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i love stretch marks so fucking much they're so fucking pretty
#always#n everywhere#n on everybody#and this is coming from a person with a lot of them lmao#i fucking adore themmmm#and i truly do not understand anybody who says that they have smth against them#??????????#scars stretch marks birthmarks moles give me everything#and yeah i get insecure abt them sometimes too#i have a lot of ALL of those lmao#but idk then i think abt how they're a part of you#in a way they're what make you YOU#like god wouldn't it be so fucking boring if we all just had glass skin and just fucking looked the same???????????????#we're all human and scars and stretchmarks and everything else just show that#i love you stretchmarks i love you scars i love you birthmarks#yk if i say birthmarks in my head moles count under that too bc that's literally what they're called here lmao#i tried to count my moles once and i swear it was like over 150 or smth#sahgdghadhgsaghdhgashgd#anyway#yeah#ily#mayor of loserville
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thinking about having somebody guide my hand down between my legs and assuming they want me to finger myself, only to have them slip two fingers in right next to my own. turning to meet their gaze in shock while they coo something about helping me make myself feel good. the idea of being full in this way making my brain fuzzy, each thrust wiping my mind blank until i can’t string together a complete thought. flushing in embarrassment when i can feel the way my pussy sucks in both of our fingers. the low moan that makes its way out of me when i get to feel the way i squeeze down when i cum, impossibly tight over the three? four? fingers working in and out of me. my fucked out babbling picking up speed as they push my fingers deeper, coaxing me into fucking myself through the orgasm just as they normally would. trying to wiggle away but there’s nowhere to go when they’re holding me still and fucking me open with my own hand.
#i’m feeling really fucking normal about this at 6 AM EST#this has happened to me exactly twice#and it was life changing both times#everybody say thank you pea for the idea#lesbian#wlw blog#lesbian blog#wlw post#wlw nsft#wlw concepts#lesbian nsft#femme4all#butch bait#femme bait#me n my love#dedicated to all the underwear i’ve ruined
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figure skating set right now please. thanks
#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#emu otori#proseka#tsukasa tenma#nene kusanagi#rui kamishiro#wxs#wonderlands x showtime#GUYS I AM PUTTING OFF WORKING ON MY COSPLAY SOMETHING STUPID. im tireddddd i like sleeepingggff i want to play and drawwwww#after work I literally ate a giant bowl of mac n cheese and climbed into bed. lifestyle choices of a 9 year old#anyways i want figure skaitng set. bad. PJSK HAS A WEIRDLY LOW NUMBER OF ACTUALLY WINTERY SETS... like 3. kind of.#i have some thumbnail sketches but im kind of stumped on composition for them. my idea was a nene focus set#(IF HER NEXT FOCUS ISNT PHANTOM OF THE OPERA THEMED INWILL DIE. BADLY. THEYRE GOING TO AN OPER AHOUSE. PLEADBR)#originally my idea was for nene to be biting a medal i was very sold on it bc i love nenes competitive side#however her outfit is so nice i want it to also be part of the art .. its heavily inspired by that one iconic eunsoo lim dress#from her somewhere in time program iirc. im really undatisfied with emus dress tbh my origimal idea was to give it a phoenix look#but a lot of the firebird/phoenix skating programs have very sleek dresses and i want emus to be fluffy. the balance is hard ..#and since i want her program song to be once upon a dream from sleeping beauty i swerved to make it look a bit like auroras ? but again#it definitely feels like the weakest of everybodys ... maybe i just love her too much and want her to look the best. sorry wxs.#tsukasas outfit is supposed to look like a shooting star. easy. program music moonlight sonata 3rd movement like from dazzling light. easy.#actually i like takahashi daisukes moonlight sonata program its a medley of the 1st and 3rd movement.. i think the calm at the beginning#is best. maybe smth like that.. for his card inhad him doing a haircutter spin but again. the outfits good i want the outfit visible. damn.#ruis the one im very set on even now. girl why are you so phantom of the opera.#it has a lot of beautiful programs to reference but the outfit i didnt really have any solid reference i kind of just balled#my main idea was to make it look a bit like both christine and the phantom.... gender Fluid.#my yapfest... i should be SEWING!!!!!!!!#despite my yapping im not that well versed in figure skating i cant really distinguish jumps i just like it . and medalist#i only do normal skating. bc i played hockey for like 7 years LOLLLL inlove skating though Heart.
