#unreal find on my insta

[dailykafka]

HELLOO???? KAFKA?!?!!?!???

[lilyrizzy]

jealous max who won’t let himself come off jealous but failing my beloved… an essential headcanon in these times lol. also reassuring daniel…

"You are still coming to Monaco, yes?"

It's the third time in just as many days that Max has asked him this. Over phonecalls that he initiated too. It's- Strange. Normally, getting ahold of him while they're in different places is impossible. Daniel once downloaded fucking discord in a desperate attempt to check his boyfriend really was just too busy on the sim and not like, dying in some corner of their apartment.

"Max, of course I am coming," Daniel tells him. For the third time. Then, because hopefully it will remind Max that he can't exactly get out of it- "It's in my contract, remember?"

Instead of the reasuring 'of course,' Daniel is expecting, followed by a mile a minute play-by-play of his charity race on Sunday, there's silence.

Or, at least no words from Max's mouth. Daniel can hear him breathing, the soft drag and drop of air, the rustling of sheets. It's easy then for Daniel to picture him shifting in their bed, and the familiar ache of missing him blooms in his chest.

"Maxy?"

"You can, of course, probably get out of it," Max says after another pause, voice casual in a way Daniel knows him well enough to have nicknamed his 'fuck the media' voice.

Why do you think you have crashed so many times this year, Max?

"Why would I do that?" Daniel asks with a startled laugh. Then, "come on, don't you miss me?"

Their joke that never quite felt it, not when Daniel has had so many things to miss over the last few years. Max, when they're apart. Family. Driving. The version of himself he used to see mirrored in Max's eyes as he watched Daniel climb up onto that top step.

It's even less funny now, when Max asks like he really is uncertain, "I don't know. Do you miss me?"

"Of course I do, baby," Daniel insists, sitting up from where he's been sprawled out on his back, the shitty pillows of the hotel bed too hard. He doesn't know where this is going, but he knows it's nowhere good.

There's more quiet, just the sound of Max wriggling. If Daniel was there, he could roll himself into Max's lap, hold his wrists above his head. Kiss him, tell him he's not letting him go until he turns that frown upside down.

Over the phone, all he can do is wait. Say his name again, until-

"You just- With Scotty, I think you have more fun. Than with me."

Max's voice is small, but his words knock the breath from Daniel's chest.

"Max," is all he can croak out for a moment, unsure of how to fix this.

Clutting the phone harder with one hand, his other comes stupidly to his mouth, knawing. In his mind, he tries to retrace his steps, to work out how they got here, but he knows he and Scotty have been hanging out a lot. And-

And there's some truth to it, Daniel can't lie. It's just not in the way Max thinks. It's not a question of fun, more-

"Sometimes, I just need- I don't know baby, to get away from it all," he rushes to explain around his bleeding nail bed, hating that all has to mean Max too. "The reminders that I'm not driving. That- That I failed."

Scotty is good for talking about everything but. His one good friend that never came with him to every fucking race, wasn't employed because of his career. Didn't see every crack, tear and scream that way Michael, Blake, Max did.

Somebody he can still be Danny Ric with, when he's sick of being Daniel Ricciardo, washed up and left out to dry.

"You did not fail," Max says, petulant, and Daniel doesn't deserve the smile he can't quite bite back, the way Max defends him even against himself. "You- I love you. I do not want to be something you need to run away from. It- It frightens me, feeling not so close."

Daniel is such a cunt.

"We are close," he insists, desperate, because they have to be. This can't be another thing he loses. "We- I'm going to get in the car and drive home right now, and show you how close we are. I'm going lie on top of you, squash you until we become one person, I- Fuck, Maxy, I'm sorry. I love you too, you- You know that, right, that I love you?"

To his relief, Max lets out a noise that's close to laugh, though it sounds wet like he's crying and Daniel wants to wring his own neck.

Instead, he gets up and starts packing.

"Yes?" Max says, checking. "Even if I remind you of all the bad things."

Daniel shakes his head though Max can't see, pausing where he'd been shoving his wallet into his pocket.

"Maxy, you are all champagne showers," he promises, and sometimes he can lie when he's sure that one day soon it will be the truth. "Champagne showers and Monday lie-ins. Just- Fuck it, I'll drive back in my PJ's, just give me a few hours, yeah?"

"You are coming home?" Max asks, hopeful through his tears.

Daniel so badly wants to kiss him.

"Yeah, baby, I'm coming home."

[thelivingdeceased]

writeblr introduction — thelivingdeceased

hi !! here’s an introduction because i haven’t done one :D

about me // October, he/she, aro/ace !! (minor !!)

genres/tropes // sci-fi, horror, found family, dystopia, supernatural elements, morally grey characters, etc :D

hobbies/likes // minecraft, cats, d&d, photography, ice skating, music, and writing (of course) !!

fun facts // i have six cats !! one of them (olivia newton john) is my writing buddy !! (she likes to “help” by stepping on my keyboard)

socials // @//teafrog_literature on insta !!

other // my dms and asks are very much open !! :D

my wips !!

i have two main series’ at the moment (though i do have a few standalone projects) :D

The Unreality

The Unreality is a big big series that I’ve been working on for just under a year. It has stupid teenagers, world bending powers, cosmic horror, what more could you ask for. | Book One | Book Two

genre: sci-fi horror

status: working on the second book :3

summary: It’s the 1970s and a group of teenagers have accidentally ostracised themselves from the general public by joining the Unreality, an entity that allows them to bend reality. With no control over it and the constant weight of everything on their minds, they get into more trouble than it’s worth, and find they have no idea how to get themselves out.

retellings

idk i like retellings and i’m writing a lot of novellas and maybe some novels that are retellings :3

genre: retellings (if that’s a genre) and most times horror :3

status: currently plotting a novel and novella

summary: Hugo Adler has been cursed for most of his life to watch the world from a bird’s eye view, literally. Only able to be human for a few hours at a time and with all eternity to wander, he takes up documenting the lives of interesting people. Watching and transcribing everything live, he learns just how individual the world can be, and how many struggles a human can have.

yippee !!

