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why can't people let me be happy why do they always have to attempt to get in my head and try to convince me in unlovable and love and overinvest in other people too much literally fuck you and fuck you for getting in my head because now idk if they're right
#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com#my mom just suddenly out of nowhere asks me *would any of your friends drop everything for you if you asked*#and i said yeah and she sounded so unconvinced#FOR NO REASON LITERALLY#and shes not the only one why do people love trying to poke holes into my completely healthy friendships#i don't do it for your much worse falling apart romantic relationships#and now i feel like shit for no reason#a part of me just wants to stop trying but i would only be hurting myself and proving her right#on the other hand if she's right then me not trying for once wouldn't mean everyone ditches me#but i don't want to do that it's pointless#except it's not but whatever#i hate people sometimes like let me. be. happy.#im just going to sleep#ugh i have driving tomorrow
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway 💀#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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#i gotta go get my T bloodwork done tomorrow#which is fine but like#last time i was there the nurse was REALLY weird and they were pretty annoyed with me#because i hadn't come in for a long time#because life shit happened including breaking my ankle#and it's the same situation now but like so much fucking worse#and i don't want them to be assholes to me about it or about how i kind of miss shots quite a bit#like that's A Thing#it's a problem for me#but i don't deserve AT ALL to get scolded for it or treated like I'm doing something wrong#ugh i just have a chip on my shoulder#i know it has the potential to go fine and i am bringing backup with me#but EVERYTHING has gone wrong lately!#and if this goes wrong there is every chance it'll drive me to getting the stuff online and not getting bloodwork AT ALL#and I want to tell them that but I feel like they'd just be shitty about it because ultimately they may be an inclusive clinic#but they are still medical professionals and gatekeepers at heart and you can't trust medpros and gatekeepers further than you can spit#idk man I'm an adult just leave me alone to do my thing and accept that I will be in once a year for sure but no promises on more than that#i'm tired in advance#idk i just got the feeling last time that they were accusing me of getting my T illicitly and it's like bitch im not but even if i was#aren't you supposed to be a place people can be honest about their situations? am i not here jumping through your hoops to do it legally?#im doing what you wanted but the thing is I DON'T HAVE TO and if you keep acting weird im going to have to STOP#because i don't have energy to deal with my disintegrating life AND gatekeeping judgy bullshit#do cis men have to dance like this?
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My 8.5 hour drive turned into 10 and now I'm cranky and out of sorts. 8 is not bad with a break halfway. 9 makes me antsy but 10 as a solo driver is where I start to really hit my limit.
Going to relax with a good book and my faithful companion and hopefully have a good day tomorrow at the seminar.
#dogblr#belgian tervuren#forte#psychiatric service dog#service dog#dog training#training seminar#body's a bad monster#1.5 hour's difference shouldn't feel so big but it really wrecked my plans#originally I'd have arrived early enough to grab some groceries and drive over to the seminar location#but I'm too tired so i just grabbed convince food and didn't check out the facility the seminar is at#so even though I'm here a day early and planned and packed carefully#i feel like I'll be winging it tomorrow#ugh why is my brain like this?
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Atp guys I'm just thinking of decaying.
#its 1 am here#i have exam tomorrow#which is probably gonna be shit#and effect my whole result#i wanna deacy#ugh#this is nuts#it is driving me crazy#i hate that subject#i tried to study okay#but it sucks#ughhhhhh
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Holy fuck y'all i should NOT be awake 😭
#p#i need to be up in six hours 😭😭#i had an awful exhausting evening#my hamster that i had before moving passed away#the car i bought not even two years ago is totaled and unfixable#i lost one of the gigs i thought i had secured for the school year#it is pms hell week for me and i keep swinging wildly between utter fully body rage and complete overwhelming despair and anxiety#i want to cry but ive done enough crying tonight thank you!!!!#please let tomorrow be kinder i desperately need it#please let the jobs ive emailed tonight email me back#and let the pay be good#i also have sooooo much to do before next tuesday oh my god#i need to prep for our session on saturday#finish lesson planning for the summer camp#finish character creation#grocery shop#quick clean of the house bcuz lord knows i wont be doing it while at the camp#i still havent received a v important piece of mail#figure out how to pay my taxes and insurance#prep for the meeting i have monday morning re new school year including some brain storming#reviewing the pacing calendar and handbook and looking at the google drive again#and im being social this entire weekend agh#plus look for jobs i guess??? bcuz money is needed#and theres family drama 🙃#ugh i should probably not be posting this on main#perhaps i will delete later ugh#life is just hard atm it will get better it always does#and i will not lose my rental nor will i be unable to pay my taxes and bills#it will be FINE#because i will make it fine
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definitely feeling overdramatic right now, but i am SO overwhelmed from the stress of that trip and everything that happened before it and everything i have going on between now and the end of the year, that i would like to not interact with a single nother person for two weeks minimum.