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im not going to be psychologically okay after this
#everybodys dead nobodys surviving yhis im scared please help please dont die on my plea#murder drones#glitch productions#liam vickers animation#serial designation n#uzi doorman#yoonnzii
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*completely serious tumblr user voice* oppression was actually invented by Big West sometime in the 1800s. no one was oppressed anywhere before that.
#re: that classical faggotry post#also the way ppl talk abt colonized cultures' practices....#i swear u dont have 2 pretend everybody loved gays n trans ppl as a way to say they didnt ''deserve'' colonialism#mine*
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jason todd groans under his breath as he splits you open with his cock. he dips his head into the crook of your neck, breathing in your fresh scent. one hand gripping your hip, the other cradling one of your tits. there wasn't a part of you he hadn't missed or craved in his time away and he could finally get his fill of you once again. he couldn't help but move his hand down from your hips to your ass, giving you a firm squeeze, earning him a soft gasp. you're pressed down in between him and the bed with his hands all over your body, your nails bruising your skin. "fuck it's been too long baby" he mumbles as he completely bottoms out into you, "way too long" you whimper, at the prolonged feeling. there wasn't a part of you jason couldn't help but crave, he needed all of you. after weeks of waiting for your husband to come home, here he finally was, showing you exactly how much he missed you. "you're home jay…" you mumbled out, your words barely even coherent "mhm i'm home baby" he said, mumbling an incoherent plea of love in your ear.
#everybody thank kali for this#she helped me out with this#✩ kleo's sex tapes ✩#jason todd#jason todd x reader#jason todd x y/n#jason todd x you#jason todd x female reader#jason todd x fem!reader#jason todd smut#red hood#red hood x reader#red hood x y/n#red hood x you#red hood x female reader#red hood x fem!reader#red hood smut#dc characters#dc comics#dc x reader#dc x you#dc x y/n
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boy i wonder who that was…
#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf dca#dca fandom#fnaf moon#dca y/n#fnaf sun#dca who au#doodle dump#“i wonder who that was” i caption this as if everybody doesn’t already know. and tagging him as well lol#i speedran this comic holy hell how did i do that. plus fully colored and everything?? must still be possessed#i am. supposed to be doing the long comic..
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It's my birthday!!! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ🎂
#it's my first time here! hello everybody!!! *waves excitedly*#sun thinks setting the cake on fire gets extra style points#he's not wrong though#despite his teasing Moon does help y/n hide the leftovers when sun's not looking#can't bully y/n if they're sick in bed with food poisoning#fnaf security breach#fnaf sb#DCA#dca fandom#sundrop x reader#moondrop x reader#y/n#my art
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Skz as red flags
Chan, who professes his undying love—even after a week of radio silence.
Minho, who becomes concerningly aggressive every time you have a minor dispute.
Changbin, who begs you to join him at the gym, only to nit-pick every little detail once you do.
Hyunjin, who dramatizes his every move—especially when he accuses you of cheating.
Han, who is so insecure about your relationship that he cries when you go out and won't stop texting you until you come home.
Felix, who is so anxious about confrontation that he just can't defend you in groups; you're fine with that, until a group of guys keeps hitting on you, and Felix isn't doing anything.
Seungmin, who completely ignores you for days, even weeks, after an argument—just because he believes he's right.
Jeongin, who is unwilling to compromise on your need for skinship—and his lack thereof.
little a/n just in case... yall this is just something silly I posted okay please don't take anything too seriously 😭
#this is just something random i thought of on my break and by no means is law#i was just thinking about how everybody has some sort of red flag about them rather we want to admit it or not#and this is what my brain thought of 🤷♀️#stray kids x reader#felix x reader#lee felix x reader#stray kids x y/n#bangchan x reader#stray kids#skz#bang chan#changbin x reader#hyunjin x reader#han jisung x reader#seungmin x reader#jeongin x reader#stray kids headcanons#skz headcanons#wayyyy to many tags lmao
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PRINCESS OF THE GODS !