[ilaein]

Hi babi,

Happiest Birthday to you again. It’s been 8 years and I’m still fond of you. I hope you always well. I’ve been so happy to witness all your achievements in life. I had the chance to see you twice personally and the recent MysteryElevator still lingers in me. You look exactly how I thought of you, well more ethereal than ever. You look so.. so unreal. Most of the time while you are performing I can’t compose my thoughts that u are really right infront of me It feels like I’m just watching you on the big screen. Silly. My soft spoken voice struggle to shout your name as everyone in the crowd did the same. I sob in between some of your songs esp my fave ones. I can’t believe my eyes you’re glowing! Glowing infront of me .. of us..

I remember how stunned I was during our Hi-Bye session. I didn’t expect you’ll be that close.. I nearly can’t breathe. 😅 Got some heart and soul malfunction. 🤭🤣 I was mesmerized.. I wasn’t able to fell asleep no matter how tired I was after the show. I spent the rest of the evening wondering.. how can you be that handsome?! Hahahaha I also promised to myself that, that would be the last fancon of yours that I’ll go to. ‘Cause I just wanna move on with my life.. this life around me. I’m getting old and I find it hard to like someone else while I’m attracted to you. Hahaha It’s crazy. Im crazy.

For the past few weeks I avoided watching your clips that pops up everywhere.. literally in every social I have .. even random reels I was scrolling to in my dummy Insta I saw you! I restricted myself from checking notifs that includes news about you. I even unfollowed your official twitter account haha. I talk about it to some of my friends I requested them not to mention you anymore. ‘Cause they love to tease me using gifs of u or sending me clips about you. I’m still your fan but I have to detach myself in some way before it gets deeper than this. I don’t want my future husband be mad when he sees my diary full of dongmin. Haha.

Recently i bumped into twitter account handler “Kai” she’s the luckiest fan ever. She was able to attend most of your fanmeets and had several videocall with you. I was so happy for her. She even prepared a NEW YORK TIMES SQUARE AD with the largest single LED with the best resoultion! for your Birthday today! Like just wow! She really made everything so possible! She also prepares gifts and a manager of one of your fan projects. Incredible! 🤍💜

Then I realized.. for those long years that I became your fan, I wasn’t able to give you anything.. aside from flexing you on my socials, making you my cover photo since 2016 haha which I remove last 2022z Greeting you a Happiest Birthday in all of my socials.. Facebook, Insta, Twitter, etc. Supporting your songs, projects and dramas silently reposting them.. and just praying for your happiness and health.. that’s all I manage to do.. Don’t have the means to sent you food trucks like what Kim Domingo did.. or to show up in every fancon venue you have scheduled like Andrea. But one thing we all have in common.. that I’m sure of.. We all love you! 🥰

This might be my last post and greetings as I now focus in my own journey. But no matter what I’m still an aroha and eunwoo stan by heart. Thank you for being my inspiration all throughout my college years. Thank you for existing..

Happiest Birthday to you again, naesarang.

May you get all the best in life and please know that you deserve them all.

Yourstrully,

A.Lee

(Ps. As I am writing the last few sentences spotify that’s currently on shuffle playing some random playlist decided to play “STAY” from your Entity Album yes. And I almost chuckled. You’re growing so much on me, I’m scared haha. Next thing I knew I was giggling and turning red. You’re not even here! I’m sweating! Hahahahahaha)

Here are some of your recent pictures I truly love! Its not that obvious I love your long hair right? Haha!

And ops! I will definitely tell you once I had my Gabriel Dongmin hahahaha 🤭

[creatrackers]

Welcome! ✎ 

I am slowly rising from the grave 🪦

Creatrackers (book one) story stats: 24k words, first draft complete, editing stage, novel two in the works, masterpost, synopsis <3

Milly Of The Sea story stats: 17k words, first draft in progress, masterpost, prologue <3

Socials: Main Tumblr: @elizabugz / Insta  / GoodReads 

What I write & like:

Slice of life

Paranormal fiction (cryptids!!!!)

Liminal spaces/unreality

Queer (especially sapphic or ace) characters

Pirates

Quests

Found family

Complicated relationships with family or religion

About this blog & about me ↓

About this blog: this is my writing blog! It’s to focus on finding a community of writers and artists, as well as people who appreciate and want to discuss literature and art! I want plenty of mutuals and will try to support all of them <3 But I started this account to talk about my series! The Creatrackers. I will eventually be posting the first parts of it online (not sure how/where yet!)

DNI: racists, pro-shippers (incest shippers and child x adult shippers especially), homophobes, transphobes or anything anti-lgbtq including terfs

About me: I’m Liz, I’m 20, my pronouns are she/they, I’m a lesbian, and I’m from Canada! My current favourite author is Alice Oseman, I love slice of life and Studio Ghibli, and I’m a college student :) NOTE: I am kinda on and off with this blog to please have patience with me, I never purposefully ignore people! Social media is hard

[dragestil]

hey there, friend!

did you find your way here because of a nature video with (probably hozier) music playing over it? nice! to see all my other similar vids, check my posts tagged #music or #hozier if you’re only looking for vids with songs by him. if there’s a song you’d like to see a video featuring, send me a message! no guarantees because this is just a thing i do for fun but fire away!

did you find your way here because of hozier live performance pics or vids? also nice! you can also check my posts tagged #hozier or #unreal unearth tour for more pics and vids

you can also find my vids on insta (justdragestil) and on yt (dragestil) if you’re into other socials

happy browsing y’all!

