#tw Medical Mention

[domina-honoribila]

My daughter cut her finger really badly and we're in the ER, please keep her in your prayers. She may have severed a tendon.

Her name is Maria.

Update: she needs surgery on Friday to repair the tendon. She's only 4.

Update Two: she will not need surgery! They think it will heal on its own. Thanks for the prayers!

[griffinkid]

Putting my medication in my emotional support plushie's backpack. I may be a genius, or silly for not thinking of it sooner

[zuzsenpai]

medical stuff update (positive)

So uhhhh there's apparently nothing seriously wrong with me, according to blood tests, an X-ray, a CT scan, an ultrasound, an MRI, and a sleep study. No cancerous tumor in my clavicle (it's apparently just asymmetrical bone growth possibly caused by some visible arthritis). No lymphoma (the lymph nodes are normal, just swollen forever apparently). No Lyme disease (bugs have not betrayed me. thank you bugs). No sleep apnea (I'm told that I show signs of not paralyzing during REM sleep, which could indicate a REM sleep disorder, but the doctor isn't concerned). No brain problems (I had an MRI of my brain I didn't tell you guys about because there was already way too much going on medically. Long story short, I suddenly developed increasingly painful motor tics back in October. But there's nothing abnormal about my brain, so they're not caused by a tumor at least. The doctor wanted to be sure. Most likely they are anxiety induced and possible adult onset OCD). And after everything, I'm told there are benign, normal cysts on my kidney and in my sinus. That's it.

I do still have a low white blood cell count. It's hard to diagnose post-viral syndrome, but I'm going to assume it's that and hope that I recover eventually. My extreme fatigue is still a thing, it's just not being caused by a serious thing. Which is good! This is all good news! I know it always sounds like I'm not feeling positive about good results, but I am! The problem is that the fatigue is real, the motor tics are real, and the symptoms of post-viral syndrome are real. I'm told to work with my therapist on taking steps toward lessening the motor tics, but MAN are they painful. I've had back pain for three weeks now simply because I can't stop twisting my body due to the tics.

But overall I'm thankful and relieved. I still want this all to be a wake-up call for me to get healthier and to enjoy life more. Taking any steps toward those goals is excruciating sometimes, so bear with me, friends! I love you all so much <3

[lefluoritesys]

I was going to answer a post about alters using deadnames a couple days ago, but I lost it, so here's a separate post about it.

It really depends on the circumstances and your unique situation when an alter wants to go by your body's deadname. And it's very nuanced, so there is no, "alters should(n't) go by your deadname."

We have three alters who go by variations of our deadname.

One of them goes by it because they are a little who formed with it during childhood and carried it for decades.

The other formed during a tough time medically and had to deal with one of our worst triggers every day for months. Our DN (deadnam) is not only all they knew of who they are, but since it was our legal name at the time, it's what doctors knew us by.

The third carries our proper DN, though we haven't met them yet and only know about them from gatekeepers.

We still have issues with our DN in English, but we've learned to accept those alters and their names through a bunch of reflection, getting their sides of the story and their reasoning, and learning to see our DN as a legal label to our body rather than something that shapes us.

Our advice is: have a sit-down conversation with the alter(s) who wants to go by your deadname and figure out why they want to use it. See if you can come to a compromise via a nickname, a different spelling of the name, etc. And also look at the factors such as, how long have they had it before, if at all? How old are they? How personal is it to them? Does it help their healing journey? Do y'all have issues with your name that you can solve and/or would benefit from solving, or not? Stuff like this matters. Communication is key.

-host, memory gatekeeper

[gargelyfloof118]

Vet came by yesterday afternoon.

It took some doing to get Seamus to lift his foot, according to Hubs. Doc thinks he might have either an abscess or laminitis. It's difficult to tell at the moment. She said he reacted to a test on the front of his hoof that would point to laminitis, but it's inconclusive without an xray.

For now, we are treating him as of it's an abscess until Monday. Seamus needs a 15 minute-a-day foot spa in a solution of warm water, Epsom salts, and iodine. We are hoping it helps to draw out an abscess and relieve pressure. If by Monday there is worse or no change, Doc will come back out for an xray.

We are hoping it's just an abscess. If he does have Laminitis, we need to make a hard decision. He already has one bad hoof in the front. It becomes a quality of life issue.

So we commence the 15 minute soak. We decided to do it with his evening feed since he stands very still for that. I think he enjoyed it, eventually. He stood very well for his first foot spa!

Today, he had his stall mucked and fresh hay and water supplied. He's still ready to leave his stall, but I think he's benefitting from his stall rest. Sheridan isn't pushing him around and it's giving him a much needed break.

[libertys-lovers]

Man…

It’s my wedding anniversary with Kara today…

And I have to celebrate it wisdom teeth bullshit??

