#tw loss of child

[mediocre--writing]

do yall ever think rather than orphan harry potter it could have been childless parents james and lily potter?

[hannibalzero]

I’m having so much trouble with the next chapter of “nothing dirty going on.”

I’ve been rewritten this chapter so many times, I’m really bad at writing conflict and it’s annoying me. So here is what I have of the 6th rewrite. I am open to suggestions or constructive criticism. All my love!

Nego 4

Sitting in Charles’s room, preparing medicine while Charles made arrows. At least attempted to make arrows. The damn choker was distracting him, the black silk band around Arthur’s neck somehow made Arthur’s skin more desirable, the panther teeth dipped in gold on the right side of his neck lightly pressed into a plump mating gland. It made Charles's mouth water and fangs aech in want. Realizing Charles had tied the damn feather to his finger instead of the arrow, he set it down with a sigh. Removing the string from his finger. “Can I ask you somethin’?” Charles finally spoke, they had been working together in a comfortable silence for about an hour.

“Sure? Somethin’ on ya mind?” Arthur asked pouring white wax to seal the herb packets of Hosea’s tea. Lightly blowing on the wax for it to harden and placed it into the red waiting tin beside him. The whole room smelt of wild mint and tea tree oil, Charles liked the smell of the healing herbs in his room.

“Why do you hide yourself? You have nothing to be ashamed of.” Charles bluntly stated with a tilt of his head, a small smile on his face when Arthur dropped the herb packet in shock. Charles loved how soft Arthur was. How he dropped his guard around him alone and trusted him. Besides Jack and Hosea of course.

Taking a big breath, Arthur smoothed out his black shirt nervously. “It’sa bit of a story already told ya half of it.” He trusted Charles, the man had saved his life more times than Arthur cared to count. Charles had more than earned his trust. “So I ran off to have Issac and went to live with Hosea and Bessie. Stayed with'em until I could ride again and the baby would be fine on the trip.” Arthur thought about it now. “He would be twenty now, wish you could have met Isaac.” He mumbled before starting on another tea packet. “Isaac’s daddy rejected me, I was thirteen and in love. You know, young and foolish.” He gave a wave of his hand.

“I would have liked him, I’m sure.” Charles gave a hum. “You would be preparing him wouldn’t you? To be the enforcer?” He mused as he prepared another arrow. “How old was the daddy, if you mind me asking?”

“Nah, I never thought about what would happen if he…” Arthur swallowed down the word. “Anyways, I don’t mind tell’en ya. The daddy was a twenty-three year old man that was the son of a horse ranch owner. I know now that no man what’s to be with a thirteen year old boy unless he had somethin’ in mind.” Arthur sealed another envelope of tea. “Hate to say, I used to have a bad temper.”

“Used too?” Charles quirked a brow at him, making a light joke.

“What can I say? Mellowed out in my age.” Arthur joked back with a sad smile. “Shot’em, stole everything of value and fed the man to his prized pigs.” He poured the herb mixture into another envelope. “I stole Beast’s daddy, The beast king. Went home to Dutch. Gave everything I stole to Dutch and begged him to take me back.” Arthur pointed to the three scars of his face. “Dutch backhanded me with his hand, rings cut up my face. Welcomed me back after a few seconds and told me. He didn’t need an omega, he needed an enforcer. If I wanted to stay I kept my damn legs closed and be a man. So…I did.” He rubbed the scars now. “It’s easier to just keep myself hidden than deal with shit. Male omegas ain’t exactly welcomed.”

“I’m sorry that happened to you Arthur, I hope I didn’t open up any old wounds.” Charles rubbed Arthur’s cheek with his thumb feeling those thin little scars. “Dose anyone know?” Charles just had to know, he wasn’t as curious as Arthur was about people but when it came to…

Arthur gave a small nuzzle into his hand before moving back a touch. “It’s fine, I’ve come to terms with it. Don’t get me wrong, I miss Issac, something fierce.” He finished up with the tea. “It’s just how it is, as for people known’in just a few. Dutch, Hosea, John and Abigail…Tilly was a little girl at the time but she remembers me feedin’ Issac.” He placed the lid on the tea tin. “I would appreciate it, if you kept this quite. I don’t need Micha or Bill pickin at me.” Arthur tapped his forehead. “Temper ya know.”