[drownkids]

I'm probably just going to think and fool myself that I hallucinated this whole time and that I never saw you. I'll manipulate myself that I never even met you and you re just a figment of my imagination that I made when I was a child. You are just a nightmare of mine. That s the only way I'll live in peace. Because you make me feel out of my body, like I'm watching my own every move. Like I'm watching myself get humiliated by you. You are truly an out of body experience because you make me feel like I'm living a nightmare. You are a reminder that I'll love a portion of my life in full chaos and I'll never get back those seconds of my life I've wasted on you. You make me feel unreal. You make me enter a new dimension full of my worst fucking nightmares. You make me feel like there is something wrong with me and that there's something everyone has that I don't. Like I don't belong where I am. Nobody can tell me that better than you do and we haven't spoken a word face 2 face in a year and 5 months. We weren't official but we just knew it. We never even did something, we just thought about it. And I hate myself and you for what we thought. I wake up in tears every night because of you. Maybe you played with me because i was dumb. I was really dumb. A really emotionally stupid girl. I still am that little emotionally idiot girl. Everytime I fall In love I can't help but think of you and compare. I can't help it. I fall In, over then I remember you. How you ridiculed me. How that could happen again. How this time whoever I fancy will actually physically hurt me. Because you just ruined me mentally. And I don't want to die. No, I'm not fucking suicidal. And I'm not fucking depressed and im not bipolar and no I'm not going to fucking hang myself or what other bullshit you and your friends have told me. I'm not obsessing over you. I'm not mentally ill. I really am not. I just have a lot of emotions that make me a bit unwell sometimes but I certainly do NOT want to kill myself or harm myself in any way. I do have some self respect and I will never do that. I don't deserve that and I never will, I have a thousand reasons to live. You just left me a bit broken. I just want to escape you. Plsase don't ever contact me again if you ever find this blog and LEAVE ME ALONE. i know you have tumblr and you only downloaded it so you can find me and message me because i blocked you on other platforms. I just want peace. That's all I ever wanted from you. I don't want your friendship, i don't want you to be my boyfriend, I don't want you snap, your insta, I don't want to speak with I don't nwant to see your face infact I don't even want to acknowledge your existence. I just want you to leave me the fuck alone so I can be at peace and finally be happy. Tell that to your friends also. I don't want to even hear anything about y all.

[arjunasearth]

Update: Insta-Detox

Reinstalled and reopened the IG App on my Phone again. Logged in for like 10 min. and deinstalled it. Funny how self-reflection fundamentally changed my point of view . I also logged in on my pc after that , to check out a site that posts about astrology ( I like it very much). Looked over a few profiles of people Ive been following regularly (checking stories out, pics, vids). What shall I say. I feel much better when I DON’T check the profiles of certain people everyday. Yes, my tumblr consumption has indeed increased but so has the community here. I am very thankful for this growth we are going through together, from all around the world. I also realize how I follow a lot of people on IG who I know personally and that’s basically it. Haven’t been in touch f2f for years. Makes me think about a real (or rather unreal) connection to them. It is good to openely talk about it here. Will our paths cross again? Ive been following them for years, yet I haven’t seen them for years in person. I dont wanna be a virtual part of somebody’s live everyday without being a physical part of it ( Ofc I mean the people I do know in person). Simply doesn’t feel right. Feels plastic and unreal. Feels more like admiring and observing and less than communicating and interacting. Real, authentic and personal connection is what I define as friendship. Not the digital facade of a person. There is a huge difference between seeking sensation and wanting to be seen. That’s what I am learning right now for sure. So many people build their lives on seeking sensation in a way what can easily happen through oversharing. Enormous amounts of dopamine are being released and people get addicted to it, constantly seeking for more and never finding it. Instead, feeling into privacy and awareness is enabling us to worship each moment, experience, feeling. A proper and conscious regulation of social networking IS a huge factor if you really wanna work on your mental health. I feel like IG is distracting me more frequently that tumblr ever did; besides that I  have always focussed and loved the writing part about tumblr and that it really feels like blogging. Always thankful for continous writing flow and inspiration here. IG is very stuffed with all kinds of ideas, posts and quotes, so it is very hard do differentiate what is fake and what is not. It requires an intensified ‘filtering process’ in the brain.Writing and reflecting about it helps me to figure this filtration out and regulate my media consumption healthily.

[fabiankiss]

Adding Details to Brutalist Buildings: Nuclear Radiation Protection

For my fourth project, I focused on adding intricate details to the Brutalist buildings I had previously modeled. The initial concept for these buildings was to serve as nuclear radiation protection, utilising galvanised steel for its durability and timelessness.

Starting with the basic structures I created in Maya, I imported these assets into Houdini. In Houdini, I used a generator called the Gribble generator from the SideFX website to add detailed elements to the buildings. These NodeGraph generators allowed me to incorporate features referenced from images of bomb shelters, radiation protectors, and nuclear protection structures.

I added layers of detailing to represent the buildings' robust nature, including thick galvanised steel plating, reinforced beams, and structural supports designed to withstand extreme conditions. One key aspect was the inclusion of radiation shielding features. I designed the exterior surfaces with multiple layers of galvanised steel to simulate protection against nuclear radiation, and added heavy-duty doors and windows to emphasise their role in shielding interiors from harmful radiation.

After detailing, I unwrapped the UVs in Houdini to prepare the models for texturing. I then imported the models into Substance Painter, where I added textures to enhance realism. I simulated rust, corrosion, and other effects of prolonged exposure to harsh environments. These details helped convey the passage of time and the harsh conditions the buildings have endured.

Once the detailed models were complete, I imported them back into Unreal Engine where I tested the model in lighting. The detailed Brutalist structures, with their radiation protection features, added depth and authenticity to the environment.

++++ ADD SOME ISSUES YOU TRIED BAKING LOW TO HIGH BUT NORMAL MAP DIDNT WORK THE WAY I WANTED SO YOU KEPT AS IT IS+++

[lqfiles]

i love yapping💓

she def has a lot of good songs but there are so many points made where she’s directly profiting her songs on whichever genre is currently popular and she’s gotten to a point where everything she does now INCLUDING her choice of partners is so clearly for the plot.. not to mention her fake ass activism. (we all know damn well she has the power to speak up for palestine considering how she swayed the 2020 elections w her silly political bf at the time, but she won’t.) her millennial fans are unbearable but to know that there are people my age that love her the same way.. 😰 i won’t deny she does have talent but it only feels reflected in her older songs like folklore and prior (im a bitch for cardigan i eat it up everytime BUT EVEN THEN it coincided w her sudden interest in phoebe/boygenius etc. just like her current fixation w lana???)

