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itspileofgoodthings · 2 years ago

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the answer to the question of why I am this way is very often anxiety

#I know it’s not my personality etc. etc. but truly never been able to so clearly see how much anxiety I have #until this year!#my very matter of fact counselor: your base line level of anxiety is very high #me: surprised pikachu face #anyway it’s kind of helpful to just see how it has exacerbated so many things over the years that I used to just think …. Was me #and like. It IS. But it’s also a bent/slant/wiring to my make-up that is separate from me #so it just makes sense. like yes I am sensitive and I hate when people say mean things about things I love #but the panic I feel when people don’t agree or word something harshly???? that has manifested physically in me for my entire freaking life #that’s not because of how deep my attachment to it is or some weird psychological reason bound up in the wording of the hurtful phrase #or in the thing I loved itself #Like I used to think it was #It’s just …. anxiety #i don’t have to intellectualize all of it. some things are just triggers and it sets things in motion #it’s hard to know what the triggers are and it’s also funny to reflect on what can be #because I am a very specific fiercely attached funny little bean with a very definite history that has shaped me #but just trying to plumb the depths of every situation that has ever hurt me to try to find some deep truth about why I’m hurt #And what reality I’ve touched on that is causing me pain #It just isn’t what’s happening. It’s pretty simple #I honestly had this breakthrough once about Taylor and why taylor criticism made me anxious #Like I just always externalized all of it in that i would be like it hurts me because of the way taylor is or something #but there was this one moment where it was like it’s upsetting you because of you #But then I put it away and went back to analyzing the world and her externally lol #Anyway it’s going to be a journey! But it does feel pretty big that I’ve been able to reach it here #Also it’s so weird because it’s like shouldn’t I have known earlier? Shouldn’t other people have known earlier? And many DID #but also. I don’t always display it well #I make eye contact! I smile! I speak confidently!!!#And actually a lot of people are like ‘she’s fine she can handle this’ and it’s like I can’t I will DIE #I was talking to Maria the other day about this and she pointed it out to me.#I don’t look vulnerable and I don’t look like you can hurt my feelings by being like ‘I don’t really care for Kylo Ren’#But you CAN and yes that’s the deep love but it’s also the anxiety! I think it’ll just be learning to balance those things in me. Not erase

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notrobinsomethingworse · 11 days ago

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Dick (Nightwing) and Jason (Robin) stare at Bruce. One sports pleading eyes, the other a shit eating grin. There’s a child between them with black hair and blue eyes.

Bruce, he doesn’t know what’s happening but he doesn’t like it: No.

Dick, grinning: He’s our younger brother now.

Jason, nodding seriously: You’re not gonna take him from us.

Tim, got kidnapped while taking photos of patrol, just happy to be there: Where’s the Batcave?

Bruce: what.

Dick, grinning wider: He’s ours now.

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daincrediblegg · 1 year ago

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OK THIS IS NOT A FUCKING DRILL EVERYONE FUCKING REPEAT AFTER ME. THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL DO WHEN YOU WATCH MUPPET CHRISTMAS CAROL THIS YEAR:

You will navigate to the page on disney plus (and it has to be here. Unless someone has actually uploaded the REAL movie anywhere else you cannot get it elsewhere)

BUT YOU WILL NOT HIT PLAY. You won’t do it. Because it’s NOT THE REAL VERSION OF THE FILM AND DISNEY IS FUCKING LYING TO YOU AS IT ALWAYS DOES

You will scroll down HERE. To EXTRAS instead. You MUST GO HERE. This is non -negotiable

THEN YOU WILL SCROLL DOWN TO THE BOTTOM OF THE EXTRAS AND YOU WILL THEN HIT PLAY ON THIS BAD BOY: THE FULL LENGTH VERSION

And you will watch it. And you will thank me for having been so blind and led astray by that stupid fucking mouse. You’re welcome.