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PARING(s), percy jackson x daughter of HERA reader
WARNING(s), basically just marriage
AUTHOR’S NOTE, yeah i listened to juno while doing this, what about it
౨ৎ percy met you a little while after he arrived at camp. you were the only demigod child of hera, the queen of the gods. he was surprised at the thought that zeus would even allow you to live, but in fairness, he wasn’t dead yet either
౨ৎ you two didn’t actually consider yourselves friends until after ttc, when you were kidnapped (yes you’re taking annie’s place IM SORRYYY)
౨ৎ after the events of all that, percy found himself…drifting towards you, in a way
౨ৎ like, before everything happened, even if you weren’t necessarily friends, he did know you, like your existence mattered so much to him, he just didn’t know why at the time
౨ৎ but you, on the other hand, somehow did
౨ৎ when you were saved by percy and friends, you were very optimistic that it was him saving you and not somebody else, cause that just wouldn’t be as fun
౨ৎ anyways from the moment you met him, you were like “oh yeah that’s my future boyfriend right there”
౨ৎ and yeah calm down just a little bit, but you also just knew, and you thanked your mother everyday for giving you this knowledge
౨ৎ but you were also pissed because holy shit, it took percy a while to come to terms with how he felt about you, even after saving you and becoming friends
౨ৎ but when i tell you how many times you made a move until he realized
౨ৎ you were very clear about your feelings, like you genuinely had nothing to hide
౨ৎ percy was extremely confused about the fact that you never dated anybody at all
౨ৎ and loads of people at camp clearly find you attractive and percy does, too, so when you were like “oh yeah i’ve never had a boyfriend before” he was as shocked as possible
౨ৎ because like, it’s you
౨ৎ and you’d think that would make it click that he had feelings for you
౨ৎ unfortunately. it did the opposite.
౨ৎ and that was kind of your last straw. you literally sat him down and explained your feelings to him and how you liked him ever since he saved you
౨ৎ THAT’S when he fully realized it
౨ৎ and it’s not cause he’s stupid (mischaracterized percy jackson they could never make me like you), it’s because it’s YOU. the pretty daughter of hera who a lot of people crushed on
౨ৎ you were practically a princess and percy took that so seriously, he found it so hard to believe that you liked him
౨ৎ after insisting that you really did like him, yippie that’s when y’all started dating !!
౨ৎ and when i tell you how much of a power couple you are. you two just radiate that kind of energy, even if someone didn’t know you were together
౨ৎ like you didn’t even need to tell anyone, everybody just. knew, and percy was stunned and he was like, they knew??? did you tell everyone???
౨ৎ and you were like no that’s just the power couple energy
౨ৎ when i tell you he worships the very ground you walk on I FUCKING MEAN IT. you know that one thing where a girl is singing on stage and her boyfriend is sobbing? that’s you two
౨ৎ if i or anyone else had to describe your relationship, it would be that
౨ৎ since your mother is the goddess of marriage, you were very clear about the fact that percy was the man you were to marry, and everybody just like. accepted it
౨ৎ even people who had current or previous crushes on you accepted that, mostly because you often referred to him as your husband like it was a regular thing
౨ৎ percy lets you do it every time and never corrects you, even calling you his wife sometimes.
౨ৎ listen you had your entire future with him planned. from the proposal (if he didn’t do it by age 22, you fucking would), to the wedding, to having kids, all that. he knew he could not stop you like he knew you were prepared
౨ৎ but percy still loved every minute of it, because the thought of marrying you, the love of his life, was just astonishing. he loves you just as much as he loves the thought of making you his wife, because it was you he would be marrying.