ANYWAYS my point is that i don’t like her as a person i couldn’t care less ab her music my issue w her was never ab the music but a lot of her discography does reflect her as a person anyway BUT TO KNOW.. THAT MY ONE OF MY FAVORITE FANFICS… HAS SO MANY REFERENCES TO HER…. IDGAF HOW NON CANON IT WAS IN WHAT UNIVERSE IS EREN JAEGER A SWIFTIE 💔

and what is this about.. dreamzens being swifties… there are like duo edits i can understand being edited to her songs.. but bday edits…

—🪼

i forget how influential she is.. i didn’t know she was THAT influential to influence elections tho?? that’s crazy and you’re so right, this can be said for so many celebs, they have no issue speaking on other political issues but reposting a simple free palestine is too hard? genuinely what can do they lose? most of them are millionaires anyways 😭 her fans feel unreal to me lolll the amount of videos i’ve seen on insta and twt and tiktok of her fans freaking out about her music and having a breakdown is quite funny like the song is THAT good??? really?? also i need to hear more about this profiting off trends to and her bf point 👀 are u saying she is dating that current bf for publicity or to add to her lore? KINDA NEED TO KNOW THE TS LORE NOW i’ve heard stuff here and there and a lot of people seem to dislike her i just don’t know the background lore at alllll ALSO EREN YEAGER A SWIFTIE IS SO HDHSJSHSK 😭😭😭😭

and yesssss i know tiktok is full of edits with ts songs on the regular but some twitter users love to make birthday edits using her songs i remember someone pointed it out like “can dreamzens find another artist to make birthday edits to” lmaoooo its very common, she is loved in dreamville

[anissapierce]

I am unfortunately bound to know if not watch everything north west african actors in the western world r in but the only one i have genuine respect for is mamoudou athie n tht is fully bc of his lack of social media presence n not being a gym bro

[m-matias]

↳ TYPOS, MY BAD !!

## WARNINGS ;; cussing, itto being a dumbass, ANNOYING ASS TYPOS, just itto being cute and dumb and i love him sm, maybe be OOC itto??? i'm not sure lol, not proofread

modern!itto headcanons?! 😱😱😱 hope you guys like this as much as i do, istg itto is such a cutie, i love him sm <33 LIKES AND REBLOGS ARE HIGHLY APPRECIATED!!!!!!!!

thinking about modern!itto trying to use his phone...

nah because this man when he texts you...

HE WILL HAVE SO MANY FUCKING TYPOS, ISTG IT'S UNREAL

for example, you're just asking him how his day went, and he goes:

"yeha it wen tok hhow abiut yoy" (yeah it went ok, how about you?)

AND HE WON'T EVEN TRY TO FIX IT

he'll just move on with the conversation, with more typos..

and the convos you have with him...

DON'T GET ME STARTED

WHEN HE GREETS YOU GOOD MORNING, HE'D SEND THOSE GIF'S

HE'D SEND THESEEE

i feel like a part of him would do it to make you pissed off, and another part of him would just do it unironically becuase he likes sending you gif's

AND WHEN HE SENDS YOU SELFIESS

he sends updates of his life religiously

oh, he's going to buy a coffee? he's going to take a picture of the coffee

oh, he's going to the restroom? he's going to take a picture of the restroom nearby

oh, he's done doing his business, and he wants you to see the bathroom's state? he takes a mirror selfie while a random person beside him is using the cubicle 💀

itto would take pictures in stores that would not allow photography, i can feel it in my bones

AND OMFGGGG, IN GROUP CHAT'S, HE WOULD DEFINITELY BE THE TYPE TO STAY ONLINE 24/7

once, someone said "good morning" in the group chat at 3 AM, and he replied right away

AND HE WOULD SEND THE MOST CURSED IMAGES OF ALL TIME

HE HAS SENT SO MANY AT RANDOM TIMES 💀

HE DEFINITELY HAS HIS NOTIFICATIONS ON AT ALL TIMES

once, he was in this really quiet shop, then suddenly, HIS PHONE IS BLOWING UP WITH NOTIFICATIONSS

AND OMFG, he would post on insta so much

HE WOULD POST SO MUCHHHH

he'd post majority of the pictures he sent you

i feel like a troller would find the picture of the random guy beside itto using the cubicle and that troller would turn itto into an internet meme

he'd also try and do those couple tiktoks of you, i can feel it........

I FEEL LIKE HE WOULD TRY USING THOSE BADDIE COMEBACKS WHEN PEOPLE TROLL HIM ON INSTA BECAUSE OF THE MEMESS

"I don't shut up, I grow up! And when I look at you? I throw up!! 🤣"

but he wouldn't use them unironically

or would he? 🤨

overall, itto is a dumbass and i love him so much 💗💗

[kigozula]

Caraval & OUABH

Heavy spoilers, small pre-review and Questions!! + Evangeline's Cameo in Caraval Finale:

...

Soooo, I've read OUABH weeks ago because I saw it on insta and grew interested immidiately.

I've read the book and was so amazed by it! I was extremely hyped and right before the end, I loved Jacks and wished for Evanjacks to happen in the future.

When I later found out that Jacks also play a role in the Legendary and Finale, I bought the books too. I was unsure at first, since my heart wished Evangeline to be his one true love, but it was stated in the book that Tella broke his heart.

Anyways, I still read the Finale and my view to things, especially to Jacks changed a litte.

First question:

Why was Jacks tearing on his clothes in his church when Evangeline entered it? I assume it happend before he spend the night with Donatella, but his heart wasn't even broken there?

He kept his deal with Evangeline, while already knowing or even palnning (maybe we'll finally know in OUABH 2??) for her to open the Valory arch for him? So, in short, almost everything he makes in Finale is while Evangeline is stone? And Dante even tries to help her inidrectly.

First pic from Finale, second from OUABH

TWO WEEKS AGO? Why would Jacks grieve in that time?

When he shows up a the fated ball of Prince Apollo, he doesn't seem to be heartbroken the whole time after he meets Evangeline again...

SG also stated in an interview that the idea of OUABH came to her mind after Finale. And then she thought she could use the girl who turns to stone in Finale -> Evangeline. So she set things up AFTER Finale, but Jacks still meets Evangeline at the beginning of Finale, which made me a bit sad, since he talks with her flirty when they meet the first time. And when he really planned everything about the Valory Arch the moment he saw Evangline, idk, it's a bit weird...

It feels so unreal that his meeting with Evangeline is while Finale. His attitude etc. don't match it.