[taiturner]

#happy father's day TAISSA & SHAUNA, 2x06 "Qui"

[dawneternal]

And Yesterday You Were Here With Me

you were bigger than the whole sky / you were more than just a short time

✦ Azriel x Reader. Platonic Cassian x Reader, Nesta being a good friend.

✦ this one is a bit vulnerable to share. It's definitely something I wrote to process some of my own grief. (Hopefully it's not disrespectful to post this the day after mother's day) Take care of yourself and don't read if it will trigger you 💛

✦ Warnings: miscarriage, description of miscarriage/blood, grief and loss

✦ Read on AO3

You sit frozen, staring down at the crimson marbling the water in the toilet, struggling to breathe properly.

It was only last night that you had put the pieces together. Your late cycle, nausea, and fatigue. The strange gut feeling that something was off, but not in a bad way. In a new way - a different way. You immediately planned to try and see a healer here in the Day Court while on your mission with Cassian. That way you could return to Night and tell Azriel right away. You could barely sleep, excitement and nervousness filling every inch of your being as you tried to think up a clever or funny way to tell your mate.

And now all of those hopes and plans had crumbled, slipping through your fingers before you could catch them. Now, sitting on the toilet and feeling the cramps crashing through your body, you understood how quickly your heart had filled with love for this little possibility.

Before the full impact of it had even hit you, before you had even left the bathroom, you found yourself wishing you could skip ahead a month or a year. Because once the grief began, you knew it was going to be almost unbearable.

•✦•✦•✦•

You padded toward the door to the room next to yours, shifting your weight from foot to foot as you knocked. The door swung open wide and Cassian appeared. His smile quickly turned to confusion as he registered your bare legs, oversized t-shirt just barely covering your underwear. You had meant to put your shorts back on but they were forgotten on the bathroom floor in your flurry of emotion.

Cassian grasped your arm and pulled you into his room, looking both ways down the hall before he closed it behind him.

"What are you doing?" He asked in bewilderment, whirling around to look at you.

"We have to go right now. I need Azriel." You cursed your wavering voice. You were trying desperately to hold it together. Not to send anything down the bond and worry Azriel.

"What's wrong, sweetheart?" Cassian's face softened, confusion turning to concern as he inspected you for injury, eyes skimming over your trembling form, the hem of your shirt bunched in your fists.

"I-" You knew he was going to ask but the question broke you anyways. You slid to the floor, lip quivering. The thick carpet was rough against your bare legs.

A sob wracked your body as the grief began, dark churning waves swallowing you whole. There was no stopping it, no turning back. Almost immediately, you felt a questioning tug on the golden thread in your chest.

Cassian crouched beside you, elbows resting on his knees. He didn't speak for a moment, trying to decipher the scene, grimacing at the sorrowful cry you let out.

"Your cycle?" He asked, his voice gravelly. You could tell from the worry in his tone that he already knew the answer but you shook your head anyways. He could smell it. The blood and the loss.

"How long have you...." His voice drifts off, like the rest of the question would only break you further. It probably would.

"Last night," You manage between gasps, tears wetting your face and neck, leaving dark spots on your collar.

"Are you in any pain?" He asks, and you nod again, clutching your lower stomach in answer.

Cassian stands and disappears. You can hear sounds of rummaging, zipping and scraping as you bury your face in your hands. Azriel's questioning pulls are growing closer together and more frantic.

Cassian returns with his pack slung over his shoulder, a pair of his sweatpants in hand. He grabs your shoulders gently and pulls you up. Then he holds out the sweatpants for you to step into, letting you brace yourself on his shoulders. He scoops you up without a word and you let your head fall against his shoulder, tears never ceasing.

•✦•✦•✦•

The House of Wind comes into view and Cassian can make out Azriel, pacing back and forth on the balcony. As soon as you are close enough, his shadows dart toward you in the sky, circling to check for injuries. You're not sure what they'll tell him.

