#ugh this is not what i wanted to happen
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I know a lot of much needed change is coming my way. Although I am excited for the long awaited opportunities, I do feel heavily unsettled.
I think it’s out of heartache of what’s going to happen to a lot of people I won’t see again. They’ll forever be lost in the labyrinth of time. All I can do is move forward and hope my people stay with me.
#maddie speaks#pre-birthday existentialism but its weirdly heavier than normal this time#i have a bad habit of thinking TOO much sometimes#i think about the people I’ll never see again#even the childhood friends that disappeared#ugh this is not what i wanted to happen#and then my fears for the future#i also have a lot of worry for my parents#even with how bad they are for my heart and mind#i still feel sad of what happened to them and how all i can do is protect myself and have them fade away too#it really makes me sad since I tried everything I could…#i miss them for the good they did do and the memories#i just hope with the new life I have that it can be a happy fulfilling one#CAN SOMEONE THROW MEDIC AT ME#OR DEMPSEY#MAYBE EVEN CROW#I NEED TO HOLD ON TO SOMEONE THIS IS NOT GOOOOOOOOD
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So how’s ride kamens going for you as I just pulled my self together long enough to read the other half of the current main story
I've been working on catching up on the event stories since they announced the upcoming main story update! (I totally bombed the last few events...they're so fast-paced and I just didn't have time...😭)
and then of course they went and dropped THIS on us today
(you don't understand, I LOVE Tajador and I already love the two blurry frames they've given us of non-silhouetted Kelka, I'm ready to absolutely lose my shit come the announcement/reveal(?) stream on Thursday --)
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#october is officially NEW BOY MONTH#month of BOYS#i had suspected we were going to be getting some new guys eventually because. well. gacha.#but it's HAPPENING and oh my WHAT a strong start#me checking twitter and immediately turning into the beyonce meme: TAJADOR?!#hold on i'm contractually obligated to do the jingle#🎶 TAAAAAAJAAAAAAADOOOOORU 🎶#flashback to during the initial run of reveals when my sister was guessing ankh for every one because 'eventually it'll be right'#i can't believe it came true. i'm so happy#ugh i need to either grind out more seals for keys or see if anyone's uploaded the stories#i mean it's prooooobably not necessary to understand the main story but. i want to be fully prepared.#and i'm still a little salty about missing out on both birthday agata AND radical rollerbladin' araki#how dare they do this to me when i have DEADLINES >:(#...anyway get hype for part 2!!!!!#i hope we get powerup forms! just pile more stuff on top of these guys and watch them gently topple over#i still think leon should be allowed to henshin but. y'know. maybe as a big finale.#he will save us with the power of friendship and fresh-baked cookies
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But whose heart would not take flight? Betray the moon as acolyte On first and fierce affirming sight Of sunlight, sunlight, sunlight
#bg3#bg3 edit#bg3 screenshots#astarion#i have so many fucking FEELINGS about this scene#like the bathing in sunlight would be powerful enough#but it's freedom it's cleansing it's healing it's peace#in the context of what happened the previous night#he doesn't want to turn and look at the PC#his FACE when he has to#UGH#I could write essays#novels#epics
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Tommy saying he has to leave after kissing Buck is something I have to talk about…
Because instead of just saying “yeah gotta go!” and leaving Buck to flounder and worry and feel used, Tommy does the opposite
Tommy wants to stick around, wants to be there, and wants to be with Buck. And he says so by the way he adjusts Buck’s shirt, by maintaining eye contact, explaining it, and Buck isn’t left to spiral right after the kiss.
And after Buck’s little “okay” that still holds a sense of awe and maybe not being super present (which can’t blame him, I mean have you seen Lou), Tommy still assures Buck of his place by asking for a date.
It’s all these things that add up to Tommy making sure Buck is a priority and Tommy will keep that as a promise.
Buck deals with abandonment and not feeling right in the world, and Tommy is there to say “hey, in this world, in my world, you can feel safe and free to be you.”
#ugh I am such a Tommy girl after the last episode and it can’t handle my feelings#bucktommy rn is my world#like yes yes buddie I still want eventually#but this relationship with buck and Tommy?#I love all of it and want more of them because Tommy is such a kind person and buck deserves to feel that love#even if Buddie doesn’t happen#I’d be ecstatic for buck and Tommy to stay with each other#(honestly unsure what they plan to do with Eddie with the bitch Edy)#anyways ramble over#for now#911#911 spoilers#evan buck buckley#evan buckley#911 abc#911 on abc#911 on fox#911 fox#911 s7#911 season 7#bisexual evan buckley#tommy kinard#bucktommy#s7#season 7
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[VARRIC] Let's just try not to do that again. Bianca hates being turned on her friends.