Tella, Dante & Jacks

I find Tella's actions a bit wrong, even if I try to understand her. Dante saved and helped her, but she was angrier at him than he deserved imo. Yeah, he has been a bit unfair to her too, but the guy freed Fates to save her and has lots of horrific things to deal with...

Tella, Jacks & Evangeline

In comparison to Tella, Evangeline acts more geniune towards Jacks I'd say? And also, I had the impression that Jacks grew quicker attached to Evangeline than to Tella? Though I have to say, even if he is wicked, he helped them both in his own way.

Yeah, at then end of OUABH I was also angry, but if Evangeline turns his back on him too, and when he really cares for her, which I believe he does, his heart will be broken again. After Appolo's death, I thought they grew closer (SG even stated on her insts that Evangeline fell in love with Jacks while they were searching for the murderer) and I believed Jacks really cared for her. Especially when they communicate through their thoughts at the end when Evangeline is back in the palace and calls Jacks.

To one of my most important questions now:

Is Donatella Jacks one true love? Btw, she accepted it so easily, as if she just accepts simple things. Am I the only one who thinks this is weird? He also acted normal. I mean, she is suppoed to be the Prince of Hearts one and only one true love? And when he kisses Tella, she was supposed to die. His heart started beating much later? Or did he already know?

But then, Jacks heart starts beating in the crypt when he is with Evangeline, and I really had the feeling he is grown attached to her somehow?

Then again, he is a fate and fates can't love. Meaning he was obsessed with Tella, but didn't love her like a human?

Also, how many one true loves can he have? I was savely assuming Evangeline will be his love and hopefully lover & wife?

OUABH 2

I hope that Dante, Tella, Scar & Julian will come back in the future too. It would be so sad. I want to see Dante and Tella together and even meet with Evangeline. And I hope Jacks will fall deeply for Evangeline, Stephanie Garber already stated that Evangeline fell in love with Jacks. I feel sorry for her and hope she will have a lovely future with Jacks. Maybe he can become mortal and fall in love the very first time.

What do you think? Readers who know the characters and Caraval much better than me?

Did Jack fall for Tella? Is she his one true love?

In short, I am so invested in this story! (Still didn't finish Finale btw) I never thought I would love these characters so much. In fact I didn't even think I would like Legendary and Finale so much, since I was a huge fan of OUABH, Evanjacks. It's heartbreaking and complicated!

Great job Stephanie Garber!!=D

[illeee-girl]

La La(chimolala) Land Chapter Twenty-One: Engagement Party

jimin x reader genre: fluff, angst word count: 1.8k warnings: none

[Inspired by La La Land]

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You’re in such a daze about Red Writer being back on that you completely forget about Diana and Taehyung’s engagement party until 5:00. The party’s not until 8:00—but with LA traffic being how it is, it’ll take you at least two hours to get down to Palos Verdes. Which means you have an hour to get ready.

“Aditi, what should I do? If I drive back to my apartment, that’ll give me forty minutes to get ready, and that’s not enough time. Not to shower, pick out an outfit, style my hair . . .” You begin to practically race around the studio in a panic. “Diana’s going to expect us all to be impeccably dressed. No doubt photos will end up on Insta. What do I do?”

You’d both been in a delightful state as soon as you’d arrived at the studio, running from department to department, coordinating the final stages of postproduction in Walter Cleveland’s absence. All of the cast and crew seemed relieved to see him gone, and they’d been very supportive and helpful. It had been a thrilling, if not exhausting, afternoon.

“Just get ready here!” Aditi grins. “I’ll call the hair and makeup team as we walk over there. And I’m sure wardrobe will be willing to help out.”

Your fabulous assistant turns out to be correct. The stylists had just finished prepping the lead actors for their photoshoot for the movie poster and had some time on their hands. You thank them profusely for helping you out, and apologize even more adamantly for using their professional skills for your personal life. They just giggle as they douse you in hairspray.

You're surrounded by a cloud of aerosol when Taylor from wardrobe came bursting in the hair and makeup room, a rack of dresses and high heels in tow.

“Miss Y/N,” he says, panting, “do you think hot pink would clash with your skin tone?”

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After a highly productive, Jimin thought-free afternoon, you allow your mind to wander to him during the drive down to Palos Verdes.

It’s a shame he’s not accompanying me to this party, you think. It would be so special to witness this moment between our two friends together. Also, his jaw would drop to the floor if he saw me in this dress—even more than it did when I wore the blue one that night. That night I drove him to LAX and said goodbye . . .

The sunset is in full swing behind you as you walk into the golf club’s main venue atop the hill in Palos Verdes. The Pacific Ocean in its evening gleam is visible beyond dancing palm fronds. It appears that nature has decided to bestow its blessing upon the union of Diana and Taehyung; the night is truly magical.

You see Jess waiting near the front door for you, like she promised she would. She looks stunning in an orange crop top and purple pencil skirt, her black hair twisted up into a neat bun. Together you match the tones of the vibrant evening sky.

“Hey,” she grabs your arm, “how are you doing?”

“I’m OK, Di,” you respond. “I’m more than OK, actually. This afternoon was . . . thrilling. I felt so alive.”

“I’m so glad,” she beams, her eyes growing wide. “I’m so happy it worked out.”

“Me too. It all happened so fast . . . it still feels unreal. Now that Cleveland’s gone, I have much more responsibility. Production’s wrapped up, really, so they’re not going to find a new director. They’ll still give him credit; they have to. But my movie’s going to turn out how I planned. Finally.”

“You’re very deserving of your success,” Jess smiles at you. “Even if you failed to cast me in your movie.”

“Hey, you just got the main supporting role in a Spielberg movie!” You protest.

“True,” she says, “but I would still much prefer working with you.”

You take a few steps into the venue and find yourselves facing a giant poster featuring Tae and Diana’s flawless faces.

“Do you think you can handle this?” Jess asks you warily. “If you don’t, I can take you home. When Di finds out what happened with you and him . . . she’ll understand.”

“I can do it, Jess,” you say with determination in your voice. “I wrote that letter to Jimin, and I saw the mailman pick it up. It’s already on its way. And ever since I put my thoughts onto paper and sealed that envelope, I’ve felt better.”

