#tw autocannibalism

[calilks]

cromch :3c

[artificed-blossom]

straight up why the fuck did jimmy do that. WHAT was feeding curly his OWN LEG going to do

[tea-and-secrets]

i eat my scabs. sorry

i forgive you

[someonehasgiventheratsapen]

Goretober day 1: rotting

Ok so I'm posting this like a week late (whoopsies) bc I was super busy haha

Trigger warnings: blood, gore, rot, bugs, torture, force-feeding, (edit bc i forgot) autocannibalism, self-harm scars below the cut

This is my oc Wyatt, from a WIP ive been working on for like three years now bc i keep forgetting to work on it.

Yeah so the story with this is that he was being tortured by Anthony, the TV show host ghost or whatever, and one of things Anthony did was cut off Wyatt's hand, let it rot for a few days, and then force feed it to him. In the actual story he did it a bit slower than in this comic---I think it was one finger at a time, then the palm in chunks---but for the sake of brevity I drew it this way ^_^

[m--rtyr]

Not enough people lean into the horror of super regeneration enough. Like I need a character put into a situation where they have no access to food and as a last resort have to do auto-cannibalization. Where the answer to "How did you survive?" Is "I heal fast" and that is the only answer until people realize why it's the only answer.

It's a terrifying concept that I hope you can comment on.

tw, Cannibalism/Autocannibalism (cannibalism of the self), starvation and malnutrition.

The thing is, your body will begin to auto-cannibalise as a way to heal itself, even without your direct intervention. If you are lacking nutrients, like calcium, your body will draw the calcium from your teeth and make your teeth rot and decay in order to feed the calcium to the rest of your body. But, if you regenerate, then your teeth come back, and your body can take them again, and again, and again. And it's not like your body will stop, it needs the nutrients, and it'll never be enough to just siphon them from your body, you'll keep losing hair and teeth, and your body will be so broken to try and fix itself because that's the only way it knows how to heal certain issues.

Your body is built to eat itself when it's distressed. It's why you suffer from frostbite, your blood is literally taken away from your extremities to protect your vital organs, your body will sacrifice parts of itself to secure the longevity of the whole organism. Fingers don't matter when it's the heart that pumps blood.

So even if they refused and held off for as long as they could before physically biting at their own flesh, they were already consuming themselves long before that, likely in a long, painful cycle of their body destroying itself and breaking down only to reset and have it all happen again.

But that would probably be like a long-term starvation situation.

[localhypnoarts]

Omnomnomnom tastes like fish (w/ lemon)

[thetasteofbeautyandlove]

Tw: Autocannibalism, self harm, gore, dehumanization, past child abuse

Coming outside was a mistake.

They’d thought they’d be fine, but the moment they heard a child crying somewhere on the street, it all came flooding back.

The dark, cold days and nights locked in the basement. Their parents digging a blade into their skin to cut out chunks of their own child’s flesh.

They remember the heartbroken cries of their five year old self as their parents hurt their only child. It’s not like Niku could feel physical pain, but being hurt by their parents crushed little them. That simple sound made them feel like they were back there.

They barely remember getting back to XY, slamming the door of their room shut when they entered. Taberu was staying in Shark’s room currently, so they were alone in there.

Within seconds, agonizing screams were leaving their throat, their nails digging into their skin, drawing blood instantly.

The color crimson had always been so sickeningly comforting to them.

Their hands slammed into their head as they cried, nails scratching and tearing at all skin it can reach, the warm feeling of their own blood on their own skin.

Wet. Blood was always wet.

They liked how blood stayed consistent. It was always wet when it left a body.

The pressure of their nails was nice too. It reminded them they existed. That was part of the reason they love when Taberu bites them. The pressure is so comforting to them.

They continue digging into their skin as they look around their room in a haze, grabbing the first sharp object they could find and digging it into their skin in place of their nails. It made the blood flow much faster.

More blood meant more of that grounding feeling.

They couldn’t tell how deep the wounds went, since they couldn’t feel the pain. Was there even a too deep when their parents had cut through muscle before? Maybe to bone, but they’d never gotten that far. Eventually, in turn with digging into their flesh, they bite into their arms and tear at their cut up flesh.

They’d usually only cut out pieces, it was how their parents would do it, but they couldn’t focus enough to care, their brain all foggy. The only thing their mind could think about was the feeling of blood coating their skin.

Eventually, their body falls to the floor, their chest feeling all tight and their vision blurry. They had no clue how long they’d been doing that, but they were practically covered in blood, with scratches and cuts covering their arms, legs, and stomach, bites littering their arms. They could taste blood in their mouth too, so they could assume they’d eaten some of their own flesh at multiple points. They instantly bury their head into their blood soaked hands.