#I FIXED THIS IN A NIGHT#everybody clap rn#percy jackson#percy jackson x fem!reader#percy jackson x y/n#percy jackson x you#percy jackson x reader#percy jackon and the olympians#heroes of olympus#daughter of hera!reader
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i loved his little tomfoolery . i miss o!sneeg
#i went to krow’s stream after to see the funny hahas or shocked reactions but :(#it seems they (aimsey and krow n . maybe bad but probs not) were upset bc it ended up breaking the dock#(the silverfish infestation potion broke the stone blocks)#and it made me sad bc Oh . the silly prank was not so silly for everyone#and i dont think ? sneeg knew it would break it ? or if he did he didnt think it would break it That much#bc i sure didnt know the potion effect did that to stone#i said so in krow’s chat and i think it saw but yer#methinks if there’s an actual issue then theyll talk it out privately :3 nothing too serious#but yea o!sneeg is so back everybody WOOOOOOO#trsmp#trsmp memes#trsmp sneegsnag#tr!sneegsnag#sneeg#sneegsnag#origins smp#origins sneegsnag#o!sneeg#osmp sneeg#osmp#the realm smp#the realm sneeg#origins sneeg#inchling sneeg#crinkle the snail#trsmp snails#trsmp crinkle#the realm smp snails
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Saw on twitter a post where Japanese kids chose tanjiro as the person they admire the most, more than their own mothers😭
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#imagine ur own kid choosing tanjiro over you#not that surprised#he is the standard#u can also see shinobu top 3#she's mothering as always#THIS IS SO CUTE N FUNNY#EVERYBODY ADORES TANJIRO#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#kny#tanjuro kamado#nezuko#shinobu kocho#giyuu tomioka#sanemi#kny spoilers#kny season 4#gyomei himejima#zenitsu#kaigaku#demon slayer × reader#tanjiro × reader#muzan#uzui × reader#giyuu × reader#rengoku × reader#muichiro tokito
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The Valar's mistake did not lie in seeing a possibility of good in Melkor. Rather, their mistake lay in not seeing the equal possibility of him remaining evil.
#i do not think nienna was completely wrong to argue for a second chance for him#if we reject all possibility of repentance n change then we reject the very idea of life itself#life means growth means growing pains... if one mistake is all it takes to end it then there is no meaning to it at all#in any case while melkor squandered his second chance the idea that feanor n his sons do not even get a second chance to waste is just wron#everybody deserves a second chance. but we also need to mitigate any side effect of such mercy#the valar should have been more proactive in monitoring melkor's rehabilitation#they should've had countermeasures in place in case he was up to no good again#so while nienna did her job right but the rest of the valar should've done theirs too#melkor#morgoth#the valar#nienna#feanor?#silmarillion
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everybody adores you, at least i do.
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based on “everybody adores you (quiet)” by matt maltese :)
ship: bucky barnes x reader
word count: 3.9k
authors note: i wrote this after listening to ^^^ on repeat, god i love matt maltese. there are scenes of alcohol intake, a panic attack and brief self harm. please dni if these topics bother, trigger, or make you uncomfortable. this was a pretty long drabble, hope you enjoy :D
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you can act all shy, but you know that i want you.
you aren’t one for flattery, that much was obvious. every time bucky took the time to compliment you, he knew what your next words would be. like clockwork, you would turn red, look away, and sheepishly mutter, “thanks”. you fiddled with your hands, and quickly changed the subject. how desperately he wanted to hold your hands, and kiss them. for years, he pined over you, and you’ve always been almost at his grasp. these past couple of weeks though, it seemed to hit you, that he wanted you.
in the dead of night, i want to live with you.
it all started three years ago, after everyone came back from the blip. people were everywhere, and it seemed that all the noise that lacked from the world came back in an instant. after realizing what happened to you, your environment and your home, you couldn’t help but laugh. how comical, that it seemed like nothing changed. your family hadn’t contacted you, well, the distant family that you still had. you walked to a bar in the hazy hours of the night, and met him. some guys were bothering him about his glove, but he seemed unaffected. he just stared ahead, and drank his whiskey. you devised a plan, to distract the assholes and to maybe introduce yourself. you didn’t want to seem like you were trying to pick him up, but you were trying to make friends in this new world. you asked the bartender quietly to escort the two loud drunks out, and sat down next to him. you didn’t think you’d get this far, so you were at a loss on what to say. did people still talked the same five years later? of course they did, but how do you navigate yourself into talking? your thoughts piled up, and they kept piling up, until his gruff voice interrupted them.