You allow a single sigh to escape your lips. “But I still wish he could be here. It would be nice for us to be together on this night that means so much to our friends. But I hurt him. I can’t expect forgiveness or a return to normalcy right away. He needs his time.”

Jess smirks. “That’s very mature of you. I’m impressed.” She pauses, scanning Diana’s blown-up face. “If I’m being completely honest, I’m not sure I’d ever say the same of her.”

The next moment, the poster girl in question runs up to you, grabs your wrists, and gushes to you loudly about her luck and perfect romance.

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You do your duties like a good close friend. You keep family members away from other family members and mediate arguments between them whenever you fail at the first task. You alert the wait staff whenever the supply of mini meatballs or bacon-wrapped figs is dwindling. You dance with Diana, go in the photo booth with Rachel, and gossip (nicely) in the corner with Jess.

When the party starts to die down and most guests clamber out to the valet, you retreat to the balcony on the third floor of the venue to grab some air. It’s November now, so the night is chilly, and your half-sleeved dress doesn’t seem to do much good to keep you warm.

“Here, take my coat,” you hear a familiar voice say.

It’s Taehyung. Before you know it, his houndstooth suit coat is draped around your shoulders.

“No, that’s okay. You really don’t have to. I’m fine,” you try to shrug it off.

“No, I insist. Besides,” he leans on the railing beside you, “Jimin would kill me if I didn’t.”

Your heart beats faster at the sound of his name.

“I think Diana might kill you, though,” you raise your eyebrows at him. “It looks a little misleading.”

“Please,” he scoffs. “I think the whole world knows I would never go after my best friend’s girl.”

“But does the whole world know that's who I am?”

He thinks for a second. “No, I guess not. Jimin’s done a pretty good job of keeping your relationship under the radar.”

He’s acting like everything’s totally normal, you notice. Has Jimin really not told him anything?

Taehyung smiles and continues. “I’m surprised he’s handled it so well, really. Jimin’s never been one for hiding his true feelings. He can’t do it.”

“I know,” images of Jimin’s emotion-filled expressions fly across your face like a film reel. “I love that about him.”

Tae looks out at the ocean, allowing the sea breeze to ruffle his black curls. “He really loves you, you know.”

You look down at your shoes. “We had a fight, Tae.” He looks you in the eyes. “A big one. I said lots of things to him . . . bad things. That I shouldn’t have said.”

“Everyone does that,” he dismisses.

“Not Jimin,” you murmur. “Which is why he didn’t deserve any of it.”

Taehyung’s gaze turns back out to the Pacific. “I guess that’s true.”

“Did he really not tell you about it at all?” The curiosity is killing you. “I know you guys are really, really close.”

“We are,” he says, “but he didn’t.”

A look of worry and confusion passes over your face as potential explanations bubble up inside you. But Taehyung offers a definite one.

“Sometimes,” he begins, “when Jimin’s dealing with something, he struggles to let other people in. He doesn’t want to allow others to carry his burdens. He’s selfless like that.” Tae smiles and takes a deep breath. “But it can wear him down—wash him out. He’ll start to slowly crumble until, one day, he falls apart.”

“I don’t want that,” you blurt out. “I don’t want him to fall apart. I really, really . . .”

“I know,” Taehyung grips your shoulders. “I know you don’t. I know you love him.”

“Tae,” you mumble. “It was a really, really bad fight.”

“You know, Jimin was right about you,” he says suddenly. “You’re actually pretty bad with words. Especially for a writer.”

“Hey!” You punch him in the arm. He offers you a boxy smile in return. “I’m better on paper, I promise.” You beam with pride at your next thought. “Which I why I wrote him a letter.”

Taehyung raises his eyebrows. “You wrote him a letter? Saying what?”

Your voice is a timid squeak as you admit: “That I’m sorry. That I’ll change my bad habits—the ones that were breaking us apart. And that I love him. And that I hope he can forgive me.”

Tae shoves his hands in his pocket and staggers back. “Well, that’s so freaking romantic—he’ll totally fall for it.”

You light up. “You think?”

He nods. “He’ll get on the first plane to LA as soon as he reads it, and you’ll have him back in your arms in no time.” Tae rolls his eyes, “Dude’s a sucker for romance.”

“Oh, I know.”

“You’ve really found yourself a real nerd, you know.”

“He’s found himself one, too,” you say proudly. “But seriously, you think he’ll be okay? That he’ll forgive me?”

“I don’t want to say anything for sure,” Taehyung smirks. “But I know Jimin. And I know how much he loves you. I’ve seen him in love before . . . or, at least, I think I have. But this is different. You’re good for him and good to him, and it’s hard to find those in tandem. That’s why I’ve never been concerned about your relationship—its intensity. Because believe me when I say that every inch of Jimin is obsessed with you. But every inch of him is also happier, more stable, and even more driven than before because of you.” He takes a moment to smile and glance inside lovingly at his fiancé, saying her goodbyes to the last few guests. “Your relationship is part of what gave me the courage to propose to Di. Even though it’s really early, I noticed a similar change in myself because of her. And I wanted to keep that going—for the rest of my life.”

You cast a smile at your old roommate, and then at her fiancé.

“Thank you for taking care of her.”

He chuckles. “It’s like that sometimes. Sometimes it isn’t easy. She can be a lot to handle,” he winks at Diana when she catches his stare. “But I like handling her.”

[rochey1010]

HI, ok so this second post is about Eliott posting obscure movies and how they are or will relate to the plot:

1: NIGHT OF THE GHOULS - this movie is basically made by an amateur movie director known as Ed Wood. Now this one did confuse me for a bit as i had multiple threads going in my head. So i'm just gonna list them all. This is setting up the ELU trust/insecurity issues to come. It's also setting up the connection between Eliott and Lola, and it could be setting up Eliott and his suspected uni movie project.

● ELU trust/insecurity issues- the girl in the clip is panicking over something being outside. She's very hysterical and unsettled, and refers to what's outside as ghosts. The guy in the turban is basically telling her she's a fool and that there isn't anything outside. So theorising here, the girl is lucas. The ghosts are the ghosts of the past AKA abandonment issues. They're so deeply rooted that there's a struggle to get through to him. The turban guy is Eliott and he's frustrated that his reasoning isn't getting through. That the fears are unfounded = possible misconstrued nature by Lucas of Eliott and Lola's friendship.

