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it goes something like this. you do something random, something unconventional, because it brings you joy - you let out a weird little noise bc it's satisfying, you wiggle in excitement, you make an oddly specific remark because you think it's a clever observation, you enjoy art/media that's considered just a bit too cringey or meme-y - and immediately your friends laugh, saying how "funny" and "random" you are, how they "can't imagine what it must be like inside your head", and wondering if you're perhaps drunk or under the influence of drugs. And after a while, you start to present your happiness as jokes, because it is much better to think that you've made your friends happy by making them laugh on purpose than to have them laugh at you, until you no longer understand why it hurts to hear others laugh at your own jokes
#neurodivergent#actually neurodivergent#actually autistic#actually adhd#autistic#adhd#actuallyautistic#actuallyadhd#tagging both bc im both and blame both for this phenomenon#realized this fairly recently actually#was showing songs to my friends i listened to as a kid#framed it as 'psychological torture' as a joke and they obv played along#thing is i liked those songs. that's why i wanted to show them#but i didn't understand why it hurt to hear them beg me to turn them off#until the realization hit me#and it happens to so many things too. like sometimes#i do make weird little noises bc they feel good#but nowadays i exaggerate them all so they seem like a joke#hell i make puns bc i think they are clever not bc they're funny#but how do i tell them to stop laughing when i was actively making a joke#sometimes i just wanna be random without fear of consequence
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@candle-scm you did this to me
#adopting the boys for a bit#no but liKe-#they?#tHEM#me realizing I never had a proper atla phase when I first watched it but now that it’s making waves again got me hook line and sinker#ALSO I didn’t know Zukka was a thiNG until my good friend over here introduced it to me and I haven’t looked back#nah because boiling rock hits different nOw#ATLA#avatar the last air bender fanart#avatar the last airbender#atla fanart#zukka#zukka fanart#Zuko#sokka#my art
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was reading up on deleted Muppet scenes. this one's my favorite
#muppets#the muppets#the muppets 2011#kermit#outdesign posts things#other ones that fascinate me include:#a scene in which oil would've been spilled over all the muppets until they realized that would mean destroying everything they just rebuilt#and an early draft wherein some muppets would've died of old age#greatest hits
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ISAT & Dungeon Meshi swap!
#in stars and time#ISAT#Siffrin#Loop#Dungeon Meshi#Thistle#Mithrun#This is incredibly self indulgent art but I've been doing commissions for other people - I can have this treat.#Two series that have me in a death grip right now and boy did the realization of the parallels between these characters hit hard.#Siffrin and Thistle are the “Forgot what it was all for” duo. The “I'm scared to let it go (it must be let go)” duo.#Loop and Mithrun are [REDACTED] [GO CHECK OUT THESE SERIES SPOILER FREE]#God I have so much to say about the Loop and Mithrun parallels. I won't here because I refuse to spoil people on ISAT.#What I *will* say is that both these characters had a similar curve in my interest in them.#Which is “I was ambivalent until the near end - where they then shot up to become some of my favourite characters ever.”#We love characters with an incredible arc that reframes them so intensely that you the reader will never be the same after.#Anyways! (rotates both these crossovers in my head at a rapid orbit and gazes at them fondly).#This is my sandbox and I get to eat the sand!!!#I've got some MDZS/ISAT swap content coming soon as well. My sand eating knows no limits apparently.
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It's a pretty cool name.
Loki + the progression of saying Mobius' name for @percheduphere
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#tysm for the amazing request because GOD did making this hit harder than i'd even expected??#like it's kind of a given mobius fell first#but i've been so swamped all month i basically only had time to finish maybe a gif per night#and let me tell you watching loki progressively fall harder with each and every scene was uh. an experience all right 🙃😳#in S1 loki's so obviously trying to keep their guard up until mobius gets pruned protecting them and it's like a switch flips#the walls come down and you see the power of being believed in the pure RELIEF mobius' presence brings#how much he's valued and needed and LOVED as loki tries to hold him close only to lose him again and again#leading to desperation building until the only option left is to sacrifice everything not realizing now they're both left wanting#y'all i'll never recover 😭#marvel#owenwilsonedit#dianagifs
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Prompt 129
Danny, now an adult, has just moved to the city of Gotham. Actually he’s been an adult for a while, but every once in a while he has to end his life, at least legally, lest someone get suspicious. Usually whenever Dan or Ellie does an oopsie and pulls a firebird with being reborn through their core.