Why were they like this? Why couldn’t they stop?

At least it wasn’t another person again… could they even be seen as a person at this point…?

[dorian-gaye]

Hunger.

Posted 21st January, 2024

[sir-qwillian-ferne]

OC lore for Avemour! (Not all up to date, copy pasted from my lore doc)

TWs: Child abuse, child neglect, domestic abuse, child murder, mutilation, cannibalism, self harm, 80% of the parent figures are terrible (I like my parents, idk why I did this), autocannibalism, species-ism (pure blood vs muggle born type deal), genocide, self hatred, and yeah there's more but it's implied at this point

Avemour was born to a high ranking pure-blooded false-angel lord who had quite a bit of territory, very respected man, and a demon lady. They were not supposed to exist - the product of a poorly thought out one night stand. Hybrids were very rarely successful, and even then they didn’t often survive very long, so it was not a concern.

In exchange for keeping quiet, to save his rank of ‘purity’, the false-angel lord allowed the demon lady to stay as a servant, provided basic necessities for her and the children.

Yes, children.

There were twins: Euka and Aveliss. Euka was named by the false-angel lord, and Aveliss by the demon lady. The demon lady wished to name Euka Avemour instead - as a sort of twin thing with Avemour and Aveliss - but the false-angel lord wouldn’t allow it. The children, once old enough to manage (six or seven), were given tasks of their own, treated as servants as well. They were forced to grow up young, essentially, but their mother would take responsibility if they ever failed their tasks.

Unfortunately, when Euka and Aveliss were between nine and eleven years of age, their mother was executed in front of them by humans under accusations of being a witch or something equivalent (this is like 2000 years ago and I’m not familiar enough with human history to say for sure but, yeah). Aveliss took the protector role for Euka, making sure to keep them safe. They’re mature for their age (because constant scrutiny does that to ya).

One of the false-angel lord’s enemies (he has a lot, he’s as terrible a person as he is a father) managed to somehow discover the children’s existence and genealogy. They wrongly assumed that the false-angel lord was keeping them as servants and hidden on the down-low to protect them, and decided to kill them to send a message. And so, on their fourteenth birthday, Euka discovered Aveliss’s mutilated corpse in the kitchen.

To add salt to the wound, the false-angel lord forced Euka to clean up the corpse and blood. What a great birthday present.

Aveliss’s grave, hidden deep within the forests of the Farlyxe (False-angel lord’s last name.) territory is the beginning of present Avemour’s rainbow forest. More on that later.

After Aveliss’ death, the false-angel lord kept a closer eye on Euka, essentially forcing them to become his personal assistant just to make sure he didn’t lose another child. Not because he cared, but rather because it was blow to his pride for his child, as illegitimate as the child was, to get killed. He eventually discovered Euka’s unique ability to sense emotions and used it to his advantage in meetings with other rulers.

Another servant of the false-angel lord's, an odd creature named Charlotte, became Euka's friend. Because I have a headache right now and can't be bothered to add more detail, Euka pretty much ate him because they were starving.

Euka met a demon prince this way named Zelzimonte. The false-angel lord despised demons, but Zelzimonte’s mother was a powerful ruler, and thus the lord was cordial with her [at least, he was going to be until he could take over her empire]. Euka and Zelzimonte were both instructed to learn more about their respective enemies, but became close friends.

Meanwhile, the false-angel lord marries another high ranking false-angel and has a child named Veroziel. His mother kinda just exists. She isn't important. Euka is the de-facto babysitter, and they do not like children, especially Veroziel, because Veroziel got the childhood they were supposed to have.

As Euka grew older and their demon horns + wings started to grow in, the false-angel lord tore off the wings and snapped the horns. Euka was left passed out in a pool of their own blood.

At least they have Zelzimonte. But as you’ve noticed, there is a pattern with the people Euka cares about getting hurt, so this happiness doesn’t last long. Zelzimonte got captured by nonhuman hunters (he's a prince but he's not very smart, and also false angel and demon culture both have the mindset of survival of the fittest) and so he ended up selling out Euka to save his own skin.

And that is how Euka lost their angel wings.

Euka eventually slowly got closer to Veroziel, and realized that the false-angel lord wasn't treating him very well either. Sure, Veroziel was the heir and was treated significantly better than Euka, but was still rather neglected and emotionally berated often. When Euka was around 23 (still a teen for false-angels, not adult) and Veroziel 7, Euka ran away with Veroziel. They got a stable job, friends, a babysitter….

