name and being happy to see me today

And I just am now once again having "I need to move across the country stat" feels

even though I know I won't because I'm too scared ill end up in a situation I can't handle

Like I know stuff like that is meant as freindly and nice and it's a compliment even but my loathing for being known is too strong for this

Like if you know my name and I don't know yours(which is really common because my memory kinda sucks and my name is easy for most to remember) I am immediately so uncomfortable to a ridiculous degree

I keep running Into people who know me when otw to work or going to get food and I hate it so much

makes me want to find a way to work from home and never ever leave my house again

#It just makes me so uncomfortable for reasons I only barely understand #This sort of thing happened 6 times today and I'm just so ????#Everytime I try to explain it to people no one really like gets it and alot just think its funny #and I can't blame them I barely even understand it myself #using tumblr as a diary again

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katyobsesses · 9 months

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I think my glee obsession is returning in full force

#this is a nice feeling #i didnt have gleecast anywhere on my Spotify wrapped last year for the first time in... years!!!#but here i am listening to all the songs on repeat most of today #and reading glee fic #and looking at my currently abandoned fics #and having Thoughts™️ and headcanons and just...#special interest obsession shit #its calming and happy and sksgxkdk #also my reading brain is back which is SUCH a relief!#its been like 3 months of only being able to read a book in audiobook form #like my sister write this whol prophecy for our dnd campaign and i could not for the life of me understand it not matter how hard i tried #but last session i finally clicked #and im READING A PHYSICAL BOOK TOOOOOOOO #i just feel more settled because of it its nice #i think i really didnt like the weird weather the uk was having- it being HOT AS BALLS and then freezing like the next week #and then christmas and stress over bemefits happened #but now yhats mostly set... i think.. ish... its still confusing and scary #but ay least i have words i can read to escape it #katy liveblogs life #i am using tumblr like a diary rn ignore me 😂

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quiescentdestiny · 7 months

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me for the last three days: hey have you considered writing that thing you want to write? you know that chapter for your story that has been mostly done for literally weeks? no? okay.

#my posts #*the deepest of sighs @ myself*#literally it's like.... mostly done I just need to go in and edit and add a few scenes to make it make sense someone send help #or like force me to do it.#apparently it's “use my tumblr as a diary day” today #hi hello this is my like 4th text post today

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madame-fear · 6 days

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sometimes i wish my mum weren’t such a bitch that makes me feel tense af ahhjd cute priest come save me cute priest

#didnt go to church today and im thinking about him.......#sorry if i make you all depressed with my random shit i use tumblr as a personal diary sometimes #✧.* amiraverse

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lichenbug · 5 months

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guyssss ive been so sick ill yucky for the past like. four days this is balls this is suck wahhhhhh

#i never really used tumblr yto its full Diary Extent n im miserable now so im gonna #rambles #i wanna try n draw today instead of just rotting wug uhh #i neeed job moneey i cant jeep missing job monney this is BALLS #wahhhh wahhh

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3416 · 1 year

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lowkey so proud of myself for learning to crochet tbh fbdjjdkdc

#IGNORE The lack of uniformity ... once i sew rhem together itll look better but im gonna cry to make a blanket #having sm fun now that i actually know what the fuck im looking at...#need to produce smth to create joy in my life rn or ill die fbdndn god #if anyone knits or crochets n has fun patterns for stuff... HMUUU im tryign to practice n learn #this is after like a week of even knowing how to make a chain on a crochet hook lke damn #FEELS GOOD TO LEARN THINGS #dear diary today #jfjsjdjdjd god #gonna use tumblr to mark progress #crochet

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beatheprincess · 2 months

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My life just changed today , I finally downloaded the SIMS OFF OF STEAM FOR FREE and I've been obsessed since just spent the last hour making a family and cc has been going good I am so proud and happy I can play my comfort game againnnn♡😭😭😭😭✌🏽👍🏽💜💕💕💟

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g0thsoojin · 3 months

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#i think i've found a satisfying way to blog now but idk i still feel uneasy and restless #i have this for venting and all of that miserable truth stuff #then i have another blog for posting photo diary and cute aesthic and everyday diary posts #aka softcore vents like 'i feel sad today lol' and sharing random thoughts #nothing crazy...#then i'll keep my main account but not use it for a while and just cool off ://#then i will try really really hard to not make vent posts there anymore #bc yeah its crazy actually but venting and being open abt your feelings and thoughts is BAD #and will like RUIN connections i have with ppl... so i just cant keep doing it #lowkey i wish i had never started using tumblr or twitter like i wish i was in the real world lol

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non-un-topo · 11 months

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Every time I spend too many days in a row at home, I get it into my head that I don't actually want to transition, and then I go back into the world and go Oh. I remember what it's like to have a body and a mind.

#it's almost like a huge portion of our genders are determined socially. by those who are around us and by the situations and spaces we inhab #-inhabit.#it's almost like i study this at an honours level.#<< that doesn't in any way discount or devalue or delegitimize a person's gender identity and expression.#we do Live in a Society #can't really be disabled without the world that disables. might not know you want to transition until you understand your own position.#sometimes it's relative.#also sorry i've been using tumblr as like a complain diary lately. i'm going through some serious shit.#it is a blogging site so.#i'm sure i'm not the only person who thinks 'i must not be trans' the moment i don't feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred.#thanks to the medical/deficit model!#and i do feel intense dysphoria and self-hatred. oh i do. but sometimes it's easier in my home and i forget. and i go:#'Oh! i must be cis because i feel okay about my body and mind today'#*whispering to self* you're just scaaaaared. scaredy little peepeepoopoo pants who won't accept being wrong

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kitsunerokko · 3 months

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i accidentally re-opened some old wounds today. i wonder if i'm really healing, by being less reliant on my DID system than before, or if i've pushed them away, in the name of just chasing a haze of vague pleasure

every year since i got out of "the situation", it feels like it's still the same distance, and yet, how little braintime my other alters get compared to when the escape was still fresh...

but i don't think i'm actually cut out to run the show on my own, despite my best efforts. I'm just, distant... from everything, and everyone... all the time. I feel like I'm trying to belong, to a group, with others, through a window. No, through many windows, and I can't tell which pane of glass is the one I can walk through, if any.

#i've been staying off of tumblr because i suppose... fear #idk i'm trans but i'm really really bad at fighting for myself/standing up for myself #i'm sorry... i always feel like a terrible 'example' of a trans woman #suppose the feeling i had today #i'd share here #for old times sake #since i did use this account mostly as a public diary

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mossflower · 1 year

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k nevermind i’m actually fine

#<- liar. but i missed using tumblr like my own private diary ft Medias it’s like therapy (knows nothing abt therapy)#how we all doing. i see we’re interested in moles which i’m v glad i’m not missing #i am feeling a bit better though!! i go to uni on thursday which i’m excited about and today i went brambling for the first time this year #am still being beset by The Horrors but that’s just like a regular thing. and idk what i was trying to achieve by deleting tumblr #talking on here a couple times a day is good for me i think #like idk how many times i have to remind myself that Cutting Myself Off From Harmless Things I Enjoy Does Not Help Me Mentally #not redownloading the app though. the ad situation was fucking ridiculous and a solid half of the reason i broke down that day #which seems silly in hindsight but yea #anyway. we’re sticking with mobile browser tumblr. we’ll see if it lasts haha #morganposting

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