#under 150

[magicalshopping]

♡ Knife Kirby Neon Light ♡

[low-numbers-game]

Reminder that eating a little bit of what you like won't hurt you. You just have to know how to "balance" it out.

^ A small portion of migas over ½ cup of kale and some pickled onions (topped with nutritional yeast). About 60-70 calories (wasn't being too mindful of my portions of kale and onion).

[teddybeartoji]

i love stretch marks so fucking much they're so fucking pretty

[whywishesarehorses]

I missed several journal posts in a row - we're up to 111 rides. Notably, yesterday she gave me the best, most collected canter she ever has, on a little bitty circle. WE here we come

[beearcheops]

Yeeeeee

[grenade-maid]

Signalis, Authority, and History

There's a level of nuance to how Signalis presents the violence of the authority of the nation that doesn't call attention to itself but which I really appreciate. Which is basically just, all the officers and cops and spies who make life hell for people like the Gestalt mine workers, Ariane, and the Itou family--we get little glimpses into who they are in Adler and Kolibri's diaries and despite the propaganda and the authoritative tone they take in official communications, for the most part they don't seem to actually be particularly invested in the hard line of national ideology. They uphold it though, viciously, both because things were worse under imperial rule (we don't get hard details on what it was like but it's mentioned in passing enough that I believe it) and because they're scared that if they don't they will be decommissioned and easily replaced. They are literally stamped out of a production line after all. There's a subtext of well, if I don't do it my replacement will anyway and I'm not trying to die so what's the point of rocking the boat?

I think Kolibri stands out to me most clearly on this because in communications from the block warden regarding Ariane there is emphasis put on how it is unacceptable and suspicious that she should be so interested and invested in art and literature that does not serve the purpose of furthering the goals of the nation. But we know that Kolibris themselves are bookworms, Adlers are fiends for stimulating experiences, and both get miserable FAST when deprived of art and puzzles and entertainment and hobbies. Y'know, just like anyone. Far be it from being a paragon of The Nation only interested in productive labor, we are reminded that the block warden, too, hates this shitty town and wants to transfer but is denied. They're hypocrites, but not monsters, nor brainwashed puppets of the state.

The monstrousness at play is not contained within any particular subset of evil individuals, or even an inherent universal force of evil contained in the broad notion of The Nation. There is no cosmic evil force that makes them all do these things to each other. The monstrousness is within the social systems, the mechanisms of how authority perpetuates on a structural procedural level, held in place by fear and tangible threats of violence, each link in the chain restraining the next through those threats out of fear that if they don't, then they'll be next. Regardless how many, if any, of those people in this chain are true dogmatic hardliners, they must act as such because failing to do so opens them up to danger.

Here then I think of the quote that is so prominent, "Great holes secretly are digged where earth’s pores ought to suffice, and things have learnt to walk that ought to crawl", from Lovecraft's The Festival. This is not just a chilling abstract visual that conveniently evokes a mineshaft-- in Lovecraft's story, this line refers to worms which ate the decomposing bodies of wizards whose wretched souls had remained after death, complete with the terrible powers they gained through contracts with demons. Those worms inherited both their power, and also the evil. The Nation, despite having overthrown the Empire, is built on imperial technology, in particular Replikas and bioresonance. So too, then, we can imply that The Nation inherited with those things some of the monstrousness of The Empire as well. There is no end of history, nor clean break with the past, no matter how violently it may seem to be rejected. That which remains from the past--and something inevitably always does--creates the present.

This is a game that is not shy about evoking East Germany. And I think all of this provides a sophisticated picture of repressive authority that we rarely see in fiction of the English speaking world, especially in games. The year the S23 incident takes place is notably 84, but, frankly, I find this to be more compelling and illustrative than 1984 (and I'm a librarian and have taught English classes so I get to say that). Orwell, let's be honest, presents a fairly one dimensional picture of authority, where people seize power and wield it against others out of seeming mustache twirling evil or malice.

Here though we get a more humanistic view. Authority did not come from nowhere and is not wielded arbitrarily out of gleeful cruelty or mindless brainwashed allegiance. People aren't "just following orders". Individuals have rich inner lives. They make decisions, and those decisions are based in the context they're in. Even the decision to carry repressive tools of the past into the present is a decision that was made strategically with the big picture in mind. Nobody woke up and decided to be evil that day. Everyone operates on self interest, and, we must assume, an earnest desire for things to get better. Even the [spoiler] program which served as an inspirational demonstration of The Nation's power, you can imagine the chain of officers and bureaucrats who genuinely wanted the people of the nation to believe in the future, to confidently trust that everyone was working together towards something great and beautiful. And, through a long chain of those people who couldn't say "No" without being decommissioned, we ended up with something unbelievably cruel.

We get to know Adler and Kolibri and the other officers not to say well they're human too, maybe it wasn't so bad that they condemned all those people to agonizing suffering, but to remember that if we keep looking for true monsters we will not find them. There are no monsters and there are no demons. There are only people making decisions. A better world is possible. A better world, where Adler is just a paper pusher who does puzzles after work instead of signing papers to authorize torture, where Kolibris are librarians instead of spies and cops, where EULEs can gossip and play piano and ARARs can do maintenance on facilities that don't contain torture rooms, is one that would not have led to the Ariane and Elster's tragic cycle and ultimate end.