And one day they came home to find the babysitter dead and Veroziel crying in the false-angel lord's grip. Euka was an important tool, with their emotion sensing capabilities, and their sad excuse for a father wouldn't just let him go that easily.

In order to ensure Veroziel's safety, Euka was forced to sign a magic contract that they would work for the false-angel lord. In turn, Veroziel would be unharmed.

At some point, Veroziel's mother died to illness, the false angel lord remarried. Three more children were born: Ertix and Quinceri, twins, and then Azailenne.

Euka killed the false angel lord to protect the rest of their siblings. Their stepmother, who was abused by and terrified of the false angel lord, helped them cover it up. Euka took on the new name of Avemour, the name they were meant to have, as well as their mother's last name. Euka Farlyxe was dead in the eyes of the world. The illegitimate child Avemour Succulen was 'discovered'.

In present, even Veroziel has long since forgotten Euka.

Oh and at some point Avemour fell in love with a human but when the human found out Avemour wasn't human tried to kill them because he turned out to be a nonhuman hunter.

Euka destroyed a town at one point under order of their father.

The rainbow forest is Avemour's little slice of territory. It covers the ruins of the town and centers at Aveliss' grave.

[sleepingsocialite]

i do love me some autocannibalism

[iamamon123]

Warning, suicide wish, hallucinations, etc

Everything here is serious, I might sometimes joke around, but not anymore, I'm serious.

I have little shits in my vision ever since the last time I saw that bastard

They won't let me sleep from fucking paranoia and my autocannibalism issues are coming back

I've been trying so hard to just get off of many obsessions, but I just can't. I'm so tired, so fucking tired, I just want to end myself and bring an end to everything. My temper is getting out of hand, and I'm starting to lash out at people, even people I love.

I just hate it

Why do I have to be so sensitive all the time

I feel like I can't even move without putting on my binder because it's the only thing that makes me feel safe. I'm so scared of reaching out to people because every time I did before, they always brushed it off.

I don't want to sound "emo" or like an edgelord but it truly just feels like no one understands me.

I'm so tired of living, but I can't bring myself to actually end it because I always end up somehow wussing out. Why can no one take me seriously other then my own fucking brain.

I even named the voice of my brain Brian because I was so tired of just feeling so alone. Now I don't want to be with anyone, I hate being with people because they fucking annoy me and make me emotional. I feel like I'm unpredictable to myself because I don't know how to describe myself all because I react differently to so many things I can't even remember and it's confusing me.

I want to hug someone so bad that I'm even playing with my own hair and pretending that I'm laying in someone's lap, but I don't want to be with people. At this point, I don't even care if what I hug is a corpse, I already hug plushies, so there's no difference in dead bodies Instead.

They're both unmoving and not annoying, corpses just don't last long, and decay. They make more mess once their organs start failing, which happens like 12 hours after the death, and how am I even supposed to get corpses??

Honestly, I think maybe just a mute SO would be better, no sound and less annoying. I can also make them play with my hair, and they last longer.

I can't even bring myself to eat anymore. My stomach hurts so much. I just want to rip it out, I'm tired of having organs. They don't make me feel full. They keep me alive. I don't like that.

I'm just so tired of everything. My parents don't believe in psychiatrists, so every day I'm just asking myself what the heck is the problem with me because I have so many symptoms to so many things I've read about and i feel like I'm fucked up and i want to fix that but it doesn't let me, I just want to cry.

[reese-is-dum]

Abt to make ur day bad. There's a person on twitter who ate their own nipples and now i fear for the new ones.

today i learned nipples grow back and now have to figure out what to do with this information

[worms-and-apples]

recently found an old scrap of writing on how it feels to eat one's self!

"He quickly grows bored of the taste, and chews his way into his fingers, the bone splintering.

Now this, this he seems to find heavenly.

He keeps biting down, the sickening wet crunch of the apple and his flesh mixing together. The air doesn't smell sweet anymore, rather metallic and utterly organic.

The blood drips down his face, mixing with the juice of the apple, but he does not stop. He keeps chewing and chewing, until the apple is gone and he is chewing down his own arm, the tendons and muscles severing with one strong bite."

[tea-and-secrets]

if i get top surgery do you guys think theyll let me eat them after ive read some stories about performance artists eating parts of their own bodies after surgic interventions and apparently its legal so idk i feel like it would be funny

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[mrmushroom1031]

I got a paint thing for Christmas so here's a painting I made of Snow White + the reel I posted here at 3am of me painting

I swear on my life it wasn't planned there's content in the video

TW: BODY HORROR, AUTOCANNIBALISM, BLOOD, HUMAN HEART

[thetasteofbeautyandlove]

OOC - Aftermath of the Niku angst fic. They’re not doing well