Sick and twisted?? Don’t these little bastards know I had plans today? ✋😔

[faller-of-kharbranth]

(@screamsandshocks) Hey! How'd you become a Zoroark, did you have a weird dream too? -Decibel

Oh, hello?

Oh, I Fell into another reality and ended up slowly becoming a Zork from the exposure to Ultra Radiation.

I might’ve had a weird dream, but I was under anaesthesia at the time because of the pain, so…

[threelivesthreeworlds]

A bit of information that was confirmed about Xie Ming today when poking around the Bodhi Fate's Weibo Super Topic (no, I don't know why it ended up there instead of the Lotus Step):

Xie Ming is a phoenix, it seems likely her two children are as well.

Xie Guzhou and Xie Hualou were asexually conceived.

They are twins.

Xie Ming gave herself a c-section to get them out, without any pain medication.

Xiluo helped take care of the twins after their birth while Zuti helped Xie Ming with something.

[onlytiktoks]

[domina-honoribila]

I need your prayers, please. My husband has been hospitalized for a bipolar episode. This is probably the worst he's ever had.

[griffinkid]

I brought Birgitte to the doctor's this morning because I thought she was brave enough to protect me. Turns out she just sat there and let them steal vials of my blood and stick electrodes all over me. Thanks Birgitte. What am I paying you for??

All fine btw! few more tests to do but nothing immediately concerning 👍🏻

[zuzsenpai]

tw mentions of serious medical issues

So I haven't been talking about this on here because I feel like I talk about my medical problems too often and people probably get sick of them. But this one is scaring the shit out of me, so I'm trying to figure out what to do to calm myself down while I wait for further testing.

So back in October, I noticed some swollen lymph nodes in my neck. They are the same lymph nodes that always swell when I have a big pimple or cyst on my skin somewhere. And since I had just been dealing with some trauma to my ear (my piercing was actively trying to close up and I kept accidentally poking new bloody holes in my skin trying to find it, causing some minor infection). So I waited for the ear to heal and assumed the lymph nodes would go down.

They didn't go down. They go up and down over the course of the day, but they're always swollen. As time went on I worried I had lymphoma. In December I went to an ENT checkup for my thyroid (I had a benign lump in my thyroid back in 2020 and had half of my thyroid removed). I asked him about it, and he said it was unlikely to be lymphoma and probably just from my ear trauma like I originally suspected.

They stayed swollen though, even after my piercing healed completely. I had an annual checkup doctor's appointment scheduled for February, and figured I would tell my primary care doc. But then a few days ago I just happened to notice a pretty sizeable lump on my clavicle. I have no idea how long it's been there since I rarely touch that area of my body. But it's definitely a lump. I started to panic. My checkup was yesterday, so I told my doctor about the lymph nodes and the lump. She said usually she sees lumps like that in older patients with arthritis, but not someone my age.

She sent me for an immediate x-ray. Later in the day yesterday I got the results, which showed nothing abnormal other than enlarged lymph nodes. Which of course is now making me think I have lymphoma and it spread to a lymph node in my collarbone area. My doc is in the process of ordering a CT scan, and I asked her to order some bloodwork for my white cell count. We'll see how that goes. I HATE CT scans with contrast SO SO SO SO MUCH. My doctor said she needs to confirm with a radiologist if I need contrast, but I'm praying and hoping I don't.

In any case, I'm terrified. I can't sleep or get anything done at work. My anxiety is through the roof and coupled with lack of sleep and a depression spiral, I'm NOT doing well. AT ALL. I have a friend coming to visit in a little over a week, and I need to clean my whole fucking house. I have depression nests in every room and my house is just so god damn filthy. I have no mental or physical energy to clean, and right now I'm spiraling so bad that I'm worried this might be one of the last times I ever see this friend, if I do in fact have cancer.

I've gotten off easy with lumps before. Both my thyroid and my breast lumps were benign. But I can't assume it's always going to be that way. I'm just so painfully scared.

[levitheeldritch]

Back from the hoptal. Looked like a whole ass saw trap. Have to take antibiotics. But! We're good!!! It'll heal in a month or so.

[kollector-of-stims]

New stim shopping haul!!

Sorry for not making gifs recently, I've still been dealing with finger surgery and at-home antibiotics. I'm sure stitches and scars arent wanted in stim gifs so I've been waiting and healing.

Maybe when I can firmly hold my phone in the healing hand I can get back to it! And I'm getting good movement back with physical therapy! I can poke and prod sugar balls with that finger again!

[sapphire-heart-tippy]

I haven't really had the energy to answer any asks lately, I've been pretty busy with both personal projects and medical stuff (nothing serious, just need to talk to doctors about some things), plus endometriosis pms and preparing for pain x_x

I'll answer them when I get the chance though 💪 (but I won't answer them all at once, it'll be spread out over a day or two)