More obscure theory but actually starting to build ground as the show goes on. The girl is Eliott and it's simply that the ghosts of the past have returned (upcoming Benny.Taxi post) and he's freaking out over it.

● this is the BTS, and i think very important for the Lola and Eliott friendship. So Ed Wood the director of the movie formed a friendship with Bella Lugosi (star) but it was through the making of this movie that Wood got Lugosi through the darkest days of his depression and alcoholism. His friendship saved him and put him in a better place. How does this relate? Lola is spiralling at the moment and Maya is distant. She needs a connection and she's one step away from going on another bender. This is where Eliott comes in. He's empathic, sees the bigger picture and has shown concern towards Lola. Their connection is being built on self identification. Basically someone who can relate and understand. Lola needs that right now. Eliott has reached out and they are gonna be friends. He's gonna help her and i suspect the movie will be part of it.

● this one is just about Ed Wood and being an amateur director. I must say a really bad one. I'm thinking it's Eliott BTS and his possible Uni project, and his insecurities over his ability and talents because he was hurt when POLARIS failed to get the funding it needed in the past.

2: MAX AND MARY: A story about a long distance friendship between two lonely outlier souls. There is an age difference but the bond is innocent between them. They converse as penpals and in the end Mary goes to meet Max but he died. this is basically setting up not only the friendship between Eliott and Lola but that Lola will meet Eliott in the next few days. It's also screaming another theory (Benny.Taxi) but i'm gonna talk about that in my last post. The clip is Mary knocking on Max's door. Now my theory is that Lola goes to find Eliott possibly at his job but just misses him, and ends up slipping and going back to the club or more likely she now reaches out to him and meets him.

Edit: next movie Eliott just posted on his insta story.....

3: Unbreakable: This is a 2000's movie directed by M Night Shyamalan. There are 2 important characters. One is a security guard called David (Bruce Wilis) and the other is a comic book store owner calked Elijah (Samuel L Jackson) They come into each others lives and force each other to confront their true selves. They are opposites or polarities of each other. POLARIS i see you there. 👋 but at different places in their lives.

Elijah says "however unreal it may seem, we are connected you and i, we're on the same curve, just on opposite ends"

David is damaged psychologically. He's trying to fix himself and his world. He is numb and just going through the motions of life. He has no passion or drive. Then he finds out about his super powers. That he is super strong like iron, and through this knowledge, and using those abilities, he heals his soul and feels complete.

Elijah is physically damaged. He has brittle 'glass' bones and is in a wheelchair. He learns of David's abilities and he seeks to understand them. Elijah thinks that himself and David are connected and it's through this presence in David's life that they both go on a journey of self discovery and knowing their purpose. Elijah acts as a quirky sort of mentor for David. A guide you would say.

Elijah: "it's alright to be afraid, David because this part won't be like a comic book. Real life doesn't fit into little boxes that were drawn for it"

It's a very ambiguous sort of movie, as both characters are simply grey people. They are very flawed and they have hurt people. There are themes of heroism, self worth, destiny, fear identity and purpose, and really it's about becoming your own hero in life. So how does this relate to the show?

Ok, Eliott is again forshadowing the plot and the issues these characters will face and overcome. Basically i feel it's again the dynamic that Lola and Eliott have. How they will affect each other and the meaning they will bring to each others lives. So Lola is David and she's depressed and numb right now. She's directionless and feels she has no place in her world. Eliott is Elijah and he meets her at a place in life where he ends up helping her to see her true potential. Through this Lola starts to take the reigns of her own life and be her own hero. And her world around her begins to flourish once again e.g. friends, family, love etc.

Elijah says to David at one point "do you know what the scariest thing is? To not know your place in this world, to not know why you're here"

That screams so much fear in both of these characters, with their own insecurities and trauma's. Eliott could possibly be to me at a crossroads in his creativity. That now that he is trying to bring POLARIS back again, that he is crippled with doubt and insecurity from the first time it failed. His personal insta movie stories seem to me to be him trying to find inspiration to finish POLARIS. And through them it's like he's doubting himself (Elijah's "i almost gave up hope there were so many times i questioned myself")but also through them, the thread is there that he will have help to make POLARIS realised finally.

Ultimately the movie and the show is referencing the realisation of who a person is, what they are capable of, and finding closure from the past and putting your fears and doubts to rest. This to me is both Eliott and Lola's journey.

So basically Eliott's movie is coming. Possibly E6. And POLARIS will be the crux of the life changes in Eliott and Lola. I feel Lola being involved in Eliott's art may even start changing the way she views her own. (damage) and i feel POLARIS will help Lola come to terms with her love for Maya. Thanks to anyone who continues to read my ramblings. 😊

OK my last post is about Benny.taxi and how it's looking like it will be Eliott and not Daphne. And how Eliott's past connects to that.

[lifewithjessi101]

Iowa Goodwill Thrift Haul

Thrifting has become a new hobby and obsession of mine. I have always been into fashion and had a love for clothes all my life. My three different closets can test for that. But it wasn’t till this past winter I found Haley’s Corner on Youtube. She inspired something deep within me. She is the literal queen of thrifting. After watching almost her whole channel of videos I knew this is something I could try out. Low and behold my first ever thrifting adventure and haul. 

Davenport and Bettendorf Iowa were my first two cities to test the waters of thrifting. What other places to have your first thrifting adventure than Goodwill! I was ecstatic to find that both places had pretty decent sized shopping carts upon arrival. I didn’t have a list going into either place other than don’t spend more than $60 at each place. I held pretty well to my limit too. The first place was Goodwill in Davenport on Villa Drive. The place was smaller than I originally anticipated but none the less I found many gems. This store had a steller denim section but sadly had no men’s t-shirt section. Their men section was not that stellar. The second stop was Goodwill Bettendorf. This store was a lot bigger than the first stop. They had a great ladies’ top section. It’s where I scored the Master’s Golf tank. This store also had a section dedicated solely to activewear. I score brands like Nike and Underarmour for dirt cheap. It’s safe to say both stops will be shopped at again in the near future. Now each brand of thrift stores is different from how they sort the merchandise. I choose Goodwill as my first store brand because they are known for their organization. You know how much I love organization! Goodwill sections the clothes by size and by color. Don’t let this fool you though sometimes there are those gems hidden amongst the other sizes just waiting to be found. You’ll definitely want to look through other sizes too, not just your own. There are so many treasures to find, you just have to look and be patient. With that being said let us get to the haul. 