“thanks.” he grumbled quietly.
“hm?” you didn’t catch what he said, as you were too distracted. he cleared his throat.
“i said thanks. for the, yeah.” he pointed to the two men outside. he wasn’t much for words, you realized. you sighed in relief and nodded.
“yeah, dont sweat it.”
he offered to walk you home, as a sign of gratitude. it amused you both that you lived in the same building. small world. you invited him inside, but he hesitated.
“we can take a rain check, if you’d like. ill write you my number.” you assured him, and walked inside to grab a post it. what were you doing? giving a stranger your number? you put those thoughts to rest as you wrote your number.
he awkwardly waited at the half open door. he was glad to have made a…friend? he didn’t know what to call you yet, but he was sure to catalogue you at the back of his mind to let his witch of a therapist know. over the next couple of weeks, you had began to know him better. he had a cat, alpine. he had a past that he wasn’t open to sharing. his apartment was empty, almost ready to be left without a tenant at any moment. he froze at your touch, so you made a mental note to not do that. what a strange person. you knew he disappeared during the blip as well, but you felt as if he had lost more than five years.
so terrified of the road that takes you, me too.
a year had passed for your friendship. you came to his apartment, unexpected, and brought two little cupcakes with candles on them.
“what’s this?” he asked, a little embarrassed to be touched by such a small little gesture.
“its our friendship anniversary, goofy.”
“do we sing happy birthday, or what?” you paused. you weren’t sure, you didn’t really think of singing.
“um, we can have toasts if you’d prefer that. yes, toasts! ill get the glasses.” you sprung to your feet and gracefully navigated yourself in his small kitchen. you had spruced up his place a little, buying him hand towels, candles, and little trinkets that make a house a home, or rather, an apartment into a cozier place to live. you brought the two flutes, and filled them with champagne. he frowned.
“that is definitely not mine.”
“i brought it to celebrate, we need something fancy.” he rolled his eyes, but went along to your little celebration. he sat on his couch and observed you placing the cupcakes on the coffee table, and as you passed him his glass.
“ill go first. um…” you didn’t want to admit that you had started liking him, so you decided to say general statements.
“i hadn’t had a friend since, high school? maybe…so thank you for letting me be yours. err, friend, that is. to many more.” you clinked your glass with his, and motioned for him to go next.
“my last friend died a year ago. you haven’t died yet, so cheers to that.” he said dryly, with a little smile on his face. he thought he was so funny. he clinked his glass with yours, and drank the liquid. you rolled your eyes and mirrored him.
you started watching a movie with him, but you weren’t really paying attention. he started to accept your touch more and more, and you watched the movie with your head leaning on his shoulder. he leaned his head on yours, and tried his best to not move, so as to not bother you. the second act of the movie was commencing, and he had something on his mind. he had to fess up eventually about who he is- who he was, that is. someone he no longer was, someone he despised so vehemently.
“doll?” he tested the waters. he started calling you that, a reminder of how much of a casanova he was when he was in high school. you protested but eventually let him continue calling you that, as it was more effort telling him to stop than you cared to give.
“mm?” you hummed softly, half asleep.
“i wasn’t joking about my toast.”
“i didn’t think you were. you don’t have to talk about it if you don-“
“i want to talk about it.”
you paused. this was rare. you didn’t know what to think, so you gave him the space to talk.
“there’s a reason i’m always wearing this glove, you know.”
“yeah, circulation problems.” you joked, but he didn’t laugh.
“doll, i was born in 1917.”
“…” you sat up. “what? james, you’re not being funny right now.”
he continued tentatively.
“my name is james buchanan barnes and i was born in march 10, 1917.” he recited as if giving a memorized speech, his monotone words hitting you, syllable by syllable.
“i was forced to be the winter soldier, and i was framed for the U.N bombing.” your facial expression must’ve hinted that you put the pieces together, and he stopped.
“and, yeah. i have a metal arm.” he added almost rushed, he wanted to explain that part as well. he gave you space to fully digest everything.