So legally, one Danyal Nightingale, has just moved to Gotham to open a bakery (Thank you for the wonderful recipes and bonding Clockwork) while taking care of his practically newborn son Jordan. Of course Elnath- Ellie- had to pull a core retreat too, which is just his luck.
It wouldn’t be a problem, but he’s trying to not be so broody. A ghost- even a half-ghost- carrying another core though, has instincts turned up to like, eleven. Which again, wouldn’t be much of a problem if not for someone falling into his dumpster late at night bleeding. A vigilante, which he’s sworn to stay away from that life years ago. And it’s not a lethal wound…
But his instincts are screaming to not let the person bleed all around his nest, and he knows from experience that it would continue to bother him. Which is how he ends up with Batman on his couch to Dan’s glee if the ghost chirps are to go by.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#potential spirit halloween#This is before Tim joined as robin but after Jason dies me thinks#Bruce is on a self destruction spiral and there was a lucky hit that managed to give him a concussion#He might cry a little when he first sees tiny baby Dan peeking at him from the crib#There's no proof of it though and he was out of it so it doesn't count#Danny is not impressed with this man's self destruction spiral#No you can't go back to wherever your base is you are sitting your ass down until your ribs are no longer bruised and youre not concussed#You can also just stay right there until breakfast is done you ancients damned idiot#Eventually Bruce will definitely realize the Nightingale family aren't human but for now he's stubbornly trying to leave#Normally when ghosts reform from cores they don't deage but that's not how it works for halfas who have living bodies#Hence them joking about it being like phoenixes or firebirds#does this count as mpreg???#idk it's like 3am rn lol
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I do think it pisses people off how … good… your relationship with Togame is
#I could spend 400k words in m#these tags talking about all the little things but I afear it might be boring#so anyway instead I’m just gonna say togame has been the biggest fandom let down since ………… uh I’d be here forever picking the right#comparison you just have to believe me#anyway everyone was so hype about him for like 2 days until we all realized he’s incredibly hard to write#😔😔😔😔😔LMAOOOOO#and I don’t blame anyone I’m on that boat too and he’s the love of my life. truly.#but like. ARGJSHS why is he … *hits him with a pot*#but yeah that’s just to say people see you together and are like. puzzled you have no relationship problems#and honestly get kinda mad you don’t p*ss each other off. like he is NOT supposed to be a good boyfriend. and yet!#mostly cuz of his reputation n whatnot but it’s still funny for them to come to terms with it#caitie blabs
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its still funny to me im the only jew ive heard of who had their beit din convert them over a zoom call
#this dates my judaism to 2020 pretty hard but ive been in the process since i was 12#living in a town with 3 xtian churches no synagogues and living inside a pagan church my dad ran#i really locked tf in before i even hit puberty like how do i live as jewishly as possible every moment until i am able to formally convert#also now reflecting. wild decision for a 12 year old to make. but i was as certain then as i am now#sorry anyways ! reminiscing. also around the time i realized i was trans so both are inextricable and important to me#in a way thats hard to describe#but i am so happy to be a jew and a transsexual and choose my own destiny with the glorious G-d given gift of free will#Baruch Hashem Baruch Hashem Adonai Eloheinu Adonai Echad
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category 5 Devil's Minion San Fran '73 moment ('it'll feel like a bath. rest. like honey on your tongue.') vs category 5 Loumandiel Dubai '22 moment ('what's he taste like?' 'i didn't ask that.' 'you were thinking it.' 'stay out of my head.' 'honey and pineapple. he stuffs himself with both for days before he offers himself to me. would you like to sample?')
#tv: interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#iwtv#iwtv s1#iwtv season 1#iwtv s2#iwtv season 2#louis de pointe du lac#jacob anderson#armand#assad zaman#daniel molloy#luke brandon field#eric bogosian#devil's minion#reblogged two gifsets three or so hours apart with these exact scenes and didn't realize until i was staring at them for ten minutes#and then it hit like a bullet train my God#the F*CK is it with honey and Armand. what is it what's going on why are they doing this why is he always offering himself#to Daniel in one way or another someone talk to me. pls talk to me#i need to get up and walk around the room otherwise i think i'm going to lose my sh*t
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walter white from breaking bad
Walter Hartwell White (Breaking Bad) is an Anime Girl!