#irl… online… anything#i honestly think that would fix me#i just don’t wanna see ANYone#i am soooooooo unhappy#like. not to be a huge baby but i really need support rn and instead i’m supporting everybody else#i am completely at the end of my rope though#i didn’t know it was possible to be THIS done#just completely burnt out… i finally got there!#but instead i have to do fucking Thanksgiving tomorrow#and then work and do TWO programs on Friday#and then drive to North Carolina for the concert. and drive back#and it’s just like. Man.#i REALLY can’t live like this#and do you KNOW how much i still need to get done before the end of the year?????#and i’m going to another concert next Thursday#and then i have a bird walk on Friday#and a Christmas party on Saturday#and ANOTHER bird walk on Sunday#just AHHHHHH. UGH UGH UGH#and that’s not even discussing regular work and SCHOOLWORK and volunteer shit#just fuck#i’m so done#don’t wanna do anything… don’t wanna see anybody#i just want to move away and never speak to anyone again#fuck
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i REALLY LOVE the way T makes me feel but i might have to hop off for a bit as a social experiment
#jk not social experiment#just keep forgetting to make a new pp appointment for prescription#i always wake up too late and they’re closed#and the online appointment thing is fucking dumv#and i’m literally going broke#i mean i could take comms for hrt#but like ugh#ok maybe i’ll do it for a bit to see if it makes me wanna wrap my car around a telephone pole#i don’t have a car i don’t even know how to drive i’m gay#ugh#i’ll just call tomorrow or somethinf#LIKE I DONT WANNA GO OFF T BUT IM LAZY AND DUMV#DUMB#h#idk like i could live without it i think#imagine i stopped taking t whenever i needed to write chris pygora dialogue#iykyk please#the only thing keeping me from taking a t break is my parents like i feel like#OK I FEEL LIKE IF I STOP TAKING T THEYD BE LIKE finally ….#AND GET WEIRD#OK FUCK OFF#WHY AM I TAG RANTING
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Goddd i don't want to go inside 😩
#personal..?#my friend(? idk anymore man)'s birthday party is going on RIGHT NOW#and I'm sitting in my car in the parking lot psyching myself up to go in#bc i have to drive 2 hours home tomorrow morning (like EARLY) and ik if i go in everyone's gonna be disappointed if i don't do something#like drink or smoke or whatever#not everyone#usually my friends are like “that's fine we just want you to have fun”#but fun right now is laying in bed watching evangelion and drawing lesbians#ugh#anyways#wish me luck guys
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good morninnnnnng =__=
#ugh. ugh ugh ugh. travel time tomorrow im not looking forward to it so badd. ugh. at least we'll be back by sunday & also i dont have#to drive this time. bluh.#anyway hiii gmm im just bitching and moaning...
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dw babygirl you dash is fine, i just have lots of feelings
#hello yes it is *squints* 11:30pm and i have a doctor's appointment at 8am and my back hurts but you know what#i have feelings#and imma forget i put this in my drafts but i feel like#the amount of times ppl have been like 'bestie i thought tumblr was malfunctioning and then i realized you were just having feelings'#is so great and large taht this came to my head and i went tehe#i'm am hilarious#n e ways#gonna try and sleep now IG#sleep is hard bc it always comes when you don't want it and not when you need it o ugh#don't wanna doctor's tomorrow#gotta be like 'yo why do y'all keep sending my pharmacy the wrong thing pls stop it makes me sad'#and then imma drive four hours#but then. tattoo. soon.#okay i'm just distracting nyself oops tehe#love you guys MWAH#goodnight#this post isn' that funny but it is to Me and That's What Matters#corey talks:)
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FASHION QUESTION!!! if u could design an outfit for urself rn. maybe something u always wanted to wear but u havnt seen it before or mybe just a cool design on some clothes....how would u describe it
i really like amavel's girly/doll style outfits i wish i could get that but like pride flag colors and turtles like this. im not describing this sorry im just drawing it out. i dont have any of the bracelet ring chain accessories bc theyre always sold out when i find them but i think theyre neat i want one. idk if i want tulle over the skirt or lace at the bottom mayeb even both i didnt draw either but the thoughts there too.