#daedit#da2edit#gamingedit#dragonageedit#andersedit#dragon age#da2#anders#edits#flashing gif#i understand why people didn't want to play from origins onwards and only tackled inquisition in preparation for veilguard#[coming from a da:o truther]#but on the other hand you're losing SO much interesting context and depth on not only the characters but the whole world lore at large#like this dlc links directly to here lies the abyss especially#and also gives so much insight on both the wardens and anders particular predictment#he's still tainted justice didn't change that#it's just another thing he had to outrun in life#ugh i love everyone so much i'm so ready for tomorrow#also that varric quote considering what happens in the datv prologue...... kms
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I'm curious, how would your Suns design look during more serious situations, such as one of the Spearmaster broadcasts?
something like this
and now for a (slightly long) addendum: i know i depict SRS as jokey and kooky, but when it comes to not shitposting and actual characterization, i have Thoughts and Feelings about them. the entire story, they just want to do what they hope will help the people around them, even though it all ends up horribly, HORRIBLY wrong. that's tragic, and it has my interest. considering the heaviness (and intrigue) of SRS’s storyline, for me to only ever depict them as a goofball be way too shallow of me, and unfaithful to their canon characterization.
so to answer your question: they hold themselves together, of course, but the shame, regret, and embarrassment is still evident.
#i dont wanna get my characterization of srs from other peoples headcanons#but im admittedly a little too preoccupied to sit down and meticulously comb through their dialogue to see what each sentence reveals#my srs personality is usable but its not as detailed and tailored as id like it to be yknow#cause. just. MAN i really need to sit down and obsessively pore over those broadcasts and pearls sometime okay#also not saying that looking at other headcanons is bad. it set me straight way back when on a couple of my own minorly dogshit ones i had-#-when i didnt have a full grasp of the story#but i also just want to come to my own conclusions on srs#UGH. rain world is so good. the horrible events that happen dont happen because of some big bad shallow villain#but just people making bad decisions sometimes. because of concern. because of desperation. because of love. which happens with people.#auuuugh#my art#ask#rainworld#wait why has this been sitting in my drafts for over a week? be free my child. ill schedule this to post in an hour or something
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the unspoken broflovski family curse
#added the doodle late oops#taikko art#dont ask me what happened to my old sketchy painted ish style when i first started making sp art#did you know?? that i enjoy?? not? hurting???????????#its south park let me take it easy ugh finally i can draw in a style thats easy rottmnt artstyle kicked my ass#'why is kyles son wearing a different outfit?' i headcanon that kyles daughter is actually wearing hand me downs from him!!#i desperately need confirmed names omfg#I LOVE CHARACTERS WITH BARELY ANY CHARACTER TO THEM!! IT MEANS I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!!#me when i get to slap personalities and headcanons on characters that were on screen for less than a minute <3#i need to read peoples headcanons on them please im so uncreative and i need to eat i am NOT self sustaining#south park#south park art#south park fanart#sp fanart#sp art#sp fandom#south park fandom#south park post covid#sp post covid#post covid#kyle#kyle broflovski#sp kyle#south park kyle#pc kyle#post covid kyle
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leaks from the anime post bnha 430……. #REAL #NOTFAKE