“so…your friend that died was…” he nodded.
“steve rogers.” he finished for you.
“wow.” you didn’t know what to say, you just sat there. everything made so much sense now, why he always wore a glove, why he never had any pictures of friends or family, nothing. suddenly, you smiled.
“doll?” he looked confused. your best friend admitted to lying about his identity to your face for a year, and you’re…smiling?
“the first friend i made in ten years is someone who’s older than me by eighty years.” you giggled.
“i don’t- you’re not mad?” his brain short circuited. you’re not responding the way he thought you would’ve. you shook your head.
“i mean, what kind of friend am i for you not to be able to trust me with that? yeah, im a little blindsided, but i understand. i still see you as my friend.”
he didn’t know what to do. tears threatened to fall.
“pay attention to this part, its my favorite.” you leaned back to your original position, as if nothing happened. you offered your hand, and he took it.
don't modify, every one adores you, at least i do.
“dont look at me like that.” you said, a little tipsy. you had been friends with him for two years now, and you had invited him over to your apartment, for new year’s. you both didn’t really have any plans, or friends, for that matter. of course, he had sam, but sam was with his sister for the new year. he had barged into your apartment with a six case of beer on him, and two little paper hats saying, “happy new year!”. how adorable. you weren’t dressed up, gracing yourself with an oversized shirt and a pair of shorts. you sat on the couch with your legs on his lap, his flesh hand holding his beer and his metal hand holding you. he traced small circles on your calves, which felt really intimate. you’re grateful he used his metal hand, because you weren’t sure what you would’ve done if he used his skin to tease you so.
“like what?” he asked. his tone was quiet, his eyes searching for permission in yours. permission for what?
“like you want to kiss me.”
“and what if i do?” there it was. you didn’t want to ruin any friendship you still had left after he threw that bombshell. you paused and looked away. you took another sip of your beer.
“i’m afraid i’ll have to decline your advances.” you quietly said. its not that you didn’t love him, but it all felt so wrong. the only reason he wanted to kiss you was because it was the new year, and that stupid fucking tradition.
“you know i could get lost in those eyes. i’d trip over my words trying to find my way back.” he admitted. he really did love you. god, he loved you.
“if you keep looking at me like that, i might think that you have a crush on me.” you teased, face red. from the intimacy or from the alcohol? you weren’t sure, maybe it was both.
“and what if i did?”
“bucky…” you sighed. you sat up and moved your legs away from him.
“i mean it. would that be such a crime?” he leaned his body towards you. you noticed that his cheeks had their own hue of red, and his eyes felt unsure.
“bucky.” you cut him off. you didn’t know what to say. its not like you could say, “i dont want you to kiss me for new year’s, because i want you to kiss me for real.” you didn’t know what to say, so you just shook your head slightly. he nodded, stood up, and gave you a kiss on the cheek.
“i understand.” he whispered into your ear. you bit your lip, this was the friendliest he had ever been towards you, and you only wished for more. he smiled softly and said,
“happy new year, y/n.”
right where the black wood sighs, i look at you, through and through.
your birthday was coming up, and he decided to surprise you. he researched thoroughly about forests located next to you, and found the one. things had been a little rough post new year’s eve, but your connection through knowing who he was kept the friendship close. you soon were back to your old self, but remained a bit guarded.
your birthday was today. you hadn’t received any messages from him, so you felt a bit let down. you sighed throughout the day as you kept checking. suddenly, around 2 in the afternoon, he knocked on your door with a basket in hand, and flowers in the other.
“happy birthday, doll.”
it’s safe to say that you spent the rest of your day very content, and impressed at the picnic he had organized.
right where your father died I'll hold on to your hand.
you don’t remember much from your father, other than the fact that he died early in your youth. you detested seeing children with both their parents with them, even as an adult. you felt jealous, angry at your father for dying. you knew it wasn’t your fault, but still. you occasionally visited his grave, and the place where he passed on. it was a rainy day, the day he went with you. you asked him to go, as you weren’t feeling so well. he obliged.
the downpour matched the dreary mood, and as you stood near the bench he died on, a bench he felt was familiar. he started to panic, thinking that somehow he was the one responsible for the death of your father, wondering if you taking him here was some sort of ploy to avenge your father.