#my name is walter hartwell white. i live at 308 negra arroyo lane albuquerque new mexico 87104. this is my confession. if youre watching thi#s tape im probably dead. murdered by my brother in law hank schrader. hank has been building a meth empire for over a year and using me as#is chemist. shortly after my 50th birthday hank came to me with a rather shocking proposition. he asked that i use my chemistry knowledge t#cook methamphetamine which he would then sell using his connections in the drug world. connections that he made through his career with the#DEA. i was... astounded. i always thought that hank was a very moral man and i was thrown. confused. but i was also particularily vulner#able at the time. something he knew and took advantage of. i was reeling from a cancer diagnosis that was poised to bankrupt my family. han#took me on a ride along and showed me just how much money even a small meth operation could make. and i was weak. i didnt want my family to#go into financial ruin so i agreed. every day i think back at that moment with regret. i quickly realized that i was in way over my head an#hank had a partner. a man named gustavo fring. a business man. hank essentially sold me into servitude to this man and when i tried to quit#fring threatened my family. i didnt know where to turn. eventually hank and fring had a falling out. from what i can gather hank was always#pushing for a greater share of the business to which fring flatly refused to give him and things escalated. fring was able to arrange uh i#uess you could call it a hit. on my brother in law. and failed but hank was seriously injured. and i ended up paying his medical bills whic#amounted to a little over 177000. upon recovery hank was bent on revenge working with a man named hector salamanca. he plotted to kill frin#and did so. in fact the bomb that he used was built by me and he gave me no option in it. i have often contemplated suicide but i am a cowa#d. i wanted to go to the police but i was frightened. hank had risen in the ranks to become head of the DEA and about that time to keep me#n line he took my children. for 3 months he kept them.my wife who up until that point had no idea of my criminal activities was horrified t#learn what i had done. why hank had taken our children. we were scared. i was in hell i hated myself for what i had brought upon my family.#recently i tried once again to quit to end this nightmare and in response he gave me this. i cant take this anymore. i live in fear every#ay that hank will kill me or worse hurt my family. i... all i could think to do was make this video in hope that the world will finally see#this man for what he really is.#breaking bad#walter white#your fave is an anime girl#your fave is#hall of fame
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OHHHHH good lord help me i am so fucking slow but i only just now realized the song's double meaning ohhh my fucking god im so stupid
"the bidding" not only as the first definition heart and mind bidding on soul, just as the original was about bidding for someone, but also the second definition, of SOUL's bidding, his bidding for heart and mind to end their cacophony and finally combine, if not for each other then for him, ughhrhgghh im a fake fucking fan cant even see the clever duality of a song title right in front of me
#it's clever yeah. and i never realized until i accidently misclicked the cccc instrumental timestamp for the song#and the definition literally hit itself on my face#wow. did yall already know this?? and yall didnt tell me??/j#LISTENNN not that its such an earth shattering realization but more of it was an obvious detail i never noticed#im thick headed okay. i take 100+ years to come to a conclusion everyone has already known about. leave me alone😭😭#chonny jash#cccc#jaggy posts
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I will never stop thinking about how their paths intertwined. Meetings by chance and words you say to feel out the other person. How their power comes and goes and rocks your decisions and plans. How even the tiniest point of contact sets things into motion. How Green Phoenix, by never really managing to be fully uncaring (for Thirteen, for inserting himself between the fights of Seven and Red Tooth, for giving Seven directions to the Thousand Demon Dagger) makes Seven and Thirteen's meeting happen. How that later makes him decide for her to "betray" him. How in the end that brought him his own death but he also found sth important along the way. How the last time we ever see him (in the ED) is him smiling. It is truly unbelievable just how much these assassins feel despite their best efforts.
Do you understand...