#dabihawks#tododeku#bnha 430#mha 430#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#boku no hero academia#keigo takami#touya todoroki#shoto todoroki#izuku midoriya#now I’m going to tag the fankid. the old art is terrible do not perceive it#kaito todoroki#hishiro todoroki#SO WHAT IM PROPOSING IS……#hawks goes to work with ochako on the quirk counseling business rather than wtf he’s doing on the ranking system#dabi lives and is reformed and gets plastic surgery (but wants to keep some of his scars as a statement…) and he works with natsuo#he and natsuo have a soba shop. that only sells soba and boba#still trying to decide if Hishiro is a dabihawks kid or natsuos kid#hence why hawks doesn’t say ‘son’#I also think endeavor isn’t done with his bs and before his . UGH. ‘redemption’ signed a quirk marriage pact for Shoto#shoto and his wife (haven’t decided on a name yet but she’s ballin) try to make it work but they realize it just. it doesn’t#BUT OOPS SHE WAS PREGANTE. and she figures Shoto would. honestly be fine raising the kid there’s danger out there in the states#shoto’s also winding down on heroism bc it’s really. honestly I think he would also like to work at a soba shop#he doesn’t. but. I feel like there’s a reason he just mainly goes on midnight patrols yk?#anyway he and deku raise the kid . the mom’s involved as much as she can be while being the . yeah I think she would be the most famous hero#in the United States . good for her …. good for her………#if you wanna see me elaborate…… u know what to do… hit up that inbox#or if u wanna know what happened to the rest of class 1-a in my future au……
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my TWO FAVORITE THINGS IN THE WORLD, VAMPIRES N COWBOYS... deacon keller is SUCH a fun character, hes charming and funny but ALSO formidable and STRONG when he feels he needsta be. i hope him and arthur can get a chance to talk more and be better friends. l ike really good friend s. . like. like really good f. hangon i gotta go i think i hauve rabies.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#jrwi suckening spoilers#deacon keller#arthur bennett#OOUGUGHHAAOGUguguhh i feel so cringe whenever i ship two characters. like theyre not even REAL#why cant i be more 'hyperfixated' on getting bitched or something. CHRIST. anwyay i want em to hold hands or smth. yknow. freak stuff.#SO DEACON KELLER!! HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR TALKIN ABT THIS PLACE GETTING ATTACKED.. WE SAW HIM APPROACHING#AND THEN THE WHOLE FEAST PORTION OF THE PARTY HAPPENED N HE GOT STUCK#BUT HE KNEEEWW HE OVERHEARD ARTHUR SOMEHOW!! i just think thats neat. hes dedicated to protecting his people. hes respectable!!#GOD he doesnt even have that much screen time but i LOVE HIMMM n his silly lil shadow steed named Sunshine.. like cmon.... ugh.....#hes sweet n hes funny and he CAARES about the things hes in charge of on some levels. he certainly does his best to look after his own.#god idk what else to write here other than how much hes been on my MMMIND lately. the doctors are still running diagnostiscs#i just think hes so neat... also i think its funny that hes afraid o snakes. OH YKNOW lemme just talk abt my damn art. first o all this too#SSSOOO LONG. WEEKS EVEN.IVE BEEN WORKIN ON IT SINCE EP 5 WAS ON PATREON.it was sposed to be justa buncha doodles but then it Evolved#idk man...cowboys are just so cool...especially w VAMP POWERS..fastest shot in the west for a REASON BABY...n with the red smoke#n the glowing eyes..CMOn thats so cool i hadta get my visions into reality. the eyes were inspired by the music video for RATTLESNAKE (kglw#that where the IM THE SERPENT lines come from.lyrics from tha song.ooh yeah i love kglw so much...i also have other hidden messages here#i like to hide things...ALSO ALSO. I HAD SO MUCH TROUBLE W SO MUCH O THIS. the two bits with arthur n deacon biting eachother. AGONY#POSES ARE SO HHARRDDD SAME WITH THAT doodle o arthur slammin deacons head into the ground. WEEKS to get that pose RIGHT. I BLED SO MUCH#OHH AND GUNS???COWBOYHATS?? HIS GAY LIL JACKET? W THE DANGLIES?? AGOONYYY IT TOOK SO LONG TO PERFECT IT..especialy guns. OUUUHH#i also dont draw mustaches enough... which sucks bc im weak for a good mustache... BUT i think im doing pretty well on that.#it was hard but yknow what!! i think i did good! i rly like how this all turned out!! EXCEPT FOR THA FUCKIN RIBBON BOW THING I FORGOT TODRA#IN THE TOP RIGHT... THAT I JSUT NOTICED...its fine its fine i dont care that much. this is good enough to FEAST upon so im content n happy.#anyway i gotta leave ina few hours to start TRAINING for my NEW JOB!! CHEER FOR ME!! TRUCK IS A BLACKJACK DEALER NOW!! IEAAAHHH BABYYYY!!!!#thanku for reading my weird lil scrolls i bury beneath my posts. if u leave tags i WILL absorb them. and feel joy.