that said i already own the two most euphoria inducing outfits ive seen and thats these. ive given up thinking of my own designs bc i will never top these. i dont even care these are MY outfits now. the embroidery really makes them top notch to me
#asks#kuki#sea turtles are not my fave turtles btw but i think the sea theme with a turtle emphasis for the embroidery would drive me out of mind#in a good way of course#also im so happy agender flag colors are actually like. colors i love & prefer wearing already.#would love to have it in girlykei style and not just. t shirt. like i do.#im not. good at drawing the embroidery so the. cuts mostly there to show the styles i have that i like to get an idea what i mean#ugh u are making me want to wear my nice outfits tomorrow but Its Cold Out#also theyre so much effort to put on to take off 15 minutes later for work........ later in the week maybe
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finally having time to myself since 3pm yesterday (it’s 11pm rn) and i want to stay up and relax and watch stuff so i can have a nice time by myself before having to work tomorrow but i am EXHAUSTED and also want to sleep so bad😭😭😭
#i worked yesterday 8-2 and then was with friends and slept at their house and i got maybe ???? 3 hours of sleep lastnight bc of that and#THEN i had to work 8-2 AGAIN today and i got home and got picked back up by the same friends to do something and now i’m finally home and#stuff but i just don’t know what my best option is (i know i should sleep actually and get as much sleep as possible but shhhh)#i guess. i will sleep tho actually bc i can’t even concentrate on the video i was trying to watch. 20 minutes in and i have NO idea what#is happening so yeah i’ll take that as a cue to sleep#thanks for helping me decide what to do guys’#!* not ‘#ugh i don’t wanna work tomorrow i have an 8 hour shift and i don’t wanna do it 😭😭😭#saturdays are the worst bc i have to be alone all day and it drives me insane when i get a million customers that are regulars who know only#one person works at a time on saturdays like use common sense and also get fucked for being annoying i hate you all!!!!!! GRRRRR BITE BITE#ok no fr i’m going to sleeep now ok#OH WAIT ONE TINY THING I WAS DOING A TRIVIA GAME EITH MY FRIENDS TONIGHT AND THERE WAS A D&D QUESTION THAT I GOT FULLY CORRECT BC IVE BEEN#WATCHING LEGENDS OF AVANTRIS!!!!! IM SO HAPPY ABOUT IT LOL MY FRIENDS ALL DIDNT KNOW AND I WAS LIKE >:)))) BACK AWAY
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#theres a special kind of agony in tryinf to find an apartment in an college town with a housing shortage#everythings expensive as fuck and im sure its frustrating for everyone but i feel like its especially frustrating for me#bc it takes me so much fucking time to understand the information right in front of me and then i doubt myself so i have to check and check#and double check and triple check that im on the right website. that im inputting the right info#and its like. what if theres a better place i could b looking? like i found a management place to apply to thats expensive but less#expensive than another place but the building looks like its kinda on the edge of town like 15min drive from school#which i hate bc im an anxious freak and its gonna b worse than driving here bc itll get icey as fuck there#like proper inches of snow all winter. negative negative cold. so its like. do i take a nice apartment thats kinda far away#or a slightly more expensive apartment thats like 10min from school and more in town#and then theres the application stuff. and i cant fill anything out without having a full on like sobbing breakdown#but im that way abt everything. i do that all the time when i have to buy plane tickets#its exhausting. and i cant plan my exit until i know when i can move into a place. whatever. it doesnt help that my hormones r fucked rn#or i hope its the hormones. ive been so tired. so so tired. like sleeping 9hrs and still tired when usually im wired after only 7hrs sleep#i hate it. and super brain foggy. and this week i have to finish taking measurements for the last time#so i gotta decide if im gonna go in tomorrow or Monday to start it. its gonna suck so bad bc im gonna try to do it in 6 days. which will b#agony. but after that ill never have to do it ever again. ugh. im just so tired and i dont wanna limp my way into a new project feeling#like damaged goods. which is exactly what it feels like now. ive just done a very good job of making my job difficult#cant go into the lab without feeling physically ill. drained away all my joy. now theres only a sad distant recognition of how far ive#allowed myself to fall. i kno ill feel better once i have a place to stay and i can quit my job just getting there is taking an eternity#unrelated
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eregyrn-falls replied to your post: "Ran out of my acid reflux pills and even tho..."