Authority and its attendant cruelty is not contained, radiating forth from The Great Revolutionary and Her Daughter, it is within the social systems of control. When those two women die, that cruelty will continue so long as those social systems continue. Like Lovecraft's worms, no matter how long dead the evil of the past is, so long as it continues to be fed upon, that evil will not only remain, but evolve into something new in the present. A better world can't be achieved through the death of the old world alone, even if violent overthrow is warranted. There is no end of history. There is no clean break from the past.

"Men make their own history, but they do not make it as they please; they do not make it under self-selected circumstances, but under circumstances existing already, given and transmitted from the past. The tradition of all dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living."

Karl Marx, The Eighteenth Brumaire of Louis Bonaparte

[hydrossity-zone]

Turnarounds and reference sheet of the Chained Up Werehog skin variant from Sonic Speed Simulator! (as usual, click for better quality)

full res image: Chained Up Werehog (alt link)

[Grim Reaper Metal Sonic Reference] [Vampire Silver Reference] [All Other Sonic Speed Simulator Halloween Outfits] [All SFSB + Runners Halloween Outfits]

[riceonrye]

Me (born in the 21st century, knows how botulism presents in tinned food) watching the man from my show eat spoiled food chock-full of lead: lol

[smalltimidbean]

Do you ever just draw like 150 little guys in a day?

I did

[pebblebee]

A New Monster High Character Debuts at REVEALED

“Boo-loved designer Rebecca Shipman has created a new character to haunt the Monster High halls. She’ll show you how she did it, down to the smallest scree-tails.”

-from a Mattel creations email

New collectors doll??? Brand new character??? What are we thinking, high hopes or nah?

[fitgothgirl]

149.9 lbs today!! I’m under 150 again for the first time in 6 years!! One more pound until the 20-pound mark!!! 11 more pounds until my first big goal!!!

[magicalshopping]

♡ Pink Strawberry Kids Sofa ♡

[low-numbers-game]

Coffee Jelly - 40 calories

INGREDIENTS

1 tsp instant coffee powder (any kind)

1 tsp gelatin powder

1 tbsp sweetner of choice or 1-2 drops of liquid stevia

¾ cup boiling water

2 tbsp coffee creamer (any kind,optional)

1 cup of almond milk (other milks work perfectly fine,they're just higher in calories)

INSTRUCTIONS

Combine the instant coffee powder, gelatin powder, and sugar together into a large,microwave safe mug

Add the boiling water and stir until the mixture is completely dissolved (If there are still undissolved granules at the bottom of the glass place it in the microwave for 20-30 seconds to fully dissolve)

Let the mixture cool before placing the glass in the fridge to chill for 2-3 hours or until completely set.

After setting firm, cut crosshatches into the cup of coffee jelly with a butter knife; making sure the knife cuts down to the bottom of the container.

Pour milk and/or coffee creamer over the crosshatches. Additionally, you may top with whipped cream before enjoying it.

I enjoy my coffee jelly with liquid stevia and unsweetened vanilla almond milk (30 calories per cup).

If I'm using a coffee creamer, it's a sugar-free one (2 tbsp is 30 calories). Which is hardly ever because I'm pretty set with the jelly and milk,but if I do, it's 70 calories. Without milk and just creamer, it'd be 40 still.

Your ingredients may have a different count,but it should still be under 100 calories unless you're using regular dairy milk (~103 calories per cup) or oat milk (~130 calories per cup).

[ms-demeanor]

thank you for the extremely well reasoned response. you make a bunch of really fantastic points that link together in a way that's nice and comprehendible. and i really appreciate you digging into my question/more-of-a-comment-really. i think part of my problem is that i'm surrounded by weird health corner case people and simultaneously am extremely risk averse (no alcohol for reasons, very rare hot beverages, no caffeine, the list goes on) so you are a refreshing breath of sanity.

thank you <3

-aspartame anon

*sympathy fistbumps* spending a lot of time around food allergy and chronic illness communities online has some overlap with that and it can put you in a weird headspace.

For what it's worth, I think you're cool on the aspartame, caffeine, and the hot drinks. Remember that the IARC standards aren't about how likely something is to cause cancer in individuals, it's about the overall strength of the evidence that the thing has caused cancer in at least some cases. There is fairly strong evidence that hot drinks can cause cancer; that does not mean that drinking hot drinks is likely to cause cancer or that drinking hot drinks increases your risk of certain kinds of cancer.

Have a good day, and maybe a warm drink!

[whywishesarehorses]

Pony in my car

[floorpancakes]

hey did you guys know they released official maru and moro angelic pretty xxxholic collab gowns as a movie tie in but they were ultra limited run custom reservations for a REALLY high price (even for modern ap) so there was no way i was gonna get em but i want them so bad just so i could say i have the official xxxholic lolita dresses anyways