#I’m so mad everyone I’m sorry I’m going to make sure EVERYONE sees the proper version of mcc this year or die trying #literally this song is so important to the narrative and the film is so fucking hollow without it #if you grew up with disney’s bullshit version and thought it was good WAIT UNTIL YOU SEE THIS SHIT #please. please watch the REAL version of this film. it means a lot to me ok #the muppet christmas carol #for the love of god please people

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choodraws · 4 months ago

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gossip

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#oldie from patreon #drew the girls a year ago in a blank void #didnt know what to do w it until i pulled it out of the vault a few days ago #some things need to marinate for a long time i guess

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foolsocracy · 7 months ago

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identity reveals are always fun

#batcave search history that night: friend has no name. atlantis naming conventions. atlantian names. r there birth certificates in atlantis #theyre so fun to draw guys im sick with it #also: everyone thinking 'But his name is Garth'#I know that and YOU know that but he doesn't until like..... a few years later. canonically #Unnamed Youth 'Aqualad' No Last Name #and arthur does call him both minnow and tadpole so wally n dick r both right in their own ways #and for ppl who really dont know. garth was abandoned as an infant and didnt hang w anyone until arthur took him in lol. what a life #and arthur girl...... was aqualad the best and only u could do #teen titans #fab five #donna troy #wally west #dick grayson #garth of shayeris #roy harper #dc #dc comics #my art #everyone hangin by the salt water pool so garth can hang w them :]

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beebfreeb · 7 months ago

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Louisiana Meshi!!!! Thistle will be at the crawfish boil.

#dungeon meshi #beebfreeb art tag #louisiana meshi #Hello people checking this tag #I used to live in Louisiana until like a year ago I grew up there #and many of my friends still live there #anyway YES there ARE public school uniforms they're statewide #If you haven't seen the addition go look at it #anyway I don't actually post much DM fanart I love DM but I am a sicko first and a fanartist maybe 5th or 6th #OCS FOR LIFEEEE

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homkamiro · 3 months ago

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Heavy language

#ahh yess...french and russian speaker solidarity #good luck to all of you who pass russian literature exam this year and have to read the whole war and peace page by page #we didn't even read it in my school. or teacher recapped it to us each lesson until we cheated on our tests lmao #team fortress 2 #tf2 #team fortress 2 fanart #tf2 fanart #tf2 spy #tf2 heavy #minor soldier beating scout's ass in the background if you squint your eyes

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pangur-and-grim · 3 months ago

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look at that transformation! well done, Belphie, you’ve defeated death!

#Belphegor #if it were a few years ago there wouldn’t have been anything to do #I would’ve had to watch him continue to bloat until he drowned in his own fluids #but now he gets to be a kitten! now he gets to live!#he’ll grow up and get fluffy and be with me for twenty years #he’ll get to be an old geezer with arthritis!#so many bad things happening every day but for once we get a solid win

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wonkyjaw · 3 months ago

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Quilt update. This is split somewhere in the blues and I have to sew that together and then I have to add one more yellow row to the top. Then the quilt top is finally, finally done.

#dear god this has been a journey #I started buying material and making hexagons out of circles last July so it’s been a year and some change #it’ll be over a year and a half by the time I’m finished probably because I’m spending October writing #so I’m waiting until November to find the time and space to actually quilt this thing #and im doing that entirely by hand too #I may bind it with my sewing machine though because holy hell #my quilt #quilt progress

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lucifers-simp · 2 days ago

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Well, that was fun but now it's time to put him back in the freezer

#until next year #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #narumitsu #phoenix wright #wrightworth #phoenix wright ace attorney #almost christmas #aa #aa1 #dl 6 #manfred von karma #gregory edgeworth #almost christmas means it wasn't christmas #christmas