#this was supposed to be a post for me to be ill about the interactions between Green Phoenix and Seven and yet#I really do think this made me realize how much I grew to love Green Phoenix here#d0 stuff#scissor seven#long post#this trio will never stop haunting me#I've remembered about the s4e10 ed alterations and music and I was again on the floor#you get 4 seasons of this guy being unapproachable and then they hit you with his softest smile directed at little Thirteen and#orz orz orz#the way Seven walks alone but Thirteen has Green Phoenix. Until she doesn't#the way he fought himself so much about saving her again and again but he could never just abandon a kid so he helps out Seven too#it's just so haunting. Green Phoenix I will never forgive you for going out like that#that ED was out there for blood. The shot with little Thirteen looking at a bird taking care of its chicks and then looking up at GP#damage#it's just. Them. Them fr
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I’d love to hear your joe’marr night of natty thoughts if you ever wanted to share! 🥰
augh this is so old i'm sorry!!! but god yes i have MANY thoughts on that night.
below the cut for some rambling nonsensical (very shippy!!) thoughts about it!
so ok. it's long been my headcanon that the night of the natty would be when they first hook up, after a longgggg season of tension and hidden glances and awkward not quite flirting. like basically it would have been building for a long time whether either of them are really aware of it or not (and i doubt they'd be all that aware of it! focus on the football ya know? not on these funny feelings that i'm sure are very normal! that constant elation and adrenaline they feel around each other is just all the winning and record-breaking plays! in fact! winning and their feelings for each other are kind of completely intertwined so how can they even /start/ unpacking all that??)
so anyway! as we all know, joe gives ja'marr the game ball that night. we still don't know the EXACT circumstances (did he plan to, was it a spur of the moment thing, did ja'marr ask for it?? etc etc). we do know ja'marr joked later about not giving it back to joe lol, but i do think that WAS a joke actually. so like, obviously the whole team went out and partied/celebrated and didn't get back to the hotel until probably early in the morning, all drunk on booze and victory and each other! joe and ja'marr would have gone back to their separate rooms and ja'marr would see the game ball just sitting there where he left it on his bed before they all went out. and he can't stop thinking about the soft look on joe's face as he gave it to him. how amazing they were together that night. how it (for all he knows!) is the last time they would ever play together. and suddenly he decides that he needs to go see joe right then and there (to give the game ball back, of course, no other reason 🙂)
so he'd go knock on joe's door (who is still too pumped up on the events of the night to have fallen asleep, but he'd definitely still answer to door shirtless 🙂) and they'd just stare at each other for a moment, then joe would invite ja'marr in (because he's a gentleman) and ja'marr would try to give the ball back (because as much as he was bragging and being goofy about it before, he can't believe that joe would really be serious about ja'marr wanting to keep it. i mean. it's the GAME BALL. joe earned it, joe wanted it!)
and joe would get this serious look on his face and refuse and say that he gave it to ja'marr, that ja'marr deserves it for that game and for everything that season. everything he did for and meant to joe. (and of course what he would REALLY mean is that the ball is 10000% a symbol of his heart and his love and it all belongs to ja'marr, and it has for some time now! but obviously he can't say that because he is a Strong Stoic Football guy and probably still doesn't even realize what he means as he says it)
but i think ja'marr would understand anyway (because he has slightly higher EQ) he would get what joe meant. what everything has been building up to all season long, what joe means to him, what it's going to be like to be without him next year. and they're just looking at each other and they're drunk and vulnerable and neither one knows who makes the first move but they're suddenly making out and ja'marr drops the game ball and they don't even think about finding it until the next morning (because they are otherwise occupied 🙂)
but then the next morning! angst! because they're two dumb college kids who grew up in toxic masculine sports culture and they can NOT deal with what happened (no matter how much they 100% both enjoyed it). ja'marr would rush out of the room the next morning (NOT taking the game ball) and joe would see him trying to sneak out. they'd lock eyes for a moment and not say a word, ja'marr would leave and that would be that. but later that day, ja'marr would find the game ball back in his room. (i dont know HOW but listen joe was a god to the city of nola that day, he could probably convince the hotel staff or something. don't worry about it.) and ja'marr would see it sitting on his bed again and he'd be hungover and tired and freaking out and he would absolutely cry about it a little bit. because he's a huge cry baby and going through a lot 💔
but yeah, things would be awkward for joe and ja'marr during all the celebratory ceremonies, and then joe would graduate and go on to the draft, and ja'marr would stay in nola. and they wouldn't keep in touch at all besides a few texts in various group chats. maybe check in with each other once or twice to see how each other is dealing with like, the pandemic (hey 2020!), ja'marr might text joe congrats on being drafted number 1....and that's it!