WE JUST DIDN’T FILL IT. whaaaat the fuck? (i assume that’s different from “we’re so backed up that we haven’t gotten to it yet”). Anyway I did give up on Walgreens as a pharmacy recently, for a few reasons. But I have easily-accessible alternatives; I don’t know about you. I hope you do!
I mean, they didn't use those exact words. they didn't even say anything other than "oh yeah we got this last week" and I had to prompt them like "so could you fill it so I can pick it up tomorrow" and they were like "yeah sure"
anyways, I get texts from Walgreens when they're working on my scripts and when they're filled, so when I didn't get any texts from them today, I was a bit worried. and I was right to be. bc I found out why they didn't fill it!
apparently this medication is available over the counter. and Walgreens (100% just the company, not the individual pharmacist, who is actually great and does a fantastic job, he just works for a shitty company) decided that filling it as a script was more expensive than me getting it over the counter. so they decided, without consulting me or my doctor, or even NOTIFYING either of us, that they wouldn't fill my script and I could get it over the counter.
and like, okay, it's definitely LESS expensive as a script for me bc my insurance covers 100% of medication costs (and I am v lucky for that), and I feel like the explanation was kinda bullshit, but I don't know the details of what goes on in pharmacies. but HOLY SHIT fucking LET ME KNOW you have unilaterally made that decision for me!
I spent today and yesterday SUFFERING bc I thought a script was being filled and they had just decided not to fill it without LETTING ME KNOW. they should have told me when they initially decided not to fill it last week, but 10000% very much needed to yesterday, when I called to be like "hey can you fill this" and they said "yes we'll fill it and you can pick it up tomorrow"
I'm just flabbergasted and frustrated and UGH.
luckily, I do have more options for pharmacies, including one that I get my ADHD meds at bc Walgreens hasn't had my ADHD meds in close to a year now. so I'll be calling my doctor to switch primary pharmacies to one that won't send my meds to other cities (which Walgreens has done) and will fucking FILL SCRIPTS AS WRITTEN.
#I did get the over the counter version of the medication Walgreens refused to fill#bc tomorrow is one of my work days where I drive to a site four hours away#which will result in me driving eight hours total AND doing however long it takes to do stuff at the site#and I fucking REFUSE to have a long ass day like that#while feeling so nauseous that I can't eat#I'm so pissed about all of this ugh#speechie sucks at health#response#eregyrn-falls
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anyways I AM DONE WITH WORK YIPPEEEEEE im gonna get my ipad out and post a bit early just bc i dont wanna get busy tomorrow and forget about the posts :V i'll just reblog them in the middle of the day or something, whenever i get the time to be online
it's just two silly posts but they matter to me <3
#my day is kinda loaded tomorrow lmao#sucks bc i wanted to vibe on the server but oh well#wake up and do my last bit of job shadowing till 1pm. drive to campus (2hrs)#unpack. eat. sometime between that make sure my capstone guy sent the email he was supposed to send.#shower. relax for juuust a little bit. meeting at 9pm. review my paper for mistakes after#ugh. if i catch a break tomorrow it will be a miracle#BUT AFTER THAT I AM DOING *LITERALLY* NOTHING FOR TWO WEEKS#I HAVE YOGA... THAT'S IT. ALL MY OTHER CLASSES ARE DONE FKJDHG#chat
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