Cassian lands smoothly and you are instantly handed to Azriel, his familiar warmth pulling a fresh wave of tears down your face. His anxious face is looking down at you and can't stand the tenderness, letting your eyes close. He's whispering with Cassian and you can't hear what they're saying inside your bubble of grief. But you feel a wave of sorrow through the bond and you silently thank Cassian for saying the words you couldn't conjure.

Azriel is taking you inside, holding you tightly against him, and you can hear the sound of beating wings as Cassian takes off again.

You hear the thud of Az's boots on the floor, then you're shifting in his arms as he sits cross legged on the couch and pulls you into his lap. You pull your knees to your chest and he wraps his arms around you.

"I'm sorry," you croak, voice hoarse from crying.

"You have nothing to be sorry for," His deep voice rumbles in his chest and the vibrations are comforting. His fingers are running through your hair, soft kisses pressed to your forehead. His other hand rubs your back in soothing circles.

Cassian returns soon with Madja, carrying her bag of supplies. You are looking deliberately anywhere but at their faces, not able to bear any sadness or compassion you might find. Such shame has enveloped you, but you're not even sure what for. You don't have the words for it.

She lets you stay in Azriel's arms as she examines you. Her hands glow with a golden aura as she moves them up and down, then centers them over your lower abdomen. You feel a strange tingling as her magic pulses through you, returning back to her with information about your condition. The room is silent as she works, watching and waiting.

When Madja is done, she runs a tender hand across your forehead, brushing your hair back from your face.

"You were right, dear," She says, her voice is kind but with no pity like you feared, "A miscarriage. An early one, likely about six to eight weeks. They're sadly very common in early pregnancy."

Azriel's hands tighten around you, your gaze too focused on the healer to see the tremble of his bottom lip. But Cassian sees it, and it splits his heart in two. Madja places a few vials on the coffee table and continues,

"Take one of these a day and they'll help with the pain and ward off infection. You'll want to keep in mind that your emotions may be a little high as your hormones even back out. And plan for your next cycle to be extra heavy. I'd like to see you around that time to make sure all is well."

You nod, biting your bottom lip to keep the crying from starting again. You want to ask her about the overwhelming sorrow you feel, if that's normal or not. But she presses a hand to your cheek and gives you a sad smile and you understand that she knows what you're feeling.

"I'm sorry for your loss, my dear," she says, then turns to Azriel and presses her hand to his face in turn, "I know that you don't need my warning, because you're a good man and you'll support her. But don't for a moment let her believe that this was her fault. There was nothing anyone could have done, and now she needs to rest and heal. And you take care of yourself, as well."

You look up at Azriel's face and watch him give a grave nod. He looks down at you, a few tears falling down his face, and you wipe them away as your own begin again.

•✦•✦•✦•

The next few days are spent in your shared room, curled up in the bed. Mourning, crying, sometimes smiling and laughing over daydreams of what could have been. Your beautiful possibility.

Your fear of Azriel's reaction entirely melts away. He grieves with you, tenderly reassures you that you've done nothing wrong. That when the time comes again you'll make a wonderful mother and he'll welcome the new life with you. He begins the habit of calling your lost one your little star. It somehow soothes and sharpens the pain at the same time.

You did not know it was possible to miss something you'd only had for such a short time. To feel such an unbearable amount of love for something you had not even held in your arms. And you knew the love would not go away even though your little star was no longer with you. All of that love would stay in your heart until your last day on earth, and beyond that it would burn in the sky as a glittering star when you were finally reunited with your baby. Someday, you would grow around the grief and your body would learn to hold it with less pain, but until then your very bones would ache with the loss.

•✦•✦•✦•

When you're ready, a handful of your friends gather with you to say goodbye. Feyre, Cassian, and Nesta follow you to the Sidra under the full moon. They were the only ones who knew, yet. In time you'd tell all of them, but it was all too fragile still. You couldn't even think the words without a lump forming in your throat. Rhys knew and had sent his condolences, and you suspected his absence was out of respect to your privacy.

Nesta and Feyre had helped you begin to return to normal, coming over in the morning to braid your hair and make sure you had breakfast. Even though Azriel had never left your side. Slowly, the shock faded away into the dull ache of mourning, the numbness in your body giving way to the aftermath of its loss.