UNTIL joe gets hurt his first season, ja'marr's sitting out his season at home in nola, and he reaches out to check on him. it's been long enough that they can both pretend they forgot about it, and they catch up a little bit. they're both lonely as joe recovers and ja'marr isn't playing, so they'd get to talking more and more. ESPECIALLY when it becomes obvious how well positioned cincy is going to be in the draft, and how high ja'marr is going to be drafted. which is when they start making plans that sound like fantasy at first but become more and more realistic, of actually playing together again! (which is how we get to joe texting ja'marr the morning of the draft telling him to have his bags packed 🥲)
of course it's awkward when they first see each other in person again. they barely think of that natty night anymore (except that they do all the time, but they're good at repressing and compartmentalizing! they're athletes!) but when they see each other in person it's hard not to remember everything that happened that night. but hey! they push past it, assume the other one isn't thinking the same things, and try to get that chemistry back (which does actually take awhile, as we all know! probably because of all the emotional baggage!) and then fast forward to their first game together in the pros (against the vikings!! with justin there!! fate fate fate!!!) and it goes so well and ja'marr gets that amazing TD that's just like all the ones they got together at LSU....and uhhh yeah. let's just say they celebrate that night too 🥲
#ok i'm STOPPING myself because good lord that was too long#but long story short - they hook up more and more in the 21 season until after the super bowl loss with all the angst#they have a deep real vulnerable conversation that leads them to realize their true feelings etc etc#but rest assured they do NOT talk about them until that moment lmao#(and probably they're drunk and/or high for that too. but at least they're talking. growth!)#it changes sometimes but this is my primary headcanon for them getting together#i love hearing other peoples' though!#but the natty night being the catalyst...that shit just hits for me 😌#joe'marr
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Y'ALL I think, when Miri said "squeez in closer" she was referring exclusively to Rei and Kazuki to get closer to each other. Previously both of them were on either side of Miri in family photos. Kazuki said "It's fine like this, right?" He said it because they have been taking family pictures like that all the time. This time Miri wanted the two of them to get closer to each other. And that's why she reminded that they're a family. She meant it as in "We're all a family, so yout two shouldn't be hesitant about being close to each other."
And I think the "Family?" was Referring to Kazuki and Rei's relationship. Because Miri only looked satisfied when Kazuki held Rei. Then she took the picture. Oh my god How did I not realize this? She was being a wingman for her dads on the behalf of the fans!
#This scene was so misunderstood#the realization just hit me today#i could be wrong but#I won't believe it until one of the creators says something about it that proves me wrong#buddy daddies#kazurei#kurusu kazuki#suwa rei#unasaka miri
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the more time that passes the more i really like the amazing digital circus so let me know if theres any character you guys want me to draw
#personal#not art#wasnt sold on the pilot but eps 2 and 3 were really really good#ive been going through loss recently so episode 3 hit me very hard#you never realize how common of a theme grief is in media until you experience it#and then suddenly you see it everywhere and you can never escape :')#the luminary wardance event in hsr also hit me really hard for the same reason
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aftg bonus content spoilers‼️‼️
ok but Kevin saying "Coaches have no honor" when wymack said coaches honor???? Like in tsc, spoiler warning if you haven't read it yet, it is revealed to us through Jean how much coaches are feared respected highly in the nest. They're seen at a higher level than a coach should be, seen as some superior being that knows better anyone. It absolutely destroyed me seeing Kevin say that but in the good way because I interpret it to be him unraveling and opening the tight stitches the nest sewed into his mind from a young age.
#aftg bonus content#aftg spoilers#kevin day#the sunshine court#jean moreau#He also seems to be firm and somewhat resentful?? in his statement but I'm not sure abt this since I don't remember the sentence fully#But idk I just see it as him finally opening his eyes and seeing just how messed up everything was in the nest#How he was gaslit and manipulated from a young age conditioned to endure tetsujis abuse and still keep himself from falling apart#He seems to realize that tetsuji (pretty sure he knew before but maybe it didn't properly hit him until after he left and saw how wymack wa#with the foxes) didn't deserve to be put on that high pedestal not when he lost all meaning of the game his mother created not when he lost#sight of its true purpose#if u have any different interpretations let me know! I'd love to know other people's thoughts on this#tetsuji moriyama#david wymack
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