Outfits:

The Master’s Championship Tank 

When I saw this tank and did a happy dance in Goodwill. I have been golfing since I was little so when I saw the Master’s logo I grabbed it. This tank would have cost so much as a souvenir but I got it for a whole $3. It’s so comfy and a perfect shirt for the summer golf match. Here I paired it with some simple dark denim for an everyday look. 

Stoosh Black Blazer 

Thrift stores are the perfect place to find business attire. I found this blazer for $3. It’s the perfect business women staple. I paired this blazer with a simple cheetah tank, black Old Navy business pants, and cheetah print heels to complete the look. I snagged this blazer because of the color, of course, black is the perfect color that goes with anything and the sleeve length. It’s not a full length which makes it wearable for all seasons. 

GAP Grey Sweater and Old Navy High Waisted RockStar Jeans 

I’m a sucker for sweaters, but thrifting a sweater can be tricky. Finding one that isn’t stretched out or not in the greatest condition. The color, neckline, and the length of the sweater. This one was a mega find. Along with these amazingly soft and high waisted jeans. I love the distressed on the knees and the cut at the bottom. The sweater was $4 and the jeans were $6. I styled both of them together with the signature white Vans at the bottom to complete the outfit. 

Boutique Brand Black and White Top with a Suede Pocket

 Who doesn’t love a good color combination? Black, white, and light brown go so well together on this shirt. It is the perfect length to wear with leggings to work or even some dark denim jeans. Here I styled it with some simple black leggings and white Vans to complete the color balance. I scored this top for only $3! 

Eye Candy Zip Up and So Brand Light Wash Jeggings 

Another fully thrifted outfit besides the shoes. The zip-up is THE comfiest top I have ever owned. It’s also thin enough to wear even on the hot summer days. The jeans are the softest ones in my collection of denim. The light wash is a perfect color to pair with anything this spring and summer. I got the zip-up for $3 and the jeans for $6. That’s a whole outfit for $9! I paired both with some suede grey Vans.  

St John’s Bay Navy Top, GAP Light Washed Denim Vest, and So Brand White Denim 

One of the many favorites that I have thrifted is this outfit right here. The whole outfit is from this Goodwill trip. Everyone needs a pair of staple white denim in their closet. These are so soft, comfy, and fit like a glove. The navy top and denim vest compliment each other so well too. It’s the perfect combination of light and dark together. I scored the top for $3, the vest for $7, and the jeans for $6. That’s another whole outfit for only $16. You normally have to pay that money for one shirt at a mall. 

A New Day Yellow Top and Maurices Dark Denim 

I really like styling the color that seems to be very on-trend lately, mustard yellow. I found the perfect comfy long sleeve for only $3. The material and color is the reason I fell in love with it. The jeans are that perfect fit everyone looks to find. I have multiple shades of denim and these just added to my collection. They were a total of $6. I styled them both together with some Burks to complete the look. 

Banana Republic Cheetah Top and Talbots Grey Denim Jacket 

This is another one of my favorite outfits and it’s all thrifted! The cheetah print top pairs so well with the grey denim jacket. The jacket is so comfy and the silver detailing that makes it pop. I finished the look off with the grey suede Vans. This look is perfect for a day out on the town with friends. I got the top for $3 and the jacket for $11. 

Express Dark Denim Vest 

The outfit is giving me all the fall vibes. Who here loves fall as much as me? This denim vest is perfect to go with all those flannels sitting in your closet. I scored this for $8! I styled it here with some non-thrifted items, a flannel, and simple black leggings with those suede beaded sandals. 

Ann Taylor Dark Denim Jacket 

Everyone needs that perfect dark denim jacket in their closet. This Ann Taylor jacket was a great find. I love denim. I will always snag a good denim jacket or jeans when I find them. I snagged this baby for $11. That’s a STEAL! Name brand and good quality! Here I styled it with some non-thrifted items: a simple tank top in mustard color, olive green Old Navy dress pants, and simple suede beaded sandals. This look is perfect for work or just a simple day on the town. 

Under Armour Bright Pink Active Top 

When you find name brands at a thrift store that are also good quality how can you not pass them up? I got a perfect condition Under Armour’s active top for $9. I style it with just about anything from leggings to jeans to sweatpants. This was definitely on the list of the top finds. 

Nike Black Active Tank 

Snagging all the name brands in the active section. I scored this Nike tank for $6. It’s the original dry-fit material to keep you cool during those hot and sweaty workouts on the track. I have it styled here as a gym to an everyday outfit with black athletic leggings and white Vans. 

Grey and Pink Iowa Dance T-Shirt 

This is my favorite t-shirt right now. It’s so soft, it’s unreal. I had to have it since it has my two favorite things! Dance and Iowa Hawkeyes! The best part it was only $3. Another find on the top of my list. 

Nike USA Olympic Team Active Tank 

Another name brand find. A Nike USA Olympic tank. This tank is the perfect combination of comfy and soft. Two qualities you want in a workout shirt. This tank was only $6 at Goodwill. You can even style it with some denim shorts or jeans for an everyday look. 

Under Armour Grey and Pink T-shirt 

Last on this thrift haul is another name brand top. This simple Underarmour t-shirt has the dry fit material also but adds a splash of color with the bright pink. This would be perfect for the gym or for an everyday outfit too with some jeans. This t-shirt was only $6 to top it all off. 

I hope this thrift haul has inspired you to start your own thrifting adventure! Like always be sure to follow along on all my social media platforms to see into my everyday life. From daily insta story vlogs, OOTDs, thrifting trips, travel adventures, and of course baby Pumkin. I can’t wait to get to know you all more through this fun blogging adventure. Laters babes!