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my fave chengxian reconciliation scenario is wei wuxian slowly realizing that the life of a wanderer isn’t actually what he wants and lotus pier is his home and more clearly, living in a world with jiang cheng but not actually being something to jiang cheng isn’t what he wants either
#chengxian#text#liztalks#I’m just ugh sad girl chengxian hours#I think a lot about the ending of mdzs and how it doesn’t add up#I fee like if it actually took the time to let wwx grieve to heal to think about what happened#wwx would realize he’s using lwj to run away and to hide from his past#I love the fics that give him a few years to get situated with the world#the introspection of what he did and what he now wants and needs#and not to slander lwj but it isn’t him lmao#don’t even get me started on if wwx found out about jc’s sacrifice#mxtx is a coward for not doing that reveal bc she knew that the endgame would have been chengxian lmao#okay I’m delulu ignore me
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Jason Sudeikis as Ted Lasso Season 3 » Casual Sweaters/Jumpers
#Ted Lasso#Jason Sudeikis#Theodore Lasso#*mine: gif#tedlassoedit#sweater/jumper game#ugh you idiot with that face#stop staring at me swan#here's a gifset for the sweater/jumper lovers out there and sorry this is a long post. I just couldn't make up my mind on some of these#I spent way too much time overanalyzing the casual sweaters/jumpers. I was trying to only show each one once but then just gave up#deep dived research on the Todd Snyder site that's the kind of overanalyzing that happened#there is a lot of lighting messing with colors and for sure there are some repeats in this but whatever#I had this idea way back when we saw the variety of color sweaters/jumpers for S3#but after the end of S3 I lost a lot of feelings for this show#my motivation for giffing this show is not so strong anymore but there is a part of me that still wants to maybe try a layout set#I'm thinking of doing all 3 seasons and just an overall sweater/jumper encompassing gifset. both the work and casual together#kind of meh on how some of these turned out ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#it might be the added switch to the new editor and that all of these have been turned into gifv nonsense#also couldn't get the caption font to do what I wanted in html or at least it looked alright in drafts but not in preview#PS: thank you talldecafcappuccino for reading/helping with my color debate/same vs not same sweater/jumper nonsense
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And what have I but regret? My life ended in the Dominion. I fear death no more. Besides, I would have words with Ultima. He has much to answer for.
#ffxviedit#ffxvi#finalfantasyedit#final fantasy 16#ffedit#dion lesage#blood tw#him saying ���my life ended in the dominion” is so ugh#bb boy#this has been in my drafts for a looong time bc i was too indecisive about what scenes to use#(they're all great choices bc he's in all of them :3)#i love my boy#also in my head that last gif of him falling to his death simply Didn't Happen but i still wanted to include it#we are a Dion Didn't Die blog here#by we i mean me !!#mine
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My unpopular opinion is that in languages with grammatical gender like french, it does make sense for Murderbot to be referred to by whatever pronoun is usually used for robots or constructs. (In french, therefore, grammatical masculine.) Because there are no traditional « it » pronouns in these languages for objects, and while there are neo-pronouns, they are things one must choose for themselves. Do you honestly think MB actually spent time thinking about its pronouns?! No it didn’t. On forms it picks « non-applicable ». When people ask it what pronouns they should use, its honest opinion is « why do you even need to talk about me. Just don’t fucking do that. Don’t think about me either. Just fucking stop perceiving me altogether! »
Thinking about what pronouns to use probably makes it way more uncomfortable than letting people call it what they’ve already been calling it. Making a conscious choice about its identity? And telling other people about it??? No thanks bye, it’s just gonna walk into the ocean now, see you never.
Lbr it probably thinks the only bots that get fancy pronouns are comfort units, and the pronouns are probably shoved into them by humans same as everything else. MB would meet a bot using a neopronoun and it would wish it could barf. Because in a language like french, he/him and she/her, when applied to objects, ARE fulfilling the function of the english « it ». Nobody is saying the table is a woman or related to feminity in any way outside of stand-up comedy; when it comes to objects grammatical gender really has fuckall to do with human gender even if we use the same words. Even animal species names have grammatical gender and everyone gets that there are male and female turtles even if the word « turtle » is a female word, it’s not that confusing.
(I know this is strange when your language has different pronouns for people and for objects, but understand that english uses the same word to indicate if I’m addressing one or many people, and that is confusing to me.)
TL;DR; stop harassing international fans for not getting the correct MB pronoun in english right off the bat. Yes in english calling it « he » or « her » or « them » is upsetting because it’s projecting an identity unto it. But same goes for trying to get a foreign language translation to use a pronoun intended to express or showcase an identity (or even a lack of one!). Murderbot has not thought about it this hard, refuses to think about it this hard -> and that is its only canon accurate gender identity.