Today, Nesta held your coat out for you and tucked your scarf around your neck. When you slip your hands into your pockets, you find something waiting for you. You pull it out, holding it flat in your palm to examine.

A bracelet. Strands of light pink, light blue, and gold woven together. A tiny golden star charm dangled from it. You look at Nesta with a wobbly chin, eyes glistening, and she smiles, giving your arm a squeeze.

Now, you kneel at the edge of the Sidra, near the mouth of the river pouring into the sea. The moonlight dances on the gently flowing water, stars glimmering as far as the eye could see.

You murmur your prayer and place your lantern in the water, watching the current carry it away to the sea. Azriel sits beside you and pulls you tight against his side, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek. His tears are cold against your skin. You watch the little light drift away toward the horizon, staying until the cold of the ground seeps through your shoes and the lantern has long since disappeared.

Mother hold you, little star. May she greet you with all the love and tenderness I cannot give you, and may she keep you close until I leave this earth and come to meet you. As long as I am breathing, you will not leave my heart for a moment.

[selkiewife]

No one sings songs about them.

[aashiqeddiediaz]

do you ever think about how much it hurts eddie when chris expresses how much of his mother he's beginning to lose. because we know that he does his best to keep her memory alive, that they go to her grave and they talk openly about her. but there are things that eddie will never be able to replicate for him - her voice, the way she smelled, the way she'd walk towards him, how she felt when she held him close, etc - and chris will continue to lose those details even if eddie talked about shannon 24/7 for the rest of his life.

that is a sort of helplessness that i don't think anyone talks about enough, and that makes eddie's expression when he overhears chris talking to buck all the more wounded

[al-luviec]

day 2 - energy / life / green

[ofmermaidstories]

do u think u’d forgive ur pro hero husband if he and ur preteen were out one day without u and something went wrong that resulted in a city-wide emergency? something that resulted in his pro hero best friend (ashen face, shiny eyes) coming to get u? something that his pro hero best friend kept telling you he was sorry, im so sorry over and over again for? something that has him leading u to ur very alive, very devastated and very minus one child pro hero husband? or do u reckon that’d be the beginning of the end for pretending u play by the same rules as everyone else does?

[your-unfriendlyghost]

I’ve been seeing a lot of things talking abt how Steve’s dad being an alcoholic and is this confirmed or smth or did we all just become a hive mind on this??? Because it does say in the book that Steve doesn’t have the greatest relationship with his dad but I don’t remember anything about alcoholism? Did I miss something In the text or was this something confirmed outside of the book/movie I don’t know about??

Good question. Instinctually I wanted to say it was canon, because it seems so engraved into his character for me, but yeah no I just re-skimmed the book for it- All it says is that Steve's dad “...told him about once a week to get out and never come back. It kind of bugs Steve, even if his old man does give him five or six bucks the next morning to make up for it." (Pg. 105)

So yeah I guess that's just a headcannon then/mass hallucination lol.

I mean, it is a solid theory, considering alcoholism is something that could easily lead to erratic behavior like that- I mean, kicking your son out at night but feeling guilty(?) enough to give him $5/$6 by morning? (Keep in mind that's roughly $50/$60 in today's money!) It definitely seems like the sort of actions that'd be brought on by angry drunkenness and then regretted* once he's sober, so I can see why folks flocked to it. But uh yeah it's not technically canon! Ig it's just as possible that his dad just has serious rage issues, completely on his own.

*I'm using "regret" loosely here. To me the money is because of regret, but one could argue that it's more just to keep Steve quiet. I'm gonna stick to thinking of it as guilt though, because the messy human-ness of that is more interesting to me personally

Speaking of which, I think a similar mass hallucination is the idea that Steve's mom abandoned him! This one's less extreme as I think more folks know it isn't canon, but it does still feel relevant to the topic lol. This is a headcannon I only go for sometimes, but a lotta us treat it like it’s canon when it really isn’t. She’s never mentioned, for all we know she’s like, mom of the year or whatever. (Well ig not mom of the year considering Steve’s always being kicked out…but that’s another can of worms lol)

[vixenihy]

Reunion: A Flash Fiction

Summary: October 17, 1963. Mrs. Kennedy finally returns from her trip to Greece, and her husband is waiting for her and ready to welcome her home.