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egophiliac · 3 months ago

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still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)

anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with nightmare before christmas #hajimari no halloween #calling dibs on skeleton kisses as the name of my band #man scully is just a delightful little weirdo and i'm enjoying him immensely #(i'm going with scully until we get something official just because it makes me think of x-files)#(スカリー is also how the agent's name is transliterated and i don't know if it was intentional but i love it as a bonus reference)#(i want to believe™)#gosh though #'no one at school likes me because i won't shut up about halloween and jack skellington' i'm feeling VERY attacked right now twst #look scully your people are out there #just get on the forums and -- oh wait you're probably from like the 1800s or something #(my theory is that he's from the past and there's just some Book Magic going on to bring us together)#(LOOK they made a point of saying that the book fair has been held annually for a super long time)#a hot topic goth born before hot topic was invented...so sad 😔#i dunno i could be wrong but that feels like a good working theory for now #if it wasn't for mal sensing twsty ~magic~ on him i would think he's like. a christmas elf who's going to kidnap jack in a reverse-nmbc #(not ruling that out though because it would be amazing)#god all the sprites in this event look AMAZING. loving the desaturated colors and the extra drawn-on lines 😍#i'm genuinely kinda sad that we aren't gonna get to see every character like this #who knows...maybe halloweentown will be imperiled again next year...#come back and destroy my keys again please #(that said i'm doing weirdly well so far?)#(i promised i'd save for sebek and just do cursory pulls to get the SRs and not hope for the SSRs)#(...but then leona jumpscared me four coffins in anyway. halloween magic is REAL)

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starcurtain · 9 months ago

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Please someone redraw this with Dr. Ratio and Aventurine because this is the exact vibe they have in my head post-Penacony.

#ratiorine #aventio #aventurine #dr. ratio #honkai star rail #hsr #not exactly #2.1 spoilers #but the vibe isn't present until then #this is canon I'm Hoyo #just trust me #I think my favorite thing about this ship #is that I went in expecting slap slap kiss #but came out of 2.1 convinced that these two could #in fact #get their shit together faster than virtually any other Hoyoverse pair #they're gonna be two years into their relationship before Seele manages to ask Bronya on a date #they're gonna be married before Renheng get their next ship tease #I just think they deserve to be those two guys who show up together #in the background of every promotion and event #and Hoyo never confirms anything #but you never see the one without the other #so everybody just KNOWS #LISTEN HOYO #I'm available for hire #you can pay me to print the money for you

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haridraws · 1 month ago

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#'babe are you ok you're redrawing lotr screenshots again'#fanart #lotr #these are a redo of some from 6 years ago. I wanted to see improvement. and also stare at these words until they're in my brain

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beidak-art · 3 months ago

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sleepless night

#ugghhh I sketched it like 1000 years ago #but had no space to finish it until this evening #bruh #drawing something personal with a BACKGROUND??#I'd never #yet here I am #I'm very happy I could take some reference photos at Malbork Castle couple of months ago #so these frescoes are based on the real ones in grand master's bedroom and are not some random ones :']#ulrich von jungingen #krzyżacy #knights of the cross #artists on tumblr #art #digital art #illustration #medieval

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ceeejus · 1 year ago

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break in the case

#narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #naruhodo ryuichi #mitsurugi reiji #bridge to the turnabout #happy new year!#have been wanting to draw something for this case for a while..#tho realistically i do not think phoenix sat down from the moment he was released from the hospital until the final verdict was read #but what can ya do

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perlukafarinn · 5 months ago

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seven years later i am still not over the fact that dean killed himself because cas was dead and cas never even found out

and to make it even worse, it happened the same episode cas came back to life. dean killing himself to join cas in death, not knowing that cas is actually alive? literally the plot of romeo and juliet aka the most famous love story of all time. and this was never fucking resolved

truly the show of all time (derogatory)

#spn #deancas #destiel #if i think about early s13 for more than .5 seconds i go insane with the implications #btw i didn't even realize it until i googled it for this post but s13 was seven years ago???#i'm so old

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