#the murderbot diaries#taking a bat to an hornet’s nest there but I said what I said#I go by she/her because that’s the default people use for me even tho my own gender identity is also#ugh I would sincerely prefer not to have to deal with this think about it or even be perceived#and I would be hella pissed if a book of my life came out and people got into fights about my pronouns#trying to assign me the most politically accurate agender pronoun possible#when my own choice has always been specifically to let people call me the default because idc#and I don’t want to be identified by any identifier that might indicate I do care#and using a different pronoun even if its a gender neutral one is a CHOICE!#it does indicate a preference! and caring about it enough to pick a word and tell people about it!!!#Murderbot didn’t pick IT that is specifically the point!#it was used for it and MB just kept going with that#I mean imagine it if wrote down a different pronoun on its ID form one day and someone actually called it that#it would set itself on fire#its discomfort at having made a personal choice and the personal choice being respected would be off the charts#maybe it a later book after hella character development but I just don’t see it happening tbh#respect the agenders who just don’t want to get involved and use the pronoun equivalent of the default avatar that came with the account#PLEASE#that is all
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*huge spoilers for Little Goody Two Shoes + Pocket Mirror*
now that Little Goody Two Shoes is finally out, we know the whole truth about the deal Elise made with the demon, and how she got the Pocket Mirror...
so one of the requierements for Elise's wish to come true was to sacrifice "the good company" which is basically, the love of her life (which she found out too late...). she was too naïve to realize she was being played and so her loved one was fed to the demon.
now, we know the girl who is canonically sacrificed is Rozenmarine (and therefore, the canon girl out of the three you can date in LGTS) because one of the wax records you can listen in Pocket Mirror says this:
and in the ending called "Moira" from LGTS (which is the one you get when you choose to date Rozenmarine and sacrifice her) you get the following dialogue:
and on top of that, this is the only ending that explains how Elise got the Pocket Mirror for Goldia...
which is from her friend Lebkuchen, who is also one of the romanceable girls in the game and unfortunately, it is confirmed their friendship is broken by then :(
so yeah. now we also know who the pocket mirror belongs to.
Elise's backstory is more heartbreaking than i originally thought when i played Pocket Mirror. In that game, the whole deal thing sounded like she did it out of pure greediness without thinking about the consequences of her actions. and yeah, she was an idiot for falling for such an obvious trap, BUT she was also a very young and naïve girl who absolutely hated her life, and so when she had the opportunity to leave that life behind she just took it. and when Ozzy (that is, the demon) told her he would take something else in exchange for that, she just came up with something she was sure would never happen.
it was never her intention to doom Goldia. hell it was never her intention to even have a second kid after she had Henri. but her fate was already sealed.
and thus, that's how Goldia's fate came to be...
also rip Rozenmarine :(
#i wonder what happened to freya she is the only one not mentioned in the canon ending#i suppose she never wanted to see elise again. just like lebkuchen#it's so sad ugh elise whyyyyyyyyyyyy#well at least we have the good endings even if they're not canon#i got my good ending with freya and i loved it.#it's good to see what would have happened had elise decided to build her own life with her loved one by her side#hundred times better than what she actually did...#anyway enough rambling. play pocket mirror is what i'm saying!#little goody two shoes#lgts spoilers#little goody two shoes spoilers#pocket mirror spoilers#pocket mirror
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The Nefarious CoatHanger
#just woke up from my nap..insanely cruel of my brain to give me a dream where the current hurricane is suddenly veering completely left#totally missing florida. only for there to be a worse one forming. somehow#like in my dream legit i saw the weather radar of it going left suddenly and i was like oh thank god#and then zoomed in and saw ANOTHER one listed as a category 7??? and got so scared i felt like i was in a horror movie#like wow great dream thanks brain. not like i need some escapism#i stg i cannot cry anymore i dont want to but im still so afraid for what might happen 😭😭😭😭😭😭#ugh whatever I'm sorry for worrying you guys..... bye bye#ruby rambles
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#ace attorney#manfred von karma#damon gant#hrngggh I love when people draw young mvk with a ponytail. I want to start doing that too. at least some of the time#also I think I accidentally made Gant too tall here. please imagine he's standing on his tippy toes#anyway. ugh. I know it's not going to happen but I'll never stop wishing for a spin-off/prequel with these two#can you imagine a monster of the week type detective show with them#featuring an obligatory beach episode#a murder at a remote location with no phone connection episode#a haunted mansion 'did a ghost do it' episode#:( what I wouldn't give for that to be a thing
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