“he got caught in the crossfire of a crime.” you admitted. “police were chasing this guy, and he meant to shoot the…” you trailed off. he knew what you were trying to say and he nodded. he sighed, partly from the mood and partly from relief that he wasn’t the one that took him from you. you took his hand and held it. he squeezed your hand, and rubbed circles on your knuckles.
“thank you.” what an odd thing for him to say to you, but you knew that he meant for taking him to a place so sacred to you.
“now we’re even.” you smiled at him. no more secrets about the past.
so terrified of the road that takes you, me too.
panic attacks didn’t hit him often. it was around two weeks since his last one, and it wasn’t something he wasn’t thinking of at the time, until now.
he spent so much time at your place, so much in fact, that some of his mail correspondence was sent to your place by the mailman. how silly. he was over for some random dinner, and conversed with you as you cooked. you were making spicy chicken alfredo, or something along those lines. he didn’t really pay attention, he only focused on you. he noticed how fluid you were in the kitchen, as if you were dancing. when he thought you were going to run into a cabinet, you moved away just in time. wether that be for your reflexes or by chance, he wasn’t sure. he had shared with you a couple vinyls, a way of sharing his past with you. he hummed along to the smooth voice of ella fitzgerald, until you interrupted the noise with a yelp of pain. he turned to you, and noticed you had cut your finger with the knife, which confirmed to him that in fact, the reason you didn’t run into cabinets was by chance, maybe some guardian angel working overtime. he kissed your finger, and walked to the bathroom to grab the first aid kit. everything was going so well, too. its just a small setback. until, he came back.
you looked to be covered in blood everywhere, with a heavy concentration on your torso. there was a gunshot in your stomach area, and you hunched over the cabinet for support. at least, that is what he saw. in reality, you leaned on the cabinet, waiting for him. his heart dropped and his eyes scanned you so worriedly. he ran to you, inspected your arms, your eyes, your neck, your stomach. your confused expression felt almost like daggers at him, and he started hyperventilating. he felt hands all around him, suffocating him. he knelt to the ground, gasping for air. his hair started clinging to his forehead, his clothes suddenly felt too tight, the air felt too hot, his metal arm too familiar. did he do this? he kept thinking. he heard a voice, his voice, but different. it was him.
“of course you did this.” he said, full of poison. tears fell down his eyes, and they kept falling, even when he shut them so tightly. he clawed at his metal arm, at his reminder of who he was.
you tried your best to make him realize that you were there, and in fact, not dead. no matter your volume, he couldn’t hear you. he was rocking back and forth, and you kneeled to his eyeline.
“bucky?” you kept saying. you kept repeating, kept trying to open his eyes, move his hand from hurting his shoulder. soon, your hands were stained with the blood drawn from where metal met skin. you sat with him, and listened to his cries. you didn’t know what to do, he hadn’t discussed panic attacks with you, so you weren’t sure if you could hold him or not. you decided to take a risk and rub his back, and lean your head on top of his. a few minutes were spent like that, his quiet sobs filling the apartment. eventually, he calmed down enough to the point of hugging you, and whispered “i’m sorry”. that’s all he said, and he kept saying it. his face was nuzzled into your neck, and he kept saying that. your hands held him tightly, your own tears falling as well. he stopped hurting himself, but seeing him in this state broke your heart. you knew why seeing you bleeding affected him so badly. he didn’t often tell you of all the people he killed, but when he did, he was always filled with immense grief. you’d always remind him that it wasn’t really him, and that he didn’t have body autonomy. those words, although comforting, felt like a lie. he was scared you believed differently, thought of him differently. your words and your touch remained the same, though. after his panic subsided, you led him to the sink, and washed his hands. you cleaned his wounds, and wrapped them with gauze. you asked him to stay at your place, and he accepted. you set his bed, and gave him some spare clothing you had. he sat down next to you, and watched you lay down, before looking at you. his blue eyes looked into yours, asking for permission. you held your arms up, and he instantly moved. he laid on top of you, almost tentatively. you ran your fingers through his hair, and he adjusted himself on top of you, holding your waist. no words were exchanged.