Tags/Notes + Pairing: jfk x jackie kennedy, mentions of past infidelity, improved relationship, loss of child mention, caroline and john jr. are in it too lol.

Word Count: 897 words

A/N: this one is shorter and a bit messier than my last fic :,( i’ve been having quite a bit of brain fog so unfortunately some things may be a little off. sorry guys!! i hope you enjoy it <3 divider was made by @/ aquazero. hope you guys caught the jackie 2016 reference ;)

Jack sits in the backseat of the car, nervously playing with his hands in the darkness. Every so often, he looks out onto the empty runway only illuminated by blinking lights. Jackie will be here any minute now, but why do those minutes have to pass so slowly?

The past few weeks had been awfully rough without Jackie; The depression and headaches he acquired from his withdrawals after finally being able to stay abstinent and cut himself away from the rest of his ‘women’ was rough. He’d been so used to that lifestyle, he never realized how addicted he was until he found himself desperately writing a letter at midnight to a woman he had ended his affair with over a year prior. When he read the letter the next morning, he embarrassingly shoved it in the bottom of his desk with the intention of discarding it.

Having to continue to mourn the loss of Patrick on his own after Jackie left was even worse. Sure, he had dealt with plenty of things on his own before, and Jackie had been there for him up until the day she left; but there were times at work where he felt so alone. He didn’t dare bother his wife about it when she was recuperating from the loss. So when he got off the phone with Jackie, there was no one to call, no one to talk to, and no one to see. Just cabinet members and paperwork. When he cried in his wife’s arms that day, he felt as if his eyes were opened to a new world. To be comforted by someone he loved dearly and not shunned for crying made him feel…loved… Though this was an incredible realization for him, he didn’t feel comfortable opening himself up like that with anyone else; at least not yet. Joan was there for him when he secluded himself in his room and didn’t come out, and he’d gotten a few sympathy calls here and there; but it just wasn’t the same as that morning when he felt Jackie lovingly wrap her arms around him as he let his emotions run like a river.

“Daddy, look!” Caroline exclaims, pointing out the window with that innocent smile she shares with her father. “I think I see mommy!” She continues, climbing over her dad and brother to see the plane landing in the once empty runway. Jack can’t help but smile at her excitement and

“I think you’re right, Buttons! Lets go out there and meet her. But stay close to me okay? Don’t run out in front of the plane before they put the stairs down.” He instructs, opening the car door and stepping out before taking Caroline and John’s hands into his.

“I wanna go on the plane!!” John shouts, pulling against his fathers hand as they approach the runway. Jack does his best to hide his own excitement as the stairs are placed in front of the door. And as soon as the door opens, Jack bends down as best he can.

“Go on, go give mommy a hug.” He tells them before rising and letting them rush off ahead of him and climb the stairs.

As Jack follows his children, he finally comes face to face with the woman he missed so dearly.

Jackie looks just as beautiful as she did when she left, and as she rises from greeting Caroline and John to look him in the eyes, she looks just as happy to see him as he does for her.

Without a word, Jack leans over and takes Jackie in his arms. His back issues and lack of experience in physical contact makes his hugs quite stiff, but Jackie doesn’t mind one bit.

Jackie pulls back slightly and wraps her arm around her husbands neck, pulling him in for a kiss.

“I missed you, Jack.” She sighs, shuffling the two of them away from the open door so that they can’t be photographed by the swarm of paparazzi outside and holding him close.

“I missed you too, Jackie…” Jack smiles, letting go of his wife and glancing at the open door leading out the crowds of photographers awaiting the First Lady’s return.

“You’ve got quite an audience out there…Are you ready?” He asks teasingly, brushing a lock of hair out of Jackie’s eyes.

“Of course, I love crowds.” She replies, her voice laced with sarcasm. She pulls away from her husband and reveals herself to the sea of cameras. They run their films and snap their flashbulbs at the family as they descend the stairs and make their way to the car waiting for them. Jackie is the first to enter the car, then the children, and finally Jack.

