#tw idfk anymore.

[iamamon123]

Warning, suicide wish, hallucinations, etc

Everything here is serious, I might sometimes joke around, but not anymore, I'm serious.

I have little shits in my vision ever since the last time I saw that bastard

They won't let me sleep from fucking paranoia and my autocannibalism issues are coming back

I've been trying so hard to just get off of many obsessions, but I just can't. I'm so tired, so fucking tired, I just want to end myself and bring an end to everything. My temper is getting out of hand, and I'm starting to lash out at people, even people I love.

I just hate it

Why do I have to be so sensitive all the time

I feel like I can't even move without putting on my binder because it's the only thing that makes me feel safe. I'm so scared of reaching out to people because every time I did before, they always brushed it off.

I don't want to sound "emo" or like an edgelord but it truly just feels like no one understands me.

I'm so tired of living, but I can't bring myself to actually end it because I always end up somehow wussing out. Why can no one take me seriously other then my own fucking brain.

I even named the voice of my brain Brian because I was so tired of just feeling so alone. Now I don't want to be with anyone, I hate being with people because they fucking annoy me and make me emotional. I feel like I'm unpredictable to myself because I don't know how to describe myself all because I react differently to so many things I can't even remember and it's confusing me.

I want to hug someone so bad that I'm even playing with my own hair and pretending that I'm laying in someone's lap, but I don't want to be with people. At this point, I don't even care if what I hug is a corpse, I already hug plushies, so there's no difference in dead bodies Instead.

They're both unmoving and not annoying, corpses just don't last long, and decay. They make more mess once their organs start failing, which happens like 12 hours after the death, and how am I even supposed to get corpses??

Honestly, I think maybe just a mute SO would be better, no sound and less annoying. I can also make them play with my hair, and they last longer.

I can't even bring myself to eat anymore. My stomach hurts so much. I just want to rip it out, I'm tired of having organs. They don't make me feel full. They keep me alive. I don't like that.

I'm just so tired of everything. My parents don't believe in psychiatrists, so every day I'm just asking myself what the heck is the problem with me because I have so many symptoms to so many things I've read about and i feel like I'm fucked up and i want to fix that but it doesn't let me, I just want to cry.

[newpartnerincrime]

coachella :)

[pronounrespector]

Im sad enough to request shadoune cradling sapnap's frozen body and wailing like that scene from lord of the rings with eomer finding eowyn

anon you kinda cooked with this ngl

Ive never watched lord of the rings before so I had to look for a reference picture but holy shit anon

[nihilean]

i'm sorry, i love you, i'm sorry

tw/ self harm wounds

i wish i could make it easier, i'm sorry, i love you, i'm sorry

[tpup]

I feel so guilty ordering groceries online; it's more expensive. It's unnecessary, I can go to the store and save money? I have food. I should eat it.

Rice, pasta, any density feels like concrete. Fruits hurt, sharp pain in my stomach, sickly, pain twists down into my guts. A clementine had me in fetal position on the ground last week. I don't have the energy to stand long enough to prepare food that needs more than the microwave. I don't have the brainpower to think through the steps most of the time.

I don't know what the fuck is wrong and it's terrible and I can't keep up with just eating this one brand of dairy-free yogurt but it's the only thing I can eat much of without feeling ill, being in pain, or immediately falling asleep & being unable to think all day. It's kind of ridiculous. It's like, $7 a day of yogurt, and it's so hard to find in stores, and it's never on instacart.

I want a fucking burger with cheese and fries but no where has gluten free buns and vegan meat and non dairy cheese and the grease makes me feel nauseous anyhow. It's so expensive to buy the things to make them myself, and they taste like shit because when you take out gluten, egg, dairy, red meats, albums, acidity, grease, plenty of spices, food mostly sucks.

[thelunarsystemwrites]

yo? U been gone for awhile, u good?

I wanna kill myself, how's that for a answer?

[butiknowiloatheyou]

lol

[cavity-collector]

i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

[moonfall666]

you experience one (1) bug infestation in your early teens and it gives you lifetime fear and paranoia 🙄

[asksebplush]

I cant wait for snow so i can bury you in it

Make seb plush popsicle

No. Organ Popsicle. I'm taking your organs instead and putting them in ice. Snack for later. Rejoice! 😹

[hawaii-official]

I’m actually going to throw up what the fuck is wrong with me

[halfadeckofcards]

Duality of man (artist)

[dalesramblingsblog]

I really don't like being so damn spiteful and miserable at the moment but it hurts to have one of my few moments of respite from the grinding hell of being chronically ill turn into a constant battle of "Oh boy I wonder when the next spot of misogyny will crop up."

I don't know man, maybe I've just become too mean. It could just be that I'm a miserable old shit who deserves to rot away in chronically ill squalor and drown in his own filth, but who bloody knows anymore.

[madgoat212]

why did this make me start crying

yoinked from this pintrest post

[applejongho]

thinking about dropping a class 🤪🤡

[malware-bytez]

Anyone know why my step mother thinks hatsune miku killed herself???