you two never spoke of that moment.
don’t modify, every one adores you, at least i do.
three years had passed since you first crossed paths, and he wanted to be the one to initiate the celebration. he didn’t know how surprise you, you two had already done a lot of things. picnics, dinners, sleepovers. he realized he needed to buy a gift. what should he get you? you already had enough jewelry, you always went thrift shopping with him, and you seemed pretty content with everything you had. it clicked in his mind. he got you a photo album for your pictures, and a star projector, showing how the stars looked like on the day you first met. he felt nervous, he hadn’t felt this close to someone in a while, and he was scared to ruin it.
you spent the anniversary gushing over your gift, and kept complimenting him throughout that night. his fears for being a bad friend were eased.
everybody has you up on their wall sometimes.
he wasn’t one for photography. his walls were bare, aside from the decorations you bought for him. you, however, loved your polaroid camera. you took pictures of anything you deemed important, like meeting someone with a similar outfit to yours, a cat you saw on the street, and him. you deemed him important, and he had to pretend like that wasn’t the biggest compliment ever. he had to pretend that every time you snapped a picture of him, he wasn’t blushing so hard, and how he loved being your muse. he started putting more effort into his appearance, so you would take more pictures. you noticed, of course you noticed. you had to keep a solid stream of film. one day, he held your camera. he often wondered how you saw the world, and seeing the little window in the polaroid camera made him smile. you were comically posing in the couch, giggling with every new pose. he clicked away, happily. he then sheepishly asked for a serious picture, for his new collection. well, your picture would be the first in the collection. how fitting, that you would be the one to star in the little joy you shared with him. your face flushed a bit as you sat up and smiled softly at him. he swallowed his nervousness, and took the picture. as he let it develop, he walked away, leaning on the wall. he didn’t want to let you see how red he was. you didn’t know if you were friends or not. of course, you were friends, but you weren’t sure if you were more. you walked to where he was, took the picture from him and placed it on a side table. you grabbed the camera from his hand, and tossed it lightly to your couch. you looked at his lips, his eyes, his scars. you lifted your hand and traced his eyebrows, his nose, his chin, his jawline. his eyes fluttered shut, as he grabbed your hand and kissed it. he pulled you closer, as if you were the air he so desperately needed to breathe, as if you were the water in the middle of the desert. he held you so gently, leaning you against the wall. he leaned his lips towards yours, but didn’t press forward. he just breathed deeply, breathing you in. you looked up at him.
“bucky?” you asked softly, as to not shatter the moment.
“please. you’re all i have ever wanted these three years. i’ve been…you’re…” he couldn’t find the words. he grew a little frustrated at his lack of ways to express himself.
“i love you. from the minute i knew you, from new year’s, every birthday, every anniversary. please, y/n. i need you, like i need air, like i need water, like i need…you.” his eyes looked into yours, waiting for a response in the almost deafening silence.
you leaned forward, kissed him, and were made his that night.
everybody thinks of you when they sleep at night.
he liked waking up next to you. he liked the way your hair ruffled up because of the pillow. he loved the way your eyelashes fluttered when you opened your eyes, and your sleepy smile greeted him.
“good morning, bucky.” you would say.
“dreams?” he’d reply. if you had any dreams, you’d go on in detail about them, and if not, you’d shrug and say,
“my subconscious took the night off.”
he’d tuck your hair behind your ear, and kiss you. how wonderful, that he was able to kiss you, show you how much you meant to him, make you his. how serendipitous, that the first words he ever said to you were “thank you.” fate knew. you knew.
when I say, "everybody", i'm actually referring to mе.
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this is still one of the funniest things anyone ever added to my posts (that was abt ancient rome btw)
#a. not true. b. that post was specifically abt sensory overload which. literally everybody had everywhere#and c. do u rly think there wasnt war violence imperialism etc. outside europe#n the 'tries to b anti racist so hard it loops back into racism' award goes to....#blorbo from my degree....
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