“It’s good to have you home, Mrs. Kennedy. Now, why don’t you tell me about Greece. I take it that you had a good time?” Jack teases, reaching his arm over their children clinging to their mother so that he can put his arm over her shoulder.

“You’ll know when we get home….” Jackie smiles back, giving her husband a discreet wink before looking down at Caroline and John, who had managed to fall asleep in their mothers lap. “But first, I think it’s time for bed.” She finishes quietly just as the car comes to a stop in front of the White House…

[cellberry]

"You named their duo name after them both murdering a child!?" - Aimsey

[jokerislandgirl32]

New Beginnings: A Wild Violet One Shot

Happy Christmas Eve Everyone! I hope all who celebrate, and don’t celebrate, have a wonderful and safe day!

I decided to repost a fic that I originally posted last year on here to my fanfic sites, with some slight edits. The fic is entitled: New Beginnings: A Wild Violet One Shot. I’ve been super hesitant to post any writing, but I thought this would be a cute little piece for Christmas Eve.

This fic takes place shortly before Zach and Violet find out they are going to have Varina, so it’s a very bittersweet moment when Violet’s battling her own fears prior to telling Zach. Below you can find a summary, list of warnings, and the links to the story! Please feel free to comment/let me know what you think!

Summary

Zach Varmitech and his new bride Violet enjoy the beauty of the winter season in spite of a tragic loss and Violet’s persistent illness. Zach is determined to keep Violet cooped up and get her to a doctor immediately, but Violet knows that what’s really happening isn’t an illness at all: it’s a new beginning.

Warnings

Mentions of loss of child/stillbirth, mentions of pregnancy, morning sickness, light angst, one mild curse word, kissing/makeout session, and a few suggestive comments (but nothing explicit/nsfw).

Links

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[asmodeus-682]

TFP OPTIRATCH + BABY GRIMMY AU

Content/Trigger warning: mentions of multiple past miscarriages!! If this makes you uncomfortable do not read! You are responsible for your own comfort not me

Anyways, onto the explanation

Optimus had known Ratchet struggled a lot in the carrying department when it came to cybertronian reproduction, the poor mech having experienced multiple miscarriages during previous relationships. So Optimus was shocked (understandably) upon Ratchet asking him to spark him.

Ratchet spent most of the pregnancy working as usual, just with less shouting as to avoid any potential stress that could lead to harming his Prime's offspring. However when it came to the 6 month mark, Optimus demanded for Ratchet to go on break until the sparkling is born. Which Ratchet complies to surprisingly well.

Finally after years of suffering with losses when carrying; Ratchet manages to birth a healthy baby boy whom he and Optimus call Grimlock. Named after an old friend who passed away in the war. And while raising Grimlock was a struggle for the two, they loved him regardless and never failed to let it known that even if the boy wasn't as smart as Ratchet and Optimus; Grimlock was loved and cherished by all bots within the base

[sentientsky]

Hozier, "Francesca"

that's his daughter! his kid! u don't mess with his kid or he'll [checks smudged writing on hand] commit acts of extreme violence with no regard for his own safety (good for him)

[mikaikaika]

Dude I'm also thinking of how Pepito and Sunny are gonna take the news. It's been established that Empanada is the eldest and used to be the protector of the Trio but the one time she needed protection, Sunny and Pepito couldn't be there for her :(((((

[sinclairmaxwellao3]

The Abyss Stares Back Eclipse/Ruin's Pups, surviving and lost

This doesn't include their pups from the main Abyss story, just the past pups!

For those who are curious, here is a list of Ruin and Eclipse's pups!

Surviving: Elianna (the eldest, a Dragon Leviathan), Lingan (Mesmer Leviathan), Finny and Bede (twins, Dragon Leviathans)

Died as Eggs: Vera, Tide, Daylight, Wingheart, Lightly, Aurora, Comet, Skadi

Died After: Nightrise and Starset (died from maternal stress), Memory (died from being injured during an attack by a rival male Mesmer intent on taking Ruin for his own), Echo (lived the longest- 3 years old; died of sickness from the falling of the Aurora)